@Jude LOL. Well I guess it's cause, my cousin being the only "boy", and therefore treated like a prince all the time. But yeah, I wish I could tell him that too
@Adam speaking of social anxiety, I always felt like my sister was the more likeable one. Listen to this, I tell my cousin the same playful joke about her frizzy hair BEFORE my sister says it. She says nothing (believe me, it wasn't because she didn't hear me). My sister says the EXACT same thing I do, and my cousin laughs and playfully hugs her. Another thing, I got a part in my very first official musical Wicked, it's in the chorus, so, it's not like "WOW" but, for me, being extremely quiet and shy, and not having done any sort of musical thing before this, it WAS a big deal. I say it to three different people last night, my dad's girlfriend, my female cousin, and my sister, all at different times and none of them said a word. I even repeated myself to my dad's gf, in a queit room, and nothing. At all. It hurts, because when my sister says anything at all, and right away her "charm" gets everyone's attention. Often I feel like I wasn't even born and I'm just some ghost. A lot at home too, it feels like my dad is so proud of my sister, but I will just end up with a dead end job (he's actually said he thinks that out loud).