I'm glad you made it. I hope you're able to settle in and get everything set up with ease.

It's probably a good thing she is leaving for the weekend to visit her dad for his birthday, and since her ex friend no longer lives with us, I get to stay home and watch the dogs. Probably for he best. I know when I need to walk away to calm down, unfortunately my wife doesn't.

Welcome back and welcome aboard Lunaria!... Your life and days ahead are like wet clay to shape in the ways that best serve you! All good things to you as you make those artistic decisions... I know you will shape a masterpiece!

Onward Brave Sister!

Ashley 💕

Pine nut and  sage ravioli in ricotta and red pepper pesto 

I'm trying to remain calm and try to stay in a place love and understanding. But I feel there's a really good chance one of us will be asking for a divorce by the end of the weekend.

Well I feel the water is boiling over at this point in time. This whole situation with her ex friend is getting out of hand and I'm to blame.

I think this whole thing really shined light on all our of relationship issues. I think our relationship and marriage will end and not because of my being trans and wanting to live life as a woman, but for all of our other issues.

I feel like all I do and have been doing is trying. Trying to do everything I can for her our family and our relationship on a daily basis and nothing is ever good enough. I'm always the bad guy, I'm always the manipulative one, everything is always about me, I'm pointing figures. Just all on me.

Our communication is ->-bleeped-<-. Neither of us can't express a feeling a thought or how were experiencing or perceive something without the other misunderstanding or end up feeling negatively about it and like they're being attacked.

In all honesty i feel more and more that we aren't good for one another. No matter how much love we have and feel for each other we just don't vibe on the same frequency. Everything we do just doesn't work.and it's exhausting. And this whole thing with allowing her ex friend to stay has just poured gasoline on our relationship issues.

I'm just done. This is not how life is ment to be..this is no how relationships are ment to be. I'm just over it all. I honestly feel the only thing I can do to give her a chance to be happy and healthy is to let her go, and in turn find peace so I can follow my heart and soul and transition.

Enjoy the ice cream!  I eat a lot of ice cream.

I haven't run the A/C in my house in years.  This year it has gotten up to 29C inside or 85f.
Instead I wear sleeveless crop tops and short shorts.  This year I've added skirts to the mix.
The last electric bill was just $47 or 34pounds sterling.

Marion

sweat, buff paint, sweat some more , polish paint!! Its done as far as I can be bothered now. Bit of fine fettling to do and then set front tracking and it will be road test time.
 Got in the car to come home and it said 36.5 C, that dropped to 34C when driving. 31C in my flat now, sweating! Steak, chips (fries) and peas for  dinner, BIG bowl of ice cream in a bit.

You know, i actually agree Devlyn. Why let others discourage you and hinder you from being happy and comfortable? Nothing should be a reluctance if it isnt hurting them or a crime. Its called being free and freedom and independent.

Quote from: Maid Marion on Today at 04:46:52 AMWhat you shouldn't do is to dress androgynously all the time, in that uncanny valley between male and female. While this can be very sexy, eliciting strong emotions in people, this is dangerous territory to be in all the time.  Instead, I suggest dressing either male or female, so folks won't give you a second glance.  If you want to attract attention you may do that, but aware that attracting attention may be dangerous.  There may be times and places where you can do that safely.

You may consider relocating to a safer place to live. Cities tend to be more accepting of us.  You may not have to travel far.
It is hard to transition in place, where people may remember you before.  You may want to relocate for that reason.  To get a new start in a new place.

 It is likely that I'm one of the most well known private citizens in the town I live.  I grow an amazing flower garden that people visit when they walk around the neighborhood.  I've moved my most  fragrant roses to a row just off the sidewalk.  They also see it on their commute to work.  I got a thank you note from a commuter!

I'm sorry, but I don't think that is correct, helpful, or anyone's business to be declaring.

Everyone should present the way they're comfortable presenting. Full stop.

Hugs, Devlyn