Hello LilisMy name is
Sarah B and I would also like to formally, Welcome you to Susan's Place!
You mentioned in your first posts:
Quote from: Lilis on Yesterday at 06:48:07 PMHi everyone, I'm Lilith or Lilis, and I'm thrilled to join this community! I'm a transwomen, but for as long as I can remember, there hasn't been one neat label that's felt quite right for our gender identity. I say "our" because I share my body with a man, and we have walked a really exciting journey together for many years. In this one body we both flow and change intermittently depending on who is present, the changes and flow could be daily and (or) sometimes weekly, and just recently, the term 'gender fluid' has really resonated with us.
I looked up your name Lilith and the meaning, a very unusual and unique name, what intrigues me is why did you choose such a name? You don't have to say the reasons why.
We are all different in how we perceive ourselves. I have always been female. I could never walk in two shoes. You are not the only one here on Susan's that is either gender fluid or binary. If you are happy with who you are, then that is the most important thing in the whole world.
Quote from: Lilis on Yesterday at 06:48:07 PMIt's has been a very challenging journey ever since puberty our body went through some changes, and developed some curvy feminine features those similar to cis-gender girls, and nothing like the other cis-gender boys. I think this was when I was discovered but I was ignore for many years after that. This new body brought a lot of confusion and embarrassment, the boys locker rooms was a nightmare to change clothes without being teased or stare at by other boys, also shirtless activities such as the beach and at the pool were also humiliating when people would stare and say hurtful things.
Given the description you have provided above, I would suggest if it is possible take a chromosome test as it could provide more information about why your body went through those puberty changes. Other than hormonal imbalance.
It's sad that you had to endure being teased and stared at. No one should ever have to be treated differently from others.
Quote from: Lilis on Yesterday at 06:48:07 PMWe learned from the medical professionals a little bit of what was happening and they called it gynecomastia, and something about a hormone imbalance. Our father wasn't to happy about the news and wanted to get this fixed asap with surgery or with what ever means were available at the time. But mother convinced him to wait and see if it would go away after puberty. Luckily for me it never went away so we have been together ever since right into adulthood. During this time I would be suppressed, or ignored most of the time and not allowed to exist, but I was a constant reminder every time shirts came off in public and private body inspections.
It's good to hear that such drastic measures did not occur in your life. Those feelings are always present and keep resurfacing until something is done about them.
Take me for example, the only feelings, I suppose if I was brutally honest occurred over a period of time from 1980 to 1989, my longing and wanting to be a female was growing stronger, however it did not affect me per se. It did not worry me that I was thinking about it. So I left family and friends in 1989, so that I could live my life as a female. I still had those feelings when I was younger at certain times.
Quote from: Lilis on Yesterday at 06:48:07 PMFinally at around the age of 30 years old something changed. When our cis-gender girlfriend at the time was at work and we were both home alone we experimented with her clothes, wigs, makeup, and everything in her wardrobe. I think this was the turning point in the acceptance of me. Finally I was acknowledged and today we're both happy with each other, we live alone and like I said at the beginning of my post we share the same body intermittently depending who is present. Sometimes it's all me the other times it's all him, back and forth we go.
It's good to hear that you are able to share yourself with others and be acknowledged for who you are. How you go about your life with opinions from others, if it makes you happy, the do it! I was 30 years old when I changed my life around.
Quote from: Lilis on Yesterday at 06:48:07 PMWe joined this community because exploring the feminine side of us has been both exciting and confusing at times. This forum feels like a welcoming space where we can connect with others who understand the complexities of our gender identity. Also we are considering hrt feminization therapy as discussed with our therapist.
You have a wealth of experience and information here at Susan's, that I never had when I changed my life around. I came to Susan's Place for the first time in 2010. It was welcoming then, after leaving Susan's after a couple or years. I have just come back and it's still welcoming.
Its good to hear that you are considering HRT yes it will feminise your features. Just remember that whatever you decide to do. It is up to you to make that final decision on what you do.
Quote from: Lilis on Yesterday at 06:48:07 PMOh, don't worry about him. It's not likely he will join the forum he is into other things that cis-gender men and transgender men enjoy. I can assure you every time that you see me post here it's because Lilith aka Lilis is present.
You can always tell us what he is up to. We will not tell him, what you have told us about him. Information that you tell us in PM (private messages) or on Susan's Discord Forum (private areas) will remain private between those individuals.
Quote from: Lilis on Yesterday at 06:48:07 PMAgain, I am happy to be here and thanks for having me.
No, we are happy to have another like minded soul, that can provide insight to others as other members can learn from your experiences. In addition other members of Susan's will come along and more than likely will discuss problems or issues that are similar to yours as most of us have experienced these as well.
Once you feel comfortable here, it would be appreciated if you add a little bit more about yourself in other forums and threads. I would appreciate it very much as, I'm always interested in learning something from new members.
Once again, Welcome to Susan's Place!Sarah BOffical Greeter@LoriDee @Northern Star Girl@ Lilis
