I look at it this way. There is nothing wrong with my brain, it's my body that is not right. Simples.

Jessica xx

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Devlyn - what a remarkable achievement! 38 years is incredible!! That's nearly 13,900 instances of taking it one day at a time as well... and that sounds even MORE impressive!

Hope you allow yourself to feel the pride of accomplishment you so richly deserve!

Love,
Allie

Thanks, Ashley!

Hugs, Devlyn

I recently indulged myself and got me a pair of silicone hip pads. They are rather heavy and are self-adhering, as long as they are cleaned after each use and there is no moisture between the pads and the skin. They add about one inch on either side. With tight fitting clothing, like leggings, tight jeans or pencil skirts they can be worn as is, with more relaxed clothing I'd recommend wearing some shape wear or nylons over them, just to make sure to keep them in place, especially when some moisture starts to build up.

Putting them on for the first time was eye-opening. I hate my rather boxy frame with broad shoulders and narrow hips and everything about it screams 'man'. But when I wore them for the first time, I really saw a woman's shape in the mirror for the first time and that was instant gender euphoria.

Here is how they look:




Some downsides are that they show a little when wearing shorts or mini skirts, and they are uncomfortable in the restroom since they might fall off when sitting down after pulling down all clothing items that help hold them in place (when sitting they are bent a little which tends to pull them away from the skin on the front side of the thighs).

In conclusion, I love them, but they are not an everyday item, as much as I would like to have exactly that padding permanently attached en nature...

Hugs,

Heidemarie

On other forums, there are many threads of mtf not passing and I mention that I should not passs but I do. I explain how to observe cis women and their mannerism and copying them (practicing first) and being confident goes a very long way to passing. It's speech patterns, it's hand movement, it's head position, it's the way one sits. It works for me.

One can look perfect but if one still has male mannerisms then it's quickly picked up whereas as the visual range of cis-women is so large, mannerisms become the divide.

An analogy was an advertisement in the UK. A beautiful perfect sophisticated looking woman that could grace high society talks with a cockney accent.

Hugs
Jessica xxx   

Looking good, Courtney!

I'd like to know about the carbon dye you use. I have two IPL machines that I have used on my legs, but with a gray beard, it didn't work. I am like you that I get so frustrated shaving only to have whickers pop through. I was advised once to use concealer with a pink tint to cover the shadows. I found that a light touch of pink lipstick works, then use a sponge to work it into the area and spread it out so it blends in. Dyeing the whiskers to use the IPL is something I considered, but I didn't think it would get deep enough into the follicle to work. Please share your wisdom oh great wise sister.