Just starting a new blog, which I seriously considered naming "Jenn's Journey, deja vu all over again" or "Jenn's Journey, once is not enough". I do know that like vowels, once you get yourself an irrevently named blog, it is yours to keep.
Off to hop on my bike trainer, do a few things.. and consider how I want to summarize 45 pages lost in the bit bucket of doom.
~Jenn
On further reflection, I am rather content to let my pervious blog disaapear into the ether. Better to look ahead than try to recreate the past.
I have big goals for 2024.
~Jenn
@Jenn104 Dear Jenn: It is your choice as to how you wish to handle your old blog and starting a new blog....
and choosing the Subject Title is all your decision as well.
I fondly recall when you had started your first Blog thread on the previous Forum and you
and I exchanged a few messages about what you wanted.
I am eagerly looking forward to whatever you will be sharing on your new Blog thread.
HUGS,
Danielle
Happy New Year.
Quote from: Northern Star Girl on January 03, 2024, 08:59:59 PM@Jenn104
Dear Jenn:
It is your choice as to how you wish to handle your old blog and starting a new blog....
and choosing the Subject Title is all your decision as well.
I fondly recall when you had started your first Blog thread on the previous Forum and you
and I exchanged a few messages about what you wanted.
I am eagerly looking forward to whatever you will be sharing on your new Blog thread.
HUGS,
Danielle
Yeah. I remember my clueless days fondly.. which where followed closely by my 'wait.. therapy is amazing! I can tell someone about me' days..
like 5 lifetimes ago, right?
keep your popcorn bowl full Danielle.
Jenn
So
Upon further reflection.. I am gonna spend a few posts recapping the blog that's gone missing, for no better reason than I owe it to myself. I think it's easiest to do in a few posts, in increments covering 6 ish months...
Jenn's Journey-- June 2021 to December 2021:
Yes! I was a clueless newbie, in so many ways. I screwed up my courage and took the first of many leaps of faith. I posted. then exhaled. I maybe underrate that moment, or did at the time. It was my first real leap. Kinda cool it was here...
Then, on to therapy. mmmm Yeah, can we skip this part? Its almost embarrassing thinking back to the "WOW! I get to talk about my dysphoria, with a sympathetic ear?" stage.
and then my story takes an ugle twist. My wife snooped in some private notes, figured I am trans.. and things got very ugly. very very quickly and persistently. I tried my best to change the dynamic. I failed. If there's a silver lining its that I identify this as the first time I can remember I had something I cared about, or more properly, someone-- me. If I got it unfairly and meanly from my wife, my own strength started to form. Hard to say.
and the year ended with me making an appointment to at least talk HRT with my future prescriber.
Tune in soon for 2022..
~Jenn
Marking magic post number 15 with 2022..
2022.. hmmm
it was the best of years. it was the worst of years.
it was the age of being lost. it was the age of finding myself.
it was the epoch of trying to save my marriage. it was the epoch my marriage failed.
and then my memory for Dicken's fails me.
sigh
2022
It was the year no amount of pleading would stop my wife's anger. she crossed lines that shouldn't be crossed. I've never posted those violations, a word I don't use lightly by the way. I don't intend to now. Every marriage has a breaking point. I can't say when mine failed, just it failed in 2022. (Full disclosure-- we are married. divorce is costly. we don't live together. nor speak on the phone).
I went for an HRT consult. I didn't tell her. I didn't then and don't now think I'd have been safe telling her. I nearly started HRT in March 2022. I decided the time wasn't right. I am glad I made that decision looking back.
I told the kids. One child in particular was badly botched. We're still recovering.
It was an ugly time of my life. I didn't sleep well. I had trouble focusing. I wasn't living. I was sleepwalking as much as I could through my day.
I decided the time was right to start HRT in October. October 4th to be exact. (yes! check the new user name-- Jenn104, I am carting it around, thank you.)
HOLY STUFF. I've described the first week of E to friends as "WAIT! the world is in color? not black and white? whoooooooaaaaa. I stand by the assessment.
hmmm. it didn't change my home life. things got worse. we muddled thru the holidays of 2022.. and separated in late December.
but hey.. hang tight for more tomorrow. things got better in 2023..
~Jenn
Welcome back Jenn & Happy New Year!
The new pic is beautiful!
Love,
Allie
Quote from: imallie on January 04, 2024, 08:52:48 PMWelcome back Jenn & Happy New Year!
The new pic is beautiful!
Love,
Allie
Thanks Allie! I'll post the non-headshot version at some point.
Happy New Year to you and yours too.
~Jenn
and..
2023, the next chapter of my blog recap.
Overall, 2023 was a remarkable year. It had its vicissitudes, to be sure (and if that is not an A+ crossword puzzle word, I don't know what would be), but the highs were worth all the lows. Which is way easier to figure out in hindsight.
Maybe that's worth repeating-- the highs are worth are the lows. I've had both. Everyone's transition unfolds in its own unique and beautiful way. The zen of my journey is being knocked, picking myself up, hitching up my big girl panties, and going to work, ultimately getting things done. I've got resilience I never knew I had, or at least very focused stubborn which is just as good.
anyway...
The family-- well 2023 was a pretty ugly year for me and my wife. We bottomed out in 2022. We're still at the bottom. It is what it is. Pardon but I'm a gonna skip details. Our children are all over the map. Oldest daughter is supportive. Youngest daughter is turning corners. Middle daughter remains angry. I understand all the kids reactions. I am working with each in ways that make sense to me and them. I am optomistic about 2024 with my kids.
Transition-- yeah. I went full time in May. Comically, I didn't figure it out until June. I was chatting my therapist about doing this, that, and the other.. and was like "hey! I think I've been full time for 3 weeks". Cool moment for me, it just happened. Mmm it took until July-ish but team endo got my E and T into female range. I did voice therapy, which came with a mighty struggle against my health care insurance. I think I started to get a handle on what I think of as the nuts and bolts of life-- what is my style? clothes? makeup? jewelry. There were mis-steps. I am proudly past 'clown' makeup, thank you. I've got a few clothes I thought I wanted and probably look ok in, they just aren't me.
Social Life-- I break this out because I believe transition in a vacuum is impossible. I put myself out there. It worked. Christmas Eve Day my oldest daughter and I invited everyone I'd met in the last year over. I made more good friends in a year than in previous twenty combined. Friends from volunteering, cycling, support groups, even one from here.. plus my electrolysis tech. I existed in a shell, super-shy, pre-transition. Ummmm gone. Kind fun.
Social Life, susans edition-- I've met two of us offline. TxSara is even more lovely offline than online. Jamie H has wonderful taste in wine. Jamie and a cis couple I know drink a lot when she's in town. I hope to meet more of us in the future. Come hang out in the halloween capitol of the world.
Work-- umm yeah. I told my peers and the PRIDE DEI space on TDOV, the trans day of visibility in March. Its been a charmed life since. I get a lot of love at work. I'm co-lead of the trans pod in DEI land, I lead a peer group lunch, I rep PRIDE in new hire training. I've been tabbed as a recruiter-- I got to give a talk to a women's engineering society at a local college. Very cathartic moment realizing they see the authentic me. I did some very visible work in the company and have a few VPs that are personal friends. My gender diverse peers and I lunched with the CEO in December. He's a good guy and promised to come back. Remarkable stuff.
Transition, part 2-- somewhere along the line I decided part of the zen of my journey is taking leaps of faith. I figure out what's next, I hold my breath, I leap. Sometimes I fall flat. Sometimes it works. If I fall, I pick myself up and move on. I've cried a lot of tears to figure that out. No shame in doing so. If E has given me a new vulnerability, I embrace it and welcome it.
Healthcare-- I've cried a lotta tears. I've cried a river of 'em. I've perservered. I am better for it. I figured out last January there was absolutely no way to figure out anything about what my transgender related benefits are on my insurance's web portal. I fought a running battle, at times against my own company's benefits people. I educated myself on how to effect change. I quietly yet firmly talked to the right people in the correct government agency to listen and advise me. I got significant changes made in December.
More Healthcare-- I cried a whole lot more tears. I've had multiple prior auth's denied. I cried. I cried a little more. I got moving and am so far perfect on appeal. I am entitled to a personal rep; I went through six of them before finding a keeper. Funny how 3 of them came down with "health problems". If I am honest.. I think part of the tears were E kicking my butt.. who knows?
Transition, part 3-- My own transition has become a journey to come out the other side as a better, more whole person. Like I said, If I am more vulnerable, I embrace it. I don't need false bravado anymore. If I am more emotional, I am. I am way more resilient. I am fierce. I am cool AF and don't lack confidence either..
maybe that's a good place to stop. I've left stuff out and its a poor narrative but who care?
Happy 2024. I am marching ahead, to a beat all my own.
~Jenn
2023 redux.
I probably should note, 2023 was the first year I...
- Went out in public authentically
- Told my peers at work
- Told most of my lifelong friends
- Got serious about my personal health. I lost 30ish pounds. maybe more. I am not uptight about it.
- Told extended family-- cousins and such
- shopped for myself, in person. the world did not come to an end, either
- Got my first apartment since the 80s.
- started yoga. got more serious about putting miles in on my bike
- embraced being a 'flexatarian'. I eat mostly vegatarian, not completely. I am flexible with limits.
- switched to the gender appropriate bathroom, thank you. which came with its own mental blocks
darn this blog recreation thing is hard..
~Jenn
Sounds like 2023 was a great year for you, Jenn! Just think of the possibilities 2024 may bring.
Love always -- Jess
Quote from: Jessica_Rose on January 05, 2024, 08:57:05 AMSounds like 2023 was a great year for you, Jenn! Just think of the possibilities 2024 may bring.
Love always -- Jess
I have that post ruminating in my head, thank you. I have big goals.
~Jenn
Definitely! You've gotta go with big goals. If you don't quite meet them, you STILL did better than if you hadn't made the goal.
You're killin' it! ❤️
~Sara
Quote from: TXSara on January 05, 2024, 11:31:08 AMDefinitely! You've gotta go with big goals. If you don't quite meet them, you STILL did better than if you hadn't made the goal.
You're killin' it! ❤️
~Sara
Right on Sis.
Aim High. Don't be afraid to not make all your goals. There is no fail, except sitting around waiting for something to happen.
~Jenn
New Math, in my own style:
Cold Outside + Soft Flannel Sheets + Freshly Shaved Legs = Slice of Heaven
~Jenn
Quote from: Jenn104 on January 06, 2024, 04:51:23 AMNew Math, in my own style:
Cold Outside + Soft Flannel Sheets + Freshly Shaved Legs = Slice of Heaven
~Jenn
OMG, yes! It's amazing how everything feels when you don't have a blanket of hair covering your legs. Makes me want to actually practice math again...
Love always -- Jess
Hey!
I have had a mad-stupid-crazy start to the year. my reading and posting time is down according.
I am back in -erm- serious discussions about my health care coverage and prior auths with my insurance provider. I am hassled to the point of very experienced provider-side people (i.e. doctor's insurance liasons) are puzzled why I am treated like I am.
I have high goals. Mostly private. Sorry, not sorry, I figured out a while ago privacy works better for me. I'd rather post after the fact for most things. Leave it as some goals are transition related, some bettering who I am as a person, some giving back/volunteering, some just *there*. I have an invite to do the Gran Fondo NY (its 85 miles racing on a bike, starting on the GW bridge in NYC) with a friend.. its on the maybe list. I think I am in, kinda. sorta. maybe.
I can renew my lease. Its a funky old house with slanty floors, drafty windows, old lady switch covers.. but its my space and I can stay.
I am working through issues with wife and kids. stay tuned.
I ran into a provider a few days back. I told her "this transition thing.. you need three things-- resilience. a little more resilience. even more resilience. oh and umm more resilience". she chuckled. I am feeling its tough but doable. stay tuned.
Looking forward to better, more complete updates soon. as for now, I need to hop on my bike trainer. Friday sweet spot training time.
~Jenn
Good luck. It's not like you really need it, but it feels good to hear it anyway. (Paraphrasing Chuck Prophet)
You are most welcome, Rachel. Well wishes are never amiss.
I wish I could remember who said, "Luck is the residue of design." I have dating in my list of goals, for example. I need to recognize I am swiping averse and put myself in social situations in order to find a date. I recognize there is work I have to do to move ahead in transition. If I don't put in the work, I am going no where.
~Jenn
Quote from: Jenn104 on January 12, 2024, 03:32:07 PMI ran into a provider a few days back. I told her "this transition thing.. you need three things-- resilience. a little more resilience. even more resilience. oh and umm more resilience". she chuckled. I am feeling its tough but doable. stay tuned.
Jenn!
Resilience wrapped in Hope for there is much to be hopeful about beautiful sister... Totally doable and in-line with that tagline they used to use for the Peace Corp... "The Toughest Job You'll Ever Love"
All Good Things To You Girl!
Ashley 😀💕🌻
Quote from: tgirlamg on January 15, 2024, 05:05:24 PMJenn!
Resilience wrapped in Hope for there is much to be hopeful about beautiful sister... Totally doable and in-line with that tagline they used to use for the Peace Corp... "The Toughest Job You'll Ever Love"
All Good Things To You Girl!
Ashley 😀💕🌻
'resiliency wrapped in hope'. I like that.
Thanks!
I got this.
Jenn
Have a great year this year Jenn!
Chrissy
Quote from: ChrissyRyan on January 15, 2024, 08:15:56 PMHave a great year this year Jenn!
Chrissy
I am going to
make it a great year.
thanks
Quote from: imallie on January 16, 2024, 09:49:12 AMNo notes. ❤️
We make our own luck, thank you.
If you remember all the angst and tears health care caused me, from the lost years blog-- well, no more. Sixteen days into 2024, I've already overturned a failed prior auth (which failed a scant 6 days ago). Retroactively too. The retro part took a little extra work.
I decided the conventional wisdom for insurance is wrong. "Its just they way it works," is playing a game by their rules. I just applied common sense, nerve, and knowledge of what federal agency oversees our particular brand of insurance. Said insurer does not like me. They kinda sorta maybe mostly listen.
I dislike the brinksmanship but it is what it is. It is my life, my transition, and thank you I am way too resilient, way too strong, way too effing fierce to do less.
~Jenn
Hi Jenn!
Congratulations on getting that overturned!
Marion
Quote from: Maid Marion on January 16, 2024, 11:09:38 AMHi Jenn!
Congratulations on getting that overturned!
Marion
Thanks.
writing up *how* is on my to do list. It just sorts down in priority...
~jenn
Quote from: Jenn104 on January 16, 2024, 11:05:51 AMWe make our own luck, thank you.
If you remember all the angst and tears health care caused me, from the lost years blog-- well, no more. Sixteen days into 2024, I've already overturned a failed prior auth (which failed a scant 6 days ago). Retroactively too. The retro part took a little extra work.
I decided the conventional wisdom for insurance is wrong. "Its just they way it works," is playing a game by their rules. I just applied common sense, nerve, and knowledge of what federal agency oversees our particular brand of insurance. Said insurer does not like me. They kinda sorta maybe mostly listen.
I dislike the brinksmanship but it is what it is. It is my life, my transition, and thank you I am way too resilient, way too strong, way too effing fierce to do less.
~Jenn
Not to repeat myself, but...
No notes. ❤️
(Seriously, Jenn - determination is a really good color on you!!!)
Quote from: imallie on January 16, 2024, 11:38:58 AMNot to repeat myself, but...
No notes. ❤️
(Seriously, Jenn - determination is a really good color on you!!!)
seriously Allie, thank you.
Why constrain myself to conventional wisdom?
;)
~Jenn
@Jenn104 Dear Jenn: I am so happy to read that you were able to straighten out your health insurance issues.
Determination, Persistence and Tenacity can be good personal traits...
Never Give Up, Never Surrender ::) !!!
HUGS, Danielle [Northern Star Girl]
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9fdcIwHKd_s
Quote from: Northern Star Girl on January 16, 2024, 04:04:49 PMDear Jenn:
I am so happy to read that you were able to straighten out your health insurance issues.
Determination, Persistence and Tenacity can be good personal traits...
Never Give Up, Never Surrender ::) !!!
HUGS, Danielle
Thanks Danielle!
I am sure this is merely the latest round. I've learned to constantly ask questions and record answers. Get everything in writing. I've rejected the idea "it is just how insurance works". That is how insurance companies want you to think. Question everything and don't let up.
Just Sayin'
Jenn
If it makes you feel any better (probably doesn't), my insurance declined my GRS pre-authorization, and now Dr. McGinn is having to get on a call with the medical director for the insurance company next week to straighten them out.
What a joke.
I'm lucky to have a surgeon who will go up to bat for me. She isn't even billing the insurance company -- she's just trying to help me get my reimbursement.
~Sara
Quote from: TXSara on January 17, 2024, 05:59:12 AMIf it makes you feel any better (probably doesn't), my insurance declined my GRS pre-authorization, and now Dr. McGinn is having to get on a call with the medical director for the insurance company next week to straighten them out.
What a joke.
I'm lucky to have a surgeon who will go up to bat for me. She isn't even billing the insurance company -- she's just trying to help me get my reimbursement.
~Sara
Heaven Above, I revel in no one's misery. Sorry to hear a 'you too'. I believe part of a national rep is being able to sort out insurance problems. I hope your problems are sorted quickly by Dr McGinn.
I advise documenting everything. Get everything in writing. Ask a lot of questions. Don't play the game by their rules. Don't trust them, ever.
Do you know if your insurance falls under self insurance or fully insured? probably the former, which would mean you have ERISA protections.
If it makes you feel better I am talking to my concierge later, about my next PA. I am hard core a problem for my health care provider; they are telling me different criteria apply from the plan documents.. stay tuned.
good luck.
Jenn
Shiny! Aim to misbehave.
I've had a busy few weeks. I am catching up on posts over the day. Life is unapologetically hectic. Being honest with myself I love it. No secret.
A quick or not so quick update--
The 'First Event' conference starts late this week. I consider last year's the real opening act of my transition. I regret my blog post from a year ago is lost into the New Year blog dust. Night and day over the year. Everything is different-- how I wear clothes, no more 'clown' makeup, the lady's room is not a mystery. Most important to me is I have multiple friends and friend groups to catch up with. Tranition is more fun with friends.
Health insurance did lose a round, for all intensive purposes anyway. The don't like me, I don't like them. Although I do like my current concierge. I feel sorry for her on some level. Once in a while, this week included, I ask something that forces her to say "I am instructed not to answer that question." Which is warped (and I've figured out easily circumvented). Next battle looming is bottom surgery criteria. I mean my insurance requires one year full time (not the latest WPATH SOC 8 six months). I argue the only meaningful thing to be found out between now and May is 'can I pull together a spring wardrobe'?
Sunday morning yoga's has turned into one of the more fun transition things. The class is super-relaxed. I get a good stretch in. I get a boatload of mindfullness. I am invited to the post-class ladies coffee. Which is pretty sweet considering I stopped wearing my wig a few months back. It was a distraction.
I am a co-lead of the trans and gender diverse DEI space at work. The company is large enough so I have both a sizeable number of people who identify as GD and parents. I've been working with the rainbow parent space to start what we're going to call "connections". We're trying to figure out how to connect parents of trans/NB kids with other parents, focusing on 'new' parents. Like mentorship, just a slightly different focus. stay tuned.
Finally-- I've more or less decided I can do the gran fondo new york in may. 85 miles on a bike, starting on the George Washington Bridge looping through NJ and NY. Its an investment in time with a lot of opportunity to improve as a cyclist. There is a mental component to it, like any long distance thing. I figure anyone actively in transition ought to be mentally tough enough.
A good place to stop. thanks for reading.
~Jenn
Small add to the update--
Boston weather's been hovering in the upper teens and low twenties, farenheit for those of you overseas. I realized it is not cold. Rather it is summer for anyone like "Alaska Danielle". Like a good Bostonian I've leaned into ice coffee accordingly. Which only makes sense to Bostonians.
~Jenn
Jenn,
I hope you enjoy this years's First Event conference.
Insofar as iced coffee goes, I hear that at Starbuck's that they sell more iced coffee than hot coffee, which surprises me if true. I also heard that some baristas serve decaf coffee to rude customers!
You would not ever get the decaf as you are definitely not rude. Rather, you are pleasant for sure, based on the reading of your posts.
Cheers! And have a nice Sunday and the week ahead.
Chrissy
Quote from: ChrissyRyan on January 21, 2024, 03:09:37 PMJenn,
I hope you enjoy this years's First Event conference.
Insofar as iced coffee goes, I hear that at Starbuck's that they sell more iced coffee than hot coffee, which surprises me if true. I also heard that some baristas serve decaf coffee to rude customers!
You would not ever get the decaf as you are definitely not rude. Rather, you are pleasant for sure, based on the reading of your posts.
Cheers! And have a nice Sunday and the week ahead.
Chrissy
Thank You. I try hard to not be rude to people, period.
Bostonian's have a thing for iced coffee-- it'll be 10 below and you'll see a line out the door of Dunks for a large iced. Maybe its a self misperception we have, we love iced more'n everyone else? I dunno.
~Jenn
Quote from: Jenn104 on January 21, 2024, 03:51:29 PMBostonian's have a thing for iced coffee-- it'll be 10 below and you'll see a line out the door of Dunks for a large iced. Maybe its a self misperception we have, we love iced more'n everyone else? I dunno.
Well, I don't know about iced coffee, but Bostonians sure do like their cream and sugar. I remember when I first moved up there, I needed to learn that getting your coffee "regulaaaahhh" didn't mean getting it "black" ;D
~Sara
Quote from: TXSara on January 21, 2024, 04:13:18 PMWell, I don't know about iced coffee, but Bostonians sure do like their cream and sugar. I remember when I first moved up there, I needed to learn that getting your coffee "regulaaaahhh" didn't mean getting it "black" ;D
~Sara
I drink mine black, not regulah, thanks.
Apropos of nothing.. am I the only one who regrets the pages lost regarding what barbecue is best from pre-blip blogs? beef? pork?
:p
~Jenn
Quote from: Jenn104 on January 21, 2024, 05:22:37 PMApropos of nothing.. am I the only one who regrets the pages lost regarding what barbecue is best from pre-blip blogs? beef? pork?
You're not, but I think we all know the answer is "beef" 😉
~Sara
Quote from: TXSara on January 22, 2024, 01:51:00 PMYou're not, but I think we all know the answer is "beef" 😉
~Sara
As long as you specifically mean brisket, in particular burnt ends... and proper barbecue ... then, on this you are correct. I assume it was only 2-3 posts. The rest would have just been about sauce. 😂
Quote from: Jenn104 on January 21, 2024, 05:22:37 PMI drink mine black, not regulah, thanks.
Apropos of nothing.. am I the only one who regrets the pages lost regarding what barbecue is best from pre-blip blogs? beef? pork?
:p
~Jenn
Can I play too? in the sauce game? Oh my. South Carolina style pulled pork with Bessinger's (Columbia and Savana Highway Charleston locations) mustard Bar-B-Que sauce is certainly tops, but I'll give you kudos for a well done brisket. No burnt ends for me, especially the fatty ones <<shivers>> Kansas style short ribs, umm yummy.
Quote from: D'Amalie on January 22, 2024, 03:47:25 PMCan I play too? in the sauce game? Oh my. South Carolina style pulled pork with Bessinger's (Columbia and Savana Highway Charleston locations) mustard Bar-B-Que sauce is certainly tops, but I'll give you kudos for a well done brisket. No burnt ends for me, especially the fatty ones <<shivers>> Kansas style short ribs, umm yummy.
All are welcome to comment, thank you. Oddly, I've become a flexitarian. I am mostly vegatarian, but eat meat flexibly, when someone serves it to me. I like barbecue, but eat almost no meat. By all means, debate away though.
If I were gonna debate something, it'd be pain management meds. While lidocaine is the ointment of the gods, mango juice and advil are doing it lately.
With complete irreverence,
~Jenn
BBQ sauces are definitely not created equal!
Chrissy
Quote from: ChrissyRyan on January 22, 2024, 05:28:56 PMBBQ sauces are definitely not created equal!
Chrissy
Or are some BBQ sauces more equal than others?
I've recently discovered the effectiveness of topical lidocaine for numbing prior to electrolysis. Now, if someone can tell me what to put on there to avoid a week's worth of red marks on my chin, I'd be grateful.
Quote from: Courtney G on January 22, 2024, 05:34:29 PMI've recently discovered the effectiveness of topical lidocaine for numbering prior to electrolysis. Now, if someone can tell me what to put on there to avoid a week's worth of red marks on my chin, I'd be grateful.
Lidocaine is truly the ointment of the gods. If you don't have the prescription 5% kind, ask your primary care doctor for a script. Most will write one with no hassle. Its worth it.
For after care, my electologist, aka Electro Leslie, recommended epson salts, which I use lightly to help seal pores post elecrolysys. Very little epson salt to a lot of water. I use an aftercare product from Origins with mixed results, so I am gonna skip the exact name beyond the brand. Let me know if you want it and I'll post the name. I avoid make up and anything that could get in pores for a day. Which is not always easy. I think the red marks can be minimized but not avoided. Try light epson salts and keeping them super clean.
The uhhh southerly laser hair removal specialist, aka Laser Linda, is allergic to lidocaine. She is very experienced with -erm- shooting lasers at junk, if you will. I take advil before, squeeze a tennis ball in each hand during, yelp a little.. and rehydrate with mango juice. Which works for me. YMMV.
~Jenn
QuoteI've recently discovered the effectiveness of topical lidocaine for numbing prior to electrolysis. Now, if someone can tell me what to put on there to avoid a week's worth of red marks on my chin, I'd be grateful.
This may sound weird, but try a chilled 'Preparation H' medicated wipe. My first electrologist (CJ) always kept a pack in her office fridge, and they worked great for me. Use them to wipe down the treated area, not the area they were designed for, unless that was the area treated. I'm not sure what's in them, so make sure you aren't allergic to them before using.
Love always -- Jessica Rose
Where I live, Bar-B-Q is a noun not a verb. Here I t means smoked pork.
Brisket is good, I really love the Brisket Burrito at Fuzzy's Taco. But, Brisket is Brisket, not Bar-B-Q.
You can put Bar-B-Q sauce on chicken, but that doesn't make it Bar-B-Q. It is "Bar-B-Q'ed Chicken". And adverb rather than a noun.
In the UK barbeque means anything slapped on on outside grill, mostly burgers and sausages!! and maybe some chicken coated in cheats sauce (mix of red and brown)
Quote from: Jessica_Rose on January 22, 2024, 06:27:23 PMThis may sound weird, but try a chilled 'Preparation H' medicated wipe. My first electrologist (CJ) always kept a pack in her office fridge, and they worked great for me. Use them to wipe down the treated area, not the area they were designed for, unless that was the area treated. I'm not sure what's in them, so make sure you aren't allergic to them before using.
Love always -- Jessica Rose
I can't say I've tried or even considered anything like this. I can say I am fascinated the audacity to even think it up. "Chilled Preparation H" are three words you just don't see together often. Although I bet they work like a charm.
~Jenn
Quote from: REM.1126 on January 23, 2024, 09:15:15 PMWhere I live, Bar-B-Q is a noun not a verb. Here I t means smoked pork.
Brisket is good, I really love the Brisket Burrito at Fuzzy's Taco. But, Brisket is Brisket, not Bar-B-Q.
You can put Bar-B-Q sauce on chicken, but that doesn't make it Bar-B-Q. It is "Bar-B-Q'ed Chicken". And adverb rather than a noun.
Quote from: davina61 on January 24, 2024, 03:31:02 AMIn the UK barbeque means anything slapped on on outside grill, mostly burgers and sausages!! and maybe some chicken coated in cheats sauce (mix of red and brown)
A little food for thought...
I s'pose barbecue is a little like dysphoria. We all have our own flavor and address it in our own uniquely beautiful ways. What you enjoy might not be what I or anyone else enjoys, as it were. Your best doesn't have to be my best..
~Jenn
My electrologist uses something I call "ice cream scoops" — because they look like old timey silver, well, ice cream scoops. They are stored in her freezer, and post-session she applies a coating of aloe, and then gets the scoops and massages my face for a few minutes until I can literally feel all the heat from the session sucked out of me.
And then I really don't have any swelling or redness by the time I get home.
Quote from: imallie on January 24, 2024, 07:50:35 AMMy electrologist uses something I call "ice cream scoops" — because they look like old timey silver, well, ice cream scoops. They are stored in her freezer, and post-session she applies a coating of aloe, and then gets the scoops and massages my face for a few minutes until I can literally feel all the heat from the session sucked out of me.
And then I really don't have any swelling or redness by the time I get home.
Everyone has their own little tricks, its more fun sharing than your favorite bbq sauce.
Wait, did I day that?
For the most part I cruise the electro on my face, except maybe along the centerline/upper lip. We space that out as laser's done ok on my face. Down south, well, my electro has ummm internet procured high strength lidocaine. Along with the aforementioned advil, mango juice, and tennis balls to squeeze, I get by.
Plus a good playlist and a smattering of good gossip. We're friends.
~Jenn
Oh yeah. I feel bad admitting this but electrolysis doesn't bother me in the slightest. I look forward to the gab session. Heck we text during the week sometimes.
But I have fallen asleep during sessions. I just think it's because my pain tolerance is off the charts due to the daily migraines. So it's not something to envy. 😉 But also, my electro lady is really really great.
So glad you find it really affirming too Jenn!
I came out of an hour of electro yesterday feeling the same way I did last week - I felt a euphoric buzz from the pain on my chin. The constant mild sting just kept reminding me that I'm actually doing this. It was wonderful. I just basked in the feeling for about an hour. It was weird but cool.
I told my electrologist that I had some red bumps after my last session so two things happened:
1. She had be hold some sort of piece of metal and did some sort of ph balancing treatment
2. She suggested I apply hydrocortisone cream. I put some one when I got home and again at bedtime.
It looks pretty good so far.
I think you eventually build up a tolerance for electrolysis. Initially, I experienced a lot of swelling and redness which could take hours to fade. After months of treatments, the reaction became less and less noticeable. The cycle started over whenever we began treating a new area. Hydrocortisone, aloe, and other cooling creams definitely help.
After being in hiding for so long, any step forward feels incredibly liberating.
Love always -- Jess
I think a daily skincare routine also helps especially keeping your face well moisturized. Almost a must in cold weather when your skin can get dry quickly. Every day I use a gentle face cleanser, followed by a serum ("the ordinary" found at ulta) followed by moisturizer (I have a few that work). I only exfoliate two days a week. After electro or laser I do no skin care.
YMMV. You absolutely need to figure out what works for your skin type.
An added bonus for me is I am starting to get compliments on "really great skin".
:)
~Jenn
Thank you for the tip on Ulta's "The Ordinary" products. I have an Ulta gift card that my daughter gave me and maybe I will try some!
Kay
Hey!
Just rolling in from a long weekend at "First Event", which is one of the bigger trans and gender diverse conferences in the states. I thought I'd do a quick post, then see if there is a pic or two on my phone I can post.
I'll start with I realize this is another lost-blog from a year ago I wish I was not lost in the ether. I'd go back and reply to that post.
Last year "First Event" was my first time presenting authentically while interacting with anyone in a meaningful way. In hindsight, I did little well. I was back on "clown make up", frumpy clothes, my old hair... and not really knowing who I am or where I was going. 2023's first event was an eyes wide open, kid in a candy store moment that put me on the right path for me.
I openly wondered before the weekend what I'd find or if the experience would be worth the time. I've been full time since last May. I wasn't quite sure what value I'd get. I got more value than I thought I would, tbh. In no particular order, some things I noticed--
- I've gone from a question asker to to source of answers. I could talk about does hair removal hurt? how do you do skin care? "makeup?" (which I put in quotes because I know what works for me and I am clear about that). I got the health care thing down (more in a bit on this).. you get the idea
- I realize more n more, I have a sense of style that works for me. The 70s boho vibe and I own it.
- The little things like "hey! I can dance in 3 inch stacked heels!"
- Having multiple people ask how I got my voice. Voice therapy! (more in a moment as well)
- My providers and I connected and they like me! First event is well attended by the Boston Medical Community, who all have various presentations. My endo people and I had a long long talk... and they want me to present on navigating health care next year, which is a TBD. The nurse I hope will one day teach me to dilate saw me. came flying over, and surprise! slammed on a big hug with a "I can hug outside the hospital". My voice therapist, actually now former therapist, since that's ended plopped down next to me and we had a long long talk. She made it clear she likes me and considers me a friend, albeit distantly.
- I connected with the PFLAG people. We've agreed to talk over the next few weeks. PFLAG is an advocacy group. They've interested me in connecting with Dad's of trans-kids. I am listening.
- I connected with Speak Out Boston, an LGBTQ speakers/advocacy group. I hope to get in their public speaking training and work as an advocate.
- Healthcare. I've worked with my company to get my insurance provider to make substantive upgrades to how trans care is presented on their web portal and call in lines. My HR people didn't always see the value. Well.. Long story short, I was talking to a doctor about insurance, after a work shop on navigating bottom surgery. The doc asked who my company is, and when told says "I heard someone forced them to make changes to their website. hopefully it'll get better for you." I kinda chuckled, "yeah, that'd be me and they hassle me for it." Doc's mouth dropped and we talked more.
- I connected with a lot of new people, everyone from drag queens, cross dressers (who were cool AF in my opinion), enbies, transfemme and transmasuline people.
- I heard a speaker say "it isn't enought to say you are an ally, you have to publicly declare yourself an ally". I am really moved by that, in the sense I want to be a better ally to parents of trans kids. Those parents and their kids deserve better than they get.
I told my endo that 'the zen of my own transition seems to be to overschedule myself. do more when I ought to do less. I feel like advocacy and speaking up for trans rights is feeling like the place I want to spend more energy. I have a few cards and I am a going to unpack, check some messages, and start on the process of getting myself dialed in for the next year.
~Jenn
Much happening in life, little time to cogently write about it. As I said, the zen of my own transition story is increasingly "do more".
I have started trading email with the PFLAG people. I'd like to do something to help families figure out a trans parent or trans child (trans in the broadest use of the word, transgender including NB, Bi-Gender, etc) is just fine. Likewise, I am going to do training with a local LGBTQ speakers bureau, altho likely not until April. I have conviction I should be proudly speaking up, publicly and regularly about who I am. Because bad things are afoot and me living my best life, openly, is the best I can do.
Work continues to be remarkable. With the help of HR and the benefits team, we forced our health care provider to make significant changes to their web portal with respect to how trans benefits are presented. We're a small fish (5 billion in revenue) to their big fish (320 billion in revenue)... still, done. I just wanted it more, I quoted ERISA rights with some coaching from government lawyers. Yeah.
Added bonus at work- I've kicked off dialogue about expanding transgender care. No one is blinking. We - me, HR, and benefits, have agreed to talk more. A lot more. It is a complicated yet simple dialogue by the way. Like many plans, mine has exclusions around "cosmetic" procedures. I've simply pointed out that word has been contested as appropriate by the NIH for over 5 years. Trans care is life saving care. It is expensive care. It is not cosmetic. HR is listening. Stay tuned. Frankly, I doubt change will come quickly or at all. It is worth the effort.
Oh.. and I am doing family outreach at work too. Very satisfying stuff. I need to keep it there.
One last cool moment at work? Morning coffee seems to have drifted into my cube, mid-morning. Me plus two (cis) women both of whom see me as me. Tres validating.
Training for the gran fondo in NY continues-- doing insane work on my bike with a trainer. Looking forward to getting on the road. I am on the bike around 8 hours a week now, and its only going to be more time.
I can renew my lease, a huge relief. My place is funky, boho, old, and drafty. I love it.
Physically, I've realized I am up to "tweener". I don't have enough of a figure to pass (a concept I loathe btw). I have enough of a figure that even in a baggy old male hoodie.. I don't think I pass that way either. I love it. My electrologist is a friend and super comfy telling me *anything*, gave me a "Jenn,.. you know you have a little bit of hips and ass, right?". She's a friend, just a friend who sticks a needle in my face and zaps me a few times a week.
Emotionally, I have my vulnerabilities and set backs. I've kind of learned to balance them better. If HRT stripped away parts of my ability as an adult to manage emotions, then I am slowly figuring that part out again. I've embraced the differences, they feel wonderful. :)
Ok. Off for errands and a check in on my sister (who is disabled).
Happy Weekend,
~Jenn
One of my themes for this year is to take advantage of living in a very safe place. The halloween capitol of the world - aka where I live - is safe and affirming. I've had a good weekend, so far, putting myself out there a little more.
A social group called "Queers and Beers" had an event at a brewery I can walk to. So why not? In the past I'd tried to go with a friend. I solo'd. I had a blast to be honest. Fun people. Good beer. Free stickers (why not?)... and people made it clear they'd like me to show up again. Plus I had a long talk with one of the organizers of the local Pride Parade. I am going to give them some time. I am gonna find the time to give them is a better way to say it.
Just now I got my Sunday morning yoga on. A class a week has been a good thing for me. I did post-class coffee with a few other women in the class. It is nice to be social. It is nice to be asked to be social. Its nice to enjoy being social too. Again, no one care who I am... just that I am pleasant and social. Although I have to admit, I can make 'em all giggle. "you ok Jenn? transition going well?" got answered with "Very much so... I even discovered this new thing this week, its called.. 'directions'.. you ask for help when your lost". Cracked everyone up, even me and we moved on to better things.
Off to errands, cleaning and a later afternoon ride on the trainer.
~Jenn
Quote from: Jenn104 on February 18, 2024, 10:26:21 AMOne of my themes for this year is to take advantage of living in a very safe place. The halloween capitol of the world - aka where I live - is safe and affirming. I've had a good weekend, so far, putting myself out there a little more.
A social group called "Queers and Beers" had an event at a brewery I can walk to. So why not? In the past I'd tried to go with a friend. I solo'd. I had a blast to be honest. Fun people. Good beer. Free stickers (why not?)... and people made it clear they'd like me to show up again. Plus I had a long talk with one of the organizers of the local Pride Parade. I am going to give them some time. I am gonna find the time to give them is a better way to say it.
Just now I got my Sunday morning yoga on. A class a week has been a good thing for me. I did post-class coffee with a few other women in the class. It is nice to be social. It is nice to be asked to be social. Its nice to enjoy being social too. Again, no one care who I am... just that I am pleasant and social. Although I have to admit, I can make 'em all giggle. "you ok Jenn? transition going well?" got answered with "Very much so... I even discovered this new thing this week, its called.. 'directions'.. you ask for help when your lost". Cracked everyone up, even me and we moved on to better things.
Off to errands, cleaning and a later afternoon ride on the trainer.
~Jenn
You are so cool Jenn. Good for you.
Chrissy
Quote from: Jenn104 on February 18, 2024, 10:26:21 AMI even discovered this new thing this week, its called.. 'directions'.. you ask for help when your lost". Cracked everyone up, even me and we moved on to better things.
~Jenn
You asked for directions! OMG, now it's too late, you're toast. You can never go back to the person you used to be.
With open arms, we welcome you to the other side of life.
Love always -- Jess
There is going to be a candlelight vigil tomorrow for Nex Benedict, on Boston Common. I am resetting my day to get there.
This is one of those times I am emotional beyond my ability to put it down in words. I have to be there.
~Jenn
The more I watch and hear... the video of that state rep talking about how they don't want "that filth" in their state. It's beyond comprehension to speak of a child like that.
Then I have seen others on the toxic right claiming the family, who just lost their 16-year old child, was not supportive because they misgendered Nex and deadnamed them in a video.
Fact is they were still adjusting to all that but were hugely supportive. My niece is non-binary. Their dad couldn't be a bigger cheerleader, but while their mom aces the pronoun stuff, the dad still trips up on it pretty regularly. Doesn't love them or support them any less.
REALLY glad you're going, Jenn ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
Quote from: imallie on February 24, 2024, 01:36:34 AMThe more I watch and hear... the video of that state rep talking about how they don't want "that filth" in their state. It's beyond comprehension to speak of a child like that.
Then I have seen others on the toxic right claiming the family, who just lost their 16-year old child, was not supportive because they misgendered Nex and deadnamed them in a video.
Fact is they were still adjusting to all that but were hugely supportive. My niece is non-binary. Their dad couldn't be a bigger cheerleader, but while their mom aces the pronoun stuff, the dad still trips up on it pretty regularly. Doesn't love them or support them any less.
REALLY glad you're going, Jenn ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
I am just getting back from the vigil. I am glad I went. I had to go. My emotions are very raw. very raw. I don't think I can say anything else. not now. maybe not ever.
I am in the middle of a good weekend. For starters, I did the first half of my labs annual physical and endo check in, which are both coming in a few weeks. I stacked them up on the same day. E is up. T is stable and low. Bloodwork panel looks good to me. I eat near vegetarian; I think my panel looks like it.
I am in the middle of becoming a member of the oldest LGBTQ speaker's bureau in the country- Speak Out Boston. My first training was yesterday, in the city. I am really impressed. I've put myself out enough that I was pleasantly surprised to find 4 or 5 people I knew in the group. On further reflection, one of the odd transition things for me is that I've lost the painfully-shy thing. I am outgoing and it's a trip and a half.
I stayed in the city for the memorial. I met up with a couple of friends from class actually. Consensus from everyone who Id'd as "T" in the class was going was not optional. We HAD to be there. My emotions are still raw. There is so much wrong in what happened to Nex Benedict, so much wrong in the news coverage, and by extension so much wrong in our country that I don't have words. Just raw feelings of sadness and anger, with a real need to do more. I'll stop there.
Rest of the day is time to get my yoga on, hoping to get 1 1/2 to 2 hours on my bike trainer, chores and what I hope will be a quick interview. I have friends on the local "Pride" committee that puts on the parade in June. The asked me to interview for a seat on the board. Why not? Its today at 5. Its a win-win for me. Its an honor just to be asked, even if a no; it'd be good fun to do. I kind of like getting things done.
~Jenn
I don't know about post transition outgoingness, but I suspect it is pretty natural to be a wallflower when you don't like your body, but are trying to hide that. I consider it dangerous to be noticed too much. The more people look at me, the more likely they are to notice a mistake.
Quote from: REM.1126 on February 25, 2024, 09:21:14 PMI don't know about post transition outgoingness, but I suspect it is pretty natural to be a wallflower when you don't like your body, but are trying to hide that. I consider it dangerous to be noticed too much. The more people look at me, the more likely they are to notice a mistake.
Interesting phrase-ology. I would put it 'I wasn't comfortable in my body' so I was painfully quiet. Honestly, I don't think about it much. I just enjoy. No one who has met me in the last year believes I was shy. Makes me laugh.
~Jenn
I came back from yoga, gotta get my yoga on once a week or so.
The news is good- I've been voted on to the board of non-profit that runs the local Pride parade. I am super excited. I already have a lot of friends on the board.
Happy Sunday!
~Jenn
Quote from: Jenn104 on January 21, 2024, 03:51:29 PMThank You. I try hard to not be rude to people, period.
Bostonian's have a thing for iced coffee-- it'll be 10 below and you'll see a line out the door of Dunks for a large iced. Maybe its a self misperception we have, we love iced more'n everyone else? I dunno.
~Jenn
Is Fenway a good stadium to watch baseball?
Chrissy
Quote from: ChrissyRyan on March 03, 2024, 12:55:59 PMIs Fenway a good stadium to watch baseball?
Chrissy
For the most part, yes, it can be.
Conventional wisdom says it is a 'lyrical little bandbox of a stadium'. The reality is it opened in 1912 and has a lot of quirks to be aware of. For example, seats in right field look straight into center field- you have to turn your head left to see home plate. Facilities tend to be dated. Some of the seats are old enough to be uncomfortably narrow. They are left that way to keep capacity high. Ticket prices are high; concessions outrageous.
Boston fans are knowledgeable to the point of conceit at times.
There is cool stuff too-- go early and see the red painted seat in the outfield, s'posedly Ted Williams hit one THAT long. Check the OG hand operated scoreboard (and find the morse code on it, with long time owners initials). Enjoy food on the street and buy your peanuts outside by Gate A from the peanut guy whose been there since I was small. Do the wave. Sing that song..
My oldest and I try to catch a game or two a year. We score games (not uncommon btw), and have a routine.
If you're coming to Boston, come to Salem. Happy to share a pass to the witch museum and hang out for a day.
~Jenn
The sheer absurdity of parts of my life makes me laugh at times.
I am apparently invited to a friend's birthday celebration - at a local 'axe throwing bar'. Yeah, that's a thing. I am realizing I had a "so do I wear my new wig and look good or my old hair for sweat management" talk with someone last night.
I just giggle thinking about it.
~Jenn
My dad passed a decade ago. I've been thinking about him quite often over the past month. He never met me. He never had a clue about my authentic self.
My dad fought in Korea. He was proud of his service. He went to BU on the GI Bill. He made lifelong friends. He's buried in the Veteren's Cemetary on Cape Cod. Not out of conviction, he was cheap. A free grave was a free grave to him.
He didn't like to speak of his time in Korea. We had but a few conversations about it. He had a dopey pride regarding how he wound up on a mortar squad. His take was something like - "they asked for volunteers for the mortar squad, the rule in the army is NEVER volunteer.. and I figured it out first. The mortars on back a 100 yards on the other side of the hill." smart guy.
A few weeks before he passed I helped him dig out his superb photo album from Korea. He was not physically capable of moving the boxes anymore. As we went through it I asked him what he was proud of. He said as he was rotating out, his replacement showed up. He had forgotten names but remembered his southern drawl. His replacement wanted the black man in his squad moved out. His replacement wore his prejudice on his sleeve. Dad - for all his faults - was color blind to that poo and refused. Colorfully in Dad's accounting. For a kid from Dorchester, he was ahead of his time.
I was not close to Dad. My parents had an early 70s divorce. They fought openly through their kids. Dad was dad. It was him first. Even my kids picked up on it. So I never told him. Never hinted. I thought I had my dysphoria in a safe little box.
I've spent a lot of time thinking about my own goals in transition. The obvious ones are physical. The procedures and things I do to relieve body dysphoria are a part of transition. A huge part and I won't deny that. Lately, I've developed a holistic view of transition. My own journey is as much about healing me, being whole, figuring out who I am, how I've hurt, and how to heal is a thing. Transition is healing and I plan on exiting whole, a better more complete me in body, mind, and spirit.
I've avoided Dad's grave for a decade. I watched them bury him. I cried when they played taps. I checked on his stone a few months later. A decade's come and gone. My life has -um- changed. I've never felt a need to go back to his stone.
I'd like to think the kid that defended a black soldier he served with would support me. I have doubts. That's life. I will never know and I am at peace leaving it as a question. We weren't close enough I need to invent answers.
Some Sunday in the next few months I need to go stand at his stone, as me. Authentic me. I need to say a few things. Some are transition related. Some words are just things we never said to each other. Like I said, I'd don't need to imagine his approval. Or consent. I just need to voice a few things. To be authentic in a place it counts.
I don't even know the words for how I feel. Transition is a scary song of joy at times. This has that kind of feel. One of those joyfully funky moments that done with care make me a better, more complete woman. I need to figure out the right moment. the words will tumble out in the moment and feel right.
thanks for the read.
~Jenn
When you go, imagine that all of your "Susan's Place sisters" are there with you in spirit. We got your back.
Hugs.
Lori
Quote from: LoriDee on March 07, 2024, 09:42:51 AMWhen you go, imagine that all of your "Susan's Place sisters" are there with you in spirit. We got your back.
Hugs.
Lori
Thank you.
I would not and could not go without dragging all of you along.
~Jenn
Good luck Jenn, I hope you find some real closure in the visit.
I have to say, I read your really lovely post with mouth agape. I spent about an hour on the phone with one of my sisters on Tuesday and, for whatever reason, we spent the whole time talking about the passing of both of our parents. For mom it's been almost 10 years now, dad going on four. But afterwards it had me thinking a lot about how they both would have dealt with my "news."
I'm sure that will be a topic of conversation when I tell my sisters, actually. But I think the reason your post struct me as well, is my dad was also in the Korean War.. both my folks were (although mom was a WAC, stationed state-side).
Anyway, as Lori said, we're all with you on that trip. So, you know, pack lots of snacks and juice boxes for us in case we get cranky ❤️😘😉
Love,
Allie
Hi Jenn
I've got your six. Lovely post about your father, Thank you for sharing.
Hugs and more Hugs
Sarah B
Quote from: imallie on March 08, 2024, 01:09:11 AMGood luck Jenn, I hope you find some real closure in the visit.
I have to say, I read your really lovely post with mouth agape. I spent about an hour on the phone with one of my sisters on Tuesday and, for whatever reason, we spent the whole time talking about the passing of both of our parents. For mom it's been almost 10 years now, dad going on four. But afterwards it had me thinking a lot about how they both would have dealt with my "news."
I'm sure that will be a topic of conversation when I tell my sisters, actually. But I think the reason your post struct me as well, is my dad was also in the Korean War.. both my folks were (although mom was a WAC, stationed state-side).
Anyway, as Lori said, we're all with you on that trip. So, you know, pack lots of snacks and juice boxes for us in case we get cranky ❤️😘😉
Love,
Allie
Thank you Allie.
I never thought of the word "closure". I'll take it. I don't know what to call the thing I am trying to do but labels are less important than the moment, the experience.
I will bring healthy snacks for me. I assume a bag of bite size 'almond joy' and 'mounds' candy bars is ok for everyone else? Because you know the slogan...
~Jenn
Quote from: Sarah B on March 08, 2024, 03:07:33 AMHi Jenn
I've got your six. Lovely post about your father, Thank you for sharing.
Hugs and more Hugs
Sarah B
thanks.
~Jenn
The week has started well. Really well--
My bloodwork came back A+ - both endo and annual physical blood work. I've lost a hair under 30 pounds in a year thank you. Diet and exercise work.
I am recently elected to the non-profit that runs the local Pride parade n festival.. and I voted for the first time earlier. Plus took the time to volunteer for about a dozen events in the next 6 months. I am kind of excited to put myself out there a little more.
and...
drum roll...
My health care insurance surrendered today. They swore they'd never cover 2 sessions of surgical prep hair removal from last fall. They will cover them. It took work-- my insurance is "self insured". So it falls under ERISA, which is overseen by an agency called the Employee Benefit Security Administration, in the Dept of Labor. I explained to said insurance they would pay me now or answer questions from the fed in about a week. I would most assuredly be easier and cheaper, given some of what they've tried to do. I was well coached by said agency.
anyway. surrender seems like the right word, given the obstinancy.
Kinda a fun day.
~Jenn
That is great news, Jenn! Congrats.
Persistence pays off. Way to stand your ground. I am proud of you!
@Jenn104Dear Jenn:Yes indeed.... a drumroll for you and all the good news that you have reported.
A banner and as you stated, a fun day for you....
-->Bloodwork A+
-->elected to the non-profit
-->volunteering for about a dozen events
-->Your health care insurance surrendered
Thank you for sharing.... please keep me and the rest of your followers
updated as more good news arrives for you.
HUGS, DanielleQuote from: Jenn104 on March 12, 2024, 07:02:11 PMThe week has started well. Really well--
My bloodwork came back A+ - both endo and annual physical blood work. I've lost a hair under 30 pounds in a year thank you. Diet and exercise work.
I am recently elected to the non-profit that runs the local Pride parade n festival.. and I voted for the first time earlier. Plus took the time to volunteer for about a dozen events in the next 6 months. I am kind of excited to put myself out there a little more.
and...
drum roll...
My health care insurance surrendered today. They swore they'd never cover 2 sessions of surgical prep hair removal from last fall. They will cover them. It took work-- my insurance is "self insured". So it falls under ERISA, which is overseen by an agency called the Employee Benefit Security Administration, in the Dept of Labor. I explained to said insurance they would pay me now or answer questions from the fed in about a week. I would most assuredly be easier and cheaper, given some of what they've tried to do. I was well coached by said agency.
anyway. surrender seems like the right word, given the obstinancy.
Kinda a fun day.
~Jenn
Quote from: Northern Star Girl on March 12, 2024, 09:59:39 PM@Jenn104
Dear Jenn:
Yes indeed.... a drumroll for you and all the good news that you have reported.
A banner and as you stated, a fun day for you....
-->Bloodwork A+
-->elected to the non-profit
-->volunteering for about a dozen events
-->Your health care insurance surrendered
Thank you for sharing.... please keep me and the rest of your followers
updated as more good news arrives for you.
HUGS, Danielle
Oh.. I am supposed to go axe throwing with friends - it's a birthday to celebration - this weekend.
I believe that counts as news. I need to figure out what to wear to throw axes and sort out old wig or new wig. leaning old, sweat has no place on the girl, thanks.
Jenn
@Jenn104
Dear Jenn:Axe throwing sounds like a lot of fun.
I have difficulties hitting the target with Axes, Knives, and Darts...
...however I do pretty well with a Rifle or Handgun.What? A Birthday Celebration? Your BIRTHDAY? ???As you are aware from reading the various topics on the Forum, every day
I submit Birthday Greetings to our members on the Birthday Topic sub-forum.
HOWEVER
Many of our members have not listed their Birthday on their Forum profile
so I have NO WAY of knowing anything about their birthday date.
Check out the following Announcement: Birthday Recognition for our Members Click Link --> https://www.susans.org/index.php/topic,247093.0.html HUGS, Danielle [Northern Star Girl]
Quote from: Jenn104 on March 13, 2024, 03:48:59 AMOh.. I am supposed to go axe throwing with friends - it's a birthday to celebration - this weekend.
I believe that counts as news. I need to figure out what to wear to throw axes and sort out old wig or new wig. leaning old, sweat has no place on the girl, thanks.
Jenn
I have been at an axe throwing event recently. I actually was amazed how easy it was to get the axe to stick in the wood.
You shouldn't sweat about getting sweaty, it is more of a social event and you are taking turns with the axe. Unless, of course, you are fearful that some of your axe throwing buddies are going to throw the axe at people due to lack of skill or intoxication... ;D
Yikes!
It is not my birthday... that'd be in the summer.
Ummm yeah, I think it's going to be a fun night with fair amounts of alcohol. I volunteered to be the designated driver. TBD
it's all good fun. this is a slightly different and new social group. Ought to be fun. I believe in putting myself out there is important. I will post an update after.
Jenn
It can be very entertaining staying sober while all those around you get the worse for wear, hope your aim is better than my mums. Throwing darts she hits the wall next to the board 4ft to the right!!!
Anxiously await your tales of drunken debauchery, woe, and despair. ;D
Have fun!
Hugs!
Ok. It's been a superlative week.
I am involved with my company's recruiting. I have had such a good experience in everything transition at work, I figured it is payback. I went on my second recruiting mission last night, a talk on "elevator pitches and personal branding" for a local school's Society of Women Engineers (SWE). There were 4 of us from my company in attendance.
I have been uncharacteristically quiet both times I have gone to a recruiting event, maybe a little less so last night. I was the only engineer repping my company in the room last night.
Feedback this morning is really positive from the students. My take btw is that was a great group of students. Smart, polite, no attitude, showed up to learn.
I am realizing I have had doubts if I belong in the room of female students. imposter syndrome at it's worst. I have more than enough experience to be credible. Do I belong in an SWE meeting? has kept me quiet.
You know... mental sunburst time. Yeah I did and I do belong.
It's been a really good week.
Happy Pie Day!
Jenn
Every once in a while, the camera turns into my friend--
(https://i.imgur.com/azlgdsS.jpeg)
Which was taken during the week, before work.
~Jenn
Lovely dear XX
Quote from: davina61 on March 16, 2024, 11:47:33 AMLovely dear XX
Thanks!
Just short of a year "full time" (which is surely an insurance barrier not a legit transition metric), I am feeling it. A few things are coming together and I have the euphoria thing working.
~Jenn
Axe throwing is mad stupid good fun! A great birthday celebration for someone also on the non-profit board I am newly elected to. Frankly, it was a good chance to get to know a few people on the board a little better.
And yes! that is old hair, not new hair. A girl's gotta protect her fav wig after all.
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Lost from my old blog department -- I had a zoom call with Lynn Conway. Lynn is my trans heroine, no exceptions. No ands, if, buts (or runs scored). Google her if you don't know her story. Since my old blog has disapparated, recall I worked with a few people in my company to get her name on a conference room. The old name, think "electric car company transphobe", was dated.
I'd stopped hearing back from her. So I figured she'd moved on and had a right to do so. My week started with her scheduling a new call. She wants an update. Tres Cool! I've been a busy girl and have a few.
In other news... I have made it clear in the past, my employer is amazingly supportive. I mean top-tier supportive. So a few months ago, I volunteered to be a part of 'Talent Squad', the rank and file employees who give time to support after hours recruiting. TBH I thought it was a nice gesture on my part. I thought I'd never get used or called. I've been on a pair of talks-- both Society of Women Engineers events. From a personal perspective, they've been invaluable. I realized after the most recent I belong and am accepted in cis-het-female spaces without the qualifier of having known anyone in advance.
This is the good part though. I got put on a zoom call for a deep red state university. I am an engineer and the gist of the call is 'advice for an upcoming hackathon'. So I spoke to the recruiter about how I'll respond to misgendering (correct it, politely) and a few situations all the way up to open hostility (which will get a.. you're stealing time from your friends, I am happy to stay after or engage on linkedin or similar). The recruiter was honestly thankful I spent time thinking it out. The best part is that in so many words the recruiter made it clear, I can get on as many of these 'deep red' calls as I want if this goes well. Why? because it is good to put queer folx in this situations as subliminal subversion.
Oh and I am still trying to figure out how to say to my boss axe throwing is fun and I am not so bad at it...
Happy Monday!
~Jenn
Addendum!
My company is large enough so there is a community of trans and gender expansive people. Over 10 anyway. I am the keeper of the lunch invite and chat invite. I am the unofficial momma-hen, which I am surely called with much love and irreverence behind my back. Perks of being oldest by a quite a bit.
We found someone new today. It is a cool AF moment when someone knew grasps, "wait.. there is a community???"
some things never get old~
~Jenn
I posted about this in the blog that is now gone to the ether. So if I repeat, bear with me please.
I managed to get electric car founder guy's name taken off a conference room at work. We replaced it with Lynn Conway. Google her if the name is not familiar. She is trans and her story is amazing. I had my second call with her this morning. At 86 Lynn - and we are friends - is pretty darn remarkable. Smart, engaging, constantly teaching, eager to learn from me too.
Lynn Conway! My trans-idol. We plan on speaking again in a few months
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@Jenn104
Dear Jenn:Thank you for sharing this affirming and encouraging post and the pictures.
This is the kind of thing that our newer members that have not completed
their transition can give them hope for future successHUGS, Danielle
Quote from: Northern Star Girl on March 22, 2024, 12:29:54 PMThank you for sharing this affirming and encouraging post and the pictures.
This is the kind of thing that our newer members that have not completed
their transition can give them hope for future success.
Thanks Danielle! Although full disclosure-- I am still a work in progress-- my transition is ummm in the middle. Past "just getting started" and before "the end is in sight".
Seriously though-- I feel a might fearless lately. I think of my own transition as a series of leaps of faith. I don't always land on my feet. I've figured out a face plant is just a face plant. I pick myself up, hitch up my big girl panties, and right back at it. If I can share anything, I am picking that. Push your own envelope, get out of your comfort zone. Then magic happens.
~Jenn
My religion doesn't allow me idols (though I understand the secular meaning of the word), but Lynn Conway is a person I hold in high regard. I have great respect for her, and see her as a role model.
What an incredible life. What an incredible human being! You are blessed to call her friend. I am envious.
Quote from: REM.1126 on March 23, 2024, 12:34:00 PMMy religion doesn't allow me idols (though I understand the secular meaning of the word), but Lynn Conway is a person I hold in high regard. I have great respect for her, and see her as a role model.
What an incredible life. What an incredible human being! You are blessed to call her friend. I am envious.
Well said. There is hero worship going on, blind idolatry is extreme, religious convictions or not.
I admit after a few zoom calls, I see Lynn's flaws too. We're all flawed though, so that's cool. What I liked is we were both taking notes. She made me think about a few things. Pretty clearly I made her think a bit too. We're going to follow up in a few weeks.
Oh-- and really good for me-- she clearly could see my bike on the training stand behind me. We talked training, staying active, how we each got interested in the things we do to be active.
thanks for the gentle reminder Rachel,
Jenn
The pace of my life is a bit frenetic. I am kinda thriving on it.
My Sunday was something like up early, coffee, mini-yoga stretch, 40+ miles on my bike (indoors, on the stand), 6 hours of volunteer time, run to Mom to help her. A run to my sister to help her a moment. Voice practice. A late board call.. then nightly skin care and nails. THEN I got to relax. Relax being the code word for falling asleep on the couch.
The volunteer work was fascinating. I spent maybe 10-12 hours over two days checking people in for https://www.vincent-natasha.com/this-is-trans. Very fascinating work. A few things stand out -- (1) seeing the smile on a nervous trans kid and their parent(s) break out when they clock me. I don't mind being sussed out in the least. Adult role models, adults in public, are so important for these kids. (2) the exhibit is good stuff. Spending time with the artist in the exhibit a one in a lifetime thing. They are wonderful. We see the world through the lense of shared experience. (3) I indulged in my own photoshoot. Its photo-shoot based art. I got to model for a camera. For the first time in my life, I felt like I belonged in front of a camera, authentically. I heard the word "gorgeous" during the click of the camera and I felt gorgeous.
a good place to stop. happy monday.
~Jenn
I should not try this one from my phone but here goes anyway.
I sent my good wig out for a wash and styling. The wig lady (her official nickname. all my providers have nicknames) crushed it. Really crushed it. A good cis female friend at work noticed. I told her it's amazing, I think I am feeling pretty for umm like maybe the first time ever.
ever.
a very good moment in transition.
Jenn
Quote from: Jenn104 on March 28, 2024, 08:17:24 AMI should not try this one from my phone but here goes anyway.
I sent my good wig out for a wash and styling. The wig lady (her official nickname. all my providers have nicknames) crushed it. Really crushed it. A good cis female friend at work noticed. I told her it's amazing, I think I am feeling pretty for umm like maybe the first time ever.
ever.
a very good moment in transition.
Jenn
Yay!
Chrissy
HAPPY TDOV!
Happy Trans Day of Visibility.
I am celebrating by volunteering. I have a chance to help host a hangout for trans folx who have no place to go for what ever reasons today. An event labelled as an all ages place to be. I leapt at the chance.
Get out there, be happy and joyful. Celebrate! Today is our day.
Now.. off to get my yoga on (and get in a quick ride before my hangout).
~Jenn
Quote from: Jenn104 on March 31, 2024, 07:00:40 AMHAPPY TDOV!
Happy Trans Day of Visibility.
I am celebrating by volunteering. I have a chance to help host a hangout for trans folx who have no place to go for what ever reasons today. An event labelled as an all ages place to be. I leapt at the chance.
Get out there, be happy and joyful. Celebrate! Today is our day.
Now.. off to get my yoga on (and get in a quick ride before my hangout).
~Jenn
Hope it turned out well for all participants. Have you tried Lululemon? A bit pricey unless you get a markdown for yoga pants. I do not do yoga myself. But I do relax. Well, sometimes I do.
Chrissy
Quote from: ChrissyRyan on March 31, 2024, 07:20:22 PMHope it turned out well for all participants. Have you tried Lululemon? A bit pricey unless you get a markdown for yoga pants. I do not do yoga myself. But I do relax. Well, sometimes I do.
Chrissy
My body is changing so fast -- E and weight loss are both in play -- I really can't justify the price of Lululemon. My studio is pretty chill anyway and sweats, bike-style shorts, and yoga pants are all present on any given day. I like both the mindfulness and the stretch.
I had a good day all around. Volunteer event went well. :)
Happy Monday
~Jenn
Mercury is indeed retrograde.
I've had an overscheduled few weeks. I will continue in 'sleep is optional' mode into late June. I not so secretly love it. Much happening here. Little time to write it all out, which I think is healthy for me.
Anyway. I am off to a legit long weekend with my daughter who lives in the path of totality in Upstate NY. I am looking forward to it.
Fun eclipse fact circulating here in the halloween capitol of the universe-- a full solar eclipse apparently calls for a blood sacrifice. Who knew? No idea if it is true, kind of a dopey fact floating that makes me laugh.
~Jenn
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Heard there was an earthquake in the NY NJ region, centered about 50 miles west of NYC.
Hope you are okay if you in that general area now.
Chrissy
Quote from: ChrissyRyan on April 05, 2024, 09:49:54 AMHeard there was an earthquake in the NY NJ region, centered about 50 miles west of NYC.
Hope you are okay if you in that general area now.
Chrissy
I live just north of Boston. I didn't feel it. Someone I work with lives in southern NH, she reported she felt it this morning though.
Gina, Courtney, Emma all live in NY-NJ... hoping they are safe and ok.
Mercury is indeed retrograde.
Quote from: Jenn104 on April 05, 2024, 10:25:37 AMI live just north of Boston. I didn't feel it. Someone I work with lives in southern NH, she reported she felt it this morning though.
Gina, Courtney, Emma all live in NY-NJ... hoping they are safe and ok.
Mercury is indeed retrograde.
Quote from: ChrissyRyan on April 05, 2024, 09:49:54 AMHeard there was an earthquake in the NY NJ region, centered about 50 miles west of NYC.
Hope you are okay if you in that general area now.
Chrissy
Jenn,
When I wrote that, I thought you were traveling from Boston through NY to see your daughter and I was hoping you were not impacted by the earthquake.
Chrissy
Quote from: ChrissyRyan on April 05, 2024, 04:28:13 PMJenn,
When I wrote that, I thought you were traveling from Boston through NY to see your daughter and I was hoping you were not impacted by the earthquake.
Chrissy
Kind of a dud here in Rochester. Too many clouds to see the sun.. although street lights came on and it got cold. Fun anyway.
Jenn
Apropos of Nothing Department
it is happy patch Wednesday and umm I feel errr happy. if you have to ask you will never know.
Jenn
Quote from: Jenn104 on April 10, 2024, 06:49:09 AMApropos of Nothing Department
it is happy patch Wednesday and umm I feel errr happy. if you have to ask you will never know.
Jenn
I do not have to ask. Have a terrific Wednesday Jenn!
Chrissy
Quote from: ChrissyRyan on April 10, 2024, 07:23:39 AMI do not have to ask. Have a terrific Wednesday Jenn!
Chrissy
sometimes the sheer absurdity of how my mind works leaves me giggling.
You make it a good Wednesday too Chrissy.
Jenn
Quote from: Jenn104 on April 10, 2024, 07:29:39 AMsometimes the sheer absurdity of how my mind works leaves me giggling.
You make it a good Wednesday too Chrissy.
Jenn
Thank you Jenn!
Chrissy
Jenn,
I need to do more stretching. When I try sitting back on my heels I really need to stick a firm pillow under me as I lean back to sit. I will get there one day without a pillow! I doubt I will take up yoga but I will do stretching positions.
Quote from: ChrissyRyan on April 11, 2024, 06:22:30 PMJenn,
I need to do more stretching. When I try sitting back on my heels I really need to stick a firm pillow under me as I lean back to sit. I will get there one day without a pillow! I doubt I will take up yoga but I will do stretching positions.
I started doing yoga when a cis-female office pal suggested I try it. She thought I'd like the mindfulness as much as the workout. My studio offers a chill vibe and classes across different disciplines. I tend to "slow flow"/vinyasa-style classes.
Yoga is my "me time". As my body changes, I get to reconnect. I get more balance and core strength than flexibility. YMMV though. I secretly marvel at the grace of a few women in class. Class is a chance to drop everything else and just be, a treat for the pace of my life at the moment.
Me being me, btw, "warrior 2" is the official yoga pose of my transition. Strong base, arm extended fully, gaze directly ahead. Think about that, right?
I also do a daily stretch routine that has some yoga-like elements in it. Pelvic floor stretches plus some basic things to unplug daily.
~Jenn
The little things in transition that validate never cease to make me giggle.
I pierced my ears a good 8 weeks ago. I went a week past my ok to change date, just to be sure. although stopped the daily squirting with saline. I put on my first pair of "hanging" earrings. I feel great! I am kind of laughing at myself for feeling childishly happy. Yet here we are.
I was chatting a work friend just now as we waited for something to start up. She just moved, so I asked about how it is going. "Ugggg. my husband just wants to unpack his garage stuff, not do real work." I told her I can see both sides but feel very very removed from that narrative. Partly because I didn't get the house, partly because I just think differently.
anyway. it was a good weekend-- a pair of 40 mile rides in place of a single 50 miler + a 20 mile "leg spin". plus yoga. plus cleaning and laundry. plus a few other personal things. Life is hectic. Life is good.
~Jenn
Back from my Sunday ride and a quick drink with the women in the cycling group.
I have under a month until the 85 mile ride, my first real distance ride. I am feeling cautious optimism. My local bike shop is queer owned. The owners are super nice, real allies in my transition. We've worked out a plan for bike tune up and minor tweaks that allows me to keep riding. We did a tire swap out with tubes, a new chain, disc brake pads, and some derailleur tuning between Friday and today. They'll repack the steering tube bearings, bleed the brakes, and upgrade my pedals. They talked me into better shoes - "3 holes road shoes" over "2 hole mt bike shoes". I think I'll get maybe a little extra power.
Today-- I got a quick 50 mile lesson in pace lines. Riding 6 - 8 inches off the tire in front of me. Kinda a cool thing. Plus one friend is a very good coach, so I got tips on pace, and climbing. Things feel like they are coming together. I need a lot of miles though.
The weekend ride's turned into a really fun thing for me. Good workout then social time after.
Other than that-- life is hectic. I go have a board meeting for my 'Pride' non profit in the week. Still need to get my yoga on (Monday), training class for the LGBTQ speakers bureau I am joining.. and next weekend I will see cousins. My cousins all know. We're not close and most have never seen. That'll change. Frankly, it is not a big deal anymore. It just is a thing that is a going to happen.
anyway,
off to relax,
~Jenn
The pace of life here is ummm wonderfully chaotic. My weekend was full. My week is looking just as full. I feel energized by the pace.
I've been working with my local bike shop to get my bike ready for the gran fondo ny. Eighty five gloriously uphill ish miles, on May 19th. The couple that run it are super nice, very good at what they do, and queer. The run the kind of business that is about doing right, not cranking out business. My bike is down to a last few set of tweaks. I am going to upgrade pedals and shoes. We've mutually decided the brakes need to be bled again. It happens. The course has a 2 mile downhill I am going to need brakes for. Serious brakes.
Low-key the race prep is a kind of metaphor for transition. I started with a huge problem-- what do I need to know, learn, do, experience, and be to complete the race. Little by little, the race details are clearer. I have a nutrition plan, for example. In-race nutrition is a must. I've learned to eat and drink at-speed, ish. Yeah, training. The size of the problem of getting to the finish is smaller. I can't control everything or even plan for every scenario. I can lose my race by someone else's carelessness. I am gonna be fairly ready though. Oh.. ready but learning. There is a lot I don't know and I am learning on the fly.
hmmm
Saturday I went to training and joined "Speak Out Boston", the oldest LGBTQ+ speaking bureau in the country. I am developing my initial "story"-- "the twelve words my manager said to me that changed my life". I was impressed by the training, the stories I heard, the people. I need to shadow some engagements and then I can 'go live'. I am energized thinking of it. After training I scooted to cousin's birthday party. A few hadn't seen me yet. Seeing me was a non-event for me and for them.
Sunday? 55 miles on my bike - 2 loops of twenty and a 15 thrown in because why not. I am a little amazed-- I had so little leg fatigue last night. Shoot, I got my 50 in then did laundry and cleaned the apartment. I feel fine today. Hoping to get an hour or so to ride the "quick hill" loop late in the day. I am trying to get more fluid standing, and the quick hill loop is a good vehicle for that.
The week? I have the pre op support group tonight, followed by a call for the non profit board. Tuesday is electro day. Weds there is an NB group a shy friend wants to go to, so I told them I'd go. I am going to need to figure out when to get my Weds ride in. Thursday the over 50 group... Friday more electro and a the queer cycling groups "friday 20". Next weekend? on the hook for a 60-65 mile prep ride.
shhh. I love it.
Happy Monday!
~Jenn
Well done dear I feel exhausted just reading!!!
I light heartedly post about 'getting my yoga on' from time to time. In truth, yoga's become a pillar in my own transition. Last week was the kind of week where merely two things on tap after work could be considered a light evening. I decided to try the Friday class yoga class- glad I did. Stylistically it is a "yin" class, slower and much more contemplative. Really good stuff for me after last week. Added plus? a few women in the class were like "Jenn! See you Sunday too right? coffee after". It's nice to be invited. I did show, and coffee after was nice. Note to self-- remember to take an hour for myself now and then.
Saturday I did what I think'll be the last extended ride before the 85 gloriously uphill miles on the gran fondo ride on the 19th. I rode 63 miles with my friend-- which works to 101 km. My first "metric century". I did ok - 63 miles at a shade under 15 mph and I had a lot left in the tank. My friend - also in the ride- believe I am "good to go". Same for my bike, altho I am going to rebleed the brakes. "too much stopping power" does not exist, lol.
This upcoming week-- not so so so bad. I have a board meeting. Regular electrolysis. A sub-committee meeting, I am co-chair of the volunteer committee, so I need to put in some time. Plus training. My training is shifting slightly.
anyway, life remains hectic and good.
~Jenn
Quote from: Jenn104 on May 06, 2024, 07:05:54 AMI light heartedly post about 'getting my yoga on' from time to time. In truth, yoga's become a pillar in my own transition. Last week was the kind of week where merely two things on tap after work could be considered a light evening. I decided to try the Friday class yoga class- glad I did. Stylistically it is a "yin" class, slower and much more contemplative. Really good stuff for me after last week. Added plus? a few women in the class were like "Jenn! See you Sunday too right? coffee after". It's nice to be invited. I did show, and coffee after was nice. Note to self-- remember to take an hour for myself now and then.
Saturday I did what I think'll be the last extended ride before the 85 gloriously uphill miles on the gran fondo ride on the 19th. I rode 63 miles with my friend-- which works to 101 km. My first "metric century". I did ok - 63 miles at a shade under 15 mph and I had a lot left in the tank. My friend - also in the ride- believe I am "good to go". Same for my bike, altho I am going to rebleed the brakes. "too much stopping power" does not exist, lol.
This upcoming week-- not so so so bad. I have a board meeting. Regular electrolysis. A sub-committee meeting, I am co-chair of the volunteer committee, so I need to put in some time. Plus training. My training is shifting slightly.
anyway, life remains hectic and good.
~Jenn
Sounds good Jenn.
Chrissy