Hi, I'm an 18 year old 'female' and I think I may be non-binary or transgender but I'm still confused about it.
I don't feel uncomfortable in my body, but I fantasise about having the body of a male. Occasionally I want a flat chest and/or penis and I feel uncomfortable. I feel more comfortable with identifying as male and using he/him pronouns. Being called a female doesn't make me uncomfortable but I don't know if it's because I'm so used to it.
Also when I look at my future and think about having a partner I think of a relationship between two men, not a man and woman, the idea of being with a male as a female makes me uncomfortable, but it doesn't disgust me.
In terms of clothes I dress what is seen as masculine or tomboy, but I come off quite feminie to everyone, I don't hate looking feminie and wearing dresses, but I feel more comfortable in baggy clothes in which you can't see the shape of my body aka boobs. I want short hair and I want to look masculine in terms of my face, and I wouldn't mind having a masculine body.
It confuses me because for the most part I feel male and want to show that on the outside, but I'm not uncomfortable as a female. I know labels aren't important but they help me come to terms with things internally and make everything less confusing.