Quote from: Asche on Today at 06:13:08 AMActually, I think if I'd been assigned female at birth, I would have been a very different person. The years of living as male were horrible, but dealing with that has given me a depth of understanding about myself and even (to some extent) other people that I don't think I would have had if I'd grown up in a role more compatible with my nature. There's stuff I see that my cis friends, even the more insightfull ones, don't see. (Of course, sometimes that reinforces my feeling that I'm not really human )
I agree with this so much. The world was a much different place when I was growing up. Being cast in a male role taught me things from experiences that were not available to women. I was a Tank Master Gunner in the Army. Combat jobs were not available to women until recently. I learned how to be strong mentally and physically.
Had I been female the abuse I went through would have been far more traumatizing. I still pine for things I did not get to experience like being a girl and learning about clothes, hairstyles, and makeup. But I can learn those now. I wish I had more time to spend enjoying it. I am not immortal yet.
I can't help but think there is a reason for my life unfolding as it has. I can accept that.