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Title: Screaming in frustration
Post by: tgirljuliewilson on June 18, 2011, 10:59:47 AM
Post by: tgirljuliewilson on June 18, 2011, 10:59:47 AM
I have a very dear gg friend, who I love spending time with. We're so very similar in so very many ways, including height--her 5-11 is almost my 6-1, and dress size.
However, sometimes, after spending time together (especially now that it's warming up and the clothes are becoming lighter), I just want to scream "It's NOT FAIR, dammit!"
I get into what I can only describe as a jealous rage after she leaves, knowing all too well that I WILL NEVER HAVE:
--shoulders as narrow as hers
--hips as wide as hers
--arms as skinny as hers
--hands as small and delicate as hers
--a waist as high as hers
--a neck as small as hers
etc. etc. ETC.!
I get SO angry, and frustrated, and upset, that I just scream and stomp and cry, and then feel so badly about it because its certainly not her fault that I was born with a Y instead of a second X.
I know I'm venting, but I just don't know anywhere else I could vent where someone would truly understand where the rage comes from.
I'm going to go finish crying now....thanks for letting me vent...
However, sometimes, after spending time together (especially now that it's warming up and the clothes are becoming lighter), I just want to scream "It's NOT FAIR, dammit!"
I get into what I can only describe as a jealous rage after she leaves, knowing all too well that I WILL NEVER HAVE:
--shoulders as narrow as hers
--hips as wide as hers
--arms as skinny as hers
--hands as small and delicate as hers
--a waist as high as hers
--a neck as small as hers
etc. etc. ETC.!
I get SO angry, and frustrated, and upset, that I just scream and stomp and cry, and then feel so badly about it because its certainly not her fault that I was born with a Y instead of a second X.
I know I'm venting, but I just don't know anywhere else I could vent where someone would truly understand where the rage comes from.
I'm going to go finish crying now....thanks for letting me vent...
Title: Re: Screaming in frustration
Post by: Olivia-Anne on June 18, 2011, 11:27:02 AM
Post by: Olivia-Anne on June 18, 2011, 11:27:02 AM
:embarrassed:
I can COMPLETLY relate to that, I get that exact same feeling (maybe even more intense) every time I see my twin sister. Every time I see her, its always a what I could should would have been, and triggers my depression. I don't really have any advice other than maybe misory loves company? hang in there girl, your not alone :-*
<3 Teagan
Title: Re: Screaming in frustration
Post by: KimNour on June 18, 2011, 01:56:49 PM
Post by: KimNour on June 18, 2011, 01:56:49 PM
Same here, allthough the jealousy which I know should notbe good is just killing. Which also kind of hits me in the face especially in summer.
Title: Re: Screaming in frustration
Post by: Lynne on June 18, 2011, 04:22:14 PM
Post by: Lynne on June 18, 2011, 04:22:14 PM
I know what you mean. Take today for example. It's a hot Saturday night here, party time. I'm walking home from work. The city is crowded with beautiful young girls who can wear anything and look good. The more I see of them, the more depressed, frustrated and angry I'm getting. Mainly because I'll never look that good without some serious work, and because I know I could look like them if I did the right thing 15 years ago.