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Hi everyone, Amy Michelle here. As like the majority my story is similar. It was around 8 I believe when I first started noticing I was feeling different, I was attracted to my sister's and mom's clothes. I could not understand why my sister got pretty dresses and I got jeans and t-shirts. I would often try on their panties, hose, shoes, or what ever they had left in the bath room where our washer and dryer was also in. Got caught couple of times with the panty hose on and was scolded for it. Move on up to my teen years I continued doing it but was little more careful and always waited till everyone was gone and would dress up for a few minutes and just as quickly I dressed I undressed for I didn't want to get caught. Tried using makeup during that time and lets just say a 5 year old could have applied it better LOL. I was caught a couple of times of hiding bras and panties under my mattress in my bedroom and I got lectured again on what I was and should be wearing that stuff and also was accused of being gay. I really slowed down with the dressing after that and in my early 20's I stopped completely, for the next 15 years I tried my hardest to be the man I was told I was to be, but this only lead me into depression and it kept getting deeper so I sought out help but not for my gender identity but for the depression and I have kept that aspect of my life from the therapist as I figured I would get the lecture that I always got from my parents. Even though I been going to the therapist I still am depressed and just over the last couple of weeks I came to realize why, I'm living a life that isn't what I'm suppose to be so I decided it was time for me to be me and I have decided it's time to transition to who I am and be happy for the rest of my life instead of living this lie. I don't have any real pics of me yet which I will after first of Aug as I met a sister that was online that lived near me is willing to help to give me a makeover. The only pics I have are made from a recent male pic of me that I used in a virtual makeover program online. I didn't do anything to the base pic just added the makeup and hair and I must say I was stunned to how I looked. If any of you all are from around Lexington KY I would appreciate some advice on therapist and doctors to see about getting on hormones asap. Thanks  xoxox Amy Michelle

Welcome to the board, Amy Michelle!

I wish you luck in finding someone down in the Lexington area.  I used to be down there and the only therapist I saw while there probably would not help someone transition, unfortunately.

The people here seem very friendly, though, so this is a good place to be from what I've experienced so far.

Thank you, I have been reading these forums for a couple of days now and really gaining much information that I have been seeking. If I can't find a TG friendly therapist in lexington, I'm willing to go as far as Cincy or Louisville.

Quote from: sunny-side on July 17, 2011, 07:39:40 PM
Welcome to the board, Amy Michelle!

I wish you luck in finding someone down in the Lexington area.  I used to be down there and the only therapist I saw while there probably would not help someone transition, unfortunately.

The people here seem very friendly, though, so this is a good place to be from what I've experienced so far.

That makes sense and it's a good thing those aren't too awful far either.  But yes, I do wish you all the luck in the world and I think it's great that you figured out what had you all depressed and have set yourself back on course!  Also am glad you found a friend to help you out.

I've played a bit with those online picture manipulation things too.  They're a lot of fun and it'd be interesting to see what you have come up with! I experimented with shorter hairstyles using one in the past but never got the courage to actually have it done.

I'll put up some when I figure out how to do it on here.

Hi Amy Michelle and welcome. Thank you for sharing your story.                                                                                                                    Gennee

Quote from: gennee on July 18, 2011, 07:58:26 PM
Hi Amy Michelle and welcome. Thank you for sharing your story.                                                                                                                    Gennee

Thank You

Hi, and welcome.  Lots of good info and friends here.

Karen.

Hi, Amy Michelle, welcome to Susan's! We're a diverse and friendly bunch here (the head count is over 7600) - get into things as slowly or as quickly as you feel comfortable, I'm sure you'll find plenty of support here. You'll be able to post pictures etc. once you've made 15 posts.

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Quote from: amymichelle on July 17, 2011, 07:28:54 PM
Hi everyone, Amy Michelle here. As like the majority my story is similar. It was around 8 I believe when I first started noticing I was feeling different, I was attracted to my sister's and mom's clothes. I could not understand why my sister got pretty dresses and I got jeans and t-shirts. I would often try on their panties, hose, shoes, or what ever they had left in the bath room where our washer and dryer was also in. Got caught couple of times with the panty hose on and was scolded for it. Move on up to my teen years I continued doing it but was little more careful and always waited till everyone was gone and would dress up for a few minutes and just as quickly I dressed I undressed for I didn't want to get caught. Tried using makeup during that time and lets just say a 5 year old could have applied it better LOL. I was caught a couple of times of hiding bras and panties under my mattress in my bedroom and I got lectured again on what I was and should be wearing that stuff and also was accused of being gay. I really slowed down with the dressing after that and in my early 20's I stopped completely, for the next 15 years I tried my hardest to be the man I was told I was to be, but this only lead me into depression and it kept getting deeper so I sought out help but not for my gender identity but for the depression and I have kept that aspect of my life from the therapist as I figured I would get the lecture that I always got from my parents. Even though I been going to the therapist I still am depressed and just over the last couple of weeks I came to realize why, I'm living a life that isn't what I'm suppose to be so I decided it was time for me to be me and I have decided it's time to transition to who I am and be happy for the rest of my life instead of living this lie. I don't have any real pics of me yet which I will after first of Aug as I met a sister that was online that lived near me is willing to help to give me a makeover. The only pics I have are made from a recent male pic of me that I used in a virtual makeover program online. I didn't do anything to the base pic just added the makeup and hair and I must say I was stunned to how I looked. If any of you all are from around Lexington KY I would appreciate some advice on therapist and doctors to see about getting on hormones asap. Thanks  xoxox Amy Michelle

HI AMY MICHELLE
Thanks for sharing your story
Although I am mtf reversed (haha see what i did there) I can relate to the whole curiosity thing and being forced into gender binaries... so yea.. welcome and i'm a newb too.
w00tw00t

 Hi Amy

Welcome honey.
Thanks for sharing youri story and I hope now you've find out who you really are the depressions will stay away.
Lexington KY, is there no gendertherapist or any supportgroep for tg's, try it with google.
Maybe there will be someone out of your neighborhood surfing here and give you the adresses.
I'm from the Netherlands, Europe, so I can't help you with that, I can only welcome you and hoping that you will make new friends and getting all the support you need.

Hugs
Annette

Hello and welcome Amy Michelle.  There are so many stories on here and many of them sound remarkably the same.  Thank you for sharing yours.  We are a friendly bunch here and I'm sure you'll fit in well.  If you have any questions be sure to ask and we'll do our best to answer.  I'm in Canada so I won't be able to help with the therapist question but there are others here who may.

Teresa

Amy Michelle,
It's good to meet you hon.
I too knew I was a girl when I was very young.
But my parent worked hard at making me a boy/man and I keep trying to do it for over 50 years.
I had children and grandchildren before I began to figure out what was wrong.
And with the help of a counselor began renumbering thouse early days that I had buried deep inside me so.
It is so freeing to figure out who you are, and begin the process of correcting this huge problem.
So glad you joined Susan's, Amy.
Jillieann

I was attracted to clothes  ???