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Title: Greetings all!
Post by: grrl1nside on August 05, 2011, 09:42:34 PM
Post by: grrl1nside on August 05, 2011, 09:42:34 PM
Well I shall lurk no longer. This is kind of symbolic for me. It is taking a step to publically moving in the direction that I know I need.
I've never felt as comfortable around my own birth sex. I suppose it took me a long time to connect the dots. I remember being asked to go out with my first girlfriend and being ecstatic because it meant that I could just hang out with all her girlfriends and well... just 'be one of the girls...' You know... Talk, share, laugh... Didn't quite work that way. In fact, I never wanted a relationship with a girl even though I was attracted to them. Now, I know that really I just wanted to be a girl.
I remember playing role-playing games growing up and always wanting to play female characters but knowing that I couldn't without everyone thinking I was crazy. I lived in a very conservative, rural town. Everything that was feminine that I had clothing-wise I liked but guilted myself out of. I remember watching a movie at about 13 where a side character is transformed into a woman and although the scene was sexualized. I totally remember thinking, I wish it was real so I could literally be a girl. Oh yeah, and looking in the mirror and hating the bits... I even gained weight and remember being happy that I couldn't see it when I looked down. I still never figured it out. I a bit slow on the uptake or what!??? LOL!
My image of transgendered people growing up were as if they were all drag queen performers which is such a shame because I simply didn't identify with that. I really think it is great that slowly there are more GLBTQ characters, stories, movies, literature out there so young kids can figure all this out so much earlier and easier than I did.
I'm happily married and I'm out to my wife. She helped my buy my first sets of underwear, colourful socks, and shirts. I have a girl and another mystery child on the way. Happy to be here and I'm not sure where the journey will end up, but I know it is right.
I've never felt as comfortable around my own birth sex. I suppose it took me a long time to connect the dots. I remember being asked to go out with my first girlfriend and being ecstatic because it meant that I could just hang out with all her girlfriends and well... just 'be one of the girls...' You know... Talk, share, laugh... Didn't quite work that way. In fact, I never wanted a relationship with a girl even though I was attracted to them. Now, I know that really I just wanted to be a girl.
I remember playing role-playing games growing up and always wanting to play female characters but knowing that I couldn't without everyone thinking I was crazy. I lived in a very conservative, rural town. Everything that was feminine that I had clothing-wise I liked but guilted myself out of. I remember watching a movie at about 13 where a side character is transformed into a woman and although the scene was sexualized. I totally remember thinking, I wish it was real so I could literally be a girl. Oh yeah, and looking in the mirror and hating the bits... I even gained weight and remember being happy that I couldn't see it when I looked down. I still never figured it out. I a bit slow on the uptake or what!??? LOL!
My image of transgendered people growing up were as if they were all drag queen performers which is such a shame because I simply didn't identify with that. I really think it is great that slowly there are more GLBTQ characters, stories, movies, literature out there so young kids can figure all this out so much earlier and easier than I did.
I'm happily married and I'm out to my wife. She helped my buy my first sets of underwear, colourful socks, and shirts. I have a girl and another mystery child on the way. Happy to be here and I'm not sure where the journey will end up, but I know it is right.
Title: Re: Greetings all!
Post by: Sage on August 05, 2011, 10:03:34 PM
Post by: Sage on August 05, 2011, 10:03:34 PM
Hello, grrl1nside. ;D I'm Sage. Welcome to Susans. :laugh:
I think you'll find a lot of people here with whom you can relate, and who share the same story, but different. This is a place of learning, understanding and friendship, and we're happy to have you here.
I think you'll find a lot of people here with whom you can relate, and who share the same story, but different. This is a place of learning, understanding and friendship, and we're happy to have you here.
Title: Re: Greetings all!
Post by: Jennifer on August 05, 2011, 10:42:52 PM
Post by: Jennifer on August 05, 2011, 10:42:52 PM
Hi grrl,
That is cool that you have an understanding wife! Welcome to Susan's. :icon_wave-nerd:
Jennifer
That is cool that you have an understanding wife! Welcome to Susan's. :icon_wave-nerd:
Jennifer
Title: Re: Greetings all!
Post by: JungianZoe on August 06, 2011, 01:12:48 AM
Post by: JungianZoe on August 06, 2011, 01:12:48 AM
Hi grrl1nside, and welcome to Susan's! We're a diverse and friendly bunch here (the head count is over 7800) - get into things as slowly or as quickly as you feel comfortable, I'm sure you'll find plenty of support here.
And be sure to check out these links for the lowdown on the house rules:
By the way, I know what you mean about the RPG games... did the same thing myself way back in the day. ;)
And be sure to check out these links for the lowdown on the house rules:
- Site Terms of Service and rules to live by (https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,2.0.html)
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- Age and the Forum (https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,62197.msg405545.html#msg405545)
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By the way, I know what you mean about the RPG games... did the same thing myself way back in the day. ;)
Title: Re: Greetings all!
Post by: annette on August 06, 2011, 02:55:15 AM
Post by: annette on August 06, 2011, 02:55:15 AM
Hi Grrrl
Welcome to the forum
I think the feelings you writing about are very recognizable.
So, you're in the right place, we fully understand you.
I think your wife is a very supporting lady.
Count your blessings girl.
Hugs
Annette
Welcome to the forum
I think the feelings you writing about are very recognizable.
So, you're in the right place, we fully understand you.
I think your wife is a very supporting lady.
Count your blessings girl.
Hugs
Annette
Title: Re: Greetings all!
Post by: grrl1nside on August 06, 2011, 07:38:15 AM
Post by: grrl1nside on August 06, 2011, 07:38:15 AM
Thanks everyone for the warm welcome.
Yes, I am very thankful for my wife. We had been through a lot together before I came out so we have built a very strong relationship and learned to be open with each other. I am probably lucky in that she is bi- and so the hang-ups about her own sexual identity have been far less. I am not saying that we haven't had our challenges or there wasn't grief in light of such potential change. But I am truly lucky....
As for RPGs back in the day... What a great training groung for developing the creative imagination and outlet that I have needed to sustain me in the past and to imagine my future. I look back and realize that for me they and novels may well have been a life-saver.
Cheers...
Yes, I am very thankful for my wife. We had been through a lot together before I came out so we have built a very strong relationship and learned to be open with each other. I am probably lucky in that she is bi- and so the hang-ups about her own sexual identity have been far less. I am not saying that we haven't had our challenges or there wasn't grief in light of such potential change. But I am truly lucky....
As for RPGs back in the day... What a great training groung for developing the creative imagination and outlet that I have needed to sustain me in the past and to imagine my future. I look back and realize that for me they and novels may well have been a life-saver.
Cheers...
Title: Re: Greetings all!
Post by: Jillieann Rose on August 06, 2011, 08:46:49 PM
Post by: Jillieann Rose on August 06, 2011, 08:46:49 PM
Hi grrl1nside,
As Annette said you are a lucky one.
My wife of almost 30 years is straight and not attracted to women in the least.
I have 3 children and 4 grand with 1 on the way. And he is due in December.
Transitioning can be a hard very hard but a supportive wife can make it easier.
I think my wife is finding it fun to have another women in the house.
Sorry went off subject.
I am so glad you have joined.
Welcome to Susan's
Jillieann
As Annette said you are a lucky one.
My wife of almost 30 years is straight and not attracted to women in the least.
I have 3 children and 4 grand with 1 on the way. And he is due in December.
Transitioning can be a hard very hard but a supportive wife can make it easier.
I think my wife is finding it fun to have another women in the house.
Sorry went off subject.
I am so glad you have joined.
Welcome to Susan's
Jillieann
Title: Re: Greetings all!
Post by: gennee on August 09, 2011, 07:16:38 AM
Post by: gennee on August 09, 2011, 07:16:38 AM
Hello grrl and welcome to Susan's. Gennee