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I just don't feel the same anymore. I used to get heaps of butterflies thinking about transitioning into a girl, but now, not so much. I mean, I still see girls and get jealous and sometimes feel butterflies, just not the same as before.

Has this happened to any of you? Perhaps the stress is getting to me and I need to take a break?

Would love to hear from you all. Hope you are all doing well. :)

On a lighter note, looks like the job search is going well. Few prospects that look promising!

Love,
Karlee.x

Being a girl isn't all unicorns and rainbows. There are long stretches of hohum and boreing just like there was being a male.

Life has set in and the honneymoon phase is over and the reality of it all has taken ahold on you.

Nothing wrong here.
Working as intended.

I went through plateaus like that, and each time I did, I looked at myself and tried to figure out what it was that was bothering me that could be fixed.  Did my nails need a different color?  Did I just need to go out and buy a new inexpensive shirt?  Did I need to try a new makeup look?  Learn how to put my hair into a bun?  All tiny things like that. :)

But also, some of the plateauing was because the newness of my being out and living as myself was going away.  Rather than run from it and worry that something was wrong, I proudly took it as a sign that I was becoming comfortable with myself for the first time in my life.  No more stress of the world perceiving me as a guy, no more worry that I'd be read out in public.  I didn't have to turn somersaults with every passing victory, because it was no longer about passing--it was about living.  My final plateau was when I realized that I had mentally transitioned.  I was no longer trying to make myself feminine, I just was feminine.  I was female.  I am woman.

Now there are no more peaks and valleys, just this satisfactory glow that follows me every day.  So don't run!  Just keep going if you feel that's right for you. :)

yup

You girls are right. :) Just have to keep on keeping on.

I hope that these feelings come back again, I like them. The butterflies and good emotions I get from seeing myself as a girl in the future, ahh...gives me something BIG to look forward to!

Thanks for your posts! Making me feel better already.

Love,
Karlee.x

I made a forum post about something similar to this a while back. It took some time to figure out, but for me it was just settling into a normal rountine. I no longer was excited about transitioning to a girl, because I was a girl! The transition was a side effect :P 

At the moment I'm kinda bored with it...

Therapy....Check (for the last 10 months)
HRT...Check
Electrolysis...Check (just started this month)

"Full Time" is in the distant future, so I'm not even focused on that at the moment.  Yeah so liking the fact that my body is (becoming) female, but the rest of it rates as "boring" at the moment.  Actually its a pretty good feeling, becuase this must be what "normal" feels like,

As one gets older, life just sort of settles in...does not mean one has to be in a rut, but once transition and surgery have been marked off the calendar, let's face it...fixing a medical problem gets crossed off the bucket list.  Move on to the next thing, be it skydiving or learning to fly or whatever else floats the boat.