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Title: Hi! So much to try to understand...
Post by: Angela78 on September 01, 2011, 08:52:01 AM
Post by: Angela78 on September 01, 2011, 08:52:01 AM
I've finally started seeing a therapist (yay!) who is helping me understand myself and what I've been going through. It scares the hell out of me - I thought for sooooo many years that this was something I could just enjoy in private that would never need to come to the surface, but I can see the effect it has had on other parts of my life (addictions and relationships). I'm going to try to figure out where I fit in the gender spectrum and what I want to do about it while recognizing that I have a wife and two young kids. It's nice to find such a supportive group here at Susans and I'm sure I'll be spending more time here.
Angela.
Angela.
Title: Re: Hi! So much to try to understand...
Post by: AbraCadabra on September 01, 2011, 09:06:45 AM
Post by: AbraCadabra on September 01, 2011, 09:06:45 AM
Yep, it can get spooky once you fall out of, or are kicked out of the closet.
I recall my own mental dialogue, going: "I am a woman... that can't be!... Yes, but I AM! Bull ->-bleeped-<- just drop IT, shut up!!! I can't, that's who I am! No! That's nuts! Yes, but it is... etc. etc.
This went on until I was ready to throw up or do what ever would get me out of this situation. The clear alternative --- BIG checkout. I chose transition.
So here I am 1 1/2 years later, 3 weeks to SRS, and 40 years of trying to avoid the inevitable.
Life moves forward --- THAT can be scary in deed.
Welcome to the world, :-)
Axelle
I recall my own mental dialogue, going: "I am a woman... that can't be!... Yes, but I AM! Bull ->-bleeped-<- just drop IT, shut up!!! I can't, that's who I am! No! That's nuts! Yes, but it is... etc. etc.
This went on until I was ready to throw up or do what ever would get me out of this situation. The clear alternative --- BIG checkout. I chose transition.
So here I am 1 1/2 years later, 3 weeks to SRS, and 40 years of trying to avoid the inevitable.
Life moves forward --- THAT can be scary in deed.
Welcome to the world, :-)
Axelle
Title: Re: Hi! So much to try to understand...
Post by: Devlyn on September 01, 2011, 11:08:02 AM
Post by: Devlyn on September 01, 2011, 11:08:02 AM
Hi Angela, welcome to Susans! You're part of the family now, pull up a chair! Hugs, Tracey