Susan's Place Transgender Resources

Ok, so you clicked on this thread for one of three reasons.

1, To find out what the heck the thread title even means, and who is this showboat for whom "Hi, it's me." just ain't enough for a first post.
2, Have nothing better to do. (Don't worry, I'll have milk and cookies and some pics later on for some show and tell. Pull up a seat and settle in.)
3, You care. (Aw, so sweet. Hope I don't disappoint.)

Well as the title might or might not denote to you I am a man becoming a woman, or a woman unbecoming a man or just an unbecoming woman or man. Confusing yet?
It certainly was for me, at least for the first 31 years of my life.

In those years, I lived life as a not overly masculine but still unfeminine woman. (Unless you count the long hair and occasionally "accidentally" left long fingernails.)

If this confusion under the skin (pardon the pun) wasn't enough, I spent half my life in the States and the other half in Eastern Europe where I was born. I've traveled the world on a budget that would make priceline shoppers look like Howard Hughes so I have seen a thing or two.
I have worked for various companies in various industries doing very feminine jobs such as as donning cammys and toting an M16 in the Marines to owning a hot rod shop.

Finally the fun-lovin emotional roller coaster of my life came to a screeching halt when a habit of mine of many years (my increasing interest in female clothing and as an extension, the extensive self modeling of said items became less of a high and more of a standard. I knew that the gig was up.

Hence I marched my happy butt down to a dear therapist with whom we both looked at the map and declared: Eureka, he is a she, or he was always a she, so now how to do we make the rest of she, she.

Fast forward a couple of months, I am sitting in the endocrinologists office gathering up my courage in 4 inch heels to say: "Can I have some of them there magic pills that make certain things grow and other things not get my body and brain on speaking terms to start to fill up with what it was sidetracked from somewhere when I was kicking around in my mothers womb and some gene decided that much like the mars rover, it would calculate measurements in feet but enter them in meters with something royally lost in translation?

"Would you like for me to stick ya, patch ya or pill ya" was all she said and off we were.

So here I am a month and a half into it, feeling happy and scared, confident yet vulnerable and charting my course every day to navigate around the pitfalls of a road very few of us have traveled and none have travelled without stories to tell and a few bumps and bruises along the way.

So here I am, to help heal the bumps (of mine and others) and exchange a story or two with others on their way from Mars to Venus. (If you are headed the other way, sit on down, I heard this train just goes round and round so you are in the right place too.)


Of course I try not to disappoint and in this world of ADD, if you have come this far you deserve more than just words on a page so here are some pics. (Don't get excited, this isn't where you find out who was on the grassy knoll, it's just lil ol me.) And if you just scrolled down and skipped all the talk, I don't blame ya. I can get a little long winded at times. Kudos to you for going around the system. LOL


xoxo

Cadence

First off, please pardon the pics, my partner is a professional photographer and what do I always take pics with? My darned cell cam. So yeah.....

This one is the most recent (last night) from a Halloween shindig my partner and I went to. I call it "sexy geisha"... honestly call it what you will, it is just my excuse to wear something naughty out with 6 inch heels and not stand out. LOL


(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Ffarm7.static.flickr.com%2F6119%2F6292715430_69c83c2339.jpg&hash=00e3e9fc8e931f2041cabcbd1c975ca30d686593) (http://www.flickr.com/photos/65282463@N06/6292715430/)
IMG_3167 (http://www.flickr.com/photos/65282463@N06/6292715430/#) by CadenceLS (http://www.flickr.com/people/65282463@N06/), on Flickr

Originally I studied to be and then was for a bit a cinematographer (absolutely nothing you might have even seen on even 3 AM cable access.)LOL, but good and/or interesting lighting always fascinates me, so here is some interesting lighting with.. oh.. look... me.

(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Ffarm7.static.flickr.com%2F6117%2F6292716008_7740b7ee3e.jpg&hash=29a6d3dd68e73af8e54271a200ad90709e76912c) (http://www.flickr.com/photos/65282463@N06/6292716008/)
IMG_3164 (http://www.flickr.com/photos/65282463@N06/6292716008/#) by CadenceLS (http://www.flickr.com/people/65282463@N06/), on Flickr

I started reading this thread, noticed your mention of photos, scrolled down without even thinking about it, admired the photos for a few seconds and then scrolled back up to read the rest. It felt a lot like reading Wikipedia articles, really! :D

I like your writing style, it gave me a fair few chuckles :3

Welcome to the forums Cadence!

Welcome to the forum Cadence!  I like your writing style as well.  You are very passable already in my opinion, so HRT should be very kind to you :)

Quote from: Lynn on October 29, 2011, 11:51:53 PM
I started reading this thread, noticed your mention of photos, scrolled down without even thinking about it, admired the photos for a few seconds and then scrolled back up to read the rest. It felt a lot like reading Wikipedia articles, really! :D

I like your writing style, it gave me a fair few chuckles :3

Welcome to the forums Cadence!

AH HAH!!! I knew it!

I aim to teas... I mean please. LOL

Thank you for the warm welcome Lynn. I think I am going to like it here.

Quote from: stldrmgrl on October 29, 2011, 11:55:43 PM
Welcome to the forum Cadence!  I like your writing style as well.  You are very passable already in my opinion, so HRT should be very kind to you :)

Hmmmm. Let me see if my internet acronym/license plate decoding skills are up to par.

Seattle Dream Girl?

Did I get it right? If so, where's my cookie? (Oatmeal raisin will do just dandy.)
If I got it wrong, please forgive. I blame the hormones!!!!

Thanks for the compliments! Don't know if you heard but flattery is the new fuel source to beat! One fill will get you FAR!!! LOL

Ooo, gonna have to blame the hormones lol, that would be an incorrect guess.  But you are forgiven :angel:

Quote from: stldrmgrl on October 30, 2011, 12:21:02 AM
Ooo, gonna have to blame the hormones lol, that would be an incorrect guess.  But you are forgiven :angel:

YAY Thanks for giving me proof to my doc that I need to up the dosage.

Or am I in a logical fallacy?

I won't tell if you won't....  ;)

Either way, buckets of apologies on the way.

Well thank you very much, I have never received buckets of apologies.  Though I must confess, my nickname on here is a bit difficult to interpret considering it could mean quite a few things.  Given that, I'll just save ya from a guessing game; steel drum girl.  I melt at the sound of a steel drum and I've yet to figure out why.  Nonetheless, I love 'em!

I read your whole post FIRST, without scrolling down to look at pics!! Do I win a prize!? :D

It's okay. Really... hello! So, were you implying that you struggle a little with ADD? If so, I do too! It's difficult to manage both transition and my faulty attention span at the same time, and other issues that my primary issues contribute too... just don't help the situation very much. :'(

Hi Cadence, welcome to Susans! Let me continue your list of reasons: #4 You reply to every introduction post. #5 You saw I got my screenname changed. If I think of more, I'll add them! Thank you for your service, hugs, Tracey

Quote from: stldrmgrl on October 30, 2011, 12:48:10 AM
Well thank you very much, I have never received buckets of apologies.  Though I must confess, my nickname on here is a bit difficult to interpret considering it could mean quite a few things.  Given that, I'll just save ya from a guessing game; steel drum girl.  I melt at the sound of a steel drum and I've yet to figure out why.  Nonetheless, I love 'em!

I was getting closer. I had the drum part and the steel part was gonna come too! Cmon girl, let my little brain cells work out. They picked up some pounds over the holiday and could use it. LOL.

Quote from: The Passage on October 30, 2011, 02:54:50 AM
I read your whole post FIRST, without scrolling down to look at pics!! Do I win a prize!? :D

It's okay. Really... hello! So, were you implying that you struggle a little with ADD? If so, I do too! It's difficult to manage both transition and my faulty attention span at the same time, and other issues that my primary issues contribute too... just don't help the situation very much. :'(

Would you believe the check was in the mail?  ;D
To be honest, since childhood I have believed that ADD and ADHD are both myths invented by the establishment to peddle drugs and excuse society from not recognizing and addressing that a child might just be overly intelligent and bored brainless with the tasks at hand, but that is a WHOLE different can of live fish food.
I was diagnosed with ADD but of the few things my mother didn't screw up, she never let them put me on meds for it. Instead she just fought to get me into a better school and gave me more engaging activities to do.

Quote from: Tracey on October 30, 2011, 07:21:29 AM
Hi Cadence, welcome to Susans! Let me continue your list of reasons: #4 You reply to every introduction post. #5 You saw I got my screenname changed. If I think of more, I'll add them! Thank you for your service, hugs, Tracey

You're one of them there overachievin types arentcha?
LOL.

Thanks Tracey!

Quote from: Jaded1 on October 30, 2011, 03:01:50 PM
I was getting closer. I had the drum part and the steel part was gonna come too! Cmon girl, let my little brain cells work out. They picked up some pounds over the holiday and could use it. LOL.

Sorry ;D

Quote from: stldrmgrl on October 30, 2011, 03:27:13 PM
Sorry ;D

btw, while I still have your attention, which ticker did you choose to do your HRT clock? Pretty nifty idea I wouldn't mind borrowing. Don't worry, license fee check is in the mail.....  ;)

  Welcome, Jaded!  You'll find a ticker starting with this page: http://tickerfactory.com/ezticker/ticker_designer.php?type=4 (http://tickerfactory.com/ezticker/ticker_designer.php?type=4)
  Fill out the info and click next.  The next page has the ruler selections.  stldrmgrl's ruler is on the selections page 4. 
 
  This Dyslexic was from the northwestern part of Syrtis Major on Mars.  A lot of dust storms coming off of Mare Acidalium there, no rain.  Temperature swings of -160°F at night to +65F during the day.  I had enough after 58 years there.  So I left to go to Venus, but halfway there I found out it was a 850°F  hellhole on the surface with battery acid rain in the cloudtops.  Instead I found this blue rock in the distance and went there.  I found out from the inhabitants that there was another way to Venus: HORMONES!   
  The Martian weather reminded me of the nasty mood swings I had before HRT.  The dust storms reminded me of the blinding misinformation, lies and the carrot and stick method some Martian cretans used on me about my condition.  And the atmosphere?  It really sucks!  I felt that my blood was constantly boiling in that rarified atmosphere!  The hellish conditions on Venus?  It is telling me not to go there.  I'll stay here on Terra instead, in between...for a while.   
  Joelene, the astronomer.

Quote from: Joelene9 on October 31, 2011, 12:29:40 AM
  Welcome, Jaded!  You'll find a ticker starting with this page: http://tickerfactory.com/ezticker/ticker_designer.php?type=4 (http://tickerfactory.com/ezticker/ticker_designer.php?type=4)
  Fill out the info and click next.  The next page has the ruler selections.  stldrmgrl's ruler is on the selections page 4. 
 
  This Dyslexic was from the northwestern part of Syrtis Major on Mars.  A lot of dust storms coming off of Mare Acidalium there, no rain.  Temperature swings of -160°F at night to +65F during the day.  I had enough after 58 years there.  So I left to go to Venus, but halfway there I found out it was a 850°F  hellhole on the surface with battery acid rain in the cloudtops.  Instead I found this blue rock in the distance and went there.  I found out from the inhabitants that there was another way to Venus: HORMONES!   
  The Martian weather reminded me of the nasty mood swings I had before HRT.  The dust storms reminded me of the blinding misinformation, lies and the carrot and stick method some Martian cretans used on me about my condition.  And the atmosphere?  It really sucks!  I felt that my blood was constantly boiling in that rarified atmosphere!  The hellish conditions on Venus?  It is telling me not to go there.  I'll stay here on Terra instead, in between...for a while.   
  Joelene, the astronomer.

Well Ms. Joelene the astronomer, I see you and I are gonna get along just fine.  ;D

Appreciate the 411 on the ticker. I will attend to it post haste.

As for the weather report at my intended landing zone, thankfully I am early enough to catch the offramp to this place called Terra. I heard the locals can be a bit twitchy though.

Oh and the official name, or should I say soon to be official once I prove to folks that I should have nothing to prove to that I am legit, is Cadence.

Jaded1 basically denotes my skeptical and inquisitive nature mixed in with enough experiences to fill the days of those three times my age.

Ok, so you clicked on this thread for one of three reasons.

I could have clicked on it by accident - so four reasons.

Or I might have a thing for Venus and Mars - so five reasons.  I know, you weren't expecting the Spanish Inquisition, so here's Venus and Mars+RockShow+Jet, from Morumbi Brazil Nov 21 2010
paul mccartney venus and mars rock show jet live morumbi brazil 21 11 2010 mircmirc (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7XLeGwOgc10&feature=related#)

Quote from: tekla on October 31, 2011, 01:23:54 AM
Ok, so you clicked on this thread for one of three reasons.

I could have clicked on it by accident - so four reasons.

Or I might have a thing for Venus and Mars - so five reasons.  I know, you weren't expecting the Spanish Inquisition, so here's Venus and Mars+RockShow+Jet, from Morumbi Brazil Nov 21 2010
paul mccartney venus and mars rock show jet live morumbi brazil 21 11 2010 mircmirc (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7XLeGwOgc10&feature=related#)

All right I guess I underestimated the gals on Susans. You win. LOL.


And remember, no one expects the spanish inquisition....  ;)

Yeah, but you always know what to expect with Paul.  Just when it gets rockin' - POW! - slow ballad time.