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Title: I should really do this over
Post by: EmmaM on November 25, 2011, 12:59:16 AM
Post by: EmmaM on November 25, 2011, 12:59:16 AM
I am Emma.
Flighty, eccentric, pretty, anxious, kind, tired, cranky, off my cracker, doesn't pass 100%, doesn't need to pass 100%, infuriating. I overreact, I don't react, I'm jaded, these bills don't pay themselves, my baby is lovely. My history is not at all like your history, with one or two glaring exceptions.
I once stopped a group of people with my words, under my breath, and a grown woman cried as I gave birth to the last line, "after the fire is dead, only sad ashes linger." I can't defeat it. It moves me and keeps me from going back. I was in a daze for two weeks once and a young man told me I had the most interesting DNA.
I hugged an East Oakland gangster that still had another man's blood on his shirt. I had nothing to do with anything except calling his caretaker and getting him to a safer place. I sat on the train 4 rows away from a group of kids drinking vodka and snorting cocaine, wondering if they were going to be business men one day. The system bit me and I'm hobbled now. They fire shots not far from here pretty often. I used to believe someone in the neighborhood had an AK... My coworker was robbed at gunpoint last week in the store parking lot. I wake up at 3 am to ride my bike through this Hell to work.
I have held a ringtail, I have trapped, tagged, and tracked bats for scientific study. I have dabbled with benthic microinvertebrates. I have published written works. I have slept in the Mojave Desert with rattlesnakes and scorpions about. I have slept in Yosemite. I have slept on a 3 foot square with nothing to cover me at all. I drowned once. I had strep throat in the base of my brain when I was a kid. I'm still alive.
I'm STILL working on it.
Flighty, eccentric, pretty, anxious, kind, tired, cranky, off my cracker, doesn't pass 100%, doesn't need to pass 100%, infuriating. I overreact, I don't react, I'm jaded, these bills don't pay themselves, my baby is lovely. My history is not at all like your history, with one or two glaring exceptions.
I once stopped a group of people with my words, under my breath, and a grown woman cried as I gave birth to the last line, "after the fire is dead, only sad ashes linger." I can't defeat it. It moves me and keeps me from going back. I was in a daze for two weeks once and a young man told me I had the most interesting DNA.
I hugged an East Oakland gangster that still had another man's blood on his shirt. I had nothing to do with anything except calling his caretaker and getting him to a safer place. I sat on the train 4 rows away from a group of kids drinking vodka and snorting cocaine, wondering if they were going to be business men one day. The system bit me and I'm hobbled now. They fire shots not far from here pretty often. I used to believe someone in the neighborhood had an AK... My coworker was robbed at gunpoint last week in the store parking lot. I wake up at 3 am to ride my bike through this Hell to work.
I have held a ringtail, I have trapped, tagged, and tracked bats for scientific study. I have dabbled with benthic microinvertebrates. I have published written works. I have slept in the Mojave Desert with rattlesnakes and scorpions about. I have slept in Yosemite. I have slept on a 3 foot square with nothing to cover me at all. I drowned once. I had strep throat in the base of my brain when I was a kid. I'm still alive.
I'm STILL working on it.
Title: Re: I should really do this over
Post by: Felix on November 25, 2011, 01:01:40 AM
Post by: Felix on November 25, 2011, 01:01:40 AM
YAY, Emma!!
Title: Re: I should really do this over
Post by: EmmaM on November 25, 2011, 01:04:55 AM
Post by: EmmaM on November 25, 2011, 01:04:55 AM
Oh God! What absolute torture it is to be forced into hiding for even a day. I missed you all way too much.
Title: Re: I should really do this over
Post by: Padma on November 25, 2011, 01:32:51 AM
Post by: Padma on November 25, 2011, 01:32:51 AM
Benthic is such a great word - deep :). Welcome (back) xx
Title: Re: I should really do this over
Post by: EmmaM on November 25, 2011, 01:35:46 AM
Post by: EmmaM on November 25, 2011, 01:35:46 AM
Quote from: Padma on November 25, 2011, 01:32:51 AM
Benthic is such a great word - deep :). Welcome (back) xx
LOVE IT!
Title: Re: I should really do this over
Post by: sigmafan on November 25, 2011, 01:45:22 AM
Post by: sigmafan on November 25, 2011, 01:45:22 AM
I welcome you back here and I must say you have had quite the life so far. I hope the rest of it is even more interesting.
Title: Re: I should really do this over
Post by: EmmaM on November 25, 2011, 01:50:14 AM
Post by: EmmaM on November 25, 2011, 01:50:14 AM
Quote from: sigmafan on November 25, 2011, 01:45:22 AM
I welcome you back here and I must say you have had quite the life so far. I hope the rest of it is even more interesting.
Thank you very much! I PRAY for boring and safe. God, I want boring and safe ;) I guess interesting is okay if it's super awesome.
Title: Re: I should really do this over
Post by: Cindy on November 25, 2011, 01:57:07 AM
Post by: Cindy on November 25, 2011, 01:57:07 AM
Welcome back Sis.
Never walk in the shadows your spirit is too bright to hide
Cindy
Never walk in the shadows your spirit is too bright to hide
Cindy
Title: Re: I should really do this over
Post by: sigmafan on November 25, 2011, 01:58:11 AM
Post by: sigmafan on November 25, 2011, 01:58:11 AM
Want boring and safe, then move up to the Northwest. Maybe Seattle would be a great place for ya.
Title: Re: I should really do this over
Post by: EmmaM on November 25, 2011, 02:01:57 AM
Post by: EmmaM on November 25, 2011, 02:01:57 AM
Quote from: sigmafan on November 25, 2011, 01:58:11 AM
Want boring and safe, then move up to the Northwest. Maybe Seattle would be a great place for ya.
Seattle got that one crazy killer guy in it's past!
Oh, I was just poking fun. :-*, my life is what it is (crazy).
Title: Re: I should really do this over
Post by: EmmaM on November 25, 2011, 02:03:50 AM
Post by: EmmaM on November 25, 2011, 02:03:50 AM
Quote from: Cindy James on November 25, 2011, 01:57:07 AM
Welcome back Sis.
Never walk in the shadows your spirit is too bright to hide
Cindy
Hiding is silly. My anxiety and paranoia kicked on hard core. I just want to be left alone, ya know?
Title: Re: I should really do this over
Post by: kelly_aus on November 25, 2011, 02:57:56 AM
Post by: kelly_aus on November 25, 2011, 02:57:56 AM
Good to see you back.. :)
Title: Re: I should really do this over
Post by: stldrmgrl on November 25, 2011, 09:51:40 AM
Post by: stldrmgrl on November 25, 2011, 09:51:40 AM
Welcome back!
Title: Re: I should really do this over
Post by: eli77 on November 25, 2011, 09:55:08 AM
Post by: eli77 on November 25, 2011, 09:55:08 AM
Glad you are back. :)
Title: Re: I should really do this over
Post by: umop ap!sdn on November 25, 2011, 10:27:53 AM
Post by: umop ap!sdn on November 25, 2011, 10:27:53 AM
Welcome back!!! :) :) :)
Title: Re: I should really do this over
Post by: Constance on November 25, 2011, 10:29:45 AM
Post by: Constance on November 25, 2011, 10:29:45 AM
It's good to see you online again, Emma. I'm glad your back and safe.
-Connie
-Connie
Title: Re: I should really do this over
Post by: mixie on November 25, 2011, 11:05:36 AM
Post by: mixie on November 25, 2011, 11:05:36 AM
I freaked out when I came on and saw you had changed your name and your account to Guest. Yes yes yes, stay and be.
Hugs
Hugs
Title: Re: I should really do this over
Post by: RachaelAnn22 on November 25, 2011, 11:29:05 AM
Post by: RachaelAnn22 on November 25, 2011, 11:29:05 AM
Welcome back Emma,Hugs,Rachael.
Title: Re: I should really do this over
Post by: EmmaM on November 25, 2011, 02:08:13 PM
Post by: EmmaM on November 25, 2011, 02:08:13 PM
Thank you. Now I'm going into semi hush mode.
[[{Loves}]]
[[{Loves}]]
Title: Re: I should really do this over
Post by: cynthialee on November 25, 2011, 02:49:05 PM
Post by: cynthialee on November 25, 2011, 02:49:05 PM
:icon_hug:
Title: Re: I should really do this over
Post by: Vicky Thomas on November 25, 2011, 05:46:54 PM
Post by: Vicky Thomas on November 25, 2011, 05:46:54 PM
Hey Emma. Your intro was mental ! made me laugh ;) welcome
Vicki x
Vicki x
Title: Re: I should really do this over
Post by: Shana A on November 25, 2011, 06:12:28 PM
Post by: Shana A on November 25, 2011, 06:12:28 PM
Welcome back!
Title: Re: I should really do this over
Post by: Devlyn on November 25, 2011, 06:43:59 PM
Post by: Devlyn on November 25, 2011, 06:43:59 PM
Hey, wait, you're not new! You remember we keep the snacks. Hell, they're the same snacks! Hugs, Tracey
Title: Re: I should really do this over
Post by: Kristyn74 on November 26, 2011, 06:07:07 AM
Post by: Kristyn74 on November 26, 2011, 06:07:07 AM
Within trials character is forged that cannot be taken away.Life (and God if you will) takes you within certain parameters you can work with. It seems like sometimes those circumstances don't make sense or don't need to be there,but ride through them and you find you can offer the experience you have to others.Experience that you may or may not realise your 'elders' have been through at one level or another,and unbeknown to you have passed on through out your life to you.
Even as you share the moment you are passing on that knowledge in how you coped with that be it everyday life,one day one reader subconsciously will use that to help them cope with similar.
Only my observation though...welcome back... :-*
Kristyn
Even as you share the moment you are passing on that knowledge in how you coped with that be it everyday life,one day one reader subconsciously will use that to help them cope with similar.
Only my observation though...welcome back... :-*
Kristyn
Title: Re: I should really do this over
Post by: EmmaM on November 26, 2011, 02:28:49 PM
Post by: EmmaM on November 26, 2011, 02:28:49 PM
Quote from: Vicky Thomas on November 25, 2011, 05:46:54 PM
Hey Emma. Your intro was mental ! made me laugh ;) welcome
Vicki x
Gracias! The further I can dip in the better my writing gets.
Vicky, Z, Tracey, thanks and good morning to you. (I just woke up and it's noon. I was puffy all over when I woke up.)
Kristyn, that was sweet. :)
Title: Re: I should really do this over
Post by: Felix on November 30, 2011, 01:23:03 AM
Post by: Felix on November 30, 2011, 01:23:03 AM
I love Susan's. ;D
Title: Re: I should really do this over
Post by: Kristyn74 on December 01, 2011, 06:05:34 AM
Post by: Kristyn74 on December 01, 2011, 06:05:34 AM
Quote from: Felix on November 30, 2011, 01:23:03 AM
I love Susan's. ;D
I get a little overwhelmed sometimes...emotionally....a little teary.Its hard to comprehend what goes on sometimes,and I 'wish' when i hear about thins like EmmaM's story I could say "hey i live just round the corner...come live with me everything fine over here."or if I had the money.." have a holiday on me,come to Oz for a week or two!" But thats just how i feel. Maybe one day ill win Tatts and be able to do so.{Heart on sleeve}
Kristyn
Title: Re: I should really do this over
Post by: Felix on December 02, 2011, 02:56:19 AM
Post by: Felix on December 02, 2011, 02:56:19 AM
Quote from: Kristyn74 on December 01, 2011, 06:05:34 AM
I get a little overwhelmed sometimes...emotionally....a little teary.Its hard to comprehend what goes on sometimes,and I 'wish' when i hear about thins like EmmaM's story I could say "hey i live just round the corner...come live with me everything fine over here."or if I had the money.." have a holiday on me,come to Oz for a week or two!" But thats just how i feel. Maybe one day ill win Tatts and be able to do so.{Heart on sleeve}
Kristyn
Yes.
Title: Re: I should really do this over
Post by: kelly_aus on December 02, 2011, 03:02:27 AM
Post by: kelly_aus on December 02, 2011, 03:02:27 AM
Quote from: Kristyn74 on December 01, 2011, 06:05:34 AM
I get a little overwhelmed sometimes...emotionally....a little teary.Its hard to comprehend what goes on sometimes,and I 'wish' when i hear about thins like EmmaM's story I could say "hey i live just round the corner...come live with me everything fine over here."or if I had the money.." have a holiday on me,come to Oz for a week or two!" But thats just how i feel. Maybe one day ill win Tatts and be able to do so.{Heart on sleeve}
Kristyn
And I'd have Felix and his daughter over in a heartbeat.. Or pretty much anyone.. But I must confess I do find Felix kinda cute..