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Title: Disconnected from myself?
Post by: Rabbit on February 21, 2012, 02:55:50 PM
Post by: Rabbit on February 21, 2012, 02:55:50 PM
So, I have been having a lot of moments where I am kind of disconnected from myself lately (well, for a few months).
Like, I catch myself now and then talking or acting or doing things in a certain way that just don't seem like me. When I record videos, it is really obvious.
And, then there is the entire emotional thing. I am really disconnected from all the various emotions. I get upset, or happy, or whatever... and I just shrug and move on and think nothing of them. I mean, while they are happening I'm there... but when I look back it is like looking at a stranger?
I don't know, it is hard to explain. Just kind of a strange feeling and I was curious if anyone else had anything similar? Maybe I just need to get used to things still?
Like, I catch myself now and then talking or acting or doing things in a certain way that just don't seem like me. When I record videos, it is really obvious.
And, then there is the entire emotional thing. I am really disconnected from all the various emotions. I get upset, or happy, or whatever... and I just shrug and move on and think nothing of them. I mean, while they are happening I'm there... but when I look back it is like looking at a stranger?
I don't know, it is hard to explain. Just kind of a strange feeling and I was curious if anyone else had anything similar? Maybe I just need to get used to things still?
Title: Re: Disconnected from myself?
Post by: Elsa.G on February 21, 2012, 09:00:11 PM
Post by: Elsa.G on February 21, 2012, 09:00:11 PM
You are not alone, i have this feeling quite a bit as well. i think it has to do with being overwhelmed. It's possible that something is bothering you even subconciously and you are coping by disconnecting yourself from your body. I have had this problem since i was a teenager and i know the exact feeling you describe. Most of the time when i look at myself in the mirror i feel like im looking at a stranger.
Title: Re: Disconnected from myself?
Post by: shortNsweet on February 21, 2012, 09:17:02 PM
Post by: shortNsweet on February 21, 2012, 09:17:02 PM
I agree that it could deal with being overwhelmed. I know I can get this way (like I am right now) when a lot of change is happening.
Title: Re: Disconnected from myself?
Post by: rachl on February 22, 2012, 07:28:09 AM
Post by: rachl on February 22, 2012, 07:28:09 AM
I'm also experiencing something similar. There are a lot of really interesting personal identity questions related to transition.
Title: Re: Disconnected from myself?
Post by: justmeinoz on February 22, 2012, 08:29:09 AM
Post by: justmeinoz on February 22, 2012, 08:29:09 AM
If you are suffering from Depression it could be Depersonalisation (not to be confused with Disassociation).
I had it for ages, sort of like experiencing everything from inside a bubble. Apparently it is a defence mechanism the brain uses when things are too much. In my case, once I realised was Trans the Depression lifted, and the Depersonalisation stopped.
I had it for ages, sort of like experiencing everything from inside a bubble. Apparently it is a defence mechanism the brain uses when things are too much. In my case, once I realised was Trans the Depression lifted, and the Depersonalisation stopped.
Title: Re: Disconnected from myself?
Post by: Rabbit on February 22, 2012, 08:35:20 AM
Post by: Rabbit on February 22, 2012, 08:35:20 AM
Nope, I'm not depressed at all. I have been disconnected from things before, but it was way different than this.
With this, I am still there... I am part of things... until I look back at what just happened and don't see "myself".
Ehh, I dunno, just is a strange feeling haha. Glad more people know what I'm talking about , at least I know I'm not crazy :P
With this, I am still there... I am part of things... until I look back at what just happened and don't see "myself".
Ehh, I dunno, just is a strange feeling haha. Glad more people know what I'm talking about , at least I know I'm not crazy :P