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Last night I dreamed I was playing Call of Duty: Black Ops and this morning first I dreamed that I was in a threesome with 2 other guys. O.o. The second dream I dreamed that the Earth split and the ground was floating above the ground and I was doing a Sailor Moon cosplay of Darien and Serena.  It was one of my more peaceful dreams.

A few days ago I dreamed about pinball machines and then crossing a lake with some guys when I got stuck in a whirpool and saw a dead body.  I got out though but the body just stayed there.   It was decomposed and pale.  In the dream I thought it was so cool.

I have some of the oddest dreams.  What have your dreams been like lately? 

Quote from: Logan Erik on February 29, 2012, 06:46:12 PM
For the sake of not giving us something horrible to think about right off the bat, I'll go back to my second-to-last remembered dream.  Heh heh.  It was a happy dream.  I had a boyfriend.  I trusted him and he loved me.

Awwww that's so sweet! 

I dreamed that I was preparing for Lasik eye surgery when it was supposed to be top surgery.  I didn't want the eye surgery because of the bad reviews I heard but I was kind of pressure to get it and the anesthetic was too high so the doctor rubbed thick cloudy alcohol on my eye and started cutting into it.  I could feel the sting so bad that my physical body was hurting outside of my dream so I thought "hell no" and woke myself up.

Last night I dreamed about a spider that wouldn't leave me alone.
It wasn't a particularly big spider, a little above average, but it was black and had two electric blue stripes going down its body.
Anyway I kept shooing it, but it kept coming back, until I felt it on the back of my head, and banged my head against the wall to kill it. Felt kinda bad because it was a pretty spider, and after it died it turned brown.

Quote from: Vine on March 04, 2012, 02:02:18 AM
Last night I dreamed about a spider that wouldn't leave me alone.
It wasn't a particularly big spider, a little above average, but it was black and had two electric blue stripes going down its body.
Anyway I kept shooing it, but it kept coming back, until I felt it on the back of my head, and banged my head against the wall to kill it. Felt kinda bad because it was a pretty spider, and after it died it turned brown.

Omg I would if been terrified since I am afraid of spiders but the blue strips did seem pretty cool

I dreamed I couldn't get out of bed. When I did, I kept falling over. Also, my limbs were invisible. I couldn't see my hand in front of my face.

Also, there was candy. Kind of like Skittles, but smaller.

I was Batman....it was 100% awesome!

I dreamed that me and a bunch of other people  had to escape death by playing a game.  Tons of odd things happened and it was down to me and another guy and he started going crazy and hitting me so I had to put him in his place.  I think we both won at the end and this purple vampire came out and started to attack us and just wouldn't die.  I left the room and came back in there were cartoon characters biting on female genitals and eating them.  I'm just glad to be up from that nightmare.  What the hell did I eat or do to dream like this? lol  Hopefully tonight will be better.

I tend not to remember my dreams completely, just little details. I remember my mom sitting on the stairs talking to some people (they were the stairs from a building at the college I used to go to), a banana tree and really big bananas stuck in a chain-link fence, apples arranged in a grid pattern, and being in my partner's neighborhood having trouble finding parking (this is accurate to real life. It's impossible to park within a half mile of his place.).

I dreamed I saw Zoicite and Nepherite from Sailor Moon and then I saw my ex and the feelings of hurt came back again.  Then I dreamed I was in a church with my cousion.  The inside was red. Odd

I dream I was kissing a beoutiful brunette who had a tight arse

I had my second dream last night about my cubicle mate from work last night.  The first one was last summer and we were at the beach with David tennant. We were watching some kids on mini dirtbikes when my co worker announced that the bikes he races are so much more powerful. I told him about it the next day and he said "ive never been on a dirtbike, but if you dreamt that I'm an awesome racer maybe I should try it sometime."

Last nights dream about the same guy was really strange. I had gone to visit his parents in Maine with him, and our relationship was was different than real life. I'm not sure if we were dating, but I remember one part where we were sitting really close on the couch and my hand was on his knee. The dream house was huge, and at the end I was lost in a maze of walk in closets looking for a shirt to borrow.

I have never hung out with him outside of work, but we do talk easily in our cubicle.  It was kind of awkward this morning when he was already there when I got to work. I hope I didn't give him too odd of a look when he said goodmorning.

I had a dream that my dad adopted a wolf thinking it was a puppy. It was an older black wolf cub with yellow eyes. When I tried to tell my dad that it bit me and kept knocking down everything in the room, but he wouldn't believe me because he kept thinking that it was a normal puppy, or he'd laugh and say that it's cute.
I think I had that dream because my dad always says how he wants to bring home any cute stray dog he sees on the street.

I had a dream that my sister said that she was going to pay for my top surgery so I got it.  I forgot to get my Mansculpt though.   :o  The dream felt so real until I woke up and realized my jigglypuffs were still smashed in between my pillows. 

I also had a dream I found change on the ground.

Today I dreamed that my father, Dr. Garramone, and I had lunch at an airport and that I was in therapy about to get ready to set an appointment with an endo

Hmmm the previous dream was about getting top surgery and now having lunch with my top surgeon?  You know what I'm thinking about when I'm awake.   :P

THIS time I had a dream that my mom and sister accepted me and they were going to take me to get my top surgery done so I was on the operating table and when saw this women who was about to operate on me named Katey.  I said NOOOOOOOO I wanted Dr. Garramone to operate on me.  He's the man who is going to take my money not you!  I told her I know you may have good credentials but I want Dr. Garramone.  After that my mother drove me down to Florida to have a consultation with Dr. Garramone and I asked him would I be a good candidate for the Mansculpt and he said no because I'm too large.  I thought that was crazy but I told him I want it anyway.

The dream changes to where I'm in a math class with my 10th grade English teacher and I'm learning about perimeters and then lunch came to us and I got the chicken and gravy biscuit.  I wish I would have gotten the Chinese food because the biscuit was burnt a little bit.

The other day I dreamed about dating a lady that was here on Susan's. 

Last night, I dreamed about fighting Chucky (the doll) though he wasn't much of a threat given he was small and a doll.  I can't remember too many details because I kept waking up throughout the dream.

I dreamed that I went to a friends house and he was showing me his collection of butterflies. Their bodies were only the size of a foot-long subway sandwich and I was too terrified to note the size of the wings. One landed on me and I ran out of the room screaming, just wanting it to get off. Then I woke up and had cold chills for a minute. I hate butterflies!

That I got lost in Thailand and for some reason everyone was speaking Russian. . .

I don't know what I dreamed about, but I woke up having taken off my shirt and thrown it on the floor. I hope I had the presence of mind to do it carefully, without stretching any incisions.

The other day I dreamed that we would be getting a new troll here.  I don't remember what I dreamed about last night.

EDIT NOW I remember lol

I was dating a transguy from here but he didn't seem too much interested in me lol.

I had a dream that was really, really effing scary. I can't remember it at all, but I woke up terrified, in a cold sweat, and on the verge of tears.

Yay I love dream threads.

Ayden I have scary dreams too sometimes. I hope it doesn't happen to you very often.

I don't remember what I dreamed last night.

I've had night terrors since I was a kid. They don't happen as often any more, but I still get them. I'm just glad I can't remember what they are about.

I had a dream that I was fasley accused of something and went to jail and I was called sir.  There was another transguy there who was using their STP at a urinal and one of the guys found out it was an STP.....wasn't a fun situation for him lol.

Though I've been to Rainbow Skate (http://"http://www.rainbowskate.net/") three times now, last night was the first time I had a dream about it.

I dreamed that while skating, a woman joined me and began skating with me. While we were skating she said that she was glad she deleted her profiles at lesbian dating sites.

Of course, I awoke from this dream alone. But unlike other times when I awoke from a dating or "intimate" dream, I wasn't bummed that I awoke alone. It was a dream that made me happy rather than reinforcing my alone-ness.

Last night I dreamed that it was dark and when I looked up at the moon in the sky it was shaped like a peppermint stamped with the Mickey Mouse Logo.  I got scared so I went inside my house and to my surprise saw Cindy James there with another person that was like a spouse and they were discussing Austraila.

Dreamt that for some reason my snake was suddenly 40 feet long, converted to being a vegitarian, had a monocle and top hat and was making me tea and asking about my day. He sounded like Benedict Cumberbatch. Then He let me sit on his tail and we watched Chip 'n Dale's Rescue Rangers.

This really was more of a day dream instead of a sleeping dream but I dreamed that I was done with all my surgeries paid-in-full and I had a stable enough job to go to anime expo and cosplay with no expense spared with a partner

I dreamed that I was a cismale in my forties living in a shack on a rocky coast somewhere cold. There didn't seem to be any point to it, though. No plot.

I was Batman and tested out new wings by jumping off a hill and gliding around this lake that's close to my house.  Later on I explained to a woman how to make enamel jewelry and took my grandmother to the post office.  Strange things go on in my head at night...

A spider :(

Quote from: Malachite on April 10, 2012, 02:13:37 PM
A spider :(

It's my fault you didn't dream about kittens.

Note to self: Don't talk to Felix before bed   :-X

Quote from: Felix on April 10, 2012, 11:27:33 PM
It's my fault you didn't dream about kittens.

Time to grab the pitch forks!

My god I dreamed about living under a totalitarian regime and trying to get a job as a healthcare worker. I had this pet cat I couldn't keep because I wasn't allowed to own things or animals. I was passing as barely of age and so I was assigned to a unit with older teenagers. We had to drag in the bodies (living and dead) of people who had been shot down while trying to escape the country. There were these weird circular helicopters with so many guns and cameras. There were more demented and mentally ill people walking around than documented and conscripted people. The street signs were all wrong. There wasn't enough of anything and the underground economy was as lively as the legit one. Lots of robots, too.

Jeez that was an intense dream. I woke up and my daughter had climbed into bed with me, had wedged herself into the space between myself and the wall, and she was holding her little stuffed elephant. The contrast between the dreamscape and real life was disorienting.

If I could remember, I would tell you  :)   But then again, if I told you there is a good possibility it would freak you out for the rest of your life  :laugh: >:-) :laugh:

I dreamed that my cousion (not blood cousin I just call her that out of conveince), her daughter and I went to an amusement park and her daughter twisted and broke my glasses so I stabbed her to death.  I knew the father would be mad so I tried to hide away from him.  She found me and told me that she doesn't blame her daughter's death on me and that she blames it on the dad for not being around as much.  He eventually found us at the mall and they confronted each other and come to find out that he was cheating on her so she finally walked out of his life and we developed a romantic interest for each other.  This had to be one of the better dreams that I've had lately.  It made me feel all warm inside.  ^_^

I think I experienced sleep paralysis. I might have just dreamed about it though. I'm not sure if I actually opened my eyes or not, but I kept seeing my hand lying on the bed next to me and not being able to move it. This happened about six times, then my foot twitched and I was awake.

I dreamed that I baked Sailor Moon treats and then Felix and I visited a prison and had cheesecake there.  Then we went back to my house and he bit a part of the top of my Mr. Limpy off and then after he left my family discovered my packer and right then and there the reputation system came back and I got more smites. >.>

Thanks Felix.   :D

I dreamed that I was still married and that my wife was looking forward to being married to a woman.

Damn.

Quote from: Connie Anne on April 16, 2012, 01:53:43 PM
I dreamed that I was still married and that my wife was looking forward to being married to a woman.

Damn.

-hugs-

Thanks, Malachite.

We're still friends, so things could be much worse.

Quote from: Malachite on April 16, 2012, 01:36:26 PM
I dreamed that I baked Sailor Moon treats and then Felix and I visited a prison and had cheesecake there.  Then we went back to my house and he bit a part of the top of my Mr. Limpy off and then after he left my family discovered my packer and right then and there the reputation system came back and I got more smites. >.>

Thanks Felix.   :D

Lol. Sorry about your packer. >:-)

Quote from: Felix on April 16, 2012, 10:03:19 PM
Lol. Sorry about your packer. >:-)

It would not have happened if it was not glow-in-the-dark orange and flavored like a 50-50 ice cream bar.

Quote from: Jamie D on April 16, 2012, 10:11:47 PM
It would not have happened if it was not glow-in-the-dark orange and flavored like a 50-50 ice cream bar.

LOLOLOL

I dreamed that the house my family used to live in was a brothel in Germany during WWII and one of the prostitutes was spy for the Allies. Me and my CO had to hunt down a US soldier who was a double-agent and I was the one who killed him. I hate dreaming of violence. And, I was a man in this dream.

But, I also dreamed that I, as a transwoman, was swimming in the ocean to the narration of what seemed like a children's book about global warming. We were swimming in the Arctic ocean and it was quite warm. The theme of the book seemed to be that the ice floes were gone and so were the polar bears. The narrator eventually joined me in the ocean and the story part ended. She eventually led me to this resort-like area and, even though I was anatomically male, was responding to me as if I were a woman, eventually embracing and kissing me.

It was a long, epic dream about skiing, being with my family, and defeating the bad guy.  The highlight was dreaming that I was asleep on my side and felt something warm press against my back.  I rolled over and discovered that it was a black bear cub, so I hugged and played with it for a while.  Anyways, I woke up an found myself on my side with my cat pressed up against my back.  The bear must have been when she joined me last night.  :D

It was raining and I went out to eat with some friends and took my time ordering but I ordered a Bacon cheeseburger with monzerella cheese and the waiter got an attitude with me.

I love this thread.

I dreamed I was a 19 year old in college and my professor was abusing his grading powers by trading them for sexual favors. ;D

That was okay until it ended suddenly with "GOOD MORNING DADDY!"

Dammit. :laugh:

Quote from: Felix on April 19, 2012, 03:42:14 PM
I love this thread.

I dreamed I was a 19 year old in college and my professor was abusing his grading powers by trading them for sexual favors. ;DThat was okay until it ended suddenly with "GOOD MORNING DADDY!"

Dammit. :laugh:

That is an awesome dream!  ;)  If only my professors were like that.

Cheesecake!!!  ;D

Quote from: MacKenzie on April 19, 2012, 04:09:25 PM
Cheesecake!!!  ;D

Did you get to eat it before waking up?

I had three different dreams. 

One my mom told me that my whole room was going to be nuked so I had 15 minutes to get everything out. 

I had a penis and was able to penetrate so I penetrated someone even though I wasn't attracted to them.  I couldn't feel it or was sexually aroused though and I had trouble with the blood  flow but I got it in.

I met up with my Chief from NJROTC and told him how I missed his class and he said he understands and let me be an honorary member for during PT time with one of his classes and I lead dodge ball but no one played because every one was just sitting down being quiet on laptops even him so I felt awkward and I went up to one of the boys and saw his Gameinformer magazine.  This from came from being from the jungle setting in Call of Duty: Black Ops.

Grrrrr I forgot what I dreamed about this time....perhaps I will remember later.

I have some interesting dreams too sometimes...

Last night I dreamed I was a punk-goth singer that could sing like Simon Curtis, had an Aston Martin that looked like Knock Out from Transformers Prime, and flew to Oregon to pick up some long lost girl from my dreams... O.o

My teacher gave me a police radio to contact for emerency when I need it and I accidently pressed it but apologized.  Then A few minutes later my house was being broken into by a guy I knew and I detained him and used the radio to stop the others who were waiting outside but the cop took oo long and so they went away and the guy escaped but I caught him and he turned into a heavy set black women with a small penis and I asked her did she havea metoidioplasty and she said "yes but I'm a real woman."  I was just thinking to myself wtf.

My next dream I dream I was driving my sister's jeep to church at night and the church was 10 seconds away and I tried to stop at the stop sign but her breaks wouldn't work so the police stopped me and she gave me a warning.  I didn't even want to go to church after that which sucks because there was a boxing match going on there and a big party.  That made me upset today. :(  I'm already scared of driving and in almost every driving dream I have the breaks don't work so I go crazy and the cops come after me. >.>

Last night I dreamt that I was a Spartan but was stuck in Spongebob's universe and for some reason was attacked by zombies with chainsaws and I'll I had for a weapon was uncooked potatoes...I should probably chill with the electronics for a while

The water park near me had a cool new ride like a roller coaster but underwater.  I kept riding it, and each time it got creepier.  The first time it was normal.  The second time there were skeletons of things that had been killed on it.  The third time there was a ghost haunting it who was trying to kill a woman.  I was about to face the ghost when it started buzzing loudly at me.  Ends up I was waking up to someone texting me. 

Here's hoping the woman got away safely without me.  :P

I had two dreams last night. The first, I was hockey player but i ever time i went to score a goal, i ended up switching teams -.-

My second dream was a little more interesting. I was a bounty hunter in a futuristic world and I was bitten by an alien and turned into a wirewolf whenever people lied to me...and I had some weird boss fight with Megatron and the Incredible Hulk but I woke up before I could beat them.

I dreamed I was male.  I was a very good looking man with slightly androgynous looks, long black hair, and grey eyes.  I also had a snazzy way of dressing that resembled the 1700s/1800s.  And I was happy.

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The dream was very detailed, but I'm not going into it because some of it was private, lol.  But the dream has made me dysphoric.

Zombies. They were after so me so I hid in a bathroom which had a big window that everybody that walked by could see me. I was holding two guns, one was empty and the other shot chocolate bullets so I shot one into my mouth and woke up after that.
It was a strange dream...

Quote from: Malachite on April 21, 2012, 12:07:07 PM
I'm already scared of driving and in almost every driving dream I have the breaks don't work

Quote from: Liam Erik on April 21, 2012, 06:14:21 PM
I dreamed the brakes went out on the tractor and I went careening down an extremely long hill, all the way into town.  Then I dreamed I had a son and I had to rescue him. 

I once had my brakes go out driving during rush hour on 280 in suburban Birmingham, where it's at least six lanes and lined with shopping centers and whatever. It was crazy. I ran a red light and dodged cars and coasted as best I could over to a parking lot. Definitely wasn't fun, but it was exciting.

Idk what I dreamed last night. I had a guy sleep over and I remember telling him something about trying to find the exit of a building and stumbling into a boardroom meeting full of business types.

Last night, I was going about my day, and for some reason, I was just walking around the mall, and people were calling me "miss", "lady", "ma'am" and all of that fun stuff, and I was wondring why. I go home to look in the mirror and lo and behold, I was a girl! I looked in the mirror for hours and just marveled at my soft skin, my pretty eyes, and my awesome hair.

I woke up very very happy. :)

My 4 year old nephew has been dreaming about girls shaking their behinds and his mom is trying to figure out where he is getting those dreams from.  Why can't I dream about women parading around me?  :(

Well, my beautician (27) tells me today, she had a dream about me...
Apparently her being surrounded by all her former school girl-friends, I told them, they first need to get a leg-wax before they could go out shopping with us...
Good for business, I say.
Giggle... :)

Axélle

I dreamt I had an red Aston Martin and had a rather intense race against a yellow Gallardo...and of course woke up before I won ^~^

I was in Australia and found some pocket change and Cindy James demanded that she take it.  I kept the change in my hand for so long and mourned over it that she just stopped carrying for it.

My next dream was me digging in my back yard to find more change and some stuff I had buried.

Dick's.... ._.
I was thinking about bottom surgery so that probably why. Then my friend sent me a text tell me I should use the bathroom I'm suppose to (The women's) And that was probably because I talked to him about using the mens bathroom but never got a reply. I was worried when I woke up because I thought it might of been real...

I don't remember mine but my daughter told me she dreamed about giant alien seals with elephant legs. She said they "farted so stinkily" that they could use it as a weapon. :laugh:

I had a dream that my online ex and I got together and had sexual relations.  I knew she was still with her other girlfriend so I asked her how her gf was doing and she said fine.  It was just good to be with someone even if that person is a lunatic.  While she was in the bathroom I pulled out some testosterone that I had came into online.  There were no instructions as to how I should inject myself and I was scared to do it anyway.  I thought about the Susans site and how I felt like I was going to let everyone on Susans down if I self medicated.  Also it looked like a lot of T in the needle.  I decided not to do it and slipped back into a state of depression of feeling trapped in my situation.....symbolic huh?

In my dream I was a spy and I went to get a tan but someone locked the bed and I couldn't get out....it was a rather interesting dream sense I've never been to a tanning booth and now I have a sudden fear of getting locked in one of those beds. Perhaps I shouldn't watch movies like SAW before bed.

A mix between Uncharted video game and Dead Space 2, a book, a giant bug, a deep hole and a school and Chloe from Uncharted 2- none of it made sense

A picture that had a scence from american psycho and a horse that had writting all over it. It was in the room where a girl who had been kidnapped was being held. She was holding a red ribbon. Me and a group of other kids led by Albus Dumbledore (no joke) were going to rescue her. The castle that we were going to had a spell so you couldn't get there without paying 6,000. So we took out our cell phone which said we had 9,000 and payed. There was barking coming from the castle too.

I have really wierd dreams. :/

Quote from: Felix on April 22, 2012, 07:12:46 PM
I once had my brakes go out driving during rush hour on 280 in suburban Birmingham, where it's at least six lanes and lined with shopping centers and whatever. It was crazy. I ran a red light and dodged cars and coasted as best I could over to a parking lot. Definitely wasn't fun, but it was exciting.

Idk what I dreamed last night. I had a guy sleep over and I remember telling him something about trying to find the exit of a building and stumbling into a boardroom meeting full of business types.

Down->-bleeped-<- to the lowest gear possible.

Gently engage the parking brake - which used to be called the emergency brake

Quote from: Felix on April 24, 2012, 11:13:30 AM
I don't remember mine but my daughter told me she dreamed about giant alien seals with elephant legs. She said they "farted so stinkily" that they could use it as a weapon. :laugh:

Proof positive cruciferous vegetables are not of this world.

Last night I dreamed that my ex wanted to take me back :(

and a few days ago I drempt that I was in our apt before we broke up and the whole house was falling apart and the door's deadbolt was missing and I was calling his name over and over but he wouldn't look up or listen and he was too busy with his schools gay group.

some less depressing dreams include..

Me being with Eric Northman from true blood and telling him he had soft skin and him getting all turned on and sensitive and sweet like in the fourth season

Then I had another dream about being with this really cute guy, on a date and he was really into me, and I felt wanted and desired.. it was nice

Lying in bed with a cheetah, it gently chewing my arm with it's pointy sharp teeth.
(It would have punctured my skin no time, if it had thoughts otherwise than being REALLY gentle) It liked to act really cuddly - best such an animal could...
It felt nice but also a bit on the edge... a bit scary.

All the while talking to some other person in the adjacent room about how much a need it is for him to finish his education. Finish his schooling, not to underestimate the limitations caused by not going back and finish it.

Then sitting in a court room to give an opinion about a nephew of mine (drug addict, alcoholic, many, many re-habs..) totally unreliable, VERY mixed up, at 31 still depending completely on his parents, living with them after being kicked out by his girl friend (15 years his senior). Unemployable and taking everyone for a ride, stealing from every one, and then saying he will repay and of course never doing such. One great manipulator... sweet a hony-pie when required...

So, his parents sitting next to me in court. All I intended to say that I had to recuse myself... because I think his parents are one MAJOR cause of him being such a mess. He never was taught ANY discipline at all.

This is pretty real stuff... not the court-room sitting though --- well, not yet at any rate...
So much for last night dreams.

Hum...
Axélle

Quote from: Elijah on April 26, 2012, 12:24:54 AM
Last night I dreamed that my ex wanted to take me back :(

and a few days ago I drempt that I was in our apt before we broke up and the whole house was falling apart and the door's deadbolt was missing and I was calling his name over and over but he wouldn't look up or listen and he was too busy with his schools gay group.

some less depressing dreams include..

Me being with Eric Northman from true blood and telling him he had soft skin and him getting all turned on and sensitive and sweet like in the fourth season

Then I had another dream about being with this really cute guy, on a date and he was really into me, and I felt wanted and desired.. it was nice

Elijah somebody else will love you in time.

Quote from: Lynn Gabriel on April 22, 2012, 02:50:19 PM
I dreamed I was male.  I was a very good looking man with slightly androgynous looks, long black hair, and grey eyes.  I also had a snazzy way of dressing that resembled the 1700s/1800s.  And I was happy.

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The dream was very detailed, but I'm not going into it because some of it was private, lol.  But the dream has made me dysphoric.

I think you were dreaming you were Boy George.

Quote from: Jamie D on April 26, 2012, 02:54:47 AM
I think you were dreaming you were Boy George.

Nahhh, all sounds like Oscar Wild, give me a break! :)

.... or maybe Francis Drake, not Drag... mind you

Axélle

I did not dream about anything, because I could not fall asleep last night.
And believe me, I tried.
I'm actually hoping my body gives out and I pass out at some point later today, because at least then I'd be forced to sleep.

Thanks everyone, I really wish I could control my dreams.. I need to practice more with my lucid ones.  Has anyone here had a lucid dream? I have only had one in my life, I was dating this guy and I drempt I had a penis and I was masturbating and I was lucid! It was awesome and then I woke up and I think my hands were on my ex's dick lol.

Murder, destruction, mayhem, and World War 3

Quote from: JayKyle on April 26, 2012, 01:05:46 PM
Murder, destruction, mayhem, and World War 3

Let me have some of that.

Quote from: Malachite on April 26, 2012, 01:07:23 PM
Let me have some of that.

^^ Come join it will be loads of fun!

And I really have a hankering for some airsoft or paintball or something now ><

I dreamt that I went on a vacation to the moon, and apparently it was being run by Stalin. My partner and I were arrested, and he talked to Stalin so we didn't get sent to the Mars George Orwell Institute (that was really the name). Instead, Joe ended up teaching Stalin how to play Magic: The Gathering. Then my partner, Stalin and I all watched Blazing Saddles.

I keep dreaming with this FTM young and handsome dude I briefly meet at the FanFree clinic about a month ago...Oh, why I did not get his name and phone?

I had three dreams last night.

First one: I got all cyber punked up and went clubbing and ended up going home with two dudes

Second one: I was a Transformer Seeker and was being chased by the US goverment and ended up crashing in New York City.

Third One: I joined in a riot in Ireland against England that turned into a full blown war of which Ireland won and reclaimed its independancy from the Brits...

I have no idea where those came from...

Something about my nephew grabbing onto me, wet leaves, keys on the ground,  hot dog place, birthday cake, potential barfight, sister, sailor moon but I'm too lazy to compile it all together.

Quote from: Malachite on April 28, 2012, 04:18:52 PM
Something about my nephew grabbing onto me, wet leaves, keys on the ground,  hot dog place, birthday cake, potential barfight, sister, sailor moon but I'm too lazy to compile it all together.

o.O okay then...you have fun with that

Quote from: JayKyle on April 28, 2012, 04:46:58 PM
o.O okay then...you have fun with that

LOL 

Quote from: Malachite on April 28, 2012, 05:01:21 PM
LOL

:D

Quote from: Elijah on April 26, 2012, 11:59:24 AM
Thanks everyone, I really wish I could control my dreams.. I need to practice more with my lucid ones.  Has anyone here had a lucid dream? I have only had one in my life, I was dating this guy and I drempt I had a penis and I was masturbating and I was lucid! It was awesome and then I woke up and I think my hands were on my ex's dick lol.

I used to do lucid dreaming. I got sorta good at it and my psychiatrist asked me to please stop it because he felt that overriding what my body/brain wanted to do was clouding the picture a bit much. I'm a good boy so I stopped.

I haven't remembered a lot lately but I do know that I was having a serious and spooky dream the other day and it just turned into a fapfest after an explosion threw a submarine into a glowing hole in the ground. Lol. The suggestive imagery killed the plot. XD

Some guy was running around and I was chasing after him but when I got to this school the student's were freaking out because something was wrong so I ran away. I was in a store after that and there was an earthquake. I hid under a table were an old classmate of mine was. We grabbed a hold of each other hands and I told him 'don't let go' as every thing started shaking.

Woke up, fell asleep and dreamed again. btw my arm was in an uncomfortable postion so when I woke up it was all numb. :/

I was on a ship and me and the people with me had found treasure but pirates came to steal it. They demanded to know where the rest of it was so someone was leading them downstairs. I wanted to go to but they stopped me to look inside my bag(it had gold) I dropped it pretending there wasn't anything of value in it. Then someone started screaming to freak them out. We cornered the captain and were deciding what to do with him I woke up.

Quote from: Felix on April 28, 2012, 09:06:48 PM
I haven't remembered a lot lately but I do know that I was having a serious and spooky dream the other day and it just turned into a fapfest after an explosion threw a submarine into a glowing hole in the ground. Lol. The suggestive imagery killed the plot. XD

OMG, I freakin' LOLed!

I'm a frequent lucid dreamer. This is something I actively pursued over the years and my lucid dreams (and the non-lucid ones) have been evolving over time. I used to attempt to force things, and succeeded to varying degrees, but I've been taking an approach of more going with the flow of the dream. I think of it as it's all me, that my consciousness is just part of who I am and my sub-conscious is also me, just a different part, and the two are having a conversation of sorts. These conversations are healthy and have a purpose. It's okay to be lucid, IMHO, during these chats. It's even okay to manipulate the dream to some extent as long as it doesn't feel violent or forced, because that's symbolic of a kind of self-hatred.

I recently had a lucid dream where suddenly these security guards came out of a door and rushed me with various weapons drawn. My first thought was how do I defend myself and defeat them. Do I blast them with fire, draw a weapon, etc.? Then I thought, "No, they're me. They're not some other that you have to fight with." And I said it out loud in the dream "No" very calmly. They guards stopped in their tracks. The guy in front was holding up some kind of sharp thing. I put my finger on the tip of it and just gently pushed it down to his side and he complied. They just stood there looking kind of confused but all their anger drained away.

It felt like quite a victory and without any bloodshed.

I was in class and then suddenly I woke up in a mental hospital.   There was a vending machine so I collected all of the pennies under it.  I remember being naked around a swimming pool inside that they had and the nurse was looking at me.  This was an awkard dream.  Tons of crazy people they had to take care of so they couldn't answer to me why I was there.  Then I was on a boat because of a fload and I ried to bring people with me but some were so heavy I couldn't pick them up so they drowned. 

Quote from: Malachite on May 01, 2012, 12:10:25 PM
Then I was on a boat because of a fload and I ried to bring people with me but some were so heavy I couldn't pick them up so they drowned.

Some blatant symbolism there.

I think I heard a truck outside that triggered this dream. I was at my house out in the woods and I could swear a big truck was pulling out of my neighbor's driveway, but then the noise changed or got louder or something and I turned and saw a giant boar, and I mean giant. It was as big as a small house. I hid behind a cluster of trees and just stared at it in awe. I should've figured out I was dreaming by then but I didn't. I was just standing there trying to process how such a thing could exist and not be discovered.

I was on the police force and the commissioner kept teasing me for being trans. I ended up going to a function where he tried to look big by teasing and insulting me again at the dining table. People stood up and stood behind me and talked of the help that I had been to them and basically put the commissioner in his place!

Then I woke up. I guess my mind was trying to tell me that people can be jack@$$#$ but there are people who support me.

Hmm well in sumary...sex, drugs and rock n' roll; need i say more?

Quote from: JayKyle on May 05, 2012, 10:07:11 PM
Hmm well in sumary...sex, drugs and rock n' roll; need i say more?

Yes :)

Quote from: Malachite on May 05, 2012, 10:09:49 PM
Yes :)

Lol ...that it was fun and I want to make it a reality perhaps :D

This person I met from Craigslist tried to stab me in the eye with a needle and then went around the hospital stabbing patients in their eye and head.

In the next dream I was trying to help this guy and girl from my class avoid law enforcement.

In the next dream I was going on a class trip to NY and went to the bathroom.

Took a nap and had another dream that my dogs were alive. But from a perspective of not having seen them since they died rather than being in the past.

Predictably woke up with my pillow soaked and tears streaming down my face.

Crying in dreams is an interesting experience; everything is so much more vivid.

Ugh... I hate it so much when this happens. :(

Quote from: Sephirah on May 08, 2012, 02:45:51 PM
Took a nap and had another dream that my dogs were alive. But from a perspective of not having seen them since they died rather than being in the past.

Predictably woke up with my pillow soaked and tears streaming down my face.

Crying in dreams is an interesting experience; everything is so much more vivid.

Ugh... I hate it so much when this happens. :(

-hugs- !


I dreamed that a transman I was following on Youtube finally replied back to my comment and he said that I was very intelligent for trying to have a plan in my transition.

I keep having the same dream over a few times now. This guy wants to kill me and he has spies who are my friends but then i get the jump on him and i almost kill him and then they become my friends.

Going back in time to highschool except I was born as a male that knew karate, was in flags, and drove a mustang....it was a weird dream.

I keep dreaming, I am pretty, hot, and womanly. Sadly, I keep waking up, ugly, manly, icky.

I dreamed i was trying to lose weight and grow my hair longer and look sexy.. Then all of a sudden my friend gets a call from my son who hasn't spoken to me in 14 yrs saying he was trying to get in touch with me.. then i woke up knowing it was only a dream.. :(

I can't recall what my dream last night was about, but I know I was a woman and spoke a few words in French.  I can't remember what I said either, but apparently it is a good sign I am actually learning something!
Tres Cool!

More sex, myself, an acting career, and living life to the fullest.

Walking pantsless in walmart looking for cereal.  There were some great deals on General Millscereal for $2.99 but I didn't have any money.

Quote from: Malachite on May 09, 2012, 09:58:04 PM
Walking pantsless in walmart looking for cereal.  There were some great deals on General Millscereal for $2.99 but I didn't have any money.

lol thats EPIC :D

Quote from: JayKyle on May 09, 2012, 10:07:02 PM
lol thats EPIC :D

Haha well thanks :D I was shocked I didn't get kicked out.

I saw a beautiful mansion off in the distance and I pointed out to those standing around me, including Barack Obama, that it reminded me of a mansion I have frequently seen in my dreams (didn't know I was dreaming). It was very familiar. I've dreamed about it before and it seems real, as if I've seen it IRL before or maybe just had dreams so vivid that it seems like I have. It feels like it's supposed to be mine and should be mine some day.

Then Ian McKellen started chanting something as he sort of pushed me down into a lying position and it was putting me into a trance--I couldn't open my eyes or move. He said we all have different powers. He was lying on top of me and I think he molested me a little, but I think the idea was he was helping me to channel my powers in some way so that I could get my mansion somehow, whatever that takes. Maybe it means coming into a lot of money somehow. That's odd though because I don't really care that much about being rich. Sure it would be nice, but it's not something I would go to great efforts to attain.

^^ lol....cereal!!!
Last night it was zombies :(

1.  My cousin and her child were laying down in my living room watching tv and the room was messy.  I was watching an MtF channel and my sister was looking.

2.  This Walmart lady took my CoD item and destroyed it so in returned I donated tons of stuffed animals to Walmart.

3.  The adult members of our church were in a wrestling ring about to play dodgeball and I was the only one who didn't get their own theme song and entrance so while they were playing I tossed the whole ring over andthey fell out and I laughed and said "how about them apples [censored].  It was soooo funny I actually thought in my dream that when I wake up I was going to post this on Susans.

Quote from: Malachite on May 10, 2012, 06:07:29 PM
1.  My cousin and her child were laying down in my living room watching tv and the room was messy.  I was watching an MtF channel and my sister was looking.

2.  This Walmart lady took my CoD item and destroyed it so in returned I donated tons of stuffed animals to Walmart.

3.  The adult members of our church were in a wrestling ring about to play dodgeball and I was the only one who didn't get their own theme song and entrance so while they were playing I tossed the whole ring over andthey fell out and I laughed and said "how about them apples [censored].  It was soooo funny I actually thought in my dream that when I wake up I was going to post this on Susans.

I love that when i am dreaming and i know i am dreaming.. I can change the direction of my dreams..

Quote from: Amazon D on May 10, 2012, 06:24:48 PM

I love that when i am dreaming and i know i am dreaming.. I can change the direction of my dreams..

I hope to be able to use that to do lucid dreaming one day.

Character plottings for my next book (well if I ever can stick with a story long enough to finish it ^o^)

Is it considered lucid dreaming if you can go to bed and decide what you want to dream about, and dream exactly that and only about that?  Such as a story and world you are wanting to create and such? You know, like before hand; premeditated dreaming?

To my understanding, the defining characteristic of a lucid dream is that you are aware it's a dream while you're experiencing it. I'm not sure what to call what you just described, but it sounds pretty cool.

Quote from: dalebert on May 11, 2012, 11:23:22 AM
To my understanding, the defining characteristic of a lucid dream is that you are aware it's a dream while you're experiencing it. I'm not sure what to call what you just described, but it sounds pretty cool.

Thats why i'm not sure what I do. Like I'll be dreaming my dream or whatever and I'll decide I don't like a particular part, so I'll go back and redream it and recreate it how I would want it to happen but its not like I'm in the dream and actually manipulating the characters by doing normal lucidic stuff....I guess I'm just a cool kid like that lol

Quote from: JayKyle on May 11, 2012, 11:26:09 AM
Thats why i'm not sure what I do. Like I'll be dreaming my dream or whatever and I'll decide I don't like a particular part, so I'll go back and redream it and recreate it how I would want it to happen but its not like I'm in the dream and actually manipulating the characters by doing normal lucidic stuff....I guess I'm just a cool kid like that lol

I kind of know what you mean.  Like usually if I'm having a nightmare I will say "hey I'm sick and tired of this nightmare.  I'm waking up now." or I will rewind the dream until I can evade the nightmare.

Like a few months ago I had a dream I was the girl dressed up as the cheerleader in the Hostel 3 movie and I had to escape or they would cut my face off so I ran out the door and ran and ran until I was in a situation where I was going to get grabbed because I was out of breath.  I said REDO and kept trying to escape until I got in the car with someone and wind up on the side of a river waking up from danger.  I finally said to myself "ok this dream is boring.  I'm waking up now, bye." and then I woke up.  If I could just lucid dream about sex all the time then that would be soooooo awesome.



Today I dreamed that me and this person was homeless but we did some odd jobs to find a place to live.  The dream changed to being by the moon with this girl who was my lover I suppose and we spoke.  It was a nice dream but I wish it was a different girl.

an ex boyfriend coming back into my life....not fun :/

I had a bad dream that I got hurt and I couldn't walk. I went to a movie with a friend of mine, and a scary trailer for a zombie movie came on, and I started having a panic attack. It wasn't a regular like Dawn of the Dead kinda zombie movie. Nothing came back to life - mammals simply didn't die. So much sickliness and mutations and howling and hollering and darkness.

Anyway so I was shaking and freaking out and my friend helped me gimp my way out of the theater to a lobby. He went back in. I was sitting by a TV that was showing the same preview but I couldn't walk away. I jammed the buttons and got the visual aspect to turn off. I couldn't mute it though. I rocked back and forth and held my hands on my ears. It was rough. Too real. :-\

Quote from: Felix on May 14, 2012, 01:50:28 AM
I had a bad dream that I got hurt and I couldn't walk. I went to a movie with a friend of mine, and a scary trailer for a zombie movie came on, and I started having a panic attack. It wasn't a regular like Dawn of the Dead kinda zombie movie. Nothing came back to life - mammals simply didn't die. So much sickliness and mutations and howling and hollering and darkness.

Anyway so I was shaking and freaking out and my friend helped me gimp my way out of the theater to a lobby. He went back in. I was sitting by a TV that was showing the same preview but I couldn't walk away. I jammed the buttons and got the visual aspect to turn off. I couldn't mute it though. I rocked back and forth and held my hands on my ears. It was rough. Too real. :-\

That does sound like a scary dream and it sounds real too. 

I had this dream last night that I was driving a work truck with a ladder rack and an extension ladder on the top of the truck. I remember it was windy and I was on the interstate and for some reason the top half of the ladder broke loose from the ratchet strap holding it down and blew off the truck causing a massive accident. By time I got to where the section of ladder was sitting on the road there was a massive pile up, lots of carnage.

I've had this happen to me once on the interstate, though it wasn't on a truck but a van that didn't have an actual ladder rack but I had the ladder strapped down to one of those after market "high end" luggage racks. Luckily when it happened I was being followed by two 18 wheelers, they must have been like "zomg dude... lets block off traffic so no one hits that stuff" after if blew off so there was no damage to anyone's vehicle. Just a momentary pause in traffic flow.

Ever since that happened to me I've purchased actual ladder / cargo racks for my vehicles averaging around $300 and I don't use ratchet straps to hold stuff down. My ladders are held down by a large U bolt.

This happened along time ago and I still get scared about having stuff on a rack in my truck when it gets windy.

Had nightmares about Leviathon and hordes of other monsters from the show Supernatural. This is very unusual for me to have nightmares that seem inspired by a show or movie I've just watched.

Posted to my FB:

QuoteHad nightmares last night which is fairly unusual for me and have heard several stories of other people having particularly disturbing nightmares bordering on or actually being night terrors. Freaking me out just a tiny bit as if there is a foreboding, a ripple in the interactive social consciousness, but then I figure it's just coincidence.

A spontaneous and not planned dream where i was a physical therapist at a VA hospital...it was nice and sad, and defiantly got me thinking

I had a dream that I was on an airplane and it was about to take off. I'm not sure where I was going, but I felt like it had something to do with transitioning procedures. BTW, I've never flew on an airplane before.

Quote from: Malachite on March 04, 2012, 01:42:07 AM
I dreamed that I was preparing for Lasik eye surgery when it was supposed to be top surgery.  I didn't want the eye surgery because of the bad reviews I heard but I was kind of pressure to get it and the anesthetic was too high so the doctor rubbed thick cloudy alcohol on my eye and started cutting into it.  I could feel the sting so bad that my physical body was hurting outside of my dream so I thought "hell no" and woke myself up.

:icon_yikes: Yikes! That's a horror story. Hope I don't have nightmares.

Quote from: Marcy22 on May 14, 2012, 07:04:59 PM
:icon_yikes:Yikes! That's a horror story. Hope I don't have nightmares.

Yeah that was not a fun dream for me :/  That's part of the reason I don't want lasik eye surgery now.

I've been having dreams of my best friend. I've known him for over 20 years & he had past away couple years ago. Every time I see him in my dreams, I hug him & tell him what he's doing here. He always looks confused in my dreams. Then I wake up & find out it was just a dream.   :'(

Quote from: Smuffypower on May 15, 2012, 12:57:49 AM
I've been having dreams of my best friend. I've known him for over 20 years & he had past away couple years ago. Every time I see him in my dreams, I hug him & tell him what he's doing here. He always looks confused in my dreams. Then I wake up & find out it was just a dream.   :'(

-hugs-

Thank you Malachite.  :)

Partying like a Rock Star :P

I dreamed that I was somehow in a quasi rave-orgy in a small warehouse in San Francisco. I was giving a shoulder run to a guy who was about to get a BJ when the police arrived. They only detained folks with drugs, and I able to go. But, someone had stolen my backpack and sweatshirt. Though my purse had been rifled through, they left that.

I was at my brother in law's house and had to take the bus back and was almost late so I ran and fell in some faulty concrete.  A man asked if I needed help getting up but I said no because I didn't want to feel emasculated so I said no.  Also I accidently sat on my PSP on the concrete and scratched it.

I dreamed I was in a game that was a combination of Return to Castle Wolfenstein (which I've played ad nauseum) and Team Fortress 2 (which I've never played, but watched clips of on YouTube).

Gender stuff

I had a weird dream this morning. I had a dream I saw a women giving birth to twins in a medical room with nurses, & a doctor helping. After the doctor help delivered the twins, one of the twins had large feathered wings. So the doctor took the twin with the wings to a table & started cutting the wings off with a hack saw. I heard screaming & loud noise. I don't remember what exactly happened to the other twins, but I remember the other twin had something growing on him or her.  I have a lot of weird dreams, so it's pretty common for me to dream stuff like that.

I dreamed that I was on the road to start my transition but every time I tried to start a huge spider could come near me and I would be so terrified.  In the dream they were called "Minesweeps" because of how they just glided across the floor.  I could feel my body go into shock.  Every time I tried to see a gender therapist a Minesweep come come and after I had killed it another one would come and they kept coming one by one.  I tried to get my dad to help but he didn't want to.  There were on the bed in my dream too and when I woke up I actually checked for spiders.

Quote from: Malachite on May 17, 2012, 05:42:28 PM
I dreamed that I was on the road to start my transition but every time I tried to start a huge spider could come near me and I would be so terrified.  In the dream they were called "Minesweeps" because of how they just glided across the floor.  I could feel my body go into shock.  Every time I tried to see a gender therapist a Minesweep come come and after I had killed it another one would come and they kept coming one by one.  I tried to get my dad to help but he didn't want to.  There were on the bed in my dream too and when I woke up I actually checked for spiders.

I would have done the same thing

I've had dreams about creepy crawlies in bed with me or buzzing insects near my head and ears and acted exactly the same way when I woke up.

Lol I dreamed I was making cornbread. I woke up and was confused about why the mixing bowl wasn't in my hands.

The thing is that I'm so terrified of spiders that I go through a ritual every night to see if there are any around me before going to bed.  I keep turning the lights on and off after certain intervals to see if any has apppeared because when I'm semi=asleep I may see visions of spiders on my pillow or cover and then I either almost fall off the bed or in some cases run to my mom's room and sleep and when I wake up I barely remember how I got there.  On rare times I need  half a sleeping pill to relax actually go back to sleep.  It's the same way with those brown hoping crickets.  Those actually scare me more than spiders at times.


But my last dream wasn't as scary.  I was in Walmart looking at boxers when this mentally challenged man and his brother came up behind me and wanted to look too.  The brother coughed so I moved deeper into the section and they followed me.  There I saw a poster advertising Final Destination 5 and that scared me so I decided to look at another movie poster so I wouldn't have that one in my mind.  Then I left because the brothers were making me feel nervous and I didn't want to get in their way.  I left into the aisle and saw some Spongebob boxers.  They were red with Spongebob's face on the back and a black wasteband and I thought that was a boring design so I moved to the next set.  The other pair of Spongebob boxers were interesting.  They were white with a purple wasteband I beloeve and had the little Bikini bottom flowers all over them.  The other Spongebob boxers were silk-like while these were cotton-like.  I really liked them but upon closer inspection they appeared to hug your thighs more and one pair had skid marks on them EWWWW.  Then my little nephew come out of the aisle and he says, "Can you by an energy drink for my brother please?" .  This was weird because he doesn't have a brother so I assumed that my nephew was taking the place/acting as if he were the mentally challeneged guy.  He said it in such a cute voice that if I didn't buy it for his brother like he asked then everyone would view me as a jerk.  Then I thought ok this dream needs to end now because even in a dream I don't like spending money and so I woke up.

Dreamed about being possessed. Didn't help that i just watched the movie devil inside.

That Plankton was making a smile rocket which could only be fired if one smiled.

I went back to highschool with some younger kids.

I dreamed an invisible person was trying to shoot me with some space-age gun. I could only see the gun, floating at chest height and pivoting slowly back and forth. Thing is, I was invisible as well. I tried to take the gun away and realized that made me visible, because they could see the gun floating there and then THEY would be hard to find again.

I had a couple of dreams... In the first one I'd gone to a dance that was held on a basketball court at some kind of cultural center and this annoying girl kept trying to tell me about her religion  :P  I was glad to wake up from that one

So then I went back to bed and dreamed that a tall handsome guy was making love to me  :icon_redface:  Was kinda bummed when I woke up from that one  >:-)

Had a good happy sex dream.

Quote from: Felix on May 19, 2012, 11:16:23 PM
Had a good happy sex dream.

Woohoo!

I can't remember the dream, but i know i was a woman in it, so that will do. :)

I had a fun dream where I got hired onto a secret elite c.i.a. kinda team, but there was one part where I used the women's bathroom by accident and noticed and felt ashamed. That sucked. I got to guard the olympic village at one point, though, and I was strong and tough and quick, so on balance it was a great dream.

I dreamed that it was exam day in college and I forgot to do my one page paper in Criminal Justice so I was typing it up on my laptop in class.  Just as I was finishing I accidently highlighted and erased everything and couldn't recover it.  The students were starting to present already and after the first one I asked the teacher if I could go to the bathroom.  He told me yes.  I didn't take my laptop because I didn't want him to figure out what I was doing so I was going to use the downstairs computers.  I wen't into the wrong classroom at first and then downstairs where luckily there was one computer left down there.  My EMS teacher and some random gym teacher was down there teaching and I showed them my pass but they didn't want to see it.

I had a hard time concrentrating on what to type even though I had notes in front of me and time was ticking and it wouldn't be long before my teacher was going to discover what I was up to.  Then I thought to myself, "why am I dreaming about school?  I don't want to dream about school especially since it's summer.  I'm waking up now."  Then I woke up.

It was a cope out but I just didn't want to get in trouble lol

I dreamed about flying monkeys from the Wizard of Oz.

It was more of a nightmare.  I love that movie, except for those hideous things.

It was a bit of day dream dozing (which tend to be a bit crazy) where I was a german rock star though I was native american (go figure). I was also 40 years old (eek!), born male (yay!), and had a daughter my age (do what?). In the course of my dream, I moved from Germany, at the request of my daughter (Lilly Jasmine Marie btw) to Missouri (why?!) where she attend my highschool and I ended up adopting my gay best friend as my son (because some how he was still his current age). In the end, a fellow band member (Darwin...?) ended up moving there as well, and I married him (sort of) and we lived semi happily stoned ever after.

I dreamed that my ex-wife and I were talking about a new T compound that would not only reverse the effects of HRT that I'd be on but allow me to be more completely a man. We were both excited about this as it meant we could be together again. But then I reminded her that she divorced me and because of that I couldn't go back.

I dreamed my dad and I were teaching my daughter how to drive. For some reason we decided to do this on the way to church, and we had a lady carpooling with us.

I'll skip all the screaming and fishtailing and near misses. We ended up in an embankment and I was stumbling around so relieved that nobody was hurt. I was so glad nobody was hurt. I thought this over and over while staring at the bodies. Everybody was dead but me, but it just couldn't be that way. I was so glad nobody was hurt. It was such a relief. I was so glad nobody was hurt.

I woke up at four in the morning and turned on all the lights and the radio and waited for the sun.

Quote from: casey on May 22, 2012, 03:31:01 PM
I dreamt I met a girl from my distant past.

That seems incredibly symbolic. I think she represents a part of you. You don't hate her, you even care about her, but you're trying to forget her for obvious reasons and that's kind of sad. I think it's probably a very healthy sign that you had sex at the end. It seems like a reconciliation of sorts within yourself.

But what do I know? :)

I dreamed that my ex-wife and I were clothes shopping at the local mall, when these 2 guys started following us and taunting me. I put the one guy in some kind of ridiculously ineffective hold that, of course, works in a dream and told him he was through messing with me. I turned my back on him and started walking out of the store. I could tell he was still following me, and my ex was no longer walking next to me. I heard her say about me in a bemused tone of voice, "Somebody better call her some help."

Quote from: casey on May 23, 2012, 02:01:13 AM
...and my name used to be Kate.

Wow, really? I'm more confident in my analysis now. I can't believe you didn't mention that. :)

Don't sweat it. Just about everything in a dream tends to be symbolic. Even the sex probably was symbolic of something else entirely.

Rollerskating, swimming, holiday celebrations, dead pets.

I dreamed that I signed up for art class at my high school (I have no clue why since I hated art) and one girl I hated join too but for some reason our astrology class was going to join because our classeswere so big and one strange man kept asking as questions and he asked me a question about wealth and I told him 5 things that makes a a person wealthy and he told me he was surprised that I wasn't caught off guard by the question and then he said a joke that was "what do you call someone who isn't afraid of pipes in the dark?" and I thought a smoker and someone else said that and it was right.

Evil civil war monkeys tearing down a building

I was in a cartoon like one of those Disney animated films and there were talking animals in a  Picturesque forest

I woke up just as a marmot was telling me something very important

What was it?

Vivid, full colour, smell, touch everything dream that I was making love to the Romanian singer from Eurovision, Mandinga.   :P  Just confirmed that I am a total dyke!  :)

Some people was trying to break in and I screamed to my mom to get the gun.  Two of the guys left while one guy stayed and tried to climb my house.  By the time I got the gun I shot him in his leg and he fell in some water on my porch.  I walked up to execute him  but he took the coward's way out and shot himself in the head first before I got to him.

I have a sleeping disorder, and have never remembered a single dream.  My doctor team got me started on a new med last week.  And, for the first time in my life I remember my dream!!  It is a bit confusing, since I have never remembered one before I was kind of disoriented when I woke up.  It took me a while to figure out what was going on.  Now, I am kind of sad.  I really wish the dream was true because my life in it was wonderful.  In my dream, I was the woman I hope to be.  With a caring and supportive partner.  Work was great, and everyone treated me as a woman.  I know it is simple and kind of boring.  But for the first memory of a dream...not too bad.

Had a Game of Thrones inspired dream. This guy was hanging out with me whom I don't even like but I was just being cordial. I don't dislike him enough to be rude to him. Then later a bunch of people are looking at me sideways and kind of being suspicious because I was seen being friendly with "the man in red" or something like that. I associate red with the Lannisters. So then I was trying to regain trust in the community and I explained that I didn't even like him and people seemed to mostly believe me and I thought that maybe I won't get decapitated for being a traitor.

In another dream, I was hanging out at this (trans) guy's house whom I only know from his YouTube videos, but we had become friends. I was cleaning the grout lines in his bathroom which was really filthy and then applying chapstick to it for some reason.

Dreamed about my little sister. The world always ends before my dreams begin. The world had ended as usual, and everything was all burnt up and broken, and I was corralling the survivors. I was taking care of people. Children and cats made me feel emotions where everybody else only pulled on my sense of duty. But anyhow I was working. My team encountered another team of leaders, and my sister was one of them. She didn't recognize me. When I explained who I was, she immediately switched to "she" and my old name. I started to argue with her, but a guy interrupted and took me aside. He tried to explain that I was being unreasonable, that everybody is entitled to their opinion and that it's not up to me what anyone calls me. I felt bad, emasculated and useless. I abandoned the kids and everybody I was working to save. I walked away, wishing nobody had ever seen me. I felt like a fool and it was really hard to shake off.

Quote from: Felix on May 31, 2012, 12:56:58 AM
Dreamed about my little sister. The world always ends before my dreams begin. The world had ended as usual, and everything was all burnt up and broken, and I was corralling the survivors. I was taking care of people. Children and cats made me feel emotions where everybody else only pulled on my sense of duty. But anyhow I was working. My team encountered another team of leaders, and my sister was one of them. She didn't recognize me. When I explained who I was, she immediately switched to "she" and my old name. I started to argue with her, but a guy interrupted and took me aside. He tried to explain that I was being unreasonable, that everybody is entitled to their opinion and that it's not up to me what anyone calls me. I felt bad, emasculated and useless. I abandoned the kids and everybody I was working to save. I walked away, wishing nobody had ever seen me. I felt like a fool and it was really hard to shake off.

That's actually pretty symbolic, Felix. I think you were actually dreaming about the various aspects of yourself. Your little sister - perhaps a female aspect still within yourself. The world ended - well, that could be seen as a transition to a different state. I mean, everything's different but it's still turning. Children and cats making you feel emotions - innocence, or freedom of expression, and independence - whereas everyone else... set in their roles, duty bound... the rigors of societal living.

Your sister not recognising you... well... maybe it was symbolic of how far you've come, and the fact that she switched to your old name and female pronouns... as a part of you that lives in a past time, maybe that's all she's ever known? You arguing with her may be an internal conflict with you asserting who you actually are, and the guy telling you that you're unreasonable and that it's not up to you what people call you... could be the fears and doubts you have within yourself.

Perhaps you walking away at the end was symbolic of a desire to get away from the pressures of society, a need to withdraw to get some breathing room.

...

Or maybe it's none of that. I don't know, I'm half asleep myself at the moment. >.<

I can see that. I can also see that you were doing a wonderful service to everyone around you and it was their loss when they decided to reject the real you.

Quote from: Felix on May 31, 2012, 12:56:58 AM
I was corralling the survivors. I was taking care of people. Children and cats made me feel emotions where everybody else only pulled on my sense of duty. But anyhow I was working.

...I felt bad, emasculated and useless. I abandoned the kids and everybody I was working to save.

It was like a horror movie.  Me and a group of people were in something liek a field and then some bugs started to attack so we ran to the nearest bus.  There was a small furry puffy white bug that me and a few other people leaped over successfully.  One person even stepped on it and it bled.  It was a bug you did not want to come in contact with because it was poisionous.  One person tripped over the bug and even though the bug was dead we knew that this person would not make it out alive and we watched in horror as this person and I think another person who was behind him had posionous spider-like bug crawl on them and bite them.  The guy of the floor tried to push them off but it didn't work.  This spider creature was eating the face off this guy and we didn't stick around to see the rest as we booked it to the bus.  There were some construction workers working not knowing what was going on and I asked if we should inform them and the other people said no so we someone cranked up the bus and we drove away.  One of the girls went crazy and slit another guy's throat and then some of the other members were killing each other and there was a clown there in the bus too.  I don't think he was there to kill anyone.  I had saw the same clown in a thumbnail on Youtube and it was scary and I just knew I was going to dream about him so he kind kind of popped up there.  Anyways the killing stopped and I found out that the girl who had slit the guy's throat was against interracial dating and the  guy was dating a woman out of his race.

I think I know where this dream came from.  I know why the clown was there because I had a feeling I would dream about a scary clown.  The bugs didn't come off because that day my mom was washing the cat and the fleas didn't come off from the washing.  I was thinking about the church that didn't want to marry two members in a interracial relationship.  The reason why I dreamed that me and a few other people made the leap across the bug and the others didn't was because I was watching 1000 ways to die where one guy was rolling in a tire jumping a ramp and he made it out while the other died from nails being punctured into him

I had two dreams this time.  The first one I was in high school and they had me taking gym.  I got my schedule mixed up and went on the day I wasn't supposed to go and all of these guys kept looking at me as I walked to the gym teacher.  I told the gym teacher that I don't need to take gym because I already took NRJOTC for 4 years. 

Then the dream went to me being in Washington D.C.  There was a ride that took you 10,000 feet in the air and then dropped you very quickly.  I went on the ride several times especially at night.  I saw a lot of D.C. and a lake overviewing it.

In my dream, I woke up as a woman.  My alarm went off for me to go to work.  I slowly reached to turn it off.  I beautiful woman then reached over me, turned off the alarm, gave me a very passionate kiss, and told me I should go so I am not late.  I felt happy, and content.  Too bad it was just a dream.

  I dreamt this morning that I married a woman who understood my condition and she treated me like a woman.  I woke up with that dream lingering and the libido up.  Lack of Spiro from these past two weeks traveling and right after a 17 hour drive for this California pipe dream?  I went on this trip to image the eclipse and to visit relatives.  A quick visit to a cousin that I thought I didn't have from my sister's house was a from info I got only hours before.  She knows that I'm transgender and we have been exchanging emails. 
  Joelene

For some reason I'm in a bookstore with a girl and a guy. The girl asks whether or not I'm going to be a virgin after I get married. I say that since it's tradition, of course we'd have sex. And she and I luagh, but for some reason the boy gets a little upset. So he calls out Lapras, smacks the other person (now another boy for some reason) over the head, and uses Lapras to carry the other boy across the water to the mainland (yeah, now they're on an island, and I no longer exist). Then he uses Staryu to carry himself across. Then the two boys adventure across a dinosaur-infested island, accidentaly get seperated, and find each other. Then they decide that they should set up a base camp before they explore, like they should have done as soon as they arrived. But it's dangerous with all the dinosaurs, so first they have to clear the area. So I show up with my sword and kill off a few dinosaurs to help them out. That's all I remember.

Interesting to note that I was a girl in this dream. Normally in my dreams I don't notice my gender any more than I notice my hearing aids- very rarely do they ever come up.

Actually, I had another dream, too. I was outside at night in a run-down neighborhood, looking at the houses. I went in one, and found a bunch of dead bodies, mostly skeletons. I read some notes and journals I found on the bodies, then a giant skeleton appeared, so I took out a gun and ran upstairs to open fire on it. In this dream, I was physically male. But it felt like it wasn't me... like he was just a character I was controlling, not the real me.

I recently dreamt I had my mouth full of strawberry ice cream that was melting and then I blew it out through a clarinet.

The first dream sort of turned into a nightmare.  I was going to an NJROTC reunion/parade with some comrades who were in the program with me and so we were about to get in the car but before that my sister lines up the comrades on the right side of my porch and me and another comrade on the other side to take a picture.  Strangely there was a something like a medicine shelf at the time and it fell on the comrades on the right and killed them all.  They all returned as ghost and started stabbing the guy who owned the Pawn Shop in "The Crow" because they thought he was to blame for their deaths.  I think he died.  Then they started stabbing his dog and I screamed and begged him to stop.  They finally had a heart and stopped but the dog died and come to find out that dog got another dog pregnant so he was leaving his pups behind.  It was sad.

In the next dream I had to pee really bad and I wanted to use the male restroom.  I wasn't binding and was still presenting as a female but more masculine.  I went into the restroom and saw other women there and the restroom seemed very chill with no one caring.  I wanted to use the urinal.  There was a urinal near an open door that contained army national guard bookbags.  I found myself having to hold on to the urinal to make it flow (ew).  It worked for a split second but then I started to leak on my pants so I stopped.

My parents randomly started calling me Lee.
:/ I really need to talk to them.

Dreamed that a straight girl had fallen in love with me and was kissing me passionately in the crowd at a music festival of some sort.  It wasn't anyone I have everseen before and it was the middles of summer, so I'm not going to take it as a pointer to anyone in particular.  Nice that as it was a vivid dream, in colour, I am definitely set in my identity now.

That Mr. John Lauranitis from WWE RAW gave me a check for $10,800. I thought to myself, "top surgery money".  Sadly I woke up and while I was waking up I said, "please don't let this be a dream no, nooooo, NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!"

I dreamt I woke up to find spiderwebs over my bed, all formed overnight. There were several black spiders in it; didn't look especially venomous or anything, no black widow markings. There were two solid sheets of web, layers essentially, a few inches apart, going from the headboard to the footboard of the single bed (I actually sleep in a queen with neither of those). I had somehow rolled out of bed without disturbing the webs which was surprising to me in the dream. Seems I should have sat up and gotten spider webs all over me, but no. It was creepy but I was also kind of impressed and was looking fwd to a great story to tell people. I felt fine but I do recall pondering whether any spiders had gotten into my mouth or ears in the night.

In another dream, I was going somewhere for some important work-related event (I work for myself at home so confusing), along with two friends of mine. They were getting more dressed-up for it than I so I started looking for a shirt, pants, and tie that wouldn't clash to much. I struggled with this for a few minutes and lost a bunch of time. My friends were long gone and as I tried to catch up, they were already back and it seemed to go from 9am to 5pm in what seemed like minutes. I was worried for my sanity. I feel like this was tied to some anxiety I had because I had to get up earlier than usual this morning to go to a friend's event and wasn't able to get to bed until 1am. I had my alarm set on my phone but I still tend to be in a must-wake-self-up mode in cases like this so I couldn't seem to go into a really deep sleep and dreamt a lot all night. I didn't make it to my friend's even after all because Home Depot delivery showed up freaky early, before my alarm even, and I had to spend this morning carrying in bathroom renovation supplies.

I dreamed about spending a few dollars on crack rocks. Like blowing money on burgerville french fries. It was frivolous and squalid and mundane. I was in southeast texas. The ennui was epic. It smelled like plastic.

I had 3 different dreams. 

In the first one my high school teacher my senior year took our class out to eat at a Chinese Buffet.  One guy who wasn't even in my class in real life took his boombox to a pawn broker nearby and asked for $13,000 for it.  I told him that I could buy a PS Vita and PS3 for less than that amount and the broker agreed.  I said the boombox was worth around $10-$35 dollars depending on a lot of things even though I'm not an expect.  So we continued to walk on until I noticed new food was being put out.  I took my tooth pick and got some chicken from the chicken and brocoli stand and ate it.  I was still hungry but I had to go so they wouldn't figure out that I was left behind.


In the next dream I was at an office party and some of the guys were naked there.  There was even a pre-op trans woman naked there.  I had the odd desire to give a handjob (this seems to be a reoccuring part in a lot of dreams I have)  to some of the guys but I had a feeling that they were all married so I didn't.

In the next dream I was in Florida.  I was at the lake and saw two dead baby foxes.  I took one and threw it as far as I could into the lake.  The tail started sticking up and it started moving around and sinking deeper into the water like a bouy.  I could tell fish were nibbling at it.  While that happened I somehow found myself in a volleyball match.  No matter how hard I tried I could not get the ball to the other side so I gave up and noticed that the dead fox was closer to shore and that an alligator was eating on it.  Then a guy that had a zoo-like uniform on sprayed some (pink?) mist near the alligator and it went unconscious.  Then I saw two parakeets fly by and two cats sitting on trees.  As I left I put the other dead baby fox in my pocket and our group left in the van.  I grew tired of the fox and wanted to throw it away so asked if we could stop near a trash can.  At the same time I was upset that we only spent one night in Florida and because of that it wasn't worth bringing my laptop.  Then I thought that I should have used my sister's Ipad

I had a dream that some girl was walking around my house and the neighbors were telling me about it.  She left something nasty behind near the fence.  It looked like either period blood or purple grapes.  Needless to say I grabbed that girl and waited for her mom to come get here.  At the same time my cooling pad was missing and one of the neighboors took it and gave it back/  It was on the grill and the grill went in flames after he gave it back.  I won't be sending my laptop and cooling fan outside lol.

In the next dream I was in Washington D.C. and we took a walk near the presidents house.  The president gave me a scrapbook but it accidently went down the gutter but my mom got it.  As we were walking the scene quickly changed to being at my house and one of our low hanging wires started leaking water like a shower head.  Then I went to my room and played scary games and kids were in there.  I laid the little ones to sleep while one girl laid on a little boy's lap.  I could tell he was getting embarrased and having an erection.  For some reason I started to have an erection.  Then some big bodybuilder like guy was in front of me shirtless.  I started to rub him all over and play with the hairs on his back.  My mom came in and I told her I just wanted to pick his hairs.  She sounded grossed out and left.  I didn't want her to know that I was getting aroused by this man so I continued clandestinely in order not to disturb the kids.  I wanted to cuddle with this guy and rub him all over.  Te dream gets foggy from there but I think the kids wake up and the guy was gone.

In the next dream I started school and went but I couldn't remember my classes so I had to print out another schedule.  When I went towards the computers everyone started to run towards the computer I was getting or claim them.  Then I realized that I was at the wrong capmus (something I'm really afraid of doing).

I also had a dream that the Sailor Moon thread was pinned yellow at the front.

I had a magic carpet I could ride like a surfboard with a basket to put my groceries in and a cat that farted magic dust

Quote from: V M on June 10, 2012, 03:24:04 AM
I had a magic carpet I could ride like a surfboard with a basket to put my groceries in and a cat that farted magic dust

Normally this thread gets me all thinky but this just gets me giggly. :laugh:

For some reason, I was in the living room of the place I lived a few months ago. My mom and stepdad were standing in front of me and my older brother (we were on the couch). My stepdad was saying something about how it's okay, we know you're gay, or something to my brother (apparently he is; I found out last August when I told him I liked guys, and he had already tokd my folks). And I'm sitting on the couch, pantless for some reason, thinking, "yeah, and I'm trans!" And for some reason I was happy about that.

I was at a football match between Columbus IN and the Denver Broncos. I don't remember who it was but I was with some guy who was explaining to me that Columbus IN was winning.

I can't even stand to watch football. So why I was there is beyond me. The fact that I was enjoying it and the company of this guy also irked me. lol.

Columbus won btw, 49-18.

Guy guys got into a verbal argument with some police and then started shooting them and then more police came at them.

I was trying to watch the dirty channels before my mom got home.

I had a rare license plate that I asked someone to hold and they put it up for sale in their store instead.

I was about to pay $5 for a book my cousin had.

Quote from: V M on June 10, 2012, 03:24:04 AM
I had a magic carpet I could ride like a surfboard with a basket to put my groceries in and a cat that farted magic dust

LOL!

I dreamt my adoptive gay male parents took me to see a social worker who asked me a lot of questions. She asked me if I had any friends at my school yet. It felt really important, like if I didn't answer the questions right, she might take me away from them.

Meanwhile, this was kind of like one of those dreams where you are about to be in a stage performance and you are completely unprepared, haven't rehearsed, don't even know your lines, etc. I couldn't remember anything about the school. I told her that I had friends outside of school and started mentioning some of them.

What's so weird is I'm not adopted and I've been out of school for a LONG time (I'm old). Yet this sort of felt like my life, or like my life mixed up with someone else's life. My parents in the dream were some gay friends of mine who have adopted a boy together.

I was walking around town, but all of the various cities I'd lived in had all become connected some how  :)  So if I turned right to go down another street I'd be in another city and if I turned left I'd be back in the previous city even if I had walked several blocks

The bad part about it was it was rather confusing at first, the good part about it is I was able to visit all my favorite places by walking around in circles visiting another area at every intersection

What was really weird is I could taste the coffee, food etc. at the various cafe's and restaurants I visited

I was at school taking a test. Then a question came up about Pokemon. I don't know anything about Pokemon, but my friend who knows all things about Pokemon was there to help me.

I think I cheated on that test!

Apparently, I was caught in a storm and was lost at sea. I'm a boy here- or rather, my character is. My little brother (I don't have one IRL, just an older one) grew up trying to solve my death. Then I come back. Just for a day, then I return to the afterlife. My brother is estatic to see me, but my parents aren't the least bit suprised, which I found odd. I spend the day with them,go to sleep, and wake up the next day still alive. Odd. So I take some medicine.

Next thing I know I'm female-bodied, and wandering, totally lost, through Mt. Nibel (from Final Fantasy VII). Somehow, I make my way to a field at night, where I'm forced to fight off a wild badger that some idiot thought would be a great mascot for their bakery.

I was paddling my new kayak (have actually put a deposit on one) along a river, and was approached by one of the women I worked with a year or two ago.  She offered to go kayaking with me at a later date,  but I had already agreed to go for a paddle with a friend locally and was trying to work out how to refuse politely.
My interpretation is that I am quite comfortable here in Tasmania as a Lesbian  with my current circle of largely gay friends and don't really feel any connection to the place I lived in before, and the  largely straight, people I knew there. 

Karen.

I dreamed two dreams about a girl I've known for a while.

In the first one she's pregnant and it appears that we are together but she broke up with me so I kneeled down at her pregnant belly and kissed it and I said something like "I will miss you David.  I love you."  Then she went out the door with my sister.  She's pregnant but having a girl.

In the next dream the same girl was spending a night at my house but she stayed in the kitchen talking to her aunt and cousin and they were eating my cheesecake.  I didn't mind her cousin eating a slice but I as upset when her aunt got a slice because I didn't even know her.  She invited them over while my mom was asleep. I was sad because it seemed like this girl didn't want to be with me.


Both dreams come from my ex breaking up with me and the isolation and lonliness I feel because of that on top of the fact that I'm trans.

Could the cheesecake be symbolic of women somehow (as in beefcake/cheesecake)?

Quote from: dalebert on June 13, 2012, 09:43:49 PM
Could the cheesecake be symbolic of women somehow (as in beefcake/cheesecake)?

I am not too sure.  At first glance I thought no but it could very well be so.  Both of the ladies were attactive and I knew them and liked them as more than a crush at some period of my life and because of that I tend to be more giving.

Then again I really love cheesecake and had thught about a a few hours before hnd so that could have affected the drem.

It sounds like you have some anxiety about someone inappropriate partaking of YOUR cheesecake. The cheesecake could be symbolic for some women who you consider to be yours, like a wife or committed girlfriend. Your aunt might also be symbolic of someone else. And the eating of the cheesecake may not mean sex. It could mean any kind of partaking of someone female in a manner that feels violating to you. The cheesecake might also represent some feminine part of you. Maybe there are a couple of people in your life and you're more forgiving of one of them for still treating you like a woman to some extent, maybe using female pronouns, and another you're not as forgiving for whatever reason.

DiSCLAIMER: I'm speculating wildly and I'm not a professional.

Quote from: dalebert on June 13, 2012, 10:51:45 PM
It sounds like you have some anxiety about someone inappropriate partaking of YOUR cheesecake. The cheesecake could be symbolic for some women who you consider to be yours, like a wife or committed girlfriend. Your aunt might also be symbolic of someone else. And the eating of the cheesecake may not mean sex. It could mean any kind of partaking of someone female in a manner that feels violating to you. The cheesecake might also represent some feminine part of you. Maybe there are a couple of people in your life and you're more forgiving of one of them for still treating you like a woman to some extent, maybe using female pronouns, and another you're not as forgiving for whatever reason.

DiSCLAIMER: I'm speculating wildly and I'm not a professional.

The funny thing is her aunt was just a random person who I never seen or heard of in my waking life. I think she may represent the other people that may be pulling the girl away from me (or at least me being too greedy and not want to share her) The later part is kind of iffy since I'm still presenting as a female right now.  One of my sister knows I'm trans and she rejects it and still happily uses female pronouns.  I don't expect her to be say male pronouns in public but I wish she was a bit more understanding.

I fell asleep with the radio on some talk show where they were discussing the place of Mormons in American culture. I dreamed that Mormons worshipped water, and I visited this Mormon guy and his house was like the waterplay exhibit at a science museum, and it was kinda cool. I wanted to pretend to be Christian just so I could engage further. I mean, it felt sacred enough, so I wouldn't be totally dishonest. Or maybe that's rationalizing. I woke up after realizing the guy was kinda date-rapey anyway.

"Date-rapey" is in my lexicon because of Jon Stewart and his questions for France. :laugh:

I was at a sci-fi/fantasy convention. A (str8) trans guy whom I only actually know from YouTube but whom I knew a little better in the dream was flirting with me. He was smiling and at first was just standing really close and then he was actually leaning into me until we were practically spooning. He made some comment about how he should stop and then started to walk away a little embarrassed but still smiling and I was trying to think of what to say to convey that no, he shouldn't stop. haha. I ended up looking around for him but couldn't find him.

I slept late despite going to bed pretty early and ended up in some really lucid dreams before I woke up. The dream felt so real and everything looked so vivid. When I began to suspect I was dreaming, I remembered a test. I read a poster on the wall and then looked slightly away and then back at it. If the text changes, that means you're dreaming. Sure enough, it was actually hard to read because it was so unstable. Then as one more quick test (the easier one, really) I moved a brick with my mind. I can always move things in my dreams.

I was in a car with a bunch of other people, more than should fit but we did. Once I was really certain I was dreaming, I leaned over, actually across one person's lap, and kissed a really cute guy. He was just some random guy in my dream. He reciprocated and it was amazing. Then I got out of the car and went looking for another guy whom I actually know and is a good friend, and whom I also have a crush on. My dreams are hardly ever this horny! But once I found him, I moved some stuph with my mind to see how he would react, just out of curiosity. People in my dreams rarely, if ever, react at all when I do things like that. It's like they just see it as totally normal and that's pretty much how he reacted. I think I had intended to make out with him when I found him but forgot and then I woke up. :)

The world was now controlled by advanced beings. I was part of a resistance movement. Whenever these beings found where we were hiding, they would fire a space based beam weapon, kind of like the Hammer of Dawn weapon from Gears of War. So we would move from place to place. No idea why Tony Stark was in this dream though.

I dreamt I had super powers. Can a follower of freud please dissect that for me? k thnx bai :D

I dreamed my mother and I played 3 lottery tickets and lost in each one of them.

In next dream the Sailor Scouts were at an amusement park/school and the negaverse was there to drain energy.  Sailor Moon and Sailor Venus had got their energy drained so it was up to Sailor Mars and I to save the day so we ran in the school to try and find the person responsible and then a teacher got turned into a bowling ball and the enemy was rolling her into pins.  I was already out of breath from running so I figured I was up since I didn't have any real super powers and even if we did defeat her Sailor Moon would just swoop in with her moon tiara magic and take al the glory.....glory hog.  It wasn't worth it for me.

Something much to explicit and erotic to tell anyone about  >:-)

Quote from: V M on June 15, 2012, 10:50:45 PM
Something much to explicit and erotic to tell anyone about  >:-)

I wish I had more dreams like that. I am really grateful for the occasional damp dream with just some cuddling and mild making out.

Sharing a hotel room with suicidal terrorists.

I dreamed last night about being post-op MTF and all that it meant, all the changes, actually being on the other side physically.  I am an older woman and I am past being sexually active.  But it hit me that women don't NEED to be the sexually active part of sexual encounters - we just need to be in the room!

So there was that and I was sad because I would have no 'takers' (pun unintended) at my age.  But I realized that is untrue.  My partner. also a transitioned woman, was hugging me as we slept.  Out post-op days will be complete, with each other.  And we will have a new way of loving each other.

Our SRS is in nine (hers) and eleven days (mine)

That is a nice way to wake up.

Lizzy

A talking bird who murdered the president and seized Belarus

I'm in a small, but fairly well-off town in California, mostly one-story homes. I live in Ca, but I've never been here before. I'm walking down the street, and as I climb this hill, the sun is going down, so now a number of homes have their lights on, and it looks so cozy that I can't help but envy them. One house has a porch with an old lady in a rocking chair, carressing her rifle. O_o
One house has an ostrich in it. ಠoಠ
And I continue down the street, and a little girl starts following me. I try to send her back, but she refuses and stays with me. So I offer to walk her back home. We walk on, and I have to hold her back so she doesn't run off into the intersection. We end up walking down this path that runs along a river; we're quite a few meters above it, and a fence keeps anyone from falling in by accident. I get to the end of the path, there's a wooden gate covered by ivy, but it's not her house. I look to the right (west) and I realise that's where I should be headed. So I take her back to the intersection, and the fence turns into a wooden wall covered in advertisements, the girl starts reading all of them, or parts of them, rapidly and without exception. And she just won't shut up. And I realise that there's something special about her; it's a compulsion she can't control, and it hurts my heart a little to think about how she has to live with it, and how she's so cheerful in spite of it all.

So I walk her down the street, and we get close to the beach, and the girl runs off ahead of me. And I hear some sad song playing somewhere, and I find a note in my pocket. I look at it, and I see a crayon drawing of a hot air balloon, and a message saying that she was going to find her father, who had died. I take off running as fast as I can down the concrete path down the beach, until I reach the end, and I can't find her. I just see sand, sea, and and the overcast dawn.

This odd, special little girl whom I was supposed to be taking back home was gone, and I knew that she'd never come back, and I knew that I would never see her again, and I start crying. I wake up with tears on my pillow.

I dreamt everyone was calling me fat although I'm currently really skinny. I actually checked to see I wasn't fat when I woke up. Weird.

I dreamed that it was late at night and I looked outside our side door and noticed some soldiers from Black Ops surrounding our place and breaking in.  I went outside and had a cannon and shot it at them taking most of them out in an instant.  I only had one shot though and I looked down the road and there were more soldiers terrorizing the city.  There were blazes of fire everywhere and I could hear the screams of the citizens.  The screams here so high that I physically felt myself shaking and cringing in my sleep.  That's when I knew this dream was not going to get anymore pleasent.  Then I saw at least two police guards running towards my house with shields out of tting closer by the crowds. I ran to wake my mom up and told her we had to hide so we went in our closet.  It wasn't big enough for the both of us (wasn't big enough for one of us for that matter withou moving things)  so I told her to stay there as a kneel at the foot of my bed.  My first priority was making sure that she was safe.  Then I woke up.  I wanted to know what would of happened afterwards.  Oh well.

I dreamt I made out with this guy on here who I think is pretty cute out in the rain(corny) and it got pretty hot and heavy. A nice dream for a change :p

I dreamed one of my sister's former male friends came in our house and started shooting everyone systematically.  I tried to sotp him but I was shot in the head and everything went black.  I thought to myself as everything went black that it's my dream and I'm not going to just lay here dead until I wake up.

The next dream I was on the cast of moesha and they went out to eat but all I ordered was a coke.  Then I guess the mother went around saying words to everyone and all she told me was "yes yes".  We were waiting for the next train to come and realized that my coke had cost me $1.59.  I didn't want to pay the bill so I woke up.

I dreamed about a killer virus that once you were infected with it you had to be half in the world of the dead and half in the normal world.  I worked in a hospital and our patients were losing their s**t, but after I got infected too I saw their dead selves, which were pretty chill. I kept thinking that if I could find a safe bridge between the worlds then they'd be okay.

Wow, Felix. You have really deep dreams too. I was universally hated in a town because I had become a vampire. Not a smexy Vampire Diaries kinda vampire but a person who transforms into a giant blood-thirsty bat-like thing and flies around chasing terrified people and swoops down and snatches them up. Was really struggling with some angst about being so hated and not being able to do anything about what they hated me for.

I dreamed that I actually did the crazy stuff I wanted to do after I graduated hs last year. I had this little apartment in Spain and I could eat paella everyday after university and I was surrounded by spaniards and their goofy-cute lisp. The logicalside of me is glad I didn't, since Spain's economy is total ->-bleeped-<-e right now, but I still would have loved to have the experience.

This was a dream in which I was a guy, but it didn't bother me.

My daughter was a toddler again, and my wife and I were younger, too. My daughter was sitting on a chair watching my wife take a nap on a couch. I asked my daughter, "Whatcha got there?" and she replied, smiling, "A mommy." She just looked so small and cute and happy.

This dream was a few days ago but our church was letting out and I went home.  My cousin and sister was at my house and I thought to myself that I wanted to go to another church to try something different so a white church van came by and I got on it as it was picking up people to go to church.  I didn't let anyone know.  We picked a lot of people up which included picking up a lady on the side of the railroad and the people were nice on the van.  Everyone was joking and laughing on the van.   This church was a predominantly cacasian church which was different than mine which is predominantly black which I didn't mind at all.  When I took my seat I felt relaxed.  There were several preachers there and my sister was the third preacher.  I was shocked and a little bit upset because she preaches at my church and I wanted a break from that.  Then when church was over it started to rain and I chose to have the church van drop me off instead of my sister.

I feel like this dream has some symbolic meaning about me being trans and how I need to move out to get away from any negative influence.

One of  the strange recurring dreams I get is  been chased by police, and I'm running around avoiding them sometimes by climbing up buildings like spiderman and hiding.  But then climbing down and been chased again.  One of these dreams had a passer-by grab my arm and wouldn't let go and I was struggling to free myself and they said "why don't I just let them catch me?".

I don't quite get the police or the passer-by, but climbing the buildings is meant to signify progressing.  But putting all of it together seems a bit of an odd combination.  Why am I afraid and running from the authorities and why is something telling me just to get caught.  Maybe as I'm not in RLE yet I'm telling myself to get on with it.

Quote from: Erin_Grey on June 19, 2012, 05:05:49 AM
I dreamed that I actually did the crazy stuff I wanted to do after I graduated hs last year. I had this little apartment in Spain and I could eat paella everyday after university and I was surrounded by spaniards and their goofy-cute lisp. The logicalside of me is glad I didn't, since Spain's economy is total ->-bleeped-<-e right now, but I still would have loved to have the experience.

I love the spaniard lisp. :D

That I had sexual relations with Gohan from DBZ as a biological male.  I think I was playing the role of Trunks and I was the top.  It felt really good and I felt all the sensations.  When I pulled out I noticed my penis was shaped like a finger and that I didn't have as much uh "release" as I thought.  I couldn't understand it but at least it felt good.



In the next dream a bully was being nice to me and for some reason I had to go back to the first, second, and third grade because of some civial war clause in Louisianna about my credits not being enough o.O  The school had a water roller coster which I thought was fun.  I named myself "Satan" and then some love triangle happened and one of the girls ended up in the water from the roller coster.

>.>

I woke up knowing I'd had a sex dream and it was with a girl but other then that I can't remember a thing. Dang =[

My kid shook me awake because I was yelling. I don't remember the dream. Something about locked rooms and bureaucratic finaglings.

I dreamed I pooped my pants (er, underwear) in the bed. It felt it while it was happening and it felt SO real. I was shocked when I woke up and it hadn't actually happened. Ew ew ew! Makes me wonder if I was experiencing an epic fart or something.

I dreamed that when I opened our front door a large spider web was there with a scorpian and what appeared to be a small bug.  I was terrified of the scorpian.  My hand got caught in the web and I tried to rip that part of the web so it wouldn't be connected to me but it would not break.  Instead it grew longer and it went into my brother's room.  I tried to kill the scorpion with bug spray but it didn't work.  It started crawling towards the long string of a web I had made.  I was terrified so I called my mother to get in there and she told me to let go of the string.  The string stayed in my brother's room as the scorpion crawled in there.  I was still terrified because it wasn't dead.  Then my kitten tried to get it and I was scared for him because I didn't want it to sting and poision and eventually kill him.

In my other dream I was giving a guy a h***job and right when he was releasing my sister walked in and she was mad.  I told her that  I am an adult and that I will do what I please.

My neighborhood was being fire-bombed and the front of my house was engulfed in flames. Then one of the upstairs rooms was on fire. I put it out with the garden hose. It was really scary and apocalyptic.

Then I had a pee anxiety dream. I was in a mall or something and looking all over for a restroom. I thought I'd found them but then there was a sign saying press "up" to get to them by the elevator. So I rode the elevator up several floors and followed the signs again but they weren't there. I was getting really frustrated and finally a guy told me where one was in a grocery store. I could see it across the vegetable section and started running toward it, tripping over veges and knocking over sacks of potatoes and stuph. All I could think was "Serves them right for making it so inaccessible!". Then I woke up and went to the restroom for realz.

I was in a star wars type space ship running Down a corridor when a tile on the ceiling lowered and revealed a secret area. I was looking at it when it came to grown level but I fell in and it started rising again until it closed.
I realised I was in some sort of small white tiled room there was a chair to one side and a fridge to the other and to the side it was open and there was just space. My best friend appeared and we decided to jump out into space but I ran to the fridge and got some sandwiches and orange juice and wrapped it in a bag then jumped.
As we were falling through space I sai to my friend 'the universe is massive what I'd we just keep falling forever and never even seen another Planet'. Then I realised we were falling past houses and they were all exactly the same as my dads so I grabbed one and my friend did too.
We climbed in through an open window and I was lied on the sofa with my dad opposite me. I noticed a Christmas tree so I asked when it was and he said it was soon but I'd be going to a camp because they were off on holiday.
I was angry so I ran to my room and realised I'd gone back in time but things were a bit different. I wondered how old I was and looked in my coat where I found a card for my camp that said I was 11.
I pulled up my t-shirt and my chest was flat and my rib cage and hips were the same size. I ran to the kitchen and found my friend and told him we had to go to the doctors quick and get blockers.
Before I could though I noticed a giant snake going into my rabbits hutch so I ran outside and grabbed the snake. It ha my rabbit half in its mouth but I managed to pull it out.
I though my rabbit was dead because it had its eyes shut but then I saw its little feet were shaking and it was in shock.

The end lol.

Nightmare-I was afraid of the IV that had to be placed in my arm for my implant.  I was afraid I was going to die and/or feel it.  I eventually got it in my ein and palm and things went dark.  It felt like someone was drilling in my head.  I didn't like it.  Then someone put drops in the side of my eye causing it to be clouded.  I didn't like this dream.

The other dream of school was flooded and all of our snacks too.  You had to swim to get the food and try not to knock it over.  I failed at doing that.  Then I was in girl scouts again.  We had to do clusters in a picture but I wanted to do Sailor Moon characters faces but they wouldn't let me.  I did happen to smuggle in a lot of fries and chicken sandwiches though.

Isn't it strange how a person will remember some dreams and not others? For instance, I know I dreamed about something  last night but don't have a clue as to what it was ???  On the other hand, I can remember weird dreams from 20-30 years ago about being on an alien spaceship and several others about helicopters

And what about re-occurring dreams and/or dreams that continue later in another dream?

Dreams can be weird stuff sometimes

I dreamed I had a beard. I looked pretty cute with a beard  :p. I'm glad I got rid of it though :laugh:

My sister and her two daughters came over to visit. I greeted them with hugs, then followed the 16 year old to the car, 'cause she said she had something for me. She gave me a box, which had something I couldn't identify, but were meant for her. So she gave me another box, which held shoes meant for her sister. The third box had popcorn and a drink she was taking to the theater. So I took her to the mall somehow, and let her go to the movie while I used the restroom. By the time I finished, the movie was done.

I dreamed that a friend and I had swapped bodies somehow.  It was very awkward but it made us more closer.  We went to Walmart and were cuddled really close in the store.   We was buying some school supplies and was going to buy me a few.  I was kind of pressed for time though because I didn't want to be late.   That's when a big bullfrog on the ground under some jeans was coming close to her.  I told her something is about to come near you but she didn't want to believe it and I said okay it's by your foot.  WHen she saw it she started screaming so loud for security and one of the male shoppers got the frog and threw it out.  He was wearing a green shrit with some brown cargo shorts with medium long hair.  The dream ended and I woke up feeling a little lonely.

Dreamt I was getting stuck into a large group of senior Church figures, Cardinals, Bishops etc at some sort of conference.  I told them they were hateful and evil homophobes with blood on their hands. 

I talked about my pee anxiety dreams on Puke and the Gang (http://www.pukeandthegang.com/blog/files/podcast_52.mp3). Was SO drunk by the last half of the show!

I dreamed about a really sexy guy here and how he came over to my house.  He wasn't looking for me though.  He wanted my brother (or sister-I don't remember). 

Quote from: Papa Taco on July 06, 2012, 09:00:34 PM
LOL I got over to this part and I did a double take. That's the first time you have ever mentioned "guy" and "sexy" in the same sentence. :P

HAHA I know right?  It's a little shocking to me too considering I'm mostly into women. >.>


My latest dream was that I started school earlier and basically I was so fast paced I was afraid to use the bathroom out of fear of being late and missing something.

Quote from: Malachite on July 06, 2012, 06:12:14 PM
I dreamed about a really sexy guy here and how he came over to my house.  He wasn't looking for me though.  He wanted my brother (or sister-I don't remember).

That was me. I was invading your dreams. And it was your brother. ;)

Quote from: Malachite on July 06, 2012, 10:33:57 PM
My latest dream was that I started school earlier and basically I was so fast paced I was afraid to use the bathroom out of fear of being late and missing something.

You're having pee anxiety dreams too! I knew I wasn't alone in my suffering.

I dreamed something bad that happened to me happened again. My grandpa had to wake me because I was crying and yelling. Its weird how real the pain felt. :embarrassed:

I dreamed there were too many people. Too much crowding. We had to pay to get in somewhere and then I lost track of my kid and lost my ticket while I was looking for her, and I went outside and they wouldn't let me back in because I had no ticket, and I didn't know if she was inside or outside. A maddening dream, round and round in anxious circles.  :-\

I had the displeasure to see my brother "enjoy" himself fully making me dysphoric. 

In another dream I had I brought a PSP movie and WWE Smackdown vs Raw 2009 for the PSP even though I'm trying to sell my PSP.  The lady behind the counter was like "Yay I made a sale!"

This time the dream was more like a nightmare video game where I had to avoid SAW traps and I couldn't try to escape or the area would be set on fire and then I'd fall into a moat with alligators.

Next dream was foggy as all I remember is me failing an inFAMOUS 2 mission, a blanket/sheet being around, my mother being sleep, me watching "Coming to America", and me being angry at my brother for taking two of my diet pills while everyone else say I'm overracting.

That I was in a stealth game like Metal Gear Solid and I had to hide under a bathroom stall and some guy game in and dropped a load.  Then the whole building collapsed and I was getting splinters and when that happened my heath as gradually decreasing.  I had to get out in order to regenerate my health and I did.  This repeated about three times or so.

Then in the other dream my dad was teaching me how to drive on a snowy course on a mountain.

Then in another dream my mother was mad at me for being mean to kids.

Plain forgot... yet AGAIN, eish!

Axélle

Quote from: Axélle on July 11, 2012, 11:58:51 PM
Plain forgot... yet AGAIN, eish!

Axélle

I do this every night.

Malachite could be wrong here but I'm getting the impression your a tad addicted to video games.  ::)

Quote from: Tom on July 13, 2012, 08:29:40 AM
Malachite could be wrong here but I'm getting the impression your a tad addicted to video games.  ::)

You can never play too many video games.




I haven't went to bed yet but in the previous night I dreamed that the whole world had to switch from a modem hook up to high speed internet and my sister thought it was the  sign of the times because of that.

I dreamed that an old man who I see on the bus regularly had to come take shelter with us during a storm.  he laid near me on my bed and I felt uncomfortable.  I was talking on the phone with my sister at the time on speakerphone and he looked at me like he wanted me to take her off speaker so I did and he looked at me like he wanted the tv turned down as well so he could sleep so I turned it down.  The next day him, my cousin, a church member, and I were standing in some halls of something like either a hospital or school.  Then I started to fly around the halls like Nate did in Uncharted 3 when he was ejected from the airplane and I started gunning down security guards like in Black Ops.  My wanted level went up about three stars I think.  Then I landed on the ground and was hiding on the side of a building only to see three soldier guards in flak-like jackets around the building.  I ran around the corner fast like a Ninja and knifed all three of them without them even being able to pull a shot at me or knife me back.  I had earned a achievement for acting like a Ninja getting all three kills raipidly with a knife.  Then I started flying around the halls again this time only doing it to make the guards mad and to have everyone chasing me.  When my wanted level went up too high I entered in a cheat code so they would stop chasing after me and the dream ended there.  Decent dream-my favorite part was definately the three kills.  When I performed that I thought to myself "OMG THIS IS TOO COOL!!!!"

Going to a tanning salon and getting my hair dyed indigo henna O.O ....my dreams are not very creative and more like a to do list lately.

That I was playing Call of Duty: Black Ops.  I think we were playing on the Array map.  I died several times due to lag I think but I got the final kill and it was showcased on the killcam.  Shockingly it was this tall girl with a tennis hat and I shot her in the legs several times before she fell. 

I also dreamed about two spiders in a spider web with bumble bees on them in my back yard.  One spider got away but I sprayed the other with posion.

I'm sure I dreamed about Sailor Moon somehow too.

I had a succession of dreams.  One of them was fun where I was at this narrow inside race track racing on little toy cars.  I had a blast in there.  Then a girl I knew asked if I oculd do something for her and I did and she took the whole race track down.  That made me mad but at least we cuddled.  That made me happy.  I was going to build the track again but the dream switched.  I was boat hopping in this dream.  Then in another my laptop had dirty pictures on them that were hard to get off and I just knew my brother was looing and was going to tell my mom.  Then some Sailor Moon dreams I forgot and something about throwing up peanut butter in a small boat and seeing my sisters.  I really liked the race car dream though. 

I dreamt that I was running from some unknown, malignant power  ???

I dreamt that my ex wanted to get back together with me.

Thanks, Papa Taco.

Thanks to taking a couple of Panadol last night, I had 'vivid dreams' full colour and sound.  I can't recall any details beyond the fact that I was definitely a woman, and there was lesbian action somewhere along the way.  :) Probably subconscious references to my wanting a girlfriend.

Karen.

I was in a club with Dean Martin singing and then a young girl was singing and i was crooning to her song and then i was dancing and then my mom woke me up and i had to help her get to the bathroom / porta potty  :(

I usually dream about the same thing.  Waking up in the hospital after SRS.  Great dream, horrible on the dysphoria.

It had something to do with Nazi's....
I was reading a holocaust survivor book before I went to bed.

Dieing of carbon monoxide poisoning...not cool...then being my dream masculine figure who was a Buckle Mangager and I had a boyfriend (Erik in case you were wondering ^o^). We ran away to Argentina to get married and Jeffree Star made a guest appearence...it was a little strange but whatever, i'm not complaining. It was a good dream.

Something about the end of the world... a huge dragon was coming back to destroy the planet. With help, I had defeated it several times before, but this time was different. It was attacking a different time zone, so it was like 8pm here, and my teammates were too busy to help. I'm assuming I beat it.

I also remember apartment hunting, and I'm trying to swim. But I haven't gone swimming in a while, so I'm having trouble keeping afloat.

Last night I dreamed that the world was evolving, humans being rounded up and converted into physically-identifiable roleplayers whether willing or not. Everyone went into a category and was morphed (thankfully magically rather than surgically) into the "proper" form for their place in the world. I fought it and was hunted, and we had a kind of underground railroad and we spoke in code and song to communicate with one another. We fought valiantly and violently when we were found out. It was all kind of horrible and futile but at least a little bit poetic. :-\

The night before was sex and time travel and hero worship and physicality and dark and light and confusion. A nice dream but impossible to translate.

I dreamed that I worked at taco bell on the late shift and I loved it so much that I kept letting people order after closing time and if they were pulling off because I took too long to respond to them I would call out to him that I'm here come back and most of them did.


Then the dream went to me being in a store and I saw what appeared to be an adult humor-like toy from the Simpsons that involved Homer's son in his bed sleeping.  I'll leave the rest up to your imagination.  Then afterwards I saw the siphon from The Darkness 2 game and saw people being consumed by it and then a couple of side missions started opening up for me.

Next our high school was on it's way to see a movie I suppose.  I had a pen with water in it that I wanted to give to a guy but when I gave it to him he sucked the water out.  It made me feel sad.  The movie stared Haruka and Michiru from Sailor Moon and I htough "oh gosh this is going to be controversial"  My sister was there too.  After the movie we went back to the school and I was on the packed loud bus while the only bus only had like 7 students on it.  I thought to myself gosh they are so lucky.

I dreamt I was riding in full leather on a harley davidson in Mexico and ended up getting chased by the Cartel...there was a lot of crashings, explosions, shooting and matrix/BA moves...i woke up feeling like i had just done quite a good work out. i wonder if i moved around a lot in my sleep?

I dreamed that my siblings also came out as transgender. That was a little odd.

Being a male stripper O.O

I dreamed I went up to Canada with some random school and I was playing "tag your it" with some jrotc comrades in the snow in camo and then I proceeded to lay my head on a guy's shoulders and it felt.....nice.

Quote from: Papa Taco on July 22, 2012, 07:46:14 AM
Hey, did you come to my side of the country? ;D

I think I did actually because I remember seeing your face lol.

I dreamed I was Harvey Dent. ??? Except dream Harvey was a superhero twice in the past with a different name and persona each time. I can't remember exactly, but I think one of the personas was Buffy the Vampire Slayer or something like that. Complete with being female, but only at that part of his life.
I also dreamt I was living with my family (my dad the way he used to be was especially prominent) and we had to move a lot, so we were constantly travelling around and looking at various houses and apartments. Dad's friends showed up at one point to console us because we got kicked out.
So yeah, I was Harvey Dent, used to be a female superhero twice, was male at the time my dream to place in, and was living with my family with a good relationship with my dad.

I went to the olympics and watched badminton which I wasn't all that fussed about because I wanted to watch tennis but couldn't get tickets. Anyways I ended up loving the match.

Dreamed that people in my family where killing each other while playing poker so I magically transported myself to an island with a group of friends and a dog.  On the way back I was trying to do a fist pump while jet sking.

Then in another dream I dreamed I was with a friend in the store on an JROTC trip and some p;der brunette woman was stalking her so I told her and she reported it and we were afraid she would follow the bus on the way back.  She didn't luckily.

In the first dream I dreamed that I was jogging from church and some of the little boys from church were following me.  One of them got tired so they just took a ride home.



In the next dream Kelly Slater was coming to our neighboorhood as I was playing his video game.  When he came he brought small turtles with him.  Kelly was actually represented by another surfer.  My nephew high fived him and I asked him to sign a glove of mine and he said no.  Then I got my nephew's baby turtle toy floatie and asked him to sign that and my shirt and he said he would.

Being back in high school  :icon_blah: :icon_blah:

Quote from: Your Humble Savant on July 24, 2012, 02:18:11 PM
Being back in high school  :icon_blah: :icon_blah:

My condolences.

I dreamed that the clock said it was 6am. Shortly thereafter I rolled over and the clock actually said 4:30.  ;D

I was asleep, everything was black and my brain said 'teenagers are judgemental ar*eholes' and that was it.

Me and my brain are very to the point  ;)

I should probably add I don't actually think that about all teenagers, just the vast majority.l

I dreamed that my mom and I was leaving church and it was raining and once I got in the car she had some video game like instructions.  When I was flipping through them I saw a page that talked about the pros and cons of being circumcised and uncircumcised.  I felt awkward reading it with my mom in the car so I turned the page and put another book outside of it so she couldn't see it.  I tried to find the page again but I couldn't but I did find a receipt from th Goodwill and as I read it out to her she shoved a piece of gum in my mouth to be quiet.

I dreamed that it was late at night when I should be asleep but I was terrified of someone breaking in again because I guess in a previous dream I dreamed a male and woman tried to break in but the alarm stopped them.  I was alone in the house and terrified.  Because of this I just stood by the door the whole time looking out to window to see if any intruders pull up.  Cars kept looping through my front yard.  One pick up truck hit my fence and I tried to record it to track him down later but by the time I could pull out my phone it was too late.  I was alone and scared and was thankful for the alarm system in case I wanted to go back to sleep.  No one came.

I went for a walk and took my top off cause it was boiling and no one was about anyways. So I carried on walking wondering if I passed and at the exact moment I tuned a corner into a busy street, I realised I hadn't had top surgery yet. So I was trying to hold my arms infront of me but I couldn't cover them completely, so I turned back around to go home and there was suddenly all these people there as well. So I'm walking past them all super quick and I can tell some people are noticing cause they keep staring straight at my chest.

I dreamed about Far Cry 3 and somehow I got the game for free.  It felt like I was in the game and the levels were too hard to beat.  I couldn't figure out how to go against two guys with chain guys with a small pistol that wouldn't work on them.  Part of the dream I had to rescue two drowning girls with cement shoes while rescuing myself and they did this ritual where my sister washed my hair before they tried to drown me. >.> 

In the other dream I saw on the news where five Columbians were executed by United States police out of hate.  Then suddenly I was one of the Columbians but I had escaped.  It turned into a Metal Gear Solid game.  One of the guards had noticed me when I was trying to walk up on a woman and talk to her because she was on her knees rolling her head around and so I knew if they oculd me I would be shot in the head so I ran and ran.  They grabbed me several times but I let go of my coat on that one side and that threw them off.  Then suddenly I had when I was backed into a corner there was a dark votex nearby and sucked the guards all up and so that dropped my wanted level to one square.  I didn't even care about the girl anymore.  This is why I hate stealth games.

I had a nightmare.  I don't know how but somehow I placed an ad on Craigslist saying that I would give hand***s for money and a person came to me so I figured why not and did it.  I got  $20 from it in which I put in my top surgery fund.  I was going to meet another guy and then I got a call and a girl said my sister put my name up there so I confronted my sister and she said she was going to bust my "operation" down and report me to the cops.  I thought to myself that it's just a dream so don't react.  The I went to my window and one of the old members here were staring through my window trying to spy into my room for evidence I guess.  Then I was in the buisness like church room and my sister stood above telling the members what I had did.  Then I told her that I was trans and she didn't believe me and I told her how December 27th changed my life as I joined a trans forum so they tried to find the forum (and succeeded actually) but I told them they don't know which one and I am not going to tell them so they clicked off.  Things eventually died down and my other sister came in but I didn't tell her what was going on.

In the next dream I was on some apartment stairs and this guy knocked on a door and a former school mate of my answered.  The guy slit his throat iwth an axe and I ran.  What scared me about it first was that he told me and two other people around me to call 911 first.  I ran and ran afraid the guy was going to get me next (although I did have a slight doubt that he really wanted to get me).  I ran into a grade school and warned everyone and they ran outside and I had to sit with them.  My sister was there and she asked does anyone have proof of what happened and I raised my hand and said yes because I saw a guy's throat get slit with an axe and she walked over to me and hugged me and cried and asked was I alright and I said yeah like it was no big deal.  Somewhere in that dream were a bunch of urinals and STP devices and the bald guy from Pawn Stars and somewhere in that dream I watched a transman pee standing up with no device or surgery....awesome.

Had another dream where my house is GINORMOUS. My house is actually kind of big--a multiple unit house in which I rent out the other units and my apt is roomy, plus there are a few storage rooms. But in my dreams, I'm in a different, extremely large house that's really familiar. In this one, my friends found a wall that slides open to reveal yet another large room with some old furniture in it that I had forgotten was there. I think we were in a finished basement area (my house's basement is large but not finished). I remember wondering if I could put in another bathroom and rent out some of those spaces boarding-house style to make some extra money.

I dreamt that I was meeting with a doctor who was willing to work with me to see if I ever could indeed become pregnant.

Dreamt I was alone on top of a rocky plateau throwing rocks down at my enemies, and felt I was in a secure situation where I could withstand any siege.  The dream then changed to me looking at a large farm house somewhere in Europe.  Someone was telling me that it  was designed to be able to survive being covered in deep snow in the worst imaginable winter.

I have been feeling rejection from several family members and a certain amount of Lesbian Transphobia lately and believe they are related to this.  Yesterday evening I was starting to feel more resilient again, and recovering some of my self esteem, so I interpret these dreams as my subconscious telling me that I am becoming self-sufficient and impregnable to things that were affecting me previously.

Karen.

I dreamed that my cousin's sister stole my father's car and as she was driving off I was cussing at her.  About a week later she came to my church and I was about to call the police  until she out of no where confessed to the church that she stole the car.  I just kind of froze up with calling the cops.  In that week 4 punks tried to steal another one of our cars and one of them had a shotgun.  I ran towards that shotgun and turned it quick and shot him.  Then I shot the rest of the punks.  Luckily I used just enough shots where I didn't have to reload.  I shot my mom too but luckly she didn't fall over because it was like a video game where if you shoot a friendly they won't fall unless you KEEP shooting them.  Well I called the police after that and luckily I wasn't going to be charged with murder.

In the next dream I was in The Darkness 2 game and in the mental instituation where I poured mop water on a female worker's head and the orderleis were trying to get me but I tried my best to run upstairs but it was so slippery that I kept falling.  I think one of the orderlies grabbed my legs but I woke up before they could catch me.

Lately I've been dreaming about drugs and rocketships. I dreamed that I was okay, that I could bend spacetime and fly planes, and that I had good weed and strange fungi. I dreamed that I slept outside and the world was all burnt up. I dreamed that I found power and hope and machinery in abandoned ashes. My dreams these past few days have all been of a continuum, corny and intense. More abstract than I'm able to describe though. Of course.

I dreamed I went to the movies with my mom and we were going to see different shows.  While standing in one like this creepy girl kept bothering me and she kept following me.  Then when she went to the bathroom I booked it away from her.  I couldn't decide what to see at first but there was a Rugrats movie playing so I figured why not.  I felt like I was getting a sore throat and on top of that there was only one see for me in the back with people talking and I couldn't see in the front.  When the people beside me walked away I was goingto slide a seat over but thene some Japanese gang started to sit around me searching for some guy.  He proceeded to call this guy's name out.

I dreamed a former troll here attacked me with a fishing rod and cut my arm with a fishing hook.

I dreamed that I was in a house with Haruka, Michiru, Hotaru, and Rick from Pawn Stars.  It was raining outside so I went up to Hotaru's smiling face and kneeled before her and called her "Queen Sailor Saturn" and asked if she needed me to take her home.  She said yes but before we went I had the Rick from Pawn Stars look at my items to see if there were worth anything to sale which most were not (some included a rusty necklace chain and an exercise vhs tape and some dried up pens).  I didn't get to see the price though because I wanted to be with Queen Hotaru so I walked back to her and Sailor Venus and Artemis proceeded to walk her home avoiding opening doors that could cause trouble along the way.

For some reason I really enjoyed this dream.  For once I felt like I truly escpaed and that I felt myself returning to my body unfortuantely.  I couldn't move for a bit because the essence weight me down.  I thought about Queen Hotaru and my dedication to her and during that time I felt a warmness for Queen Serenity ruling the moon and being the Messiah along with Hotaru and it made me feel happy to serve them.  I actually physically kneeled because I look so cool kneeling.  Odd I know but it felt nice.  Now all I need to do is practice lucid dreaming so I can be King Endymion in the dreams.  xD

I dreamed that I was making out with one of my high school friends who also happened to be a girl-crush at the time  :P

For some strange reason, it was impossible for us to talk normally -- We sounded like a badly written romance novel

I dreamed I was the tag-along little brother in a duo of vampire brothers with a completely different personality than I have in RL. There was another vampire who was universally hated by pretty much everyone who gained more power than anyone else currently had. "My" older brother decided to kill him, but he was very difficult to kill. It took us a few tries, but we finally figured out his weakness that made him temporarily mortal. It would make for an interesting villain vs villain story.

Dreamt I was kissing a female former workmate and friend (straight, interstate and married IRL) who had fallen in love with me.  We then met up with a close friend  who was happy I had found a partner. 
The friend is a  Bi woman and  had suggested last week that I should look more at bi girls rather than cis-lesbians. Sounds like my sub-conscious agrees.

I dreamed that some dream snatchers from Sailor Moon were chasing me.  I ran home from the bus stop but they followed me and I tried to call my sister because she was Sailor Moon but it was hard for me to dial her number but when I did she never picked up.  The dream snatchers caught up with me and they were too strong to resist so I had to seduce my way out be kissing the enemie and then the dream turned x-rated and it got me aroused.  My member was only like 3 inches but it got the job done.  After the deed I turned into the mad scienitist from Sailor Moon and I ordered the enemy to bring me Karionite because I've always wanted her.  Then my dad comes in 9it was his room I was in) and my sister and I pull her to the side and asked her where she was when I needed her.  She said her phone was off and she left it at that.

Anyways later on I started bragging about getting laid and it ticked my mother off.  Before that we went to go see a meteor shower and an eclipse like in sailor Moon and I was talking and laughing out loud saying how those showers look like sperm.  One guy looked back at me disgusted but I kept going.  I ruined dinner with company but I didn't care.  Then I went to go see my dad outside and he was in a van and he gave me a shirt and then drove off.

I really wish I could of had Karionite.

The other night I dreamed I was in The Big Bang Theory show and I was checking out their rooms when I saw a Dream Mirror from Sailor Moon.

My dream was like a combination of Baccano! and various gender issues. It was like the transgender/gender variant mafia.

I just woke up from a dream I felt like I had already.  It involved me and some older guy and some other guy who I went on a trip with a year ago and a girl who appeared to be his girlfriend.  Apparently I was the odd one left out.  It was almost like a video game between Uncharted 2 and Mw 2.  We walked war torn streets and saw murders and what appears to be mindscrews because we saw two people who died walk around again and at times we had to run fron Nazi soldiers and jump in helicopters.

Quote from: Malachite on July 29, 2012, 08:47:05 AM
I had a nightmare.  I don't know how but somehow I placed an ad on Craigslist saying that I would give hand***s for money and a person came to me so I figured why not and did it.  I got  $20 from it in which I put in my top surgery fund.  I was going to meet another guy and then I got a call and a girl said my sister put my name up there so I confronted my sister and she said she was going to bust my "operation" down and report me to the cops.  I thought to myself that it's just a dream so don't react.  The I went to my window and one of the old members here were staring through my window trying to spy into my room for evidence I guess.  Then I was in the buisness like church room and my sister stood above telling the members what I had did.  Then I told her that I was trans and she didn't believe me and I told her how December 27th changed my life as I joined a trans forum so they tried to find the forum (and succeeded actually) but I told them they don't know which one and I am not going to tell them so they clicked off.  Things eventually died down and my other sister came in but I didn't tell her what was going on.

The second dream is scary but for the first I just want to say props for realizing it was a dream. Sometimes that can make all the difference.

And lol btw if I ever catch you giving 20 dollar hand jobs I'll fight in court against any legal enemies you acquire. XD

I dreamed that I was one of many people who were being made human servants to these Cthulhu-like beings. I was male in this dream, and the transformation process from "human" into "servant" was little more than removing my shirt, putting on a mask and makeup.

The human female who was doing this was telling me about the benefits: food, shelter, clothing, and the right to choose my own mate.

I asked, "I get to choose my own mate?"

"Yes," she replied.

"Oh, okay," I answered and went on with the transformation process.

After I woke, I couldn't help feeling that maybe this dream meant that part of me sees me as little more than a male monster instead of a woman.  :(

Quote from: Connie Anne on August 14, 2012, 09:51:07 AM
After I woke, I couldn't help feeling that maybe this dream meant that part of me sees me as little more than a male monster instead of a woman.  :(

Bollocks to that. You're beautiful just as you are, at all points past, present, and yet to come in your life. I know it's tough in transit, though I can't imagine the pain of being in the wrong body. But try not to let anyone, most of all yourself, tell you otherwise. -hugs-

I dreamt I was inside one of my favorite novels trying to defeat the apocalyptic force that threatened all the worlds...and then somehow tried to seduce the queen of the enemy forces in order to make her back off.

Huh.

Quote from: Your Humble Savant on August 14, 2012, 09:33:41 PM
Bollocks to that. You're beautiful just as you are, at all points past, present, and yet to come in your life. I know it's tough in transit, though I can't imagine the pain of being in the wrong body. But try not to let anyone, most of all yourself, tell you otherwise. -hugs-

Thanks, YHS.

I dreamt that I wanted to go back to the first school that I was at and finish there too
Not only that but I wanted to rejoin the swim team
Had to do a big apology to the team for leaving them in the first place
Then my former coach gave me the choice of being a woman or swimming.
I walked out of the rec center after refusing and then I woke up

I dreamt my son got superpowers and he got super smart. I don't actually remember the dream. I just remember it taking awhile this morning to remember that my son does not have superpowers.

In the last really good dream I had, I saw a nuclear detonation and it would always wake me up, because it was startling to me. This dream recurred several times until finally the last time I had the dream I plunged right into the heart of the blast, right down to the heart of the outward accelerating core. It was one of those secrets of the universe moments. I'd do it again just to see more.

Absolutely glorious.

A rather intriguing dream, where I was 58 years old, CEO of my own clothing company in France. I had a husband who was my assitant/co-CEO and also 26 years younger than me (ore?), that I had been married to for 12 years and dated for 2 before hand (omg!) and a daughter through a surrogate mother but with my ex-husband, which i had been married to for 17 before hand (with a year break in between the two), who now works as my Chief of Security. The dream started off like a nicely complex romance but quickly changed with a particular violent and physical fight with the current husband (i ended up with stitches and a concusion, omg) and later on i had a heart attack. it ends with husband number 2 leaving in a rage and me chasing after him, only after being yeld at to by the ex. There was a brief dramatic fight at the airport, but the two of us ended up getting back together.

i woke up completely and utterly exhausted.... - o -

Quote from: Liam Erik on August 18, 2012, 02:09:39 PM
In the spirit of JayKyle's dream, I had one in which my partner was in a violent drug-induced rage.  All I thought about and did, same scenario over and over all night, was getting our kid safely out of the house.  My partner then beat the hell out of me, but I didn't care because the kid was safe.

crazy how you had one similar...hmm maybe our subconcious's are trying to tell us something?

I don't know what it is with me and sexy dreams lately, but this one made even less sense than normal:

I was driving in the North Bay, 'round abouts Marin/Sausalito area, then next thing I know I'm flying on one of the eagles from Lord of the Rings. It takes me to this really fancy resort with abstract architecture and I end up making out with one of my college buds O.o

I don't even do drugs. The hell is all this about?  :icon_dizzy:

I dreamed that my sister was driving and and she slowly pulled up to her old house she jumped out of the car and told me to take the wheel.  I was terrified as she was serious.  I had to take off my seatbelt and try to hop on her side to control the wheel but the wheel seemed jammed and I winded up going into a lake but managed to turn it back to shore.  The cops circled me and said my sister was arrested for negligiance and they took her and her husband away.  I tried to contest it saying how it was my fault but then one cop told me that I am basically about to get arrested so I was like nevermind lol.

In another dream I dreamed that I was fighting someone and that I crushed their face and bones snapped as their face turned bloody.  Then I took all of his clothes.

Then in another dream I dreamed that there were naked tribal boys dancing around my house while grabbing themselves and that made me feel angry and dysphoric.

Satan can't get me during the day but he sure trys at night.. he had me eating poop last night as if i was separating it with my teeth from a toilet.. nasty dream.. The other night he had an ex drug addict who OD try and taunt me and then there is the sex dreams .. satan or the evil one is a nasty one..

There has been some good dreams of me flying too.. thank God..

I had such a real dream last night
and i met this woman who was so cool

She liked me for me and there was no sex. We just hung out. There were times when her nose would turn a bright red with speckles.. She is a brunette and just a simple looking female. She must have been about 33 yrs old.. She lived up above a bar and didn't seem to like where she lived and she made me feel so loved. In the dream i didn't try anything with her when she invited me to her apartment. She was constantly leaning into me and making me feel wanted. She was so real except for her nose. The nose did get big and fat but not long. Many speckles and red dots in a red hue.. Anyway she was so cool and nice and i feel like she is really out there somewhere and she is looking for me. Myself i had given up on a partner for over 5 yrs and i still feel this way. It just was so real and she made me feel so good inside.

I dreamed that I saw the whole day through my cat's eyes...weird.

I dreamed I was Alan Rickman, and that I was seducing Emma Thompson.

The first thing that comes to mind (it happened years ago), was one where I'm in Pittsburgh and I'm fighting zombies with Neve Campbell and Fairuza Balk. Coolest dream ever.

Just had a very odd dream that woke me up.

I was on a cruise ship, called the Klattenberg, or something like that. It was going up a fjord, or a big river or some sort. Steep sided cliffs on either side. And it started to sink. To start with, no one was the slightest bit interested, and some even were saying how it wasn't happening. Then the water started creeping in. It was icy cold. This ship had shiny white walls, and a big windowed room at the front. Everyone on board started congregating in that area. For some reason, people's possessions started appearing there in neat little rows.

The dream shifted and I was in a library, looking for something. Sunglasses, I think, to prevent the glare. I could hear the stories of huge banging noises on a loudspeaker overhead (quite why there would be a loudspeaker in a library is beyond me but anyway). The voice was saying how no one knew if the noises were an earthquake or something else, and there would be an update later on in the day. And I remember thinking "I know what it is, and you won't have to wait that long to find out." I could hear a faint alarm warning saying alert, all passengers abandon ship, all passengers abandon ship, this is not a drill, this is not a drill!"

And then I was back on board, and I knew somehow that the ship had run aground on a rock outcrop or something, and there was a very deep section of water that it was going to fall back into. I tried warning people but they wouldn't listen. Everyone was screaming. A man came up to me and shook me, he had a panicked look on his face. He was talking about how he'd lost his son, and how his son had failed to report to the front desk. He kept shouting it over and over and over. "I've lost my son, I've lost my son."

I asked him what his son looked like and he didn't seem to know. Only that he had white hair. Or blonde hair. He sat down in the cold water and started rocking back and forward, moaning about how he'd lost his son. I offered to go and look for him but the man shook his head and stared at me, and then started shouting "he's not here, you'll never find him. He's not here. He's not here." By this time the water was getting deeper and I knew I had to go and find the captain. I walked through seemingly endless corridors, which were changing to a dull red colour, all the time this alarm thing was sounding. All passengers abandon ship, all passengers abandon ship, this is not a drill, this is not a drill! And I could feel the whole ship tipping backwards.

I got to the captain's cabin and the captain wasn't there. There was only a note on the desk. "They're all going to die. Life is fading. It's my fault. I should have been better." It was written in blood. Through a window in the cabin I could see a huge wave crashing down the fjord, flattening trees, coming towards the ship. The walls turned red and the alarm started screaming at me. Get off the ship, you stupid b*tch, you're going to die! over and over. I couldn't move though. My heel was caught in something. I could just watch the wave engulf the ship and it sank back over the rocky thing it had run aground on and back into the deep water. I fell back and saw it was a hand that had grabbed my foot. There was a dead man there with a horrid grin on his face, holding my foot. The alarm changed again and started blaring you're never leaving! You don't deserve life. You have to stay!.

And then I couldn't breathe. My lungs filled with water. And I woke.

Very odd dream.

I dreamed that Mitt Romney had become my new PSR worker (person that helps me with my PTSD)  :P  It was quite frightening

An orca tried to eat my brother's arm, and then my feet. I escaped by hiding in a Port-o-Potty.

Sephirah the parts of your dream that involve that guys son reminded me of dreams i used to have. A guy raped me once, a boyfriend, over and over in this one night, and I got pregnant. I had a miscarriage far enough in that it was substantial and bloody and kinda horrifying, and then for a couple years I had dreams about a little boy. He was sometimes real and sometimes translucent and ghostlike, and his name was Nick. He was the kid I didn't have. I know it was just psychological nonsense, but it was compelling. That kid was so important to me, and I wanted to do right by him, but he wasn't real.

Last night I dreamed that my unvaccinated cat got out and cavorted with the neighbors' cats. Very mundane. I got up and asked my roommate if he let the cat out by any chance but lol of course he didn't.

I dreamt I was sitting in kitchen, fully transititioned mtf, and my daughter walked in, did whatever it was she was doing,  and didn't pay any attention to me - internally in the dream I was panicking that she would recognize me as *just* her dad dressed en femme and freak out. I expected some sort of negative reaction. Instead she acted as nothing was out of the ordinary - to the point of totally ignoring me.  Her reaction to the situation I took as acceptance of my transition - either that or I was no longer in this world and she was unaware of my presence.

Dreams...weird sh*t.

I dreamt I was the pet of a huge Chinese dragon-dog beast thing. Oh, and as usual I was in a hurry and had to walk through the multiethnic food market without stopping to eat (do you have regular dream venues? I have loads...)

So IRL I have one rook piercing (a cartilage piercing) in my left ear. I dreamed that I got my right rook pierced, except the jewelry was a different gauge than the left one, so I had to stretch the left one so that they matched. Now that I'm awake, I still kind of want to stretch the left one.

Quote from: Padma on September 02, 2012, 02:05:49 AM(do you have regular dream venues? I have loads...)

I do, but I don't think any of them are real-life places. And I don't know what any of them are. I just know in the dream that I've been there before.

I've got a whole range of (fictional) venues that I keep visiting in dreams. The Russian city (seen from the top deck of a red London bus), the Russian train station in the middle of nowhere, the rural boarding school (that one crops up a lot), the international food market (where I never get to stop to eat)...

Oh, and I used to dream regularly of a school with a swimming pool in the basement that had a benign killer whale in it, who would give me sage and sardonic advice :).

I also have (and goodness knows why there's no escape, even in sleep) whole dreams that are just a setup for a pun. Early this morning, for example, I dreamt I was fighting (in a Jane Bondesque manner) a terrorist organisation whose aim was to stop all MTF gender transitions - they were blowing up hospitals, firebombing surgeons... the thing is, I can't tell you directly what they were called here without breaking the ToS - let's just say that in the UK there's an organisation that interferes with fox hunting who are called The Hunt Saboteurs, and I'll leave you with the task (should you choose to accept it) of substituting a letter until... well, you'll see. Sorry.

My mind is warped, even in sleep.

*****

That one is right up there with The Artichoke Dream, in which I and a friend were eating artichokes - my friend had never had one before, and said to me "How do you start this thing?" and I quipped "You pull the choke out..."* and she replied "That's a hearty joke..."

Sometimes I wake up shaking my head.

*Note: this may be meaningless to younglings, who have never seen a car without an automatic choke. Look it up. My age showeth.

I dreamt I was a model with two faces and each loved the other...it was a very strange and complex dream with many levels (oooohoooo) and it involved a lot of random people. I woke up thinking, wtf.

I dreamt I was in an abandoned swamp (though "abandoned" is an odd descriptor for wetland) and I was climbing thought a maze of a treefort someone had built. There were ramps and floating bridges and everything was dark and dank and smelly. I found a large skink-like creature, and I caught it without much struggle. Then I came across a mammalian weasel-like thing and it tried to fight my giant skink. It was really weird. A guy walked in on the scene and started messing with some stone statues that had buttons, and I was worried the animals would get hurt, and then the alarm clock cut in.

I had a dream awhile ago about a transgender mafia. Guys... we should totally start a mafia. :laugh:

Quote from: Edge on September 09, 2012, 07:41:31 PM
I had a dream awhile ago about a transgender mafia. Guys... we should totally start a mafia. :laugh:

Ok, Im in. :icon_2gun:

Quote from: Edge on September 09, 2012, 07:41:31 PM
I had a dream awhile ago about a transgender mafia. Guys... we should totally start a mafia. :laugh:

I will totally join this. ;D

I always wake up within a half-hour of the alarm. This morning I was dreaming that I was at some huge facility, like a factory or something. I decided to go in the kitchen to do some spying and see if I could eat the food (without having to go through making myself look like a prick by asking if they had vegetarian stuff). I got in there and passed as staff, which was nice but I had to pee. It was an all-male kitchen for stupid dream reasons. The bathroom stalls didn't have doors, and I was peeing when my "boss" comes and starts lecturing me about needing to speed up the food orders. He doesn't notice my privates and doesn't comment on my sitting down. What woke me up was that I peed for a long time and then still needed to pee. I realized I was dreaming so I got out of bed.

Dreams are weird but I love the navel-gazing involved with recounting them.

I had a dream where I was sleeping  :-\. Weird...

I dreamed that I traveled back to the 90's and dated Sailor Mercury.  She's a very sweet girl.  I tried to take proof of it with my cell phone but the proof was blurry since my type of cell phone didn't exist back then.

I met the guys from Smosh (http://www.smosh.com/) to warn them that they had accidentally shown Anthony's penis in one of their videos and that it would probably get flagged by some teenage girl and taken down from YouTube. Ian was grateful for my information.

Then I met Daniel Radcliffe. Can't remember the details too well.

I dreamt I had stubble. It looked pretty bad because I was still female looking in every other way and the stubble itself was weird looking.

Quote from: edderkopp on September 18, 2012, 11:51:16 AM
I had a ton of dreams last night...a nasty one involving the undead. One where my mother told us she was going to die.

Then I dreamt that I had a basketball and it rolled over to the park. As it rolled down the hill, I ran to grab it and this girl sort of got in my face saying that it belonged to her younger brother. I said that there was no way, but decided to go back to the house to see if maybe mine was still at home. It wasn't, but then a few minutes later she came and had the ball and a small little bag. She said that her brother had been messing about and stole my basketball, and that she was sorry for being mad at me. She held out the bag and it had an invitation to a party. She wanted me to be her date. She was real cute, I bet I said yes. Blonde, athletic, cute Aussie accent.

That second dream is actually pretty cool. I actually had a dream about the undead last night and it was ick. I woke up and had to pee but lol I didn't want to walk through the dark house.

I liked and disliked my last dream. I dreamed of my wedding and everything was perfect: The beach, my cheap dress, and barbeque steak  ;D. I went with my new husband to the hotel room where newlyweds do what newlyweds do. As he was lifting my skirt, I woke up and - PENIS. Son of a biscuit!!! I don't like it when my dreams tease me!!  >:(

Me and one of my college friends were gathering other friends for an epic battle against Slenderman and Republicans in general.

It was weird.

This was kinda trippin'...

I was driving a large UPS delivery van, but instead of having a bunch of packages to deliver the van had seats in the back and was full of folks from here at Susan's and we were all going out to a club

I was back in School / High School, and I was constantly bullied without being able to do anything. Hit, insulted, thrown things at from behind...

It was the same horrible feeling I haven't experienced in more than 15 years. Some years ago the worst ones were the ones were my dick was missing (waking up and checking that everything was in place), and recently just claustrophobic ones  on which a broken wodden lift shrinks until it turns into a coffin and crushes me...


This was even worse.

I was visiting old friends in Atlanta. I think I was at Gaylaxicon. A bunch of guys were suddenly getting frisky and hooking up for sex. (This is not how it goes, btw! I mean, it's not quite THAT crazy, hehe) Anyway, this guy comes up to me who looks exactly like Cillian Murphy, though I don't recognize him as such in the dream. He looked familiar, like I had met him previously, and I found him attractive, so he's not a complete stranger to me. I remember thinking that I hope this isn't just a one-time thing and that he'll want to date afterward, but I realize it doesn't seem very likely from the situation and that makes me kind of sad. We immediately start getting undressed and are feeling each other up and he has an AMAZING body, very lean and fit. Then he drops his pants and I realize he's trans. This doesn't matter to me but I get the feeling that he is trying really hard to act super-confident and it's almost like he's testing me to see how I'll react and I'm really worried about reacting the wrong way and upsetting him and I definitely don't want to stop what we're doing. He appears to have had some minor bottom surgery, just enough to change aesthetics a little. I try to just carry on and not make an issue of any of this but he seems to suddenly lose interest and gets up and leaves like I failed whatever test he was doing. I tried to find him again later in the dream to talk to him but I didn't see him again.

I had a scary dream that was too close to reality. Dreams like that confuse me and I end up mixing my dreams up with real life >.> but anyways, I dreamed that my significant others father placed the blame on me for my love coming out as trans. I really don't want them to think that but I am so afraid they will because a few years back, my love and I were having a rough patch and I nearly left him and told him that I thought I wanted to be with a woman.. thankfully it's all so much better now, but I know he told his parents and I'm afraid that may be why they think he's making the wrong decision, because of me. But I know he's always been like this..

Waking myself up from a dream, getting bitten by a golden retriever, then waking myself up from that.

:icon_confused2:

Dreamed I had just started being a prostitute. Wow. I was meeting up with a friend of mine who was a more experienced prostitute and he was giving me tips. I was coming back from my third "date" on my first night doing it and for some reason I was naked each time I came back, walking around in public near a gay club. It somehow made sense in the dream, like I took off my clothes before going out with a John and put them on when I got back. (??) This was apparently a big give away to anyone around about what you had been up to so everyone knew. My prostitute friend reintroduced me to a guy I used to know right after I got my clothes back on. He was more of an acquaintance than a friend. I thought he might be into me but I was not really attracted back and I remember thinking "I wonder if he knows I'm a prostitute and he has to pay if he wants to do anything". Awkward! We walked around and chatted for a while and that was it and I was really relieved.

OMG! This was such a weird dream. Not in a million years.

My friend killing me over being tg and sharing a bowl with him.

A dream I had yesterday will not get out of my head:

I don't know how I did it but I accidentaly unleashed a fully grown T-rex on a sleepy English village. . . oops. The T-rex rampaged around eating people & it was my responsibility to catch it, I tried a train WTF!!! I tried a forklift & I tried all sorts of other vehicles including a bus.

I spent most of my time hiding in buildings & warehouses full of my male toys until it came crashing through windows & walls to get me.
I don't know how I captured it in the end, one minute it was chasing me in a bus (I was in the bus not the T-rex, that would be silly) & the next minute it was safely captured, in spite of all the damage & death everyone was happy with me.

I've tried deciphering this dream with my dream dictionary but there's a great deal that doesn't make sense.

the key points in the dream are:
BUS: a bus journey is the part of our lives where we are aware of the need to be on the move, but particularly with other people
(this matches with my feelings that I need to be starting HRT & also my feelings that i'm isolated, as good as my friends are they all struggle to understand my need to transition)

TRAIN: A train as a method of public transport & reflects the dreamers attitude towards social behaviour & relationships.
(I want to be in a relationshp but if someone wanted to be with me now they may not want to be with me after transition so this may be reflecting my fears/insecurities)

WAREHOUSE: this has the symbolism of being the repository for spiritual energy or spiritual rubbish.
(considering most of the warehouses were full of my male toys that i'm currently selling I believe this represents spiritual rubbish)

I feel the dominant part of the dream was the T-rex & have several entries that could apply
PREHISTORIC ANIMALS: represent a trauma from the past/childhood
(no further explanatin needed, lol)
DINOSAURS: These are very basic, primal images, they are large & powerfull, we need to be aware of whether it's their size or power that scares us. Urges as basic as this can threaten our existence by either their size or power.

HARNESSING THE ANIMAL: Shows the effort to control the dreamers instincts & if possible to make them productive & usefull.
HIDING FROM THE ANMAL: This is indicative of the dreamers struggle with animal instincts. The dreamer may be fearful of these instincts & concious of the fact that they have the power to go out of control & overwhelm the dreamers waking life.

I've left out certain personal parts of the dream but my rough interpretation is that my fears about transitioning are threatening to overwhelm me, I'm battling in an attempt to discard my baggage whilst trying to move forward.
My need for company whilst fighting my primal fears are getting in the way of progress as the attempts to use a bus & train to stop the T-rex failed.
Because the T-rex (my primal fears) were bested eventualy my subconcious is pushing me to make this a productive time of my life but I feel the dream is a warning that I must not let this get on top of me.

Our shared culture with others implies a certain amount of overlapping dream language and so a dictionary could be helpful, but ultimately our dreams are very personal. It's more important that you think about what those symbols mean to you. You should also be aware of emotions you felt at very points in the dream and how that emotion was associated with certain symbols. That can help you to decipher what the various symbols represent.

Quote from: dalebert on October 16, 2012, 06:05:38 PM
Our shared culture with others implies a certain amount of overlapping dream language and so a dictionary could be helpful, but ultimately our dreams are very personal. It's more important that you think about what those symbols mean to you. You should also be aware of emotions you felt at very points in the dream and how that emotion was associated with certain symbols. That can help you to decipher what the various symbols represent.

You're spot on with that, I use my dream dictionary as a starting point but the most important things to consider when interpreting a dream are your feelings & what is happening in your life.
I've had a few friends ask me to translate dreams over the years, the most i'll do is look up key points they feel are important then leave it up to them what conclusions they draw from that.
Everybodies experiences make the meaning different, as I said in my answer i've left out certain personal details, these are probably more important to mky translation than the key points i've listed

Quote from: Malachite on February 29, 2012, 05:07:59 PM
I have some of the oddest dreams.  What have your dreams been like lately?

Boring, unremembered or nonexistent.  :icon_weirdface:

I also pretty much never have sexual dreams, so I'm kind of jealous. haha....

Quote from: heartlesstruths on October 17, 2012, 03:12:34 PM
I also pretty much never have sexual dreams, so I'm kind of jealous. haha....

Those are very rare for me and even when I have them, they're very unsatisfying.

I dreamt I was in a support group for trans guys (in RL not online) moderated by a cis guy who has been very kind and supportive of me and others. I talked about how I really feel and had a good cry. And I realized I haven't cried about this yet.

I had this total Inception thing the other night.

I dreamed that in a fit of pique I shaved off my hair. I was then distressed because I thought I wouldn't pass or look femme anymore. Then, in the dream, I told myself "You're only dreaming, look in the mirror." And, my hair was there (but not the shorter hair style I have now).

I literally dreamed that I was dreaming.

@ Constance:

I hate dreams within dreams. @.<

I dreamed that I lost a puppy in the couch.  I have a hole in my couch and that translated into the dream when me and some people were trying to save the puppies and other dogs from a nasty hoarder who was also abusive physically.  So, I was looking at these cute little puppies and one fell through the hole and we couldn't find him even after tearing up the entire couch.

Upsetting daytime dream in which I dream-dreamt that my friend I'm in love with was telling me to leave her alone, and then I woke up (still in the dream) lying on a bed next to her, trying to reassure myself it had just been a dream - then woke up properly (on my own), and had to reassure myself all over again. Brrr.

I paused for a moment during an action-and-espionage dream to work out where the band Horselips got their name - Four Horselips of the Apocomen. Then we carried on running, because the world's not going to save itself, you know.

I dreamed I went to a Five Finger Death Punch concert and they played Country music! really strange dream

I dreamt that I saw an old friend again.

Noticing a pattern: Sleeping with too much heat always causes me nightmares. And lately they are always gender and transition related.



The last part was funny: I was in Japan, the last day of vacations after wasting all of them not doing anything. I wanted to go to Tokyo, but my camera was dismantled, I had no batteries, and I was late for picking the train.

A good reminder that I should do some maintenance on the camera, or at least charge the batteries. I think the other parts of the dream included UFO's, weird experimental rocked and space ships... The usual things.

I dreamt that a roommate told me that I was chaos; not that I was chaotic; that I WAS chaos. He basically said that I frak everything up everywhere I go.

Bad incest dream with my father....

I dreamed that my spouse dyed a pair of medium men's T-shirts blue and we had undressed and put them on, suddenly our bodies turned completely blue and there we were Momma and Papa Smurf both naked and blue in our T-shirts....Must have been the enchilada I had for dinner last night  ;D

In my dream I woke up in bed absolutely cosy as heaven and filled with happiness because I realised I had loads of time till I had to get up and could go back to sleep. Then about 5 seconds later my alarm went off (in real life) and I woke up cosy as heaven and realised I had to get up.

My own dream tormented me  :(

I dreamed that I overdrafted at the grocery store. Totally unnecessary anxiety as I'm doing fine financially right now.

I do very much enjoy hearing everyone's dreams. Humans are strange creatures.

I dreamt I was a supervillain. (Awesome!) In this dream world, though, the tools and things that supervillains tend to use cause insanity if one uses them too much. So at one point, I was the kind of fictional giggling mad in a facility for supervillains who have gone insane. Then I got better (or wasn't as insane as the good guys originally thought- I'm not sure which) and helped the good guys fight a rival villain.
My name in the dream was Loki. Interesting. Was I the Norse mythology Loki, the Marvel Loki, the Eight Days of Luke Loki, or one I just made up?

I dreamed that my house shoes were getting worn out so I partially ate them and threw the rest outside.

I dreamt that i had to carry some heavy bags on a long journey with my family. As I neared the end of the journey I realised one of the bags was a baby and had blood all over it'a face where it had been knocking against the floor.

I woke up and my boobs were hurting like hell.

Dreamt that I was making a speech in the Senate as a newly elected Senator for the "Rainbow National Party", >:-) that i had been joking about forming a few days previously with my girlfriend.

Might be something in it after all.

I had the weirdest dream ever. Dreamt I was in a zombie apocalypse with a boy(black hair, black skinny jeans, crowbar, snowboard jacket) and it was so realistic. We were in a group with 5 other folks, but they went crazy so we left. We were running hand in hand trough a mass of zombies and there was a creepy guy in the middle who was staring at us. He had long hair and was balding, mustache and dirty clothes and a trenchcoat. After running past him, more and more human appeared and less and less zombies. And then children who were playing. And the further we came, less children were playing until there were no one left. Just me and the guy, hand in hands. And then I heared the voice of the creepy guy. "The more you run through your mind, the more you pull on the strings of your memory, the more I will appear. And one day something terrible will happen. And that day the boy won't be there to protect you, and you'll be all alone. Just you and me." An then the dream slowly faded out.

Yeah, creepy ._.

I can barely remember any of my dreams, and you come up with that, Faun? Impressive.  :o

Quote from: DianaP on November 24, 2012, 05:50:28 PM
I can barely remember any of my dreams, and you come up with that, Faun? Impressive.  :o

I have always been good at remembering my dreams. I remember dreams from I was 3 or 4 years old. And for I while I practised controlling my dreams, and got pretty good at it. But I don't do that often anymore.

Quote from: Faun on November 24, 2012, 06:13:34 PM
I have always been good at remembering my dreams. I remember dreams from I was 3 or 4 years old. And for I while I practised controlling my dreams, and got pretty good at it. But I don't do that often anymore.

What I find irksome is to be awakened from a really wonderful dream and then not be able to resume it like losing one's place in a book or a film. It makes me wonder if I live another life as another person in a parallel universe somewhere.

First dream:  I was in a car with Sailor Moon and Sailor Jupiter.  First Sailor Moon was driving but then she just suddenly left the wheel and Sailor Jupiter took over and then she left the wheel so I took over and when I slowly taped the gas the car went past 60 mph and the breaks wouldnlt work when I want them too.  I was driving wrecklessly in the wrong lane and forensic investigators who were in in cop uniforms form my interm stopped me.  There was four of them.  They took me to the dmv and I grabbed this overweight girl and spun her around until she threw up.  Her soaked shirt touched my finger (ew).  Then I saw the head of a bubblegum machine my professor had and water started to fill it up and all of the gum turned into small pebbles.

Second Dream:  I won a contest and some girl and her friend decided to argue with me claiming that I made fun of her mother who passed a year ago.  I have no clue where that came from

I actually had a good dream where all of my friends and immediate family referred to me by my proper pronouns and I even looked more masculine. It did end up taking a negative turn however when I was confronted by an angry deranged person with a knife who wanted to stab me because I was transgender. I ended up being able to turn it around because I was starting to wake, by making it so I did not get stabbed and got him a little bit calmer. Before the attacker part it was a wonderful dream, but unfortunately just a dream.

My nightmares are reducing their frequency, but they are still there.

Last one involved seeing my father dressed as a woman with my clothes and telling me "Is this how you want to look?"



If I had to make a list of things that kill my transitioning hopes... Family would be the first one.

I dreamed that I moved to NY to be in a more liberal area and that other people in my region were doing the same.

Quote from: Malachite on December 03, 2012, 03:39:54 PM
I dreamed that I moved to NY to be in a more liberal area and that other people in my region were doing the same.

Hopefully the less liberal ones stay home.  :laugh:

I dreamed that Gael Garcia Bernal & I were in a film together where we were having an affair, but his wife found out. There was a frosty exchange, then we were suddenly summoned by someone who said he'd been killed. I rushed out to this beautiful garden behind the building I was in, into very bright sunlight. Then there was lots of me wailing and inconsolable over him lying there, while she stood a bit back, watching coldly. I woke up discombobulated, because on one hand, got to touch the gorgeous totty a lot, but on the other hand, drama and death (albeit not real).

Quote from: DianaP on December 03, 2012, 03:53:04 PM
Hopefully the less liberal ones stay home.  :laugh:

Thumbs up to that!

Today I dreamed that I had got my first shot of T.  However, the doctor told me he was going to give me a shot every 3 months O_o and my family didn't know I was doing this so I was a little scared for the deep voice that was to come.

I dreamed that I was shopping at J C Penney and ran into Ellen DeGeneres and told her that I just love her, she's perfect as a Penny's spokesperson and that I'm pissed at the "Million Moms" bigots who supposedly are my fellow Christians that are constantly giving Christ a black eye with their nasty attack against her just because she's gay. Ellen and I hugged and wished each other a Marry Christmas. 

I dreamed I made a cheese sandwich

Quote from: big kim on December 06, 2012, 03:17:17 PM
I dreamed I made a cheese sandwich

You are so boring! Anything is possible in a dream, and you choose that?!  :laugh:

I dreamed I was pregnant and had gone shopping in a major city somewhere and was trying to hale a taxi but none of them would stop for me and then it started raining  :P

I wish i could choose dreams!

I had a dream last night that I went through srs and didn't tell my girlfriend. The dream took place after everything was healed. We were in bed and she wanted to have sex, she reached into my panties and made the discovery. She said "so this is why we haven't been having sex". She took pretty well to it. It ended up being an extremely vivid dream.

My balcony was full of hybrids half shoe and half puppy. Imagine jumping leather shoes with puppy heads and tails... Things got worse when I launched them from a tenth floor. Animal / footwear cruelty?


The next one involved buying an ugly second hand car that looked like a yellow Renault 5, parking it on the underground of a mall, losing the keys and finding the car got stolen.





Oh please. is it too much to ask for a normal dream or no dreams at all?. I will settle down with just a wet dream, even if I have to change the sheets in the middle of the night.

I had a nightmare in the early AM's just before the furnace clicked on.

I was in a strange house, there was no light and it was pitch black in the rooms. I heard crying coming from another room and as I groped my way toward that room the door opened on it's own, and the small child's voice became a really loud adult male's voice that said "I shi* my pants @#&*!" It startled me and suddenly I sensed that a malevolent presence was coming at me in the darkness. I suppose that I was making a lot of huffing and puffing noise at that moment because I heard this sweet little voice come from my right side saying, "Honey I'm here it's ok!"

Whew, I hate those nightmares. The really odd part is that I understand the meaning of the dream, it's deep!

I had a dream that an enormous bottomless sinkhole opened up under Washington, DC and both houses of Congress and the White House were sucked in and disappeared forever thus ridding us of all the manipulative emotional blackmail of a feckless, self aggrandizing bunch of thugs. When I awoke I was disappointed to discover that it was just a dream.

I had a dream that my sister was driving and we saw an airplane crash into a house and catch on fire.  The fire department put out the fire very quickly and we stopped at this place that used to be an old fire department, but was now changed into like an arcade/video game/anime club.  I had to use the bathroom but there were no doors and the bathrooms looked disgusting.  Under one of the toilets looked like a blood diaper/pad (eww).  My other sister was with me and she just got over it and used a toilet so I did the same.  I was a bit shy though so I couldn't get all my liquid out so I gave up.  I flushed the toilet and it started to overflow so I left.  I saw a girl that I knew and she was using an open toilet which shocked me.  I start to explore around some more and noticed that they had urinals that were also set up with an individual fosset to wash my hands in so I did that.  They had sinks but I wanted to be near a urinal and while the guys next to me were using one, I was just using that fosset to wash my hands to curb my dysphoria.  I eventually had to leave that awesome place because my sisters were waiting for me outside.  :(

This has actually been one of my better dreams.  I loved it.

I dreamed that there was a big war or plague or something and those of us that didn't die in the disasters were living underground. Everything was kinda dirty and dimly lit. It should have been spooky but it was mostly exasperating because we kept arguing about how to survive because we had so many artists and musicians and nobody knew how to deal with plumbing or how to get adequate nutrition. Slimy tunnels and public sculptures and famous people whose fame no longer mattered. It was silly.

Malachite I dream about bathrooms and sinks and toilets waaay too often and I don't like it. It's usually because I have to pee but it's plenty of times felt related to transition stresses.

Quote from: Felix on January 11, 2013, 07:08:55 AM
I dreamed that there was a big war or plague or something and those of us that didn't die in the disasters were living underground. Everything was kinda dirty and dimly lit. It should have been spooky but it was mostly exasperating because we kept arguing about how to survive because we had so many artists and musicians and nobody knew how to deal with plumbing or how to get adequate nutrition. Slimy tunnels and public sculptures and famous people whose fame no longer mattered. It was silly.

You've been watching "The Walking Dead" on AMC?

Quote from: Felix on January 11, 2013, 07:08:55 AM
Malachite I dream about bathrooms and sinks and toilets waaay too often and I don't like it. It's usually because I have to pee but it's plenty of times felt related to transition stresses.

Now that kind of dream is really scary, you need to force your eyes open and get up because you're about to wet your bed!  :laugh:

QuoteYou've been watching "The Walking Dead" on AMC?

I has no television but I've heard that show is pretty good. Idk why but my standard dream template seems to be post-apocalyptic dystopia.  :icon_zombie:

Quote from: Felix on January 11, 2013, 10:57:42 AM
I has no television but I've heard that show is pretty good. Idk why but my standard dream template seems to be post-apocalyptic dystopia.  :icon_zombie:

I honestly don't think that you're alone with those feelings, we may be headed in that direction.

I dream of being a girl drummer in a rock band.  :)

Fun fact I am never a girl in my dreams nor a boy, Or a least I never what gender I was :P  My last dream was about running through mist endlessly running, I dont remember anything but running.

I was driving an AMC Javelin being chased by a police car.More exciting than dreaming about making a cheese sandwich Diana?

Many ways lead to self-discovery. You can analyze your dreams. Dreams don't lie. When the body is tired and goes to sleep, the soul processes events, emotions and thoughts of the previous day(s). Dreams are symbolic representations of what is going on in your inner self. Every evening before going to bed program yourself with the following: "When I wake up I will remember every dream in every detail." Gradually you will be able to remember more and more dreams, up to seven or eight dreams or more. Every time you wake up write down the dream on a piece of paper next to the bed. Later in the day, write down all your dreams in a journal, with a explanation or comment. You will soon notice that you will not like some of the dreams, because of violent or sexual content, or because they revealed dishonest tendencies, or you have had repeated dreams of being a victim. Dreams are often not flattering. They show you who you are, where your weaknesses are. In the beginning your mind will tell you not to write down certain parts of the dream, or to alter it a little bit. Don't give in. You need to recognize both the pleasant and unpleasant parts of yourself. Remember, it is not you, only your tendencies. You are a divine being, your personality is like a vehicle you took on for this incarnation. Like a car, it needs constant fixing. It is important that you write down every detail of the dream. By writing it down, you bring your hidden, unconscious tendencies into full awareness. By analyzing the dream and penetrating its symbols you are recognizing the problem. The next step is to change your dreams. Yes, you can do that. If you were attacked in a dream, you want to get out of that pattern of being a victim. Close your eyes, and recreate the dream, this time consciously. Change the dream, turn around and face your attacker and kill him. Yes, kill him with love. The attacker in the dream represent an energy in your soul that is subduing your power to stand up for yourself. Killing the attacker in your mind is a symbolic act to dissolve this subduing energy. The attacker will then turn into a benevolent energy, emerging into a dream friend. Energy cannot disappear, it can only be transformed. Here we are transforming it into a friendly energy. Therefore when you kill opposing forces in your dream, do it with love or at least out of necessity, never with angry emotions. It will take several tries to change a dream like that, but result is guaranteed.

     Knowing yourself is the key to spiritual evolution. "Know thyself, and knowing thyself you will know the Divine" (inscription at the oracle in Delphi, Greece). Everything that happened to you in the first twenty years of your life is built into the foundation of your being, for the simple reason that as a child you were unable to shield yourself against outside influences. Towards adulthood you learned how to protect yourself, but by then you were already full of programs put into your mind by your parents, the school and anyone else who had an influence on you. This also applies to events. Sexual abuse during childhood, for example, has a tremendous impact on the soul for the rest of one's life. The rebirthing process, initiated by Leonard Orr, is a good tool to come into contact, re-experience and release emotional blockages of your past. It eventually will eliminate primal trauma and transform the subconscious impression of birth into a gentle and awakening event.

     Look back at your childhood and what happened in those days. All your present relationships are based on how the relationship with your father and mother developed. A child's character is formed for a large part by its environment. A child takes its environment as "this is what the world is like". It thinks that the rest of the world is the same as what he is experiencing around him. Thus he forms his character. If a child grows up with abusive parents, he might think that being abusive is the only way to survive in this world, and he will become himself abusive to other people later in life. Or he might himself see as a helpless victim, and will always be taken advantage of. How did you experience your parents, your brothers and sisters? What did they do to you that you didn't like or what traumatized you. A simple sentence like "You are an annoying brat", "I never wanted you, you were an accident" can have a devastating effect. Being wrongly accused, even if the matter was trivial, might instill a big guilt complex in a child. Search your memories for those forgotten traumas and discover how they link to your present day behavior. Most important, forgive the people who have hurt you. It is not always easy, but if you don't forgive them, you are holding on to the pain and to your feelings of irritation, guilt, fear and so on. It is not necessary to tell them in person. Forgiveness has to happen inside yourself. Be truthful and sincere towards yourself. When you forgive those who have hurt you, you have to mean it. Forgiveness is liberation, liberation of all those negative emotions, thoughts and fear.

     Pay attention to this last word: fear. Who is without fear? Are you? Of course not. You might think you are, but this is just pride. We all have fears. Your fears are lurking underneath the surface, grabbing every opportunity they can to express themselves. Fear of disapproval, fear of authorities, fear of being hurt, fear of losing your partner, fear of injury, the list is endless. Some fears are instinctual to guarantee your survival on this planet. However most of the fears you have created during your lifetime are of psychological origin. Fear cripples and disables. It takes away the joy of life. Make a list of all your fears, even those that seem small and insignificant. Again be honest and accept your fears. Acceptance is the first step to recovery. Releasing is next. You could take a psychological approach and use, for example, gestalt therapy. As fears are also locked in the physical body, especially in the muscles, a good Rolfing massage might be the solution. Bach Flower remedies or Homeopathy work on the energetic level. Many other approaches exist. Choose one you are comfortable with.

     Don't forget that the issues in your life have a purpose: to make you aware of inner imbalances. You really have to go to the root of your problems, or your fears, and do something about it. Healing done by another person is only a temporary solution if you don't change the underlying cause. The disease or fear will eventually come back. True healing can only be done by yourself. Therefore you need to understand who you are in this lifetime. What does your personality consists of, what are your imbalances, your fears. Work on it, work, work, work! Every day you need to work on it. Relentlessly. It is hard work but the results are worth while: the realization of your true potential: a light being on Earth.

     Now that you have discovered that you have a rich inner world, although not perfect, it makes you aware that as an individual you are interacting with and influenced by other people. People who make up the totality of mankind. No one is isolated, we are all connected. Now you are ready to progress one step further on the stairway of consciousness. Let's enter the level of mankind's consciousness.


http://www.soul-guidance.com/houseofthesun/sevenlevels.htm (http://www.soul-guidance.com/houseofthesun/sevenlevels.htm)

I had some rather strange dreams last night and wanted to post about them but I can't remember the dreams now  :-\   Oh well, I only remember some dreams once in awhile but usually don't remember most of my dreams

Quote from: V M on January 12, 2013, 02:36:47 PM
I had some rather strange dreams last night and wanted to post about them but I can't remember the dreams now  :-\   Oh well, I only remember some dreams once in awhile but usually don't remember most of my dreams

Me too, and I'm thankful for that!

I don't really remember much of my dreams. I usually just remember some very vague thing about them, like if they were very weird or something like that.

But I do remember BIGBANG's G-Dragon was in my dream last night...
Not that I complain! I mean, seriously. Look at him. (http://25.media.tumblr.com/c9ef77b78d5ebb9596c2dd2d3122582d/tumblr_mg8b6hajMc1rxgexuo1_500.jpg)
The thing I don't like is that I don't remember what he was doing!

The night before last i dreamed that I got to go back to college, and also that I could fly. ;D

Last night I had a really vivid long dream about cooking. It was stupid. We ran out of grits so I tried to make hash browns, and more people kept showing up and I didn't have enough dishes etc and so on.

I dreamed that a coworker and I were in some LARP thing and we were practicing a mock combat scene, I with a pair of wooden tantos and her with a wooden katana.

And somehow, we ended up "scissoring" with each other.

Sailor Mercury

I now appear to be having a reoccurring dream, both at night and consciously during the day. I'm on the gurney heading to OR. Takes my breath away.

Huggs
Catherine

Quote from: Catherine Sarah on January 17, 2013, 05:40:20 AM
I now appear to be having a reoccurring dream, both at night and consciously during the day. I'm on the gurney heading to OR. Takes my breath away.

Huggs
Catherine

Hey Catherine, sounds like an SRS event is not far off for you girl!

Quote from: Shantel on January 17, 2013, 08:28:21 AM
Hey Catherine, sounds like an SRS event is not far off for you girl!

Hummmm. You could be right, Shantel. By mid February, I'll have my date and surgeon. Only have two more to meet and greet. I can nearly touch it.

Thank you for your kind thought.

Huggs
Catherine

I dreamed that there was a different entertainment medium in complement to books and movies and video games - an experiential storytelling thing that was kind of a combination of all of those ways. A friend of mine was an author/artist and she took one of my video game characters and wrote it into one of her stories and it took off, was popular and made a lot of people happy. I didn't bother with it until years later because I assumed it was shallow and pointless entertainment, but when I finally checked it out it was amazing and complex and fun. And then I felt all puffed up and special. It was a nice dream. :)
Radiohead - Nice Dream (fan video) (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2vHByVGhmcc#)

I dreamed that I was walking through an Ecuadoran banana plantation. Suddenly [splat!] i get hit on the noggin by an overripe banana, so I look up and there's DianaP in her green tights and an impish grin on her face and laughing as she fletches an arrow in her bow. About that time my dog Cody wakes me up. Good dog Cody, good boy! Must have been something I ate....

The other day, I dreamed about my wedding. It was not what I wanted, but was nice nonetheless, although I was confused.

I dreamed I was driving (more sedately than last time and I don't know what sort of car it was) to a date.When i got to a restaurant my date was there and he looked like a blonde Errol Flynn.

I dreamed that I went back to my old school in my NJROTC uniform to see my Chief and it was picture day but I didn't have my Combo cover.  I didn't want to wear my Garrison cover so I asked my chief if he had a spare Combo cover.  It took me nearly the whole dream to find it in the uniform closet and he started to get mad at me for not having mine.  When he finally gave me one, the it was almost perfect, but it had a black chin strap instead of the gold one which I earned.  Before I could even take the picture I woke up.

Quote from: Malachite on January 30, 2013, 12:58:02 PM
I dreamed that I went back to my old school in my NJROTC uniform to see my Chief and it was picture day but I didn't have my Combo cover.  I didn't want to wear my Garrison cover so I asked my chief if he had a spare Combo cover.  It took me nearly the whole dream to find it in the uniform closet and he started to get mad at me for not having mine.  When he finally gave me one, the it was almost perfect, but it had a black chin strap instead of the gold one which I earned.  Before I could even take the picture I woke up.

Good thing, if you had to live with a picture with a black chin strap rather than the gold one you would have been really miserable and we'd all hear no end of it. I'm so happy for us!  :laugh:

LOL... I dreamed that I couldn't find my wallet and I was late to go somewhere and frantically searching my place  :o   Then I woke up and knew exactly where it was and went back to sleep  8)

Quote from: Shantel on January 30, 2013, 04:41:19 PM
Good thing, if you had to live with a picture with a black chin strap rather than the gold one you would have been really miserable and we'd all hear no end of it. I'm so happy for us!  :laugh:

YES! I was thinking about that in the dream.  I was thinking how I wouldn't have been able to look at the picture afterwards.  Gold looks so much better on me.

Not sure of the real value of dreams. Obviously something to do with preparing us for things we may or may not be aware.

Week 1, some weeks ago, I dreamt I was being lifted from my hospital bed to an OR trolley.
Week 2, I was being wheeled along a corridor towards the OR
Week 3, I entered the OR and saw all the lights and instruments.
Now for this week, week 4, I'm back in my hospital bed, feeling excited with lots of packing between my legs.

Obviously the operation was a total success.

Does that mean I now have to go through with it??    :laugh:    :laugh:    :laugh:

Huggs
Catherine

Quote from: Catherine Sarah on January 31, 2013, 08:02:21 AM
Not sure of the real value of dreams. Obviously something to do with preparing us for things we may or may not be aware.

Week 1, some weeks ago, I dreamt I was being lifted from my hospital bed to an OR trolley.
Week 2, I was being wheeled along a corridor towards the OR
Week 3, I entered the OR and saw all the lights and instruments.
Now for this week, week 4, I'm back in my hospital bed, feeling excited with lots of packing between my legs.

Obviously the operation was a total success.

Does that mean I now have to go through with it??    :laugh:    :laugh:    :laugh:

Huggs
Catherine

Catherine,
      You are subconsciously emoting over coming events and could be excited about the prospect and perhaps expressing a bit of anxiety! Sounds pretty normal to me either way.

Quote from: Shantel on January 31, 2013, 09:42:10 AM
Catherine,
      You are subconsciously emoting over coming events and could be excited about the prospect and perhaps expressing a bit of anxiety! Sounds pretty normal to me either way.

Hi Shantel,

Sounds spot on to me  ;D

Huggs
Catherine

I dreamed that I was out on a lunch date with the author of The Duff: Designated Ugly Fat Friend. She's my daughter's age.  ???

I dreamed about some kind of giant purple tornado pokemon. It lived in a stormcloud over an island that I swam to while visiting people on the east coast. Very silly.

I dreamed that I spoke to my therapist.  Afterwards, I felt so alone tha my neighbor's cat who is usually mean came to comfort me.  It laid on my stomach and purred and my made me feel not-so-alone.  I lied to my mom about the cat being in the house but she found out and told me to get it out of the house.  It made me feel sad to do that, but it found it's way back in and then that pirate from Spongebob came in to take the cat.

The next dream, I stoled a red floatie from a child at the beach and swam with it.  I then ended up near some small kid's roller coster in the water and it had 2 children with their hands and feet tied down and they kept riding the ride.  Strange.

Jeebus I hope they weren't drowning.

Quote from: Malachite on February 02, 2013, 03:47:47 PM

The next dream, I stoled a red floatie from a child at the beach and swam with it.  I then ended up near some small kid's roller coster in the water and it had 2 children with their hands and feet tied down and they kept riding the ride.  Strange.

Kiddie BDSM?  :D

I dreamed I went with Himself to a menswear store that was having some kind of party. Himself offered to buy me some clothes, and while browsing, I met another FTM who seemed to like me, but he was very shy.

Quote from: Shantel on February 02, 2013, 05:10:16 PM
Kiddie BDSM?  :D

From the looks of it, I say so lol.

Quote from: Felix on February 02, 2013, 04:18:33 PM
Jeebus I hope they weren't drowning.

Nope but I do think the ride went underwater temporarily.

Quote from: Malachite on February 02, 2013, 08:20:28 PM
Nope but I do think the ride went underwater temporarily.

That's okay if likely symbolic or something. Not being able to breathe is so scary.

I dreamed that I was on a bus when the bus driver ran over a pregnant cat....I could hear splatting noise. :(

I've been having seriously weird dreams on my anti-depressants, one of last nights was a doozy!

I was walking down the street playing Guitar Hero, the notes were on the pavement & the speed I walked changed the speed of the song, people kept getting in my way & making me miss notes.
Then I tried to cross the road at an underpass in Bristol & 2 women got run over by cars, I helped one to the side of the road & kept her talking whilst waiting for the emergency services, someone was helping the other woman.
The fire service were the first to turn up to the scene & when they got out of the fire engine they were all wearing womens underwear, some had wigs & make-up & some didn't.

then I woke up thinking "damn that was weird!!"

I was hanging from a hook by my wrists which were tied together,I could see through a crack in the door that I was near trees and i knew someone was coming back.

Usually my dreams are remarkably lackluster. Last night I dreamed about buying plywood at Home Depot. It gets exciting too.....I had a coupon for $20 off a purchase of $99 or more! Three nights ago I dreamed I was hanging drywall. I was pissed when I woke up because I just did all that work for nothing. Then there are the usual ones like watching TV, sitting on a chair, eating at Friday's, stuff like that. It's like daily life except I'm dreaming it.

Quote from: lydia_s on March 20, 2013, 03:57:22 PM
Usually my dreams are remarkably lackluster.

Count your blessings, I have a recurring dream:

I'm on patrol in SE Asia, the point man calls a halt and we step off the trail and take up defensive positions. I sling my M-16 and unzip my pants to take a leak. Pushing the foliage aside I see three corpses grey and bloated with their eyes open but glossed over and they're looking at me. I awaken my spouse with my loud huffing and puffing and she wakes me just before I have a heart attack.

One of my dreams last night was prompted by a friend asking if i'd ever make it up with my evil, scheming ex (the answers NO!)

I dreamt that i'd made it up with her & I took Poopie round to see her, when I turned my back he'd disappeared, from the nasty smirk on her face it was obvious she'd hidden him away somehow. I went outside to see if I could see him & someone asked what he looked like, there were loads of dogs around of different breeds but I couldn't remember what he looked like!

That dream disturbed me so much I went & sat in the front room for 10 minutes or so to calm down, Poopie curled up next to me on the sofa, he knew something had bothered me & when I went back to bed he curled up next to me & used my legs as a pillow. In the morning he was still curled up against my legs when normally he'd get off the bed as soon as I start dozing & curl up on his own bed!

Had a dream that Marilyn Manson autographed the inside of two caps for me.

In my dream I was somewhere serving in the military. I was in full combat gear and I was slogging it back to base. No idea where I was but I remember it being mountainous terrain. Anyway, when I got back to base I dropped off my backpack and rifle but kept my pistol on my hip. I went to see if I had mail, Which there was none and then went to the a store on base that really only had snacks and little things and I remember stopping to look at a transformers to and thinking my Son would like that. I left there and headed to the mess hall for some food. on my way there someone yelled at me, "Why have you still got your kit on?" to which I replied, "Because I work 24/7 you dumbass!" then I woke up. It was nice not being male in my dream. ^_^

I forget most of it, but I dreamt of the UK show Being Human with particular emphasis on Mitchell from the end of season two until the end of season 3.

The dreams that really bug me are the really beautiful ones and then something wakes me up and try as I will, I can never get back into that dream where I had left off.  ???

I can't remember the dream I had today but the previous dream I dreamed that I was on the toilet thinking about a metoidioplasty and a circumcision (separately) and then I magically grew a five inch partially circumcised penis.  I woke up before I had a full chance to use it though.

I dreamed that a grey Yeti  was around my house and trying to kill me so I killed it with no help (even though I asked for help from Harper on Black Ops 2 and he acted like he couldn't) with my mother's knife and started hitting him with a bag of clothes.  Long story short I slit his throat and cut his head off and the police came and said there were two bigger Yeti's on the loose.

That's when I realized it was time to wake up.

i usually don't dream, but last night Idreamed my husband and I were having an epic argument (well, I wasnt saying much, he was just mostly screaming at me). it served as a good reminder on why I completely loathe him despite hownice he's been lately.

I had another dream where I can fly or, at least, I'm supposed to be able to fly, but something keeps pulling me down. Not far down. I can still fly, but it's like there's an invisible and intangible ceiling and I keep being a few inches lower than I need to be. Also, people are chasing me and I can barely keep away from them, but I'm slower than I'm supposed to be.

Quote from: Edge on May 08, 2013, 03:41:24 PM
I had another dream where I can fly or, at least, I'm supposed to be able to fly, but something keeps pulling me down. Not far down. I can still fly, but it's like there's an invisible and intangible ceiling and I keep being a few inches lower than I need to be. Also, people are chasing me and I can barely keep away from them, but I'm slower than I'm supposed to be.

I have very similar dreams, recurring way to often.  They have calmed down a little since been full time, but this is almost every dream I can remember for at least 3 years when I first started to confront my GID.

I dreamed last night that a friend of mine here, was getting married, and she was beaming with a huge smile.  But here father was not there to give her away.  She waved to me.

I dreamed that I was given a free concert ticket to see Jennifer Lopez but someone stole it and I couldn't get in to see the concert.  Then I said to myself "I didn't want to see it anyways."

I dreamed that I was dating a woman with kids and she was only using me to take care of her kids.  I coudn't even sleep in the same bed with her as I had to sleep in her kid's room.

I think this dream comes from thinking about my last two girlfriends.  One had kids and the other was just using me....talk about combining two in one.

I was walking along the sidewalk in the shopping district of a major city, I think maybe San Francisco in front of the Macy's, not sure
I was wearing a red skirt, a white button down top, black knee high boots and my hair was flowing

Anyway I was feeling happy and confident

Oh how I hated waking up to realize I was still living in the place where I live or in my opinion dying a slow torturous death

Quote from: V M on May 23, 2013, 09:19:09 PM
I was walking along the sidewalk in the shopping district of a major city, I think maybe San Francisco in front of the Macy's, not sure
I was wearing a red skirt, a white button down top, black knee high boots and my hair was flowing

Anyway I was feeling happy and confident

Oh how I hated waking up to realize I was still living in the place where I live or in my opinion dying a slow torturous death

Sounds like hell, time for a move hon!

I dreamed that an earring was pierced to my hand and it burned.

Something about being in a boat with zombies rising up out of the water. But we wanted the zombies to come out of the water, we were trying to attract them. A few minutes in my brain was like NOPE and I woke up. Zombies are the scariest thing.

I had a dream where I could create little pocket dimensions. I could only make rectangular rooms about the size of a bathroom. I made a very cozy one with cushions and books. It was great.

I'm not sure but I woke up with my hand on something warm,soft and furry.I thought my luck had changed but when I opened my eyes it was a bear.

Quote from: big kim on May 26, 2013, 03:16:16 PM
I'm not sure but I woke up with my hand on something warm,soft and furry.I thought my luck had changed but when I opened my eyes it was a bear.

Did you get her name?  ;D

Little Ted,she's about 12" tall

 

Quote from: big kim on May 26, 2013, 06:17:02 PM
Little Ted,she's about 12" tall

Gotcha!  ;D

I dreamt that I introduced myself to everyone as Victor and was an eccentric guy who apparently stole priceless antiques (mostly tapestries and rugs from the look of it) and kept them above the rafters of my room in a space was, for some reason, big enough to be another room.

I dreamed I was about to go on stage and play the piano

I dreamed about using bad, bad drugs.

Thank god that chapter of my waking life is over.

Quote from: natastic on June 03, 2013, 11:21:07 AM
I dreamed about using bad, bad drugs.

Thank god that chapter of my waking life is over.

They used to call it Jonesing! I used to dream about smoking four years after i had quit, guess it's pretty normal for the old addiction to whisper to you in your subconscious. The devil wants you back!

Quote from: LearnedHand on May 08, 2013, 03:32:30 PM
i usually don't dream, but last night Idreamed my husband and I were having an epic argument (well, I wasnt saying much, he was just mostly screaming at me). it served as a good reminder on why I completely loathe him despite how nice he's been lately.

Wow.  That's strong.  Why are you still together?

I had a dream that I turned on a lamp and the lightbulb broke and fire came out. the fire kept coming so I ran and turned off the breaker. So, I went and told my dad and he just said "oh that's okay, it happened out here too, don't worry about it," but I didn't quite believe that it was normal so I went out and bought a new lamp.

I think it means that as I've gotten older, I've realized my dad doesn't have the answer to everything mechanical.

Quote from: Jamie D on June 03, 2013, 07:27:32 PM
Wow.  That's strong.  Why are you still together?

We're not, I just bring him clothes and stuff once in awhile (he's in a hospital).

I had a dream the other day that I was in a video game, I had loads of enemies after me & only a few bullets in my pistol.
I was running in treacle so they always caught me & as they got me i'd respawn at the checkpoint at the start of the dream, over & over & over

Quote from: LearnedHand on June 04, 2013, 05:56:27 AM
I had a dream that I turned on a lamp and the lightbulb broke and fire came out. the fire kept coming so I ran and turned off the breaker. So, I went and told my dad and he just said "oh that's okay, it happened out here too, don't worry about it," but I didn't quite believe that it was normal so I went out and bought a new lamp.

I think it means that as I've gotten older, I've realized my dad doesn't have the answer to everything mechanical.

Being sensitive to the idea that a dream may have some relative pertinence to one's own life and being able to discern it's meaning on awakening is a spiritual gift and it's real, your understanding it in that way is rather amazing and you are probably right!

Quote from: LearnedHand on June 04, 2013, 05:56:27 AM
We're not, I just bring him clothes and stuff once in awhile (he's in a hospital).

I had the same (???) reaction as did Jamie D probably because it's been awhile since you first came to Susan's and there are a lot of members with so many different life stories, but I recall how you were stuck in an emotionally abusive situation and wanted to run away. It's incredible to think that he's still in that hospital after all this time, he must be a real mess. I recall how we were encouraging you to get a legal divorce, did that ever happen? Not our business, I apologize for being so nosy, but you are well liked here by everyone and it would really suck if you wound up with that man's foot on the back of your neck again. ((hugs))

I haven't quite gotten a divorce yet, since there's really no rush since he's in the hospital (almost there for 2 years now), we have no kids and no assets. One of the attorneys at work said she could do it for me though she also said there's really no rush here.

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A play I wrote was coming on the television and there was a warning it contained strong language from the start.

I don't know if i really was sleeping but i was so tired this morning in class that i actually fell asleep for very short time periods. The first time there was some weird song-text scribbled on the chalkboard, the second time it was Tom Baker of Doctor Who fame, appearing as he did in the intro sequence. Must've been out for some time because there was a lot of text i don't remember being written on there. This may or may not be a side-effect of my anti-depressants (which never really helped me, but i once forgot to take them three days in a row because i needed help at the time and actually felt high. I googled a bit and thank god i'm not insane).

Dreamed that there were some Tekken PS1 games I wanted at Walmart so I got some and put them down for a minute and someone swooped them up.   In the same dream I found a jar of change that someone left but I was afraid to get it because I didn't want the store ot think that I was stealing.

Quote from: kkut on June 05, 2013, 04:39:04 PM
Several years ago I started having a recurring dream, lately I've been having it almost nightly, last night was no exception.

I dream I'm moving to a new place. Some of my dreams I'm searching for the new home, checking out the neighbors, etc. Other times I'm working on fixing up my home to get it ready to sell.

The strange thing is, I've recently done a lot of additions and remodeling to my home because I like it here, so I don't understand what this means.

This has me kind of curious because my last recurring dream came true. Don't ask.  ;)

That's interesting because you are self employed. Might be different if you worked for some big corporation and they were planning to move you somewhere.
My recurring dreams are usually rather dark, thankfully I don't remember them in a lot of detail in the morning.

Strips of bacon had replaced paper money and all precious metals as legal tender and the various grocery chains had redivided the world into their own countries... Then it started to get rather strange from there

I dreamed about slashing my way through Elder Scrolls IV:Oblivion

I think i had two swords and was constantly battling demons.

I have weird dreams.

Quote from: V M on June 05, 2013, 09:39:09 PM
Strips of bacon had replaced paper money and all precious metals as legal tender and the various grocery chains had redivided the world into their own countries... Then it started to get rather strange from there

I think you're on to some kind of conspiracy Virginia!

Oscar Mayer is offering its own version of those cheesy commercials in which a woman opens a box of sparkling jewelry from her adoring mate.

Its "Say It with Bacon" ad shows a couple riding in a horse-drawn carriage. The woman hands the man a small box covered with black velvet. He opens the lid to find two glorious strips of bacon. "When words just aren't enough, say it with bacon," a narrator says.

Really odd... I dreamed that I was on holiday in Los Angeles, which is within walking distance of Las Vegas apparently (according to my dream), when one of my children fell ill & became distressed. She was quite young so I offered to breastfeed her to comfort her.

I get the feeling this one is going to be a recurring dream.

Quote from: FTMDiaries on June 07, 2013, 01:44:14 PM
Really odd... I dreamed that I was on holiday in Los Angeles, which is within walking distance of Las Vegas apparently (according to my dream), when one of my children fell ill & became distressed. She was quite young so I offered to breastfeed her to comfort her.

I get the feeling this one is going to be a recurring dream.

Real long walk, but what do you think it all means?

Quote from: Shantel on June 07, 2013, 02:13:08 PM
Real long walk, but what do you think it all means?

Being in LA/LV: this represents the positive steps I'm taking in moving forward with my journey. It represents me finding the freedom to be myself and follow my dreams.

Sick Child/Breastfeeding: I've recently been told that I won't be able to have any more biological children even via a surrogate (hence the child being sick). I did breastfeed my daughters so it makes sense that that would form part of the scenario.

So I think it is about the fact that, whilst I'm feeling positive about my journey overall, I'm distressed that one of the unavoidable consequences is a loss of the possibility of future children.

I can't remember the details, but I woke up around 2:30am this morning angry at my ex for no longer having sex with me. WTF, it's been 2 years since we separated.

Quote from: FTMDiaries on June 07, 2013, 02:58:08 PM
Being in LA/LV: this represents the positive steps I'm taking in moving forward with my journey. It represents me finding the freedom to be myself and follow my dreams.

Sick Child/Breastfeeding: I've recently been told that I won't be able to have any more biological children even via a surrogate (hence the child being sick). I did breastfeed my daughters so it makes sense that that would form part of the scenario.

So I think it is about the fact that, whilst I'm feeling positive about my journey overall, I'm distressed that one of the unavoidable consequences is a loss of the possibility of future children.

Excellent assessment, you are probably right about that on all counts.

Most of the dream I had didn't make sense but the part that stuck out to me the most was I saw this large shower room that rained down green vomit and teenagers was playing around in the vomit and skating in it.  They were having a good time and I eventually sat down in the vomit >.>

Quote from: Malachite on June 07, 2013, 10:39:05 PM
Most of the dream I had didn't make sense but the part that stuck out to me the most was I saw this large shower room that rained down green vomit and teenagers was playing around in the vomit and skating in it.  They were having a good time and I eventually sat down in the vomit >.>

...Were you watching reruns of that show from Nickolodeon with the green slime?

lol no- I have no clue where that dream came from

I dreamed that I was in the dollar store and I saw some soft chocolate chip cookies being sold outside and I wanted to buy them but I was going to do so after I shopped around.  he only thing I remember putting in my cart was a glow in the dark notebook binder and the only reason I was going to buy it was because it looked cool.  I didn't really need it.  Before I could purchase it and go back outside to purchase the chocolate chip cookies I woke up.  :(

Hmm...I was watching a Super Sentai show (don't remember what series) when I fell asleep. During my dream, I dreamed that I was part of a Sentai hero group and had this spiffy suit. I was all ripped and flat-chested. I was like "Omg! Awesome sauce!" and went around battling random monsters that represented different feminine things...such as a tampon monster with a blood face, a giant bottle of pink nail polish, and this spooky floating flowered dress monster. It was really bizarre. I had this cannon blaster thing that I was shooting them with and they kept coming back from the dead, even after they exploded.

*It might be helpful to note that I take medication for sleep apnea and that it causes intense dreams and occasional night terrors.

I had a dream that one of my bosses (the really super nice one) gave me an assignment to do that was kind of important, but that I forgot what it was and obviously didn't do it since I couldn't remember. I told him I forgot the next day at work in dreamland, and he said that he couldn't remember what it was either and not to worry about it then.

I think it means that I need to write things down more, because I always forget things when I don't write them down. Speaking of that. . . I need to grab that sticky note I stuck in my pockets and add that appointment to the calendar on my phone. . .

I had a dream last night that I got a sloth for my birthday. It ate all my cereal.

I dreamed that I was competing on Gladiators. I wish I could explain what the hell that was all about.

I took a nap this afternoon with Law and Order SVU on the TV, I had a dream that Olivia and I were roommates.

I dreamed that I drew two pictures for a play and one of them looked like the sky was about to fall open and water coming out with a sea king doing it.  I forgot what the other picture was.  After the play, my sister admited on the phone to my mom that she was trying to get rid of homosexual feelings and my mom comforted her.  Just before she called, I ate some catfish.

Quote from: michelle666 on July 02, 2013, 04:35:48 PM
I took a nap this afternoon with Law and Order SVU on the TV, I had a dream that Olivia and I were roommates.

She's hot, but be careful she might cuff you to your bed! LOL

I dreamed I was an.. ambassador I guess the word is? Basically my job was moderate and educate between humans and supernatural beings. Which, honestly, in the dream was pretty boring.

Quote from: Edge on July 06, 2013, 07:15:22 AM
I dreamed I was an.. ambassador I guess the word is? Basically my job was moderate and educate between humans and supernatural beings. <--snip-->.

Doesn't sound boring.  Why doesn't the word 'ambassador' quite fit?

This one's an old dream, I can't forget.  Passed through a crack in a wall, that was a dimensional gate, into another universe.

Quote from: stavraki on July 06, 2013, 07:26:40 AMDoesn't sound boring.  Why doesn't the word 'ambassador' quite fit?

It was. "Ambassador" sounds considerably more important than what I did in the dream.

Quote from: Edge on July 06, 2013, 08:44:01 AM
It was. "Ambassador" sounds considerably more important than what I did in the dream.

:) ....we'll have to write to the Celestial Ombudsman and have the job-description expanded -

Clause 3.14(c) of the Celestial Ambassadorial Act:

1. May borrow a celestial power to trial its experience, and delegate to non-celestials equipped to wield said power to humanity's benefit.
2. May revoke power from human recipient for misuse of power.
3. Immune to prosecution in Human Jurisdictions (Celestial Immunity conditional).

It was more goblins than celestials.

Quote from: Edge on July 06, 2013, 09:35:43 AM
It was more goblins than celestials.

ambassador for squabbling goblins and squabbling humans - yes -

the more things change the more they stay the same

that would be tiresome :)

I was living in North Korea and stole some oxycodone, which I ended up getting addicted to.  I then lied to my family that I was off buying corn instead of stealing pills.  They believed it until some government official came over for dinner, and they couldn't find the corn to feed him.  Things weren't looking good for us.

Not entirely sure what was going on with my brain last night.

I dreamed I arranged a date for my cousin with a guy I used to work with.It's about time I arranged a date for me!

I went to a museum with my friend and the cases were filled with assorted human mummies - not wrapped up, just embalmed and preserved. She climbed into one of the cases and tried to... hump one. Quite violently. Alarm bells went off, the musuem's owner turned up, and we got arrested. It was so embarrassing.

I have no clue what that was all about.

I dreamed about being close with my sister's cousin.

Recently i've had some very realistic dreams about having sex with women whilst still being male, all of the women have been unbelievable attractive, when I wake up from these dreams I feel quite dirty & depressed as in my waking hours I wouldn't get intimate with even the worlds most attractive women, there is nothing about women that turns me on & not enough booze in the world to get me to crawl into bed with a woman.
I will point out that i'm on anti-depressants that have caused some very strange & uber realistic dreams over the last year & I always have nightmares when I get too hot whilst sleeping, over the last few weeks it has been unbelievably hot in this corner of the world so am I just having nightmares or is my sleeping mind messing with me?

What the hell is going on with my head?

I was in some fast food place, and my high school girlfriend was working the register.  I remember talking to her, probably about something transition related... I don't remember exactly what.  BUT I was wearing a black tank-top and I was most definitely a girl in the dream!  This is the first time I can remember being a girl in my dreams, so yay! :D

I had a dream that my father gave me an envelope full of cash, it was $4,000.

I think it means I am dying for the money he owes me.

I had two dreams. One of them i was on a plane to America. Somehow they managed to show us all of the UK, like a satellite image. That's all i can remember from that one. The second one, i remember there being zombies, i was with a group in some RV, near my local town. I got out of the RV at one point as i noticed there was guns on the floor, i picked them up and they were weak (took longer to kill zombies with) guns. Another RV came, i got in it, but i noticed some of the survivors had wounds, so i killed them. I then somehow got to some gate-wall-thingy that i think rammed down, to get into the shopping center. That's all i can remember.

Quote from: SaveMeJeebus on July 10, 2013, 05:42:23 AM
I had two dreams. One of them i was on a plane to America. Somehow they managed to show us all of the UK, like a satellite image. That's all i can remember from that one. The second one, i remember there being zombies, i was with a group in some RV, near my local town. I got out of the RV at one point as i noticed there was guns on the floor, i picked them up and they were weak (took longer to kill zombies with) guns. Another RV came, i got in it, but i noticed some of the survivors had wounds, so i killed them. I then somehow got to some gate-wall-thingy that i think rammed down, to get into the shopping center. That's all i can remember.

did you watch Dawn of The Dead?

Quote from: WatchingPigeonsFly on July 10, 2013, 06:27:25 AM
did you watch Dawn of The Dead?

Not last night, but i have seen it before.

I dreamed that Jason was chasing me and while I was climbing on rope, he was climbing too.  I eventually got to a surface and cut the rope from him and stabbed him in the back several times to kill him.

I dreamt I met Dero from Oomph! and got to talk to him.

First i dreamed someone i know is a prostitute, then i dreamed about staying up all night with my best friend, sneaking out to get some icecream from a local icecream parlor that just so happened to still be open in the middle of the night, then we watched some tv until somewhere in the early morning, then i woke up.

I'm very lucky as i had two dreams again last night.

One dream. I was at a pub/restaurant place with part of my family, and someone was with me, i couldn't see their face. I remember there being glasses as we must have ordered coke. I needed the toilet, i believe, but in-order to get to the toilets you had to go pass people player darts, you couldn't go around them, you literally had to go through them.  I am not sure if they were doing it on purpose, or people were doing it for a laugh, but i managed to get through, though on the way back i got hit by a dart near my shoulder. When i got back to our table, everyone else had eaten, my food was there, i think it was a burger and chips.

The other dream i had. I was with a little kid, possibly my nephew, round my Mums house. As i was walking, presumably to the local park or to my Nan's, two guys were giving grief to a girl in her window, and i ended up turning around and saying something. They ended up coming after me as they had weapons, i managed to take a weapon off of one guy, the other guy slashed my head, and i slashed his face. I then went to the bathroom to take a look at it, it was bleeding but my hair covered from seeing it. The cops arrived, and i remember thinking i was also going to get into a lot of trouble for slashing the guys face.

I dreamed I tried to trade in a half a box of cereal to Gamestop for store credit.

I had such a weird dream, i think i should have someone analyze it or something:

I had such a crazy dream. It all began with some twisted, weird pseudo-LGBT awareness day at school. I only remember walking around school with my acoustic guitar (which i smashed last year!),

looking for a room to play in, battling some pokemon(!) to get a big room i had seen. The next day i attempted to get to school, missed the bus, took wrong bus after wrong bus and ended up in a

weird jungle-esque oasis directly next to the river rhine (!). There was this old hermit trying to console me. I think i might've passed out there too in the dream. He asked me if i would like

"Shades Of Deep Purple" (Deep Purple's debut album!) and i said "Sorry, but i already have it." He said: "Come on, i have an extra copy. I said: "alright, bring it on if you like". In the meantime,

i briefly lost my vision, because of some sand stuck in my eyes or something. He came back with deep purple mascara, i chuckled very quietly, i was too upset (i only really got the joke after i

woke up. It was in shades of a deep purple. Haha, weird dream.) I said: "No, no, you said something about "Shades Of Deep Purple" and the old man laid down beside me (creepy!) and he said "Oh,

sorry, i'll get the album for you." While he was gone i noticed his son sitting near the lake eating and fishing(?). I had a chat with him about the old man's weird manners. This caused me to miss

the bus. I came back and the old man said to me: "Now,look...while you two were off yabbering about who-knows-what, the bus drove past. Great." (that's where the dream ended i think)

I dreamed that a guy on here and I were chasing a fugitive down some apartment stares and that suddenly I was by myself.  I got scared and ran into a room , locked the door, turned off the lights, and curled up into a little ball.  Then my next dreams were about circumcisions with the shang ring.

I had a crazy dream about zombies:

I was at a fancy party in 1920s London and I was Mary from Downton Abbey. I was really bored at the party and decided to leave, but my chauffeur was gone. I was pretty pissed off and decided to walk back to my London flat. While walking back, I stopped at a pub to get a quick drink because my feet hurt from my heels and I was hot wearing this fancy gown. While in there, I saw an old friend who agreed to drive me to my flat. I wanted to use the loo before leaving, and was walking around the pub looking for it until I came to this oversized door with the ladies symbol on it, but the door wouldn't open. Some bartenders standing behind a huge bar stated that the real door to the bathroom was behind the newspaper bins around the corner. So I went over there and moved the bin and the wall opened up magically (yes, the Harry Potter soundtrack came on as the opening was appearing).

I don't remember what happened in the restroom, but when I left it, my friend who was going to drive me back was gone and I was only wearing black panties and a black bra, black suspenders, along with my high heels. I was pissed that I had to walk back to my flat like that. Out on the street, people were staring at me and I was getting catcalled. Finally this guy grabbed me and tried to pull me behind one of those big red London phone booths.

On the other side of the booth though was a little girl crying. I tried to get the guy away and I bent down to the little girl to see what was wrong, but when she looked up her face was all scary and she tried to bite me, I moved and she bit the guy instead. I started running and saw other people on the streets were running too and saw that there was more of these zombies.

At this point, I morph into a Japanese-American woman with a gun and we're in an American city like NY or Boston. I have to shoot my way through tons of zombies to get back to my apartment building, and have to shoot a crapload of zombies in the building in order to get back to my apartment on one of the upper floors. I finally make it, and my white American husband who isn't very good-looking is there watching a movie. I sit on the couch and we watch it together even though I am crying. Then, two of my friends with guns knock on the door, and we let them in because they can't get into their apartment at all. My husband then turns off the movie because we keep talking over it.

We can hear zombies in the hallway so we move a big bookcase and stuff in front of the door. With little else to do, we just sit around the apartment for awhile. Eventually I go to the bathroom but my friend and her husband follow me in there and it was really awkward to pee. Finally, I look out the window and see military vehicles driving around in the street and less zombies. I am happy because I think we'll all survive.

Henry, you must have had something strange for dinner last night. You must also be a fellow Downton Abby and Walking Dead fan. My dreams aren't usually anything that I can remember in such detail.

I think i was fighting for something in my old school. I had someone with me and could feel my gender issues getting worse and worse and the wish to just be Sara getting stronger (bad time for that in the situation i was in in that dream). I was constantly talking to that person about that. I think the dream also involved something mystical, magical. There were time-skips to one, two, three years later. I think i might have fought in some sort of resistance or something.

I was in America with my Mum and step-dad, in Best-Buy, or some similar place as we were looking at TVs, while i was also looking at computers. I remember it being America as of the dollar price tags  :D I also remember my mum and step-dad buying a telly that looked like a fish tank. I recall myself saying that to them too. I have no idea.

I fell asleep watching Adventure Time last night. I've also been listening to a lot of Radiohead lately.

My dream was as follows: My dog was Jake and she could stretch and all that cool stuff that Jake does. Finn and my dog the Jake substitute were going on an adventure to the Candy Kingdom but first they had to pass through a gray genderless world. A BMO-like creature was their leader and they spoke some weird language. They convinced Finn and Not-Jake to stay in their kingdom by baking them tasty brownies that made them very sleepy and stoned.

Then Thom Yorke of Radiohead showed up and he started playing this song (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=POmiH-DvJ1U). So Finn and Not-Jake as my dog was called in the dream followed him to the Candy Kingdom. Princess Bubblegum gave us Ring Pops and we sat there, watching a beautiful sunrise while Thom Yorke continued to sing to us...several different songs. It was kind of like this really chill concert in the Land of Ooo for an audience of 3.

Dreamed that a snake bit my arm and when I ran it kept slithering and leaping in the air towards me.  It was a yellow snake and looked poisonious.  That same snake ate a tiny snake.

Dreamed my father was pulled over by a cop during an illegal stop and search and had to pay a fine for every cigerette he had out in the open since in the dream they were counted as an "open container"  Cussed and told me not to tell anyone of this.

Dreamed that I went to a Chirstian Sports Camp with my sister's cousin, but I forgot to pay my $3 fee so I went AWOL out of embarrasment.  They convienced me to come back though and it felt awkward being there.

My friend was in a huge bar brawl with the biggest meanest guy in the place and I did a Jackie Chan flying kick and dropped him.

I dreamed that I had to act as a bodyguard to these two boys who were  Jehovah Witnesses and for some reason they had to come into my room.  They were brothers and the older brother was nice while the younger brother was a d-bag.  He backtalked me and took a fish bowl and poured the water on my bed and threw the fish on my blanket.  When he got into my top surgery change and started throwing it everywhere I got pissed.  I drug his tail into the kitchen and slammed his head into the cabinet several times.  After he was on the floor I was going to stomp on his head a few more times but his brother came in.

I think i had two dreams. I vaguely recall them. One of them, i was in secondary school, one of the teachers was not in, i left the class room and start mucking about around the school. The other dream, i think i was robbing some shopping mall, i took Beyblades and Pokemon cards; For some reason i was flushed down a slide-tube thingy, and whoever i was with, their Digimon grew, i don't think i had one, or mine didn't evolve.

My mum was making cakes for Gordon Brown and David Cameron, who lived in a house together next to my ex-history teacher.  We all went out in Brown's car and for some reason I was shaving in there in the way that Cameron had taught me (something about using a cut down toothbrush to lather some soap instead of shaving foam?).  The we came back and I decided to finish shaving in the bathroom, but it was being kept cool with liquid nitrogen and I got a freeze burn when I tried to open the door.

Worst two nightmares ever. On the first one a female teacher was bullying me and after that she started walking naked around the class and wanting to have sex with me... Disgusting.


The other one involved pregnancy in a Prometheus style, and pure panic / terror and others things I'd rather not describe. I really don't want to remember it, but it will take a long time to be forgotten.

I dreamed that I was a school crossing guard and was getting $8.00 an hour for watching over everyone's little green snot nosed Poo Bah's. Must be something I ate for dinner the night before.  :D

This is what i recall.

I was on a set to a film/show as i was an extra. This was taking place in a train station and Johnny Depp was dressed as a cowboy. I then recall being next to Depp talking to him, so somehow i went from being an extra to being a main character.  :-X

I don't play golf, but for some reason I dreamed I was on a golf coarse and the golfers were using the mouths of dead cats for golf tees and then they would put the dead cats in their golf bags and they had small BBQs on the back of their golf carts and one of them asked me if I wanted a hamburger or a hotdog

I dreamt that I was dreaming about dreaming....it wasn't very interesting

But seriously,

I dreamt that a tiger got out of the zoo and for some reason it wasn't after anyone else in the city except for me and it seemed to have a strong enough sense of smell to find me several kilometers away hiding in the attic.  That's when I woke up and saw the shadow of a tiger (ok it was a plant, but I just woke up from that dream).  I've never been as terrified before in my life.

Let's see...

I was at the town in the market. I remember seeing food, so i guess i was looking for goodies. - I know i woke up thinking, 'I'll say this in the morning', but now i cannot remember xD

The first dream was a nightmare in which my father forced me to drive his girlfriend's truck but hte switches kept changing to where there were no breaks or no reverse.  Then I got out of the truck and a cop came.  I started to walk home but my father was speaking to the cop and she chased me down handing me a paper saying I basically had to go drive with him.  Well I did and I ran over a car and was swirving and could barely stop.

The next dream I wanted to be out of my house so I walked around my neighboorhood and into a house which seemed to look like a Lowes store on the inside with the couple.  A girl that was there pricked my finger for I don't why.  Then there was a parade on the outside and it looked like I saw a King Endymion cosplay so I tried to run downstairs and outside to see it (the landscape completely changed ino a parade scene), but I shoe came halfway off and I had trouble putting it back on and by the time I did, the cosplay man was gone so I used my time rewinding powers and tried again only to be stopped behind a line where basketball players were showing off their skills.

I dreamed I had taken my first shot of T and my sister was behind me on it -sigh-.

Quote from: Malachite on August 11, 2013, 08:59:35 AM
I dreamed I had taken my first shot of T and my sister was behind me on it -sigh-.

That was what we call a sweet dream, but you woke up. Too bad when we're having a good dream that we can't opt to just live out the dream and forget reality. When I have one of those and wake up and then nod back off to sleep, I can never get back into the dream where I left off.  :'(

Quote from: Shantel on August 11, 2013, 09:03:05 AM
That was what we call a sweet dream, but you woke up. Too bad when we're having a good dream that we can't opt to just live out the dream and forget reality. When I have one of those and wake up and then nod back off to sleep, I can never get back into the dream where I left off.  :'(

Yeah it really does suck.  I wish I could have stayed longer in the dream.  :/

I dreamed I had 2 cats; a brindle tortoiseshell one and a pure white one. The brindle was really affectionate, she jumped up onto my shoulder and perched there. I was really sad when I woke up and they were not there.

I dreamed I was helping one of my favorite pastor's wife in the nursery and afterwards we were attempting to have sex but every time I grinded in her, she became fatter and I started to feel inadequate because I could only use my fingers. 

I gardener man  came round to the house with his nightie on in the early morning. He needed my help so I went outside with my nightie on as well to make him feel more at ease. He had some really big seeds with loads of spiders on, we had to get the spiders off. Bizarre, right? I don't like gardening and I don't own a nightie.

I dreamt of Thor and Loki from Marvel. For some reason, they had to go to this barren, frozen tundra (or something) and sort out their differences or else nothing would ever grow there again. Since both wanted things to grow again, they were cooperating pretty well. Loki brought me with him for some reason. Oh yeah and I was a shapeshifter.

I had a dream that my sisters and I were in Walmart when a person came in and started shooting up the place in the name of religion.

I dreamt of evil dogs that lived in the trunks of trees that became more powerful by being thought about.

I was in last year at secondary school. They had put together a leaving event. Each pupil had their own classroom, but the classroom had been decorated to suit the needs of the individual pupil. I.e, My classroom ended up having a bed, a TV, and a gaming computer. I believe everyone was given a number and that number would direct them to their classroom. I couldn't find classroom or my number, so I had to ask and then eventually I was taken to mine. I was supposedly in a "sweet spot". Family arrived as they were allowed in; I remember one of my Uncles was there, my Mum, and Nan but that was it for some reason. Eventually an MLB game started on the field and that is how it ended.

Quote from: SaveMeJeebus on August 16, 2013, 05:58:48 AM
I was in last year at secondary school. They had put together a leaving event. Each pupil had their own classroom, but the classroom had been decorated to suit the needs of the individual pupil. I.e, My classroom ended up having a bed, a TV, and a gaming computer. I believe everyone was given a number and that number would direct them to their classroom. I couldn't find classroom or my number, so I had to ask and then eventually I was taken to mine. I was supposedly in a "sweet spot". Family arrived as they were allowed in; I remember one of my Uncles was there, my Mum, and Nan but that was it for some reason. Eventually an MLB game started on the field and that is how it ended.

Wow, that seems like quite a statement about how the education system is and how it should be. Maybe not literally with a bed and gaming computer but certainly the idea that we are all individuals and being crammed into a classroom with 30 kids for the most creative portion of our lives and having us all hammered into a mold to be the same... ugh. Most miserable time of my life. I feel it traumatized me forever and I'm sure many others were, but we were told it's totally healthy and normal and definitely necessary so apply yourself!

Okay, tangent. Back to dreams. haha.

I dreamed i was the doctor and i was old. I was a little like a cross between Hartnell's and Eccleston's doctor. I had my daughter (or was it son, i don't remember, maybe it even changed during the story) visit me in my completely redesigned TARDIS, which on the inside looked like a cross between a minecraft cave (i even saw a creeper there) and some kind of house. I remember looking for something to cook with her or something like that, i'm really not sure.

Before that, i dreamed i was on a several days long classtrip on a giant boat, and all our families were there. After that it gets a little hazy and it kind of morphed into the doctor dream.

I was at work with a load of new people who kept complaining and not doing much work, and it was really busy, then all the chefs disappeared, and I was left trying to cook.  We got 4 out of the 5 meals for one table out, but every time I got the tuna steak cooked some messed it up by putting raw meat on it and I had to cook it again.  Tables were walking out left, right and centre, but still I got staff coming and asking stupid questions about the lights... I got so stressed out and it was just a dream.

I dreamed I blew my nose on a slice of ham and made a sandwich for my school bully and watched him eat it.

I heard angry barking (probably an IRL noise from outside) and was in my backyard and thought my neighbors had a new dog. It sounded really angry and I was a little bit scared. Then I saw it was actually a boar. Somehow it got over the fence so I went inside quickly and shut the door. Then I checked around and saw it coming in through a patio door that my sister had left open and I started screaming bloody murder at her to get out here and help us deal with the situation. She was sassing me but I couldn't understand what she was saying through her bedroom door.

I have a lot of dreams where I'm back living with the family I grew up with even though I've lived alone (or with a roommate) for many years now.

I spent some time away with my mother, then my father, i drove past my former home (lived there until early 2012) which was a bittersweet moment for me, but "obladi oblada" (life goes on, no use living in the past).

Being in a maze with demented clowns

A cat being injured and stepped on (from my trauma from when my brother actually killed a kitten by accident doing that)

Quote from: Malachite on August 18, 2013, 09:32:43 AM
Being in a maze with demented clowns

Wow. I wish one could save dreams. Hollywood would be overflowing with new movies made on the lowest budgets ever.

I'd certainly have a few blockbusters in my pocket then.

I have no idea where I was but I was taking a shower >.<

I was playing an immersive, 3D virtual reality game that was somewhere between Halo and Starship Troopers. My team and I had just hopped into different compartments of a shuttle pod to get from the ship to a planet. I heard the computer say one of them had taken control which irritated me because I was supposed to be the leader on this particular mission. The three other guys were pink--their armor and their hair and I remember thinking that was an odd choice of color, but it was very pretty and I was kind of enthralled. I could see little pulses of color shift, currents of blue. It almost looked like blood flowing beneath slightly translucent skin.

At some point we found ourselves on all fours exploring a tiny space. I'm not claustrophobic but it was making me uneasy because I realized we had nowhere to go quickly if we had to fight something. Somewhere around then I realized I was dreaming and I was afraid something scary would happen but I tried to tell myself to just keep calm and it was my dream and nothing could actually hurt me. Sure enough, I saw what I can only describe as the devil with horns, claws, bat wings, etc. He was grinning at me from the other side of a portal that was blocked off with a force field.

I had a dream! (That I could fly from the highest heights...)
More seriously. I never have dreams. But I had one.

I was getting surgery early - a place that would just take you immediately if you had the money. I had $19,000 from somewhere, and I went to the surgical center (in one of those huge warehouse type places)... And then they began listing a whole set of extra fees - $7000 or so - and I didn't have the money and I had to go home and wait for next year. :(

That someone sneaked into my bedroom while I was sleeping and cut my hair short.  Complete opposite to the dreams I use to have were I use to miraculously get long hair due to some reason.

I had this awful dream that I was super pregnant, like I had to be 8 or 9 months pregnant, yet for some reason I was still going to school. So I had to take the commuter rail up to Boston, and then I walked (like, why didn't I take the subway?) from the station to school while carrying a wicked heavy backpack and wearing high heels (why?? this was really a nightmare) while walking over the brick streets in Downtown Crossing. Plus, to make things worse, it was really cold but I couldn't button up my coat over my huge pregnant belly.

I think I had this dream because my older sister just had a baby in January and yet she's already 10 or 11 weeks pregnant again, I was a bit shocked hearing that, it's like, wow, another one so soon?

Quote from: dalebert on August 20, 2013, 08:26:11 AM
Sure enough, I saw what I can only describe as the devil with horns, claws, bat wings, etc. He was grinning at me from the other side of a portal that was blocked off with a force field.

Upon further reflection, I recalled this thread (https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,146989.msg1208362.html#msg1208362) where I said that Archer (the cartoon spy) was a pretty good representation of my id. That left me wondering who is a good representation of my super ego. It was that night that I had this dream and it occurred to me that maybe Satan is a good representation of my super ego and that's what the dream was telling me!

Quote from: ZootAllures! on August 18, 2013, 09:34:16 AM
Wow. I wish one could save dreams. Hollywood would be overflowing with new movies made on the lowest budgets ever.

I'd certainly have a few blockbusters in my pocket then.

This thread is a nice place to start ;)

I have no idea what happen. I think I had two dreams connect together. In one dream I was in a car. Then I was in a shop with my two siblings. Then I was trying to rescue my siblings or something. I got stabbed in the neck but then somehow continued on to rescue them. It turned out that it was just a challenge to prepare myself or something. Then suddenly I was out the town with people. I don't know if they were young, my old, or older. I took them into a haircut place and they got their hair cut, then I dragged them to a game store. The game I wanted was not there so I started talking to the two employers about games. 

Twisters came down while I was walking to my Nans. There was this young girl walking in-front of me and I helped her. She was walking with her friend but her friend went into her house awhile back. We saw her friends house get destroyed :/.

i walk into a vampire camp and im turned into a vamp. that turns me into a complete guy too. i have to work for kronos (a villain in greek mythology)to help him obain the power of ruling the world. i dont want to help him but i have to bcos im a vamp. then i go to school and turn few of my friends into vampires, including the girl i fancy. then me and that girl are ordered to go to some church with a huge glowing crystal in it. kronos cant get near it, so hes gonna attack it from far and we have to direct his attack to the crystal, and destroying it gives kronos the power to rule the world. so some kind of tube appears and i have to hold it between a window and the crystal. when it get destroyed we all die, so as it was our final moment i tell the girl how much i like her and she says she had the same feelings for me all the time. and then she kisses me! then kronos attacks but fails to destroy the crystal. the world is saved, but we wonder how we are going back to our old lives as we are vamps and im a guy

I dreamt I was a very powerful Sith Lord and I found myself contemplating why and how it had happened.

I woke up startled at 5:00 AM with this madly turning in my head.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=egg5nI_egio (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=egg5nI_egio)

I was in a burning building and people were trying to get out.  Somewhere along the way I watched a girl eat some eggs her gradma cooked for her.

I tried to skateboard down a grass bank into a river (I can't even skateboard), and this annoying Belieber came up to me telling me some fact about Justin Beiber as I was going down the bank.  As I was clinging onto a pole across the river to stop myself falling in I told him that I really didn't care, and he burst into tears and wouldn't move out of the way to let me get out.  My girlfriend appeared and I couldn't tell if she found it funny that he was crying just because I didn't like Beiber, or was angry that I'd made him cry, and I got really worried.

The night before I dreamed that my girlfriend was hogging my bed, and her hands were getting cold because she wanted to hold the top of the duvet up by her neck or something, and she kept asking for a pair of "sleeping gloves".  I replied that I didn't have any but there were a pair of fingerless gloves on the cupboard behind the headboard (which there actually are), but apparently they're not good enough.  I'm still wondering what sleeping gloves would be.

Quote from: AlexanderC on August 23, 2013, 07:28:14 AM
I tried to skateboard down a grass bank into a river (I can't even skateboard), and this annoying Belieber came up to me telling me some fact about Justin Beiber as I was going down the bank.  As I was clinging onto a pole across the river to stop myself falling in I told him that I really didn't care, and he burst into tears and wouldn't move out of the way to let me get out.  My girlfriend appeared and I couldn't tell if she found it funny that he was crying just because I didn't like Beiber, or was angry that I'd made him cry, and I got really worried.

The night before I dreamed that my girlfriend was hogging my bed, and her hands were getting cold because she wanted to hold the top of the duvet up by her neck or something, and she kept asking for a pair of "sleeping gloves".  I replied that I didn't have any but there were a pair of fingerless gloves on the cupboard behind the headboard (which there actually are), but apparently they're not good enough.  I'm still wondering what sleeping gloves would be.

From wikipedia:
In the period of the 1930s through early 1960s, the evening glove was adapted for wear with certain high end lounging and sleeping outfits, or peignoir sets. Such gloves were typically made out of the same lightweight sheer nylon, rayon, or silk as of the lingerie set in a matching or complementary color and always of above elbow length. These gloves were introduced to bring the fashion for covered hands into the bedroom, protect skin during sleep and leisure time, and provide modesty for women during times of travel, visitation, or shared accommodation. While never widespread, these sleeping gloves were a desired component of the most expensive bedroom ensembles. Given the prevalence of gloves in mid-20th century women's fashion, a woman who added sleeping gloves to her wardrobe would have been gloved virtually at all times.

or Amazon:
http://www.amazon.com/100-Cotton-Sleeping-Gloves-Pairs/dp/B005S4NRQC

Quote from: Alice In Genderland on August 23, 2013, 08:25:43 AM
From wikipedia:
In the period of the 1930s through early 1960s, the evening glove was adapted for wear with certain high end lounging and sleeping outfits, or peignoir sets. Such gloves were typically made out of the same lightweight sheer nylon, rayon, or silk as of the lingerie set in a matching or complementary color and always of above elbow length. These gloves were introduced to bring the fashion for covered hands into the bedroom, protect skin during sleep and leisure time, and provide modesty for women during times of travel, visitation, or shared accommodation. While never widespread, these sleeping gloves were a desired component of the most expensive bedroom ensembles. Given the prevalence of gloves in mid-20th century women's fashion, a woman who added sleeping gloves to her wardrobe would have been gloved virtually at all times.

or Amazon:
http://www.amazon.com/100-Cotton-Sleeping-Gloves-Pairs/dp/B005S4NRQC

I dreamed about something that exists but I didn't know existed...  that's kinda mental.

I dreamed I hooked up with my sister's girlfriend and we had a massive row about it

I was Thor or similar to Thor - power wise. I am not too sure what I was doing.

I dreamed I was going on a stealth mission and I had to inflitrate a classroom with kids in it that was located in a tunnel where terrorist activity was suspected by mutant soldiers dealing with a hazardous gas

Cinnamon Buns.  Lots and lots of cinnamon buns

I was asked to play the part of a 6 foot tall black wrestler in a TV show. I was having trouble explaining to the producer that I'm skinny, barely over five feet and white. She accused me of being racist and criticising her casting.

Quote from: Lajs on August 29, 2013, 04:16:34 AM
I was asked to play the part of a 6 foot tall black wrestler in a TV show. I was having trouble explaining to the producer that I'm skinny, barely over five feet and white. She accused me of being racist and criticising her casting.

What was she smoking?

I dreamed that I was with my sister and we were at Walmart to get a loan for her ministry but the guy at the counter was a grumpy old man who denied her a loan and walked off.  Well my sister was upset and she walked off too so I decided to follow the man and he told me that people wouldn't pay the loans off so he had bad experiences with loaning and I used Bible verses telling him how he needed to forgive.  My sister eventually caught up with me and was with me at this point and I was telling me man how this is important and she needs this since it's about saving souls and he eventually caved in and gave her the loan.  My sister and I walked off and she said thank you, but before she could praise me even more my finger started to hurt so I woke up.  Before that dream I dreamed that I was on a Shot of Love with Tila Tequila at the reunion and I wore a "Team S" shirt for Stephanie and wore her red robe though she got eliminated in the second round.  For some reason my mother was there and she made me a milk and poured it in a baby bottle and I drank it.  It was good though lol.  Next thing you know the cast of a Shot of Love were walking the strip and we see Red Oyster from Flavor of Love (or was it Real Chance of Love?"  and she has on a skimpy little black outfit and she's dancing in public.  Then comes a long this little boy walking with his mom and dad with no pants or underwear on and he has some contraption on his penis and when he started to get an erection, his father twisted the contraption and the boy started to cry.  I looked closer as the contraption was taking off his forskin and I'm thinking to myself "really...the kid is wearing a circumcision machine,?"  That's barbaric.  Anyways the rest of the Shot of Love crew and I walked into a washerette and I hunted on the ground near the vending machines for coins but no luck.  The vending machines were temping me with the snacks and drinks but I resisted because I wanted to save my money.  After leaving the washerette we went into Walmart and that's where the whole loan thing with my sister came in lol.

Must have been that big pizza you ate huh Malachite?

Quote from: Shantel on August 29, 2013, 02:29:18 PM
Must have been that big pizza you ate huh Malachite?

I wish LOL

I dreamed my parents came to visit me then had to go back home. I woke up crying. I've only seen them once in 13 yearsand I dont know when I will ever see them again. My Dad lives in Scotland and my Mum lives in Germany. My younger brother lives in England.

Dunno, but whatever it was woke me up with a huge startle.  :-\

Several nights ago I dreamt my lower front teeth all crumvled and fell out. Mystic portent, or just my subconcious trying to get me to the dentist?

I dreamed I was a little orphan girl, about six years old, searching for my parents. I went to their house and it seemed like they were welcoming me at first, but instead they tried to put me to work as their servant. So I left.

I was disappointed, but I wasn't upset. I was used to being alone and unwanted.

I was carrying a stuffed animal. A rabbit, I think. I remember thinking it was the only friend I had. But I wasn't sad about it. It was more like an appreciation for the stuffed rabbit.

I was walking down a road toward a small town, wearing a white gown with my rabbit under one arm. It was nighttime. It was dark and quiet. But I never got to see what was in that town because my stupid alarm woke me up.

I dreamed that I was at my old high school when there was about to be a Pride Parade happening and another school brought their float and asked if our NJROTC was going to be marching and something said no and I said well I kinda figured that considering I know how the Chief and Commander are.  Then I saw a guy who was in my class in an Army outfit and I hugged him and told him how proud I was of him and some other random guy in an outfit asked if I was proud of him too and I said yeah.  Anyways i had to go pee so I went to the nearest "guests" restroom only to have the security guard from GTA IV lead me in and when I got in, all the toilet seats were dirty and stained in blood....with no doors!  I eventually said screw this and walked outside and some random guy gave me a bike so I test drove it with cars honking their horns and passing me and I cycled back to the school.  I really had to pee but I didn't feel like going out of my way so I just laid down and slept in the schoo.  When I woke up it was 9 p.m and no one was inside and the lights were off.  I decided to leave quickly just in case the alarm would trigger and video capture my face.  I took that bike and mustered up the courage to ride all the way him with it.  I went from one side of the road to another and almost got hit and down the hill past a boy who was throwing crows like paper airplanes.  I saw my church van pass and the church member said hi to me with another woman in the car but she didn't think to ask if I needed a ride.  Well I made it home and my mom wasn't worry at all even though I thought she would call the cops.  Before I left the school I saw a Resident Evil 6 herb sitting on top of a tree just glowing, I thought to myself "wtf."

In another dream, I dreamed that my brother in law hired a body guard so no one could get inside a certain part of his house other than his wife, children, and parents.  When I tried to enter, the body guard would strangle me intil I pass out.

Been watching way too much PewDiePie lately on YouTube. Was hanging out with him and eating some really good food. He gave me some coins that were worth many dollars each to reimburse for some of the food and it was way more than called for. He was about to give some kind of speech or presentation.

Then there was a lot of flying around and being pursued by police and then zombies. I flew by several buildings that I owned and finally landed on the balcony of one. Zombies were running around below and a few somehow got up onto my balcony and I tossed them over the edge.

I dreamt I was an American journalist being held prisoner in a North Korean prison and had been there a while. I had received communication from the American Embassy that they were trying to break me free but I didn't know exactly how yet. An older Korean man also a prisoner was super nice and told me to distract the guard by trying to buy some food. He gave me some coins for this, about 18 cents, but just a penny or two was considered a lot for a prisoner to have gotten his hands on. He did some amazing stuph. I could faintly hear him fighting other guards with some amazing moves and it worked. I followed him out as we got far from the prison. We met up with some Americans who hid me when some Korean soldiers showed up looking for me. At some point there was a shoot-out and I got involved. I knew once I got home, they would not stop looking for me and would send agents to my home so I'd have to keep my address private.

I dreamed that somebody I care about was mad at me.

I dreamed in one dream that I was in new york at a college with a bunch of other trans people and I wanted to attend that University because I felt so right there.

In another dream I dreamed that my friend brought me a dirty gift from the Goodwill but there was supposed to be a lava lamp to come with it but I found it my brother took it and accidently cracked it.  I went ballastic and tore up his room and ran outside going crazy.  Someone grabbed me by my neck and strangled me.  It felt so real and scary in the dream and I could feel my throat burning and about to snap with my eyeballs popping out. I "tapped out" because he was going to kill me otherwise.  I tapped on his arm about four times (four LONG times) before he decided to let go.  By that time my vision was blurry but I was glad to be alive.  I straightened up then.

I dreamed I got hired as security at my library and that another security officers that's been there a a while and I had to apprehend two suspects.  He got a guy in a white shirt and I got the guy in the red shirt.

I had a recurring nightmare that hasn't haunted me in some time. I'm on return patrol walking "sweep" bring up the rear in the Vo Dat Valley. The patrol halts and we step off to each side of the trail taking up defensive positions until the point man give the go ahead to proceed. I sling my rifle so I can take a pee and as I move the big leaves aside there's these four corpses all bloated and they seem to be staring at me through glossed over eyes. One of them speaks and tells me he's from Hue up north and has a wife and a little girl who he will never get home to see again.

Suddenly I wake up huffing and puffing with my heart pounding out of my chest. My wife says, "OMG what's the matter, are you ok?" I say, "Yeah, go back to sleep just a bad dream!" I'll have to see my VA counselor and have another nice chat. I know the guy's name and saw his family photo long ago as we rifled through their personal belongings looking for info that could help military intelligence. I think all the conversation about getting involved in Syria was a trigger just like Afghanistan and Iraq was. I'll be fine, but sadly we are a sick nation!

Wow, just... wow, Shantel. That was very brave of you to share that with us. My heart goes out to you.

Quote from: dalebert on September 04, 2013, 11:18:36 AM
Wow, just... wow, Shantel. That was very brave of you to share that with us. My heart goes out to you.

Thanks Dalebert! War is stupid and it ruins everyone's lives for generations.

Big hug Shantel,the worst scars are the ones inside

Thanks for sharing Shantel, it's important to share these stories.  :icon_hug:



Last night I had a dream that I was at some event, and there was a big table set up covered in pastries and cookies. I kept putting a cookie on my plate, but every time I put the cookie on the plate, I'd drop it onto the carpet and my dog would come and take it.

I think this means I am not allowed to eat today.

I dreamed I invented a combined kettle and ironing board,I don't think there'll much demand for them though!

I can't remember the first half, but the last was... odd. I was sent to the gyno to be prescribed estrogen, when he suddenly changes his mind and hands me a bag he tells me has prozac in it. I get confused and ask him why he is giving me that, but he says "Just take them". I look in the bag and find a lance, some test paper, a small box of condoms, and a few other things... I go to find him in the building we're in, but lose him, and wind up in a library, in the childrens section. Then the alarm went off!

Dreamed I tried to go fishing with my favorite pastor but when I got on the boat it sunk.  Then the worms sunk.  The only thing that stayed a float was the fishing rod.

I had the weirdest trans* dream last night.

It was the usual dream nonsense as well as a replay of an earlier dream, but the weirdness came about at the end. I dreamt I was going to this big concert/party with all my friends except we were all transformers. Like giant robots that turn into cars: transformers. But I had just gone through a procedure so that I would turn into a plane instead of a car. And this big party was when I was going to come out to all my friends and be like "I'm a plane, not a car!". They were all so happy then we went to this party and then I woke up.

Dreamed I was with the Payday gang and was wearing Wolf's mask (though he still had his same mask).  We were robbing first national bank and some of the people were scared but a select few were not when we tried to calm them down.  I placed my hand on one girl's shoulder and she turned on a radio and started dancing.  I danced with her and felt the urge to grab her bottom twice and she liked it.  Then I felt a power urge to pin her to the floor and to insert myself inside of her.  Then I realized I didn't have a penis so I left her alone to finish the banking job with the guys.  Well after we were finished, it seemed like more civilians were coming in.  There was a girl and a guy talking about Jesus Christ and asking us if we were Christians (such the wrong timing lol!)  Chains said he wasn't while Wolf and I said yeah.  I think Dallas and Horton just walked off.  Well after that the bank turned into a Dollar General and there was a long line and several people noticed me and called out my name and I started to get scared that I would go to jail since they noticed me.  One guy asked me what number was on the mask I had since it was part of the collector's edition of the game (which it so wasn't) and it was the number 36.  So I eventually saw a Payday 2 Collector's edition at the Dollar Store and thought "wow, this should be cheaper since it's being sold here, right?" Wrong!  It was still $60 and the mask was not the mask I was wearing.  I figured I should get out the store before the police finds me and by doing that I told myself I needed to wake up to escape prision lol.

for the third time i dreamt i was the 'seeker' in 'legend of the seeker' TV series (been watching it recently) all other characters were the same. in the first dream i was describing what a 'confessor' is to some king, the second was quite adventurous and we blew up a whole daharren camp with missiles and i drove my sword through darken rahl and killed him (which the seeker in the real story couldn't do). in the third and the latest dream a 'sister of dark' had taken the souls of Cara and Khalan into herself and another sister of dark had taken Zed's and Darken Rahl's and they didn't know what to do 'cos there were too many souls in one body! i had to keep them all safe all alone.

i had like a thousand dreams in one lol

Dreamed there was some posionous and large spiders and spider webs around so I disenigrated them with a plasma cutter

Next dream I dreamed my father and I were working with a biological terrorist group and I was left with a task of injecting Uroboros into two of four victims for testing.  It was three causasian females and one indian female.

our school recently got a new principal and i dreamt that she had completely remodelled the school and its buildings. i first liked it, but i found where my class was and i had to climb down a very steep staircase to get there. i'm not usually afraid of heights but in the dream i didn't have the guts to climb down. then i wanted to use the washroom and found one, but the stalls were too tiny to get in. so i went here and there looking for washrooms and found plenty, but for some reason i fail to use each of them. on my way i confront a murder of a girl by drawing a knife through her, and a girl attempting suicide by hanging. i save her and her family lets me use their washroom. i go in but the latch is not working properly, but i go to use it anyway. then that girls father happens to be a pervert watching through the door. i scream. then i woke up and found that i actually had a serious need to use the washroom.

Dr Tara from Sons of Anarchy caught Tig and me having it off in the back of her Cutlass and was screaming at us both while punching and kicking us for messing up her car.

Dreamed i was doing a cosplay of Jeice and was posing like him.

I had a dream where, through circumstances I won't discuss here because they make me very uncomfortable, I really hated someone I actually don't hate in real life. Then we went through an anomaly like in Primeval and got trapped in the future where we had giant robots that we used to fight giant monsters like in Pacific Rim.

Shantel I've never been in a war but I've been in some stuff I don't like to think about and it's hard and I feel you. You can make it go away all you want in the day and then sometimes it comes out of the blue to show itself in sleep.

Lately I haven't remembered any coherent dreams, just bits and pieces of annoyance at being misgendered and a lot of fear that my ankle is still open or is stapled shut and the staples are falling out and Leah is coming at me and I don't think she understands what pain means and I can't get away.

Gender issues in the social aspects of my dreams and grisly body problems in the more primal parts.

Quote from: Felix on September 19, 2013, 09:31:14 PM
Shantel I've never been in a war but I've been in some stuff I don't like to think about and it's hard and I feel you. You can make it go away all you want in the day and then sometimes it comes out of the blue to show itself in sleep.

Lately I haven't remembered any coherent dreams, just bits and pieces of annoyance at being misgendered and a lot of fear that my ankle is still open or is stapled shut and the staples are falling out and Leah is coming at me and I don't think she understands what pain means and I can't get away.

Gender issues in the social aspects of my dreams and grisly body problems in the more primal parts.

We all have our own little wars and combat episodes of different but very real sorts don't we though?

Quote from: Shantel on September 20, 2013, 10:46:21 AM
We all have our own little wars and combat episodes of different but very real sorts don't we though?

Yeah I guess whatever a person's life has been it still has its best parts and its worst parts.

I dreamed last night that an old friend showed up and I was so happy to see him but then he wouldn't stop using my old name. I woke up trying to do the math (not math really) on whether it would be better to keep hanging around after the awkwardness or if I should just give up on those particular groups of people.

It was awesome to notice it was just a dream. :laugh:

Felix.. In this dream was the person who showed up someone you grew up with? I ask only as a man who has a close friend with whom I grew up with who has been transitioning to female, I still often have to catch myself from calling her by her old name and I feel horrible about it. I'm probably the only one around her that has been supportive, but sometimes it's just instinct. However, I know it really upsets her when she recognizes that I almost call her by the other name.

Quote from: r.blaine.85 on September 21, 2013, 12:27:09 AM
Felix.. In this dream was the person who showed up someone you grew up with? I ask only as a man who has a close friend with whom I grew up with who has been transitioning to female, I still often have to catch myself from calling her by her old name and I feel horrible about it. I'm probably the only one around her that has been supportive, but sometimes it's just instinct. However, I know it really upsets her when she recognizes that I almost call her by the other name.

I didn't grow up with anybody (I'd know people for a year or so before we'd move) but this was a person I was very close to as a young adult, when my daughter was little. He was a guy who used to play chess and drink coffee, who dressed in black war fatigues every day and stockpiled survival gear even though his main enemies were just taxes and noisy neighbors.

I miss him very much, but he was pretty nasty with me after my daughter was sexually assaulted. He knew we were leaving and he wanted to scavenge our stuff, and I told him he could have the furniture but not the computers, because one was police evidence and the other belonged to UAB. He was...not notable or all that much different than anybody else in context. Still. The horror of loved ones is all echoes and scars.

There are people that I misgender because I knew them pre-transition. It takes some finesse and awareness and self-control to be correct and respectful. I feel awful when I screw up and I know it makes them feel bad.

Quote from: Felix on September 21, 2013, 01:02:55 AM
I didn't grow up with anybody (I'd know people for a year or so before we'd move) but this was a person I was very close to as a young adult, when my daughter was little. He was a guy who used to play chess and drink coffee, who dressed in black war fatigues every day and stockpiled survival gear even though his main enemies were just taxes and noisy neighbors.

I miss him very much, but he was pretty nasty with me after my daughter was sexually assaulted. He knew we were leaving and he wanted to scavenge our stuff, and I told him he could have the furniture but not the computers, because one was police evidence and the other belonged to UAB. He was...not notable or all that much different than anybody else in context. Still. The horror of loved ones is all echoes and scars.

There are people that I misgender because I knew them pre-transition. It takes some finesse and awareness and self-control to be correct and respectful. I feel awful when I screw up and I know it makes them feel bad.

I'm very sorry to hear that about your daughter and your strained relationship with this person. He sounds at the very least like an interesting individual despite his shortcomings. If I may be so bold to ask, whereabouts was this? I run into similar type people all of the time in and around Dupont Cirlce in Washington D.C.. old army fatigues, playing chess all day that is, I don't pretend to know what kind of person this man was on the inside..

Quote from: r.blaine.85 on September 21, 2013, 01:16:27 AM
I'm very sorry to hear that about your daughter and your strained relationship with this person. He sounds at the very least like an interesting individual despite his shortcomings. If I may be so bold to ask, whereabouts was this? I run into similar type people all of the time in and around Dupont Cirlce in Washington D.C.. old army fatigues, playing chess all day that is, I don't pretend to know what kind of person this man was on the inside..

Birmingham, Alabama. If you know anybody there, ask about Becca and Leah, or Becca and Lindsay, or Becca and Billy. We stood out like bloody thumbs and were as social as we could be without participating in nightlife or going to church much.

I think how he was on the inside was essentially decent. Bad stuff catches good people off guard.

Quote from: Felix on September 21, 2013, 01:27:34 AM
Birmingham, Alabama. If you know anybody there, ask about Becca and Leah, or Becca and Lindsay, or Becca and Billy. We stood out like bloody thumbs and were as social as we could be without participating in nightlife or going to church much.

I think how he was on the inside was essentially decent. Bad stuff catches good people off guard.

I've only traveled through Birmingham, and do have friends in Montgomery. Without over generalizing, I must say that even I found the people in that region accepting only of similar mindsets. I think the whole southern hospitality thing is limited. That notwithstanding, your story intrigues me... I don't want to pry or monopolize this thread so feel free to message me if you'd like... You couldn't be more right about how 'bad stuff catches good people off guard.' But how they handle it is a good measure of character..

To have a little background i don't dream often, so this dream i had is very rare.

I dreamed of being in my perfect body, a purple and black anthro dragoness, and walking along with my perfect pet, a tamed female lion. It was night and i was looking around me happily, talking to a few others as i loved on my pet, just a happy night, for me to have that kinda night right now would be amazing, but impossible.

Dreamed I was a lunatic that enjoyed killing but I couldn't tell if it was video game or real life.  I had killed some people and dismembered them and asked my sister to hide the bodies in the shed.  I was hoping in the dream that it was a video game because after I promised not to kill people again, I decided to get on a roof and snipe someone's head. 

Quote from: Malachite on September 21, 2013, 05:47:32 PM
Dreamed I was a lunatic that enjoyed killing but I couldn't tell if it was video game or real life.  I had killed some people and dismembered them and asked my sister to hide the bodies in the shed.  I was hoping in the dream that it was a video game because after I promised not to kill people again, I decided to get on a roof and snipe someone's head.

That's what happens when you play too much GTA.  I don't think it "means" anything at all that you have to worry about.

Quote from: Anonymous User on September 21, 2013, 05:50:43 PM
That's what happens when you play too much GTA.  I don't think it "means" anything at all that you have to worry about.

Not sure how to respond to this properly so I will just say okay.

Quote from: Malachite on September 21, 2013, 05:52:03 PM
Not sure how to respond to this properly so I will just say okay.

I hope you weren't offended.  I meant "too much GTA" in a joking way. 

Quote from: Anonymous User on September 21, 2013, 05:55:05 PM
I hope you weren't offended.  I meant "too much GTA" in a joking way.

ooooh alright

Don't care to think about last night, but a few nights ago I dreamed about picking up feathers. I kept coming across flight feathers on the ground, mostly pale with orange and black markings. Some were blue. I walked and gathered and it was nice.

Dreamed my sister said she would pay me 50 bucks to finish a jug of water in a minute, but when I did she refused to pay.  I was upset because that money was going to be put in my top surgery fund.

I dreamt I was in the Irish mob. I think I've been watching too much organized crime related stuff. Or not enough. The dream still managed to be pretty boring.

 Dreamed I was back in school and it was the zombie apocalyspe.  We were waiting for the teacher and she didn't show up so this boy and I decided to go and find her and he had his assault rifle with him.  Well we heard gun fire from behind us and realized it was the teacher shooting zombies and she had went inside the class by then.  By the time we went in, she had already collected homework and at first wouldn't accepts ours because it we were late to class.  Then we were trying to explain to her that we was trying to see if she was okay and then she had a change of heart and decided to give me and that guy (and another guy who was just randomly late that I actually know) a pass and just take off points for it being late and I was angry about that and thought to myself "If I only walked faster and got back a minute earlier then my homework wouldn't be counted as late".  Well a bunch of zombies busted in and the guy with me decided to shoot the teacher in the head for taking off points of our homework and the blood was drizzling out the back of her head.  I looked at it for a moment and thought about shooting her again just for the heck of it but I ended up not doing so since it wasn't worth my time or my ammo so I went around the counter top, grabbed my laser pistol and started shooting at the enemies.

Malachite you might want to chill on the video games. I don't think they make you actually dangerous, but they make your mindset one that is not exactly prosocial.

When I was a teenager I used to take a lot of LSD and play the first resident evil, and watch horror b-movies, and I had daydreams and night dreams like what you've described. It was fun to discuss zombie scenarios with friends, but there's no way I could venture anywhere into that territory nowdays and be taken seriously. In fact it could get my kid taken. You might want to branch out into other interests and add to your mental repertoire.

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I've had too many uneasy gender anxiety dreams lately. Stories where I'm swimming, or where I'm challenged in a caste system, or where I go to pee and my dick doesn't work right. It doesn't in real life either, of course, but I'd prefer not to have bad dreams about it.

Quote from: Felix on October 05, 2013, 01:43:10 AM
Malachite you might want to chill on the video games. I don't think they make you actually dangerous, but they make your mindset one that is not exactly prosocial.

When I was a teenager I used to take a lot of LSD and play the first resident evil, and watch horror b-movies, and I had daydreams and night dreams like what you've described. It was fun to discuss zombie scenarios with friends, but there's no way I could venture anywhere into that territory nowdays and be taken seriously. In fact it could get my kid taken. You might want to branch out into other interests and add to your mental repertoire.

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I've had too many uneasy gender anxiety dreams lately. Stories where I'm swimming, or where I'm challenged in a caste system, or where I go to pee and my dick doesn't work right. It doesn't in real life either, of course, but I'd prefer not to have bad dreams about it.

Not much to do around here that interests me though, especially that's within my costs and limitations at this point though sadly.

I was going to a big event that was catered but, for some reason, every person was expected to bring their own pastrami log. It was not completely clear what it was for.

I also had a bit of night terrors in which I could feel myself lying in the bed but was hallucinating things in my room and tried to wake myself up but couldn't. My cat was cuddled up to my chest. That was really nice and it helped a little.

Quote from: dalebert on October 05, 2013, 10:29:25 AM
I was going to a big event that was catered but, for some reason, every person was expected to bring their own pastrami log. It was not completely clear what it was for.

I also had a bit of night terrors in which I could feel myself lying in the bed but was hallucinating things in my room and tried to wake myself up but couldn't. My cat was cuddled up to my chest. That was really nice and it helped a little.

Yeah, I have a platform bed so that dust balls and creepy things can't hide under there!

I dreamed that my sister's cousin and her (now ex) husband had reconciled and were having sex in my room.  When I confronted her I asked why did she *blank* on my bed and she tried to give a smart alex remark so I slowly walked over to get my bad and her and her husband jumped in their truck (they don't really have one) that happend to someway made it's way in my house and drove through the house to get out. Meanwhile my mother smoked something and went out to have sex with my dad....wtf, but I was more concerned with my sister's cousin and honestly, the only reason I was so mad is because I wasn't the husband.

Quote from: Malachite on October 07, 2013, 06:13:54 PM
Meanwhile my mother smoked something and went out to have sex with my dad....wtf,

My kids both in their early 40's say they can't believe that we did that ever. I go, funny....so how did you morons get here then?  ???

Okay, this one was kinda wacky and I can remember it...

I was back in either junior high or high school and I was a girl, or at least I was presenting as a girl with kinda long hair with a pink bow on one side

That was fine and made me feel good, but it got weird because I was trying out for the various sports on the male teams

What the hecks?  ???

Dreamed I was running with my NJROTC squad inside the school but I was running with a boombax and lefti t half the way.  When I was finished running I asked my Chief if I could run back to get it and he said yeah so I did but the bell rang and the students were coming out buy luckily I found it and then I got on the school bus to go home.

I had a dream that my little Pomeranian got hit with some bird shot and died.  :'( It was really sad.

Quote from: LearnedHand on October 12, 2013, 07:58:13 AM
I had a dream that my little Pomeranian got hit with some bird shot and died.  :'( It was really sad.

Makes you wonder where these things come from  ???

Dreamed my cousin was asking me if her lesbian sister would go to heaven if she continued to be gay (which actually happened btw and led to a debate with my sister).  Then the sister game in church with a church robe and the pastor got angry at her

Dreamed I was playing GTA V online and someone was coming to gun me down but before they did I left the game and went back to the story to avoid being KILLED and  medical bill HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

EDIT:  This just happened to me again so I left the game before they could.  I notcied that white dot getting closer and closer so I left before they could even gun me down.  HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA

Running away from a Police car because I had no clothes on

I keep having a reoccurring theme in my dream where I'm hanging out with someone who I really like, but they seem distant to me and I feel like I'm chasing after someone who doesn't even like me. Last night, I had another one of those dreams. Eventually, I said, "Screw it," and ran off and the other person was very confused and ran after me calling, "Wait." I wonder if these dreams mean anything.

Quote from: Edge on October 13, 2013, 06:10:14 PM
I keep having a reoccurring theme in my dream where I'm hanging out with someone who I really like, but they seem distant to me and I feel like I'm chasing after someone who doesn't even like me. Last night, I had another one of those dreams. Eventually, I said, "Screw it," and ran off and the other person was very confused and ran after me calling, "Wait." I wonder if these dreams mean anything.

It might mean that you misinterpret how someone else feels about you. And because you like that person so intently you are looking for a signal that isn't readily evident.

I dreamed that my wife crocheted me a sweater out of wicker, covered in pink beads in the shape of the women's washroom symbol.

Very bad dream because the emotions were quite real.

My parents came to visit. That much was fine, but somehow my dad had managed to get eight guns through customs. He is a collector, so I guess he wanted to bring something to show off, but guns are very illegal where I live. This irritated me to death, and no one seemed to grasp how serious the situation was. Well, we decided to take my folks on a tour of the city. Apparently I was married, and my wife had a little baby. That also set me off, since the baby was completely attached to her, and my wife felt she had to lecture me on child care. I walked away whenever she started talking. It was then that I realized I was male, and all the the frustration I felt derived from the act I was expected to keep up. I felt trapped and depressed, almost precicely like I had been feeling before I considered transitioning.

A bunch of this probably came from the serious feelings of dysphoria I had been feeling yesterday. The old emotions of feeling unhappy and isolated were a little too real in that dream.

Dreamed a guy got stung by a plauge of locusts and then my sister started talking about how it was a scientific fact that spiders intentionlly cause pyschological trauma and I told her I agreed and look at me for an example.

Then I dreamed that my first grade teacher was my long lost sister.

Dreamed about being attacked by zombies. Watched the first episode of the new season of "Walking Dead!" I like the black gal with the sword, she's the only one that has her head screwed on right, the others are all drama queens.

Dreamed a semi truck ran into my room.

I had another dream where I was chasing after people. I can't remember most of it. I just remember it was bad.

Quote from: Edge on October 20, 2013, 10:00:59 AM
I had another dream where I was chasing after people. I can't remember most of it. I just remember it was bad.

Were you a zombi?  ;D

Quote from: Shantel on October 20, 2013, 10:25:32 AM
Were you a zombi?  ;D

No, I was a pathetic lackey following around someone who didn't like me.

Quote from: Edge on October 20, 2013, 11:25:26 AM
No, I was a pathetic lackey following around someone who didn't like me.

You seem to have a lot of those fears about people not liking you in past comments dear, I'm sorry you feel that way perhaps it's something you need to discuss with a professional. I'm not one, but you are always welcome to pm me for a little friendly banter session. Personally from what I am able to observe of you I'm thinking what's there not to like?

Quote from: Shantel on October 20, 2013, 11:34:39 AM
You seem to have a lot of those fears about people not liking you in past comments dear, I'm sorry you feel that way perhaps it's something you need to discuss with a professional. I'm not one, but you are always welcome to pm me for a little friendly banter session. Personally from what I am able to observe of you I'm thinking what's there not to like?

I've already discussed it with several professionals who also have no idea seeing as they can't change reality any more than anyone else can neither do they know how to eradicate fear and loneliness. Any advise I have been able to find is only for when the fears are irrational and for people who have social support. My fears are very much rational, and I have no social support.
I am also not going to pm anyone. The nightmares are bad enough. I'm not going to chase after people while I'm awake too.

Quote from: Edge on October 20, 2013, 11:52:24 AM
I've already discussed it with several professionals who also have no idea seeing as they can't change reality any more than anyone else can neither do they know how to eradicate fear and loneliness. Any advise I have been able to find is only for when the fears are irrational and for people who have social support. My fears are very much rational, and I have no social support.
I am also not going to pm anyone. The nightmares are bad enough. I'm not going to chase after people while I'm awake too.

Just trying to be supportive, you seem isolated sorry!

Quote from: Shantel on October 20, 2013, 12:32:21 PM
Just trying to be supportive, you seem isolated sorry!

I know and I appreciate that. It's just that my dreams/fears are only in response to a real world problem.

Quote from: Edge on October 20, 2013, 10:00:59 AM
I had another dream where I was chasing after people. I can't remember most of it. I just remember it was bad.

Quote from: Edge on October 20, 2013, 11:25:26 AM
No, I was a pathetic lackey following around someone who didn't like me.

Just a thought, hon. Do you think these dreams could be indicative of you feeling like you need approval for something from someone? Maybe even from yourself?

Quote from: Sephirah on October 20, 2013, 12:48:56 PM
Just a thought, hon. Do you think these dreams could be indicative of you feeling like you need approval for something from someone? Maybe even from yourself?

I think it means I need to stop reaching out to people who don't reach back.

I was out with my parents in my mother's village and all my female clothing had disappeared and couldn't find it. Then we had to help Batman retrieve his gear, While looking in his mansion, My pants were missing, and every room we searched for, we could never find the batsuit.



Seriously, this weekend I'm watching The Dark Knight again.

I was on my way to asperger therapy, but first i decided to stop by at my favorite record store which is just about 5 minutes away. Then, much to my surprise, i saw that a girl i know from therapy and get along with rather well had taken over the store. I spent at least an hour browsing it, mostly finding bootlegs. I decided on Lego Star Wars III. When i checked out, she gave me a big case full of guitars and amps and told me to give them back in about 4 weeks. This seemed rather suspect (i thought she stole them and wanted me to hide them), so on my way home i decided to stop by at a police station. They confirmed what i thought and showed me footage of her and an accomplice shooting up the record store. Weirdly enough i had taken off my pants (not my underpants) and when i had finished talking to the officer, people thought i was a girl. Weird dream, i think i spend too much time around here.

Dreamed my father came back to live with me and me wouldn't met me feet scraps to the critters outside and he said he was going to do an inspection around the yard to make sure no scraps are out there so I blew up at him.  He then got on a walkie talkie to my mother and they started to gang up on me. I just went to my room and decided that I need to move out to begin my transition and that I needed to step into who I really was.

Going to a doctors appointment, feeling very apprehensive. Not totally sure why.

i dreamt of grandma. she looked the way she was in her last days. i was helping her to climb down some stairs to get to the beach. after i took her all the way down, it occured to me that it had been a long time since i had helped grandma walk last. (which was true, she left us in august 2011) then it hit me that she was dead. it didn't seem weird that she was right there though. i cried a lot. i felt i hadn't helped out grandma enough when she was there. yeah i cried, but not as much i did at the funeral. i dunno, i think i still miss grandma

I dreamt I was being beaten and strangled.. actually felt the hand on my neck :o I then pushed away from the wall and almost knocked my wife off the bed lol

I dreamed a black bear cub was in the garden and got it's head stuck in the fence and I was filming it

Forum discussion, actually.

Dreamed I was back in my high school, but saw my college professor there and told her that I was considering transferring.

Then I was trying to catch the next class on time but had to use the bathroom but when I got in the bathroom, they all were too nasty to use so I said forget it and went to class and sat in my seat just as the bell rang.

Horrible dream...

I was being held prisoner by a frightening man, along with one other person. I think we were both kids. Anyway, we seemed to be locked in a cell, one the size of a small apartment. The odd thing was, we were locked in a cell with the guy imprisoning us. So maybe he was a prisoner as well. Anyway, it got to the point that we were too frightened to carry on, and our captor seemed to be getting closer to doing something horrid to us. So, I told the other kid to look for a knife I had stashed someplace. While he was trying to get it, the guy got suspicious of us and started coming over. That was when I grabbed the knife myself, and cut the man in the throat. He bled to death.

Bleh. Not a nice dream at all.

In the dream before yesterday, I dreamed that I was with my sisters and we were going to a high school to see a couple of the girls from our church.  It was morning and breakfast time so the cafeteria was full.  My sisters and were were walking between the tables to find the seats and I was in my NJROTC Summer Uniform (the one with the white shirt since they moved over to khacki-colored shirts after I graduated).  I had no clue how I got the uniform considering I graduated high school about 4 years ago but I was happy I had it.  I looked a bit thinner in it and had all of my ribbons on me.  Well I was walking and noticed Army JROTC students in their green uniform and they were looking at mine.  I was proud to stand out among them.  So I found a seat but my sisters were a few seats over so I go towards them and leave my laptop and after I was done talking to my sisters I saw a guy try to get my laptop so I go over there and tell him that it's mine.  There were three girls looking at us and I kind of felt they would take the guy's side because he was white and they were too so I had to prove the design of my laptop (it was in my case) and everything else in there to prove that it was mine and once I did that the guy went away and the three girls just looked but didn't say anything so I took my laptop back with me to my sisters, but when I got there one of them had already went to talk to one of the girls and I was exremely jealous because I should be the only person getting attention from my sister (the older one).  I realized in the dream that the whole point of going to that school was for her to talk to a couple of the girls there for whatever reason so I woke up.

In the next dream, I dreamed that I was outside of my church and a van comes up with some of my old NJROTC squad from high school.  My Chief was driving and in the van were some of his millitary buddies and some a couple of active millitary guys.  My Chief asked me if I wanted to get in so we can all have a get together for old times sake so I did but when I got in the back, my Chief disappeared and went to the back of the van while I got in the drivers seat somehow (almost like I immediately was there) and I was now responsible for picking some more of my former squad and my Chief's old millitary buddies up and I was nervous.  I couldn't see my church anymore and I was now on a back road.  I tried to brake for a stop sign (remembed what my father said about the car having enough momentum while the foot is off the gas to stop at the stop sign) but my brakes were EXTREMELY slow to stop and by the time they stopped, i had already passed the stop sign and the people in the back were yelling at me so I tried to back up for the stop sign but I hit something while backing up and everyone disappeared.  All the millitary guys and veterans and my NJROTC squad....gone, because of what I did.  I sat there and felt like a failure.  That was a nightmare.

I was on a several days long classtrip and for some reason i was kind of an arsonist. It was a little like minecraft in real life too. I was mining all day long because i was bored and built myself two rooms. Weirdly enough my gender throughout the dream was rather inconsistent (no idea why). When we finally drove home my mother's boyfriend morphed into my father offscreen and we got along like old times. No anger or hurt from my side. I was cracking a lot of jokes, he drove like a maniac and i woke up.

I had a nightmare that I was back in school and I was being bullied during a trip to some science museum.  One guy tried to pick pocket 5 bucks from me but luckily, I got it back

Horrible dream last night that had me in bed brooding for hours this morning.

SO had a baby, and was coming home by train. I went out to meet her, and she started talking about what an incompetent and inadequate parent I was. This hurt me so much, I left her and the baby there on the train, which she didn't seem to mind in the least, instead going on and on about it with other people next to her.

Had a dream last night that I was attending some kind of party for transgender and crossdressers. I attended in boy mode and would introduce myself with my real name and say aka Amy Michelle. After several introduction some of the girls said it's time to let Amy out and they proceeded to take me to one of their rooms and gave me a wonderful makeover. I woke up with a huge smile this morning. Now if this could only happen in real life I will be a happy happy happy girl.

I had a dream that I was in Japan for some reason, and I was lost in the airport and feeling all alone when I turned a corner and saw a Sikh in a turqouise turban standing there looking confused. So, I went up and said "sat shri akaal" and yay he spoke English. He started telling me where I needed to go when we somehow transported to a langar hall in the airport and we ate daal, rice, and chaapatis.

Today, I saw some Sikhs on the train, so I was thinking maybe the dream was some kind of a sign and I was supposed to say something to them. I think I was supposed to, because as I was sitting there thinking about it, my second creepy guy I sometimes run into saw me and sat next to me. :(  Yeah, he's really creepy and keeps talking to me about financial investment vehicles that I know nothing about as if I am supposed to be impressed by it. Maybe if I said hello, I wouldn't have been sitting by myself where creepy guy had room to sit.

I dreamed that Lorraine the 1st girl I had a crush on had PMS and burned the house down and she told me she was off to her Mums and could I please explain it to Mike her husband when he came home on leave from the Marines.When I asked why I had to tell him she told me that it would sound better coming from me as Mike and me had always been friends.We're not that good friends that I could explain this to him though!

Last night I dreamt that I was staying in a hotel with my wofe and we had switched rooms, but I couldnt remember what the room number was so I went into one that was propped open a bit. The was a little black dog and a pet skunk in the room and when I opened the door to leave the skunk got out. I tried to catch it but didnt wanna get sprayed so I ducked into another open room. There was a guy in that room that chased me out and the skunk went into his room and started spraying. I ran across the hall into another room and there was a dwarf dressed up as a clown just chilling in there. I apologized and left. The next room I tried finally had my girlfriend in it and She was sleeping in the bed. Then somehow I ended up on the other side of town walking with my younger brother....hmmm weird...

I had a strangely vivid dream last night. It started in a place that resembled my high school. I was in the library using a computer and this one guy that I never liked kept trying to  copy all the data I had on the disk, which ranged from personal documents to porn. Certainly things I didn't want people to see. After swatting him away a few times, I finally got up, double and triple checked that I had all my stuff and left. I later found out he was trans too and trying to transition, or at least that's how the rumors went. I had mixed feelings. I still hated him, but had a bit more sympathy for him. But I didn't  want to be associated with him.

After that, I went out into the school courtyard. There were beams or platforms, columns, and trees everywhere. I got the urge to climb up and sit on this one narrow beam above the walkways. People glanced up and whispered to one another as they went by. I heard some people refer to me as a 'lesbian or something'. I had my eyes closed and gently rocked on the beam as it swayed a bit. I just wanted to escape the world for a little while. Some hippy looking teacher approached, frowned, but ultimately decided to leave me alone. But then some guys I knew started harassing me. I jumped down and confronted them. I realized I was barefoot and felt a bit primal and cat-like. That feeling gave me confidence and I threw stuff at them and swiped at them using my nails like claws. I scratched one guy in the face and he ran off. I tried running and jumping at a tree to scurry up it and return to my perch but another guy pulled me down. I grabbed a stick and swung at him, and assumed a crouched fighting stance. He decided to run and I chased him through the halls, weaving through the other students. But I made it out front and lost him.

I walked to the curb and noticed the sun was setting. I pulled my hood up and a car approached. The driver insisted I get in so I crawled into the back seat. As we drove, I hid my face. Through the rearview mirror, I could see just one of my eyes through the gap between the seats, illuminated by the streetlights. I had a dangerous and defensive look. The man just smiled and reassured me. We ended up at a department store, or home depot-like store. I kept my hand over my face and gave short responses as he rambled on about hardware and other stuff. I knew what some tool was called and he seemed impressed. After wandering through the paint section wondering why I was there, the guy had gone off. When I found him again, he was talking with an older man and a woman. They looked at me and the guy that brought me there gestured to me and smiled again. I placed a hand over my nose and mouth again, and kept up a cautious but intense gaze. My body language was reserved and defensive but I went to them anyway. The older man greeted me and moved my hand away. I looked down and away and he chuckled. The woman seemed pleased. And then the older guy turned me towards him, looked me up and down, and touched my chest, sliding his hand over to cup my right breast. I was mildly embarrassed but didn't do or say anything about it. Then I think I woke up. I felt like an animal, and maybe like a pet or livestock , but strangely I also felt like myself more than any other dream I can recall, especially in terms of self-awareness. I was defensive and reserved, like I constantly had to protect myself from the world and deal with peoples judgements.

i am out shopping with mom and her sister. i am bored to death as every other shopping day, and we go to a clothes store where the guys section is in second floor. the ground floor is all skirts and the first floor is all blouses. we get to the first floor and i, as usual, make a quick glance around to see if there's any boyish looking blouses. seeing none i idle around while mom and aunt pick blouses, then we start to leave and the two salesgirls there tell show us the way to the second floor. mom says we're not going there a salesgirl asks 'so aren't you buying anything for this gentleman?' indicating me. i'm so thrilled but i walk away not wanting to listen to how mom and aunt try to convince her that i'm no gentleman.the dream flows on and at one point i have the shark week, a very heavy one and i'm not wearing a pad. i make a mess of it and leave stains everywhere i sit. i wake up with a terrible self disgust and embarrassment. yuck. it could've ended better.

Last night I was dreaming of a old house full of doors.  I was opening up each door to see just room after room empty and black. I'm not even sure what I was looking for but when I open the last door I saw a big parking lot with nice cars and big buildings.

Ate a sausage that had a piece of bone in it that I bit down on. Yuck.

Yes, in a dream. And, no, no sexual context.

I had a lovely, erotic dream that lasted for about five minutes.  I woke up very happy.

background info: i have 2 mirrors in my room. one shows only the part of me above breast level, that's shoulders and face. the other shows the part below hips, that's bottom half of pelvis and legs. the mirror placement helps a lot with body dysphoria. went li'l bit off-topic, but i suddenly realized how good my mirror idea is.

so the dream is, i was looking at the mirror which shows shoulders and above, and i had grown all hairy. way hairy. i was topless, so i could see hair on chest, shoulder and arms, as dense as hair on my legs (yeah my legs are hairy. awesome) then there was hair on my face, not beard, just hair like the rest of the body. super long peachhair maybe. anyway it had grown where beard is supposed to be, so at a glance you'd think it's beard shadow. felt very good. whole day afterwards i was thinking i have more hair than i used to have yesterday.

Last night I had a dream that I was a copyrighter in Mad Men. We got the American Airlines contract and we were all talking about making a television commercial for them. I came up with an idea of having a little kid playing with a toy airplane and making little airplane noises. Then the kid goes to throw the airplane and as the toy is released in the throw it turns into a real airplane flying out of his hand and into the horizon. The tag line then comes up and says "American Airlines: Where ever your imagination takes you" or something like that. I think I was Peggy.

Quote from: LearnedHand on November 26, 2013, 10:28:23 AM
Last night I had a dream that I was a copyrighter in Mad Men. We got the American Airlines contract and we were all talking about making a television commercial for them. I came up with an idea of having a little kid playing with a toy airplane and making little airplane noises. Then the kid goes to throw the airplane and as the toy is released in the throw it turns into a real airplane flying out of his hand and into the horizon. The tag line then comes up and says "American Airlines: Where ever your imagination takes you" or something like that. I think I was Peggy.

You would have been Peggy, she's sharper than the guys by far!

There are four of us playing some sort of game - two men and two women. It's a physical game, involving hoisting one's partner up something that looks very much like a fl->-bleeped-<-ole. As play progresses, the women begin to dominate. Not just in the sense of winning, but in terms of the overall tone/dynamic of the game; it is their sensibility that gradually takes over.

At a certain point, one of the men protests this situation. The women continue as before - becoming stronger and more dominant. One of them is almost flying atop the fl->-bleeped-<-ole by this time. Her arms spread in a Kate Winslet, bow of the Titanic way. Wind blows her clothing.

The men look at this for a few moments, then dejectedly walk away.

Quote from: Tanya W on November 26, 2013, 01:34:23 PM
There are four of us playing some sort of game - two men and two women. It's a physical game, involving hoisting one's partner up something that looks very much like a fl->-bleeped-<-ole. As play progresses, the women begin to dominate. Not just in the sense of winning, but in terms of the overall tone/dynamic of the game; it is their sensibility that gradually takes over.

At a certain point, one of the men protests this situation. The women continue as before - becoming stronger and more dominant. One of them is almost flying atop the fl->-bleeped-<-ole by this time. Her arms spread in a Kate Winslet, bow of the Titanic way. Wind blows her clothing.

The men look at this for a few moments, then dejectedly walk away.

Hmm, this might be meaningful for you Tanya!

Quote from: Shantel on November 26, 2013, 06:24:48 PM
Hmm, this might be meaningful for you Tanya!

Yes, it's quite doozy! Had two or three along these lines lately. Takes me a while to get it, I guess!

Quote from: Tanya W on November 26, 2013, 11:37:55 PM
Yes, it's quite doozy! Had two or three along these lines lately. Takes me a while to get it, I guess!

I'm not religious but I do believe that we get spiritual prompts like this which seems to me that you are getting inner approval to let go and move ahead with your transition. What do you think?

Quote from: Shantel on November 27, 2013, 08:50:54 AM
I'm not religious but I do believe that we get spiritual prompts like this which seems to me that you are getting inner approval to let go and move ahead with your transition. What do you think?

Yes Shantel, I would agree. Curious timing. I have kind of frozen lately - haven't taken any new steps in a while. My most recent ones, perhaps, involved coming here and consciously acknowledging that I'm transgender. There was a great sense of movement in both these and it felt wonderful. Then movement stopped and those nasty twins dysphoria and depression rushed in. This is when that dream appeared. A prompt indeed. 

Last part of my dream before I woke up, a guy was looking at my boobs. He took my bra off and said I didn't need it yet but then he felt them and said they were definitely budding and growing. Was kinda creepy but I'll take it as a good sign!  :D

Quote from: Ashey on November 27, 2013, 11:16:24 AM
Last part of my dream before I woke up, a guy was looking at my boobs. He took my bra off and said I didn't need it yet but then he felt them and said they were definitely budding and growing. Was kinda creepy but I'll take it as a good sign!  :D

He wanted to pet the nice kitties?  :D ;D

I was at the Punk Festival and met Chris the skinhead who stayed with us,the weird bit is it was so much like what happened in real life.We had a few drinks and watched some groups just like we really did then the dream bit came in and we took it to the next level.I hate alarm clocks!

I dreamed about shredded pepper steak.  I enjoyed the smell and look of it and wanted to eat some.  I also dreamed that it was trash day and there was some gigantic new trash pick up machine that involved a crane and it was so cool to watch.  I screamed for my mom to come watch the trashmen pick up our trash in this cool new machine but she didn't come and instead, she started to tell me to do stuff.

Very strange,I had very long red hair and was wearing big black boots and  a long black leather coat with a sawed off pump action shot gun inside.I also had an automatic handgun and was kicking in doors looking for someone

Had a dream as my male self with someone I used to know in high school who I had a crush on. I was just sitting ontop of something with her (i believe it was a car) in the middle of an abandoned road similar to GTA: San Andreas rolling hill street. I was just sitting there next to her while breaking the teeth off of a plastic fork (for some reason the teeth felt endless as I observed myself doing this) and I threw the onto the ground like I felt it was rebellious or something. And I leaned and offered her a turn with the fork and she took it smiled and scolded me with the fork for making a big mess on the ground and I chuckled and slowly I woke up.

I will note that this scene had a semi-sepia feel to it. Familiar like, but this never happened in the natural world.

First dream I've remembered in ages.
It wasn't anything exciting... parts didn't make sense

I was at a water park of some sort... and waiting in a really long line for coffee. That somehow just turned into a coffee shop with a really long wait.

I was talking with some people there... a young woman and her mother. The young woman was very smart but not too social - for some reason she was slightly famous - I'd remembered reading about her (some sort of science / tech minor celeb or something). The last thing I can remember from the dream... very close to waking up... was that I hoped she was a lesbian.

I don't know if I was male or female bodied... I felt normal, but I think I started out male (at the water park).


EDIT: I also remembered an earlier dream from last night.
I saw a sign in a store:
If you were buying toys for charity... you got a 51% discount, but you had to prove it (with some sort of registered form or something). If you couldn't prove it... you could only get 49% off.
(yeah... the numbers don't make sense. It's MY dream :P ;))

I showed my wife and she got excited... and I told her we couldn't do it. I thought, in the dream, about how people with integrity always lose.

I consider myself to have a lot of that (integrity).

Two in a row... and this one's good :D ;)

I'd somehow found out about an experiment with my birth where I was born female. There was an actual comparison to the movie "Twins" in my dream, too (I haven't seen that for years). I dragged my father to the lab and got him to hook me back into the experiment. There were other scientists around too. I had to fiddle to make the physical servers and virtual machines connect to the right display (weird... but probably sources from some IRL techie problems I'm having). Once it was working, I saw a small girl with shoulder length blonde hair. That's also weird - I've always had brown hair... though my mother and sister are blonde.... that's where the dream ended.

How am I suddenly seeing my dreams again??!! I'm not complaining (other than feeling forced to log in here at 2 am).

In my dream, my boss commented on the number of sick days I've been taking recently for medical appointments. I said that I'm being treated for something and have to see a lot of specialists. Then he jokingly responded "prepping for a sex change, eh?"

This is a variation on an actual conversation that I had with him a few weeks ago. I had to take a day off to go to the endo (3 hour drive). When I told him that I had to go to the big city for my appointment, he joked that there were only two reasons he could think of to have to do that: hemorrhoid surgery and vasectomy, so I must be doing one or the other.

See also: What made me unhappy today.

I dreamed that my ex-wife was seducing me because she wanted to get back together. Basically, she was testing to see if she really could be intimate with a male-bodied woman. Then I woke up, alone.

(if the dream is too graphic let me know and I'll edit it)

Had a dream I was in a hospital as a pre-teen male. I wandered the hall and turned left and saw a door to a mini kitchen. On the stove was a delcious pot of green beans. I was confused since no one was watching it, then turned around to leave. Before I left I saw my Dr. on her cell phone entering. She made a comment to me about am I cooking these beans. I replied with a no and that I didn't know who was cooking the beans and left. She closed the door and in front of my I saw a caged entrance to an old (new) subway.

There were to other boys a bit older than me waiting like I was for it to be open. The eldest boy lean on the gate and me and the other randomly decided to pole dance with the support beams to the subway entrance. I jumped up with my two hands and gripped it with ease (I knew I was dreaming at this point) I shifted my weight to the right and swung my legs upside down for a pole handstand. Slowly I allowed myself to slide down upside down then landed gracefully for another round. I gripped the pole with both hands and climbed. I tried to shift my left hand up to brace, but I lost my grip and found myself freefalling and landing hard on my back. I startled the doctor in the other room and she came out to survey the scene. She saw the other boy sliding down his support beem and me about to get up for another round. I turned around in shock as she scolded us for our behaviour and we scattered in opposite directions.

The dream restarted from the same point of me getting ready to fall. I got up unphased and tried again. The doctor didn't come out of the room, but something me and the other boy did caused the fire alarm to go off and we three panicked and ran seperate ways.

I started to power walk down the hall but heard foot steps. I looked around and a started to scale the wall. I pushed aside a ceiling tile and climbed in an air shaft. I acrobatically turned around and peered from the ceiling as doctors ran through the hallway. I backed up in the vent shaft and saw another 3 ceiling tiles removed and a open vent with no sides. The laboratory staff weren't paying attention so I slinked by them and began crawling furiously through to the end.

I somehow ended up in a open park type area. It was fall and there was nothing but water in front of me. I was still a young boy and started to run through the water toward the end where a huge boulder and a tree stump lay. I looked back to see if I was followed.

The dream restarts, but this time the water was swampish. It was still fall and daytime with the enivornment donning a orangish surreal hue. There was precursor scene of an aligator's back slinking in the water. I looked next to me and start to  walk on this leaning tree to see if I could reach the other side. The aligator jumped from the water and snapped at me. I felt a jolt of fear as I saw it charge. It jumped up again it's full body out of the water and something happened. As it landed either someone killed it or it just randomly exploded. I didn't stay to find out so I start to run across the left over branches of the tree and tried to run waist deep in swamp water. After splashing and hopping I finally made it to the boulders and trees. I looked behind me to see if I was followed.

I had a dream where i was forced to move into the basement. :(

I was on a scavenger hunt. I feel like I was female, but not necessarily in body (it wasn't a big deal). I had no idea what the end prize was. I don't remember many of the tasks, but I remember the second to last one. There were two of us, and a dirt road. The other woman went on the main road... figuring our next task couldn't be down an old path like that. I decided to check it out.

The "riddle" rhymed and was long, but was looking for a gazebo with a plastic figure named "lenore." Don't ask me where I got that name - maybe Poe, probably not (I don't often read Poe). There was something in the riddle about love and something about resting inside the gazebo.

I found the gazebo down the path, and woke up.

~~~

My interpretation... well, in chat yesterday we were talking about the hoops we jump through to get E. Claire ran into some (hopefully minor) gatekeeping ~ her IC doctor needed an HRT letter! I assume she was the other woman, it fits a little too perfectly - running ahead of me, but missing a step in the scavenger hunt.

The "Lenore" and love is a bit less obvious, but I think it has to do with my wife. I love her very, very much; she loves me immensely. Recently I've been given just a little hope that we can continue to live together. Resting inside the gazebo (which was enclosed) under a figure of love who sits on top is a lot like my staying in the basement with my wife on the top floor.

So wow... I not only remembered my dream, but I have an interpretation for it... this is some positively dreamy progress!

I dreamed there was a zombie-looking 4-legged creature running arund my bedroom and my family's first thoght was to kill it, but instead I tried to help it.  It's face and body looked all red and bloody, but once I cleaned it up, it started to look like a cat and it was soon following my commands.  He was a little spunky fellow.  He still had some blood on his face, but I was too lazy to wipe it off.

So next I'm at a hospital and I've been told that I have been put on the "no fly list" because of some stupid reason by some woman.  Then the zombie apoclayspe erupted and some dude hd kidnapped another guy and was pouring gasoline on him in a house not too far.  He light up a match and burned him, but the fire spread and there was a propane tank near the other guy and it exploded so both guys were screaming.  After I noticed the flames, zombies where everywhere and I was unarmed and between professionals with them.  I tried to get out of the way so they wouldn't shoot me and I had been informed that I was clear off the "no fly list" and wa told to follow two guys upstairs....one had a Jewish name while the other was just called "Messiah".  I was trying to figure out it was actually Jesus or just some guy named that but then my father called and woke up up, asking for some tin foil.... Now I will never know.

I was having a lucid dream that seemed so real that I was questioning whether it was actually a dream. I was in a airplane with some friends and the hatch was open and we were about to skydive. I was about to jump out and just fly (which I can do in dreams) but was suddenly hit with a fear that I might be awake and this was real and I would plunge to my death. I remember contemplating whether to get a parachute just in case, but the truth is, I'm not inclined to jump out of a plane even with a parachute in my waking life. I made a box move with my mind and that's how I knew I was dreaming and I jumped. We were actually pretty close to the ground, much closer than I thought, and I was still moving horizontally due to the speed of the plane and I almost hit some building but I managed to slow myself down.

I dreamt I told D how I feel about him and he was awkward, said he wasn't interested specifically because I'm male and he would be if I was female, and then avoided me for the rest of the dream. Then I went on some clandestine mission to get some special sort of wood for something in my castle (wood as in the building material, not anything else). I have no idea why. We failed though because someone who my dream self recognized as someone who is supposed to a good friend I've had for a long time (but don't know in real life) betrayed me.
Strangely, I didn't really care. I was angry, but I also had a cool castle.

I dreampt that I was a world-renowned psychologist with my own practice.

Dreamt I found the wireless receiver for the keyboard. That's a dream I'd love to come true... I know I placed it somewhere I would not lose it, but....

I dreamed that I was programming an Infocom-style text adventure in QBASIC. And suddenly, it's 1995 again.

Quote from: GeWnYnNyNwEg on December 25, 2013, 12:19:11 AM
I dreamed that I was programming an Infocom-style text adventure in QBASIC. And suddenly, it's 1995 again.

> get lamp

I dreamt I was with this girl, and she wanted to kiss. The whole thing was exciting, but made me feel guilty because I wasn't entirely certain who she was. Weird.

Quote from: KabitTarah on December 25, 2013, 03:10:52 AM
> get lamp

The lamp goes out.

It's dark. You're likely to get eaten by a grue.

Dreamt of having detransitioned and having sex with a woman in male mode, while being warned about if I could really do it and keep a strong erection. Wake up rock hard and painful.

Now wanting to cut it after showering.

Quote from: Zóôt Al-Lúrês, the Human Flanger on December 25, 2013, 05:08:56 AM
The lamp goes out.

It's dark. You're likely to get eaten by a grue.

frotz sword

The sword begins to radiate with a phosphorescent glow.

I had a dream where I was full-time or just fully female (hard to tell if it isn't pointed out). I had a boyfriend and we were either homeless or wandering around/travelling. He caused some mischief and stole some stuff, which resulted in us both running out of places a couple times, but he was sweet enough to swipe me stuff I needed. Like I needed a couple batteries for something and a toothbrush and he managed to get me expensive rechargeable batteries and a 'kit' with a toothbrush, toothpaste, and some other stuff. Kinda odd dream but nice in a way.

I dreamt I was at my university except it was different. There was a theatre for one. There was also at least one magic course. I saw a bunch of people from university.

Sentient electronics in buildings trying to kill us.

I don't really know if I tolerate or hate machines... Not sent from my Nexus 7.

Dreamed about waking up in a hospital bed. Don't know where I was our when this was, but I had facial bandages, so I assumed it was after FFS. What made me most happy is I was addressed as Miss by the nurses. I couldn't tell where they were from, though.

i don't know what i dreamt last night but once i had this totally weird dream after playing The Walking Dead (or Left 4 Dead 2?). I was on the run from the zombies and used whatever i could find as a weapon. It felt so real, it was scary. My family members were scattered across the country weirdly enough and so i took refuge at the nearest family member's house. Near the end i was at (i think) what was my uncle's house in this dream and while everyone else felt safe, i didn't. I was constantly watching the big glass windows(!) for zombies, weapon (i think it was a wrench) in my hand, gun ready and when the time came, i had to flee again.

Weirdly enough, some of the scenery looked like levels from Half Life 2.

I can still feel that dread that overcame me. It was really frightened. I was much more courageous (and a bit more masculine but just as scared) than in real life and constantly trying to defend my family.

Wow after months of having only nightmares I actually saw an awesome dream,

I was full time as a girl and just found an office job I used the girls bathroom I slept with a girl friend cause they werent enough beds and I also found a date  :P and everyone was treating me as a girl
So they guy who asked me on a date gifted me a pencil and everyone tried to steal it from me so I went out on the street and shouted really happy "There are a thousand pencils like this one you can take whichever you want!"

^-^

....of my ex.  Forgiving, loving and wanting to come home.

I dreamed that I went to go visit my Chief and Commander from my NJROTC class in high school.  I went into the classroom and saw the students there, but knew none of them as they were much younger and not around when I were there.  Commander was welcoming and so was Chief but Chief was too busy answering questions that the kids had.  I stood there silent while waiting but it took so long that I had to go because I was about to be late to get somewhere else.  I was sad that I didn't get to stay and talk with them for longer.

I had a mini- night mare about Spiro & E. I don't remember any details. I doubt there were horses in my dream... but who knows ;)

It wasn't a bad one, though... more like an anxious dream than a nightmare.

Household objects moving and having some sort of sentience. It was creepy and not in a good way.

I was celebrating my graduation at school and uncovered a secret cult.

On my way home i found myself in the 70's. A girl who gave me math lessons for a while was my best friend and we had a long chat while waiting for the train.


Things just got weirder from there with half of the dream actually repeating.

many things happened in the dream but i remember only the best moment.
my mother told me one of my cousins told her that guys who know me referred to me with pronouns xe and e behind my back. it was not intended for their acceptance of me as a weird gendered person, that was actually supposed to insult me for dressing and acting like a guy. but with the news i felt like a great weight had been lifted from me. it meant they didn't see me as a girl anymore, so i was one step ahead. i had one more step to go, to convince them i'm actually a guy. i was very happy but mom was worried.

No one wants my dreams. No one .

I want your dreams, and I will dump them in the sea. Hugs, Devlyn

Quote from: Devlyn Marie on December 30, 2013, 06:06:23 AM
I want your dreams, and I will dump them in the sea. Hugs, Devlyn

The sea of dreams?

I know I had one last night... couldn't remember a thing about it when I woke up.
This does seem to be getting easier, though...

I dreamed that I was being persecuted for being a jerk to a girl back in high school.

I dreamt a group of teenagers beat a teacher (I think?) to death with mining tools (I think?) simply because it was fun. It was pretty brutal. The guy's head was completely smashed in and he was still alive.
In the dream, it was supposed to be a movie, but if so, it was a pretty interactive movie. It was also supposed to be based on real events. He later died on the way to the hospital, but I woke up before I got to that part.

I dreamed I arranged to visit a stranger to do some kind of sex act and roleplaying, and the person turned out to be too sketchy, so I ran away through suburbs jumping fences and tearing off my mask and paper mache dildo. I found my knife and then even better I found a rocketship. I started piloting and trying to leave earth but satellite military and the person on the ground I was running from hemmed me in. I flew from ground to sky back and forth, and one time near land the floor fell out (like in gravitron at county fairs). Then Ben Folds and two other more metal looking musicians joined me on the rocketship. We had rousing theme music then, and that seemed to defeat the military and the unsavory prospective sex partner. We blasted off into space and it was all exhilaration and good noise.

Quote from: Felix on January 01, 2014, 04:44:00 AM
I dreamed I arranged to visit a stranger to do some kind of sex act and roleplaying, and the person turned out to be too sketchy, so I ran away through suburbs jumping fences and tearing off my mask and paper mache dildo. I found my knife and then even better I found a rocketship. I started piloting and trying to leave earth but satellite military and the person on the ground I was running from hemmed me in. I flew from ground to sky back and forth, and one time near land the floor fell out (like in gravitron at county fairs). Then Ben Folds and two other more metal looking musicians joined me on the rocketship. We had rousing theme music then, and that seemed to defeat the military and the unsavory prospective sex partner. We blasted off into space and it was all exhilaration and good noise.

Hey! It's 2014... anything could happen!

Bought some weed from Gerry Garcia and he stiffed me,it was way under weight!

The other days dream I had planned to share was weird. It was me and two boys in my home running from something (we were all about 10). They were scared and I was too, but assured them we can make it we have to play smart. They asked how did I know and I told them when I open the front door we're either going to go outside and get killed or we can escape. They looked unsure, but we took the risk anyway. I let them go ahead of me and then cloed the door and began running down my side walk. The looked at me fir what was next. I told them that if this is a dream we can find my house (my in dream safehaven). I'm a magician. I ran ahead of them, but felt very heavy which had me worried that maybe I wasn't dreaming anymore. I looked at the houses as I ran. (my safehaven house is usally raggedy and abandoned, or small bungalow from the outside) I noted the house and found a house that looked unfamiliar, but decided to try and gp into it. The other two boys went in first then I went in and closed the door. Whatever was following us (usually demons) couldn't get in. they stood near the door and I took a step back in total awe. The house on the inside was my usual mansion haven, but the walls were invisible. You could see windows and everything, but the walls and roof did not exist. I felt a sudden panic come over me as the creatures tried to get in but couldn't. Even though the walls are gone there was sometype of barrier keeping them from me. The boys and I all made fearful eye contact and then I woke up.

I was at a game stop buying a gift and these two women clocked me and called me with "it." The line was really long and I ended up in front of them, though they shoved me. I wanted to call them bitches, but this woman in front of me said "they're the ones who should be called 'it'." I told her "no, I call dogs 'she' if it's appropriate."

Some of my dreams get modulated by my wakefulness. I was half awake for the latter part ~ I don't know if my fully subconscious mind could have come up with that ;)

I think spiro definitely helps you remember dreams... having to get up right during REM for the bathroom.

Weird freaky stuff about being in a band so a friend can make some bank producing and promoting it  8)

Something about a big snow leopard chasing me through high grass, but I was not putting much effort into running. ;) I seriously have to stay off of here when I am sleepy!  ;D Way too much subliminal information getting soaked into the old cranium. ::) *giggle*

I forget bits of it, so it probably won't make sense.
Part of it didn't make sense anyway since I somehow visited a friend who lived with her mom in Germany (except in real life this person has never even been to Germany and I don't know who she lives with) which was a country in Asia. While we were looking at the map, I kept repeating that I thought it was in Europe which, as everyone knows, it is. I told you this dream made no sense.
I went from her place to school which was, for some reason, directly connected to her house. (Seriously, I could get to the room I was staying in from one of the classrooms.) I was part of a selected group that had to take a sort of test separately from the rest of the school along with everyone who was poor or different in some way. It was a sort of personality test and the reason they had us take it first was because they wanted to determine whether we were dangerous which was pretty discriminatory, but I took it anyway. D, who was also in my dream, took it too and ended up getting the same result.
At some point, me and D were in the same class for some reason and I left to get something from the room I had been staying in at my friend's house. When I came back, I heard him saying that I was overly energetic (he worded it differently, but I can't remember what he compared me to), but that I had gotten a bit better since he first met me. I was happy because he thought I had gotten better, but sad because now I knew he doesn't like me. He still felt bad that I had heard him and later apologized, so I told him it was alright and I was glad I knew he didn't like me because I prefer it when people are honest than when people pretend to my friend, get increasingly resentful of my existence, and then it ends very badly. It turned out he liked me quite a lot after all.
Gah. Sorry for the feely rambling.

Quote from: Edge on January 03, 2014, 10:20:20 AM
I forget bits of it, so it probably won't make sense.
Part of it didn't make sense anyway since I somehow visited a friend who lived with her mom in Germany (except in real life this person has never even been to Germany and I don't know who she lives with) which was a country in Asia. While we were looking at the map, I kept repeating that I thought it was in Europe which, as everyone knows, it is.

I'm gonna play Freud here, just for kicks.

The continental status of Europe and Asia is a construct of human history and culture, not tectonics. Had Genghis, Tamerlane, Attila, or any of a long litany of other candidates secured a permanent foothold on the continent, the semantic border between the continents might have been established at the Alps rather than the Urals and Bosporus or, perhaps, not existed at all.

Your dream is a representation of your deep-seeded fear of economic and political hegemony by emerging Asian states.

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j/k*

Quote from: Gwynne on January 03, 2014, 10:36:37 AMYour dream is a representation of your deep-seeded fear of economic and political hegemony by emerging Asian states.

Thank you for that laugh. No, I am not that ridiculous.
Nah I mean it was in a completely different space on the map, so no matter how constructed the continental status is, it would still have been tectonic. Not that it really matters since space was really weird in this dream to begin with. Still, I want to make it clear that we were looking at a map and I was commenting on the country's spacial position on the map. Like if  BC was in Nunavut.

Quote from: Edge on January 03, 2014, 11:35:09 AM
Thank you for that laugh. No, I am not that ridiculous.
Nah I mean it was in a completely different space on the map, so no matter how constructed the continental status is, it would still have been tectonic. Not that it really matters since space was really weird in this dream to begin with.

I'm just being silly.

Here's my real analysis:

Your acetylcholine levels spiked, your frontal lobe acted up, and random Place Cells in your hippopotamus* hippocampus fired.

*don't you love auto-complete?

Several nights ago, talking to a bearded woman. I cannot remember much of the conversation, but I remember the beard... been having lots of hair troubles, so this may be my way of telling myself to get back on the laser bandwaggon.

Double post!

Dreamt I was in the women's spa. Since this caused no problems, I guess everything was fine.

Booked a laser appt, by the way. The scratchiness is driving me mad!

I was walking in the Lake District, came back to the b&b to find that the queen had died. On top of that we were sharing a room with Prince (King?) Charles and, there in a wooden box, a freshly post mortemed queen Lizzy. Euch! :-\

It's gets worse... She comes back to life and starts hugging me   :o

I woke up shaking and it took a while to get back to sleep.


I'm usually pretty good at working out what my dreams are trying to tell me, but I've been thinking about this one all morning, and I can't make any sense of it at all.

Well yesterday's dream (jan 6) was..a hoot in the negative sense,

Today's dream was interesting. I dreamt I was laying in bed (probably partial sleep paralysis in the beginning) and I was creating a visual blueprint with my mind on a small floating rotating platform. I was building the skeleton of a building, a psychology retreat. Some random person asked me "what I was building?" and I told them "I didn't know yet". The looked at the building (they had no form, but they indeed were looking at it) They said it was interesting.  I "mhm'd" and continued on. They must have left and then came back and asked me how it was going. The room I was in was suddenly a bit brighter with a bit of daylight creeping in. I told them "would you like to have a look?" They agreed and we suddenly shrink a little and the building grew (we met in a half way size) and we entered the building.

It was pretty old style medical building style. Soft beige, but it was dimly lit, because it wasn't really finished. I pointed out the huge cafeteria area immediately in front of us, then we walked over the right and somehow ended up upstair and in the psychologists office. There was a woman in there who wanted to treat me and I eventually eased my way out while showing the formless person the next area. Right out the psych's office and to the right was a small amount of cots for the mentally exhausted people to relax on. Down the stairs we went. To the right but in front of us was a medium sized room for all purpose medical reason. I pointed to the room ful of cots they could rest on while they waited. A pregnant woman who happened to be Tippi Hedren (in her green outfit from the movie) was laying down on one of the cots. A few more people in the corner were sitting on their beds and talking. There was a nurse that would come around to tend to the pregnant women in case they needed anything. The rest of the dream is a blur.

Basicly I dreamt that I came out to two girls, one accepted me and one rejected me, probably got the dream from me thinking nonstop about coming out to a friend, but of course my dreams are just as unhelpful as my thoughts...

Parts of this dream have faded in the last few hours but parts will stay with me for a long time.

I was lying on a beach with a gorgeous man, he knew I was transitioning & told me that he loved me for who I was & that he'd stick by me throughout my transition, we talked for hours until he leaned closer, our lips met & the feeling was like a jolt of electricity.
The dream didn't show me how but I died & he grieved for me, then as he walked along the beach a dolphin came to the surface with a very large oyster shell, he pried the shell open & there inside was me, now fully female with long golden hair, he leaned over & kissed me like a prince charming waking sleeping beauty.I woke up & he embraced me in his arms vowing to never lose me again.

Quote from: Jayne on January 09, 2014, 11:09:20 AM
Parts of this dream have faded in the last few hours but parts will stay with me for a long time.

I was lying on a beach with a gorgeous man, he knew I was transitioning & told me that he loved me for who I was & that he'd stick by me throughout my transition, we talked for hours until he leaned closer, our lips met & the feeling was like a jolt of electricity.
The dream didn't show me how but I died & he grieved for me, then as he walked along the beach a dolphin came to the surface with a very large oyster shell, he pried the shell open & there inside was me, now fully female with long golden hair, he leaned over & kissed me like a prince charming waking sleeping beauty.I woke up & he embraced me in his arms vowing to never lose me again.

WOW that was a great dream Jayne!

Quote from: Jayne on January 09, 2014, 11:09:20 AM
The dream didn't show me how but I died & he grieved for me, then as he walked along the beach a dolphin came to the surface with a very large oyster shell, he pried the shell open & there inside was me, now fully female with long golden hair

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Edge, I can't believe that I didn't think of that classic picture after this dream, it just goes to show how much imagery stays hidden in our minds only to be dredged up in dreams.

I think one of the things that made this dream so amazing was that it was a lucid dream, I can still remember how his hands felt on my skin & the gorgeous smell of him, as you may guess from that sentence the rest of the dream was rather . . . . erotic, suffice to say he was a very passionate man.

Eating sushi,a bit boring after reading about Jayne's dream!

Quote from: big kim on January 10, 2014, 03:55:43 AM
Eating sushi,a bit boring after reading about Jayne's dream!

That was an elegant dream alright! I don't dream anymore, thankfully I just seem to go into a coma and wake up refreshed. When I do have an occasional dream it is always a revisitation from hell when I was in a war and I damn near have a heart attack.

Had gawdawful nightmares.

1)  Swimming to safety with lots of sharks in the water- very stressful
2)  Passing out at a crappy tattoo parlor and waking up covered in the worst. ink. ever.

I'm guessing #2 is a manifestation of MTF surgery anxieties.  #1 - general MTF? anxiety?

I don't deal with a lot of anxiety anymore while awake, but I guess subconsiously it's still there.  At least you can take drugs for it when you're awake...

I had a crazy nightmare in which I had cut my hair short,,, I get this nightmare sometimes,,,this year a lot of times...

This time though was pretty intense...glad to wake up to see that I still have my long hair...

I dreamed:

1.  I was doing something similar to a Sailor Moon cosplay where I was Tuxedo Mask and I was struck down by a villian and Sailor Moon ran over to me, grabbed me and held my hand.  I felt warm being next to her, and happy that she loved me enough to check up on me as she wept for me.  It didn't last long before it turned to a church member that made a mountain of crushed cornflakes on my couch >.>, but this was actually my favorite dream.

2. My former classmate's brother offered to take me to a football game along with a 5-10 day vacation somewhere exotic, but then he changed his mind.

3. I was back in second grade and the teacher was teaching math......division by long hand I think.  I raised my hand to ask why learn this stuff long hand now when there's technology to help us out with that that wasn't readily available when I was originally in second grade.  She said that was a good question, and while she was about to answer I felt myself waking up and about to talk in my sleep and I got really self-concious.  Somewhere in that dream before I woke up I saw 3 pennies in a cup.

Quote from: Malachite on January 13, 2014, 10:17:19 AM
Somewhere in that dream before I woke up I saw 3 pennies in a cup.

That sounds unusually symbolic lol.

I had a dream that I got to see my sweetie. But we never got any time alone. There were always different people hanging around. At one point, we were in a public place but we were alone, and all of a sudden she turned into a clone of Prince William LOL. I looked at her and laughed (because apparently something like that is totally normal) and I said "well, we can hold hands at least, but everything will think we're gay men until you change back." Then I said "I don't care what we do or where we go, I just want to be with you." She changed back later, and it was our last day together, we finally were going to get to be alone. And then my dad of all people came and wanted to spend the day with us. I got so angry that I left the room and couldn't even look at her.

Funny thing is that actually sounds like real life. We almost never get to be alone together. :( We only had one day where we got to have a day for "us", the rest was just an hour or two alone together at a time.

Quote from: caleb. on January 13, 2014, 04:30:37 PM
That sounds unusually symbolic lol.

I probably wanted to put those pennies towards my top surgery fund.   :D

I dreamed that I was a medic in the German army and we were fighting Americans in a war.  I had on a red uniform that looked similar to a red Power ranger.  I heard of a comrade being injured so I tried to find a green stretcher to lift him up on, only when I found one, it was a bit messed up.  Then, two paramedics that were more experienced came to go help the guy up with their stretcher that was actually functional.  The had on green uniforms, but their entire head was covered with a red cloth with a white design in the front.  Well since I felt useless, I tried to help in the fight so I grabbed a pistol and started shooting at a guy that had a mini-gun.  I don't think I ever took him down but while I was shooting him, I was getting shot at by Americans high up in buildings so I had to hide behind some sandbags,

most of my dreams these days involve accidental irradiation.

I had a very detailed and thorough dream last night.

I visited the nation of Barbados. Like the real Barbados, it was tropical and beautiful. Unlike the real Barbados, it wasn't an island, but a section of tropical coastline with land borders with both Canada and the US. Furthermore, it had no border checkpoints.

The main narrative of the dream seemed to be the US government identifying the lack of border controls as a security threat.

Quote from: Malachite on January 18, 2014, 03:14:26 PMWell since I felt useless, I tried to help in the fight so I grabbed a pistol and started shooting at a guy that had a mini-gun.  I don't think I ever took him down but while I was shooting him, I was getting shot at by Americans high up in buildings so I had to hide behind some sandbags,

Were you dreaming or visiting Detroit?

Quote from: dalebert on January 18, 2014, 04:10:02 PM
Were you dreaming or visiting Detroit?

Lol it was a dream. 

I had a nightmare,,,

I was meeting   a friend and when he saw me he said he could tell I was a guy , so I got dissapointed and told him that we should go back , on the way home we met another guy from my old school he said hi to my friend then he said "who is she...oh wait..." and then started laughing...

god fricking damn
I guess this is some kind of subconcious anxiety?
just,,,god damnit...

I dreamed that I had a time machine and went back to the 90's and saw myself as a baby.  I saw my sisters and I was talking to them, telling them things that would happen in the future.  I thought that it might be a bad idea to do that since it could alter the future but I didn't care.  I had also thought to tell them about the 9/11 attack that would happen, but I figured that if I did, they might report me to the feds and that could mean trouble for me when I went back to my own time.  One of my sisters started telling me about how I was transgender and I had no clue where she could get that from considering I was just a baby.

I dreamt I had to fight these monsters...they kind of looked like playing cards. And I went after one and he got me down, he got a bunch of bugs to swarm in my hair and I couldn't get them out.

Quote from: caleb. on January 24, 2014, 12:10:25 PM
I dreamt I had to fight these monsters...they kind of looked like playing cards. And I went after one and he got me down, he got a bunch of bugs to swarm in my hair and I couldn't get them out.

Sounds like Resident Evil: Yugioh Style

It did remind me of RE actually! You know that thing that Marco turns into where it's like a bunch of flies flying around and swarming you?

Hahahaha yup, that's what I had in mind too.  The mutated bumble bees were one of my favorite enemies in that game.

Part of last night's dream involved live stuffed animals. Not exactly known animals, more like fish with legs. They were nice to me and the others I was with except for one that get trying to knock us down.

It was weird. Dreams of late have been like that, lol.

I dreamed that two of my teeth were loose one of my ex-girlfriends put her fingers in my mouth and broke my teeth out without my permission.  I was so angry at her and told her that she's going to pay for my dental bills and she areed.

I also had a dream that the same ex called twice but I missed both calls.

That too sounds symbolic. Usually teeth falling out or going missing is a sign of anxiety.

Quote from: caleb. on January 25, 2014, 09:24:07 AM
That too sounds symbolic. Usually teeth falling out or going missing is a sign of anxiety.

I wouldn't doubt it.  This month has been nothing but anxiety for me.  Awesome way to bring in the New Year.

I had a dream a few days ago that me and three other people were going to rob this family's house.  We were successful the first time around, though for some reason it took me a long time to get out the house.  We took two cars and one car drove of and my partner was telling me to hurry up because the cops were closing in.  After we made it out, we celebrated and the two leaders decided to hit the house one more time.  Me and the other girl was reluctant about it, but we did it.  This time around, I got a bar of gold so I hide in a Scooby Doo head statue I had.  I felt really bad because I saw the father crying, but I tried to push it out of my head.  We had on masks though so he couldn't see us. Later on, the reluctant girl and I saw someone who allegedely said they knew we robbed them and threatened to turn us in.  The robber girl got mad at this as the girl walked off somewhere (presumably to tell the cobs), but we notice she only revealed the identity of the two leading robbers because we both had remorse and they didn't.  Well the father we robbed from came up to me and just looked at me like he knew who I was.  I began to feel bad and gave him his bar of gold back since he had a family. Nothing happened to me.

In my most recent dream, I dreamed that my mom brought me a little ceasars pizza.  It was slightly burned, yet tasty-looking.  I wanted the whole thing to myself, but my nephew wanted a slice so my mom told me to give him one and he got the best piece.  Then his mom and dad came to pick him up and as he was getting in the car, one of the church boys I knew came into my room and laid down three action figures he had, one of them dressing like a Spartan.   He told me that the church said they were giving up something to someone else and he decided to give me the action figures.  Then he told me he gave me one of them in particular (couldn't remember what it was) because lesbians play with them.  I was like "what the heck" in my mind.  I repeted to him what he said and told him just to keep all of action figures and/or give them to my nephew.  My nephew didn't want them either.  Well after everyone had left, it had gotten dark, but then it turned to day again and out of nowhere while my mom was cooking, Malachi from Children of the Corn (keep in mind I have NEVER seen any of those films and I intend on keeping it that way) and he was wrecking things in my home.  He took out our ceiling light and shattered it.  I called for my mom and ranoutside and he kept throughing stuff at us.  I was about to call the cops, but he disappeared, and when I let my guard down, he came back with some coffe mugs and started throwing them at me.  One hit my arm and made it sore.  That's when I decided to call the cops.  He got in a green family van with two babies and drove off.  My mom asked if he was gone for good and I told her he will be back and sure enough, I saw the van pulling back around, but into my neighboor's houe and he started harassing her spraying her house a garden hose.  While he was doing that, I gave dispatch the information they needed (even though the lady over the phone was taking a long time.  By that time, he and the van was back at my house and I screamed at the dispatcher that he was here and about to kill me (he had a small blow-torch-like instrument) and then she told me "I will call you back." and hung up.  I was hoping that the cops would be rushing by, but in my heart I knew I was screwed, but I tried to hang on until the cops got there.  I made sure to keep an eye on him while keeping myself out of danger.  At this point we were around the back of the house.  He must had figured the cops were closing in so he told me "lets see if you can keep up with me."  and ran around the side of the house.  My mother was still at the front of the house and I was about to yell to her to keep an eye on him, but then I realized that she was too old and slow and wouldn't hear me anyways.  I knew he was just going to disappear again and if I followed him, he could come out of nowhere and blow torch me.  I knew he would be gone enough for the cops to come, figure that he's gone, they would leave, and he would come back to finish he job.  It was at that point in the dream that I said "okay, there's no hope of this dream playing out well, so I'm going to wake up now," and I woke up. Gosh what a nightmare!  I'm still shaken up over it.

I've been having really strange dreams lately. Last night, I dreamt I went to the library with my cat and I didn't have enough money to borrow a book about bathrooms.

I had three dreams.  In the first dream, I met a nice church girl and we hung out until it got really dark outside.  She was cute and we had a nice time. 

In the other dream, my mom threw out my new mattress for no good reason.  The new mattress was right beside the old mattress and pillows that my mom threw out.  I looked outside and saw a yellow cat sleeping on the new mattress. I was glad that the cat found a comfy place to sleep even though it was snowing outside.

In the next dream, I was back in college, but I was late for class because I was trying to look for the classroom.  When I arrived, everyone had started on an assignment so I immediately tried to get started on mine.  The teacher told a guy I knew to pick up the papers and I told him to get mine last and he said okay, but never came back to me.  I didn't want to go up to the teacher to  and her the assignment, in fear of getting a late grade.  I was hoping he would come back to pick up my assignment (which I totally didn't understand and just wrote down random stuff btw), but when I realized he wasn't going to, I decided to wake up.

A couple other people and I were on the run from these people who were trying to capture us. We were either criminals or X-men type mutants (probably both, but I have no idea what our powers were) and the people looking for us worked for whoever was in charge politically. I mostly remember hiding in an apartment building or hotel or something and some of the people who lived/stayed there helping us.

I dreamed that I met a young woman who had a little girl with her about 5 or 6 years old. The young gal and I stepped inside another young woman's trailer and the three of us were having a cup of tea. The young mother suddenly looked around and her little girl had disappeared and we looked everywhere and couldn't fine the child. It was a rather disturbing dream because it happens all too often in real life. Musta been the result of something I read and that extra beef taco last night.

I dreamed that I cleaned the kitchen, did all the dishes that I didn't get to because I was sick and polished the stainless appliances.

Then I woke up and realized I still need to do that. *le sigh*

I dreamt about having a boyfriend and a girlfriend at the same time! But I only really loved my girlfriend, and she is my girlfriend in real life. Its funny because we have been fighting lately and we are taking a break but not texting for a couple days. (Long distance relationship for the past 5 months, occassionally seeing each other) And all I can do is think about her!

I had a weird dream that I had a new kitten, she looked exactly like my current cat sabrina, and she was named sabrina too,but she was a different cat. She was really sweet and she was also my biological child.. weird.

I dreamed that I went to a mega church in my area and whI got back, where were a bunch of kittens, puppies, and dogs in my room.  The kittens grw before my eyes.  I lizard made it into my room, but I didn't want it to be there because I feared a cat would eat it, and I was right  A fat, brown cat snatched it up, went behind my bed, and ate it.  I figured I needed to find some food for the rest of the animals to eat so I got some old cat food for all of them.  They didn't seem excited about it, but they started nibbling at the food.  Meanwhile, I was thinking that I needed to post these animals up on Craigslist for a small adoption fee.

Quote from: Malachite on February 05, 2014, 12:43:21 PM
I dreamed that I went to a mega church in my area and whI got back, where were a bunch of kittens, puppies, and dogs in my room.  The kittens grw before my eyes.  I lizard made it into my room, but I didn't want it to be there because I feared a cat would eat it, and I was right  A fat, brown cat snatched it up, went behind my bed, and ate it.  I figured I needed to find some food for the rest of the animals to eat so I got some old cat food for all of them.  They didn't seem excited about it, but they started nibbling at the food.  Meanwhile, I was thinking that I needed to post these animals up on Craigslist for a small adoption fee.

Uh-oh. Maybe you're the reincarnation of Noah, and we should all be thinking about some wet weather gear.

LOL!  :D

I started dreaming about how I was fussing about a little unwelcome weight gain through these winter months and suddenly I found myself in kind of a scary neighborhood and was thinking, "Oh crap, some trans hater is going to spot me and beat me up!" When suddenly there was a blinding flash and this person appeared. "Fear not!" She said, "I am your guardian angel and I've got your back Shan!" Then she said something really odd, she said "Whatever you do don't take Midol for headaches!" and then she disappeared in a poof!

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Being married. WOW!!! It was the actual ceremony and it was ME walking up the aisle.   OMG

I dreamed I was near the spillway of a lake's dam. I see what I think are people fishing along the water's edge. There's water splashing all about, the fish are going nuts. I get up close and it's not fish and people aren't fishing. It's these massive green slimy seal creatures coming out of the water attacking the people. The people aren't running, they're fighting them. These horrible seal creatures begin sticking out these long tongues they can shape into swords and they begin stabbing these people through their bodies. They still don't run, but they just keep on fighting them. I begin walking away thinking how messed up that was and I wake up.

I saw this last night and it must have really made an impression on me. I was watching the first episode of the new season and thinking it was way too early for it to be on so I wondered if I might be dreaming. I was. :(

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J5iS3tULXMQ

Then I had a pee anxiety dream and woke up and had to pee. Damn allergy meds.

I don't remember my dream from last night but two days ago I had a dream I was eating a bagel so I got up and made one.

Not I'm sure.  I didn't have any images come to mind other than the one that forms when my eyes close.  The only thing I remembered was that I was saying the plan of salvation to myself and was quoting Ephesians 2:8-9

I still had a pee anxiety dream the night before last and woke up and got up to pee. That was the 3rd night in a row whereas normally I make it through the night without a problem. I didn't take my asthma pills the last two nights and last night I made it through the night again without pee anxiety dreams or having to get up to pee.

I know about the connection between antihistamines and bladder issues because a urologist told me. The trick is just taking a break from the antihistamines every few days. My doc said the asthma pills worked another way and weren't antihistamines but apparently the affect my bladder the same way. I hate pee anxiety dreams! They're almost as bad as a nightmare.

Quote from: dalebert on February 12, 2014, 09:48:41 AM
I still had a pee anxiety dream the night before last and woke up and got up to pee. That was the 3rd night in a row whereas normally I make it through the night without a problem. I didn't take my asthma pills the last two nights and last night I made it through the night again without pee anxiety dreams or having to get up to pee.

I know about the connection between antihistamines and bladder issues because a urologist told me. The trick is just taking a break from the antihistamines every few days. My doc said the asthma pills worked another way and weren't antihistamines but apparently the affect my bladder the same way. I hate pee anxiety dreams! They're almost as bad as a nightmare.

A few years ago I dreamed that I had to pee, it was so real and vivid thinking that I actually got up, I started to go and startled myself and bolted out to the bathroom. Fortunately I was asleep on my back and no real damage was done. Since then I try to cut off my liquids at around 5:PM rather than having a recurrence. My granddaughter who at the time was a heavy sleeper prone to accidents thought it was a riot when I related what had happened, she never wet her bed since that time.  :D

I dreamed that some women came over to my house along with my isters and they had some sort of women's meeting.  After they left, one of my sisters and I went to what I guess was a mall and we were near the Subway food place inside.  I saw a girl I knew from church working there and I had thought about asking for an application but I was scared.  I think my sister wanted Subwy so we went to go get in line and accidently bumped into the knees of two guys who were sitting (because it was crowded and not a lot of space).  One of the guys got offended and started to get loud.  I tried to calm him down and apologize.  He seemed to calm down a little bit, but when we were in line, somehow we got close and bumped into him again and that's when he lost it. He started getting louder and I started to apologize again and tll him how it was an accident.  He looked me straight in the eyes amd motioned his fingers to tell me to come here.  I knew he wanted to fight in front ofeveryone, but I told him I didn't want any trouble.  Then he started to charge at me, and he pushed me.  When he charged at me the second time, I somewhat sprawled, caught him by the leg and brought him down, then I backed away from him.  Somehow, no one in the mall seemed to notice or car that we were engaged in a physical altercation.  I was hoping that he learned his lesson.  Because I knew if we continued, that it would draw more attention and that I'd possibly hurt him.  Well he got up and didn't learn his lesson and he charged at me AGAIN, so I got into a lower Sambo-type fighting stance sprawl and right when he came for me, I screeched like a martial artist, lifted him up by the legs, put his entire body on my shoulders like a wrestler (like a T shape) and body slammed him.  He looked a little out of it at first, but then he stopped moving and breathing.  He slumped his head over and I knew he was dead.  I was thinking "oh gosh I knew this was going to happen".  I tried to play it off and hoped he was just unconscious.  I stood back in line with my sister and then I heard a girl said "OMG he's dead!"  By that time I knew they were going to trace his death back to me so I decided that now would be a good time to wake up so I wouldn't have to deal with that.

I've had a lot of awful dreams lately. My opinion is that the neighbors need to stop dealing/buying drugs and having loud arguments over quantity fairness. It makes me twitchier than I already am.

My latest super-real-seeming dream was that I was with a traveling organization, like a circus or a fair, and I got pregnant with twins. I tried to keep it a secret so I wouldn't get fired, and I tried to self-induce an abortion by smoking cigarettes and crying (dream logic). Nobody seemed to notice, but my belly got large and the skin on my belly cracked the way georgia red clay does between rains, and the cracks got infected and inflamed.

I miss georgia. Those babies never happened, and I never liked that red clay, and I have no desire to join a circus, but the whole thing seemed sad and nostalgic anyhow.

I had this weird dream where my cousin and I were hanging out in the parking lot of this strip mall that is near my home. Why we were there..I have no idea. We were standing around and talking when someone runs up to us and are like "Napalm Death are playing at the bar!" We walk over to this little dive bar that is there and yes, Napalm are playing there. The really weird thing is that when we walked inside that place, it didn't look like the actual bar, it looked like this little theater place that is in another area of town. It was odd because I hadn't listened to them that day or anything like that. I don't know...it was weird. But the dream was so vivid, it was really trippy. Then I woke up and I thought: "what the hell was that about?"

That's one thing that seems to happen with a lot of my dreams anymore. It doesn't have this hazy, dreamlike vibe. It looks really vivid and lifelike. I don't know if that's normal or what, but it's always something I notice once I actually wake up.

I had a dream about being trans. People kept insisting that I was not a real man.

I had a weirdly sexual dream that I was in school and these girls came into my health class and offered sex to all the guys. It was pretty strange.. I actually had a penis in my dream.

Background...worked some years ago with an early 60s pre-transition trans woman - J -who wasn't out. I had no idea she was trans* and she didn't transition some years after leaving, haven't met in her in person since her transition. Also worked with a cis woman -M - who retired back in 2000, some six years before J started, so they never worked together - but are now actually dating (about a year or so after M's husband passed away from cancer). So that wasn't the dream it's reality. :)

Dream...met J and M and M's deceased hubby - "X". I'm pleased to finally meet J but surprised by how cis female she looks and sounds. She's trying to tell me that she used to work with me...and for some reason I'm trying to avoid her telling me she worked with me "as a man" and/or her male name. I'm like, oh yes I know, very nice to meet you. I didn't know her well at work and don't have anything much to talk about - I'm not presenting as female in this dream and don't want to out myself in front of X who is running interference and saying sarcastic things about J and M in my ear. I'm also feeling jealous of J, she had a beard when I knew her and there's no trace of it in the dream, I'm also jealous of her "short petite" figure, and mutter about it to myself as I wander away...!

I dreamed I was on a train and met a nice and pretty young lady.  We started to talk and I could tell she was very interested in me.  She was subtly flirting with me and suggested that we meet again, and be "again" she meant that same day.  We had originally wanted to go to the movis right then, but I suggested to wait until tonight and she agreed.  While we were riding, I asked her if she knew anything about Ftms and I tried to explain to her about ->-bleeped-<- (to which she was being really receptive) until some guy came up to her and said "you think that's a d*mn man?  He kept bugging us and her and I were very irritated at him.  I'm thinking he was an ex (that was portrayed by Omar Epps).  Regardless, she was still very interested in me and wanted to know more about me being transgender as well as a southern Christian because she was northern.  I couldn't tell if she was a Christian or not as she didn't say at first. The girl and I decided to hang out more and got off at the same spot and I would just walk the rest of the way home willingly.  Well we saw the guy got off at our stop and was following us from a distance, just looking at me.  I was super irritated by then and wanted to tell him off, but I decided to just keep my ool in front of the girl.  Well while we were walking towards her apartment, this guy decided to "challenge" me to a race to her door, which I thought was extremely childish, so I just let him win, and when he got there, the girl said congraduations to me and hugged me. I could tell that the guy was irritated because she didn't really want anything to do with him and was more interested in me.  Then I woke up.

It was a really nice dream until that guy showed up.  It felt good to have a companion to talk to.

I dreamed of a world where people could transform into dragons and absorb the power of those they defeat, one of the good guys (dragon form the size of one double decker bus) went into some lair defeat one of the baddest dragon people there is (dragon form the size of 2 double decker busses), upon thinking he won he began to become corrupted by power, but before he could do anything all of a sudden the guy that was supposedly dead burst out of the ground the size of canary wharf and proceeded to rampage the city.

From there the dream cut to me with a few friends, the military was fighting it on the streets with grenades and rifles and tanks, we were dodging it all to get to some huge abandoned building.

From there I had a montage of sorts where we fought for survival in the shadows in that building while society fell into total collapse and Apocalypse.

Then I woke up..

Do bubbles dream?

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I dreamt I had a friend who lived with me and my kid. He was kind of like my partner except we weren't romantically involved. Does that make sense? Our house was cluttered because we were packing up to move again which we did frequently. Even though I don't think I looked much different from a human, people could tell I was different (which is a departure from my usual dreams because usually just I and the odd person could tell) and they tended to be hostile. My friend was pretty new to the supernatural stuff and, although he was more ok with it than others, he was still having a hard time dealing with it. There were times when the barrier between worlds got thin in places, he was starting to be able to tell when that was happening (which I'd confirm), and it gave him the heebie jeebies. Not to mention all the hostility we got because of me. Finally, he couldn't take it any more and told me that he would help us move, but then he was out. I was ok with this because I knew how hard it was on him.
Then, while we were still packing, someone left a little girl on our front steps. We couldn't figure out why at first because she was covered in dirt and wrapped in a blanket, but when we gave her a bath, we saw that she had hooves instead of human feet. Then it made sense. My friend and I suddenly realized that, even though it was difficult for us, just being there created a refuge for people like her where they could be safe and cared for. We both realized that this was what we wanted to do and it made it all worth it.

I was magician David Nixon's assistant on his TV show and was watching the show with my parents and sister

I actually had a nice straightforward sex dream recently, with the small complication that the guy didn't think my body was strange, and I was concerned about that. Almost like I felt he should. Strange guilt, feel like I should apologize for not having a proper flesh penis.

What made me want to comment is that I've been acting out my dreams again lately. I dreamed the other day that I was fighting a shadow monster. I got up and turned on the lights, and it exploded into sparkles, and I hollered, and I ran to my bed and scooped up my cat on the way so I could get him to safety. Then I slowly came to wakefulness and the realization that it was the middle of the night and I had turned on all the lights downstairs, yelled my head off, and dived into bed holding my cat like he was a sports ball.

(yes I know "sports ball" doesn't really mean anything)
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I dreamt last night the same thing I'll dream tonight and every other night.

I have a recurring dream my ex is my wife again and she's leaving AGAIN. And it's my job to fix our house up and get it ready to sell. It's misery because I'm broken and depressed the whole time. I didn't realize I was going to have to relive this every night forever.  :(

Quote from: Nikko on March 15, 2014, 01:53:28 AM
I dreamt last night the same thing I'll dream tonight and every other night.

I have a recurring dream my ex is my wife again and she's leaving AGAIN. And it's my job to fix our house up and get it ready to sell. It's misery because I'm broken and depressed the whole time. I didn't realize I was going to have to relive this every night forever.  :(

No doubt there is a lot of guilt feelings surfacing that are suppressed during your normal waking life. I've had those recurring dreams over other causes too, it seems kind of like "Groundhog Day," but eventually it will pass.

I dream a lot that my life & body are just normal, sleeping with a man & feeling him on top of me & inside me so nicely. He feels so good.

Then I wake up & say, yuck, yuck, yuck.

I had a dream I was a werewolf...yeah it was a really weird dream lol

I was at a social function as Grace, then I noticed someone from work was also there - a woman who doesn't know I'm transitioning. She apparently pegged me as "a man wearing a wig" so I decided in needed to drop clues about who I really was, except she couldn't figure it out at first. When she finally did she stuck her head inside her blouse and refused to believe it was true...! What the...?!

Tryphanophobic nightmares...

Quote from: Ms Grace on March 15, 2014, 02:43:18 PM
I was at a social function as Grace, then I noticed someone from work was also there - a woman who doesn't know I'm transitioning. She apparently pegged me as "a man wearing a wig" so I decided in needed to drop clues about who I really was, except she couldn't figure it out at first. When she finally did she stuck her head inside her blouse and refused to believe it was true...! What the...?!

What a weird reaction and strange thing to do? Next time you see her at work tell her that Shan say's she's weird!  :D ;D :laugh:

I've had a few dreams about colleagues doing weird things...probably says more about me than them though! ;D

Quote from: Ms Grace on March 15, 2014, 03:12:26 PM
I've had a few dreams about colleagues doing weird things...probably says more about me than them though! ;D

Dreams are so cool, it's just great for your mind to wander about & create all types of things. I love to have dreams.   Have fun GF.

I dreamed that my storm ->-bleeped-<- ex girlfrind gave me an apartment before randomly never speaking with me again to be with her boyfriend she had on the side. I was with my sister and I asked if she wanted to see my apartmnt because we were not far from it and she said sure so we went over there and I opened the door for two older ladies and they didn't even say thank you.  Well when I got upstairs, I heard two other ladies complain about how rude  the other two ladies were and I figured it was them.  I realized that I had forgotten my key in the apartment so I tried to use one of my sister's keys that looked similar and it worked.  Well my sister checked out the apartment and she liked it.

I had a dream a couple nights ago where I went outside to my backyard and was treated to the aurora borealis in the night sky.  That wasn't what the dream was about, just a beautiful ending to an already wonderful dream that I don't remember anything else about.

I actually had a dream last night were I was acting in self-defence against a former classmate that attacked me. I ended up killing him.

A really dark dream and it felt so real when I woke up that I actually felt horrible for what had happened.

Dreamed I was hunting for spirits and secretly guiding them out of monsters and onto some higher plane. Woke up explaining out loud what I was doing and why it was important. Felt really special for being able to reach the spirits of the dead, and then gradually realized I was a normal human and only my cat was listening to me. :laugh:

I dreamt of the end of the world... some guy was burning everything and everyone and I remember I got locked in some place with a few other people and I made them go into the water so they wouldn't get hit by the flames. That was creepy.

I dreamed that my sister brought a ReelMagic packer, but I didn't like the way it looked.  I showed her my packer and she looked surprised that it wasn't close to my skin tone.  Hers was kind of dark for her but mine is white, which it actually is.

In the next dream, Dexter from Dexter's Lab was playing Yugioh.  He had a girlfriend but she got tired of watching him play Yugioh so much that she left him.

In the first part of th dream, my mom my sister, a guy from here, and myself were at my house at night and thr wr dozens of police cars driving by with a helicopter passing over.  They were looking for someone and I heard gun shots that were VERY close by so I told everyone to turn the lights off.  The guy from here was ust sleeping through it though.  W still turned the lights off though.  My mother had went into the living room to see what was going on outside and minutes later, I heard voices just outside the door so I got scared.  I went to take a peak and it was my mom outside talking to one of the female neighbors.

In the next dream, there was a transguy in my living room (represented as a guy from here) from where I was who had had T.  He had switched doses and for some reason, he threw out a full shot.  I was tempted to use it, even playing around with it, until I got poked.  I gave the shot to him and was hoping he would inject me with it, but he didn't.  I asked him where was he able to find an endocrinologist in order to start T and he got quiet.  He wouldn't tell me.  The scenery changed as he was now behind some type of waterfall sitting on a rock.  In order to talk to him, I had to go through the waterfall.  I didn't want to get wet but I HAD to know where he found an endocrinolist in my area so I stuck my head through the waterfall to ask, but the pain of the chilling water was so intense, I couldn't stay for long.  I tried to ask him again, but he gave me no answer and kind of disappeared.  That was gut-wrenching for me.

I actually dreamt that I was a young woman. I don't know why and I can't remember much more of it. It felt strange and yet it felt so good. Almost like there was a deeper meaning within my dream.

A man was trying to kill me and my partner. I cut the man's throat, stomach and stabbed him multiple times to protect us, but the guy was still able to stand and attack us. Scary...

I dreamed that I was in a building....perhaps something religious going on, and there was a couple that were engaged being all lovey dovey.  I think the guy had proposed.  I started to feel sad and lonely so to distract myself, I drank 4 sodas there wr eni a guy's bag next to m, two of thos sodas being Sprite.  The distraction didn't work for long so I walked up to a pretty girl and she stood up and I wrapped my arms around her somewhat tightly.  She returned th hug and she was in my chest and I as craddling her head and whn w wre doing that, the ending song for the final Sailor Moon episode (episode 200) was playing in the background.  Come to think of it, it was like when angel Usagi went into Mamoru's arms.  It felt similar to that.  When we finally let go of each other, there was a ring on our pinkis and I walked back to my seat.  My sister was the speaking and she did not look too happy with us....

In the next dream, I spoke to a guy here on the phone.  Then I dreamed about finding a penny and a dime.

I dreamed that I was at the backstage of a concert set with church members and a lady had a big bag of props, necklaces, and other stuff.  No one seemed to want the stuff after they got what they needed for the concert and she was going to throw the rest away so I lookd in thre and found binkys and bibs and that's when a mother took a couple of them out of my hands for herself, but I saved a pack of binky's for my sister and she went to the back and got them.  When I was happily about to open the bag to find the rest of the stuff, my father called and woke me up from the dream.  -_-

On a mission to deliver cheese to the French resistance.

My dream sucked... Last night I dreamt that I somehow got "infected", if that's the right word, with these cockroach like bugs that where living under my skin..They were huge and they had spikes on their backs. A doctor discovered one and told me what I had. Worse part was that there was no magic pill antibiotic that I could take to kill em all, the only way to get rid of em was to wait until they started moving underneath my skin ( I would know this because their spikes would hurt like hell) and then apply this topical cream over that area. Woke me up at a nice 5:30 am stupid dreams...

I had a dream where a hamburger was eating ME!! :o

Quote from: Laura Squirrel on March 28, 2014, 11:07:23 PM
I had a dream where a hamburger was eating ME!! :o

That's fair turnaround though!  :D

I dreamed I was washing my hair and the soap wouldn't wash out! The more water, the more lather, ARGH! Please interpret this one, it is driving me nuts.  ;D

Quote from: Jessica Merriman on March 29, 2014, 11:06:38 AM
I dreamed I was washing my hair and the soap wouldn't wash out! The more water, the more lather, ARGH! Please interpret this one, it is driving me nuts.  ;D

Never leave me unattended around your bubble bath and shampoo or I could make your dreams come true baby  ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D

N i bet u only had this as u were laughin at me wen i said i washed my hair with bubble bath n the bubbles wudnt go away x

I dreamed me, Cindy, Sephirah, Grace and a few others were solving a mystery Scooby Doo style. I think I need to check the vacation policy for Mods, might need a little breaky poo. ;)