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I had a few dreams last night (both the same) that really bothered me. Needless to say I didn't get much sleep afterwards...

My dream started out great. I was actually able to and went in for SRS. For some reason though, the surgery failed and the doctors told me there was no hope for me ever completing transition. I woke up crying.

Has anyone else had terrible trans related nightmares?

I haven't had any while I've slept... mine tend to drift in the realm of daydreams... and usually involve my soon to be ex wife finding out about me and taking me to the cleaners in the divorce (in an effort to 'save' me from myself) leaving me in such a severe state of depression I'm never able to recover.

My dreams weren't as terrible as your but I would get constant dreams about coming out to my sister.  A few weeks ago I had a dream that I was going to get top surgery.  Only then the doctor toldm e it was lasik eye surgery.  I wanted the surgery but I didn't want that for a few years but the doctor put cold cream in my eye and started cutting into it.  I tried to stay calm but I could literally feel the pain outside of the dream so I forced myself to wake up.

They say "dreams are a window to the soul."

Sometimes I dream I am fully female.  Sometimes I dream I am fully male.  Sometimes I am neither.  Sometimes I am both.
My soul is as confused as I am.

I've had a couple nightmares about top surgery. In the dream I'd be all wrapped up in bandages, but they'd slip down and I'd still have saggy, bouncy tissue left over. When I woke up I had to feel around to check whether it was real. :P

Quote from: Julian on March 20, 2012, 09:45:48 PM
I've had a couple nightmares about top surgery. In the dream I'd be all wrapped up in bandages, but they'd slip down and I'd still have saggy, bouncy tissue left over. When I woke up I had to feel around to check whether it was real. :P

You'll do fine.

I knew a gal once whose boobs sagged so badly, she had to wear knee pads to protect them.  You will never have that problem. ;)

Strangely, no. My dreams are a sanctuary of a sort. They seem to be a way for my mind to become unshackled from anything physical. A release, I suppose, with no thought of being transgendered whatsoever. In them I'm just me, the way I see myself instinctively. At the time they seem the most normal thing in the world. Peaceful, almost. Sometimes I don't want to wake from them.

Quote from: Sephirah on March 21, 2012, 07:54:04 PM
Strangely, no. My dreams are a sanctuary of a sort. They seem to be a way for my mind to become unshackled from anything physical. A release, I suppose, with no thought of being transgendered whatsoever. In them I'm just me, the way I see myself instinctively. At the time they seem the most normal thing in the world. Peaceful, almost. Sometimes I don't want to wake from them.

I used to be like that too. Which is why now all of a sudden nightmares are strange (and scary).

no nightmares only random dreams about having a penis on occasion.
Although interestingly in most of my dreams I dont appear to be male or female.

Used to have dreams about being outed and publicly humiliated/discriminated, and by people close to me too. These dreams have greatly lessened though, it's been at least a month since I've had one.

Quote from: lunatic on March 21, 2012, 09:05:39 PM
Used to have dreams about being outed and publicly humiliated/discriminated, and by people close to me too. These dreams have greatly lessened though, it's been at least a month since I've had one.

I've never had any dreams related to being outing. Everyone in my dreams just knows me. It's like I've always been female.

 Yeah, last summer I had a bad nightmare it was one of those dreams where you're in your room an you swear you never went to sleep because you go into it so fast and a full female looking doppelganger of myself entered the room an started strangling me and I woke up in a state of sleep paralysis.

I believe the anima wasn't too happy being caged.  ;)

This is all really new to me.  (Though I had signs of being transgender as early as six-years-old, I recently understood the implication of all those behavioral traits from that age back in January and just decided to accept it.)  But I had two MTF dreams this week.  One creeped me out, and the other was more of an anxiety/inferiority dream.

WARNING, THE FIRST ONE IS VERY SEXUALLY EXPLICIT WITH SOME OBVIOUS HIDDEN MESSAGE OF IDENTITY

1.  Two nights ago, I had an utterly bizarre dream.  I had a dream of being in a room that had weak curtains and that one could see through if one were to look hard enough.  So I take off my pants and hoped no one would see me in my panties.  As I'm lying down, someone from the math department runs in there and gets on my side.  Being a little stoic, I'm asking what the hell he's doing.  Suddenly, he starts having sex with me anally, and I'm shocked by it not hurting.  The next second, he puts my mouth over his penis and just keeps on ejaculating, one after another after another, to my utter shock.  I mean, this was a complete raping since I wouldn't have sex with him otherwise.  But I'm not panicking like it is a rape and almost accept my role in this.  That was just a bizarre dream since I might have had only one dream that was a fraction as bad in my life.  I wasn't scared, but it was almost an acceptance of womanhood just in the sense that I in no way identified as male on any level. 

2.  Just last night, I was aware of having shaven my legs and was in my underwear again.  But I could somehow see the back of my legs with all the repulsive hair I used to have on my hamstrings, like I had totally missed a spot.  Some guy was there, and I suddenly didn't feel female any longer, like I had totally forgotten to get half of my leg when shaving.  I suppose this is a variant of those famous dreams where one goes to school after forgetting to put on their clothes.

It is strange that all these dreams are starting to come in such a rush.  Though I have been very much emotionally stable for so long, I'm doing a little more each time I go out.  I don't try to pass myself off as female in that I'll wear clothes that are not distinctly female unless it is a button-up shirt or pants.  No lipstick yet (and probably never), though I do wear makeup (tattoo concealer with foundation).  No one seems to notice that.  So I'm moderate enough to hopefully keep as many mental defectives away as possible even if I might have a few incidents per week (namely those creeps who stare).  But it is all remarkable given that I was once too scared to even braid my hair back in January or wear any bright color that was not neon blue.

I've never really had any nightmares, but I did have some dreams. I had a dream where I was caught dressing by my dad. I haven't CDed in months before I had the dream. I was wearing a teal leotard with white tights, kinda like a dancer. (If I was a lady, I'd never wear that. Just sayin')

He looked at me and asked me to put some pants on, we have to leave. We were walking somewhere, to a party I think, and I was wearing guy clothes underneath the dance wear. I felt that I couldn't walk like a guy because the clothes just made me feel so in touch with my feminine side that I began to walk a bit like both a guy and a girl.

I begged my dad to keep it a secret, namely from my mother. Then my dad told me in a soft voice, "You're lucky it was me who caught you. If it was anyone else, you'd be screwed. Just don't do it again." That sounds like something he'd do in real life. But with regards to this topic, there's no telling what he would do.