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Title: Ludidrous
Post by: RosieD on June 28, 2012, 05:07:20 PM
So aside from the fact that this is a support site I can't  imagine  WHY I'm posting this aside from vacant curiosity. Does anyone else fluctuate between dispare, hope and the feeling  that you're  truly,  utterly, ridiculous?

Title: Re: Ludidrous
Post by: Devlyn on June 28, 2012, 05:40:27 PM
You just described what a lot of people here have experienced. There are a lot of conflicting thoughts going through almost everyones mind, it takes time to sort out exactly who we are. Once you get there, the uncertainty goes away. Hugs, Devlyn
Title: Re: Ludidrous
Post by: BillieTex on June 28, 2012, 09:04:55 PM
I felt that way before I accepted who i am and got on hormones - now I feel normal if there is such a thing
Title: Re: Ludidrous
Post by: Kelly J. P. on June 28, 2012, 10:35:28 PM
 I used to feel that way. I don't get the feelings of despair much any more, if at all, but even now I still feel ridiculous at times, because I know that, while I may be a woman, my body will always be an altered male one, and there will always be malice for me because of that - at least, there would be if I were out about being trans (and/or visibly trans). What I'm doing is unnatural.

Unfortunately, it is also the only thing I can do to be happy, lead a normal life, and be a human being. I accept the consequences as I always have, as they are quite minor in comparison to the gains made by transitioning.

Transition is my salvation. I would be a fool to undo it for anything.
Title: Re: Ludidrous
Post by: jainie marlena on June 28, 2012, 11:02:18 PM
Quote from: branwen on June 28, 2012, 05:07:20 PM
So aside from the fact that this is a support site I can't  imagine  WHY I'm posting this aside from vacant curiosity. Does anyone else fluctuate between dispare, hope and the feeling  that you're  truly,  utterly, ridiculous?
yes, to all. the utterly ridiculous comes when I have a bad day and someone is cought off guard and sees me and laughs. But I get over it and move on. Despair happened a lot in the past but not anymore and hope just turned it to actions.
Title: Re: Ludidrous
Post by: crazy old bat on June 28, 2012, 11:06:29 PM
Yep, quite often. Sometimes multiple times a day. If you could hear the things I say to myself out loud when people aren't around....

sigh


Title: Re: Ludidrous
Post by: jainie marlena on June 28, 2012, 11:24:18 PM
Quote from: Jaime on June 28, 2012, 11:06:29 PM
Yep, quite often. Sometimes multiple times a day. If you could hear the things I say to myself out loud when people aren't around....

sigh
okay, I'm thinking in the present. despair does come and go just depends on what about. I know I want SRS but this is my place of despair. I focus on what I can do now to keep going and seek away for what I can't.
Title: Re: Ludidrous
Post by: Carolina1983 on June 29, 2012, 12:13:00 AM
Quote from: branwen on June 28, 2012, 05:07:20 PM
Does anyone else fluctuate between dispare, hope and the feeling  that you're  truly,  utterly, ridiculous?


Yep I do.
Title: Re: Ludidrous
Post by: Siobhan on June 29, 2012, 01:03:12 AM
Yep all the time
Title: Re: Ludidrous
Post by: Naturally Blonde on June 29, 2012, 08:17:12 AM
Quote from: branwen on June 28, 2012, 05:07:20 PM
So aside from the fact that this is a support site I can't  imagine  WHY I'm posting this aside from vacant curiosity. Does anyone else fluctuate between dispare, hope and the feeling  that you're  truly,  utterly, ridiculous?

After more than 12 years on HRT I do get a lot of dispare that HRT hasn't worked it's magic very well and I'm still bigger on my upper body than my lower body. Before I started HRT it was more equal and my body proportions were much better. Now I have a pot belly, breaking nails, hard facial skin, a thin face and various other problems. I exercise, I have a good healthy diet, I don't drink, I've never don't smoked but it doesn't help matters.
Title: Re: Ludidrous
Post by: Dale on June 29, 2012, 09:31:41 AM
Hormones took care of alot of that
Title: Re: Ludidrous
Post by: RosieD on June 29, 2012, 06:47:10 PM
Thanks for the replies, they helped me muddle through a bit of a blue.

Devlyn, I'm afraid I can't reply to your message. Not out of coyness but simply because the site won't let me.

Rosie
Title: Re: Ludidrous
Post by: Devlyn on June 29, 2012, 07:06:05 PM
You can when you reach fifteeen posts! Go hit the the "What are you watching/reading/listening to" threads if you need topics. Hugs, Devlyn