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sorry just feeling lonely in a bad way, gonna go to bed and have a good cry i think, ya know i stay active trying to help others, so why has He cursed me to be alone like this? sorry just a bad night ahead  :'(

sorry i didn't mean to sound pathetic - i just hate holidays where people can be themselves and have fun...

tomorrow will be better i guess, I pray others enjoy the day

Billie Tex

I know what you mean, Billie.  I am not particularly happy around holidays ether.  This year the park I live in is having a 4th of July BBQ.  I am going to take my bacon mac and cheese and try to enjoy myself.

I'm just working, I have customers wanting their projects done and others waiting in line, I don't really mind though, it's peaceful quiet here at my place and the traffic headed up the hill to Lake Tahoe looks brutal....best to stay put :)

No one is ever alone here if they have an internet connection.

Quote from: Jaime on July 03, 2012, 10:30:05 PM
... I work the rest of the day at the store so all those people won't go without ice cream, cigs, beer, candy, snacks, ice, gas and a charmingly annoying store clerk...

lol

Ice Cream
Beer
Candy
Snacks

Add "Soft Drinks" and you have the five basic food groups.

Quote from: Jamie D on July 03, 2012, 10:36:53 PM
No one is ever alone here if they have an internet connection.

Very true!

I will be checking in all day as I work, if anyone feels lonely just say HI! An we can talk :)

 I'll be doing nothing today. No celebrations; for the most part, holidays don't mean all that much to me. I'll just be on my computer, in all likelihood, and if I hear fireworks... then that would be nice.

But that's all. :)

One of the great benefits from my TG group is the open family atmosphere.  You really have to go out of your way to be alone for any holiday. Especially the biggies like Thanksgiving or Christmas, even New Years. One of the harsh realities of being trans is loosing family and friends. Many in our group look at us all as one extended family

I 'get' to spend the whole day working so I get to spend the day making sure others have a wonderful night. Which means I'm going to be enjoying the 4th vicariously through everyone else

Hey Billie, we might be alone at our houses, but we're ll together here! Have a happy holiday, hugs, Devlyn

Thank you all, long bad night. It will pass.
It's good to know you are out there, it does help.

Funny you mentioned it, everyone tells me I'm out there! Hugs, Devlyn

Air conditioner, dirty house, day off. Simple to figure out what I'm doing.

Home alone in Michigan, but must do yard work and clean weeds out of the cracks in the sidewalk.

Big stuff going on in this small town (500 people).  Parade at 3:00pm, a bunch of games and races for kids, and fireworks at night.  Bar-b-q contest, tours of the new brewery and winery (with samples).  Great family stuff, but since I'm a loner anyway, this living up on a hill with a front porch has advantages for watching the fireworks.

On Saturday Tahoe traffic was also bad.   The traffic was o.k., but I stopped to collect a birthday gift at Redhawk, and after wasting time loosing money, drivers from the bay area caught up to me.

Happy 4th.    Kathy

Hey Billie Tex, come play pool with me!  I'm cleaning the table and polishing my pool balls right now.  It'll be ready to go by the time you get here.  I'll be painting my fingers and toes later.... but pool always comes first!

Miharu

I'm being stuffed with croissants and hot chocolate  :-\

Well, for me, I just finished my modest July 4th meal and I am headed to the ballpark where I work for some baseball and fireworks.

I may be on my own for this holiday, but seeing all those other people having fun makes me smile.

I can't remember the last time I celebrated the 4th of July but I think it was about 20 years ago.  My life is one of stark loneliness.  I feel it even more being unemployed. 

Quote from: Miharu Barbie on July 04, 2012, 12:59:04 PM
Hey Billie Tex, come play pool with me!  I'm cleaning the table and polishing my pool balls right now.  It'll be ready to go by the time you get here.  I'll be painting my fingers and toes later.... but pool always comes first!

Miharu

Sounds like fun, but it would be a hell of a drive.

just finished up my weekly electrolysis session..................fun fun! hope you all had a great holiday

Err but why do you have to be alone? Even without an so, you have family, and even friends to hang out with.

I mean, honestly I don't think it's possible to be a modern human and have zero friends ???

I had dinner with my kids; their mother couldn't make it though (she was working).

And, I spent a good portion of the afternoon with my daughter, too.

Well, any day that I don't have to show up at the office and sit at my desk for 8 hours staring out the window is a good day.

My partner worked this morning, so I enjoyed a peaceful morning alone.  I blasted punk rock music all over the house all day.  I cleaned my pool table (it's real purdy!) and polished the pool balls.  I gave myself a manicure and pedicure (my nails look awesome, all hot pink and shiny, same color as my pool cue.)  My spouse came home and made me an amazing dinner... and now we're off to spend the rest of the evening at the pool table preparing ourselves for tomorrow night's pool match (we're playing against some really, REALLY good players!)  All in all a delightful day.  I'm half tempted to call my boss and ask him if I can take one more day off.... thank you sir, may I have another!

May we all have a peaceful night tonight and get a good night's rest.  Tomorrow is a brand new day.

Hugs!
Miharu

Quote from: Adam1 on July 04, 2012, 09:13:22 PM
Err but why do you have to be alone? Even without an so, you have family, and even friends to hang out with.

I mean, honestly I don't think it's possible to be a modern human and have zero friends ???

I'm a modern human and I have zero real-life friends. This doesn't include Internet friends (I have one of these) and family.

Quote from: Adam1 on July 04, 2012, 09:13:22 PM
Err but why do you have to be alone? Even without an so, you have family, and even friends to hang out with.

I mean, honestly I don't think it's possible to be a modern human and have zero friends ???

I like to think I'm a modern human, but I also have used to have zero friends...for close to 20 years.

Thanks to therapy, I now know why...so now I have 3 friends, once I moved out of my ex's apartment. As a woman, people seem to flock to me more than as a guy...(of course, "anything" is more than "nothing.")

Internet friends are ok (better than nothing) but nothing replaces a good face-to-face meeting and sharing of the minds. Well, maybe a puppy, but that's another topic.

imho

I'm alone, nothing new about that

The holidays are always great reminders of how alone I am  :P

I've been kinda thinking about volunteering somewhere...food banks, etc. Anything to get out of the house, change up my social circle (ok, it's not a circle...it's the definition of a "point.")

Meet new people, feed them, send them on their way...I don't know, it's just a thought I've been thunking for a little bit.

My Facebook status from earlier:

"I spent the day being very independent. I stayed home and cooked for myself. I did my yoga. I even relieved some sexual tension without help from anyone. I'm very proud of myself."

It is entirely possible to be surrounded by people, and still be alone.

It has been that way for me for about 40 years.  That is why I treasure this community.

I can hear the fireworks going off in the distance.  But I would rather be here than watching among strangers.

Spent the evening at my sisters with her and her husband, my brother and his wife, all 3 of my nieces, one fiance, and a young male niece-friend from Texas. Had a great time eating, conversing, hugging, drinking, and playing bocce (lawn bowling), then visiting my niece's house and playing with a kitten. First time since full time with all of these folks except my sister, and it was best time I've ever had with them.  ;D I used to always be on edge in male mode. 

Real blessing that my sister raised her kids around a MTF friend and a FTM friend, and that one of her daughters is close friends with an androgyne, and that one of my nephews is happy and Gay. They all "get it" without any effort on my part.  :angel:

One of my other nieces gave me a hug and said "I was so happy for you when I heard about your transition. It just makes sense. This feels so right - you are finally who you always should have been."

4th of July came and went, no special day outside the US.

No different to Mother's and Father's Day really, just not in a teary mood this time, as being busy all day with emails.

Am organising flights to PIH for FFS and STILL busy with it the day after July 4th.

Also all on my own, and alone.

Life...

Axélle

Leaked plans to the UK so they can recapture the USA >:-)

Quote from: Cindy James on July 05, 2012, 03:14:25 AM
Leaked plans to the UK so they can recapture the USA >:-)

They tried that already.  1812-1814.  Didn't work.

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But now they have upgraded

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Tricky those poms

Being safely on the other side of the Pacific I will suggest that it was a really bad idea, that has cursed you all with a weird mutation of cricket, driving on the wrong side of the road, and bad beer! ;D

Seriously though, have a great day all of you.

Karen.

I worked, it was busy, 284 people on my shift. Someone did bring me a plate from a local church cookout and then some homemade ice cream later on.

For those who spent the Fourth alone...

You were alone only in the physical sense because I thought of each of you over the holiday. I was there with you in spirit. I felt sorta of emotionally alone, but only for a little while because I was lucky enough to run into some nice company in the presence of others in the neighborhood, some of whom I had the privilege to connect with. It was good to have some fun with neighbors whom I never get to see.

Quote from: justmeinoz on July 05, 2012, 06:39:51 AM
Being safely on the other side of the Pacific I will suggest that it was a really bad idea, that has cursed you all with a weird mutation of cricket, driving on the wrong side of the road, and bad beer! ;D

Seriously though, have a great day all of you.

Karen.

"Rounders" my dear.  Not cricket.

Quote from: Jaime on July 05, 2012, 08:55:14 AM
I worked, it was busy, 284 people on my shift. Someone did bring me a plate from a local church cookout and then some homemade ice cream later on.

Lucky you!

Strawberry?

Quote from: Jamie D on July 05, 2012, 02:23:24 PM
Lucky you!

Strawberry?

Its a sherbet and I had to put in the big freezer, but I remembered to bring it home and I haven't had it yet. I will after I cool off and take a long shower since I just mowed and weedeated the yard.  Its hot!  Like a gazillion degrees heat index today. Even wind blowing off the water is hot.

And really working holidays isn't so bad, heck I volunteered to work two four hour shifts last Christmas while we were on a reduced holiday schedule.

Quote from: Beth Andrea on July 04, 2012, 11:01:56 PM
I've been kinda thinking about volunteering somewhere...food banks, etc.

You will never regret it once you do it for a while  :D