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Title: Hello everyone
Post by: sarah c on September 02, 2012, 06:36:53 PM
Post by: sarah c on September 02, 2012, 06:36:53 PM
I have been reading posts on here for over a year - not really sure why I have joined....
I have a wife and one 16 year old child, a beautiful daughter. That makes me late 30's and scared, very scared.
I have known from early childhood that something wasn't 'right' - but I didn't know what. I was called gay by many at school - but i wasn't - what a confuser!
So, fast forward to now - having worked with a MTF, a number of gay guys and lesbians, lived a little, got fired on purpose - twice, let my teeth go bad, suffered depression for a while, picked myself up, and finally able to accept I am who I am.
No one knows - or so I like to think. I have always had my nails long - say 1/4 to 3/8ths past the end of my fingers - I does sometimes raise direct questions. I always answer the truth, I like them long and use them to do things and protect the ends of my fingers.
My wife tells me I talk like a woman.
When I had been with her one year she (oddly?) asked me to put on a dress of hers so she could see what it looked like. I said 'this is silly' and when I did put it on she burst into tears. That ended with her telling me she didn't want me to be a woman. That was just weird............
I run like a woman - many have had a laugh at that.
Oh, and I have boobs - well, kind of - something like an A - and I have 'something' around the nipples - can feel them under the skin.
To top it off - I am an ape man. Hair, hair and more hair. Legs and chest sometimes get shaved.... so.....
I have been dressing for years - usual buy/throw cycles. Up until 3 months ago I had never even been outside.
Things are changing now, I have found it to be true - generally people really don't care - thats good.
I am going for laser on my face/neck this week.
And I'm still not out to anyone - except you!
Sarah - who wishes she had been born either a man or a woman. Either would have been just fine thanks.
I have a wife and one 16 year old child, a beautiful daughter. That makes me late 30's and scared, very scared.
I have known from early childhood that something wasn't 'right' - but I didn't know what. I was called gay by many at school - but i wasn't - what a confuser!
So, fast forward to now - having worked with a MTF, a number of gay guys and lesbians, lived a little, got fired on purpose - twice, let my teeth go bad, suffered depression for a while, picked myself up, and finally able to accept I am who I am.
No one knows - or so I like to think. I have always had my nails long - say 1/4 to 3/8ths past the end of my fingers - I does sometimes raise direct questions. I always answer the truth, I like them long and use them to do things and protect the ends of my fingers.
My wife tells me I talk like a woman.
When I had been with her one year she (oddly?) asked me to put on a dress of hers so she could see what it looked like. I said 'this is silly' and when I did put it on she burst into tears. That ended with her telling me she didn't want me to be a woman. That was just weird............
I run like a woman - many have had a laugh at that.
Oh, and I have boobs - well, kind of - something like an A - and I have 'something' around the nipples - can feel them under the skin.
To top it off - I am an ape man. Hair, hair and more hair. Legs and chest sometimes get shaved.... so.....
I have been dressing for years - usual buy/throw cycles. Up until 3 months ago I had never even been outside.
Things are changing now, I have found it to be true - generally people really don't care - thats good.
I am going for laser on my face/neck this week.
And I'm still not out to anyone - except you!
Sarah - who wishes she had been born either a man or a woman. Either would have been just fine thanks.
Title: Re: Hello everyone
Post by: V M on September 02, 2012, 06:44:06 PM
Post by: V M on September 02, 2012, 06:44:06 PM
Hi Sarah :icon_wave:
Welcome to Susan's :) Glad to have you here, this a great place to find friends and information while on your journey of self discovery
Please be sure to review
Hugs
V M
Welcome to Susan's :) Glad to have you here, this a great place to find friends and information while on your journey of self discovery
Please be sure to review
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Hugs
V M
Title: Re: Hello everyone
Post by: Devlyn on September 02, 2012, 06:58:30 PM
Post by: Devlyn on September 02, 2012, 06:58:30 PM
Hi Sarah, it's nice to meet you! I'm up near Boston. Get busy posting so we can get to know you better. Se you around, hugs, Devlyn
Title: Re: Hello everyone
Post by: Noah on September 02, 2012, 08:32:37 PM
Post by: Noah on September 02, 2012, 08:32:37 PM
welcome!!
Title: Re: Hello everyone
Post by: Ms. OBrien CVT on September 02, 2012, 10:30:58 PM
Post by: Ms. OBrien CVT on September 02, 2012, 10:30:58 PM
Hi Sarah, :icon_wave:
Welcome to our little family. Over 8087 strong. That would be one heck of a family reunion.
Feel free to post your successes/failures, Hopes/dreams. Ask questions and seek answers. Give and receive advice.
But remember we are family here, your family now. And it is always nice to have another sister. (https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fsmileys.on-my-web.com%2Frepository%2FAnimals%2Fferret-3.gif&hash=f49e2f86761323f2abd9c33941920389dbb3b10f)
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fsmileys.on-my-web.com%2Frepository%2FAnimals%2Fferret-5.gif&hash=cfc7a68438be4575d8493dfbe65d1b3586f10b81)
Janet (https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fupload.wikimedia.org%2Fwikipedia%2Fcommons%2F3%2F32%2FPentacle_1.svg&hash=99e763d33bc5c4d79014cb34bf6acb3dfec8befb)
Welcome to our little family. Over 8087 strong. That would be one heck of a family reunion.
Feel free to post your successes/failures, Hopes/dreams. Ask questions and seek answers. Give and receive advice.
But remember we are family here, your family now. And it is always nice to have another sister. (https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fsmileys.on-my-web.com%2Frepository%2FAnimals%2Fferret-3.gif&hash=f49e2f86761323f2abd9c33941920389dbb3b10f)
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fsmileys.on-my-web.com%2Frepository%2FAnimals%2Fferret-5.gif&hash=cfc7a68438be4575d8493dfbe65d1b3586f10b81)
Janet (https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fupload.wikimedia.org%2Fwikipedia%2Fcommons%2F3%2F32%2FPentacle_1.svg&hash=99e763d33bc5c4d79014cb34bf6acb3dfec8befb)
Title: Re: Hello everyone
Post by: justmeinoz on September 03, 2012, 05:10:45 AM
Post by: justmeinoz on September 03, 2012, 05:10:45 AM
Hi Sarah.
Finding who you are is interesting, and as you say quite scarey. You have a big family here so someone will always be on, somewhere in the world pretty much all the time if you need to discuss anything. Post away if you need to rant too, we don't mind in the least as we have all been there.
Karen.
Finding who you are is interesting, and as you say quite scarey. You have a big family here so someone will always be on, somewhere in the world pretty much all the time if you need to discuss anything. Post away if you need to rant too, we don't mind in the least as we have all been there.
Karen.
Title: Re: Hello everyone
Post by: Maegan on September 03, 2012, 02:58:07 PM
Post by: Maegan on September 03, 2012, 02:58:07 PM
Hi Sarah!
A very warm welcome from sunny South Africa.
Keep posting andplease keep us updated.
Huggs
Maegan
A very warm welcome from sunny South Africa.
Keep posting andplease keep us updated.
Huggs
Maegan
Title: Re: Hello everyone
Post by: Catherine Sarah on September 04, 2012, 09:55:20 AM
Post by: Catherine Sarah on September 04, 2012, 09:55:20 AM
Hi Sarah,
A big Aussie welcome to Susan's family. It's good of you to drop in and say "Hi". Hope you like it here, and you stay for a while.
As you already know there is a mountain of information, resources and friendship waiting for you here, you just need to jump in and start talking.
After being here so long, you must know a lot about your condition and the issues you face. Maybe it's time to make a real big move and talk to a trained gender therapist, who can guide you through the labyrinth of issue and what really lies instore for you. The internet may be fine, but there can be a lot of inaccuracies.
Looking forward to hearing more of your story in time to come, but in the meantime, be safe, well and happy.
Lotsa huggs
Catherine
A big Aussie welcome to Susan's family. It's good of you to drop in and say "Hi". Hope you like it here, and you stay for a while.
As you already know there is a mountain of information, resources and friendship waiting for you here, you just need to jump in and start talking.
After being here so long, you must know a lot about your condition and the issues you face. Maybe it's time to make a real big move and talk to a trained gender therapist, who can guide you through the labyrinth of issue and what really lies instore for you. The internet may be fine, but there can be a lot of inaccuracies.
Looking forward to hearing more of your story in time to come, but in the meantime, be safe, well and happy.
Lotsa huggs
Catherine