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Title: Strange feelings when looking at old photos of me.
Post by: Medusa on October 17, 2012, 09:38:09 AM
Post by: Medusa on October 17, 2012, 09:38:09 AM
Hi, I want to share some of my and discuss about strange feelings it brings to me.
Yesterday I found in old laptop some photos from time when I was at high school (most from 2004 and 5 so I was 18 - shorter hair and 19 - longer hair, last picture was 17 me) I put it to gallery so you can look
http://photobucket.com/old_life_of_Andrea (http://photobucket.com/old_life_of_Andrea)
It brings me mixed feelings, I was unhappy for some reason late then but I don't know why (the book I have on one picture is about astral traveling, in which I see possibility to release my anxiety). I'm happy now how easy was to me to become me, but I'm sad I didn't do that in that age, I know I had problems just to live as invisible person and not have strength to any experimenting, but still.
If someone have/can make also album of old you, you are welcomed
Yesterday I found in old laptop some photos from time when I was at high school (most from 2004 and 5 so I was 18 - shorter hair and 19 - longer hair, last picture was 17 me) I put it to gallery so you can look
http://photobucket.com/old_life_of_Andrea (http://photobucket.com/old_life_of_Andrea)
It brings me mixed feelings, I was unhappy for some reason late then but I don't know why (the book I have on one picture is about astral traveling, in which I see possibility to release my anxiety). I'm happy now how easy was to me to become me, but I'm sad I didn't do that in that age, I know I had problems just to live as invisible person and not have strength to any experimenting, but still.
If someone have/can make also album of old you, you are welcomed
Title: Re: Strange feelings when looking at old photos of me.
Post by: Tristan on October 17, 2012, 04:38:48 PM
Post by: Tristan on October 17, 2012, 04:38:48 PM
i like its your pics
Title: Re: Strange feelings when looking at old photos of me.
Post by: Medusa on October 19, 2012, 01:50:44 AM
Post by: Medusa on October 19, 2012, 01:50:44 AM
Just add my new ID picture (for IDs with new name)
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi1085.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fj434%2FAlison_Pateru%2Fop-photo.jpg&hash=353bd242a081a91da2df62919a553b624865b9bb)
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi1085.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fj434%2FAlison_Pateru%2Fop-photo.jpg&hash=353bd242a081a91da2df62919a553b624865b9bb)
Title: Re: Strange feelings when looking at old photos of me.
Post by: Taka on October 19, 2012, 06:31:07 AM
Post by: Taka on October 19, 2012, 06:31:07 AM
i'm not sure if it's ok to say this, but.. your smile in those pics is really sweet, and makes the younger you look a lot like a girl to me. it might just be me who's weird though, i heard that many pansexuals suffer from an odd form of gender blindness.
i also tend to get a weird feeling when looking at old pics. some are good because they represent a person i liked being, other pictures are weirder because i can no longer relate to the person in them.
i also tend to get a weird feeling when looking at old pics. some are good because they represent a person i liked being, other pictures are weirder because i can no longer relate to the person in them.
Title: Re: Strange feelings when looking at old photos of me.
Post by: Medusa on October 19, 2012, 07:32:02 AM
Post by: Medusa on October 19, 2012, 07:32:02 AM
I always looked girly and have a problem to pass as boy (not just face/body, but also movement and speech, in dark I was misgendered even more often than at light) it confuses me lot back then (why they call me girl when I'm so ugly and boyish and never can be nice girl :'( )
Title: Re: Strange feelings when looking at old photos of me.
Post by: Taka on October 19, 2012, 03:29:29 PM
Post by: Taka on October 19, 2012, 03:29:29 PM
but that's not ugly.... and naughty girls can be good too
Title: Re: Strange feelings when looking at old photos of me.
Post by: PHXGiRL on October 21, 2012, 11:21:17 AM
Post by: PHXGiRL on October 21, 2012, 11:21:17 AM
I got a bit emotional a last week looking at old pictures of me. I don't know if its the pain or the estrogen or combination of the two. Its like when I look at some of the pictures I can just remember my thoughts that were going threw my head that exact minute. How I was lost inside.
Title: Re: Strange feelings when looking at old photos of me.
Post by: Tristan on October 22, 2012, 02:17:55 AM
Post by: Tristan on October 22, 2012, 02:17:55 AM
look at the goofy ones. it will make you have a good laugh and be like ahhh.... a last their was some good times.
Title: Re: Strange feelings when looking at old photos of me.
Post by: luna nyan on October 22, 2012, 07:45:27 AM
Post by: luna nyan on October 22, 2012, 07:45:27 AM
I generally don't like looking at photos of myself. Generally speaking I feel ambilvalent about myself until I see my photos and then I'm more like "aaaaaaargh!", that's not the me I really want to be.
I do however, like taking good photos of other people. =)
I do however, like taking good photos of other people. =)
Title: Re: Strange feelings when looking at old photos of me.
Post by: Seyranna on October 24, 2012, 09:58:52 PM
Post by: Seyranna on October 24, 2012, 09:58:52 PM
This is completely off-topic and you probably already know this but you need a trach shave really bad.
Forgive my bluntness.
Forgive my bluntness.