Susan's Place Transgender Resources

Hello to everyone. My name is spankey.  It is really hard to tell my story. I will give it a try. I don't wish to upset or anger anyone, but it is my story and it is honest and real. Sometimes I cry over my story and sometimes I laugh. Sometimes I think I am crazy and sometimes I feel awesome. All I know is that has been a heck of a journey.  I am 43 years old. I was introduced to a life style called BDSM.  I was a submissive slave boy, and I took to that role like a fish does to water.  I won't get into a long dialogue about that.  The bottom line was that I became a cross dresser and sissy boy and I loved it.  As time went on, My Mistress/Owner, ( I know some of you might think this strange). wanted to have me castrated. I was castrated and feminized.  Eventually my life changed when my Mistress decided she did not want me anymore.  I served others but was unfulfilled.   I was living as a male with no testicles. I had to be put on Testosterone so I would not get Osteoporosis.  After I began taking Testosterone I found that I was angry most of the time. I began to hate my genitals and wanted to go back and live as a sissy boy.  I tried to transition alone, and I almost ended up dead. I became alone, depressed, and I wanted to live no more.   A friend of mine  directed me to a Transgender Doctor and counselor.  Best thing that ever happened to me in a long time.  She put me on a very low dose of estrogen and I began therapy.  It has been two years and my journey is continuing.  I am now living as a Female and will do this for a year,  She has shown me the standard of care for these matters.  I have saved enough now so I will be able to have surgery on my genitals as well as my face and breasts.  My Doctor/Counselor is stressing over and over and over again, to go slow.  I am listening to her because of my past experiences.  I trust her and by the end of 2013 if all goes well I will be living as a Total Female.  Soon she is going to raise the levels of Estrogen so Female traits will begin to show, to everyone. :)  I am a bit afraid and anxious, but I know that I am a Female and so it must come to past.  Thank you for listening, spankey 

Hi Spankey, welcome to Susan's Place! I'm up in the Boston area. Good to hear you're moving forward! See you around the site, hugs, Devlyn

I want to thank you for writing back.  You are the first one to write me. :)  I hope that I can get to know you and others here. As I am sure you know this can be a very lonely journey, thanks so much, spankey

You can expect more company, we travel in a pack! https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,113112.0.html (https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,113112.0.html) Hugs, Devlyn

Welcome, Spankey. You have a unique story, I like it. I am glad you had a friend that could help you out. Its amazing what difference one person's knowledge can do for someone else. It is for that reason that together we can do anything we want in completion.

Good luck,
~Epoe

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Spankey,

A gut wrenching but interesting story with a twist, you are so fortunate to have survived your journey. The friend got you a second chance at life, Good that you trust your gender doctor and she has you on the road to the female you are. Your are a survivor.

The name Spankey reminds me of the group Spanky And Our Gang and singer Spanky McFarlane.

All the best.

Jamie

I want to say thank you to all those who have written  I am very happy that I am here. It is nice to know people that are kind, honest, and want to help us girls. I will try and be a support to  the the community as much as I can. My story is different and becasue of that I will share in private, any answers that I may have. I will follow the rules here to the best of my ability. I am glad I found this place and especially all of you. :) 

Dear Jamie, My older Brother was a big fan of Spankey McFarland.  I still like to listen to their music. It is a pleasure to meet you. spankey

Welcome, spankey, from southern California.

Glad you found us.

Hello Spankey and welcome. Thank you for sharing your story. I'm happy that you are moving forward toward your transition. I'm sure that you are much happier.



:)