Community Conversation => Transgender talk => Topic started by: little bird on January 10, 2013, 10:44:24 AM Return to Full Version
Title: Advice?
Post by: little bird on January 10, 2013, 10:44:24 AM
Post by: little bird on January 10, 2013, 10:44:24 AM
Hi peoples, I was looking for some advice just to put my mind at ease. ~~~
I had gender dysphoria since I was in first grade. I almost came out at 21 but that night I was going to things didn't go as planed and some crazy stuff happened and it really impacted my life. I fell into depression and guilt and suffered severely. I stopped seeing friends and felt hopeless. I finally pulled through last year by finding the spiritual side of life and all was going good. I moved into a house with friends and everything was up. I did have depression and sadness at times but I always felt grounded through it. Okay this is where I need the advice: I am now living with my mom and dad (i'm about to be 25 now) and just recently started loosing my hair :( I always had long wavy hair since high school and I am now starting to bald. I shaved my head because it was getting noticeable and I now feel like a doofus. I am starting to hallucinate / have delusions of what I look like. When I see an old man I feel like look like that old man and it is upsetting. I also feel like my hair is turning different colors (red, orange, and sometimes white.) My hair is brown / blonde. I know it sounds silly but it is happening and it is effecting my daily life :/ I have been getting really bad anxiety attacks lately too, and this has never happened to me before. My emotions right now feel blank. I feel like I am feeling nothing. Just empty blank space of emotion. Do you think my gender issues are starting to snowball into some other mental effects??? When I imagine myself as a girl I feel so much better. I feel a ray of sunshine breaking though all these mental delusions and breaking this lack of emotion that is blanketed over me. I feel hope. I talked to a gender therapist a few months ago but stopped going after three sessions. I got in touch with her and I will be seeing her again. I just want your perspectives just for some reassurance and love. Thank you all so much for reading :)
I had gender dysphoria since I was in first grade. I almost came out at 21 but that night I was going to things didn't go as planed and some crazy stuff happened and it really impacted my life. I fell into depression and guilt and suffered severely. I stopped seeing friends and felt hopeless. I finally pulled through last year by finding the spiritual side of life and all was going good. I moved into a house with friends and everything was up. I did have depression and sadness at times but I always felt grounded through it. Okay this is where I need the advice: I am now living with my mom and dad (i'm about to be 25 now) and just recently started loosing my hair :( I always had long wavy hair since high school and I am now starting to bald. I shaved my head because it was getting noticeable and I now feel like a doofus. I am starting to hallucinate / have delusions of what I look like. When I see an old man I feel like look like that old man and it is upsetting. I also feel like my hair is turning different colors (red, orange, and sometimes white.) My hair is brown / blonde. I know it sounds silly but it is happening and it is effecting my daily life :/ I have been getting really bad anxiety attacks lately too, and this has never happened to me before. My emotions right now feel blank. I feel like I am feeling nothing. Just empty blank space of emotion. Do you think my gender issues are starting to snowball into some other mental effects??? When I imagine myself as a girl I feel so much better. I feel a ray of sunshine breaking though all these mental delusions and breaking this lack of emotion that is blanketed over me. I feel hope. I talked to a gender therapist a few months ago but stopped going after three sessions. I got in touch with her and I will be seeing her again. I just want your perspectives just for some reassurance and love. Thank you all so much for reading :)
Title: Re: Advice?
Post by: little bird on January 10, 2013, 10:48:34 AM
Post by: little bird on January 10, 2013, 10:48:34 AM
OHHH and just to add my mom has been wondering what is wrong with me. She ask me why I am always so sad :((((
I don't mean to be!! it is just where my emotions always seems to settle. okayyyy thanks for reading againnnnn
I don't mean to be!! it is just where my emotions always seems to settle. okayyyy thanks for reading againnnnn
Title: Re: Advice?
Post by: spacial on January 10, 2013, 11:06:09 AM
Post by: spacial on January 10, 2013, 11:06:09 AM
Hi little bird.
I really think that whatever the causes of your depression were, they are now re-emerging.
The best advice you can get is to go back you your Dr.
I really think that whatever the causes of your depression were, they are now re-emerging.
The best advice you can get is to go back you your Dr.
Title: Re: Advice?
Post by: Brooke777 on January 10, 2013, 11:10:25 AM
Post by: Brooke777 on January 10, 2013, 11:10:25 AM
I believe your issues are compounding into some more serious psychological problems. I strongly advise you to speak with a mental health professional.
Title: Re: Advice?
Post by: little bird on January 11, 2013, 11:02:13 AM
Post by: little bird on January 11, 2013, 11:02:13 AM
Thanks for listening and responding, It makes me feel better. Yes I do believe I would certainly benefit from an experienced professional. They are usually really nice about what you are experiencing and make you feel less crazy then you actually feel you are. And Yes things probably are reemerging... Living with friends can get your mind off of things but once being on your own again your life issues sort of float back to the top. But I gots some thinkings to do on where to go next in life. I got in touch with my therapist but still no response yet, hopefully I will get in there soon so we can spark some light on these matters and she can help give me some guidance on what to do next. Thanks for your words, and I hope you have a cooolio weekend :) Thanks again!
Title: Re: Advice?
Post by: gennee on January 11, 2013, 08:23:59 PM
Post by: gennee on January 11, 2013, 08:23:59 PM
Thank you for sharing with us, little bird. I agree that a professional therapist
will be beneficial.
:)
will be beneficial.
:)
Title: Re: Advice?
Post by: little bird on January 11, 2013, 11:46:03 PM
Post by: little bird on January 11, 2013, 11:46:03 PM
Hehe your welcome! :) Thank you for thanking me :)