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last night I was up later wondering about all this trans thing. I honestly don't get why im trans,
why am I a guy? why cant I just be a girl?
I really dont have the answer and somethimes its getting me confussed and slithtly irritating that I dont even get it myself.

maybe its due to all this thinking I had a pretty wierd dream last night.

I where sitting on the computer with my dads phone doing something and someone kept complaining I did it wrong.
So I looked back and saw it where my moms friend which have been like an aunt for me since I where a kid.
I got very existed cause she died for 2 years ago of cancer. She called me by my old name and I had to explain to her that I had changed my name. as she asked why I had changed it I also had to explain to her that I had transitioned. I dont remember queit of what I said in our conversation but something the line with.
"you know I looked like a tomboy and I didnt want to be a tomboy isnt not how I feel I just wanna be a casual guy, I been taking testrostorone as well so I can make my look match up with my fellings"
She said to me I looked like a guy now, so it was pretty awsome thats she was accepting.

The next morning our door started to open and close randomly and my dad said there might be a ghost or something in the house so I told him about my dream that I had meet my moms friend cause she complained that I didnt use his iphone correct and he laugh saying its so typical her to correct everyone (she where a computer-tecnoligy nerd when she was alive)

Just feel like sharing my alittle uncommon comming out story.

I thought may be you misspell something, but now I understand.  I believe our passed over loved one can contacts on occasion.  She must have seen what is going on and wanted to know.

Great Dream.

Quote from: Ms. OBrien VT on January 20, 2013, 03:37:48 PM
I thought may be you misspell something, but now I understand.  I believe our passed over loved one can contacts on occasion.  She must have seen what is going on and wanted to know.

Great Dream.

Its abit funny, She didnt really seams very surprized in my dream.
when she died I was pretty sad that I never got to come out to her and tell her how I felt.
My mom said she got to tell her about my transition but I never know how much so has been told, maybe thats why she wasnt so surprized. I am happy I got some words myself to say.

I see dead people. They're everywhere.

--Jay
ducks and runs but I could resist

I had a slightly similar dream last night where I told one of my old teachers, who had been more of a father to me than anyone else ever has been, about when I got sexually assaulted by the person he knew to be my best friend soon after he moved away.  It was nice to see him understand and try and comfort me even if it was only through a dream.  I've not spoken to him for over two years and won't ever get the chance to unless I go chasing across the country like a stalker, but he's the one person I'd want to talk to about it.

That's an awesome dream. I suspect dreams are real, on some energy level...

Thank You.

I understand.

We are blessed

I'm not spiritual. I believe that our dreams are a way for our brains to process our emotional states - but particularly those emotions that we aren't able to work on when we're awake. In light of this, it sounds like you're tying up some emotional loose ends to do with your transition. You never had a chance to come out to this lady who was very important to you, so you have some unfinished emotional business with her that has been hanging around in the background. Your brain created that dream as a way of helping you to finish that business.

This is a wonderful, healing dream and it'll help you gain some closure. I've had many dreams like this and they always help me close the door on the more painful parts of my history.