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Title: Introducing Susan Alexandra
Post by: suzifrommd on March 04, 2013, 09:31:03 AM
Post by: suzifrommd on March 04, 2013, 09:31:03 AM
I know it's highly irregular for someone with more than a thousand posts to post an introduction. Since I missed doing this when I first joined (I was too clueless even to find the introduction forum back then), I hope it's OK.
I'm now comfortable enough with the name I've selected, that I'm ready to introduce myself to the world.
I will be Susan Alexandra.
Since Susan is kind of formal, I will be Suzi for day to day contact. I live in Maryland (abbr. Md.), so I'm changing my screen name to suzifrommd.
No, I didn't name myself after the wonderful founder of this site. I've liked the name Susan since I was a kid, it's always had kind of an energy for me. So when I set about naming myself, it was the first name that popped up and easily outshone all other comers.
I chose Alexandra because it sort of resembles my birth name, Andrew, so there's some continuity there.
For those who haven't followed my story, I first joined this site thinking I was androgyne, but now I realize that the male parts of my identity are byproducts of my living my 51 years as a man and from having a male body. I am female at the core. When I asked myself how I would feel if I was never allowed to be male again, I knew I could deal with it, but when I asked myself how I would feel if I would never be allowed to be female, I knew it would feel like a piece of me was cut off.
So I'm planning this summer to start living full time as a woman. I'm a high school teacher with my own two children attending the school where I work (though my son graduates this June), so this is going to be complicated.
Despite all that, I have to admit that I have a way to go before I feel like a woman. I still find myself often using a male pronoun for myself and am comfortable acting in male ways (though I love when I am given the freedom to act female). One of the reasons why it took 51 years to realize I am a woman is that I always imagined transgender women would "feel like women." A lot of us do, but for me, a female identity is much more complicated – fascination with female media, dress, and appearance, feeling more comfortable in the presence of females, and wanting, in the worst way, to have a female body. I hope that once I start living full time it will become easier to see myself as a woman, but if it does not, I will settle for pretending. Infinitely better than continuing to live as a man.
Thank you so much to every member of the Susan's community for all your continued support. I would not have the courage or knowledge to transition without you. I'm going to need all of you in the months to come!
Love to all,
Suzi
I'm now comfortable enough with the name I've selected, that I'm ready to introduce myself to the world.
I will be Susan Alexandra.
Since Susan is kind of formal, I will be Suzi for day to day contact. I live in Maryland (abbr. Md.), so I'm changing my screen name to suzifrommd.
No, I didn't name myself after the wonderful founder of this site. I've liked the name Susan since I was a kid, it's always had kind of an energy for me. So when I set about naming myself, it was the first name that popped up and easily outshone all other comers.
I chose Alexandra because it sort of resembles my birth name, Andrew, so there's some continuity there.
For those who haven't followed my story, I first joined this site thinking I was androgyne, but now I realize that the male parts of my identity are byproducts of my living my 51 years as a man and from having a male body. I am female at the core. When I asked myself how I would feel if I was never allowed to be male again, I knew I could deal with it, but when I asked myself how I would feel if I would never be allowed to be female, I knew it would feel like a piece of me was cut off.
So I'm planning this summer to start living full time as a woman. I'm a high school teacher with my own two children attending the school where I work (though my son graduates this June), so this is going to be complicated.
Despite all that, I have to admit that I have a way to go before I feel like a woman. I still find myself often using a male pronoun for myself and am comfortable acting in male ways (though I love when I am given the freedom to act female). One of the reasons why it took 51 years to realize I am a woman is that I always imagined transgender women would "feel like women." A lot of us do, but for me, a female identity is much more complicated – fascination with female media, dress, and appearance, feeling more comfortable in the presence of females, and wanting, in the worst way, to have a female body. I hope that once I start living full time it will become easier to see myself as a woman, but if it does not, I will settle for pretending. Infinitely better than continuing to live as a man.
Thank you so much to every member of the Susan's community for all your continued support. I would not have the courage or knowledge to transition without you. I'm going to need all of you in the months to come!
Love to all,
Suzi
Title: Re: Introducing Susan Alexandra
Post by: Devlyn on March 04, 2013, 10:20:22 AM
Post by: Devlyn on March 04, 2013, 10:20:22 AM
Welcome to Susan's, Susan!
Title: Re: Introducing Susan Alexandra
Post by: Shantel on March 04, 2013, 10:38:26 AM
Post by: Shantel on March 04, 2013, 10:38:26 AM
Welcome Suzi!
Good choice! Like the woman said in the film Avatar, "I see you" meaning of course that I know your heart! We can say that since you have been with us for quite some time. Best wishes!
Good choice! Like the woman said in the film Avatar, "I see you" meaning of course that I know your heart! We can say that since you have been with us for quite some time. Best wishes!
Title: Re: Introducing Susan Alexandra
Post by: Ms. OBrien CVT on March 04, 2013, 11:16:28 AM
Post by: Ms. OBrien CVT on March 04, 2013, 11:16:28 AM
Hi Suzi. (https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fsmileys.on-my-web.com%2Frepository%2FAnimals%2Fferret-3.gif&hash=f49e2f86761323f2abd9c33941920389dbb3b10f)
Title: Re: Introducing Susan Alexandra
Post by: Beth Andrea on March 04, 2013, 12:11:01 PM
Post by: Beth Andrea on March 04, 2013, 12:11:01 PM
Hi Suzi!!
*hugs* sent to MD from WA!
*hugs* sent to MD from WA!
Title: Re: Introducing Susan Alexandra
Post by: Maegan on March 04, 2013, 01:07:06 PM
Post by: Maegan on March 04, 2013, 01:07:06 PM
HI Suzi. I like your new name.
Huggs
Maegan
Huggs
Maegan
Title: Re: Introducing Susan Alexandra
Post by: MadelineB on March 04, 2013, 11:29:16 PM
Post by: MadelineB on March 04, 2013, 11:29:16 PM
Love you too Suzi.
Welcome to Susan's! We are a family, blah blah blah. *HUG*
P.S. Susan Alexandra fits you well!
-Maddie
Welcome to Susan's! We are a family, blah blah blah. *HUG*
P.S. Susan Alexandra fits you well!
-Maddie
Title: Re: Introducing Susan Alexandra
Post by: MeghanAndrews on March 05, 2013, 12:16:57 AM
Post by: MeghanAndrews on March 05, 2013, 12:16:57 AM
Welcome, Suzi :)
Title: Re: Introducing Susan Alexandra
Post by: Shannon1979 on March 05, 2013, 04:36:48 AM
Post by: Shannon1979 on March 05, 2013, 04:36:48 AM
good choice Suzi. i Like that name. :angel:
Title: Re: Introducing Susan Alexandra
Post by: kelly_aus on March 05, 2013, 05:05:04 AM
Post by: kelly_aus on March 05, 2013, 05:05:04 AM
A warm Aussie welcome to you, Suzi..
Now, would you prefer to be flogged or branded? >:-)
Now, would you prefer to be flogged or branded? >:-)
Title: Re: Introducing Susan Alexandra
Post by: Catherine Sarah on March 05, 2013, 06:15:53 AM
Post by: Catherine Sarah on March 05, 2013, 06:15:53 AM
Hello Suzi,
A mighty big Aussie hello and welcome. I'm impressed at how you are growing since moving forward in your journey. i'd say HRT is is treating you very well.
Keep up the mighty job. I'm looking forward to hearing GREAT exploits and experiences from you in the near future
Huggs
Catherine
A mighty big Aussie hello and welcome. I'm impressed at how you are growing since moving forward in your journey. i'd say HRT is is treating you very well.
Keep up the mighty job. I'm looking forward to hearing GREAT exploits and experiences from you in the near future
Huggs
Catherine
Title: Re: Introducing Susan Alexandra
Post by: Anna++ on March 05, 2013, 06:50:14 AM
Post by: Anna++ on March 05, 2013, 06:50:14 AM
I like the name, Suzi. I hope you're having a good day!
Title: Re: Introducing Susan Alexandra
Post by: Jamie D on March 06, 2013, 06:54:55 AM
Post by: Jamie D on March 06, 2013, 06:54:55 AM
I want to give you a hug, Suzi!! :)