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Nowadays I noticed that my dysphoria got worse since my body started to change. I mean body hair, fat redestribution, downstairs growth, facial changes and some facial hair. I look like any other guy would (definitely I'm gonna change more as far as I'm just almost half a year on T). Now that my body is starting to be allright with hormones, the other parts which can't be "solved" by HRT but surgeries, I don't know, they cause me more dysphoria than ever. Can someone relate to this?

I can relate.  I noticed the longer I was on T and the more my body changed and became more masculine, the more my chest became a bigger dysphoria (mainly because it stuck out the most).  I just had top surgery last Wednesday so I'm hoping that helps.  My therapist warned me that the dysphoria could switch to another part of the body now that top surgery is done though.  :-/

Quote from: Paul on March 26, 2013, 12:09:21 PM
I can relate.  I noticed the longer I was on T and the more my body changed and became more masculine, the more my chest became a bigger dysphoria (mainly because it stuck out the most).  I just had top surgery last Wednesday so I'm hoping that helps.  My therapist warned me that the dysphoria could switch to another part of the body now that top surgery is done though.  :-/

Yeah, I know what you mean... I'm having top surgery in a couple months and wondering if that will happen to me too.

As for the original question, I'm not sure my dysphoria has worsened but it's definitely changed. I live pretty stealthly which makes me nervous about people finding out, so my dysphoria tends to stem from that and not being like "other guys".

I rarely had bottom dysphoria before I had top surgery. Now I have it in spades. Every day. Sometimes every hour of every day. There's no way to escape it...I have to shower, pee, jack off, adjust my packer, feel my packer moving around unnaturally, see my packer in my shorts when I'm lounging around or working at home...

Quote from: Arch on March 26, 2013, 01:58:17 PM
I rarely had bottom dysphoria before I had top surgery. Now I have it in spades. Every day. Sometimes every hour of every day. There's no way to escape it...I have to shower, pee, jack off, adjust my packer, feel my packer moving around unnaturally, see my packer in my shorts when I'm lounging around or working at home...

I experienced this a little bit. I had never had bottom dysphoria before. Though I'm pretty sure mine is mostly due to fear of being found out. It's the only part of me that's not male. So I had these irrational fears with people I was stealth with like 'what if my pants fall down for some reason?'  :laugh:

Quote from: lexical on March 26, 2013, 01:08:57 PM
I live pretty stealthly which makes me nervous about people finding out, so my dysphoria tends to stem from that and not being like "other guys".

thats my issue. other guys can take there shirt off other guys dont have to stop girls from touching them, and other guys can take a piss in bushes.

After i'd had top surgery i must ve spent about 3 months not letting my other half see me without my jeans on. Everything that had been so fixated on the size of my chest suddenly switched to other places.

Been on T for 2 and a bit years. Dysphoria pretty much went away after a few months on T. Had chest surgery about 8 months ago.. I still wouldn't go around top less (due to dog ears that need to be revised), but I'm happy to not have to wear a binder, and wider range of shirt choices now. So not the happiest about my chest but not dysphoric either. Rarely get dysphoric about downstairs either.. I make do with what I have. In fact after a year or so I pretty much stopped wearing a packer even as I have become comfortable as is (only wear it when I may get groped - such as at the bar... hahaha). Sure I want bottom surgery and will have it if my healthcare approves going to serbia, but I don't let myself become mired down in dysphoria about it.

Quote from: Arch on March 26, 2013, 01:58:17 PM
I rarely had bottom dysphoria before I had top surgery. Now I have it in spades. Every day. Sometimes every hour of every day. There's no way to escape it...I have to shower, pee, jack off, adjust my packer, feel my packer moving around unnaturally, see my packer in my shorts when I'm lounging around or working at home...

+1

This is exactly how I feel and I was warned. I just didn't thinkit would affect me like this. When I do anything with my junk it's upsetting. I have trouble masturbating, I have trouble getting off when my SO helps, I hate that I can't STP naturally or assisted, I hate that I have fake junk jumbling around. I did just get the basic reelmagik though, so maybe that'll start helping with something that looks more realistic.

I want bottom surgery when the time comes. It seems like it'll be necessary.

Quote from: Paul on March 26, 2013, 12:09:21 PM
I can relate.  I noticed the longer I was on T and the more my body changed and became more masculine, the more my chest became a bigger dysphoria (mainly because it stuck out the most).  I just had top surgery last Wednesday so I'm hoping that helps.  My therapist warned me that the dysphoria could switch to another part of the body now that top surgery is done though.  :-/

Thanks for your post, and congrats on your surgery! I wish you a fast recovery.


Seems like when one of our "parts" gets fixed, we concentrate more on those that didn't yet. Interesting but makes sense to me.

Thanks everyone for sharing your thoughts on this  :)

I had top surgery in November, before starting any hormone regimen. My therapist recognized that I had crippling dysphoria over my GGGG chest. So far, my dysphoria hasn't migrated at all. I have been under some additional stress due to workplace transition issues, but other than that I am happier and more comfortable with my body than I have ever been.

Quote from: ntxboi on March 29, 2013, 03:20:35 AM
I had top surgery in November, before starting any hormone regimen. My therapist recognized that I had crippling dysphoria over my GGGG chest.

Jeez. How much tissue did that add up to?

Quote from: Wolf Man on March 27, 2013, 08:32:19 AM
+1

This is exactly how I feel and I was warned. I just didn't thinkit would affect me like this. When I do anything with my junk it's upsetting. I have trouble masturbating, I have trouble getting off when my SO helps, I hate that I can't STP naturally or assisted, I hate that I have fake junk jumbling around. I did just get the basic reelmagik though, so maybe that'll start helping with something that looks more realistic.

I want bottom surgery when the time comes. It seems like it'll be necessary.

Glad to know I'm not the only one with that problem.

I'm 11 weeks on t and masturbating is a nightmare.
Pre-t I didn't care about getting off but t makes you horny,
so now I really want to but it just doesn't seem to work.

So yeah, I guess in a sense t has made one thing worse but I wouldn't change it for the world,
cause it's made my life so much easier.

I've had years to get used to my equipment and sort of make my peace with it...so I know that I need bottom surgery, but I can masturbate.

Some days, though, I am more dysphoric about my bottom parts and don't want to touch them. On those days, I usually use a vibrator, but sometimes I just rub up against it without turning it on. It's pink and designed for women, but it was cheap and has a nice texture--not like silicone--that makes an orgasm fairly easy. Hands free is the way to go when you can't bear to touch yourself.