What are you thinking right now? 4.0

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Title: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: ~RoadToTrista~ on May 03, 2013, 09:34:46 AM

I wanna hug a baby. >.<

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shang on May 03, 2013, 09:40:49 AM

Quote from: ~RoadToTrista~ on May 03, 2013, 09:34:46 AM
I wanna hug a baby. >.<

I wanna hug a puppy. :P They're cuter. (In my opinion. >.> )

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Anna++ on May 03, 2013, 09:44:07 AM

Quote from: A. G. Bheur on May 03, 2013, 09:40:49 AM
I wanna hug a puppy. :P They're cuter. (In my opinion. >.> )

I want to hug a cat... but I can't hug every cat :(

Songify This - CAN'T HUG EVERY CAT (now on iTunes) -- a song about loving cats (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sP4NMoJcFd4#)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shang on May 03, 2013, 09:46:05 AM

I'd hug a cat, but my mom is stupid allergic so she can't even be around people who have cats.

And...I have a serious disdain of people eating. The sounds are so disgusting! Gah! It's one of the many reasons I like to live alone.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: ~RoadToTrista~ on May 03, 2013, 09:46:26 AM

I have both a puppy and a cat whom are both smothered with hugs already. :D

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Edge on May 03, 2013, 11:51:57 AM

I agree with Shantel on the drug thing. I was fed neurotransmitter altering drugs in high school when what really should have happened was letting me have normal emotions and letting me learn how to deal with them. Not putting me in an constantly exhausted, suicidal state and telling me I was crazy. (Being abused is not the same having a mental illness. Antidepressants can cause suicidal tendencies. Not that anyone listened to me.)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shang on May 03, 2013, 01:12:16 PM

Quote from: Liam Erik on May 03, 2013, 12:56:27 PM
I leave the room when people start eating... Movie theaters are the worst.

We eat in the living room generally so there's nowhere for me to go. D:

News:

Left hand: Hurts straight throughout my palm. I used my hand to help myself stand up and it hurts. D:

Right wrist: My wrist got sliced by an aquarium bottom that decided to break while I was lightly tapping it (and I mean lightly). It's not deep and it's finally stopped bleeding, but it hurts. D:

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Adam (birkin) on May 03, 2013, 03:06:13 PM

I have the worst tasting mouthwash in the entire world. It's going to take a while to get through the bottle, and I can't bring myself to throw it out. Every time I use it I nearly puke.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on May 03, 2013, 03:38:29 PM

Quote from: Liam Erik on May 03, 2013, 02:52:24 PM
Ouch, AG.

I now have four weeks to come out to my dad before he comes to town. I wonder if he knows we're estranged, or if he just thinks I'm laconic.

He's probably clueless, older men can be really quite disconnected on many levels. And you're scheduled for top surgery soon? Guess he'll have no choice but to just get over it.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 03, 2013, 04:27:55 PM

One of the things I'm doing after top surgery is ordering a custom made lavender tuxedo with a cape, mask and staff. Heck yes!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on May 03, 2013, 04:46:37 PM

Quote from: Malachite on May 03, 2013, 04:27:55 PM
One of the things I'm doing after top surgery is ordering a custom made lavender tuxedo with a cape, mask and staff. Heck yes!

You're sounding more like a man with a plan after all!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: ZoeM on May 03, 2013, 04:52:49 PM

Quote from: Malachite on May 03, 2013, 04:27:55 PM
One of the things I'm doing after top surgery is ordering a custom made lavender tuxedo with a cape, mask and staff. Heck yes!

Are you going to go join Phoenix Jones in Seattle? Patrol the streets?

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 03, 2013, 05:28:15 PM

Quote from: ZoeM on May 03, 2013, 04:52:49 PM
Are you going to go join Phoenix Jones in Seattle? Patrol the streets?

Negative on that one. Is that a person? lol

Now I'm thinking about how I found more crap to put on Craigslist to sell. Yay me!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: ZoeM on May 03, 2013, 05:39:53 PM

Quote from: Malachite on May 03, 2013, 05:28:15 PM
Negative on that one. Is that a person? lol

Now I'm thinking about how I found more crap to put on Craigslist to sell. Yay me!

He's a person. Real close to crazy, too.

http://thephoenixjones.com/ (http://thephoenixjones.com/)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 03, 2013, 05:57:21 PM

Quote from: ZoeM on May 03, 2013, 05:39:53 PM
He's a person. Real close to crazy, too.

http://thephoenixjones.com/ (http://thephoenixjones.com/)

I'd like to have lunch with him one day.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Liminal Stranger on May 03, 2013, 09:08:40 PM

Quote from: Shantel on May 03, 2013, 08:09:14 AM
As a parent I'm not in favor of treating kids with drugs to modify their behavior when quite often all that's wrong with them is that they are individuals with a view on things that differ from that of the parents. Max, have you been diagnosed with ADD that you have to take that mood altering stuff? Don't let my comments be the cause for a rebellion, I'm just wondering for your sake because all too often parents will buy into what the doctor prescribes when i know that so many doctors just throw pills at symptoms to mask the problem rather than doing the investigative work to determine causation.

Parents will complain to the doctor, "My kid is driving me crazy with his erratic behavior, bla bla!" So the doctor thinks, "I'll prescribe this and we'll drug the little bast**d and I won't have to listen to the yammering from this distraught parent any longer."

I've been diagnosed twice, first with ADD and then with "clinical ADHD". Not that the alphabet soup matters. Basically I'm fidgety and bored in school, assignments bore me because I already understand and it's just busywork to me, going to school after reading the textbook only to have said book thrown at me in verbal form annoys me. So I doodle, I stare out the window, shake my leg, fidget. Waiting for school to let out so I can just leave already. I'm forgetful because of stress and lack of sleep due to nightmares and surges of energy when I should be going to sleep.

So what do they give me? Stimulants. Really now.
I get it, I participate and raise my hand 5 billion times on Adderall. My doodles become more geometric, I talk faster, it lifts a little more of that iron wall I have inhibiting my communication. But people seeing me as a boy does that so much better. I grow restless on the meds, especially when they peak during my strings class.

The pain that both this and liking someone can cause is ridiculous, and in a situation like mine now they make a lethal combination, putting me in agony. Good news is that the light at the end of the tunnel is close; I've been taking it these two days to "prep" for taking it tomorrow for a few subject exams because they're supposed to help me concentrate. They do make me do things faster, but I dislike them. I'll likely be on them for the next couple of weeks until AP exams are over, but after that I'll be a lot less stressed as well.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: DriftingCrow on May 03, 2013, 09:27:20 PM

What am I thinking right now? I have my Secured Transactions final tomorrow, and I have no idea what happens to collateral when the debtor sells it to someone else because the interest is still attached to the collateral yet the debtor also has an interest in the proceeds, so if the debtor defaults it seems like the creditor can still get the proceeds and get the collateral too (debtors can go after collateral sold to a 3rd party unless one of the exceptions applies) which just seems unfair that the creditor can get both. I should've studied more during the semester, but I say that every time finals come up and I always end up doing just fine.

Quote from: Malachite on May 03, 2013, 04:27:55 PM
One of the things I'm doing after top surgery is ordering a custom made lavender tuxedo with a cape, mask and staff. Heck yes!

Totally awesome man!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 03, 2013, 11:26:09 PM

Quote from: LearnedHand on May 03, 2013, 09:27:20 PM
Totally awesome man!

I know right?

(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi44.tinypic.com%2F2antw5.jpg&hash=6a0c0aab579ba72677e489df752aebc218e2ea55)

Beautiful. I may walk into a church like that one day.

I'm thinking about how I never win with my mother, especially when she's drunk. I can't wait until I have a chance to move out which I'll probably do after legally changing my name,

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 04, 2013, 12:23:51 AM

Quote from: Liam Erik on May 04, 2013, 12:03:23 AM
Man goes out in a suit like that, you know he's not afraid of anything.

true indeed-taking a cosplay out it and wearing it in a daily life will take a lot of guts.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Liminal Stranger on May 04, 2013, 01:59:15 AM

The girl who's been my sort of girlfriend is now really mad at me. She knew I was in a relationship already, but didn't know the other person was a guy. Now I thought I'd told her, but I guess not, even though I knew she wasn't all too clear on it. But it came up in a conversation with my friend who used that as a tool to make her stop being so overly attached to us, and she got horribly upset that he knew first and that I'm with a guy, even though I did clearly state that I can and will date people regardless of sex or gender.

It's the scary kind of upset, the kind where they smile tightly at you and say that everything is fine but their eyes look at you with contempt and hatred and death threats and make you want to run in the opposite direction as fast and far as possible. I don't like that kind of angry at all, not that I like any kind of angry but this one is the worst. I talked to her a bit in the evening but I don't know how this is going to pan out. Even if we end the relationship that was being built, I don't want to lose the friendship that we were also forming. I like her as a friend, not just as a crush.

Before the incident, she was talking to me about stuff and playing with my hair as usual. I don't remember why, but she said that I'm not a guy or a girl, I'm a Max. Her explanation was that I don't act like either and that I'm of my own gender, and said "you just sense these kind of things, you know?". But I didn't know, now I'm confused. Other people think I act like a guy, some think I just act like a 12 year old.

But I'm a guy :-/

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Felix on May 04, 2013, 04:56:09 AM

Quote from: Devlyn Marie on April 28, 2013, 09:48:48 AM
Wondering how much money I'll make selling bacon, egg, and toast poptarts.

Okay I'm super duper out of the loop but I bumbled into this and lol'd so much. Fantastic.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 04, 2013, 08:29:20 AM

Today is Free Comic Book Day. This pleases Malachite. This is also the day when Aunt Flow is supposed to visit. This does not please Malachite. Stuipid hag.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Edge on May 04, 2013, 11:06:07 AM

Haha. Today is Free Comic Book Day. Edge bought too many comics. Shark week also started a couple days ago. Gorrammit.

Quote from: Liminal Stranger on May 04, 2013, 01:59:15 AMI don't remember why, but she said that I'm not a guy or a girl, I'm a Max. Her explanation was that I don't act like either and that I'm of my own gender, and said "you just sense these kind of things, you know?". But I didn't know, now I'm confused. Other people think I act like a guy, some think I just act like a 12 year old.

But I'm a guy :-/

It doesn't matter how you act. A cis guy can be as androgynous acting as he wants without being called "not a guy." Why is it so hard for people to get it through their heads that it's the same for a trans guy? Sorry this is a pet peeve of mine.
If she already knew you were in a relationship and that you date people regardless of gender, why is she mad?

I was looking for Loki (Marvel) pictures for something and came across... fanart. "Cute" fanart. Did these fangirls miss the part about Loki being a supervillain? Even if they did somehow miss out on the fact that he's a supervillain, how did they miss the fact that he's a Norse god? Sure, he's a Marvel version (aka an alien), but still. Sometimes, I wonder if anyone else likes Loki for being Loki.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 04, 2013, 01:29:29 PM

Quote from: Edge on May 04, 2013, 11:06:07 AM
Haha. Today is Free Comic Book Day. Edge bought too many comics. Shark week also started a couple days ago. Gorrammit.

Brought too many? That must mean it was a great Free Comic Book Day for you. :D I couldn't really look since I had my small nephew with me, who thought he could buy every single thing in the store with just $5.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Liminal Stranger on May 04, 2013, 02:04:21 PM

Quote from: Edge on May 04, 2013, 11:06:07 AM
Haha. Today is Free Comic Book Day. Edge bought too many comics. Shark week also started a couple days ago. Gorrammit.
It doesn't matter how you act. A cis guy can be as androgynous acting as he wants without being called "not a guy." Why is it so hard for people to get it through their heads that it's the same for a trans guy? Sorry this is a pet peeve of mine.
If she already knew you were in a relationship and that you date people regardless of gender, why is she mad?

I was looking for Loki (Marvel) pictures for something and came across... fanart. "Cute" fanart. Did these fangirls miss the part about Loki being a supervillain? Even if they did somehow miss out on the fact that he's a supervillain, how did they miss the fact that he's a Norse god? Sure, he's a Marvel version (aka an alien), but still. Sometimes, I wonder if anyone else likes Loki for being Loki.

She still doesn't get that I'm not cis. I know it's bad to keep secrets, but no one's seeing me unclothed, relationship or not, so I just didn't say. The whole class sees me as male now so it's fine, and I don't think she would believe me about it unless I stripped naked to prove it. Like every other boy, I'm held up to that damned double standard of how to act. And I do act like a stereotypical guy, except that I don't chase after girls or act completely inhuman towards them, even if they're aliens to me. Loki and I share that problem- I could be trying to talk about science and someone will start pinching my cheeks and go "OMG YOU'RE SO ADORABLE!!!" in that awful cooing voice that I hate. There's a mind in here and it often gets silenced because the body holding it isn't tall and looming.

But at least I pass to those kids. I had to take the SAT II subject tests today- not only did the registration ticket say "Gender: Female" (and who the hell put you in charge of telling me my gender anyway, collegeboard?), but even before I took it out of my supply bag I was misgendered left and right. People just looked at me and automatically assumed female without even knowing my name. The process of even getting to the test room was having my birthname called out as loudly as possible to a small auditorium of kids in dead silence, then having proctor after proctor move me around and practically scream female pronouns across the room to the other person. And the girls' bathroom was out of order, but yet my proctor made sure to tell me that on my break I should go use the girls' room. Not the restroom, not the bathroom, the GIRLS' room. I wanted to say something so badly but just couldn't, no one would have cared anyway. Happened again when I asked a security guard if there was a phone I could use when my mother was MIA after the exams, because all that stress clearly wasn't enough. She yelled about not wanting to see my ugly face because no one needs to see that stupid sad sack facial expression. I told her the tests were fine because she assumed they were all above my level and that's why I looked that way. She let me go upstairs on my own, but my key to open the building door decided to get jammed into a small part on the key ring. So I'm trying to unstick it, when someone yells my birth name from behind me, simultaneously giving me a heart attack and angering me even more. She just kept throwing it in there at the beginning and end of every sentence while I tried to help her get a stupid shopping cart in the door. The woman hasn't even spoken to me in years, but just couldn't let this opportunity go, now could she?

I finally got up into my own apartment and cried in the privacy of my room because I'd had enough. This doesn't happen to cismales. I should be a cismale. Ergo this shouldn't be happening. But it is, every single day. I don't know if people will ever just look at me and see male 100% of the time, or even most of the time. Here and there misgendering I can subtly correct, but not if people constantly do it. I don't even know what I can do to stop it because HRT is out of the question until 18 thanks to my loving mother, who claims to be saving me from myself.
I've been told it's my hair, after coming home I noticed that it was pretty much standing straight up in the back. Maybe it needs to be short in the back too, not a pixie cut like these obnoxious idiots keep saying would be so cute on "a girl like you", but a standard male haircut.

I want to punch a wall right now.

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Post by: Shang on May 04, 2013, 02:55:23 PM

That girl sounds tweaked and mentally unsound, Liminal. Nothing you've said makes me think you should be in any sort of relationship with her except maybe some sort of semi-friendship. She just sounds like she'll fly off the handle at anything and if she has clingy behavior already and before you dated, that's a recipe for disaster. I've dated people like that. It's not fun and it goes bad fast. =/
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Loki's fun to make cute because his personality, even in the myths, is odd and he bounces from cute to nasty really quick. My favorite depiction of him, however, is in American Gods by Neil Gaiman. There's another book that had him and the Midgard Serpent in it as well and that was a really good portrayal as well. Both showed the duality and chaotic mess that Loki is.
____

And I have a headache. @.< I'm tired so that's probably it. I also need to figure out where to sell my left-handed recurve bow. I'm thinking Craigslist and it's going to go for $75 with a chance of being lowered if talked down.

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Post by: Adam (birkin) on May 04, 2013, 03:05:09 PM

I had a dream last night where I was called "sir" by a stranger.

My dreams have always tended to reflect my reality. When I never passed and my body was entirely female, I was female in my dreams and everyone else referred to me that way, even though I hated it. But now, on almost all occasions in my dreams I am male, and people in my dreams refer to me as such.

Of course that reflects that in a majority of situations I pass as male now - which I tend to forget when an ignorant jerk clocks me. But I think it might mean something more, too. I think it means despite how crappy and insecure I feel, I see a man in the mirror more and more even at that.

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Post by: Tossu-sama on May 04, 2013, 03:28:34 PM

My T levels are dropping, I got my next shot scheduled up for Monday and you can soon clearly tell that's the case. The smallest things are starting to piss me off on astronomical scale.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Liminal Stranger on May 04, 2013, 03:30:50 PM

Quote from: A. G. Bheur on May 04, 2013, 02:55:23 PM
That girl sounds tweaked and mentally unsound, Liminal. Nothing you've said makes me think you should be in any sort of relationship with her except maybe some sort of semi-friendship. She just sounds like she'll fly off the handle at anything and if she has clingy behavior already and before you dated, that's a recipe for disaster. I've dated people like that. It's not fun and it goes bad fast. =/

I don't plan on a long-term relationship happening. Thing is, she sounds pretty unstable described by this but that's pretty much how girls act around here. There's no emotional filters or moral filters or anything, maybe it's because they've got a ridiculous amount of hormonal teenage girls packed into one school. I don't like feeding into stereotypes, but when one of them is upset, it's like some horribly contagious disease- massive amounts of crying and yelling and nonsense. The guys are all either openly gay or act like stereotypical jocks, going through girlfriends like it's nothing and treating most girls like second-class citizens. In fact, before I came out, I was constantly being teased and called "that chick with a d**k" and the like, when I said I was planning on getting a haircut the first time, someone I considered a friend told me not to because he didn't like short hair on girls. It's a good thing the bell rang and lunch ended as soon as he did, because if not for having to run to my science class, I would have lost it and been hauled off to the psych ward, possibly after beating him up. He's accepting and supportive now, but didn't really acknowledge me as even being part of the group back then because he saw me as a girl. Luckily he's changed a lot.

As for her, she's just overemotional and immature. But I accept that those are her character flaws, hopefully she'll outgrow them but she's still my friend at the least. So right now I'm giving her time to be upset and then maybe calm down enough to look things over. It does seem like she wants to get over it, which is a good sign. Though I don't see why it's such a big deal... I'll ask her again once the whole thing has blown over.

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Post by: DriftingCrow on May 04, 2013, 03:34:21 PM

My Life Is Awesome ;D

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Renee on May 04, 2013, 08:01:20 PM

Went and saw Iron Man 3 with family tonight, then a couple slices of pizza at Luigi's. A nice Saturday night.

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Post by: Jamie D on May 04, 2013, 10:06:42 PM

The new Star Trek movie is less that 2 weeks away 8)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Edge on May 04, 2013, 10:24:49 PM

Quote from: A. G. Bheur on May 04, 2013, 02:55:23 PM
Loki's fun to make cute because his personality, even in the myths, is odd and he bounces from cute to nasty really quick. My favorite depiction of him, however, is in American Gods by Neil Gaiman. There's another book that had him and the Midgard Serpent in it as well and that was a really good portrayal as well. Both showed the duality and chaotic mess that Loki is.

I liked American Gods. It was an interesting take. I like the myth where Thor crossdresses and he and Loki go get his hammer back. That was hilarious! Or when they and a couple peasant kids go to Utgard-Loki's hall and Loki looses an eating contest (to Logi/fire), a kid looses a race (with thought), and Thor looses a drinking contest (it was the ocean), can't lift a cat (who was really Jörmungandr), and looses a wrestling match with an old woman (old age). In one of the versions I read, Loki looks at Thor after, smug as can be, and says, "I told you cunning beats strength." Ah. I see what you mean about cute. But still, it's not the fangirl/fanart kind of cute. He is still a Norse god and a troll. Oh yeah! I've been meaning to read the Lokasenna where Loki basically goes on a huge rant and tells all the other gods they suck, but I haven't gotten around to it yet.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shang on May 05, 2013, 12:09:00 AM

Quote from: Renee on May 04, 2013, 08:01:20 PM
Went and saw Iron Man 3 with family tonight, then a couple slices of pizza at Luigi's. A nice Saturday night.

xD I got home about 11 pm (an hour ago) from seeing that! Awesome movie!

And all theatres should serve alcohol. It makes everything better.

@ Edge:

:P I've made pictures of him eating waffles. But Loki's adorable. >.> He's also entirely badass, but he's also cute and you can only take a sex-changing, shape-shifting creature who births a horse so seriously. I mean, I take him pretty seriously, but at the same time...he's cute. And the Loki in Marvel is so damn adorable and awesome. x3

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Edge on May 05, 2013, 12:41:31 AM

Well, we'll have to agree to disagree then. Personally, I'm not too keen on adorable things, but I think that's just me. I also do not see why being gender variant or a shapeshifter would diminish his ability to be taken seriously. Personally, I see Sleipnir's origins as more tragic than cute, but again I think that may just be me.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: ~RoadToTrista~ on May 05, 2013, 04:23:37 AM

Zomg this thread freaked me out because I didn't even start it and I thought I got hacked or something. <.>

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 05, 2013, 05:01:32 AM

This thread freaked me out too. I was thinking "Trisha started a thread?????"

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Post by: Anna++ on May 05, 2013, 08:02:51 AM

I'm starting the day off right - with a bowl of cereal and Doctor Who!

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Post by: ZoeM on May 05, 2013, 08:08:09 AM

Quote from: Anna! :D on May 05, 2013, 08:02:51 AM
I'm starting the day off right - with a bowl of cereal and Doctor Who!

Darnit, now I want cereal. :( Can't, though - gotta go to church in an hour, and that's not really enough time for a store-trip-and-breakfast.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shang on May 05, 2013, 08:30:50 AM

Quote from: Edge on May 05, 2013, 12:41:31 AM
Well, we'll have to agree to disagree then. Personally, I'm not too keen on adorable things, but I think that's just me. I also do not see why being gender variant or a shapeshifter would diminish his ability to be taken seriously. Personally, I see Sleipnir's origins as more tragic than cute, but again I think that may just be me.

For me, he's a lot like Puck (they both have similar personalities and similar abilities). I take both seriously, but at the same time there's something cute about them and something "innocent" in how they act. To me, they're both a lot like kids who have powers and no notion of how to behave appropriately. And that is where I can't take them totally seriously by (and anyone that turns into a horse in order to hold up building and then winds up pregnant is going to make me go "o.O" and then smile). The story of it is far from tragic to me regardless of what carnage happened during it. Carnage and mayhem, to me, don't make something tragic and it never has.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Edge on May 05, 2013, 10:00:22 AM

Nah not the carnage. It was more the implication that Loki was raped that I don't find funny. Not in the slightest.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shang on May 05, 2013, 12:26:09 PM

I didn't take it as him being raped when I read the story. If I had, I probably would have had a bit of a more negative outlook on the story.

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Post by: Nero on May 05, 2013, 12:51:17 PM

Quote from: A. G. Bheur on May 05, 2013, 12:26:09 PM
I didn't take it as him being raped when I read the story. If I had, I probably would have had a bit of a more negative outlook on the story.

Not really up on this particular mythology. Is that part of the myth or more of a modern retelling?

And Edge, are you talking about stuff like this? :laugh:

(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Ffc06.deviantart.net%2Ffs71%2Fi%2F2012%2F226%2F7%2F2%2Floki_by_xxdramatizationxx-d5b2g0i.jpg&hash=2062597a00aecba8a441ce3b2e518f3608e7b529)

What representation do you prefer? Something more like this?

(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi.annihil.us%2Fu%2Fprod%2Fmarvel%2F%2Funiverse3zx%2Fimages%2Ff%2Ff1%2FLoki_male.jpg&hash=00c673a993d6c9a44f65a73916339a3813a75117)

Oh what's with the horns by the way? Is he half ram or something?

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Liminal Stranger on May 05, 2013, 01:12:16 PM

Edge, I see what you're getting at and I feel ticked off because I empathize completely, that's how people are with me irl. But anyway, it's just a fact of life that fangirls like to take anything and everything and make it...cute. Chibi is the word for it or something, I dunno. But unfortunately, Thor and The Avengers came out recently with sequels on the way, so Loki has been thrust into the spotlight of their tumblr-centered lives and may remain there for quite some time. I don't think it's out of disrespect- in a way, that is how they show their respect, paying homage to the figure through art. They just interpret it in a way we don't see as giving proper acknowledgement to the nature of Loki himself. But oh well, kids will be kids.

Speaking of kids, you should've seen Comic Con last year- there were countless Kid Lokis running around, my friend was one of them but actually admires his personality and history, not just the cinematic portraying from the recent movies. But it was pretty crazy. Did see some pretty awesome costumes there. Anyways, off to get my hair cut short in the back too. Hopefully they won't automatically gender me as female, my mom gave them a gender-neutral nickname.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Edge on May 05, 2013, 01:42:41 PM

Quote from: Not-so Fat Admin on May 05, 2013, 12:51:17 PM
Not really up on this particular mythology. Is that part of the myth or more of a modern retelling?

Technically, we don't know much about the original myths since they were written down a few hundred years after Christianity came through, so I admit none of us really know what the original myth was. The versions of the myth that I've read (translations of the one that was written in the 13th century if I recall correctly) do indicate that Loki wasn't exactly willing what with the death threats and the running.

Quote from: Not-so Fat Admin on May 05, 2013, 12:51:17 PMAnd Edge, are you talking about stuff like this? :laugh:

(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Ffc06.deviantart.net%2Ffs71%2Fi%2F2012%2F226%2F7%2F2%2Floki_by_xxdramatizationxx-d5b2g0i.jpg&hash=2062597a00aecba8a441ce3b2e518f3608e7b529)

Yes, that! How can someone claim to be a fan of Loki when they humiliate him like that?

Quote from: Not-so Fat Admin on May 05, 2013, 12:51:17 PMWhat representation do you prefer? Something more like this?

(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi.annihil.us%2Fu%2Fprod%2Fmarvel%2F%2Funiverse3zx%2Fimages%2Ff%2Ff1%2FLoki_male.jpg&hash=00c673a993d6c9a44f65a73916339a3813a75117)

Heck yes when we are referring to Marvel Loki. One is canon. One is not. Guess which is which.

Quote from: Not-so Fat Admin on May 05, 2013, 12:51:17 PMOh what's with the horns by the way? Is he half ram or something?

That's his helmet. Marvel isn't known for being historically accurate.

Me too, Liminal. Not so much now, but before I came out as male, people used to keep calling me cute. I don't see a problem with Kid Loki. He's cute, but he's still Loki.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Liminal Stranger on May 05, 2013, 02:58:52 PM

You're lucky, even people who have no clue I was born female are always going on about how cute I am. I hate it.

Got a tapered haircut, the lady shaved most of my sideburns but missed a bit of it and also left the patchy dark fur that's been growing on the back of my neck. Need to shave that, but I've also got some pretty manly stubble going on back there which is awesome. My mother asked me if I'm getting testosterone from someone in school or something, I laughed at her and said nope. Almost all my hormone levels always seem to err on the low side for whatever reason.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Edge on May 05, 2013, 03:42:55 PM

Quote from: Liminal Stranger on May 05, 2013, 02:58:52 PM
You're lucky, even people who have no clue I was born female are always going on about how cute I am. I hate it.

That sucks. Yeah I am luckily around people who will stop when I glower at them and tell them I hate it.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Renee on May 05, 2013, 03:53:08 PM

Its funny to watch my dog hoover the floor looking for stuff to gobble up. He's still got food in his bowl, but he's going around just sniffing, tasting, etc like he's a little vacuum.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Liminal Stranger on May 05, 2013, 04:21:11 PM

Quote from: Edge on May 05, 2013, 03:42:55 PM
That sucks. Yeah I am luckily around people who will stop when I glower at them and tell them I hate it.

Do you know what happens when I glower and tell them I hate it?

"Awwwwwwwww oh my god that's so adorable you guys come here and look at his adorable little angry face don't you just want to pinch his cheeks?"

Usually followed by some angry growled threat on my part that they ignore. Before I came out, people did pretty much the same thing except with female pronouns. I once was told by a girl that she wanted to put me in her backpack and take me everywhere with her. Why.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Edge on May 05, 2013, 04:26:16 PM

Quote from: Liminal Stranger on May 05, 2013, 04:21:11 PMWhy.

I'm sure exactly since I've never met you in RL, but if I had to guess, I'd say it's because you're a teenager. Looking younger equals cuter and less likely to be taken seriously.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Liminal Stranger on May 05, 2013, 04:38:42 PM

Quote from: Edge on May 05, 2013, 04:26:16 PM
I'm sure exactly since I've never met you in RL, but if I had to guess, I'd say it's because you're a teenager. Looking younger equals cuter and less likely to be taken seriously.

Probably, no one ever guesses my correct age when they see me and a couple of kids wouldn't believe me even after I showed them my I.D. card with my DOB on it, so annoying. Funny part is the people who do that are usually girls, my age or a grade or two younger than me. The seniors are too busy focusing on college and escaping the rat maze we call high school :P

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 05, 2013, 05:13:38 PM

I'm thinking of a hypothetical question to myself: Would I rather come out to my mother as transgender or a non-Christian?"

When I really think about it, I'd rather come out as transgender to my family. What lead me to this decision is what happened a few years ago. My best friend was very into her faith as a Christian. I wasn't as heavy into it as she was, so often times, she would try to "pry" and ask all of these questions about why I wasn't so into it and why I didn't like to talk about God. She kept asking and asking and getting on my nerves and it got to the point where we didn't speak to each other for a week. I was really sad about the situation so I went to talk to my mother about it and one of the first things out of her mouth was "You don't believe in God?!?!?!" She eventually understood what I meant and she ultimately took my side, but it got me to thinking....if my mom flipped out because she thought I didn't believe in God, imagine how it would be if I told her I wasn't a Christian. I think I'd MUCH rather come out as trans.

Either way-she'd would blame the internet.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on May 05, 2013, 06:48:28 PM

Quote from: Malachite on May 05, 2013, 05:13:38 PM
I went to talk to my mother about it and one of the first things out of her mouth was "You don't believe in God?!?!?!" She eventually understood what I meant and she ultimately took my side, but it got me to thinking....if my mom flipped out because she thought I didn't believe in God, imagine how it would be if I told her I wasn't a Christian. I think I'd MUCH rather come out as trans.

Either way-she'd would blame the internet.

Yes, your Auntie Shan was about to say, "Malachite don't you think you spend a little too much time on the Internet? You know it's a tool of the devil!" :D ;D :laugh:

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Edge on May 05, 2013, 07:17:09 PM

Quote from: Shantel on May 05, 2013, 06:48:28 PM
Yes, your Auntie Shan was about to say, "Malachite don't you think you spend a little too much time on the Internet? You know it's a tool of the devil!" :D ;D :laugh:

That totally explains why Mac uses the symbol of an apple with a bite out of it!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 05, 2013, 07:43:52 PM

Quote from: Shantel on May 05, 2013, 06:48:28 PM
Yes, your Auntie Shan was about to say, "Malachite don't you think you spend a little too much time on the Internet? You know it's a tool of the devil!" :D ;D :laugh:

YES she would totally say something like that.

"Mom, I'm not a Christian anymore."

"You need to get off of the computer. You spend too much time on there and it's putting ideas in your head. You'll damn your soul to hell!"

"Mom, I'm transgender."

"God made you a woman. You need to get off of the computer. You spend too much time on there and it's putting ideas in your head. You'll damn your soul to hell!"

I can't win either way.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Anna++ on May 05, 2013, 08:09:58 PM

Quote from: Malachite on May 05, 2013, 07:43:52 PM
I can't win either way.

Is there any way to beat the crazy-religious argument?

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 05, 2013, 08:14:08 PM

Quote from: Anna! :D on May 05, 2013, 08:09:58 PM
Is there any way to beat the crazy-religious argument?

On the trans side of things, I do have a few ideas in mind. That's why I'm waiting for the perfect time to come out so I know how to respond effectively to religious opposition. I doubt it will change her mind but I have to try.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on May 05, 2013, 08:17:10 PM

Quote from: Anna! :D on May 05, 2013, 08:09:58 PM
Is there any way to beat the crazy-religious argument?

I think like most things parents put up it's just a vehicle for control using the fear factor, if it wasn't religion it would be something else.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shang on May 05, 2013, 08:23:08 PM

xD My mom suggested I get off the computer for a bit when I came out as trans*, mostly to think. (Not why I vanished.)

>.> But otherwise...she doesn't care. She does care, however, that I'm not Christian. She also thinks one of the bowls I have on my altar is an offering. It isn't. Mostly.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Anna++ on May 05, 2013, 09:20:43 PM

I've solved 261 out of 263 sudoku puzzles in the book I bought last November. I'll need to find something new to do with my free time once I finish!

Maybe I'll check out that "outside" thing I've heard so much about... it sounds nice...

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Edge on May 05, 2013, 09:22:56 PM

Quote from: Anna! :D on May 05, 2013, 09:20:43 PMI've solved 261 out of 263 sudoku puzzles in the book I bought last November. I'll need to find something new to do with my free time once I finish!

New sudoku book! Sudoku is addicting.

Quote from: A. G. Bheur on May 05, 2013, 08:23:08 PM>.> But otherwise...she doesn't care. She does care, however, that I'm not Christian. She also thinks one of the bowls I have on my altar is an offering. It isn't. Mostly.

If you don't mind my asking, what religion are you?

I feel oddly social lately. Also been feeling oddly competitive.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 05, 2013, 09:45:26 PM

Quote from: A. G. Bheur on May 05, 2013, 08:23:08 PM
>.> She also thinks one of the bowls I have on my altar is an offering. It isn't. Mostly.

Could you explain what that means? I cannot for the life of me figure it out.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shang on May 05, 2013, 10:09:33 PM

Quote from: Edge on May 05, 2013, 09:22:56 PM

If you don't mind my asking, what religion are you?

It's more of a spirituality than it is a religion. I classify myself as an agnostic Pagan. I don't personally believe we'll know what happens after death until we die, but I choose to believe in gods and goddesses and other supernatural tid-bits. I draw a lot of my spirituality from older Celtic mythos, Kemeticism, and Hellenism. Old Norse also makes an appearance though rarely. I reached the conclusions I have through personal experience, and I don't expect anyone to believe me about them. Hell, I even take the experiences with a grain of salt.

Quote from: Malachite on May 05, 2013, 09:45:26 PM
Could you explain what that means? I cannot for the life of me figure it out.

I have a glass bowl that is filled with moss, acorns, a piece of flint from England, and several feathers (one of which is a rook's feather). It's not an offering in the sense that I'm giving it to any specific deity. It's meant as an "offering" to nature and the world and to bring into my altar. I have another bowl for the sea as well though that one's mostly because of Poseidon.
___

My hermit crabs are having so much fun. x3 They love the new tank set up!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Edge on May 05, 2013, 11:32:56 PM

Ah right. :) Cool.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 06, 2013, 12:00:50 AM

Quote from: A. G. Bheur on May 05, 2013, 10:09:33 PM
It's more of a spirituality than it is a religion. I classify myself as an agnostic Pagan. I don't personally believe we'll know what happens after death until we die, but I choose to believe in gods and goddesses and other supernatural tid-bits. I draw a lot of my spirituality from older Celtic mythos, Kemeticism, and Hellenism. Old Norse also makes an appearance though rarely. I reached the conclusions I have through personal experience, and I don't expect anyone to believe me about them. Hell, I even take the experiences with a grain of salt.

I have a glass bowl that is filled with moss, acorns, a piece of flint from England, and several feathers (one of which is a rook's feather). It's not an offering in the sense that I'm giving it to any specific deity. It's meant as an "offering" to nature and the world and to bring into my altar. I have another bowl for the sea as well though that one's mostly because of Poseidon.
___

My hermit crabs are having so much fun. x3 They love the new tank set up!

Oooooh I understand now. Thanks for the explanation! I thought the whole phrase was a symbolic. That's what caught me off guard.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Adam (birkin) on May 06, 2013, 02:07:05 AM

Keaira and I are watching this and it reminds me of the FTM tag on tumblr. In every way.

Mad TV - Abercrombie Skits (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w3-WzqfbVHU#)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 06, 2013, 02:27:11 AM

After I'm done with this summer class, I may try to obtain my drivers license and hopefully find a job after that. Hopefully I can either get in at a distribution center, UPS, or a dishwasher.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Anna++ on May 06, 2013, 09:33:08 AM

Quote from: Edge on May 05, 2013, 09:22:56 PM
New sudoku book! Sudoku is addicting.

Maybe later in the year! I want to do new things first :)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: JennX on May 06, 2013, 12:59:10 PM

Think I'll go see Ironman III. 8)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Renee on May 06, 2013, 03:55:46 PM

I'm thinking that I'm seriously sick of rain, rain and more rain. and wind, let's not forget that too.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: ZoeM on May 06, 2013, 03:59:43 PM

What a coincidence - it's a beautiful sunny day here in Madison. First t-shirt day in absolutely ages. I couldn't be happier. :D

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on May 06, 2013, 04:15:29 PM

Quote from: Renee on May 06, 2013, 03:55:46 PM
I'm thinking that I'm seriously sick of rain, rain and more rain. and wind, let's not forget that too.

Sun is shining, it's in the 80's here in the Seattle area, grill is ready to go, meat is defrosting life is good! :D

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Renee on May 06, 2013, 04:21:09 PM

Quote from: Shantel on May 06, 2013, 04:15:29 PM
Sun is shining, it's in the 80's here in the Seattle area, grill is ready to go, meat is defrosting life is good! :D

That's right, rub it in, lol. Its usually a lot better than this at this time of year, been a weird winter and spring though.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on May 06, 2013, 04:22:47 PM

Quote from: Renee on May 06, 2013, 04:21:09 PM
That's right, rub it in, lol. Its usually a lot better than this at this time of year, been a weird winter and spring though.

Global warming no doubt! ;D Shall I set an extra place for you out on the patio dear?

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Edge on May 06, 2013, 06:16:48 PM

I started watching Hemlock Grove. The werewolf is ridiculously pretty.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Renee on May 06, 2013, 07:39:53 PM

Me thinks it might be time to go to bed. I definitely need some beauty sleep.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on May 06, 2013, 08:35:16 PM

Quote from: Renee on May 06, 2013, 07:39:53 PM
Me thinks it might be time to go to bed. I definitely need some beauty sleep.

+1 Yes! >:-)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Nero on May 06, 2013, 11:32:19 PM

Quote from: Liam Erik on May 06, 2013, 11:29:56 PM
:icon_dizzy: I probably finish drafting twenty-five posts for every one I actually hit the 'post' button for.

Me too. :(

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Renee on May 07, 2013, 02:27:37 PM

I'm thinking its good that the hard start capacitor I suggested helped with the issue of the ac on my neighbor's rv not wanting to start on the Honda inverter with it in econo mode. Now just have to help him with a few other things on it before its ready for the island, just wish the weather would improve sooner.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: ford on May 07, 2013, 02:55:00 PM

Quote from: Liam Erik on May 06, 2013, 11:29:56 PM
:icon_dizzy: I probably finish drafting twenty-five posts for every one I actually hit the 'post' button for.

me three

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Renee on May 07, 2013, 04:19:44 PM

I still don't get how I could be any sort of role model for anyone.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Adam (birkin) on May 07, 2013, 04:29:40 PM

Stupid anxiety.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on May 07, 2013, 05:07:26 PM

Quote from: Renee on May 07, 2013, 02:27:37 PM
I'm thinking its good that the hard start capacitor I suggested helped with the issue of the ac on my neighbor's rv not wanting to start on the Honda inverter with it in econo mode. Now just have to help him with a few other things on it before its ready for the island, just wish the weather would improve sooner.

Don't break a nail honey! :D ;D

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on May 07, 2013, 05:09:12 PM

Quote from: Renee on May 07, 2013, 04:19:44 PM
I still don't get how I could be any sort of role model for anyone.

Hmmm maybe they meant roll model the way you keep your neighbor's RV rolling! ;D

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: DriftingCrow on May 07, 2013, 05:12:47 PM

ugh. . . Massachusetts civil procedure. . . so boring. . . . :icon_writers_block:

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Liminal Stranger on May 07, 2013, 07:16:55 PM

Did I really have to get sick now? I have a boatload of exams starting this friday.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: DriftingCrow on May 07, 2013, 08:33:49 PM

Quote from: Liminal Stranger on May 07, 2013, 07:16:55 PM
Did I really have to get sick now? I have a boatload of exams starting this friday.

You should drink some herbal tea. Feel better man!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Liminal Stranger on May 07, 2013, 08:58:09 PM

Quote from: LearnedHand on May 07, 2013, 08:33:49 PM
You should drink some herbal tea. Feel better man!

Thanks Henry. Going to go in search of some herbal tea in a bit, though I should really lay off the milk products considering I'm lactose intolerant and they can't be helpful for congestion.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: DriftingCrow on May 07, 2013, 09:05:03 PM

I shouldn't have stayed up so late last night. I need to get up early but I am wide awake! :icon_eek:

Quote from: Liminal Stranger on May 07, 2013, 08:58:09 PM
Thanks Henry. Going to go in search of some herbal tea in a bit, though I should really lay off the milk products considering I'm lactose intolerant and they can't be helpful for congestion.

You don't need to put milk in tea. A good lemon zinger with some honey will make you feel better. :)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Liminal Stranger on May 07, 2013, 09:09:20 PM

Quote from: LearnedHand on May 07, 2013, 09:05:03 PM
I shouldn't have stayed up so late last night. I need to get up early but I am wide awake! :icon_eek:

You don't need to put milk in tea. A good lemon zinger with some honey will make you feel better. :)

I meant in reference to my recent consumption of way too much dairy. And warm milk, speaking of which, might be helpful for sleep :P

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: ZoeM on May 07, 2013, 09:11:02 PM

Dentist tomorrow. :(

Consult for jaw surgery tomorrow. :|

Therapist tomorrow. :)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: natastic on May 07, 2013, 09:24:54 PM

Natalie hearts boy. That is all.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Edge on May 07, 2013, 10:31:52 PM

While watching a trailer for The Wolverine, I kept thinking I wish the movie was about Daken instead.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 07, 2013, 10:48:29 PM

I wish I had a couple of cats to lay at my bedside with me.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Ciara on May 08, 2013, 02:06:03 AM

I want the fog to clear. Then I might the road I am on with my true gender as a girl.
Love to all
Ciara.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 08, 2013, 03:47:12 AM

I love Zakk Wylde's beard. I wish I could grow a beard like that. Maybe when I get on T, but I doubted.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Keaira on May 08, 2013, 04:12:00 AM

I need to lose some weight I think. Or get bigger boobs. :P
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi688.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fvv246%2FKeairaElisabeth%2FIMG_20130507_184913_zps9dc4bd88.jpg&hash=1453ffb30921cc7cd1a2cc5c1a86ea08c7b12fe8)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Adam (birkin) on May 08, 2013, 04:41:31 AM

There is a third and fourth option Keaira. 3) Start loving yourself a bit more and 4) stop being so cute, and then you will be worthy of your own put downs. ;)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Saison Marguerite on May 08, 2013, 06:00:53 AM

Keaira you look so sweet!!!!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Anna++ on May 08, 2013, 06:49:45 AM

I've been sleeping better since starting HRT :)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: DriftingCrow on May 08, 2013, 07:10:35 AM

train-25 minutes late, one conductor, about 200 people trying to get through one door= bad start to the day. I wish they'd just raise our rates again and actually improve service.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: kira21 ♡♡♡ on May 08, 2013, 07:36:18 AM

:'( Struggling.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: DriftingCrow on May 08, 2013, 07:41:17 AM

Quote from: Steph21 on May 08, 2013, 07:36:18 AM
:'( Struggling.

I think you need a.hug :icon_hug:

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Liminal Stranger on May 08, 2013, 09:35:55 AM

Hugs for Steph. Good thing we can't get people sick via the Internet.
Day two of being home with this thing, it's gone from allergies to cold to sinusitis in the blink of an eye. This is not ok, I have major exams on Friday, Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday, yet another concert to prepare for, a research paper, a take-home test I need to get somehow, and another document-based essay. Teachers don't understand the meaning of letting children have time to study for highly stressful tests >_>

So of course I had to get sick the day after my concert. And I think the musicales are this week, I need to go see one and write a concert report otherwise they take ten points off of your music grade. For all of your music classes. I have three. I really hate this school sometimes.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on May 08, 2013, 10:01:44 AM

Steph and Max, get well soon, summer is just around the corner in this hemisphere! ((Hugs))

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 08, 2013, 10:47:10 AM

my tendency to want all my ducks in a row concerning transitioning

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Elsa on May 08, 2013, 10:50:28 AM

Wondering how do I get my makeup off without any makeup remover :-\ ???

Title: Re: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: natastic on May 08, 2013, 11:10:49 AM

Quote from: Alexia6 on May 08, 2013, 10:50:28 AM
Wondering how do I get my makeup off without any makeup remover :-\ ???

If you have baby shampoo and q-tips those do wonders for taking off eye and eyebrow makeup. Even without baby shampoo, a q-tip moistened with saliva will do. I've done this many times.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: DriftingCrow on May 08, 2013, 11:54:06 AM

Quote from: Liminal Stranger on May 08, 2013, 09:35:55 AM
Hugs for Steph. Good thing we can't get people sick via the Internet.
Day two of being home with this thing, it's gone from allergies to cold to sinusitis in the blink of an eye. This is not ok, I have major exams on Friday, Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday, yet another concert to prepare for, a research paper, a take-home test I need to get somehow, and another document-based essay. Teachers don't understand the meaning of letting children have time to study for highly stressful tests >_>

So of course I had to get sick the day after my concert. And I think the musicales are this week, I need to go see one and write a concert report otherwise they take ten points off of your music grade. For all of your music classes. I have three. I really hate this school sometimes.

:)

I think I had the same thing as you about two weeks ago. Try to rest and don't worry about your exams, you'll figure something out. If it makes you feel better, I am pretty sure I fail my Mass civil procedure class.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Liminal Stranger on May 08, 2013, 01:16:17 PM

I doubt that you failed, but thanks, you guys. Developed a fever out of nowhere now, which is bad because I normally have a low body temperature so my body does very badly with them. At least it means my immune system is trying to help out, even if it's thrown off my entire nervous system.

Really hoping I get better by Friday because I don't want to have to take make-up exams or sit through these sick, they're hugely important in order to get college credit for my classes (well, where that's accepted). Been drinking tea with honey and lemon, had a fire cider tonic that has apple cider vinegar and all sorts of good stuff in it as well. In addition to the natural remedies, my prescription should be coming in soon, so that'll help as well. Doesn't look like I'll be in school tomorrow at this point, meaning I'll have a one-day week (and not even that, we take the exam and then leave for the day).

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: ~RoadToTrista~ on May 08, 2013, 01:32:55 PM

My dog's having surgery right at this second and I'm nervous as frick.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Jess92 on May 08, 2013, 02:44:47 PM

Will I be able to orgasm after HRT? I've heard things saying "yes", and "no". I get probably not after a while, but will the ability come back?

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 08, 2013, 02:48:32 PM

E3 will be here next month, then Anime Expo which I will constantly talk about going to after top surgery, but more importantly than that, I'm excited to see what new games are coming out. However, if I learned anything from preordering Far Cry 3, then that is to wait for a price drop.

Speaking about video games, I'm also going to have the option to barter my Black Ops 2 on Craigslist, though in the expensive world of top surgery, cash is king. I do need another game though. I've watched the entire gameplay of Tomb Raider online and I'm interested in it. I'm not buying though.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Keaira on May 08, 2013, 03:00:46 PM

Tomorrow I chaperone a bunch of Elementary School children. I'm kind of on edge about that actually. I only volunteered because my Son wanted me to go with him and I can't refuse that. The main thing I am not looking forward to is that my Son and I have discussed possibly not calling me Dad around the other children but he's adamant about still calling me it. I just worry it will lead to him being picked on.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Elsa on May 08, 2013, 03:07:55 PM

Quote from: Keaira on May 08, 2013, 03:00:46 PM
Tomorrow I chaperoned a bunch of Elementary School children. I'm kind of on edge about that actually. I only volunteered because my Son wanted me to go with him and I can't refuse that. The main thing I am not looking forward to is that my Son and I have discussed possibly not calling me Dad around the other children but he's adamant about still calling me it. I just worry it will lead to him being picked on.

Am sure things would be ok. Just be there for him. :)

::Hugs::

Title: Re: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Elsa on May 08, 2013, 03:09:31 PM

Quote from: natastic on May 08, 2013, 11:10:49 AM
If you have baby shampoo and q-tips those do wonders for taking off eye and eyebrow makeup. Even without baby shampoo, a q-tip moistened with saliva will do. I've done this many times.

Wow - I was kinda hoping some facewash and water might do the trick :P ???

Title: Re: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: DriftingCrow on May 08, 2013, 03:28:32 PM

Quote from: Alexia6 on May 08, 2013, 03:09:31 PM
Wow - I was kinda hoping some facewash and water might do the trick :P ???

it depends on the make up, eye liner and mascara are pretty hard to get off without remover, though the pillow seems to work well ;D

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Adam (birkin) on May 08, 2013, 03:41:10 PM

Oh God. I just woke up at and it's 2:30 pm. It is so easy for me to fall into bad habits, swear to God.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shang on May 08, 2013, 08:49:33 PM

Stupid mood. It needs to go away.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Liminal Stranger on May 08, 2013, 08:53:45 PM

I'm beginning to despise the thought of summer, because seeing all of the shirtless guys is just going to heighten my dysphoria. I want to take my shirt off too.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 08, 2013, 09:05:18 PM

juice

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shang on May 08, 2013, 09:12:45 PM

I'm wondering if I should just delete most of my online forum accounts.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Anna++ on May 08, 2013, 09:22:03 PM

Quote from: A. G. Bheur on May 08, 2013, 09:12:45 PM
I'm wondering if I should just delete most of my online forum accounts.

Why?

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Liminal Stranger on May 09, 2013, 08:31:19 AM

Test is tomorrow, now my chest is congested too. Ear tubes are blocked, I can tell because the distinctive noise that I hear when I swallow on a normal day is gone. My throat lining is swollen and burning as well, probably from this killer cough. And my nose is both running and stuffy.

This is not fun.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shang on May 09, 2013, 09:36:32 AM

Quote from: Anna! :D on May 08, 2013, 09:22:03 PM
Why?

I don't really need to be on all of the sites I am. >.>

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Edge on May 09, 2013, 12:04:50 PM

I keep seeing Being Human actors in Doctor Who. This amuses me.
I like the Master. No surprise there.
My head hurts. My son jumped on my head with his knees this morning.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Jess92 on May 09, 2013, 12:36:38 PM

So found out my landlord is a sex offender. It... it probably won't be a good idea for me to transition in that environment. I'm scared. I don't have anywhere else to go though save my parents, and they do not approve of course.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Anna++ on May 09, 2013, 04:17:22 PM

If you don't put spaces in your forum personal text it'll spill over into your signature. Interesting.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Jamie D on May 09, 2013, 06:20:24 PM

Quote from: Miss Bungle on May 09, 2013, 12:51:39 AM
I adore my new avatar. ;D

I can describe that avatar with two letters: QT

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Jamie D on May 09, 2013, 06:21:46 PM

Quote from: A. G. Bheur on May 09, 2013, 09:36:32 AM
I don't really need to be on all of the sites I am. >.>

I hope you stay here. :(

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on May 09, 2013, 06:25:07 PM

Quote from: Jamie D on May 09, 2013, 06:21:46 PM
I hope you stay here. :(

Yeah, we kinda like you Aaron! :)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Liminal Stranger on May 09, 2013, 06:37:28 PM

Quote from: Jamie D on May 09, 2013, 06:21:46 PM
I hope you stay here. :(

I third this motion, you're an awesome person.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Renee on May 09, 2013, 07:08:39 PM

Thinking its about time for bed.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: DriftingCrow on May 09, 2013, 09:39:23 PM

*Spew of words I can't say on Susan's* I just got my MPRE results back and man, I am 2 points off! >:( I got an 83, which is high enough to take the RI bar exam (only need an 80), but of course, MA has to have the highest requirement in the country (NY and CA has the same requirement as MA though) and requires an 85. Grrh! I am going to have to retake the exam just for those two lousy points. I probably only needed one more question to be right. . . :(

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: QuestionKnot on May 09, 2013, 09:41:42 PM

Thinking about how before I started gender questioning I was a total hermit, and now that I've joined trans online forums and RL support groups I've never been more open and social in my life. I've become a total social butterfly. Well...almost anyway. Its really cool!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Cookies on May 10, 2013, 01:06:47 AM

Thinking what to do that will make time pass faster ;D

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 10, 2013, 01:29:17 AM

I need to recount my top surgery money and update it.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Adam (birkin) on May 10, 2013, 06:27:30 AM

I think Keaira likes to see me squirm.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 10, 2013, 06:36:27 AM

My graduation is today and I have no regrets about skipping it. To be honest, I was more excited that today was trash day. I love seeing our trash being dumped in the garbage vehicle and taken off. This makes me happy, so happy that I run with the trashcan back to my yard and fist pump in the air saying "yeah!" several times.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Liminal Stranger on May 10, 2013, 07:34:27 AM

Ended up not going to the exam, congestion is worse today. I'm on antihistamines and antibiotics and adderall, plus vitamins. Pills all over the counter. And I found a grey hair today. Between that and the orthotics in my worn-out shoes, I'm feeling pretty old today :-\

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: DriftingCrow on May 10, 2013, 11:20:34 AM

Quote from: Malachite on May 10, 2013, 06:36:27 AM
My graduation is today and I have no regrets about skipping it. To be honest, I was more excited that today was trash day. I love seeing our trash being dumped in the garbage vehicle and taken off. This makes me happy, so happy that I run with the trashcan back to my yard and fist pump in the air saying "yeah!" several times.

Yay Malachite!!! (I only wentto my high school graduation, and that I was tempted to skip but I think my mom would've killed me if I did) :eusa_clap:

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: DriftingCrow on May 10, 2013, 11:22:42 AM

Quote from: Liminal Stranger on May 10, 2013, 07:34:27 AM
Ended up not going to the exam, congestion is worse today. I'm on antihistamines and antibiotics and adderall, plus vitamins. Pills all over the counter. And I found a grey hair today. Between that and the orthotics in my worn-out shoes, I'm feeling pretty old today :-\

I found a gray hair about a month ago, it's okay, you'll soon look distinguished. Get better and don't worry about your exams.

I need to get studying for tax law, I have that exam tomorrow.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 10, 2013, 12:01:36 PM

Quote from: LearnedHand on May 10, 2013, 11:20:34 AM
Yay Malachite!!! (I only wentto my high school graduation, and that I was tempted to skip but I think my mom would've killed me if I did) :eusa_clap:

Some of my family isn't that happy that I skipped it so I know the feeling.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Keaira on May 10, 2013, 12:38:15 PM

Quote from: Prof HB on May 10, 2013, 06:27:30 AM
I think Keaira likes to see me squirm.

Yes I do. I hope you enjoyed it though. Being a girl is way more fun than being a guy. That kind of power over a man is awesome! :P

I got a paycheck today from my old employer. Wasnt the settlement for sex discrimination I was hoping from them, just a gain share I was owed apparently. Still, I am always happy to take their money. At least they took out taxes.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Edge on May 10, 2013, 01:15:44 PM

I'm thinking of the list of people I'm going to have to contact asap once I get my name changed.
I'm not sure how notaries work. Do I just call them up and ask for an appointment?

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Liminal Stranger on May 10, 2013, 01:54:49 PM

Quote from: LearnedHand on May 10, 2013, 11:22:42 AM
I found a gray hair about a month ago, it's okay, you'll soon look distinguished. Get better and don't worry about your exams.

I need to get studying for tax law, I have that exam tomorrow.

Good luck! And dammit, I'd like to not look like an old man before I'm even a legal adult XD

Just got back from the doctor's office, blood sugar was 56 on the last test. Hypoglycemic, as per usual, meaning tomorrow I get to take a fasting exam. Yay :/

Also I can't stand being called she, this is really bad. I'm afraid if it happens any more between my doctors and mother and teachers when I go back on monday, I'm going to turn green and my shirt will be ripped to shreds. HULK SMASH.

Seriously though I wish I could do something about this, it's terrible. And I need to not be around my mother because she outs me to everyone all the time.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: DriftingCrow on May 10, 2013, 01:57:51 PM

Quote from: Edge on May 10, 2013, 01:15:44 PM
I'm thinking of the list of people I'm going to have to contact asap once I get my name changed.
I'm not sure how notaries work. Do I just call them up and ask for an appointment?

I am a notary, I just sign stuff if people come into the office. There's usually notaries at banks, justgo in and ask for a notary-if it's your bank it should be free.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Edge on May 10, 2013, 01:59:31 PM

Quote from: LearnedHand on May 10, 2013, 01:57:51 PM
I am a notary, I just sign stuff if people come into the office. There's usually notaries at banks, justgo in and ask for a notary-if it's your bank it should be free.

Thanks!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Data Lizard on May 10, 2013, 02:02:42 PM

Binders and fair ground rides do not go well together, especially when the automatic restraint means I got dropped onto the hooks keeping it done up when I got turned upside down.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: ford on May 10, 2013, 03:36:44 PM

Quote from: Edge on May 10, 2013, 01:15:44 PM
I'm thinking of the list of people I'm going to have to contact asap once I get my name changed.
I'm not sure how notaries work. Do I just call them up and ask for an appointment?

Edge,

In my town we have notaries at public libraries too. You just walk in, tell them what you need, and it's free. You're in Canada though, right? Might be different.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Edge on May 10, 2013, 04:11:57 PM

Quote from: ford on May 10, 2013, 03:36:44 PM
Edge,

In my town we have notaries at public libraries too. You just walk in, tell them what you need, and it's free. You're in Canada though, right? Might be different.

Thanks. I don't think they're in libraries here, but I know where to find one. I just didn't know if I should call ahead or what. Thanks for the help though.

I am somehow in a conversation with a guy who wants to chat, but whenever I ask him what he wants to chat about, he says, "Hi I'm a bi male." I've already introduced myself. So I am wondering what exactly he's after and how I'm supposed to chat with so little to chat about.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Nero on May 10, 2013, 04:14:45 PM

I am beyond disturbed atm. I just opened my door for some fresh after-rain air. There is a dead robin staring up at me. On my porch. apparently hit the side of the house. A cat has apparently already been to it. This wouldn't be such a big deal, except that I am utterly terrified of any bird like creature (a side effect of my alektorophobia). I feel a terrible mix of emotions - disgust, horror, sadness. I can barely stand it. It's already been about 20 mins. My day is ruined. Right now, I am certain there is no god and if there is, it has no soul.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Edge on May 10, 2013, 04:38:50 PM

I'm sorry to hear that, FA. Is there someone around who can put the bird in a box (with a shovel maybe) to bury it?

The guy recently said, "I like trans men." ... I don't mind being liked, but this guy doesn't even know me. I don't want to be liked because I'm trans. I want to be liked because I'm me. Edit: yeah the guy is definitely a ->-bleeped-<-. "Best of both worlds" indeed. Now I'm trying to figure out how to explain why that is not a compliment.

I am thinking about what I should change my avatar to.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Adam (birkin) on May 10, 2013, 06:40:17 PM

Ugh, I hate when my mom is in the room and all I can think about is sex. I want the thoughts to go away but the more I want them gone the more they taunt me.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shang on May 10, 2013, 06:49:52 PM

I keep thinking if the depression will ever end.

Non-depressing thought: My dog's birthday was yesterday. :3 She's five.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: ZoeM on May 10, 2013, 06:55:00 PM

Some days I just can't feel anything but wrong. This is one such day. Shouldn't've pushed my luck with sizes at Goodwill. :(

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 10, 2013, 07:01:05 PM

money

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shang on May 10, 2013, 07:22:52 PM

I'm thinking this movie sucks.

I'm also thinking I just want to go to bed instead of trying to make myself stay awake, but it's too early to do that without getting questioned. But, ->-bleeped-<-, I'm so tired. These last few days have sucked so bad emotionally for me.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Keaira on May 10, 2013, 07:42:42 PM

Quote from: Prof HB on May 10, 2013, 06:40:17 PM
Ugh, I hate when my mom is in the room and all I can think about is sex. I want the thoughts to go away but the more I want them gone the more they taunt me.

Uuummm..... that sounds so wrong. Lol.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Adam (birkin) on May 10, 2013, 08:16:51 PM

Quote from: Keaira on May 10, 2013, 07:42:42 PM
Uuummm..... that sounds so wrong. Lol.

Ha...yeah, it really does. Just to clear things up, the sex thoughts did not involve my mother. :P

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Devlyn on May 10, 2013, 08:19:16 PM

Quote from: Prof HB on May 10, 2013, 08:16:51 PM
Ha...yeah, it really does. Just to clear things up, the sex thoughts did not involve my mother. :P

Yeah, thanks for clearing that up!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Renee on May 10, 2013, 08:51:25 PM

Wondering what weird or creepy thing is gonna happen next. This morning when I went outside the store to smoke a quick cig before it was time to open, there was a yellow rose under one of my wiper blades on my car. I'm not sure if it was there before I left the house or not since it was dark, so not sure if it was put there at the house or at the store. Kind of leaving me with a creepy feeling. *shudders*

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Keaira on May 10, 2013, 08:59:17 PM

Quote from: Prof HB on May 10, 2013, 08:16:51 PM
Ha...yeah, it really does. Just to clear things up, the sex thoughts did not involve my mother. :P

I'm really relieved to hear that. LOL

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Adam (birkin) on May 10, 2013, 10:14:41 PM

Quote from: Devlyn Marie on May 10, 2013, 08:19:16 PM
Yeah, thanks for clearing that up!

Quote from: Keaira on May 10, 2013, 08:59:17 PM
I'm really relieved to hear that. LOL

Well, T can do some scary things..... :P No, she was just sitting in the adjacent room playing on her ipad and I could hear her chewing her ice and I just hated having anything even remotely sexy in my head knowing she was there. I felt like she'd be ashamed of me knowing I am at all sexual lmao.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Imreallyconfused on May 10, 2013, 10:31:24 PM

Going to sleep is going to be a chore. I'm happy I got my surgery, but the medication makes me more sick than sleepy. I don't want to take it, but if I don't then I won't sleep because it hurts too much. Ahh decisions, decisions.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 10, 2013, 10:50:58 PM

top surgery

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: V M on May 11, 2013, 12:38:41 AM

Some of my co-workers...

(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.familycourtchronicles.com%2Fnewsletters%2Fclowns%2Fclowns.jpg&hash=ec2ba5db9d92af1ed9aa86154bfaf5b07dfb1b97)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 11, 2013, 01:05:38 AM

I love sour candy.

★★★★★

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Liminal Stranger on May 11, 2013, 02:46:22 PM

My dad came over today. I'm still not happy with him, but we did have a serious discussion and have hopefully reached an understanding and taken steps towards changing the course of future events. I don't want to see him end up sick or dead from alcoholism, and he had a vision of that happening the other day that shook him up very badly. But I'm keeping my guard up and not getting too hopeful, because I don't want to let anyone else get hurt ever again from this, including me. This may finally be the wake-up call he needed...I hope so.

Today I went to have my blood drawn and all, wait was forever and they tried to skip us so my mom got rather upset. Meanwhile I was just in a bad mood because she pretty much loudly outed me to the entire office. I hate that, it ruins any potential for me being happy and able to communicate when I'm labeled that way. Wish I could get over it but I can't, I guess that's why I'm transitioning. Though a little thing did cheer me up not too long after.

While filling out the coding, I guess the technician misread the numbers or something. This left me with the diagnoses as follows:
-viral infection nos
-testicular hypofunction

I mean sure, that's one way to put it ;D
Now insurance may be wondering what my testicles have to do with hypoglycemia. Or why my chart says F if I supposedly have them. We'll just have to explain if they call up confused. But oh, this is hilarious.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on May 11, 2013, 03:03:17 PM

Quote from: Liminal Stranger on May 11, 2013, 02:46:22 PM
My dad came over today. I'm still not happy with him, but we did have a serious discussion and have hopefully reached an understanding and taken steps towards changing the course of future events. I don't want to see him end up sick or dead from alcoholism, and he had a vision of that happening the other day that shook him up very badly. But I'm keeping my guard up and not getting too hopeful, because I don't want to let anyone else get hurt ever again from this, including me. This may finally be the wake-up call he needed...I hope so.

Sometime that's what it takes for a full-blown alcoholic to see the light, we can only hope for the best!

Quote from: Liminal Stranger on May 11, 2013, 02:46:22 PM
Today I went to have my blood drawn....
While filling out the coding, I guess the technician misread the numbers or something. This left me with the diagnoses as follows:
-viral infection nos
-testicular hypofunction

I mean sure, that's one way to put it ;D
Now insurance may be wondering what my testicles have to do with hypoglycemia. Or why my chart says F if I supposedly have them. We'll just have to explain if they call up confused. But oh, this is hilarious.

Hilarious and yet scary considering the screw up and the the credibility of any of their findings.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 11, 2013, 03:29:30 PM

Call of Duty: Ghosts

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: DriftingCrow on May 11, 2013, 03:52:41 PM

Me so sleepy

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 11, 2013, 04:35:57 PM

My sister has her own life coaching business and I've thought about paying for a few sessions. I asked her if she would coach me on the path to being a porn star if I paid and she said yeah even though I could tell she was annoyed with that question. I used that question to see if she would guide me during my transition. I think she probably would help me. Problem is I know more about it transitioning than she does so i

I honestly got too lazy to finish the sentence.

I'm thinking about Izze peach soda now.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Edge on May 11, 2013, 04:39:51 PM

That sounds like a good idea, Malachite. (Not the porn star bit though.)

I'm thinking about myself and who I am and how I have a pretty good handle on who I am I think. I have to fix that procrastinating thing though.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Nero on May 11, 2013, 04:41:58 PM

Quote from: Edge on May 11, 2013, 04:39:51 PM
I have to fix that procrastinating thing though.

I'm thinking the same thing. Oh, the last few weeks of class...

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: DriftingCrow on May 11, 2013, 05:15:07 PM

my sister wants to write a crappy romance novel and self-publish on Amazon so she can make some money, and then we're going to move to a poor country where we can get a good exchange rate and live in luxury. But, the problem is: write about hot aliens our just copy 50 Shades of Gray?

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Adam (birkin) on May 11, 2013, 08:12:48 PM

Quote from: Malachite on May 11, 2013, 04:35:57 PM
I honestly got too lazy to finish the sentence.

I'm thinking about Izze peach soda now.

Literally my life.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Renee on May 11, 2013, 08:18:47 PM

I need to remember to pick up some rounds for my .25 berretta and maybe another box of 9mm for the s&w and do some practice, haven't really done any shooting in few years. Still creeped out too.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on May 11, 2013, 08:33:04 PM

Quote from: Renee on May 11, 2013, 08:18:47 PM
I need to remember to pick up some rounds for my .25 berretta and maybe another box of 9mm for the s&w and do some practice, haven't really done any shooting in few years. Still creeped out too.

Good plan, a nice looking woman like yourself living alone is often viewed as a potential target by predatory types! You might want to give your sheriff deputy neighbor a brief overview about what happened it will give you some CYA if you have to protect yourself from some kind of aggressive attack.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Renee on May 11, 2013, 08:47:50 PM

Quote from: Shantel on May 11, 2013, 08:33:04 PM
Good plan, a nice looking woman like yourself living alone is often viewed as a potential target by predatory types! You might want to give your sheriff deputy neighbor a brief overview about what happened it will give you some CYA if you have to protect yourself from some kind of aggressive attack.

Yeah, I am also going to ask to see what sort of personal protection is legal for me to carry concealed short of a gun. Like spray or small tazer.

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Post by: Devlyn on May 11, 2013, 08:57:32 PM

I'm thinking center of mass is nice, headshots can't testify.

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Post by: Shantel on May 11, 2013, 09:05:50 PM

Quote from: Renee on May 11, 2013, 08:47:50 PM
Yeah, I am also going to ask to see what sort of personal protection is legal for me to carry concealed short of a gun. Like spray or small tazer.

We want you safe Renee! :)

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Post by: King Malachite on May 11, 2013, 09:36:05 PM

Quote from: Edge on May 11, 2013, 04:39:51 PM
That sounds like a good idea, Malachite. (Not the porn star bit though.)

Though this was this one time I thought about becoming one lol.

Quote from: Prof HB on May 11, 2013, 08:12:48 PM
Literally my life.

Lazines and peach soda for you too???? You're a saint. ;D

Now I'm thinking about Honey Nut Cheerios. I love them.

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Post by: ZoeM on May 11, 2013, 10:38:36 PM

I KNEW Miss Hudson (on Elementary) was transgender, the first moment I saw her. Never seen the actor before, but first scene - yep. T-dar working at full power.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 11, 2013, 10:52:50 PM

Definately need to start getting the ball rolling with my transition after the summer.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Jamie D on May 12, 2013, 12:27:31 AM

Quote from: Prof HB on May 10, 2013, 06:40:17 PM
Ugh, I hate when my mom is in the room and all I can think about is sex. I want the thoughts to go away but the more I want them gone the more they taunt me.

Not legal in most states.

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Post by: Jamie D on May 12, 2013, 12:43:53 AM

Quote from: LearnedHand on May 11, 2013, 05:15:07 PM
my sister wants to write a crappy romance novel and self-publish on Amazon so she can make some money, and then we're going to move to a poor country where we can get a good exchange rate and live in luxury. But, the problem is: write about hot aliens our just copy 50 Shades of Gray?

Aliens? Romance?

I suggest, "50 Shades of Grays"

(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.conscendo.org%2Fimages%2Fsodalitas%2Fgray.jpg&hash=e784f56e4eea3dd5a50a6e0503f730b349acab3c)

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Post by: King Malachite on May 12, 2013, 12:45:34 AM

Church today

Video games

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Dovahkiin on May 12, 2013, 05:05:19 AM

I'm absolutely dreading my mechanics exam tomorrow...

Also my mate is going back to uni today which sucks because we only got to hang out once this week.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 12, 2013, 05:12:50 AM

That awkward moment when....

your five your old nephew finds your packer and asks "what is this".

>.>

Now I had to distract his mind with a video game. Hope it works.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Anna++ on May 12, 2013, 06:04:13 PM

I just moved around almost everything in my kitchen. I wonder how many times I'll open the wrong cupboard when looking for a water glass?

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Liminal Stranger on May 12, 2013, 06:29:17 PM

Seriously, computer? 27 degrees is most certainly not too hot for the CPU temperature. Get outta here. Bad enough the GPU is reading at 0 and the fan says it's doing 0 RPM, can't one sensor work right?

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Lorri Kat on May 12, 2013, 07:47:39 PM

Time is not physical, it is nothing more than a metric we use for gauging and quantifying the passage of events and sequences so that we may analyze and understand our surroundings. It is literally all in your head. We still gauge relativity with time, so we can measure it. Something moving at 1,000 meters a second from 2 miles away will appear to be moving much faster than it would if it were 1000 miles away. That is a matter of perception, not a gauge of time. In essence, yes. Time is indeed relative to the observer, but it is more than that, time does not flow at the same rate everywhere, this has been proven such as photons which live and die in the same instance yet can travel a billion light years . Time also has a relationship with speed and gravity. And although faster than light travel may be impossible in standard space time there are loopholes around this such as the Alcubierre warp drive data. While this warp metric is a valid solution of Einstein's equations of general relativity, we have no idea how to produce such a distortion of space-time. Its implementation would require the imposition of radical curvature on extended regions of space. Within our present state of knowledge, the only way of producing curved space is by using mass, and the masses we have available for works of engineering lead to negligible space curvature. Moreover, even if we could do engineering with mini black holes (which have lots of curved space near their surfaces) it is not clear how an Alcubierre warp could be produced. Our limits to understanding the universe are based on what we can actually perceive. We evolved such mental capacity by working together as humans. You would be correct that one brain has a capacity, but the passed down knowledge and continued research and education allows us to collectively see what the universe holds. Just life evolving through connections like it has for billions of years. Thusly our perception of reality is limited to the capacity at which we use our brains. And right now, that capacity is limited. Space on the other hand, is real. It is physical matter and energy, and what it is expanding into, we still do not know. Based on the current rate of our increasing capacity, it will be an eternity before we understand eternity.

..yea .. I was bored..with too much time to think.. about how to use that time

Right now I'm looking for some Ibuprofen........

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Post by: Shantel on May 12, 2013, 08:36:39 PM

Pretty heady stuff Lori Kat! :)

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Post by: Liminal Stranger on May 12, 2013, 09:31:45 PM

Huh, I've been thinking about that same concept for quite some time. Interesting to chew on when I have spare time.
...But then again, time is relative :P

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Robyn on May 12, 2013, 09:41:14 PM

The only part of time that is eternal is now. (A Course in Miracles)
Think about it.

Anyway, I am thinking about dinner and a nice cocktail to go with it.

Robyn

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Post by: King Malachite on May 12, 2013, 10:05:45 PM

Stupid mouse is already giving out....crap

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Post by: DriftingCrow on May 12, 2013, 10:17:24 PM

I feel like doing some yoga, but it's getting awfully late. I should go to bed instead. . .

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Post by: King Malachite on May 12, 2013, 11:01:40 PM

I was talking to my mother about potential locations I wanted to move to and here's how her responses were.

Texas- Hot

Florida- Hot

New York-dangerous

California-Creepy

Washington D.C.- *brief pause* I think I heard somewhere before that they had the highest capita for violence/murder

Australia-Hot

Brazil- Hot

Her response about California stuck out to me. I wonder why she felt the need to call it creepy. I hope it's not because of their more liberal stance on LBGT issues, but something tells that it is.

Me: ....

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 12, 2013, 11:55:13 PM

Quote from: Liam Erik on May 12, 2013, 11:45:05 PM
Hot's an issue? Don't you live in one of the Carolinas? :P

My kitty ran away :(

Indeed, South Carolina to be exact. We tend to have a few hot temperatures occasionally, but overall the weather tends to be mostly fair, though it's been a little cold and cloudy the last few weeks for some strange reason.

-hugs- I know that feeling as I had two cats that never came back but maybe your kitten will return.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Cassie 4 Ever!!! on May 13, 2013, 12:17:37 AM

I'm thinking about how my body will change and how it will look like on HRT and after the major changes have taken effect.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Dovahkiin on May 13, 2013, 03:54:35 AM

It's only 10 am but I'm thinking about what I'm gonna have for lunch. xD

Oh, I'm also thinking (and trying not to think) about my mechanics exam..

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 13, 2013, 04:19:29 AM

transitioning

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Keaira on May 13, 2013, 04:37:11 AM

I'm thinking about something that was posted on my Facebook by another Pad Brat (Child of a soldier).

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Avoidant_Personality_Disorder (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Avoidant_Personality_Disorder)
Avoidant personality disorder (AvPD), also known as anxious personality disorder,[1] is a Cluster C personality disorder recognized in the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders handbook as afflicting a person when they display a pervasive pattern of social inhibition, feelings of inadequacy, extreme sensitivity to negative evaluation, and avoidance of social interaction.[2]
People with avoidant personality disorder often consider themselves to be socially inept or personally unappealing and avoid social interaction for fear of being ridiculed, humiliated, rejected, or disliked. Avoidant personality disorder is usually first noticed in early adulthood. Childhood emotional neglect and peer group rejection (e.g. bullying) are both associated with an increased risk for the development of AvPD.
There is controversy as to whether avoidant personality disorder is a distinct disorder from generalized social phobia and it is contended by some that they are merely different conceptualisations of the same disorder, where avoidant personality disorder may represent the more severe form.[3][4] This is argued because generalized social phobia and avoidant personality disorder have similar diagnostic criteria and may share a similar causation, subjective experience, course, treatment, and identical underlying personality features, such as shyness.[5][6][7]
SYMPTOMS
Hypersensitivity to rejection/criticism (Definitely.)
Self-imposed social isolation (Spent a lot of time alone in my bedroom away from anyone.)
Extreme shyness or anxiety in social situations, though the person feels a strong desire for close relationships[10]
Avoids physical contact because it has been associated with an unpleasant or painful stimulus
Feelings of inadequacy (Yep. I feel that in spades.)
Severe low self-esteem (Check.)
Self-loathing (I'm on the fence with this one. Too many of us are like that on here. )
Mistrust of others
Emotional distancing related to intimacy
Highly self-conscious ( Again, I think thats a trans thing too.)
Self-critical about their problems relating to others
Problems in occupational functioning (See my crappy job retention history)
Lonely self-perception, although others may find the relationship with them meaningful
Feeling inferior to others (yep)
In some more extreme cases — agoraphobia
Utilizes fantasy as a form of escapism and to interrupt painful thoughts[11][12] (Star Trek was my escape.)

It's fairly common among Service Children it seem and I do display many of the symptoms. It was kind of an eye opener. And, after talking with a few Pad Brats, it seems we share a lot of the same quirks like the accent, humor, etc. I feel lots better knowing that. :)

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Post by: Shantel on May 13, 2013, 10:10:25 AM

Interesting, I see a lot of that exhibited here!

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Post by: kira21 ♡♡♡ on May 13, 2013, 10:17:06 AM

I am thinking that it looks like I am losing my job. Not quite sure how I will pay for my house, food and medical bills, but hey.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Anna++ on May 13, 2013, 10:19:25 AM

Quote from: Steph21 on May 13, 2013, 10:17:06 AM
I am thinking that it looks like I am losing my job. Not quite sure how I will pay for my house, food and medical bills, but hey.

Oh no! * hug * I hope things sort themselves out quickly.

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Post by: Shantel on May 13, 2013, 10:20:18 AM

Quote from: Steph21 on May 13, 2013, 10:17:06 AM
I am thinking that it looks like I am losing my job. Not quite sure how I will pay for my house, food and medical bills, but hey.

Gee Steph, sorry about that! Did the employer give you a reason?

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Elsa on May 13, 2013, 10:32:55 AM

Great have to sort my documents and the heat is killing me.

If I turn on the fan or the ventilation the papers go everywhere :(

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Dovahkiin on May 13, 2013, 11:48:37 AM

I want to go to bed... But I have to go to the maths tutor. I am so not in the mood for more maths.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Anna++ on May 13, 2013, 02:11:10 PM

I have a patch of vellus hair on my upper arm! I think it's new, I never noticed it before yesterday. I'd consider some kind of hair removal for the rest, but I'm fascinated by the idea of watching the vellus patch grow.

I hope the single terminal hair in the middle doesn't get lonely...

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: kira21 ♡♡♡ on May 13, 2013, 02:12:05 PM

Yeah, it's not their fault. It just sux. Well
, I won't pretend that it hasn't really upset me but we will be ok. Probably not the best time to have just started on hormones! I have cried all over the place. Think that kinda surprised my boss.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Adam (birkin) on May 13, 2013, 03:18:52 PM

I had a dream that I walked in on two strangers having sex. One was a cisgender man, and the other was a trans woman...I don't know what, why.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 13, 2013, 04:04:20 PM

Nothing

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Renee on May 13, 2013, 06:58:54 PM

That its time for bed and the doggy is already up there, impatiently waiting for me.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: DriftingCrow on May 13, 2013, 07:35:33 PM

I should wake up early tomorrow, exercise, shower, finish planting the flowers, run errands, and then hem Peter's pants.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 13, 2013, 09:59:16 PM

I just killed a spider and the guts are on the wall.

Not too sure how I feel about that.

It isn't the first time though.

I once killed a tiny spider in middle school. It was a Friday night and I was awakening from sleep and saw it crawling down towards me so I took a shoe and pushed it up to the ceiling and smashed it.

It's still there.

I should have added the date.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: ZoeM on May 13, 2013, 10:03:49 PM

Geez - guys and their spider handling.
Two days ago, I found a dead spider in its web in the corner.
Still creepy. I found a spare pen and used that to dispose of it. Disposed of the pen, too.

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Post by: Nero on May 13, 2013, 10:07:04 PM

Quote from: LearnedHand on May 13, 2013, 07:35:33 PM
I should wake up early tomorrow, exercise, shower, finish planting the flowers, run errands, and then hem Peter's pants.

Hmm Peter sounds like alucky guy...

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Post by: King Malachite on May 13, 2013, 10:12:11 PM

Quote from: ZoeM on May 13, 2013, 10:03:49 PM
Disposed of the pen, too.

You wasted a pen? :o

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Anna++ on May 13, 2013, 10:12:23 PM

Quote from: ZoeM on May 13, 2013, 10:03:49 PM
Geez - guys and their spider handling.
Two days ago, I found a dead spider in its web in the corner.
Still creepy. I found a spare pen and used that to dispose of it. Disposed of the pen, too.

I have a vacuum cleaner for that.

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Post by: ZoeM on May 13, 2013, 10:14:14 PM

Quote from: Malachite on May 13, 2013, 10:12:11 PM
You wasted a pen? :o

It had webs and dead spider on it! What was I supposed to do?

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on May 13, 2013, 10:14:46 PM

Quote from: Anna! on May 13, 2013, 10:12:23 PM
I have a vacuum cleaner for that.

But don't they creep back out when you're asleep?

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Post by: King Malachite on May 13, 2013, 10:51:53 PM

Quote from: ZoeM on May 13, 2013, 10:14:14 PM
It had webs and dead spider on it! What was I supposed to do?

Sell it on Craigslist! ;D

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Post by: Shantel on May 13, 2013, 10:57:24 PM

Quote from: Steph21 on May 13, 2013, 02:12:05 PM
Yeah, it's not their fault. It just sux. Well
, I won't pretend that it hasn't really upset me but we will be ok. Probably not the best time to have just started on hormones! I have cried all over the place. Think that kinda surprised my boss.

I'm sad for you Steph, so got anything up your sleeve in the way of a job?

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 13, 2013, 11:45:46 PM

I found a few plug in games I forgot I had that I'm going to put on Craigslist to sell. They aren't in the best of condition so I'm not going to make a lot but something is better than nothing. Besides, at least I'm going to have some fun testing them to see if they work. :D

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: V M on May 14, 2013, 12:15:38 AM

It is nearly the middle of May and it's finally warming up here and starting to feel like summer, so what possesses one of my neighbors to walk around singing and/or humming Christmas songs such as 'Oh Christmas tree' etc?

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Anna++ on May 14, 2013, 06:52:56 AM

Quote from: Shantel on May 13, 2013, 10:14:46 PM
But don't they creep back out when you're asleep?

I don't know... I'm usually asleep! Are you suggesting that I should get a cat? :)

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Post by: Shantel on May 14, 2013, 08:29:14 AM

Quote from: Anna! on May 14, 2013, 06:52:56 AM
I don't know... I'm usually asleep! Are you suggesting that I should get a cat? :)

Kittys are nice as long as there is no litter box and they have a cat door and can go outside and plant their kitty roca in the neighbor's flower garden. They do love to catch creepy crawlers skittering across the floor though!

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Post by: Anna++ on May 14, 2013, 09:45:57 AM

Quote from: Liam Erik on May 14, 2013, 09:42:49 AM
People keep telling me I should have a website from which to sell stuff. Does anyone know things about that? Posting here is the fanciest thing I know how to do on a computer.

The easiest would probably be selling things on amazon.com, but they may take a cut of the profits: http://www.amazon.com/gp/help/customer/display.html?ie=UTF8&nodeId=1161232 (http://www.amazon.com/gp/help/customer/display.html?ie=UTF8&nodeId=1161232)

Wordpress is fairly easy to set up, and it looks like they have an online-store plugin: http://wordpress.org/extend/plugins/wp-online-store/ (http://wordpress.org/extend/plugins/wp-online-store/)

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Post by: Renee on May 14, 2013, 02:45:29 PM

Opened this morning and now I'll be going back in a little bit after I eat to close. I could use the hours though, so...

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Edge on May 14, 2013, 02:55:24 PM

I'm frustrated by my small university and it's lack of classes.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 14, 2013, 03:39:12 PM

Start school Thursday....ugh!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: teri on May 14, 2013, 03:41:01 PM

how sad I feel about not having to courage to face my spouse and tell her that I am going to transition. I tried a couple of years ago and backed off when she objected. I need to find strength and courage.

teri

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Liminal Stranger on May 14, 2013, 07:06:53 PM

Wee, AP US History exam tomorrow. My teacher says he has complete faith in me, now let's see what the collegeboard thinks. Too bad one of the things they think is that I'm female, going to have to explain that to a college at some point if I want to at least try going stealth there. Oh well.

Can't seem to kick this bug I have, we'll know by Thursday or Friday if it's a mycobaterial infection (e.g. walking pneumonia) or just really bad sinusitis. The doctor didn't seem to like my cough too much.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 14, 2013, 07:39:01 PM

Craigslist

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Jamie D on May 15, 2013, 03:04:15 AM

Quote from: V M on May 14, 2013, 12:15:38 AM
It is nearly the middle of May and it's finally warming up here and starting to feel like summer, so what possesses one of my neighbors to walk around singing and/or humming Christmas songs such as 'Oh Christmas tree' etc?

"It's got a good beat and you can dance to it."

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Adam (birkin) on May 15, 2013, 07:04:02 AM

Damn it all. To. Hell.

I have to get up early (like in half an hour), and I got like...3 or 4 hours of extraordinarily interrupted sleep. Nightmares and tossing and turning. I have to be there for like 8 hours today and I just...arghhh. :'( :'( The way I am with T now, I HAVE to sleep when I am exhausted, I can't just drag my butt along all day like I used to. Otherwise I'd suck it up and if I don't get any sleep, too bad princess, sleep at the proper time or suffer endlessly. But no, body won't let that happen.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: ZoeM on May 15, 2013, 08:37:11 AM

Amazon's 1-touch feature is deadly on iPhone. I just almost (read: actually) bought a $600 model HMS Victory that I can neither afford nor fit in my apartment. Thank God for cancellations. :/

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: kira21 ♡♡♡ on May 15, 2013, 10:18:11 AM

I am thinking that I am in an unfair amount of pain. Well, at least I am not watching a Will Smith video, right?

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 15, 2013, 10:35:54 AM

When I was walking home, a guy told me "hey darling". That made me feel small.

Stupid girl mode

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on May 15, 2013, 10:39:27 AM

Quote from: Malachite on May 15, 2013, 10:35:54 AM
When I was walking home, a guy told me "hey darling". That made me feel small.

Stupid girl mode

Who knows, he may have been gay and thought you were a darling guy?

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 15, 2013, 10:41:34 AM

Quote from: Shantel on May 15, 2013, 10:39:27 AM
Who knows, he may have been gay and thought you were a darling guy?

Lol I wish

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Adam (birkin) on May 15, 2013, 02:11:00 PM

Quote from: Malachite on May 15, 2013, 10:35:54 AM
When I was walking home, a guy told me "hey darling". That made me feel small.

Stupid girl mode

Ew, I don't get why people feel the need to talk to "girls" they don't know like that...I mean, creepy much? Sure, I'll be nice to a random girl (or someone I perceive as a girl, I guess) on the street, but I'd never use pet names. It's just...ugh. And as a trans guy that's even worse...sorry that happened to you.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: teri on May 15, 2013, 02:40:14 PM

will I ever get used to boys talking to my boobs and not to my face.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 15, 2013, 04:12:17 PM

Quote from: Prof HB on May 15, 2013, 02:11:00 PM
Ew, I don't get why people feel the need to talk to "girls" they don't know like that...I mean, creepy much? Sure, I'll be nice to a random girl (or someone I perceive as a girl, I guess) on the street, but I'd never use pet names. It's just...ugh. And as a trans guy that's even worse...sorry that happened to you.

Exactly, the thing is, I wasn't even trying to look attractive. I just rolled out of bed pretty much and went to school and my hair was a mess. And the way he was looking at me was just....ew! Smh

My nephew found my packer Sunday, held it in his hand and asked "what is this" curiously. He unexpectadly came over and while I wasn't in my room, he decided to go snooping around to find it again. He took it into the living room where I was at with my sister and asked "what it this" again, laughing. He almost blew my cover. Now I have a feeling he is going to blab about it in the future.

That's it, I'm putting my packer on lockdown.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Edge on May 15, 2013, 04:13:41 PM

I am stressed out and frustrated by paperwork.
Also, one of my male friends has suggested things reminiscent of what male friends used to do before I had my son. I am not comfortable with that.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Liminal Stranger on May 15, 2013, 04:48:02 PM

If I have to fill out female on one more form this week, I may just drive a truck through my school. On a Saturday at 3 am of course so I don't kill anyone. But still. It feels like I'm blatantly lying and also pisses me off a LOT. And the stupid secretary was telling me about how there's makeup that you can put on to hide bags under your eyes because I mentioned that people don't think I get enough sleep because of them, because she implied that I never sleep or something. Lady, stop comparing me to your daughter just because she got a short haircut or wore "baggy boy pants" when she was my age. She grew up a lot and is now a beautiful young woman who wears interesting outfits and cosplays? Great for her, but I don't care!

And every day I've had people come up to me and say how "cute" my haircut is. Cute. Would you say that to a boy? No. Would you ask him if he chose to make it that short? Hell no. So why are you annoying me, go away. Also don't look so confused when I shoot you a withering look for screaming my birthname in the hallway every time you see me, you know my situation and are accepting so quit it.

On the other hand a person I hadn't told came up to me, used my preferred name and said it was cool. They all think it's cool for some reason, like getting a tattoo or riding a motorcycle. It's not cool when you're stuck in a building whose staff thinks you're a girl, it sucks.

Now I just need to figure out how to tell these people to stop ruining my day all the time, it always happens just when I've forgotten that I'm not a cisguy with a lack of proper facial hair.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Edge on May 15, 2013, 06:50:52 PM

A couple people have joined my trans group that I suspect to be ->-bleeped-<-s. I know for sure that one is a ->-bleeped-<-. So now I'm wondering how to make it very clear that I am uncomfortable with this while at the same time not outright accusing them?

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Renee on May 15, 2013, 07:38:55 PM

Seeing some posts and responses makes me feel soo much uglier than normal.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: DriftingCrow on May 15, 2013, 07:41:29 PM

Quote from: Renee on May 15, 2013, 07:38:55 PM
Seeing some posts and responses makes me feel soo much uglier than normal.

Don't feel that way, you're as beautiful as a lotus flower.

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Post by: Shantel on May 15, 2013, 08:14:04 PM

Quote from: Renee on May 15, 2013, 07:38:55 PM
Seeing some posts and responses makes me feel soo much uglier than normal.

You're not ugly dang it, but I know what you mean. You might want to take a break from the vanity threads with all the photos of the young pretties, it only leads to thoughts of "if only I had 40 grand for FFS, another 20 K for SRS and 10K for a nice set of rockets I'd be happy. That's not necessarily so, trust me on this.

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Post by: Devlyn on May 15, 2013, 08:26:28 PM

Quote from: Edge on May 15, 2013, 06:50:52 PM
A couple people have joined my trans group that I suspect to be ->-bleeped-<-s. I know for sure that one is a ->-bleeped-<-. So now I'm wondering how to make it very clear that I am uncomfortable with this while at the same time not outright accusing them?

Edge, refresh my memory. Is this a group that you started? A good set of rules is essential. Apply them across the board and no one can feel accused. Hugs, Devlyn

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Post by: King Malachite on May 15, 2013, 08:27:55 PM

Oh no....my sister is pregnant again.

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Post by: Devlyn on May 15, 2013, 08:29:41 PM

Big stogey for Uncle Malachite!

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Post by: Simon on May 15, 2013, 08:42:40 PM

Went shopping with my gf today and she stopped by the salon for a trim. I'm sitting there waiting and her hairstylist asks her if her boyfriend is a police officer.

Either I have an air of authority or come off as super masculine.

Either way I like it and it felt good. ;D

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Post by: Adam (birkin) on May 15, 2013, 09:47:56 PM

Quote from: Edge on May 15, 2013, 06:50:52 PM
A couple people have joined my trans group that I suspect to be ->-bleeped-<-s. I know for sure that one is a ->-bleeped-<-. So now I'm wondering how to make it very clear that I am uncomfortable with this while at the same time not outright accusing them?

Well, it depends...can you tell us what they are doing that makes you think they're ->-bleeped-<-s? Things that they are saying or doing?

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Post by: Edge on May 15, 2013, 10:34:55 PM

The one I know is told me he is specifically looking for someone to date because he considers trans people to be the "best of both worlds." I checked both of their pages once I added them and their likes that I can see are exclusively explicit "sexy" stuff that refer to trans women as "she-males" and "->-bleeped-<-s." Can I just remove them or would that be unfair?
Edit: Ha! Both are now removed. Sayonara gross a-holes.

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Post by: King Malachite on May 15, 2013, 10:49:29 PM

Quote from: Devlyn Marie on May 15, 2013, 08:29:41 PM
Big stogey for Uncle Malachite!

I have no clue how I'm going to cope lol.

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Post by: Adam (birkin) on May 15, 2013, 11:09:04 PM

Quote from: Edge on May 15, 2013, 10:34:55 PM
The one I know is told me he is specifically looking for someone to date because he considers trans people to be the "best of both worlds." I checked both of their pages once I added them and their likes that I can see are exclusively explicit "sexy" stuff that refer to trans women as "she-males" and "->-bleeped-<-s." Can I just remove them or would that be unfair?
Edit: Ha! Both are now removed. Sayonara gross a-holes.

Well, see if there can be a way to make it so that there is something in place dictating that the group is not for dating. Of course people might date, but it shouldn't be mentioned or brought up in the meetings. Something along the lines of it's a place for support and having anything that focusses on finding someone to date takes away from that.

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Post by: Edge on May 15, 2013, 11:53:54 PM

It already does say that. I added more security though.

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Post by: Adam (birkin) on May 15, 2013, 11:54:44 PM

->-bleeped-<-s are disgusting and grossly misinformed. I have absolutely no respect for them.

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Post by: King Malachite on May 16, 2013, 12:10:40 AM

My mother wants a storm door for her birthday but our house is so old that one has to be specifically customized which means for money that my sisters, but more importantly I, have to shell out.

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Post by: Jamie D on May 16, 2013, 01:34:28 AM

Quote from: Renee on May 15, 2013, 07:38:55 PM
Seeing some posts and responses makes me feel soo much uglier than normal.

Don't judge yourself by others.

"Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others, even the dull and the ignorant; they too have their story. Avoid loud and aggressive persons, they are vexations to the spirit. If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain and bitter; for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself. Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans."

You are not "ugly" by any stretch of the imagination I wish I could only be as pretty as you are.

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Post by: Jamie D on May 16, 2013, 01:37:31 AM

Quote from: Malachite on May 16, 2013, 12:10:40 AM
My mother wants a storm door for her birthday but our house is so old that one has to be specifically customized which means for money that my sisters, but more importantly I, have to shell out.

I have a suggestion ...

(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fmoosages.files.wordpress.com%2F2011%2F11%2F2011116192858.jpg&hash=02770a5a56f08f0641d28c064608764fd08f4d1c)

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Post by: King Malachite on May 16, 2013, 01:38:50 AM

Quote from: Jamie D on May 16, 2013, 01:37:31 AM
I have a suggestion ...

(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fmoosages.files.wordpress.com%2F2011%2F11%2F2011116192858.jpg&hash=02770a5a56f08f0641d28c064608764fd08f4d1c)

I'll ask her but I think she will say no lol.

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Post by: Adam (birkin) on May 16, 2013, 02:22:27 AM

Just took the nicest shower. I love that feeling of being perfectly clean and smelling great.

I've noticed that I've been expressing anger a little more often lately. I guess it was probably time, after the crap people were giving me.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Keaira on May 16, 2013, 04:08:09 AM

Its time I started trying to lose weight.

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Post by: Liminal Stranger on May 16, 2013, 05:18:07 AM

My school is too far away from my house. It should move closer.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: kira21 ♡♡♡ on May 16, 2013, 05:35:02 AM

Quote from: Keaira on May 16, 2013, 04:08:09 AM
Its time I started trying to lose weight.

Try not, do or do not, then is no try. ;-) x

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Post by: King Malachite on May 16, 2013, 06:17:31 AM

Going to clubs

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Post by: Adam (birkin) on May 16, 2013, 08:11:20 AM

Quote from: Keaira on May 16, 2013, 04:08:09 AM
Its time I started trying to lose weight.

*rips off your arms* There you go Deandra, 27 pounds off! What is your secret?

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Post by: Keaira on May 16, 2013, 08:22:55 AM

Quote from: Steph21 on May 16, 2013, 05:35:02 AM
Try not, do or do not, then is no try. ;-) x

Thank you Master Yoda :P
I said try because some exercises I can't do because of the lack of mobility in my lower left leg. Like jogging or running. Cycling didnt seem to give me any weight loss and just kind of helped make my calfs look defined yet again. I am going to start doing situps and see what that does for me. I dont know what I can do for my arms though. Ive seen girls on here go from body builder big to petite in no time but I still look like I've done some lifting.

Anyway, im feeing a bit bummed out right now so im off back to bed.

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Post by: Adam (birkin) on May 16, 2013, 08:28:02 AM

Quote from: Keaira on May 16, 2013, 08:22:55 AM
Anyway, im feeing a bit bummed out right now so im off back to bed.

Do I have to write on my belly again?

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Post by: ZoeM on May 16, 2013, 08:29:17 AM

Quote from: Keaira on May 16, 2013, 04:08:09 AM
Its time I started trying to lose weight.

1200 kCal a day, flat. The pounds just drop off - 2-ish a week! Plus, you can still have one large meal and breakfast!

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Post by: Shantel on May 16, 2013, 10:30:47 AM

Quote from: Liam Erik on May 16, 2013, 10:25:24 AM
We're zooming right in on completion of our hydroponics scheme except that I just realized we made a big blunder and I don't know how to fix it. I'm laughing my ass off now but it won't be so fun in a minute when it becomes a problem. :laugh:

What is it? Don't leave us hanging in suspense.....

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Post by: Renee on May 16, 2013, 10:36:14 AM

Dogs make lousy coasters....

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Post by: Shantel on May 16, 2013, 12:40:14 PM

Quote from: Liam Erik on May 16, 2013, 12:06:54 PM
It's not a problem after all :P It occurred to me that if I'm dousing everything with bleach solution, and the drain runs straight into the tub with the sheep's drinking water, then I'm washing a bunch of bleach into their water. And there's really nowhere else for the drain to run to if we had to reroute it. But I've been assured that it's diluted enough to be a non-issue. ::)

The lambs are growing so fast they look different every day. The only baby picture I managed to share (sorry) and the clear Bombur of the group is two months old and weighs probably over sixty pounds. This is NOT him, it's my Willa saying hello. If you remember some months ago I talked about how amazing the ram and a particular ewe were and how I wasn't thrilled about eating their daughters... and then when their daughter was born and I whined about not wanting to eat her... that's Willa, and yes, I'm keeping her ::) Could've had a really nice picture if she'd stood back a foot or two, but oh well. There is no single angle from which to truly do those ears justice.

Willa is just adorable, are your sure she isn't getting into the bleach? Her coat is so blonde! ;D :D

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Post by: Saison Marguerite on May 16, 2013, 12:56:39 PM

Quote from: Prof HB on May 16, 2013, 08:11:20 AM
*rips off your arms* There you go Deandra, 27 pounds off! What is your secret?

Do not reference that show!!! I don't need to be reminded that you need a lot of professional help...!

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Post by: Edge on May 16, 2013, 02:04:16 PM

I have no idea how I'm not tired yet.

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Post by: Nero on May 16, 2013, 03:18:48 PM

Quote from: Prof HB on May 16, 2013, 08:28:02 AM
Quote from: Keaira on May 16, 2013, 08:22:55 AM
Anyway, im feeing a bit bummed out right now so im off back to bed.

Do I have to write on my belly again?

Yes, please. We're waiting. lol

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Edge on May 16, 2013, 03:55:11 PM

One of my facebook things posted on of those "single, taken" things with "single, taken, waiting for a mad man in a blue box." Now part of me wants to get a crush on Whovian just so I can show up in a pretend Tardis. If I could make a convincing pretend Tardis.

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Post by: King Malachite on May 16, 2013, 04:07:33 PM

I got my degree in the mail today. My mother was super proud of me and she wants me to go further and get a Bachelor's degree. I doubt I will do that. Plus if I did, then my chosen school is private, which means more debt. I don't have time to get into that kind of debt when I have top surgery to consider.

Speaking of top surgery, I let those words slip out of my mouth earlier around my sisters. We were in the car and saw a man beggining for money and I man gave him some and I told her a good panhanlder can rack about $30,000 a year tax free and that I need to get into that business to pay for top surgery. When I realize I said that I said "I mean....Anime Expo." Luckily for me, they didn't say anything so I'm thinking they didn't even hear what I said. Gosh, first my nephew getting a hold of my packer and waving it around my sister and now this?

I hope I am able to get a new diploma when I change my name in the far future.

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Post by: ZoeM on May 16, 2013, 04:08:01 PM

Quote from: Edge on May 16, 2013, 03:55:11 PM
One of my facebook things posted on of those "single, taken" things with "single, taken, waiting for a mad man in a blue box." Now part of me wants to get a crush on Whovian just so I can show up in a pretend Tardis. If I could make a convincing pretend Tardis.

Ooh - will you bring fish sticks and custard?

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Post by: androgynoid on May 16, 2013, 08:11:02 PM

Quote from: Liam Erik on May 16, 2013, 12:06:54 PM
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi1213.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fcc474%2Floganerik%2FP1030281_zpsaaac3c39.jpg&hash=3a59bc67b4dcf641c555512d8041fd91e47c813b) (http://s1213.photobucket.com/user/loganerik/media/P1030281_zpsaaac3c39.jpg.html)

PRECIOUS BABY LET ME LOVE YOU

ahem

So the work dress code allows for 'moderate' jewelry, and one nose stud is the only facial jewelry allowed. It makes no mention of visible tattoos or hair color. I'm not going to be getting more visible tattoos, but I really want to bleach my hair and get my septum pierced. I'm thinking I could probably get away with this if I wore septum jewelry that could be flipped up for work...

Also, everyone I've met at this new job remembers my name perfectly. I don't know if it's because they're all fantastic with names or if I just stick in their minds as the only severely queer-looking person in the building. :D

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Post by: Adam (birkin) on May 16, 2013, 09:41:56 PM

Quote from: Not-so Fat Admin on May 16, 2013, 03:18:48 PM
Yes, please. We're waiting. lol

Lol. Yes. I remember that you have gotten the distinct pleasure of seeing my belly. :P I may just write something inspirational on it tonight if she doesn't perk up and stop being so hard on herself ;)

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Post by: King Malachite on May 16, 2013, 09:56:27 PM

Why did the overacheiver in my decide to take a summer class? UGH!

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Post by: Anna++ on May 17, 2013, 07:01:52 AM

Quote from: ZoeM on May 16, 2013, 04:08:01 PM
Quote from: Edge on May 16, 2013, 03:55:11 PM
One of my facebook things posted on of those "single, taken" things with "single, taken, waiting for a mad man in a blue box." Now part of me wants to get a crush on Whovian just so I can show up in a pretend Tardis. If I could make a convincing pretend Tardis.
Ooh - will you bring fish sticks and custard?

And show up in a bow tie? (bow ties are cool)

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Post by: Edge on May 17, 2013, 09:54:07 AM

Quote from: Anna! on May 17, 2013, 07:01:52 AM
Ooh - will you bring fish sticks and custard?

And show up in a bow tie? (bow ties are cool)

I may show up in a bow tie. (Bow ties are cool.) Fish sticks and custard may be a bit unwieldy, so I think they are something to make when I get there instead of brining it in the T.A.R.D.I.S.
Or, knowing me, I might to be tapping my fingers to a drumbeat only I can hear.

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Post by: ZoeM on May 17, 2013, 10:09:49 AM

Quote from: Edge on May 17, 2013, 09:54:07 AM
I may show up in a bow tie. (Bow ties are cool.) Fish sticks and custard may be a bit unwieldy, so I think they are something to make when I get there instead of brining it in the T.A.R.D.I.S.
Or, knowing me, I might to be tapping my fingers to a drumbeat only I can hear.

WRONG TIME LORD! Nobody wants to date the Master. D:

If you showed up with a bow tie and custard, though, well... *trigger fangirl mode*

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Post by: Edge on May 17, 2013, 10:18:14 AM

Quote from: ZoeM on May 17, 2013, 10:09:49 AM
WRONG TIME LORD! Nobody wants to date the Master. D:

If you showed up with a bow tie and custard, though, well... *trigger fangirl mode*

Yeah I'd rather not get shot. Mind you, no one wants to date me either, so...
Bow tie it is. I'll wait until I get there to make the custard though.

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Post by: Anna++ on May 17, 2013, 10:21:09 AM

ThinkGeek sells a TARDIS mini-fridge for the custard...

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Post by: ZoeM on May 17, 2013, 10:28:00 AM

It's agreed, then. Edge needs to dress up as Doctor 11, and post pictures. :D

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Post by: Anna++ on May 17, 2013, 10:31:46 AM

Yes. He can start here: http://www.thinkgeek.com/product/ea7b/ (http://www.thinkgeek.com/product/ea7b/)

I would love to attend the 50th Anniversary episode / movie thing as a genderswapped 4th Doctor. I've already got the scarf!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Edge on May 17, 2013, 10:41:06 AM

That coat is too expensive for me. If I look around Value Village though, I may be able to put together a costume for the 11th doctor. Not yet, however. I've got a list of other projects first. Also, if I do that before getting a crush on a Whovian, then it will be much less romantic.

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Post by: King Malachite on May 17, 2013, 03:09:33 PM

Video games

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Post by: Renee on May 17, 2013, 05:21:21 PM

Been a busy, busy day at work and I'm real glad I don't have to work nights regularly anymore.

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Post by: Renee on May 17, 2013, 06:49:59 PM

That its time for old, ugly people and little doggies to go to bed.

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Post by: Shantel on May 17, 2013, 07:40:51 PM

Quote from: Renee on May 17, 2013, 06:49:59 PM
That its time for old, ugly people and little doggies to go to bed.

Night ugly old thing, don't get any fleas! :icon_ballbounce:

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Post by: Adam (birkin) on May 17, 2013, 08:30:00 PM

I've been on my feet all day today *puts them up* Ahhh.

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Post by: King Malachite on May 17, 2013, 09:52:19 PM

I hope I'm not in class when E3 starts.

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Post by: Anna++ on May 17, 2013, 10:30:06 PM

Juggling festival tomorrow!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Simon on May 17, 2013, 10:43:28 PM

Top surgery. It's kinda becoming an obsession of mine. Just because I want to be comfortable and it gets hot as the center of Hades in the South every Summer.

Ugh, somebody cut these things off. >:(

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Adam (birkin) on May 17, 2013, 10:56:31 PM

Quote from: Simon on May 17, 2013, 10:43:28 PM
Top surgery. It's kinda becoming an obsession of mine. Just because I want to be comfortable and it gets hot as the center of Hades in the South every Summer.

Ugh, somebody cut these things off. >:(

Same here. I've also been concerned because of reading about the risks of long-term binding. It seems even safe binding can take its toll. Plus, I can only have "male" on my passport for two years...if I don't have SRS (which I think can include top and a hysto without genital surgery) I either have to renew my passport as "female" which, 3 years on T at that point...not feasible. Or not have a passport.

I hate how they assume with long ass waiting lists, we can all have surgery in two years.

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Post by: Simon on May 17, 2013, 11:07:40 PM

Quote from: Prof HB on May 17, 2013, 10:56:31 PM
Same here. I've also been concerned because of reading about the risks of long-term binding. It seems even safe binding can take its toll. Plus, I can only have "male" on my passport for two years...if I don't have SRS (which I think can include top and a hysto without genital surgery) I either have to renew my passport as "female" which, 3 years on T at that point...not feasible. Or not have a passport.

I hate how they assume with long ass waiting lists, we can all have surgery in two years.

Well, I've been binding over 14 years with no ill effects except the occasional blister. I've never owned an underworks or any of those. I've always used neoprene waist trimmers. I'm glad I did because I've heard the ones most guys use can cause back issues, rib bruising, and make your chest look wonky after awhile.

Not sure what to say about the passport but that sucks. I'm still legally female but have had my name changed since 2002. It's really never an issue except when I go to the DMV. They run my SS number and want to know why there are two names under it (my birthname and current name come up on it). It'll stay that way until I become legally male which in this State requires two letters. I have one coming soon for my hysto and my top surgery will be around this time next year.

I just want my top and to get legal. Then I'm going to chill for awhile and save for bottom surgery. Almost have enough for top (going to be over 8 grand). A waiting list? You must be Canadian or British. It's tough to wait but feel privileged you even have that option. I'm going to end up putting myself in a lot of debt once this is all over with. :-\

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Post by: King Malachite on May 17, 2013, 11:34:18 PM

Quote from: Simon on May 17, 2013, 11:07:40 PM
Well, I've been binding over 14 years with no ill effects except the occasional blister. I've never owned an underworks or any of those. I've always used neoprene waist trimmers. I'm glad I did because I've heard the ones most guys use can cause back issues, rib bruising, and make your chest look wonky after awhile.

Not sure what to say about the passport but that sucks. I'm still legally female but have had my name changed since 2002. It's really never an issue except when I go to the DMV. They run my SS number and want to know why there are two names under it (my birthname and current name come up on it). It'll stay that way until I become legally male which in this State requires two letters. I have one coming soon for my hysto and my top surgery will be around this time next year.

I just want my top and to get legal. Then I'm going to chill for awhile and save for bottom surgery. Almost have enough for top (going to be over 8 grand). A waiting list? You must be Canadian or British. It's tough to wait but feel privileged you even have that option. I'm going to end up putting myself in a lot of debt once this is all over with. :-\

By the way Simon have you decided on your top surgeon yet?

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Post by: Simon on May 17, 2013, 11:45:58 PM

Quote from: Malachite on May 17, 2013, 11:34:18 PM
By the way Simon have you decided on your top surgeon yet?

Nope, I probably won't until I get the rest of the money together (around tax time next year) and go talk to Macphee. I want to see if she has any portfolios I can look at of previous work she has done. If I like what I see then I'm going with her. She is expensive (right now $8200) but if I go out of State I'd end up paying the same or even more once everything was said and done.

Have you decided who you're going to go with?

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Adam (birkin) on May 17, 2013, 11:58:29 PM

Yeah, you're right Simon. I know how lucky I am. :) I've heard about too many people unable to afford SRS. And I am Canadian.

I may try the waist bands you're talking about. I've been looking for different ways of binding because I don't want to have issues, and I've tried sports bras but they're not quite enough...I'm losing weight on and off so I hope weight loss along with some alternate binding methods will allow me to still hide my chest and keep as safe as I can.

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Post by: Simon on May 18, 2013, 12:09:00 AM

The waist trimmers have always done me well. I've never had a mishap or anything with them. Like I said, once in a blue moon (like when I worked 10 hours or more a day) I would get the random blister. When you first get them (I usually buy two or three at a time at $5 a pop) they smell like rubber, lol. I throw them in the wash with my clothes and dry them on low. They last a decent amount of time and are easily replaceable. After awhile they usually crack in the dryer and then I just toss them or use the old ones for around the house.

If your body is changing shape they are a good option. I've lost a little bit since starting T but my chest is broader. If I was wearing underworks or something like that I'd have to buy a different binder. These just adjust.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 18, 2013, 12:36:19 AM

Quote from: Simon on May 17, 2013, 11:45:58 PM
Nope, I probably won't until I get the rest of the money together (around tax time next year) and go talk to Macphee. I want to see if she has any portfolios I can look at of previous work she has done. If I like what I see then I'm going with her. She is expensive (right now $8200) but if I go out of State I'd end up paying the same or even more once everything was said and done.

Have you decided who you're going to go with?

Right now I'm still going with Garramone but let me know if Dr. Macphee has any interesting results on larger guys! The the event that Garramone retires or dies before I can go to him I will need a second option (after I'm done crying a river of tears).

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Post by: Simon on May 18, 2013, 12:43:04 AM

Will do for sure.

If you do end up coming to NC for surgery one day make sure to let me know. I'd definitely want to meet up (and there would be no way you'd be going to surgery alone). That is if you need/want someone to go with you. My gf is an EMT so if you needed anything it'd be no issue helping you out (we've got a buttload of medical supplies).

I know you said it'll be a few years but I'm sure I'll be lurking around here somewhere still.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Chamillion on May 18, 2013, 05:19:54 AM

Currently thinking about how stupid it is that youtube has ads now on every video that play sound and can't be turned off. Not the ones before the video starts in the same window that the video will be in. The ones on the side that wait til you're about 15 seconds in and then when you think you're safe, it starts playing. And it's always twice as loud as whatever video you're watching. And half of mine are in Spanish, which is a language I don't speak or understand.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 18, 2013, 06:39:20 AM

Quote from: Simon on May 18, 2013, 12:43:04 AM
Will do for sure.

If you do end up coming to NC for surgery one day make sure to let me know. I'd definitely want to meet up (and there would be no way you'd be going to surgery alone). That is if you need/want someone to go with you. My gf is an EMT so if you needed anything it'd be no issue helping you out (we've got a buttload of medical supplies).

I know you said it'll be a few years but I'm sure I'll be lurking around here somewhere still.

Thanks man, I really do appreciate that. :) I'm debating if I should at least get my phone consultation in with Garramone in a few months.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Liminal Stranger on May 18, 2013, 12:15:45 PM

A substitute teacher who knows me was filling in for one of the gym teachers yesterday and loudly called me over by my birthname while my friends were gathered around him, then told the others to skidaddle, saying he "wanted to talk to her alone". Imaginably I had a heart attack, but they had left before he used a female pronoun and no one seems to notice that my birthname is obviously female. Maybe it's not Annie or Sarah or something like that but it's still a girl name. He only wanted to compliment my haircut, I explained quietly to him and he said it's fine and apologized if he had upset me or anything. He's a nice guy, just a bit annoying to have as a substitute because he does things very old-school and teacher-centered, we have a friendly rivalry any time he fills in for one of my classes.

They just think it's one of those dumb names parents give out of novelty to make a statement, I first thought that they knew I was trans but they don't appear to, I've been asked some very...male-specific questions before by people who did know my birthname (not the first time that guy has subbed in that class). I'll leave it at that :P

Also the lady upstairs from me who has known me since I was very little told me that I'm "a real gentleman" because I held the door for her, she recognized my mom and knows I don't have brothers or sisters. Yay for passing under unlikely parameters, when I went out yesterday I looked horribly feminine to myself too.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: ~RoadToTrista~ on May 18, 2013, 01:31:41 PM

It feels so refreshing to just go outside and take a walk for an hour, especially when you've spent all of your morning on the computer. ::)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on May 18, 2013, 02:28:31 PM

Quote from: ~RoadToTrista~ on May 18, 2013, 01:31:41 PM
It feels so refreshing to just go outside and take a walk for an hour, especially when you've spent all of your morning on the computer. ::)

Good way to avoid DVT too!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 18, 2013, 02:29:37 PM

Zakk Wylde

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Tossu-sama on May 18, 2013, 02:35:41 PM

What to draw next.
Well, mostly planning how to draw my latest character next.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Simon on May 18, 2013, 02:55:44 PM

Just talked to my mom (we usually talk once a week) and mentioned that I'm working towards saving up for my top surgery (I have to buy another car soon so that is going to set me back a little). She knows it's going to be between next Summer and the end of the year when I get it done depending on my class schedule. She's going to watch my dog a few days and is cool with everything.

...until I mention getting my birth certificate changed. I think I screwed up when I said, "It'll be like that person before never existed". She says, "well, I loved that person" and then gets upset. I tried to explain I am still that person it's just the shell has changed to reflect how I feel. She was still upset.

sigh.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Adam (birkin) on May 18, 2013, 03:02:58 PM

Quote from: Simon on May 18, 2013, 02:55:44 PM
Just talked to my mom (we usually talk once a week) and mentioned that I'm working towards saving up for my top surgery (I have to buy another car soon so that is going to set me back a little). She knows it's going to be between next Summer and the end of the year when I get it done depending on my class schedule. She's going to watch my dog a few days and is cool with everything.

...until I mention getting my birth certificate changed. I think I screwed up when I said, "It'll be like that person before never existed". She says, "well, I loved that person" and then gets upset. I tried to explain I am still that person it's just the shell has changed to reflect how I feel. She was still upset.

sigh.

It sucks that after so many years she still doesn't fully see you for who you are. :(

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Simon on May 18, 2013, 03:08:11 PM

Quote from: Prof HB on May 18, 2013, 03:02:58 PM
It sucks that after so many years she still doesn't fully see you for who you are. :(

Yeah, I am really patient with her and always have been. She has progressed leaps and bounds since this all started.

To some parents I think it's just hard to fully let go of the idea of that child you once had. She calls me Simon and uses the right pronouns flawlessly and has for the past decade so I can't complain.

Just upsets me when I upset her.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 18, 2013, 07:50:25 PM

I asked my father if there were any counselors at his job that I could talk to about my issues and he goes "you have two sisters, me, and your brother in law to talk to". I told him I need someone with experience and he goes "what do you think getting old is". Then I told him I need someone with an unbiased opinion and he goes into a tangent of showing me different neighboorhoods and how to spot certain types of people and that you don't need a degree to do that (wtf). Then we get into the topic of religion and I told him about a certain prayer I said to God and he told me that I need to stop getting sarcastic with God when I wasn't. Then he starts talking about random multiple wives out of no where. Then he ended the convo saying I don't need a counsulor yet because I haven't been born.

My father is a lunatic.....and he wants to act as my "counselor". I still love him though. I just hate to see what our relationship will be like once I transition since he's already against it/completely blows it off.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Renee on May 18, 2013, 08:35:26 PM

Saw the new Star Trek this afternoon. It was pretty good. Then pizza which was also pretty good. Now I have to wait for the dork to call me from work so I can get my damn key back when he closes because he left his at home today and I need it to open in the morning.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on May 18, 2013, 08:41:43 PM

Quote from: Renee on May 18, 2013, 08:35:26 PM
Saw the new Star Trek this afternoon. It was pretty good. Then pizza which was also pretty good. Now I have to wait for the dork to call me from work so I can get my damn key back when he closes because he left his at home today and I need it to open in the morning.

It's hard to soar like an eagle when you work with turkeys and your gut and arteries are full f pizza grease. ;D

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: DriftingCrow on May 18, 2013, 10:16:09 PM

Ah Powerball website work! I need to know if I lost! :D

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 18, 2013, 10:34:26 PM

I need to invest in a pair of sunglasses.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Simon on May 18, 2013, 11:11:16 PM

Quote from: Malachite on May 18, 2013, 07:50:25 PM
My father is a lunatic.....and he wants to act as my "counselor". I still love him though. I just hate to see what our relationship will be like once I transition since he's already against it/completely blows it off.

Your dad was all over the place in that conversation, lol.

I wouldn't worry too much about the future. There are plenty of people who have changed their tunes after seeing their loved one evolve in front of their eyes and become better people. I wish that is what people could understand from the get go. This is all about becoming better and happier whole people.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 18, 2013, 11:19:49 PM

Quote from: Simon on May 18, 2013, 11:11:16 PM
Your dad was all over the place in that conversation, lol.

I wouldn't worry too much about the future. There are plenty of people who have changed their tunes after seeing their loved one evolve in front of their eyes and become better people. I wish that is what people could understand from the get go. This is all about becoming better and happier whole people.

Lol he really was. Them seeing how happy I am afterwards is somethng I'm deeply hoping for as well. Right now, my family sees me as the relative that has no drive. I have a drive, but I just can't implement it yet but hopefully it all comes out in due timing.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Anna++ on May 19, 2013, 02:36:03 PM

LAUNDRY! * runs to the dryer where her clothes have been sitting for about 4 hours *

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Renee on May 19, 2013, 03:23:07 PM

Quote from: Shantel on May 18, 2013, 08:41:43 PM
It's hard to soar like an eagle when you work with turkeys and your gut and arteries are full f pizza grease. ;D

pfftt...

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: androgynoid on May 19, 2013, 03:28:24 PM

Quote from: Anna! on May 19, 2013, 02:36:03 PM
LAUNDRY! * runs to the dryer where her clothes have been sitting for about 4 hours *

I did that with COFFEE! earlier when I realized that I had started the coffeemaker an hour and a half before. Nuked it a minute and it was okay, but not as tasty as fresh.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Simon on May 19, 2013, 03:50:43 PM

Sitting here eating my gf's greek yogurt (this stuff is bangin') thinking about attempting to give myself a shot for the first time on Tuesday.

Yeah, it is a "macho" thing for me a little bit...just to know I am capable of being self sufficient. More than that though is I NEED to be able to do it starting this Fall. My gf works night and is in class during the morning. I will be in class during the morning and working in the afternoons. Our paths aren't going to cross very much on Tuesdays.

I just hope I won't pass out and break the needle off in my thigh, lol.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Edge on May 19, 2013, 08:37:17 PM

I'm thinking there should be a picture of Rory in a centurion outfit with a bunch of exploding spaceships behind him next to the word badass in the dictionary.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 19, 2013, 09:03:05 PM

ugh school tommorrow

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 19, 2013, 11:12:44 PM

My cousin was asking my sister and I a lot of questions about religions, denominations, and faith Sunday. She's confused on what to believe in and she wants to know more about what certain denominations believe about certain things. My sister gave my cousin her view point on different subjects and I gave my cousin my view points that greatly differ. I told my cousin to meet me Friday or Saturday if she wanted to see a lot of great debates on some subjects in order to help her in her beliefs only if she's serious. Something tells me she will forget or blow it off but then again, who knows? The one thing both my sister and I agree on is that eventually she will have to do the research and studying by herself. I don't want her beliving in xyz because they are my beliefs according to my study (although that would be awesome), but at the same time, I don't want her beliving in xyz beliefs because my sister believes in them and she just happens to be a pastor. I'm interested to see where her journey leads since I'm on a similar path myself.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: V M on May 20, 2013, 01:02:18 AM

Is it wrong to refer to the new Star Trek as Fart Snox?

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Jamie D on May 20, 2013, 03:22:48 AM

Quote from: V M on May 20, 2013, 01:02:18 AM
Is it wrong to refer to the new Star Trek as Fart Snox?

Yes, it would.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Anna++ on May 20, 2013, 09:05:38 AM

The blades on my ceiling fan collected a lot of dust over the winter... now I have dust in my tea!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 20, 2013, 10:44:30 AM

Glad to be home

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Devlyn on May 20, 2013, 10:47:06 AM

Quote from: Anna! on May 20, 2013, 09:05:38 AM
The blades on my ceiling fan collected a lot of dust over the winter... now I have dust in my tea!

Dus-tea!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on May 20, 2013, 11:31:53 AM

Quote from: Devlyn Marie on May 20, 2013, 10:47:06 AM
Dus-tea!

Haw, haw, haw there you go again Dev! ;D

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shodan on May 20, 2013, 12:02:18 PM

I'm thinking I need to win the lottery. I have so much I need done, and no money to do it. Hell. I can't even make rent some months. :icon_ashamed:

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: DriftingCrow on May 20, 2013, 12:11:22 PM

I forgot to buy gum. :(

Quote from: Liam Erik on May 19, 2013, 10:41:54 PM
Knitting woolen blankets is a wintertime pursuit. I'm sweating buckets just touching this thing.

summer is usually knitting vacation for me. . . perhapsthat'swhy I never have my projects done in time for winter

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Devlyn on May 20, 2013, 12:31:22 PM

Wondering how to trick these youths into digging an asparagus patch for me.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on May 20, 2013, 12:36:18 PM

Quote from: Devlyn Marie on May 20, 2013, 12:31:22 PM
Wondering how to trick these youths into digging an asparagus patch for me.

A wine tasting party? >:-) Probably wouldn't get much done come to think of it! ;D

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Anna++ on May 20, 2013, 12:46:53 PM

Quote from: Devlyn Marie on May 20, 2013, 12:31:22 PM
Wondering how to trick these youths into digging an asparagus patch for me.

Maybe Zoe will do it for more jelly beans? :P

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Devlyn on May 20, 2013, 01:07:44 PM

Quote from: Anna! on May 20, 2013, 12:46:53 PM
Maybe Zoe will do it for more jelly beans? :P

You may be on to something!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Adam (birkin) on May 20, 2013, 01:58:48 PM

Quote from: Devlyn Marie on May 20, 2013, 12:31:22 PM
Wondering how to trick these youths into digging an asparagus patch for me.

Feed them.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 20, 2013, 04:26:49 PM

Found out earlier that the same guy who feels the need to insist on his opinions is in my summer class this year. He's really a sweet guy and serves our county and I really appreciate him for that, but it's like he doesn't know when to stop talking. He triggered my dysphoria today by saying "I need a girl's perspective on something. and he finishes with "Thank you. I can tell you're a well-educated young Christian lady." I just wanted to tell him that I'm not a lady and that the advice I gave him was just common sense and not based off the Bible. Sweet guy though.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: DriftingCrow on May 20, 2013, 04:56:40 PM

I really need to see a gyno but I just don't feel like it. I also need to pick up more heartworm pills for my dog, I should put a reminder in my phone so I don't forget. Oh... that wicked awesome Italian bakery is like right down the street from the vet, maybe I should pick up some cannolis . . . yum. . . :eusa_drool:

Quote from: Devlyn Marie on May 20, 2013, 12:31:22 PM
Wondering how to trick these youths into digging an asparagus patch for me.

I'd do it if I was slightly closer to you (you know us RIers, if anything is more than 10-15 minutes away, it's a day trip :D )

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Liminal Stranger on May 20, 2013, 05:29:30 PM

My science class is making shirts with all of our names on the back. They put me down as Max. So happy c':

Some lady at a college fair yesterday asked my mom how old her son was when we were standing in line to check out a college. My mom didn't hear her the first time, so the lady goes, "Your son? What grade is he in?" and she says "11th" without skipping a beat. I stuck my tongue out at her when no one was looking, she told me to knock it off but laughed and said "See, I didn't say anything" and stuck her tongue out back at me. I thanked her for that.

But I'm having so many relationship issues. Oh well, everything seems mixed with good and bad lately instead of definitively all good or all bad days.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: DriftingCrow on May 20, 2013, 05:37:06 PM

Quote from: Liminal Stranger on May 20, 2013, 05:29:30 PM
My science class is making shirts with all of our names on the back. They put me down as Max. So happy c':

Some lady at a college fair yesterday asked my mom how old her son was when we were standing in line to check out a college. My mom didn't hear her the first time, so the lady goes, "Your son? What grade is he in?" and she says "11th" without skipping a beat. I stuck my tongue out at her when no one was looking, she told me to knock it off but laughed and said "See, I didn't say anything" and stuck her tongue out back at me. I thanked her for that.

But I'm having so many relationship issues. Oh well, everything seems mixed with good and bad lately instead of definitively all good or all bad days.

That's great Max!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Devlyn on May 20, 2013, 05:44:07 PM

"I'd do it if I was slightly closer to you (you know us RIers, if anything is more than 10-15 minutes away, it's a day trip"

Gotcha, you'd have to pack a "bahx lunch" for a trip like that!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 20, 2013, 06:25:55 PM

I would watch an erotic movie before I would watch a horror movie.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Simon on May 20, 2013, 08:05:27 PM

Quote from: Malachite on May 20, 2013, 06:25:55 PM
I would watch an erotic movie before I would watch a horror movie.

Ooooh, I was given a screener copy of "Dark Skies" to watch and I shouldn't have right before going to bed last night.

Aliens freak me out man.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Adam (birkin) on May 20, 2013, 08:07:01 PM

Yeah I just texted Keaira saying "Can we watch The Princess Diaries tonight? ;D" No one in real life can ever know of this.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Renee on May 20, 2013, 08:08:21 PM

Its weird, but I was over at an old friend's house tonight to clean up his pc and even though I've talked to him and his wife off and on the last number of years, really haven't spent any time with them. But anyhoo, they accidentally misgendered me a few times, corrected themselves, apologized and told me to get onto them if they keep doing it, but really, it didn't so much bother me. I know they were trying and I know they accept me for me and care about me as a friend, so it wasn't such a big deal. I just don't get as bent out of shape as I used to about it. I just go on as if it didn't happen. That's kind of good, I guess.

Oh and they fed me a good meal too.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on May 20, 2013, 08:12:01 PM

Quote from: Renee on May 20, 2013, 08:08:21 PM
Its weird, but I was over at an old friend's house tonight to clean up his pc and even though I've talked to him and his wife off and on the last number of years, really haven't spent any time with them. But anyhoo, they accidentally misgendered me a few times, corrected themselves, apologized and told me to get onto them if they keep doing it, but really, it didn't so much bother me. I know they were trying and I know they accept me for me and care about me as a friend, so it wasn't such a big deal. I just don't get as bent out of shape as I used to about it. I just go on as if it didn't happen. That's kind of good, I guess.

Oh and they fed me a good meal too.

Good for you Renee that's big of you hon! Good thing they fed you I suppose huh? Smart folks, they know how to smooth things over! :D

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Renee on May 20, 2013, 08:14:29 PM

Quote from: Shantel on May 20, 2013, 08:12:01 PM
Good for you Renee that's big of you hon! Good thing they fed you I suppose huh? Smart folks, they know how to smooth things over! :D

I wasn't really planning on eating there, but chili cheese dogs were talked about and it just went from there, lol.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on May 20, 2013, 08:16:20 PM

Quote from: Renee on May 20, 2013, 08:14:29 PM
I wasn't really planning on eating there, but chili cheese dogs were talked about and it just went from there, lol.

They bought you off, hah girl you're so easy and predictable!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Simon on May 20, 2013, 08:16:51 PM

Quote from: Prof HB on May 20, 2013, 08:07:01 PM
Yeah I just texted Keaira saying "Can we watch The Princess Diaries tonight? ;D" No one in real life can ever know of this.

Haha, nothing wrong with that. I like older Disney movies from when I was a teen like "Brink" or "Man of the House".

Trying to think of something good to watch tonight. Just me, the dog, and cats here tonight so nobody else to help me decide. Hmm, I'm thinking of a Schwarzenegger movie marathon. :D

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 20, 2013, 08:17:50 PM

Quote from: Simon on May 20, 2013, 08:05:27 PM
Ooooh, I was given a screener copy of "Dark Skies" to watch and I shouldn't have right before going to bed last night.

Aliens freak me out man.

No kidding-the title itself sounds scary

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Renee on May 20, 2013, 08:31:07 PM

Quote from: Shantel on May 20, 2013, 08:16:20 PM
They bought you off, hah girl you're so easy and predictable!

Hey, I played hard to get, they had to ask me like three times if I wanted any.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on May 20, 2013, 08:33:50 PM

Quote from: Renee on May 20, 2013, 08:31:07 PM
Hey, I played hard to get, they had to ask me like three times if I wanted any.

Good plan, you don't want to look too obvious, they might think you're malnourished and too skinny!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 20, 2013, 09:46:34 PM

Trans people aren't going anywhere. I think that over time with more exposure, we will become more accepted, slowly but surely. Eventually those who hang on to hateful ideas about us will be seen at the crazy ones.

My opinion

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Simon on May 20, 2013, 10:56:12 PM

Quote from: Malachite on May 20, 2013, 09:46:34 PM
Trans people aren't going anywhere. I think that over time with more exposure, we will become more accepted, slowly but surely. Eventually those who hang on to hateful ideas about us will be seen at the crazy ones.

My opinion

I agree.

I've always thought that we need to be removed from GLBT. It puts a sexual connotation on Transgender and that's not what it's about. I know people will bring up Stonewall or say that it gets us more exposure...but sometimes more doesn't necessarily mean the right type of exposure.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: ford on May 20, 2013, 11:15:20 PM

Finally got my official job offer, and accepted it.

Then straight away I emailed HR, told them about being trans (all my hiring was done under the 'guise' of female me). I asked them how I should go about disclosing this to my future supervisor (who I've met as female me - ack!), etc.

So now I get to wait till tomorrow to hear back from them. I'm nervous as heck and it's all I'm thinking about :(

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Adam (birkin) on May 20, 2013, 11:19:11 PM

Quote from: Simon on May 20, 2013, 10:56:12 PM
I agree.

I've always thought that we need to be removed from GLBT. It puts a sexual connotation on Transgender and that's not what it's about. I know people will bring up Stonewall or say that it gets us more exposure...but sometimes more doesn't necessarily mean the right type of exposure.

I completely agree. Actually, I'm sad to say I've gotten really jaded with the gay community. I didn't come out as trans right away, I thought I was a lesbian (cause I thought lesbians wanted to be men lol), so I was involved in the lesbian community...but now, I find that gays and lesbians are the most ignorant towards me. I fit in better with cis straight people better than gays and lesbians.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Simon on May 20, 2013, 11:27:24 PM

Quote from: ford on May 20, 2013, 11:15:20 PM
Finally got my official job offer, and accepted it.

So now I get to wait till tomorrow to hear back from them. I'm nervous as heck and it's all I'm thinking about :(

Congrats! I know it's hard not to but try not to stress a lot. Que Sera, Sera.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Simon on May 20, 2013, 11:32:02 PM

Quote from: Prof HB on May 20, 2013, 11:19:11 PM
I completely agree. Actually, I'm sad to say I've gotten really jaded with the gay community.but now, I find that gays and lesbians are the most ignorant towards me. I fit in better with cis straight people better than gays and lesbians.

We have to try not to bash their community because I'm certain there are gays and lesbians who are very friendly towards trans people.

I just don't like being lumped together with them in GLBT. Just because of the sexual connotation.

__

Tuesday is T day and I'm thinking if I should try to do my shot now or wait until later in the day. If I end up sprawled out in the floor with a needle sticking out my thigh hopefully the dog will dial 911. :laugh:

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on May 21, 2013, 08:42:19 AM

Quote from: ford on May 20, 2013, 11:15:20 PM
Finally got my official job offer, and accepted it.

Then straight away I emailed HR, told them about being trans (all my hiring was done under the 'guise' of female me). I asked them how I should go about disclosing this to my future supervisor (who I've met as female me - ack!), etc.

So now I get to wait till tomorrow to hear back from them. I'm nervous as heck and it's all I'm thinking about :(

Hey Ford,
Be sure and give us an update on how it all comes out, I'm sure there are lots of ppl here that will be interested as it's one of the nerve wracking concerns of almost everyone.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Edge on May 21, 2013, 01:31:02 PM

I agree Simon and Caleb. I am also put off by the fact that a lot of the time when people say LGBT, they really just mean LGB.

Rory Pond is f-ing badass!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on May 21, 2013, 03:43:40 PM

Quote from: Edge on May 21, 2013, 01:31:02 PM
I agree Simon and Caleb. I am also put off by the fact that a lot of the time when people say LGBT, they really just mean LGB.

Rory Pond is f-ing badass!

Yeah, the T is always the bargaining chip that they throw at the political wolves to satiate their need for compromise when any legislation in favor of the GLB community is up for a vote. T will always get thrown under the bus by the GLB community because T issues are about gender ID as opposed to GLB issues which is about sexual preference. Gender and sex, two different animals altogether!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Simon on May 21, 2013, 04:25:26 PM

How I feel when I come across another trans person in real life: :)

(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi1117.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fk599%2FSimonSez81%2FStitchDifferent_zpse9d5bdd6.jpg&hash=f9200ad75b69c7d747d33d6f1dd01baec5dbeed6)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: kira21 ♡♡♡ on May 21, 2013, 04:58:55 PM

Quote from: Simon on May 21, 2013, 04:25:26 PM
How I feel when I come across another trans person in real life: :)

(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi1117.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fk599%2FSimonSez81%2FStitchDifferent_zpse9d5bdd6.jpg&hash=f9200ad75b69c7d747d33d6f1dd01baec5dbeed6)

Me too.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 21, 2013, 05:15:35 PM

Sometimes I feel useless since I can't help much here because of my lack of transition. I wish I could help more but it is what it is I guess.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Simon on May 21, 2013, 05:33:48 PM

Quote from: Malachite on May 21, 2013, 05:15:35 PM
Sometimes I feel useless since I can't help much here because of my lack of transition. I wish I could help more but it is what it is I guess.

You're a valued member of our Community so never feel that way. We all have to start somewhere. Besides, transition is just changing our shells...you're already all man inside. :)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: kira21 ♡♡♡ on May 21, 2013, 05:43:28 PM

I wish there was someone here to hug. I am feeling pretty low.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 21, 2013, 05:58:56 PM

Quote from: Simon on May 21, 2013, 05:33:48 PM
You're a valued member of our Community so never feel that way. We all have to start somewhere. Besides, transition is just changing our shells...you're already all man inside. :)

I think it comes from feeling more like a taker than a giver. I'm usually soaking in a lot of advice but I just don't have much experience to give any. I guess I feel more like a freeloader at times.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Simon on May 21, 2013, 06:04:20 PM

Quote from: Steph21 on May 21, 2013, 05:43:28 PM
I wish there was someone here to hug. I am feeling pretty low.

Aww, I'm sending a virtual (((hug))).

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Edge on May 21, 2013, 06:20:41 PM

Quote from: Malachite on May 21, 2013, 05:58:56 PM
I think it comes from feeling more like a taker than a giver. I'm usually soaking in a lot of advice but I just don't have much experience to give any. I guess I feel more like a freeloader at times.

I feel this way too.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 21, 2013, 06:22:14 PM

Quote from: Edge on May 21, 2013, 06:20:41 PM
I feel this way too.

Glad I'm not alone in that feeling. :'(

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Simon on May 21, 2013, 06:24:23 PM

Ahh, I remember that feeling.

Just remember there will be people who transitioned before you and one day there will be people who transitioned after you. Then you guys will have the knowledge to pass down.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Liminal Stranger on May 21, 2013, 06:27:37 PM

I need some sort of machine to make me turn 18 now so I can leave and start actually transitioning instead of being stuck with this half-prepubescent body and things on my chest and a parent who thinks that me living here means she should rule over every single tiny aspect of my life as if I'm not a person, but a piece of property to be divvied up however she pleases.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Adam (birkin) on May 21, 2013, 06:55:08 PM

Looking on the internet to find things to do with Keaira. I'm going to be there only from May 31 to June 8. I'm actually pretty pumped, looks like there's some cool things we could do but I have to check in with her on everything still (hint if you see this come online :P).

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: DriftingCrow on May 21, 2013, 09:43:29 PM

Just finished a brutal 4 hour long Zoning Board meeting, I think our billion something dollar project is going to get voted down due to a lack of basic science skills. Our expert witness: "physics is physics". Its amazing how such huge decisions lay in the hands of people who just don't understand.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: DriftingCrow on May 21, 2013, 10:39:46 PM

Quote from: Liam Erik on May 21, 2013, 10:37:49 PM
I finally drafted my coming out email to my dad and the 'send' button awaits. :icon_hover-alien: :icon_rah: It only took me two years to get this far. :P

Ah go Liam! I hope it goes well if you hit "send".

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Simon on May 21, 2013, 11:29:19 PM

Quote from: Liam Erik on May 21, 2013, 10:51:43 PM
I did it.

oh crap :icon_zombie:

Best of luck!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 22, 2013, 12:53:49 AM

Quote from: Simon on May 21, 2013, 06:24:23 PM
Ahh, I remember that feeling.

Just remember there will be people who transitioned before you and one day there will be people who transitioned after you. Then you guys will have the knowledge to pass down.

Hopefully I can start to get the ball rolling after the summer so I can help quicker.

I'm thinking about the cruise that my favorite lesbian web show is having. If I wasn't saving for top surgery I would definately go. Who am I kidding? I still probably wouldn't go since my parents and sisters would ask prying questions and would demand to know. I'm of legal age so I don't have to tell them anything but still, it would be awkward since I live with my mom. "Oh yes my conservative mother, I'm going on a cruise with a bunch of women who play lesbian actresses and it's going to be lesbians there and speed dating and a good time." Even if I did go, I'd be going alone and that's not fun.

I'm going to stick with the top surgery reason. It makes me seem more noble, dedicated and determined than "mother won't let me".

Noooo I can't go on this cruise. That would set me back several hundred dollars for top surgery. I need to focus on my priorities. PRIORITIES PRIORITIES PRIORITIES PRIORITIES. Keep your eyes on the goal Malachite!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Simon on May 22, 2013, 01:27:05 AM

Quote from: Malachite on May 22, 2013, 12:53:49 AM
Noooo I can't go on this cruise. That would set me back several hundred dollars for top surgery. I need to focus on my priorities. PRIORITIES PRIORITIES PRIORITIES PRIORITIES. Keep your eyes on the goal Malachite!

Haha, something tells me you're awful with money. Just think of what you'll appreciate more 5 years down the road.

---

Right now I'm thinking I sing pretty well to a Bon Jovi song now. I love how my voice is changing. :D

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: DriftingCrow on May 22, 2013, 06:56:33 AM

Quote from: Liam Erik on May 21, 2013, 10:51:43 PM
I did it.

oh crap :icon_zombie:

thanks LearnedHand, I'll just hide in my massive knitting project for a while, it seems safe in there. You remember we have the same book, Alice Starmore Aran Knitting? I'm doing the St Ciaran one, about sixty-some percent finished.

Thatseems like a great place to hide, show pictures when you're done. I had to take a break from mine, but I am at the armholes now. I am hoping to watch some British detective shows this weekend and get it further along. BTW, what yarn are you using? Store bought or one you spun yourself?

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Anna++ on May 22, 2013, 10:58:27 AM

Some people need to write better error messages:

QuoteError displaying the error page: Application Instantiation Error

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Renee on May 22, 2013, 11:51:04 AM

Quote from: Anna! on May 22, 2013, 10:58:27 AM
Some people need to write better error messages:

If I were to write error messages, it'd be along the line of "Oh sh**, you broke it, dumbass!" "Well, that kind of sucked, didn't it?" Stuff like that.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Anna++ on May 22, 2013, 11:52:01 AM

That's still more helpful than "Error displaying the error page" ...

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: ZoeM on May 22, 2013, 11:52:19 AM

Quote from: Anna! on May 22, 2013, 10:58:27 AM
Some people need to write better error messages:

Yeah - that always bugs me, too. :P

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Elsa on May 22, 2013, 01:02:57 PM

Wondering how the movie, "The Great Gatsby" is going to be and if I'm going to be able to see it.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Simon on May 22, 2013, 01:51:21 PM

Thinking that I love these Skullcandy headphones my mom gave me. I'm never going to be able to stop listening to music with them. 8)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on May 22, 2013, 05:04:18 PM

Quote from: Liam Erik on May 22, 2013, 04:27:15 PM
My dad emailed that he still loves me. We'll call it a win but my middle name is still paranoid.

I am feeling very icky and strung-out and I'm blaming it on hormones. I had to wind down my T for surgery and I've been off it entirely for over a week. I haven't felt this shade of disgusting in some time. But surgery in thirteen days so I'm going to put a sock in it and be happy instead :D

Such good news about your dad's response, they usually raise a little hell before caving so you're ahead of the curve on that issue.

Best wishes on your surgery, guess you'll be losing a couple of unwanted pounds. Got someone lined up to look after the critters while you're recovering?

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Simon on May 22, 2013, 05:12:11 PM

Quote from: Liam Erik on May 22, 2013, 04:27:15 PM
My dad emailed that he still loves me. We'll call it a win but my middle name is still paranoid.

I am feeling very icky and strung-out and I'm blaming it on hormones. I had to wind down my T for surgery and I've been off it entirely for over a week. I haven't felt this shade of disgusting in some time. But surgery in thirteen days so I'm going to put a sock in it and be happy instead :D

Glad he gave you a positive response. :)

Congrats on surgery! You're going to be soooo happy, so while having to lay off T for awhile sucks and throws everything out of whack it'll be worth it in just a few weeks.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: DriftingCrow on May 22, 2013, 05:48:57 PM

Cool Liam, glad the email went well ;D

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Liminal Stranger on May 22, 2013, 07:14:53 PM

Congrats, Liam! Good luck with top surgery!

I need to get my shorts out of storage but I'm too lazy to do it. I also realized today just how infuriating and distracting it is to me when proctors use my birth name and female pronouns when I'm taking a major exam and already was stranded in a train station for over an hour and a half en route to school to take said exam and was used as an armrest by some annoying man who thought that I needed an elbow in my side for another hour and a half. And how much I hate not being able to go shirtless. My mom still says that I have to be her "little baby girl" because I'm all she has and she doesn't want this for me or for her and it's like I'm erasing the person that was there before and deep down inside I'm still her little girl and yadda yadda yadda. At least today she's not screaming at my therapist. But I don't want to go back to school next year as a female and she's acting as a gigantic roadblock. Move it, lady- this is my life we're talking about here, not yours >:(

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 22, 2013, 07:23:20 PM

Quote from: Simon on May 22, 2013, 01:27:05 AM
Haha, something tells me you're awful with money. Just think of what you'll appreciate more 5 years down the road.

Lol my weakness mostly for video games but other than that, I do a pretty good job. I'm even starting to wait for price drops on video games more often or just watch the entire walkthroughs on Youtube as if I've played them myself.

I'm thinking if I got a job after the summer and work with spending money on only what's needed (with the occasional video game here and there) combined with the money I already have, then perhaps I can get it done within 2-3 years.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Edge on May 22, 2013, 07:37:09 PM

I'm wondering if I should cut my hair or not.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Adam (birkin) on May 22, 2013, 08:50:57 PM

You know, we never truly see how we affect other people.

My ex took a lot of videos when we were together since we only saw each other once a year. And one of them is just me holding her as we watch TV. And as I watched it now, I could see how happy she was as obviously, the camera had a different view than either of us did. Her eyes were glistening and she was smiling, especially when I would squeeze or kiss her hand.

But I had a horrible self-esteem and never truly believed she loved me. Which is why I did stuff to distance and protect myself - all things that damaged our relationship until we broke up over it. But I was entirely wrong; she was so in love with me and so happy to be with me.

It's kind of like the time that I was in counselling and I was talking to the therapist about how I thought I appeared to others. I told her I felt like others saw me as cowardly, shy, and stupid. She told me that shocked her, because I was so good at communicating with her, always made appropriate eye contact, and so on. She said she couldn't believe I saw myself that way when my external presentation was the opposite.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: natastic on May 22, 2013, 09:07:35 PM

I'm just full to the brim with regrets, soooo not winning at life. w00t.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 22, 2013, 10:22:51 PM

I need more video games.

So many dishes, ugh!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: ataraxiamachine on May 22, 2013, 10:42:06 PM

Quote from: Prof HB on May 22, 2013, 08:50:57 PM
You know, we never truly see how we affect other people.

You're right, and so much of what you had to say here resonated with me. I've been struggling to determine whether I'm just that good of an actor, or whether my self-image is just that distorted (hmmmmm, right?), and whether it really matters either way. I think we're probably all a lot more loveable than we think we are. Try not to let the old memories get you down too badly, you're not alone there, for sure.

Jake

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: V M on May 22, 2013, 10:46:30 PM

Never think funny thoughts while pouring olive oil from one container to another

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 23, 2013, 02:13:27 AM

I just found out that Chipin is no longer active. Gee I'm late to the party. And I was planning on using that to help fund my top surgery. No matter, since it won't be for a while anyways. I'm sure more funding sites will pop up. Indiegogo seems to b getting more attention.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Elsa on May 23, 2013, 07:06:06 AM

Congrats Liam! wish you best luck :)

Good thing I bought those "sporty" earphones - One of the ear piece accidently got dunked into my tea. :( Still works though.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Anna++ on May 23, 2013, 07:37:35 AM

Quote from: Malachite on May 23, 2013, 02:13:27 AM
I just found out that Chipin is no longer active. Gee I'm late to the party. And I was planning on using that to help fund my top surgery. No matter, since it won't be for a while anyways. I'm sure more funding sites will pop up. Indiegogo seems to b getting more attention.

What are the rules for Kickstarter? Could you use that instead?

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: ZoeM on May 23, 2013, 07:44:43 AM

Quote from: Anna! on May 23, 2013, 07:37:35 AM
What are the rules for Kickstarter? Could you use that instead?

What would he use for backer rewards? Pics of his chiseled abs, to be delivered six months after the kickstarter ends?

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Anna++ on May 23, 2013, 07:46:42 AM

I don't know, I haven't thought that far. I'd say it's up to Malachite to figure out :P

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 23, 2013, 10:00:23 AM

Can't say I've heard of that particular site but I'm definately checking it out!.

My stomach would definatelly take away from the abs too lol.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on May 23, 2013, 10:11:30 AM

Quote from: V M on May 22, 2013, 10:46:30 PM
Never think funny thoughts while pouring olive oil from one container to another

It doesn't matter how careful you are with olive oil, it just seems to ooze out on it's own and get everywhere.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Anna++ on May 23, 2013, 10:29:07 AM

I'm tired today... new goal: stop talking with people when I should be going to bed.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 23, 2013, 10:42:42 AM

School work ugh

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Simon on May 23, 2013, 01:11:00 PM

I'm thinking some North Carolina pulled pork BBQ sounds good right about now. If I go to the grocery store hungry I'll buy them out so need to grab a bite first. ;D

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shang on May 23, 2013, 01:32:59 PM

Blergh. @.<
__

Found out about an interesting phenomena called the Tulpa. I plan on working on this psychological construct over the next two or three months.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: DriftingCrow on May 23, 2013, 04:56:55 PM

how creepy. . . this crematory is across the street from the landfill, is in an industrial park sharing a building with a "cleaning and restoration" service and a plumber, their phone number is out of service. . . I think our client got cat ashes and her moms body was thrown in the dump.

now that I am down near little Italy, maybe I should get dinner

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Simon on May 23, 2013, 05:47:50 PM

Quote from: LearnedHand on May 23, 2013, 04:56:55 PM
I think our client got cat ashes and her moms body was thrown in the dump.

Oh, that's a lawsuit.

-----

I'm thinking the next cis person who asks "How'd ya get the name Simon" (I guess it IS uncommon in the Southern USA...but it can't be THAT uncommon) is getting a size 11 Nike shoved in their mouth.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: DriftingCrow on May 23, 2013, 06:06:33 PM

I didn't exercise this morning, trying to decide if I should force a workout in now since I am late in getting home since I swung by to check out that creepy place. . . Oh no, lazy day, maybe I'll just workout twice on Memorial Day.

Quote from: Simon on May 23, 2013, 05:47:50 PM
I'm thinking the next cis person who asks "How'd ya get the name Simon" (I guess it IS uncommon in the Southern USA...but it can't be THAT uncommon) is getting a size 11 Nike shoved in their mouth.

That would drive me crazy!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 23, 2013, 06:11:51 PM

The GTA V collector's edition suck.

What do you get for an extra $80? Blueprints....a hat....a bag....a box....and some DLC.

$80 can buy me another game

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Renee on May 23, 2013, 06:28:10 PM

Quote from: Simon on May 23, 2013, 05:47:50 PM

I'm thinking the next cis person who asks "How'd ya get the name Simon" (I guess it IS uncommon in the Southern USA...but it can't be THAT uncommon) is getting a size 11 Nike shoved in their mouth.

Well, are you going to tell us how you got it or not?

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Adam (birkin) on May 23, 2013, 06:32:38 PM

Quote from: Simon on May 23, 2013, 05:47:50 PM
I'm thinking the next cis person who asks "How'd ya get the name Simon" (I guess it IS uncommon in the Southern USA...but it can't be THAT uncommon) is getting a size 11 Nike shoved in their mouth.

Wtf, I've always thought Simon was a nice name, and certainly nothing out of the ordinary. That being said, I've been told that Caleb is apparently an unusual name. I don't hear it all over the place, sure, but it's far from unusual and unheard of. =/ And it's a classic name too, not one of these newer ones popping up. same deal with the name Simon. So who knows.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: DriftingCrow on May 23, 2013, 06:53:38 PM

I am thinking about getting a hair cut. I want something manly but where I won't look horrible while in girl mode at work. I am thinking something like this would be perfect:

(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi1337.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fo665%2FLearnedHand1%2FJF_Westknits_071_zpsbbb14bc6.jpg&hash=823758ae163276edfae1268b00007f84be8db014) (http://s1337.photobucket.com/user/LearnedHand1/media/JF_Westknits_071_zpsbbb14bc6.jpg.html)

(photo from Brooklyn Tweed's blog)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Simon on May 23, 2013, 06:54:23 PM

Quote from: Renee on May 23, 2013, 06:28:10 PM
Well, are you going to tell us how you got it or not?

My mom chose it out of a list of names I gave her that I could live with. I had a hard time picking a name and court was a few days away so she got to pick it.

I just tell cis people she's really religious (which isn't a lie) and named me after Simon in the Bible.

Quote from: Prof HB on May 23, 2013, 06:32:38 PM
Wtf, I've always thought Simon was a nice name, and certainly nothing out of the ordinary. That being said, I've been told that Caleb is apparently an unusual name. I don't hear it all over the place, sure, but it's far from unusual and unheard of. =/ And it's a classic name too, not one of these newer ones popping up. same deal with the name Simon. So who knows.

Really? Caleb is a typical name...I always though. I think people ask me because of my location. I get asked how I got it or if my parents are British. Simon is a name from the Middle Ages but not typical here. I am very glad it hasn't become a typical transguy name yet though (like Aiden, Kaiden, etc).

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Simon on May 23, 2013, 06:55:51 PM

Quote from: LearnedHand on May 23, 2013, 06:53:38 PM
I am thinking about getting a hair cut. I want something manly but where I won't look horrible while in girl mode at work. I am thinking something like this would be perfect:

I can see how that could be gender neutral (without the sideburns).

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 23, 2013, 07:09:42 PM

I'm so used to clicking on "skip ad" on Youtube that I skipped an ad I was actually interested in watching. Oh well, it will come back around.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Adam (birkin) on May 23, 2013, 07:37:22 PM

Quote from: Simon on May 23, 2013, 06:54:23 PM
I am very glad it hasn't become a typical transguy name yet though (like Aiden, Kaiden, etc).

I picked Caleb in 2009, and have found over the last year or so it's becoming more of a typical trans guy name...lol. There are also what Keaira calls "bastardized" versions of spelling for Caleb spreading around too. :P Oh well, it's also meaning that a lot of moms are naming their babies Caleb now, so it will be seen as a nice name I suppose.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Liminal Stranger on May 23, 2013, 07:46:00 PM

Quote from: A. G. Bheur on May 23, 2013, 01:32:59 PM
Blergh. @.<
__

Found out about an interesting phenomena called the Tulpa. I plan on working on this psychological construct over the next two or three months.

You and me both, my friend.

I NEED ALL OF THE CLASSES BUT THE SCHOOL DAY ISN'T LONG ENOUGH
FRAKING MUSIC REQUIREMENT

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Simon on May 23, 2013, 07:47:15 PM

Quote from: Malachite on May 23, 2013, 07:09:42 PM
I'm so used to clicking on "skip ad" on Youtube that I skipped an ad I was actually interested in watching. Oh well, it will come back around.

Get Ad Block Plus as an add on to your browser and never see those pesky ads again (I sound like an infomercial).

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 23, 2013, 07:57:22 PM

Quote from: Simon on May 23, 2013, 07:47:15 PM
Get Ad Block Plus as an add on to your browser and never see those pesky ads again (I sound like an infomercial).

Lol for a split second I actually thought you were hacked until I got to the last part.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Simon on May 23, 2013, 08:00:21 PM

Quote from: Malachite on May 23, 2013, 07:57:22 PM
Lol for a split second I actually thought you were hacked until I got to the last part.

Haha, it's a free add on that I've had for years and love. It's not buggy at all either.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shang on May 23, 2013, 08:29:05 PM

...if my parents get approved to live on base, 30 days after they move on I have to leave or my dad needs to seek special permission for me to stay with them. These means there's a good chance I won't have a home. ->-bleeped-<- you, life.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Adam (birkin) on May 23, 2013, 08:31:44 PM

Flight is booked to see Keaira now. May 31, Susan's will be spammed with photos of our sexy faces. :P

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: DriftingCrow on May 23, 2013, 08:42:31 PM

I am thinking we need a Tech section here on Susan's because I need someone to help me with all my tech problems. Like. . . I have outlook on my computer, but why can't I check my work e-mail which uses Outlook on my computer at home? And, why did the IRS website die on me today in the middle of applying for an EIN? And, how do I download my Pimsleur stuff onto my smartphone?

I wish I just lived in a tree sometimes.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: ZoeM on May 23, 2013, 08:45:26 PM

I just dislodged what I can only describe as a possibly-sapient Scylla from my shower drain. It was basically negating the need of the drain cover for drawing a bath.

Long hair, soap, conditioner... WAI?!?

v_v

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 23, 2013, 09:16:00 PM

My mother hates it when I sell things on Craigslist because of the stories she hear. I know she's scared for me but I tell her that bad things can happen anywhere. Also, I take the proper precautions in order to minimize safety risks. I usually meet at my school or at Walmart or sometimes at the corner store around me. I also carry an improvised weapon just in case. When I can, I have my sister or my father go with me. When no one can go with me I let my sister know exactly where I'm going and at what time and what I'm selling. When the emails are visible, I run them through Facebook and on the internet to find as much info about them as I can. I can't live in a box and be scared of the what-ifs. I've made over $100 doing Craigslists sales and have met some very friendly people. That would be $100 less I'd have for top surgery if I just lived in a box. I've only had one negative experience but even then, I didn't feel like my life was in danger. I know I can't reduce safety risks by 100 percent but that's a risk I'm willing to take. My mom said that she would just rather give me the money to stay safe but I know she wouldn't. That would get too pricey.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Adam (birkin) on May 23, 2013, 10:38:06 PM

I think, with the precautions you mentioned, it's very safe all in all. But it's nice that your mother is concerned for your well-being. :)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Imreallyconfused on May 23, 2013, 10:58:59 PM

I'm hungry, but I can't eat :'(

Quote from: LearnedHand on May 23, 2013, 08:42:31 PM
I am thinking we need a Tech section here on Susan's because I need someone to help me with all my tech problems. Like. . . I have outlook on my computer, but why can't I check my work e-mail which uses Outlook on my computer at home? And, why did the IRS website die on me today in the middle of applying for an EIN? And, how do I download my Pimsleur stuff onto my smartphone?

I wish I just lived in a tree sometimes.

If you would like help I can try my best. I build computers and mess with them a lot tech wise so I may be able to help. How to get things onto your phone I definitely know pretty much everything about ;D

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 23, 2013, 11:12:20 PM

Quote from: Prof HB on May 23, 2013, 10:38:06 PM
I think, with the precautions you mentioned, it's very safe all in all. But it's nice that your mother is concerned for your well-being. :)

I know she means well but sometimes I just wish she would hear me out.

I told my father about the situation and his response was "oh yeah, I forgot I have some things you can put on Craigslist to see if you get a hit" LOL

I just found out about my town having a "online yard sale" on facebook so I might get in on that action. That seems to be a little bit more safer since I can actually put a name to a face.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: MyKa on May 24, 2013, 04:25:45 AM

That's there's only one way to end this curse :(

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Liminal Stranger on May 24, 2013, 05:10:04 AM

I don't want to take the bus to the train to the correctional facility otherwise known as school today. It's raining and they're keeping us extra late for rehearsal. On a Friday afternoon. This is a most heinous crime.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Anna++ on May 24, 2013, 07:20:40 AM

Quote from: LearnedHand on May 23, 2013, 08:42:31 PM
Like. . . I have outlook on my computer, but why can't I check my work e-mail which uses Outlook on my computer at home?

You probably need to be on the corporate network. I can't read my email without connecting to the companies VPN (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/VPN)

Quote
And, why did the IRS website die on me today in the middle of applying for an EIN?

Murphy's law?

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And, how do I download my Pimsleur stuff onto my smartphone?

Carefully

I agree with the Tech section (said the Linux girl) :)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 24, 2013, 07:49:35 AM

I really wish I was more vocal about my gender issues as a child. Perhaps if I were more vocal, then I could have gotten the help I needed.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Adam (birkin) on May 24, 2013, 10:26:48 AM

I got some blood drawn for my tri-monthly check-up...she had to take it out of my hand and now there's a hard lump where the vein is. =/ Scary.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Mike+Char on May 24, 2013, 10:56:27 AM

if you pick out the bones can you give dogs fich?

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Chamillion on May 24, 2013, 12:31:35 PM

I'm thinking that Rite-Aid's "15 minute guarantee" for prescriptions is BS. I'm on page 70 of one of the books they're selling and I only picked it up while waiting last month. 70 pages in 2 visits? Come on, I don't read that fast.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: DriftingCrow on May 24, 2013, 02:05:22 PM

Melly, I'llhave to pm you the next time I have a problem ;D

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: DriftingCrow on May 24, 2013, 02:20:50 PM

Ugh, I have to go with my "female dog" boss to her sons boycott troop's clam bake at a volunteer fire department tonight. How will i survive? She's scary, and I think she thinks I made a mistake today at work with ordering some stuff.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 24, 2013, 04:37:10 PM

Quote from: Miss Bungle on May 24, 2013, 10:54:45 AM
Well, I thnk our society has been conditioned via the media to live in a state of constant fear. You never see anything positive on the news. My mom constantly fears for my life when I am out & about because she thinks that something will happen to me just because I am trans. I have been lucky enough to be able to blend in with the general female population at large so it isn't a concern to me and never was in the first place.

You can be a genetic male or a genetic female and still have bad things happen to you.

I agree. Certainly more positives happen than negatives. I told my mother she could be abducted on her way to work and mutilated, or someone could come in the house and do that. The ironic thing is she's always telling me to get out the house and do something, but when I finally do she doesn't want me to.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Edge on May 24, 2013, 05:50:53 PM

I'm going to costume thingy on sunday and I have two choices: I could go a Szayel from Bleach even though I don't have the hair yet and still need to make the glasses. Or I could get a red shirt and hoody (or use one I already own) and get the haircut I've been meaning to get anyway and go as the Master.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Anna++ on May 24, 2013, 06:14:22 PM

Why do I keep forgetting to turn on my rice cooker?

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Liminal Stranger on May 24, 2013, 06:47:18 PM

...Apparently there wasn't afterschool rehearsal today. Sheesh, lady, make up your mind!
Gym class today was odd in a good way, I've been semi-avoiding my ex out of fear that she still hates me and all but today I grew a pair and had a conversation. Yes my voice cracked so hard it squeaked, yes it wasn't a very long one, but we talked and things seem okay, I hugged her and she hugged back without any sort of hostility. At least something is going right.

Then I played basketball with my friends, she couldn't join though because she broke her toe the other day :/ Things got intensely competitive and at one point I was tackled while trying to take a shot, followed by my teammate tackling the guy who tackled me (we were playing 2 vs 2), and of course I forgot to wear a belt this morning so my lovely purple briefs were visible. No one noticed until my other friend who had been watching showed us a picture and said he was going to caption it "White boys can't play basketball" (he's hispanic and ridiculously good at throwing one-armed shots), everyone was howling with laughter because my underwear were showing. At least the lighting made them look like a shade of blue, I may go to an arts school but they'd never live it down if they knew I was wearing purple underwear. I laughed along with them but was busy noting the fact that in the picture, my shoulders and back look rather broad and manly and there's no distinct curvature where a female should have curves, instead it just angled directly into the waist (my back was facing the camera and I was lying on my side). Made me pretty happy that there didn't seem to be any noticeable hips because dysphoria has been coming and going in waves all week.

Had a semi-fight with my mom, but her argument seems to be weakening over time. Hopefully she'll let up enough that I can safely go by Max with teachers next year and use male pronouns and not worry that she's going to have a fit over it.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Simon on May 24, 2013, 07:07:16 PM

Had Mexican food for dinner and now relaxing with a case of Miller Lite. Don't judge...I'm flushing my kidneys, lol. ;)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Adam (birkin) on May 24, 2013, 07:12:39 PM

Quote from: Simon on May 24, 2013, 07:07:16 PM
Had Mexican food for dinner and now relaxing with a case of Miller Lite. Don't judge...I'm flushing my kidneys, lol. ;)

Make those kidneys work! Let them earn their keep. Lol

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on May 24, 2013, 08:15:48 PM

Quote from: Simon on May 24, 2013, 07:07:16 PM
Had Mexican food for dinner and now relaxing with a case of Miller Lite. Don't judge...I'm flushing my kidneys, lol. ;)

Not a bad choice for a flushing agent, but a whole case?

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: V M on May 24, 2013, 08:52:59 PM

One of my favorite parts from one of my favorite movies 8)

Blade Runner - TEARS IN RAIN [Hi-Res Video] (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a_saUN4j7Gw#)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Simon on May 24, 2013, 08:53:19 PM

Quote from: Shantel on May 24, 2013, 08:15:48 PM
Not a bad choice for a flushing agent, but a whole case?

I won't drink them all in one day...maybe half, haha.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Elsa on May 24, 2013, 08:57:13 PM

Just watched "I am not my body" I Am Not My Body - Documentary (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HJH7YzDrjY0#)

I think it's a really great video!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Adam (birkin) on May 25, 2013, 01:52:29 AM

I just realized that I've reached that point where I set my expectations so horribly low that I end up happily surprised when things go well. Lolol. Well hey, better than having unrealistic expectations and being constantly disappointed I suppose.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 25, 2013, 02:02:12 AM

Quote from: Prof HB on May 25, 2013, 01:52:29 AM
I just realized that I've reached that point where I set my expectations so horribly low that I end up happily surprised when things go well. Lolol. Well hey, better than having unrealistic expectations and being constantly disappointed I suppose.

That's how I live my life.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Adam (birkin) on May 25, 2013, 02:05:17 AM

Quote from: Malachite on May 25, 2013, 02:02:12 AM
That's how I live my life.

It's funny because I never used to be that way, believing people who said that sort of thing to be really sardonic...but I legitimately am happier for it.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Edge on May 25, 2013, 02:05:36 AM

When it comes to social interaction, I set my expectations horribly and realistically low and I still end up being constantly disappointed.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Simon on May 25, 2013, 02:25:26 AM

Quote from: Edge on May 25, 2013, 02:05:36 AM
When it comes to social interaction, I set my expectations horribly and realistically low and I still end up being constantly disappointed.

I have two real friends. I've always found it better to keep my circle really small. People tend to come with drama and issues. I don't do well with either.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Edge on May 25, 2013, 02:32:30 AM

Quote from: Simon on May 25, 2013, 02:25:26 AM
I have two real friends. I've always found it better to keep my circle really small. People tend to come with drama and issues. I don't do well with either.

Me neither. I don't mind when drama is beyond a person's control or when a legitimate issue is brought up to be dealt with in a reasonable manner. It's when people cause unnecessary drama that never resolves anything and is basically just them wanting to treat me like crap that pisses me off.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 25, 2013, 05:38:08 AM

Quote from: Prof HB on May 25, 2013, 02:05:17 AM
It's funny because I never used to be that way, believing people who said that sort of thing to be really sardonic...but I legitimately am happier for it.

Really? Same here about the happier part. I find when I have low expectations I typically do better.

I'm thinking about blue gummy bears. They are awesome. I'm also listening to a baptist sermon on gender identity. Ironically I paused it before the pastor started and went to go use the bathroom with an improvised stp device.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: DriftingCrow on May 25, 2013, 09:39:45 AM

My expectations are usually set pretty low as well, though I do often have high hopes for myself. I feel pretty happy.

I am thinking about how I need to exercise, I shouldn't have hit the snooze button a few times, that always screws up my day.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: V M on May 25, 2013, 09:46:39 AM

I love my snooze button >:-)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: DriftingCrow on May 25, 2013, 10:39:22 AM

I just worked out and now I feel like a monster! :icon_workout:

Quote from: V M on May 25, 2013, 09:46:39 AM
I love my snooze button >:-)

Me too, I always have to set my alarm to go off early that way I can push it :D

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on May 25, 2013, 10:47:03 AM

Quote from: LearnedHand on May 25, 2013, 10:39:22 AM
I just worked out and now I feel like a monster! :icon_workout:

Did you know that your body continues to burn calories at a higher rate throughout the rest of the day when you work out early in the day?

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: V M on May 25, 2013, 11:05:40 AM

Quote from: LearnedHand on May 25, 2013, 10:39:22 AM

Me too, I always have to set my alarm to go off early that way I can push it :D

My reasoning is because I often have insomnia so whenever I am actually able to sleep I go for it 8)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: ~RoadToTrista~ on May 25, 2013, 11:54:11 AM

Hippos are scary and the video of Vic Morrow dieing creeps me out.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: ~RoadToTrista~ on May 25, 2013, 11:56:17 AM

And Nancy Wake is a badass.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Anna++ on May 25, 2013, 02:54:18 PM

I just found $17.56 in change in a drawer. I have no idea what I'm going to do with it.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Adam (birkin) on May 25, 2013, 02:59:26 PM

My body needs to stop wanting the sex. The past few days it has been constant. *sigh* I'm legitimately getting annoyed.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Simon on May 25, 2013, 03:16:18 PM

Quote from: Prof HB on May 25, 2013, 02:59:26 PM
My body needs to stop wanting the sex. The past few days it has been constant. *sigh* I'm legitimately getting annoyed.

I get that way every week for a few days after my shot cycle.

-----

I'm thinking I miss my gf. After having her around for two days it sucks when she has to go back to work. :(

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 25, 2013, 05:38:24 PM

UFC prelims tonight-heck yeah!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Liminal Stranger on May 25, 2013, 05:40:26 PM

Today, my stomach is an abyss of infinite dimensions. I need more food.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Adam (birkin) on May 25, 2013, 05:41:41 PM

Quote from: Simon on May 25, 2013, 03:16:18 PM
I get that way every week for a few days after my shot cycle.

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I'm thinking I miss my gf. After having her around for two days it sucks when she has to go back to work. :(

Yeah, the only thing is is doesn't seem to be connected to my shot cycle. It just happens randomly and won't let up lol.

I'm thinking a few things:
- God, I'm so smitten for this girl and it's really bad and the signs are everywhere. -_- I went out and bought new clothes. Usually when I run out of things that fit, I stop by a thrift store and pick a few things that will cover my butt. But this time, I went and bought actual new ones, and I went into the fitting room and tried them on. I wouldn't do that if I didn't have a crush.
- I'm also thinking I come off as very unusual to people. And I don't really care anymore lol.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Anna++ on May 25, 2013, 08:25:08 PM

I love my new TARDIS key necklace! :D

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Liminal Stranger on May 25, 2013, 08:39:29 PM

So a lot of snacks and one giant steak later, I am finally full...for now.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: ZoeM on May 25, 2013, 08:43:18 PM

Quote from: Liminal Stranger on May 25, 2013, 08:39:29 PM
So a lot of snacks and one giant steak later, I am finally full...for now.

*sigh* Men...
XD

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 25, 2013, 09:05:48 PM

Awww the UFC prelims went off. I'm tuning in the for post show though.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Liminal Stranger on May 25, 2013, 09:14:39 PM

Quote from: ZoeM on May 25, 2013, 08:43:18 PM
*sigh* Men...
XD

:3

Hard work being a man, we need lots of fuel to keep the engine running. Speaking of which, I'm hungry again :P

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Anna++ on May 25, 2013, 09:18:11 PM

Quote from: Liminal Stranger on May 25, 2013, 09:14:39 PM
:3

Hard work being a man, we need lots of fuel to keep the engine running. Speaking of which, I'm hungry again :P

Maybe women just have a more efficient engine :laugh:

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: ZoeM on May 25, 2013, 09:21:54 PM

Quote from: Anna! on May 25, 2013, 09:18:11 PM
Maybe women just have a more efficient engine :laugh:

I agree with this assessment. Efficient engine and smooth bodywork. XD

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Anna++ on May 25, 2013, 09:27:16 PM

My internet can't handle Netflix and Susan's at the same time tonight. It's taken me 45 minutes to watch 10 minutes of a TV show :(

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Simon on May 25, 2013, 09:34:09 PM

Quote from: Liminal Stranger on May 25, 2013, 08:39:29 PM
So a lot of snacks and one giant steak later, I am finally full...for now.

Steak sounds good.

I'm making Gumbo right now (with sausage, chicken, and shrimp) to pour over rice. Wooo Weee that's how we do cajun cookin' in the South. :laugh:

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 25, 2013, 09:38:22 PM

UFC and orange juice

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Liminal Stranger on May 25, 2013, 09:42:22 PM

Quote from: Anna! on May 25, 2013, 09:18:11 PM
Maybe women just have a more efficient engine :laugh:

Haha, maybe so.

Never had gumbo but that steak was delicious and I could go for another. People keep asking me where I could possibly be putting all this food because I've somehow managed to eat an increasing amount (as if I didn't already) since I hit that growth spurt and lost some weight, so I tell them there's a black hole in my stomach ;D

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Simon on May 25, 2013, 10:03:49 PM

Quote from: Liminal Stranger on May 25, 2013, 09:42:22 PM
People keep asking me where I could possibly be putting all this food

Hollow leg?

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Liminal Stranger on May 25, 2013, 10:26:15 PM

Quote from: Simon on May 25, 2013, 10:03:49 PM
Hollow leg?

How'd you know?

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: DriftingCrow on May 26, 2013, 06:34:31 AM

Quote from: Simon on May 25, 2013, 09:34:09 PM
I'm making Gumbo right now (with sausage, chicken, and shrimp) to pour over rice. Wooo Weee that's how we do cajun cookin' in the South. :laugh:

I miss the South sometimes, there's no real Cajun places up here. :(

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Adam (birkin) on May 26, 2013, 01:00:08 PM

Last night I felt a pain from binding kick in. This morning it hurts more. I'm going out with my grandparents, and I can either choose to bind, or leave it and hope that I don't get misgendered at the restaurant with my chest unbound. :( I may have to go unbound, because in Indiana, if it's god awful hot I will not really have the option of not binding.

This sucks because I've always bound "safely" (as safely as you can - proper fitting, etc)...most days only for about 3 hours at a time, and not even every day if I can help it.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Simon on May 26, 2013, 01:28:07 PM

Quote from: Prof HB on May 26, 2013, 01:00:08 PM
Last night I felt a pain from binding kick in. This morning it hurts more.

Not the first time I've heard of a guy getting a binder related injury. Hope you feel better soon. You're emotionally stronger than I am...that's for sure. I can't even lay in the hospital after a surgery without a binder on. Can't get through life without Mister Bindario. :laugh:

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Adam (birkin) on May 26, 2013, 01:37:20 PM

Well, lol, that's not really the case because I just tried to put on a button on shirt in the mirror with just a sports bra and almost punched the mirror. A few times in the past, in efforts to limit my binding, I tried to go out when it was cold with a big hoodie on but ended up going home to put on a binder and being late. It sucks, this is the only time I really get down about being kinda fat, is when I'm dealing with these.

It's looking like I may have to bind for the time they take me out and then switch into a bra at their house. Stupid dysphoria, like I am 99% sure they only want to go to McDonalds.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Liminal Stranger on May 26, 2013, 02:30:24 PM

Ouch...feel better! I know that feeling, my mom gets mad at me because I will wake up early and then spend 25000 hours destroying my closet because I look in the mirror and keep seeing girl. Usually at that point she'll yell at me and I'll throw on whatever I pick up first and walk out the door, then dysphoria kicks in right before someone will read me as male and make me realize it's all in my head (until the next time it happens).

I forgot about those gift cards and should probably go get them again because I want to buy a real binder off amazon now instead of waiting for my birthday.

Also thinking about how to pack tomorrow if I go swimming, wet socks don't seem fun and I'd like to not lose my parts in the water XD
Might get a pair of tight-fitting underwear and wear that under my board shorts, I'll have to man up and deal with it.

Watched a couple of "Sh*t Transguys Say" videos on youtube, was crying with laughter. Chase's video is one of my favorites, also made me notice how much I tug on my shirt all the time when I'm out.

I'm thinking that I'm thinking about way too many things right now :laugh:

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: androgynoid on May 26, 2013, 02:42:50 PM

Quote from: Liminal Stranger on May 26, 2013, 02:30:24 PM
Also thinking about how to pack tomorrow if I go swimming, wet socks don't seem fun and I'd like to not lose my parts in the water XD
Might get a pair of tight-fitting underwear and wear that under my board shorts, I'll have to man up and deal with it.

Bahaha, imagine having to wring out your junk. ;D

Now I'm thinking about the time I wore a slightly padded bra to an amusement park and went on a water ride. Afterward I squeezed my boob and a whole rush of water came out. :D

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Simon on May 26, 2013, 02:51:45 PM

Quote from: Liminal Stranger on May 26, 2013, 02:30:24 PM
Watched a couple of "Sh*t Transguys Say" videos on youtube, was crying with laughter. Chase's video is one of my favorites, also made me notice how much I tug on my shirt all the time when I'm out.

Yep, my friend Paul constantly tells me "quit jacking your shirt". It really just becomes habit after awhile.

----

Speaking of chests I'm getting an almost unhealthy obsession with top surgery. My gf tells me to stop worrying about it, it's coming. Working towards getting it done around this time next year right before I have to go back in the hospital for scans. That way if another kidney surgery has to be done at least my chest will be done first.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: DriftingCrow on May 26, 2013, 02:52:54 PM

If my hands were only 1/4 inch bigger, I'd be able to open this jar. . .

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: TheLance on May 26, 2013, 02:53:35 PM

Is the person sitting over there a lesbian, a dude, or a trans dude, and should I try to be their friend...hmmm...

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Liminal Stranger on May 26, 2013, 03:24:07 PM

Why is it so significant that I, *birthname*, was helping my cismale friend when he had a bowtie malfunction right before our winter concert? :eusa_wall:
Being trans doesn't mean I'm incompetent when it comes to "guy" things- if anything, for me it means the opposite.

Weather permitting I will indeed be wringing copious dihydrogen monoxide from my junk :P

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Anna++ on May 26, 2013, 07:03:06 PM

I'm trying to convince myself to change into girl-clothes and sit on my deck with a book before it gets too dark to read. I feel this would be a good next-step for me... somebody give me a push! :)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Darkie on May 26, 2013, 07:08:26 PM

Quote from: Anna! on May 26, 2013, 07:03:06 PM
I'm trying to convince myself to change into girl-clothes and sit on my deck with a book before it gets too dark to read. I feel this would be a good next-step for me... somebody give me a push! :)

Woman, go put a cute outfit on and sit on the deck with a book! I would love to be able to sit on my porch right now but it's raining like crazy outside today. Go enjoy the sunshine for me!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Renee on May 26, 2013, 07:09:33 PM

its approaching sunset, so time for bed. Doggy has had an active day today, so I'm sure he's ready too.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Anna++ on May 26, 2013, 07:16:35 PM

Quote from: Darkie on May 26, 2013, 07:08:26 PM
Woman, go put a cute outfit on and sit on the deck with a book! I would love to be able to sit on my porch right now but it's raining like crazy outside today. Go enjoy the sunshine for me!

It's kind of cloudy out here, but i brought my tablet so i can report that i'm outside!

Darkie - is your sig from Tales of Symphonia 2?

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Post by: Edge on May 26, 2013, 07:17:00 PM

Quote from: Liminal Stranger on May 26, 2013, 03:24:07 PMWhy is it so significant that I, *birthname*, was helping my cismale friend when he had a bowtie malfunction right before our winter concert?

Bowties are cool.

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Post by: Darkie on May 26, 2013, 07:21:00 PM

Quote from: Anna! on May 26, 2013, 07:16:35 PM
It's kind of cloudy out here, but i brought my tablet so i can report that i'm outside!

Darkie - is your sig from Tales of Symphonia 2?

Yes! That makes me so happy you knew what that was! That quote really stuck a cord with me and I have really been trying to live by it. I loved that game dearly.

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Post by: Shantel on May 26, 2013, 07:25:40 PM

Quote from: Edge on May 26, 2013, 07:17:00 PM
Bowties are cool.

Oh Edge, only pinheads and nerds wear bowties hon, better get a pocket protector if you're going to go the bowtie route! :D

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Post by: Darkie on May 26, 2013, 07:30:46 PM

Quote from: Shantel on May 26, 2013, 07:25:40 PM
Oh Edge, only pinheads and nerds wear bowties hon, better get a pocket protector if you're going to go the bowtie route! :D

Bowties have been having a comeback thanks to Doctor Who.

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Post by: Anna++ on May 26, 2013, 07:33:00 PM

Quote from: Darkie on May 26, 2013, 07:21:00 PM
Yes! That makes me so happy you knew what that was! That quote really stuck a cord with me and I have really been trying to live by it. I loved that game dearly.

I can relate, i still have the line in my facebook quotes section. Maybe it stuck with you because Richter said it so often? :laugh: I missed the world exploring they had in Symphonia 1. I also missed playing as my favorite character - Sheena

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Post by: Shantel on May 26, 2013, 07:34:57 PM

Quote from: Darkie on May 26, 2013, 07:30:46 PM
Bowties have been having a comeback thanks to Doctor Who.

That may be true, but everyone i have ever seen in a bowtie is some kind of oddball nosepicker. Just my probably unwanted two bits worth. But manly guys never wear bowties, never!

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Post by: Darkie on May 26, 2013, 07:36:55 PM

Quote from: Anna! on May 26, 2013, 07:33:00 PM
I can relate, i still have the line in my facebook quotes section. Maybe it stuck with you because Richter said it so often? :laugh: I missed the world exploring they had in Symphonia 1. I also missed playing as my favorite character - Sheena

I love Tales games. And no, I think it is because a good friend of mine quoted it to me too after I heard it in the game. I've always been what I would consider a coward. I'm not very brave nor am I confident. So the fact that Emil struggled with it too and came to be a very strong young man really stuck with me. I'm glad to have found another Tales friend!

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Post by: Anna++ on May 26, 2013, 08:04:10 PM

Quote from: Darkie on May 26, 2013, 07:36:55 PM
I've always been what I would consider a coward. I'm not very brave nor am I confident.

We'll have to work on that :)

I got cold, came inside and put on Doctor Who :)

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Post by: Keaira on May 26, 2013, 08:45:47 PM

Quote from: Prof HB on May 26, 2013, 01:00:08 PM
Last night I felt a pain from binding kick in. This morning it hurts more. I'm going out with my grandparents, and I can either choose to bind, or leave it and hope that I don't get misgendered at the restaurant with my chest unbound. :( I may have to go unbound, because in Indiana, if it's god awful hot I will not really have the option of not binding.

This sucks because I've always bound "safely" (as safely as you can - proper fitting, etc)...most days only for about 3 hours at a time, and not even every day if I can help it.

*hugs* dont worry. If its hurting that bad, we will limit where we go and what we do. I will not risk your health. And dont you dare pretend it doesnt hurt because I can read you like a book mister.

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Post by: ZoeM on May 26, 2013, 08:50:50 PM

The skin on my legs is unbelievably soft. Like, if I press my fingernail into it the impression remains for several minutes.
I'm not sure if this is amazing or horrifying. '~'

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Post by: Anna++ on May 26, 2013, 08:52:53 PM

Quote from: ZoeM on May 26, 2013, 08:50:50 PM
The skin on my legs is unbelievably soft. Like, if I press my fingernail into it the impression remains for several minutes.
I'm not sure if this is amazing or horrifying. '~'

If you can't decide then definitely choose "amazing" since it sounds more positive! :)

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Post by: Simon on May 26, 2013, 09:01:45 PM

Quote from: ZoeM on May 26, 2013, 08:50:50 PM
The skin on my legs is unbelievably soft. Like, if I press my fingernail into it the impression remains for several minutes.
I'm not sure if this is amazing or horrifying. '~'

Sounds like you have some water retention.

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Post by: Edge on May 26, 2013, 09:05:04 PM

Quote from: Shantel on May 26, 2013, 07:25:40 PM
Oh Edge, only pinheads and nerds wear bowties hon, better get a pocket protector if you're going to go the bowtie route! :D

Pinhead, nerds, and the Doctor.

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Post by: Anna++ on May 26, 2013, 09:07:00 PM

Edge - if you go the bow tie route make sure you buy a matching fez :P

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Post by: V M on May 26, 2013, 09:25:48 PM

Join the bow tie rebellion!!! :D

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Post by: Anna++ on May 26, 2013, 09:37:02 PM

Or get yourself a spiffy scarf!

(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi1285.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fa599%2Farschuma%2FDSC_0118_zpsb531b072.jpg&hash=8597540f435781e67cb74c5735b793deb2a135cb)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Edge on May 26, 2013, 10:00:03 PM

Quote from: Anna! on May 26, 2013, 09:07:00 PMEdge - if you go the bow tie route make sure you buy a matching fez :P

Not me (wrong time lord). I was just quoting him. But I would like the tenth's coat. That is a spiffy scarf.

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Post by: ZoeM on May 26, 2013, 10:02:07 PM

Quote from: Edge on May 26, 2013, 10:00:03 PM
Not me (wrong time lord). I was just quoting him. But I would like the tenth's coat. That is a spiffy scarf.

I have the tenth's coat!
Don't quite think I need it any longer, tbh. You don't happen to be in Wisconsin, perchance?

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Post by: Liminal Stranger on May 26, 2013, 10:07:46 PM

Quote from: Edge on May 26, 2013, 07:17:00 PM
Bowties are cool.

Indeed they are, as are fezzes.

If the dog is in the living room, what is making such a racket underneath the dresser? It's not like we ever get large furry visitors during the summer, haven't had any in years, in fact.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Edge on May 26, 2013, 10:08:40 PM

Quote from: ZoeM on May 26, 2013, 10:02:07 PMI have the tenth's coat!
Don't quite think I need it any longer, tbh. You don't happen to be in Wisconsin, perchance?

Unfortunately, no. I am in Canada.

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Post by: Adam (birkin) on May 26, 2013, 10:34:49 PM

Quote from: Keaira on May 26, 2013, 08:45:47 PM
*hugs* dont worry. If its hurting that bad, we will limit where we go and what we do. I will not risk your health. And dont you dare pretend it doesnt hurt because I can read you like a book mister.

Yeah, but I just want to be able to go out and do normal stuff like any other guy. :(

I went unbound and it was pretty awkward. I wore a jacket even though it was hot, and sunk my hands deep into my pockets so the jacket came out, hiding the bumps. The rest of the time I hugged my jacket against me, kinda like i was awkwardly carrying it.

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Post by: V M on May 27, 2013, 01:25:05 AM

Why do some people say "Happy Memorial Day"? There is nothing happy about it

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Post by: Darkie on May 27, 2013, 01:29:14 AM

I'm sleepy but my brain doesn't want to go to bed.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: ZoeM on May 27, 2013, 07:57:12 AM

Trying to work up the courage to go to a meetup event (for 20-somethings/young professionals) today, en femme.

I have a feeling I'd look stranger if I tried to go in male attire, but... nerves!

Also, what the heck am I thinking? I'm barely to the 'looks female' stage on a good day! And what does one wear to a 20-somethings meetup, anyway? AAAH! D:

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Post by: Anna++ on May 27, 2013, 08:08:52 AM

Quote from: ZoeM on May 27, 2013, 07:57:12 AM
Trying to work up the courage to go to a meetup event (for 20-somethings/young professionals) today, en femme.

I have a feeling I'd look stranger if I tried to go in male attire, but... nerves!

Have you met any of the group before, and are you out to them? It might be a bit easier if one or two friends already know. Or you could just do it and tell yourself that once you're in the car it's too late to turn back :)

Quote
Also, what the heck am I thinking? I'm barely to the 'looks female' stage on a good day! And what does one wear to a 20-somethings meetup, anyway? AAAH! D:

The girls in my 20s meetup group all wear what I can best describe as "casual". So wear whatever you're comfortable with!

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Post by: DriftingCrow on May 27, 2013, 08:29:26 AM

Die snooze button! I've once again ruined my day! (At least it's just a holiday and now I just have to exercise at night instead of getting it out of the way)

My dog used to be a good back-up alarm, she'd just on top of me and smack my face with her paws, but she's been a sleepyhead lately and has been enjoying the snoozing too.

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Post by: Liminal Stranger on May 27, 2013, 08:53:43 AM

Breakfast: Spaghetti!

Why am I so hungry :c And tired. I actually have slept a full 8-9 hours every night this weekend (at least I think I did!). Maybe someone's been slipping T into my food XD

Oh, wishful thinking...

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Post by: Shantel on May 27, 2013, 09:05:10 AM

Quote from: Liminal Stranger on May 27, 2013, 08:53:43 AM
Breakfast: Spaghetti!

Why am I so hungry :c And tired. I actually have slept a full 8-9 hours every night this weekend (at least I think I did!). Maybe someone's been slipping T into my food XD

Oh, wishful thinking...

When my boys were in a growth spurt they could clean out a full refrigerator in two days and sleep in late. We put a roast in the oven for dinner, it should have lasted three days. We came home and it was gone, they ate the whole thing! On other occasions we'd come home and find that they had baked a cake or several dozen cookies. We'd say, "Ummm that smells good, how about a piece?" Nope, they ate it all, didn't leave a crumb. Max, you finally growing again, that's what it is! :D :laugh:

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Post by: Liminal Stranger on May 27, 2013, 10:06:38 AM

Quote from: Shantel on May 27, 2013, 09:05:10 AM
When my boys were in a growth spurt they could clean out a full refrigerator in two days and sleep in late. We put a roast in the oven for dinner, it should have lasted three days. We came home and it was gone, they ate the whole thing! On other occasions we'd come home and find that they had baked a cake or several dozen cookies. We'd say, "Ummm that smells good, how about a piece?" Nope, they ate it all, didn't leave a crumb. Max, you finally growing again, that's what it is! :D :laugh:

Hmm, sounds like my cousins...
And maybe so, hit a bit of a plateau since last month's episode out of the blue. My doctor took one look at me and said, "Well, you got bigger!", we all did a little victory dance because I now actually have a height on the growth curve instead of the no man's land underneath it.

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Post by: Simon on May 27, 2013, 01:16:24 PM

Eating some lunch and then making myself get ready to go see my grandfather. He lives in the town I grew up in so there are always bad feelings attached to driving through there to visit. I had a lot of pain in that town. I know a ton of people there and haven't been through since starting T. If anyone recognizes me by the red Ford Focus that's fine but they're not getting the chance to run their mouths or ask asinine questions. Going straight to his house and that is it.

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Post by: Adam (birkin) on May 27, 2013, 03:40:01 PM

YES!!!!!!!

I found a solution to my binding problem! I have this sports bra, but the stores here only sell padded ones, so obviously that makes my chest look...rather voluptuous lol.

So I turned it backwards! The back elastic doesn't cover my entire chest, but I pushed them downwards so that the strap held them down. It looks weird as hell when I am naked but under a shirt I am nearly flat. And it doesn't compress nearly as much and causes no pain. and it was FREE.

Eff to the yes. I am so relieved. I just need to find something similar, so I have duplicates and thank God I can just live my life now.

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Post by: Edge on May 27, 2013, 04:36:20 PM

Whenever I hear about people who made scientific discoveries in their teens, I feel angry with myself for being stupid in comparison.

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Post by: Darkie on May 27, 2013, 04:44:08 PM

Quote from: Prof HB on May 27, 2013, 03:40:01 PM
YES!!!!!!!

I found a solution to my binding problem! I have this sports bra, but the stores here only sell padded ones, so obviously that makes my chest look...rather voluptuous lol.

So I turned it backwards! The back elastic doesn't cover my entire chest, but I pushed them downwards so that the strap held them down. It looks weird as hell when I am naked but under a shirt I am nearly flat. And it doesn't compress nearly as much and causes no pain. and it was FREE.

Eff to the yes. I am so relieved. I just need to find something similar, so I have duplicates and thank God I can just live my life now.

Prof, I am so excited and happy for you! You just need to send me the details privately so I can try it too! Because of my asthma binding doesn't bode well with me for very long.

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Post by: Devlyn on May 27, 2013, 05:03:21 PM

I know an old lady who swallowed a fly....

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Liminal Stranger on May 27, 2013, 05:17:23 PM

Quote from: Darkie on May 27, 2013, 04:44:08 PM
Prof, I am so excited and happy for you! You just need to send me the details privately so I can try it too! Because of my asthma binding doesn't bode well with me for very long.

Hooray for innovation!

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Post by: Adam (birkin) on May 27, 2013, 05:27:04 PM

Quote from: Darkie on May 27, 2013, 04:44:08 PM
Prof, I am so excited and happy for you! You just need to send me the details privately so I can try it too! Because of my asthma binding doesn't bode well with me for very long.

I definitely will! I find it easier to explain with photos so I will PM you when I have access to a camera.

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Post by: Anna++ on May 27, 2013, 09:02:17 PM

I wonder how this is going to work out - One of my friends is crashing on my couch Wednesday through Sunday for another friend's wedding this weekend. I haven't told him about my transition yet, and I have my first laser appointment Wednesday evening. I need to talk with the friend that's getting married to make sure that this guy is safe to come out to so I don't have to worry about hiding laser burns or hormone pills.

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Post by: ZoeM on May 27, 2013, 09:08:06 PM

Quote from: Anna! on May 27, 2013, 09:02:17 PM
I wonder how this is going to work out - One of my friends is crashing on my couch Wednesday through Sunday for another friend's wedding this weekend. I haven't told him about my transition yet, and I have my first laser appointment Wednesday evening. I need to talk with the friend that's getting married to make sure that this guy is safe to come out to so I don't have to worry about hiding laser burns or hormone pills.

Ooh.. Sounds like an interesting discussion. :/
Good luck!

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Post by: Anna++ on May 27, 2013, 09:13:21 PM

Quote from: ZoeM on May 27, 2013, 09:08:06 PM
Ooh.. Sounds like an interesting discussion. :/
Good luck!

Thanks! I hope he'll be okay with it, but I might as well confirm with my other friends first. For reference - I'm out to both the bride and the groom, and I declined their offer to switch from groomsman to bridesmaid (because I still need to work on pushing my boundaries). I'm sure they'll be able to help me approach the situation :)

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Post by: Darkie on May 27, 2013, 09:18:53 PM

Quote from: Anna! on May 27, 2013, 09:13:21 PM
Thanks! I hope he'll be okay with it, but I might as well confirm with my other friends first. For reference - I'm out to both the bride and the groom, and I declined their offer to switch from groomsman to bridesmaid (because I still need to work on pushing my boundaries). I'm sure they'll be able to help me approach the situation :)

Well, if you are out to them I don't think they would have someone room with you that they think would freak out stay with you.

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Post by: Anna++ on May 27, 2013, 09:22:27 PM

Quote from: Darkie on May 27, 2013, 09:18:53 PM
Well, if you are out to them I don't think they would have someone room with you that they think would freak out stay with you.

The other friend sought me out a few months ago to ask about it, he didn't go through the bride and groom. He just wanted a cheap place to stay :)

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Post by: Darkie on May 27, 2013, 09:27:53 PM

Quote from: Anna! on May 27, 2013, 09:22:27 PM
The other friend sought me out a few months ago to ask about it, he didn't go through the bride and groom. He just wanted a cheap place to stay :)

Ah, I see. Well, you said you are still going to be a groomsmen right? If you are already going to be doing that and you just keep your pills in somewhere he won't find I think you will be fine if you are really worried about it.

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Post by: King Malachite on May 27, 2013, 11:49:47 PM

My mother washed my dishes yesterday night when I was passed out. I love her.

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Post by: Simon on May 28, 2013, 12:19:45 AM

I have a gf who will go buy me beer, bring it home, open a bottle, and hand it to me.

I'm a lucky lucky man. ;D

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Post by: Darkie on May 28, 2013, 12:38:49 AM

I'm thinking I shall say goodnight to all you lovely ladies and handsome gentlemen!

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Post by: TheLance on May 28, 2013, 12:44:46 AM

Gnite Darkie. Yep Simon, you're very lucky, lol. That's awesome. I'm thinkin'...boy, I really wish i was off tomorrow so I could have 2 off days in a row. My back is killin' me.

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Post by: King Malachite on May 28, 2013, 01:16:58 AM

As long as I get a C in my class, I will be absolutely happy.

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Post by: Liminal Stranger on May 28, 2013, 01:24:43 AM

Need to get some sleep but after spending the majority of the day half-conscious, my body has decided that this should be awake time. Meanwhile tomorrow I have an orchestral rehearsal all day, car broke down the friday before last so I have to take the bus in the morning to get to the train with the cello yet again. Bus itself is bad enough but people seem to grow so much more rude when you're traveling with a large instrument, which makes no sense to me. Weather report is bad too, though hopefully it won't be like Thursday when I had to run through rivers made out of flooded streets to get to my cello lesson and come home in the cold hours later with soaking wet socks and shoes. The chill still hasn't left my bones :/

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Elsa on May 28, 2013, 09:59:18 AM

Any ideas how long mascara last if the package is not opened?

There's a sale on make-up near where I live - so I've been considering buying an extra tube of mascara.

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Post by: Elsa on May 28, 2013, 10:03:13 AM

Lol - found an old post - https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php?topic=109125.0 (https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php?topic=109125.0) :)

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Post by: Shantel on May 28, 2013, 10:05:59 AM

Quote from: Alexia6 on May 28, 2013, 09:59:18 AM
Any ideas how long mascara last if the package is not opened?

There's a sale on make-up near where I live - so I've been considering buying an extra tube of mascara.

If it's not opened it should be OK. Mascara is one makeup item that needs to be disposed of after several months because it loads up with bacteria. I recall one pretty female actress that got a horrible eye infection from mascara that she had been using for a long time. She lost the eye and had a glass replacement. We don't want to take chances like that!

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Post by: Darkie on May 28, 2013, 10:07:52 AM

I don't want to go to work mommy. I'm sorry I put the cat in the dryer.

And Alexia, you don't want to use old mascara. You especially don't want to be having makeover night with a girl staying at your house and let her use your moms that hadn't been used since the early 80s. Having your mom scrub your eyes for 30 minutes because the mascara fused your eyes shut is really not fun. AT ALL.

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Post by: Anna++ on May 28, 2013, 10:15:23 AM

Quote from: Darkie on May 28, 2013, 10:07:52 AM
I don't want to go to work mommy. I'm sorry I put the cat in the dryer.

And Alexia, you don't want to use old mascara. You especially don't want to be having makeover night with a girl staying at your house and let her use your moms that hadn't been used since the early 80s. Having your mom scrub your eyes for 30 minutes because the mascara fused your eyes shut is really not fun. AT ALL.

Note to self: attach "purchased on" and "opened on" labels to all tubes of mascara...

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Post by: Darkie on May 28, 2013, 10:23:23 AM

Quote from: Anna! on May 28, 2013, 10:15:23 AM
Note to self: attach "purchased on" and "opened on" labels to all tubes of mascara...

Yea, it was horrible. Still terrified of the stuff.

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Post by: TheLance on May 28, 2013, 11:12:47 AM

Really wish my car wasn't totaled so I didn't have to ride the bus everywhere...

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Post by: Darkie on May 28, 2013, 11:23:03 AM

I really wish I wasn't at work because I am dressed girly and it is really making me upset. I bought this shirt because it made me feel pretty but now all I see is my chest when I look down. Probably should have posted this in the unhappy thread.. It is putting me in a bad mood..

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Elsa on May 28, 2013, 11:59:28 AM

Quote from: Darkie on May 28, 2013, 10:07:52 AM
And Alexia, you don't want to use old mascara. You especially don't want to be having makeover night with a girl staying at your house and let her use your moms that hadn't been used since the early 80s. Having your mom scrub your eyes for 30 minutes because the mascara fused your eyes shut is really not fun. AT ALL.

Quote from: Shantel on May 28, 2013, 10:05:59 AM
If it's not opened it should be OK. Mascara is one makeup item that needs to be disposed of after several months because it loads up with bacteria. I recall one pretty female actress that got a horrible eye infection from mascara that she had been using for a long time. She lost the eye and had a glass replacement. We don't want to take chances like that!

Omg, after reading that I put a label on my mascara with the "opened on"date.
Makes me wonder though, is it safe to buy mscara online? There's a sale from one of the local sellers on a website that I usually buy stuff from.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on May 28, 2013, 12:10:41 PM

Quote from: Alexia6 on May 28, 2013, 11:59:28 AM
Omg, after reading that I put a label on my mascara with the "opened on"date.
Makes me wonder though, is it safe to buy mscara online? There's a sale from one of the local sellers on a website that I usually buy stuff from.

As long as it hasn't been opened and contaminated by someone else who used it previously.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Elsa on May 28, 2013, 12:21:14 PM

Thanks Shantel :) that's a relief - I think I'd go ahead and buy it. :)

On the side note - What's the effect of missing a dosage of HRT? I think I missed my morning dosage. :( :(

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Post by: King Malachite on May 28, 2013, 01:09:04 PM

I regret taking a summer class.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on May 28, 2013, 02:00:35 PM

Quote from: Alexia6 on May 28, 2013, 12:21:14 PM
Thanks Shantel :) that's a relief - I think I'd go ahead and buy it. :)

On the side note - What's the effect of missing a dosage of HRT? I think I missed my morning dosage. :( :(

Not much, your body won't miss it. Your female hormones will not just dissipate overnight, just resume HRT as normal in the morning.

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Post by: Darkie on May 28, 2013, 02:15:47 PM

After all the gender insecurity I've had today visiting my grandma was the best idea. Doing puzzles and catching up has made me so happy. I love my grandma.

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Post by: Simon on May 28, 2013, 02:30:38 PM

Lazy day around the house.

Think I might get the curtains put up in the middle bedroom so I can use the weight bench without wearing a binder. There are blinds but I still get paranoid someone could see in somehow. ::)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on May 28, 2013, 02:37:54 PM

Quote from: Simon on May 28, 2013, 02:30:38 PM
Lazy day around the house.

Think I might get the curtains put up in the middle bedroom so I can use the weight bench without wearing a binder. There are blinds but I still get paranoid someone could see in somehow. ::)

Just tell em that weight training paid off and you have good pecs! Don't get pissed at me, I have a horribly sore throat and just treated it with some honey and two shots of Jack Daniels, so I'm being a cheeky ass right now hon! ;D

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Simon on May 28, 2013, 03:06:40 PM

Quote from: Shantel on May 28, 2013, 02:37:54 PM
Just tell em that weight training paid off and you have good pecs! Don't get pissed at me, I have a horribly sore throat and just treated it with some honey and two shots of Jack Daniels, so I'm being a cheeky ass right now hon! ;D

Haha, I never get pissed. I wish I was small enough where they could be mistaken for pecs. Just one more year and they are history.

Feel better soon...and if not keep swigging on the JD. You'll feel better regardless. ;)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on May 28, 2013, 04:44:31 PM

Quote from: Simon on May 28, 2013, 03:06:40 PM
Haha, I never get pissed. I wish I was small enough where they could be mistaken for pecs. Just one more year and they are history.

Feel better soon...and if not keep swigging on the JD. You'll feel better regardless. ;)

Thanks! I'm all stuffed up and have a mega sore throat, but I'll survive. Been thinking that we're missing the boat here with all the guys wanting top surgery, we could make a killing from the MtF's in the used parts business! :icon_peace: :icon_drunk: I'll have another double with honey, honey!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: V M on May 28, 2013, 04:58:43 PM

Hope you get to feeling better soon Shantel

Hugs

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 28, 2013, 05:05:39 PM

MI hate that I was late on doing my assignment.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on May 28, 2013, 05:06:46 PM

Quote from: V M on May 28, 2013, 04:58:43 PM
Hope you get to feeling better soon Shantel

Hugs

Thanks Virginia, you're so sweet!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Anna++ on May 28, 2013, 05:18:56 PM

I'm under a tornado warning for the next 40 minutes :(

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Darkie on May 28, 2013, 05:27:31 PM

Quote from: Anna! on May 28, 2013, 05:18:56 PM
I'm under a tornado warning for the next 40 minutes :(

*hugs tight* I shall keep you safe my lady! XD

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on May 28, 2013, 05:28:49 PM

Quote from: Anna! on May 28, 2013, 05:18:56 PM
I'm under a tornado warning for the next 40 minutes :(

Do you have a tornado shelter?

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Anna++ on May 28, 2013, 05:29:46 PM

Quote from: Shantel on May 28, 2013, 05:28:49 PM
Do you have a tornado shelter?

I'm in my basement right now. Is that close enough?

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on May 28, 2013, 05:30:55 PM

Quote from: Anna! on May 28, 2013, 05:29:46 PM
I'm in my basement right now. Is that close enough?

Basements work!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Anna++ on May 28, 2013, 05:37:47 PM

The tornado warning was just canceled! Hooray!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Anna++ on May 28, 2013, 05:41:36 PM

Quote from: Darkie on May 28, 2013, 05:27:31 PM
*hugs tight* I shall keep you safe my lady! XD

I'm just going to assume that you used your magic powers to make the storm calm down :)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Darkie on May 28, 2013, 05:48:52 PM

Quote from: Anna! on May 28, 2013, 05:41:36 PM
I'm just going to assume that you used your magic powers to make the storm calm down :)

Jusdging from how it looks outside right now I think I just ended up bringing it over here instead. Whoops.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: DriftingCrow on May 28, 2013, 05:54:03 PM

I am thinking the Luck o' the Irish must be shining on me, I just found 8 four-leaf clovers!

(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi1337.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fo665%2FLearnedHand1%2FIMG_20130528_184918_978_zps99e593aa.jpg&hash=1da00410c18268c1f723ed8e3c37f135966af7d2) (http://s1337.photobucket.com/user/LearnedHand1/media/IMG_20130528_184918_978_zps99e593aa.jpg.html)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Anna++ on May 28, 2013, 06:00:54 PM

Quote from: Darkie on May 28, 2013, 05:48:52 PM
Jusdging from how it looks outside right now I think I just ended up bringing it over here instead. Whoops.

Haha, I was just going to assume that it went south into Ohio...

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Darkie on May 28, 2013, 06:10:34 PM

Quote from: Anna! on May 28, 2013, 06:00:54 PM
Haha, I was just going to assume that it went south into Ohio...

You in Michigan?

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Anna++ on May 28, 2013, 06:14:43 PM

Quote from: Darkie on May 28, 2013, 06:10:34 PM
You in Michigan?

Yup!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Anna++ on May 28, 2013, 07:54:57 PM

I'm waiting to get my hair trimmed and neatened. There is a 50 / 50 chance that I'll have it done by a transwoman! Next time I'll call ahead, but this was a last minute decision when i realized this is the last night i'm free before a wedding on Saturday

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Anna++ on May 28, 2013, 08:47:54 PM

Success! I no longer have a tumble weed on my head thanks to ms. Trans Girl Stylist!

I never had a chance to bring up trans stuff, though. The remaining customers were male and I didn't want to out her.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: ZoeM on May 28, 2013, 08:54:57 PM

Quote from: Anna! on May 28, 2013, 08:47:54 PM
Success! I no longer have a tumble weed on my head thanks to ms. Trans Girl Stylist!

I never had a chance to bring up trans stuff, though. The remaining customers were male and I didn't want to out her.

T-dar running at full capacity, then? Did she tell you? Or did something else give her game away?

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: DriftingCrow on May 28, 2013, 08:56:18 PM

Quote from: Anna! on May 28, 2013, 08:47:54 PM
Success! I no longer have a tumble weed on my head thanks to ms. Trans Girl Stylist!

I never had a chance to bring up trans stuff, though. The remaining customers were male and I didn't want to out her.

We want pictures! ;D Have fun at the wedding, make sure you don't drink the banquet wine, just the stuff at the bar (I used to work banquets at a hotel, trust me, it's a no no. ;) )

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Anna++ on May 28, 2013, 09:04:01 PM

Quote from: ZoeM on May 28, 2013, 08:54:57 PM
T-dar running at full capacity, then? Did she tell you? Or did something else give her game away?

pay stub with legal name on her counter that one of my friends saw when he was there earlier today.

Quote from: LearnedHand on May 28, 2013, 08:56:18 PM
We want pictures! ;D Have fun at the wedding, make sure you don't drink the banquet wine, just the stuff at the bar (I used to work banquets at a hotel, trust me, it's a no no. ;) )

Okay, pictures coming tomorrow! I'm excited for the wedding because its the last time I have to wear formal guy clothes!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Darkie on May 28, 2013, 09:07:57 PM

Mmmm chicken and EEP! *hides in a box* Thunder. Why do I have to be so afraid of dang thunder...

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Darkie on May 28, 2013, 09:26:29 PM

It's getting pretty bad out there guys... This is going to be a bad storm.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Darkie on May 28, 2013, 09:28:39 PM

Quote from: Anna! on May 28, 2013, 06:14:43 PM
Yup!

I used to go to school in Rochester Hills and I went to Youmacon over in Detroit!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Anna++ on May 28, 2013, 10:19:00 PM

Quote from: Darkie on May 28, 2013, 09:28:39 PM
I used to go to school in Rochester Hills and I went to Youmacon over in Detroit!

I went to school in Ann Arbor, and then kind of stayed after graduating :)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Darkie on May 28, 2013, 10:23:56 PM

Quote from: Anna! on May 28, 2013, 10:19:00 PM
I went to school in Ann Arbor, and then kind of stayed after graduating :)

I remember going there! I went there once to Wizzlywig for an anime day.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Edge on May 29, 2013, 12:20:09 AM

I'm still waiting for a friend to get back to me. I need to hear from her before 9:30 this morning.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: V M on May 29, 2013, 12:21:07 AM

Are you bored near death? Can't decide what's for dinner?

(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fts4.mm.bing.net%2Fth%3Fid%3DH.4854800125002111%26amp%3Bpid%3D15.1&hash=58000d994e4773f167671d37591ecfd14a4d66c1)
Pop some Popcorn!!!

It's tasty, gives you something to do without getting into trouble or wasting other people's time and you can decide if you really feel like making dinner or would rather take a nap

Good tasty fun for everyone :)

Yay popcorn

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Jamie D on May 29, 2013, 12:38:01 AM

Mmmm pop corn

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Renee on May 29, 2013, 02:22:05 PM

OMG, that dog has some smelly farts. *gags*

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Simon on May 29, 2013, 02:49:33 PM

Thinking I really don't want to go to the gay bar tonight for the drag show but promised my gf I would. *sigh*

At least tonight is $1 drafts.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 29, 2013, 04:09:37 PM

Jewish FTMs

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Anna++ on May 29, 2013, 04:41:18 PM

T-minus 5 minutes until my first laser appointment!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 29, 2013, 05:18:12 PM

Thinking about the day when I will have to come out and people (particularly my family) will give me their religious opinion as to why I should stay as a woman.

and below is my response to them.

http://youtu.be/86MO-JWTNjo (http://youtu.be/86MO-JWTNjo)

I do need to start networking and making more friends in my area. That way if I get kicked out, I have somewhere to go.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Simon on May 29, 2013, 05:20:24 PM

Might get out of going to the bar. The friggin dryer decided to break. Getting ready to go get a part and replace the thermal fuse. Think that might be it...guess I'll see.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: ZoeM on May 29, 2013, 05:25:22 PM

Quote from: Anna! on May 29, 2013, 04:41:18 PM
T-minus 5 minutes until my first laser appointment!

Yay for Anna! Enjoy! XD

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 29, 2013, 05:31:09 PM

Quote from: Liam Erik on May 29, 2013, 05:25:05 PM
Cool, Malachite :D

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Anna++ on May 29, 2013, 05:39:50 PM

Quote from: ZoeM on May 29, 2013, 05:25:22 PM
Yay for Anna! Enjoy! XD

I smell burning

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: ZoeM on May 29, 2013, 05:48:55 PM

Quote from: Anna! on May 29, 2013, 05:39:50 PM
I smell burning

You didn't shave close enough. :|

How'd it go, Anna? Are you sufficiently cauterized yet?

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Anna++ on May 29, 2013, 05:51:28 PM

Quote from: ZoeM on May 29, 2013, 05:48:55 PM
You didn't shave close enough. :|

How'd it go, Anna? Are you sufficiently cauterized yet?

It's ll do a better job shaving next time. And yes, I am sufficently cauterized for one day.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: ZoeM on May 29, 2013, 05:54:01 PM

Quote from: Anna! on May 29, 2013, 05:51:28 PM
It's ll do a better job shaving next time. And yes, I am sufficently cauterized for one day.

Next challenge: Will there be a red(faced) wedding? :D

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Anna++ on May 29, 2013, 06:11:31 PM

Quote from: ZoeM on May 29, 2013, 05:54:01 PM
Next challenge: Will there be a red(faced) wedding? :D

I hope not. The redness has a few days to go down, and if all else fails that's why we have makeup!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Renee on May 29, 2013, 07:21:12 PM

Old beach rvs can be so freaking annoying when there is a random electrical issue on the chassis.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 29, 2013, 07:31:07 PM

I feel like a horrible person for wanting to watch coming out stories on Youtube that doesn't go so well. I feel really bad for wanting to hear about the bad stories, but at the same time it's not like I can relate to those whose parents who are just overly concerned fortheir son's well being or the ones who will accept them no matter what.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Simon on May 29, 2013, 08:08:02 PM

Ended up just going to Lowe's and buying another dryer. Beats trying to figure out what is wrong with the old one.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Adam (birkin) on May 29, 2013, 10:00:19 PM

Keaira in 1 day, 16 hours, and 45 minutes. Give or take the time it takes me to get off the plane. ;D

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 29, 2013, 10:53:09 PM

Another sale has went bust. Oh well, maybe next time.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Darkie on May 29, 2013, 11:00:47 PM

Quote from: Malachite on May 29, 2013, 10:53:09 PM
Another sale has went bust. Oh well, maybe next time.

Sale?

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 29, 2013, 11:11:26 PM

Quote from: Darkie on May 29, 2013, 11:00:47 PM
Sale?

yeah some woman was interested in something I had but she changed her mind. I win some I lose some.

Now I'm thinking about New Beginnings Retreat and how one day Ill be abke to say "I saved for top surgery by...." instead of saying "I am saving for top surgery by...."

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Renee on May 30, 2013, 07:29:28 AM

Even on my days off, I often end up going in to work for something or other, but it nice that my manager wants my help with stuff.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 30, 2013, 08:19:33 AM

I hope the hair grows back on where my armpit is sore.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Renee on May 30, 2013, 10:56:55 AM

Wondering who broke Susan's earlier. Devilyn? :P

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on May 30, 2013, 11:21:29 AM

Quote from: Renee on May 30, 2013, 10:56:55 AM
Wondering who broke Susan's earlier. Devilyn? :P

Musta been, I emailed her and she didn't respond, sure evidence that she was the culprit! ;D

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 30, 2013, 12:03:33 PM

Watching "To Catch A Predator" and seeing some of these millitary guys try to meet underage girls for sex and it saddens me, not just because of the obvious reasons. I'm jealous and angry at the same time because these people have 2 privledge that I want so bad: to be born a cismale and to have the ability to serve the U.S. I think their punishment should be to switch bodies with me. I would never defile those two privledges.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on May 30, 2013, 12:05:09 PM

Quote from: Malachite on May 30, 2013, 12:03:33 PM
Watching "To Catch A Predator" and seeing some of these millitary guys try to meet underage girls for sex and it saddens me, not just because of the obvious reasons. I'm jealous and angry at the same time because these people have 2 privledge that I want so bad: to be born a cismale and to have the ability to serve the U.S. I think their punishment should be to switch bodies with me. I would never defile those two privledges.

You have a good heart Malachite!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Sarah Louise on May 30, 2013, 12:07:12 PM

Having been a victim of a predator when I was a young teen (as was my older brothers 10 year old son) I have no pity for them. They should be castrated when they are caught.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on May 30, 2013, 12:08:59 PM

Quote from: Sarah Louise on May 30, 2013, 12:07:12 PM
Having been a victim of a predator when I was a young teen I have no pity for them. They should be castrated when they are caught.

Amen to that! The local police chief says that they will re-offend regardless of what the shrinks say.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Devlyn on May 30, 2013, 12:09:18 PM

Quote from: Shantel on May 30, 2013, 11:21:29 AM
Musta been, I emailed her and she didn't respond, sure evidence that she was the culprit! ;D

Hey, I replied to you! I didn't know the big red "Site on/ Site off" button actually worked!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on May 30, 2013, 12:14:24 PM

Quote from: Devlyn Marie on May 30, 2013, 12:09:18 PM
Hey, I replied to you! I didn't know the big red "Site on/ Site off" button actually worked!

Hey, so you did, guess I spoke too soon. Good job!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 30, 2013, 12:22:44 PM

Quote from: Shantel on May 30, 2013, 12:05:09 PM
You have a good heart Malachite!

Thanks! It just makes me sad to think that people waste away the things they are blessed with.

Quote from: Sarah Louise on May 30, 2013, 12:07:12 PM
Having been a victim of a predator when I was a young teen (as was my older brothers 10 year old son) I have no pity for them. They should be castrated when they are caught.

I understand that feeling as I was also a victim of a predator and I certainly agree! I even discussed the topic of castration in my Crimnial Justice class last semester.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: DriftingCrow on May 30, 2013, 01:26:14 PM

holy crap, I need to charge my AC

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Adam (birkin) on May 30, 2013, 01:36:45 PM

One teacher I had had a pedophile come in and talk...he said he castrated himself to rid himself of the desire to abuse children, but he STILL fought the urge.

I am also thinking to myself that everything we are "taught" about passing online is 100% wrong. Because the times I feel very good, and feel like I look very male, after passing for a while...I get a ma'am and I'm crushed. But, the times I am convinced I look female and will not pass, I pass with flying colours.

In essence, it's when I defy every single passing "tip" I've seen online that I pass the best. I'm starting to think we need to have new discourse happening.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on May 30, 2013, 03:57:52 PM

Quote from: Prof HB on May 30, 2013, 01:36:45 PM
One teacher I had had a pedophile come in and talk...he said he castrated himself to rid himself of the desire to abuse children, but he STILL fought the urge.

Pedophiles are predators just like serial rapists, it's not really about sex, it is about harming someone. Because they use what normal people consider a sexual body part to perpetrate their crime, society is looking at the problem as being a sexual act which is wrong and misguided thinking.

Quote from: Prof HB on May 30, 2013, 01:36:45 PM
I am also thinking to myself that everything we are "taught" about passing online is 100% wrong. Because the times I feel very good, and feel like I look very male, after passing for a while...I get a ma'am and I'm crushed. But, the times I am convinced I look female and will not pass, I pass with flying colours.

In essence, it's when I defy every single passing "tip" I've seen online that I pass the best. I'm starting to think we need to have new discourse happening.

I think you are totally right about this. I watch others agonize over "do I pass" until they create a mental phobia for themselves. You can see it happening every day in the threads here. I know I don't pass and never will but when I developed the attitude that I really don't give a rats ass everything changed. Maybe I look like a dork to some observers, but I never get the double take, rolled eyes, chuckles or whispers because I carry on with my business as if I don't give a rats ass what someone else may think.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Renee on May 30, 2013, 04:10:35 PM

Electrical issue is fixed after replacing part of the harness from the starter and I even got the bad brake line off in at the rear axle. Getting closer to completion and will end up with more work this winter as I've talked him into going with stainless brake lines after this since now that they have started rotting, they are going to go one by one unless something is done. And stainless is forever. Did it years ago on ours and they have yet to have any issues with brakes other than regular replacement of the master cylinder due to corrosion.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on May 30, 2013, 04:13:53 PM

Quote from: Renee on May 30, 2013, 04:10:35 PM
Electrical issue is fixed after replacing part of the harness from the starter and I even got the bad brake line off in at the rear axle. Getting closer to completion and will end up with more work this winter as I've talked him into going with stainless brake lines after this since now that they have started rotting, they are going to go one by one unless something is done. And stainless is forever. Did it years ago on ours and they have yet to have any issues with brakes other than regular replacement of the master cylinder due to corrosion.

You're a genius, but careful honey don't break a nail! ;D

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Renee on May 30, 2013, 04:16:57 PM

Quote from: Shantel on May 30, 2013, 04:13:53 PM
You're a genius, but careful honey don't break a nail! ;D

After all this stuff is over, I need to go get acrylics again. I've been bare nails since the first of the year when I broked my thumb. I know the lady at the nail salon has been asking about me too and wanting me to come back. And I'm not any sort of genius, I'm just determined not to let any inanimate object best me, its a pride thing.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on May 30, 2013, 04:20:15 PM

Quote from: Renee on May 30, 2013, 04:16:57 PM
After all this stuff is over, I need to go get acrylics again. I've been bare nails since the first of the year when I broked my thumb. I know the lady at the nail salon has been asking about me too and wanting me to come back. And I'm not any sort of genius, I'm just determined not to let any inanimate object best me, its a pride thing.

Well it's great being able to take on mechanical projects like that. I used to be a foreign car mechanic when I was really young, one of the many hats I've worn in this life. I look under the hood now and all I see is a lot of snakes and black boxes, it's kinda scary.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Edge on May 30, 2013, 05:11:48 PM

I read another thing that referred to Pikachu as a mouse. Hey, Pokemon fans, why is Pikachu a mouse and not a pika?

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 30, 2013, 05:51:53 PM

A hypothetical situation in which any form of transgender surgery or hormones were banned in the U.S. due to successful campaigning from those who are against us.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on May 30, 2013, 05:54:48 PM

Quote from: Malachite on May 30, 2013, 05:51:53 PM
A hypothetical situation in which any form of transgender surgery or hormones were banned in the U.S. due to successful campaigning from those who are against us.

Malachite, you have to quit harboring such dark thinking hon! :D

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Simon on May 30, 2013, 05:55:12 PM

Quote from: Malachite on May 30, 2013, 05:51:53 PM
A hypothetical situation in which any form of transgender surgery or hormones were banned in the U.S. due to successful campaigning from those who are against us.

I'd move to Canada.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: V M on May 30, 2013, 06:04:00 PM

Quote from: Malachite on May 30, 2013, 05:51:53 PM
A hypothetical situation in which any form of transgender surgery or hormones were banned in the U.S. due to successful campaigning from those who are against us.

I have often thought about traveling abroad, or is that as a broad? Either one works for me >:-)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Darkie on May 30, 2013, 06:05:45 PM

Quote from: Edge on May 30, 2013, 05:11:48 PM
I read another thing that referred to Pikachu as a mouse. Hey, Pokemon fans, why is Pikachu a mouse and not a pika?

Pika= Spark
Chu= Noise that mice make.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on May 30, 2013, 06:06:01 PM

Quote from: V M on May 30, 2013, 06:04:00 PM
I have often thought about traveling abroad, or is that as a broad? Either one works for me >:-)

You're on top of your game today Virginia! ;D

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Edge on May 30, 2013, 06:16:54 PM

Quote from: Darkie on May 30, 2013, 06:05:45 PM
Pika= Spark
Chu= Noise that mice make.

Oh ok. that makes sense. I still think it would be cool if he was a pika though.

On the subject of predators...
Oomph! - Beim Ersten Mal Tut's Immer Weh [HQ] (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mdm43gd4G60#)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 30, 2013, 06:28:37 PM

Quote from: Simon on May 30, 2013, 05:55:12 PM
I'd move to Canada.

I would probably move there too. Either there or Australia and deem myself as a refugee. :D

Quote from: Shantel on May 30, 2013, 05:54:48 PM
Malachite, you have to quit harboring such dark thinking hon! :D

Lol I can't help it! It's what of those interesting "what if" situations.

Quote from: V M on May 30, 2013, 06:04:00 PM
I have often thought about traveling abroad, or is that as a broad? Either one works for me >:-)

Maybe travel abroad as a broad? ;D

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Liminal Stranger on May 30, 2013, 07:36:25 PM

Why is it that every time someone misgenders me or uses my birth name, I shut down instead of being able to correct them? I can do it just fine with strangers but it took a monumental effort to get there. After complimenting the diction of the choral singers to their teacher, she singled me out to say that I complimented them, of course they needed to announce that it was me, *birth name the girl*, who had given this feedback and point to me so every one of those 130 kids looked at me. Me! It was as if there were a white-hot spotlight fixated upon me, and I turned crimson red while doing my best to try and disappear into nothingness. Didn't work too well.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: DriftingCrow on May 30, 2013, 07:42:56 PM

Quote from: Liminal Stranger on May 30, 2013, 07:36:25 PM
Why is it that every time someone misgenders me or uses my birth name, I shut down instead of being able to correct them?

This is something [not just trans related issues, but everything in life] that'll get easier with age, IMO. You just need to start practicing being confident, start correcting people, learning to say no, and so on; once you get in the hang of it, over the years it'll slowly start to become more natural and you'll feel more confident. While I am not the best at asserting myself, I've gotten a lot better as I've gotten older. :)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Liminal Stranger on May 30, 2013, 08:05:28 PM

It just seems specific to being trans for me, I have a hard time speaking up at points but when it comes to this it becomes impossible for me to do anything but whisper something and fight back tears. I don't like that, it's not a fun feeling. Plus it won't stop unless I do something about it, but I just can't...maybe it has to do with fear of rejection or my mother not taking kindly to it? I don't know but I really wish people could read my thoughts and know what it does to me on a daily basis :(

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Simon on May 30, 2013, 09:41:50 PM

Quote from: Liminal Stranger on May 30, 2013, 07:36:25 PM
Why is it that every time someone misgenders me or uses my birth name, I shut down instead of being able to correct them?

Because it's hard to basically argue your very being with others. Sometimes it's easier to just let things go.

I've always contemplated who that person is and what they mean to me before I even bother. If it's someone I'm never going to see again I couldn't care less what they say/think. If it's someone I am going to share air with often then I try my best to go about it in a positive non confrontational manner.

Funny thing is I hadn't been misgendered in years. Then when I started T I got clocked a few times in public. The irony killed me, lol.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Simon on May 30, 2013, 09:52:14 PM

I'm thinking I'm glad I just started a Facebook page just for my Trans stuff. Anyone can feel free to add me. Link is under my profile pic. :)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Liminal Stranger on May 30, 2013, 10:06:10 PM

I have, at the very least, another year and some to contend with these people. Knowing how my life works I'll run into them again.
Of course, my grandmother had to send me an e-mail too with my birth name and a bunch of female pronouns (because talking to someone in the second person isn't good enough, apparently) because she's trying to make me feel guilty about not wanting to talk to her after some things that happened. My dad was staying over there for a while and according to my mother he told her about me, which just makes this all the more infuriating than it would be with the proper name and pronouns or if I thought she had no clue.

Wondering what it takes to change name and "gender" in the school database so I can take pressure off of myself.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Darkie on May 30, 2013, 10:09:33 PM

Quote from: Simon on May 30, 2013, 09:52:14 PM
I'm thinking I'm glad I just started a Facebook page just for my Trans stuff. Anyone can feel free to add me. Link is under my profile pic. :)

Friend request sent!

And sorry you are having issues Liminal! DX

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Liminal Stranger on May 30, 2013, 10:22:05 PM

Oh don't mind me, I'm nearly always having issues :P
Tends to come with being closeted to school staff and students know me but don't know my name, out to most friends, and stealth to others who met me after I started some botched form of socially transitioning.

Like in my science class, all the kids who didn't know were all saying that and how they would call me Max now. Did they all forget today? You bet! Did I muster up the courage to say anything at all back to them? Nope!

Something prevents me from doing it so I just go off and cry in the corner by myself, making sure no one can see me lest they think of me as even less "like a guy" for displaying an emotional response after all that.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: RomulusBC on May 30, 2013, 10:48:51 PM

About my last day of high school. FOREVER in exactly 6 days. Best thoughts ever! ;)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: V M on May 31, 2013, 12:23:03 AM

Forget suicide, I'm going to die of boredom :P

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Adam (birkin) on May 31, 2013, 03:35:27 AM

My little brother bribed me...he said if I did something for him, he'd give my bedroom and bathroom a thorough cleaning while I am in Indiana. And then when I agreed, he said "good, I've been wanting to clean this place for a long time..." You know it's bad WHEN...

In other news, have I mentioned that I am seeing Keaira today? I leave for the airport in about an hour or so...should be in Indiana in less than 12 hours all in all. I feel SICK with the butterflies. But it's going to hit me the worst when I leave "arrivals" and have to go find her. I'll be crapping a brick and I might throw up.

But then I will see her and walk up to her ever so awkwardly, give an even more awkward hello, a big hug, and then all will be fine lmao. But it'll be so weird to actually touch her.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Anna++ on May 31, 2013, 07:03:39 AM

I just need to make it until Monday night, then I get my free time back!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 31, 2013, 07:31:37 AM

Dang it only seems like the only thing that sells on this fb group I'm on is either young boys clothes or babies toys.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: TheLance on May 31, 2013, 10:35:51 AM

Prof HB, that's exactly how I felt when I met my gf for the first time. She came to stay with me for a week after we had been talking thru text and phone calls for a while. I was so nervous I was dizzy. It worked out though, I ended up moving three states over to be with her, and that was over a year ago.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Keaira on May 31, 2013, 01:46:06 PM

Well he isnt the only one who is nervous. ;)
Ive been at the airport since 1:30pm. He doesnt get here until almost 4pm.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Anna++ on May 31, 2013, 01:49:21 PM

Quote from: Keaira on May 31, 2013, 01:46:06 PM
Well he isnt the only one who is nervous. ;)
Ive been at the airport since 1:30pm. He doesnt get here until almost 4pm.

Have fun, you two!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on May 31, 2013, 01:49:53 PM

Quote from: Keaira on May 31, 2013, 01:46:06 PM
Well he isnt the only one who is nervous. ;)
Ive been at the airport since 1:30pm. He doesnt get here until almost 4pm.

:D ;D :laugh:

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Keaira on May 31, 2013, 02:31:02 PM

Quote from: Anna! on May 31, 2013, 01:49:21 PM
Have fun, you two!

Quote from: Shantel on May 31, 2013, 01:49:53 PM
:D ;D :laugh:

30 mins until arrival...

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Simon on May 31, 2013, 02:51:36 PM

Quote from: kkut on May 31, 2013, 01:55:22 PM
I remember my last day very well and it was 32 years ago. It was surreal and full of hope and optimism... little did I know it was the start of THE worst ten years of my life!

But, we live and learn...

My God...I can attest to that, lol. Been a bit longer than a decade of crud here. I'm 31 and finally things are coming together financially, medically, and with transition.

People always say they wish they could go back in time to their youth. Heck no, I don't want to go through that time again. :o

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on May 31, 2013, 04:22:16 PM

Quote from: Keaira on May 31, 2013, 02:31:02 PM
30 mins until arrival...

Be sure and save Prof HB's brick so we can all see it too! ;D

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 31, 2013, 04:25:41 PM

here was a spider on my bed closer than arms reach....I got my shoes and smashed him to pieces. After that I rubbed the shoes together to make sure nothing was left of him.

I hope that spider learns a lesson.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Renee on May 31, 2013, 06:27:31 PM

I'm hovering around 147 to 148 now, keep putting it on a smidge at a time.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on May 31, 2013, 06:30:34 PM

Quote from: Renee on May 31, 2013, 06:27:31 PM
I'm hovering around 147 to 148 now, keep putting it on a smidge at a time.

Must be the midriff pizza roll huh? :icon_hahano:

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Renee on May 31, 2013, 06:41:12 PM

Quote from: Shantel on May 31, 2013, 06:30:34 PM
Must be the midriff pizza roll huh? :icon_hahano:

My tummy is still in good shape, maybe a tad pudgy but not bad at all. No overhang when wearing jeans.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on May 31, 2013, 06:51:28 PM

Quote from: Renee on May 31, 2013, 06:41:12 PM
My tummy is still in good shape, maybe a tad pudgy but not bad at all. No overhang when wearing jeans.

Yes it is, we all know that. Just trying to get a rise out of you and it worked! :D

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Renee on May 31, 2013, 06:55:40 PM

meanie!

And I got a good laugh watching Jake run up and down the stairs about 6 times in a row at full speed, growling all the down and panting all the way up and he'd do a loop at each end so he hits the stairs at full speed. He does that sort of thing about once a day, runs around the house a bunch of times at full speed and the stairs if I am near them.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Adam (birkin) on May 31, 2013, 07:14:52 PM

I'm here in Indiana now. :) We've just been chatting and such. i'm about to go to sleep as I've been on the go all day with travel and connections.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on May 31, 2013, 07:17:15 PM

Quote from: Renee on May 31, 2013, 06:55:40 PM
meanie!

And I got a good laugh watching Jake run up and down the stairs about 6 times in a row at full speed, growling all the down and panting all the way up and he'd do a loop at each end so he hits the stairs at full speed. He does that sort of thing about once a day, runs around the house a bunch of times at full speed and the stairs if I am near them.

Hehe he's trying to get you to exercise with him and work off all that pizza! :D

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on May 31, 2013, 07:17:52 PM

Quote from: kkut on May 31, 2013, 06:59:15 PM
Thoroughly annoyed and disgusted.

Wanna chat?

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Keaira on May 31, 2013, 07:44:16 PM

Quote from: Prof HB on May 31, 2013, 07:14:52 PM
I'm here in Indiana now. :) We've just been chatting and such. i'm about to go to sleep as I've been on the go all day with travel and connections.

When he wakes up, I'll take him to get snacks n stuffs. His Grandpa called to check that Caleb got there okay. I'm fairly sure he wants me to come see him up in Canada too, lol. It was sweet actually. I know a lot of people who would not have thought to call and check up on a loved one like that.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Simon on May 31, 2013, 07:46:46 PM

If anybody uses Redbox (I don't) I've got a couple free rental codes I just pulled off some Dr. Pepper boxes. Just post here that you're taking them so others don't message me too and send me a pm.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on May 31, 2013, 07:49:25 PM

Quote from: Keaira on May 31, 2013, 07:44:16 PM
When he wakes up, I'll take him to get snacks n stuffs. His Grandpa called to check that Caleb got there okay. I'm fairly sure he wants me to come see him up in Canada too, lol. It was sweet actually. I know a lot of people who would not have thought to call and check up on a loved one like that.

So cool Keaira, glad it's going well keep us posted. It's been fun watching your friendship growing!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 31, 2013, 09:52:30 PM

I hope I get to meet someone from Susans one day. :)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: DriftingCrow on May 31, 2013, 09:53:57 PM

Quote from: Malachite on May 31, 2013, 09:52:30 PM
I hope I get to meet someone from Susans one day. :)

Hey, you have nice beaches down there, maybe I'll take a vacation one day when I am not wicked poor. And, Auntie Shan, you better come with your swim suit. :)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: ZoeM on May 31, 2013, 09:54:42 PM

Quote from: Malachite on May 31, 2013, 09:52:30 PM
I hope I get to meet someone from Susans one day. :)

Fly out to Wisconsin! :)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: DriftingCrow on May 31, 2013, 09:57:57 PM

Quote from: ZoeM on May 31, 2013, 09:54:42 PM
Fly out to Wisconsin! :)

Oh, Wisconsin is pretty fun. I've went a few years back to help nanny a terrible child, but had a brief child-free long weekend in the Dells. It's amazing how much trees are up in the Dells but how little trees there are where I was (down by Kenosha). :)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Darkie on May 31, 2013, 10:01:48 PM

Quote from: ZoeM on May 31, 2013, 09:54:42 PM
Fly out to Wisconsin! :)

Zoe, do you go to conventions? I go to some near Wisconsin. The only times I actually go to Wisconsin is when I go see my cousins.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Simon on May 31, 2013, 10:03:11 PM

Quote from: Malachite on May 31, 2013, 09:52:30 PM
I hope I get to meet someone from Susans one day. :)

Party at Malachite's! lol

Seriously though I go to Myrtle sometimes. Probably won't be till Summer 2015 because of school and surgery but I'd be willing to meet up whenever I'm down there.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: ZoeM on May 31, 2013, 10:12:03 PM

Quote from: Darkie on May 31, 2013, 10:01:48 PM
Zoe, do you go to conventions? I go to some near Wisconsin. The only times I actually go to Wisconsin is when I go see my cousins.

I haven't so far, but if anything's near Madison...
What conventions?

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Edge on May 31, 2013, 10:22:09 PM

The problem with re-watching and re-reading Bleach at the same time is that I see exactly why I prefer manga over anime. Like books and movies. But I like both, so I'm torn over whether to read or watch.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Darkie on May 31, 2013, 10:23:52 PM

Quote from: ZoeM on May 31, 2013, 10:12:03 PM
I haven't so far, but if anything's near Madison...
What conventions?

They are in Chicago. My cousins live in Broadhead.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Keaira on May 31, 2013, 10:24:55 PM

Quote from: Shantel on May 31, 2013, 04:22:16 PM
Be sure and save Prof HB's brick so we can all see it too! ;D

I'm unfamiliar with that term...

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Darkie on May 31, 2013, 10:31:47 PM

Quote from: Keaira on May 31, 2013, 10:24:55 PM
I'm unfamiliar with that term...

It is because he said he was going to crap a brick. XD

Edited for profanity.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on May 31, 2013, 10:38:35 PM

Quote from: Simon on May 31, 2013, 10:03:11 PM
Party at Malachite's! lol

Seriously though I go to Myrtle sometimes. Probably won't be till Summer 2015 because of school and surgery but I'd be willing to meet up whenever I'm down there.

Awesome. I love it down there, but I'd be too terrified to drive. I wonder if there's some type of train or bus I could take from the Upstate to M.B.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: ZoeM on May 31, 2013, 10:47:06 PM

Quote from: Darkie on May 31, 2013, 10:23:52 PM
They are in Chicago. My cousins live in Broadhead.

Hmm... Might be practical on a weekend. :D

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Simon on May 31, 2013, 10:56:10 PM

Quote from: Malachite on May 31, 2013, 10:38:35 PM
Awesome. I love it down there, but I'd be too terrified to drive. I wonder if there's some type of train or bus I could take from the Upstate to M.B.

There's a few years to figure it out. We'd pick you up but then you're stuck with us until we go home. The good thing is if either of us get drunk and try to drown my girl is a Paramedic, lol.

I'm serious though. It would be a blast if a bunch of us could plan something and get down there in a few years.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Keaira on May 31, 2013, 10:57:35 PM

Quote from: Darkie on May 31, 2013, 10:31:47 PM
It is because he said he was going to crap a brick. XD

oh.... ewww! no, I'm not saving that. I can have him mail it to you if you want.

Edited for profanity.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Simon on May 31, 2013, 11:12:01 PM

Friendly reminder that TOS requirements are we keep it clean kids.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Darkie on May 31, 2013, 11:17:25 PM

Quote from: Simon on May 31, 2013, 11:12:01 PM
Friendly reminder that TOS requirements are we keep it clean kids.

Sorry, kinda forgot.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Simon on May 31, 2013, 11:20:12 PM

Quote from: Darkie on May 31, 2013, 11:17:25 PM
Sorry, kinda forgot.

No worries.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on June 01, 2013, 03:38:24 AM

Quote from: Simon on May 31, 2013, 10:56:10 PM
There's a few years to figure it out. We'd pick you up but then you're stuck with us until we go home. The good thing is if either of us get drunk and try to drown my girl is a Paramedic, lol.

I'm serious though. It would be a blast if a bunch of us could plan something and get down there in a few years.

Agreed! I wonder if I could somehow squeak in top surgery by that time so I could possibly go shirtless.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Simon on June 01, 2013, 04:11:49 AM

Quote from: Malachite on June 01, 2013, 03:38:24 AM
Agreed! I wonder if I could somehow squeak in top surgery by that time so I could possibly go shirtless.

I doubt I'll go shirtless or if I do it won't be for long. Too paranoid about my scars turning permanently red if they get burnt.

Are we both insomniacs?

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on June 01, 2013, 04:20:07 AM

Quote from: Simon on June 01, 2013, 04:11:49 AM

Are we both insomniacs?

I am at least

:laugh:

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Keaira on June 01, 2013, 05:01:57 AM

Caleb and I had a late dinner at the Waffle House where we chatted some more. Then we went to Walmart to get him snacks and food, etc. I had a great time with him. The hotel he is staying at has a gym and a swimming pool. I keep looking at the pool because I dont get to swim very often. I think Caleb and I are going to swim for a bit tomorrow maybe.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Adam (birkin) on June 01, 2013, 05:19:08 AM

I saw you eyeing that pool so many times, and if you don't go of your own accord, I will pressure you. ;) You can't live life on the outside looking in.

Just finished writing about today in the travel journal. I'm very happy right now. Today was so nice. Despite the stressful flight, I met a very nice woman at one of the airports and we had a nice conversation, the flight from Toronto to Indianapolis was very low-key, simple, beautiful. I was lucky enough to get two seats all to myself. And of course meeting Keaira in person has been very nice. She's just exactly the same in person as she is online, which is a good thing.

I am also amazed at how cheap stuff is in America. Seriously, a lot of food and toiletries are half price what they are in Canada!!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Simon on June 01, 2013, 07:06:11 AM

You two look so happy. I hope you have a great visit...now get off the computer and spend time with each other, lol.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on June 01, 2013, 07:14:39 AM

Quote from: Keaira on June 01, 2013, 05:25:40 AM
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi688.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fvv246%2FKeairaElisabeth%2FP6010256_zpscf10503e.jpg&hash=3d8371415e0f68d3139682353c0d9586bcf96d9d)

I will hit the pool. maybe every day just to try and lose some weight :P

Couple of cute buddies, nice photo, glad you made it safely! Forget the weight for now, have fun go out to lunch enjoy yourselves and eat your desert first, life is short! ;D

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: ZoeM on June 01, 2013, 07:37:10 AM

Quote from: Keaira on June 01, 2013, 05:25:40 AM
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi688.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fvv246%2FKeairaElisabeth%2FP6010256_zpscf10503e.jpg&hash=3d8371415e0f68d3139682353c0d9586bcf96d9d)

I will hit the pool. maybe every day just to try and lose some weight :P

Can you post a video of the visit? (If anything's a more substantial representation of presence than a photo, a video is it)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Keaira on June 01, 2013, 12:02:43 PM

Quote from: ZoeM on June 01, 2013, 07:37:10 AM
Can you post a video of the visit? (If anything's a more substantial representation of presence than a photo, a video is it)

A video hm? Ok... what? Like a question/answer video?

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: ZoeM on June 01, 2013, 12:09:21 PM

Quote from: Keaira on June 01, 2013, 12:02:43 PM
A video hm? Ok... what? Like a question/answer video?

Like you two saying 'Hi'. :)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Keaira on June 01, 2013, 12:16:30 PM

Ah.. okay. I'll talk to Caleb about it.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: ZoeM on June 01, 2013, 12:23:05 PM

Quote from: Keaira on June 01, 2013, 12:16:30 PM
Ah.. okay. I'll talk to Caleb about it.

I mean, not if it's uncomfortable - just if y'all want to say hi to all of us remote folks.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Liminal Stranger on June 01, 2013, 03:14:15 PM

Yay, correcting people. Several times yesterday some kids who sort of know me but not really and were told that I was a girl referred to me with female pronouns, so I replied with "Hey, who're you callin' a she?" and got apologies every time :3

Then my mom outed me to strangers. Twice. In the space of an hour. Her defense?
"It's normal to refer to people in the third person." So why is this wrong? Let me list the reasons:
-The first time in the restaurant, the guy was asking me, not you, if I had peanut allergies.
-The second time in the parking lot, there was absolutely no need to say anything at all, I was giving the guy his tip without you telling him that I was doing that and then telling me to.
-You know I despise the pronouns you insist on using, Mom.

Then today was just full of nonsense, I loathe the collegeboard and the fact that the proctors feel the need to call people "ladies" every two seconds. Starting to wonder if it's possible to get being trans on file if I attach it to my 504 with a note from the therapist so I can get some kind of accommodation involving not being misgendered constantly while I'm trying to concentrate on a test since I already have a focusing disorder. Frak you, testing >:(

On a lighter note, great to see you two are having a nice time!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on June 01, 2013, 04:48:18 PM

I can't wait to get on T. Well, actually I can and I am but I'm excited about it.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Renee on June 01, 2013, 06:27:20 PM

Thinking that maybe I don't need to be posting here for a while.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on June 01, 2013, 06:38:46 PM

Quote from: Renee on June 01, 2013, 06:27:20 PM
Thinking that maybe I don't need to be posting here for a while.

Kinda creepy thinking that people actually think that you're ok and probably pretty nice after all, oh well!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Simon on June 01, 2013, 07:03:17 PM

Quote from: Malachite on June 01, 2013, 04:48:18 PM
I can't wait to get on T. Well, actually I can and I am but I'm excited about it.

For me it was odd. I think the build up of getting on T was more exciting than being on it. You get your first shot and then it's "now what". Then the results are so gradual they just kinda seem to sneak up on you.

-------

I'm thinking it's Miller time. I'm also thinking I wish I would have vacuumed and mopped yesterday so I didn't have to tonight. Getting a new dryer delivered tomorrow and promised the gf I would clean up a little. It looks like we have a toddler with all of the pet toys scattered throughout the house, lol.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: ZoeM on June 01, 2013, 07:16:32 PM

A lesbian couple in the next lane decided to stare at me on my drive home.

I think (hope) they were only angry about my bumper stickers, but... you never know.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on June 01, 2013, 07:35:09 PM

Quote from: ZoeM on June 01, 2013, 07:16:32 PM
A lesbian couple in the next lane decided to stare at me on my drive home.

I think (hope) they were only angry about my bumper stickers, but... you never know.

And.....? You didn't tell us what your bumper stickers said. Bush/Cheney?

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: ZoeM on June 01, 2013, 07:42:06 PM

Quote from: Shantel on June 01, 2013, 07:35:09 PM
And.....? You didn't tell us what your bumper stickers said. Bush/Cheney?

Ok... Kids, cover your ears.

"Obamanomics: The government helping themselves to what's yours in order to help you help others who can't help themselves."
Also, "A government big enough to give you anything you want is big enough to take everything you have."
And "Puberty is way more fun the second time."

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on June 01, 2013, 07:48:41 PM

Quote from: ZoeM on June 01, 2013, 07:42:06 PM
Ok... Kids, cover your ears.

"Obamanomics: The government helping themselves to what's yours in order to help you help others who can't help themselves."
Also, "A government big enough to give you anything you want is big enough to take everything you have."
And "Puberty is way more fun the second time."

I don't see a problem with either of them, and the second one is definitely a keeper. But there are those with thin skins and no sense of humor. :icon_peace:

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: ZoeM on June 01, 2013, 07:50:54 PM

Quote from: Shantel on June 01, 2013, 07:48:41 PM
I don't see a problem with either of them, and the second one is definitely a keeper. But there are those with thin skins and no sense of humor. :icon_peace:

Eh, maybe they were just rubbernecking at the conservative across the way. ^_^

Their own car was festooned with 'koch' and 'get rid of FOX' stickers, so I feel like they have no room to complain at any rate.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: androgynoid on June 01, 2013, 07:51:12 PM

Jealous of Keaira and Caleb. I want to meet Susan's people too!

My acne's flaring up like nobody's business, and I'm not even on T yet >.< (But I will be soon! I can't imagine how bad it's going to get within the next few months.)

And I want a beer. I think I'll go to the restaurant where my roommate bartends and buy one from him.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on June 01, 2013, 07:54:11 PM

Quote from: androgynoid on June 01, 2013, 07:51:12 PM
Jealous of Keaira and Caleb. I want to meet Susan's people too!

My acne's flaring up like nobody's business, and I'm not even on T yet >.< (But I will be soon! I can't imagine how bad it's going to get within the next few months.)

And I want a beer. I think I'll go to the restaurant where my roommate bartends and buy one from him.

Well honey could it be the french fries while your having the beer? French fries always used to give me zits!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on June 01, 2013, 08:06:10 PM

Quote from: Keaira on June 01, 2013, 08:03:19 PM
I am Keaira, I like farts

I used to think that ladies didn't fart but my wife proved that to be a falsehood. Me, well there's no excuse for me I fart, therefore I am!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Keaira on June 01, 2013, 08:58:52 PM

As requested, here is our awkward hello video to everyone here at Susans.
Greetings to Susans Members (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qjHg_meQ2xw#)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: ZoeM on June 01, 2013, 09:09:37 PM

Quote from: Keaira on June 01, 2013, 08:58:52 PM
As requested, here is our awkward hello video to everyone here at Susans.
Greetings to Susans Members (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qjHg_meQ2xw#)

*Waves* Hi, guys! You sound great, you look great in motion. :)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Devlyn on June 01, 2013, 09:11:28 PM

Quote from: Keaira on June 01, 2013, 08:58:52 PM
As requested, here is our awkward hello video to everyone here at Susans.

An F bomb, really? No more low cost high fructose corn syrup beverages for you, young man! Looking good, you two! Hugs, Devlyn

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Simon on June 01, 2013, 09:22:18 PM

You two just have a night full of drunken debauchery written all over you, lol.

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I'm thinking the Braves need to hurry up and shut the Nationals down. Bottom of the 10th and still tied at 1.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Keaira on June 01, 2013, 09:25:14 PM

I'm thinking Caleb is going to get a swift kick to the butt for that hijacked post earlier. :P

I think I look and sound horrible in the video actually. lol. As for debauchery..... o.O

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on June 01, 2013, 10:01:21 PM

my mother drove away my father again with her drunkeness, when I went to go check on my father he told me "no wonder why you want to sleep all the time"

I sleep all of the time due to my lack of transition but I get what he's saying. Heck I like to sleep too when she's drunk.

Nevertheless I got my change and it's time to count it.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: DriftingCrow on June 01, 2013, 10:14:03 PM

Ah, you two look wicked cute! You asked for questions: how long is Caleb visiting for? Are you going to steal the little soaps and towels from the hotel?

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I am thinking about how awesome Downton Abbey is, it's perfect to knit too; unfortunately I have a horrible sunburn on my neck (damn you Irish blood!!!!!!) which makes knitting Portuguese Style quite uncomfortable. >:(

Edit to add: I hate how everytime I watch hours and hours of British television or movies that my brain gets stuck in a snobby British accent, I am here reading posts and my brain keeps giving it all a stuffy accent.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Edge on June 01, 2013, 11:04:33 PM

*waves* Hi Caleb and Keaira.
Keaira's name keeps reminding me of Kiara from The Lion King II.

Quote from: LearnedHand on June 01, 2013, 10:14:03 PMEdit to add: I hate how everytime I watch hours and hours of British television or movies that my brain gets stuck in a snobby British accent, I am here reading posts and my brain keeps giving it all a stuffy accent.

Hey, me too. I pick up ways of speaking too. I've had to edit my essays on Shakespeare plays to make sure I was using modern day vernacular.
My son has taken to sleeping in my bed and refusing to sleep in his. This will be a problem.
I want to wear certain clothes, but they either don't exist or are way too expensive, so I'll have to make them. I'm not good at sewing yet and material is expensive. Whine, whine, whine.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on June 01, 2013, 11:26:32 PM

I got $27.42 in change and an extra $5....awesome!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Adam (birkin) on June 02, 2013, 01:26:30 AM

Quote from: LearnedHand on June 01, 2013, 10:14:03 PM
Ah, you two look wicked cute! You asked for questions: how long is Caleb visiting for? Are you going to steal the little soaps and towels from the hotel?

I am visiting until June 8. Not long enough at all, but I have an appointment back home. And I don't plan to steal anything, lol. I don't need the little soaps because Keaira and her wife got me some Old Spice Swagger soap (they don't have it in Canada and I love it).

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Catalina on June 02, 2013, 03:49:53 AM

I need to go to bed... High Mass in the morning... but I want to read my book still! :-\

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Jamie D on June 02, 2013, 05:15:37 AM

Quote from: Shantel on June 01, 2013, 08:06:10 PM
I used to think that ladies didn't fart but my wife proved that to be a falsehood. Me, well there's no excuse for me I fart, therefore I am!

Rene Decartes, the famous philosopher, who formulated the idea, 'I think, therefore I am" (Cogito ergo sum), had a lesser-known cousin, Rene Defartes.

That Rene formulated a different idea ... "I stink, therefore I am." He wasn't quite as convincing, as no one wanted to even be around him.

True story ;)

Quote from: Renee on June 01, 2013, 06:27:20 PM
Thinking that maybe I don't need to be posting here for a while.

A quiet gray pall has descended over my life. Just when I thought I was making inroads. This should be over in the "unhappy" topic. :'(

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on June 02, 2013, 09:29:36 AM

Quote from: Jamie D on June 02, 2013, 05:15:37 AM

Quote from: Renee on Yesterday at 07:27:20 pm
Thinking that maybe I don't need to be posting here for a while.

A quiet gray pall has descended over my life. Just when I thought I was making inroads. This should be over in the "unhappy" topic. :'(

Ditto that! :'(

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: androgynoid on June 02, 2013, 11:46:30 AM

Quote from: Shantel on June 01, 2013, 07:54:11 PM
Well honey could it be the french fries while your having the beer? French fries always used to give me zits!

Could be. Lately I've been eating nothing but fast food, frozen pizzas, and Lean Cuisines. Got to get some veggies in there! Now that I've moved out I don't have my sister around cooking delicious vegetarian food.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Nero on June 02, 2013, 12:50:57 PM

Quote from: Keaira on June 01, 2013, 08:58:52 PM
As requested, here is our awkward hello video to everyone here at Susans.
Greetings to Susans Members (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qjHg_meQ2xw#)

Well, I guess I have nothing better to do on Sunday!
Good seeing you two. You look great sitting there, the two of you. I don't suppose there's any footage of the wild parties? :laugh:

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Liminal Stranger on June 02, 2013, 01:29:50 PM

I need to find more "Sh*t Transpeople Say" videos because I've run out. They're hilariously relatable even pre-everything.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Edge on June 02, 2013, 02:51:11 PM

I want Sherlock Holmes's outfit. The one from the BBC show.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Imreallyconfused on June 02, 2013, 04:40:56 PM

I want to hug a giant ice cube while swimming in a pool.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Darkie on June 02, 2013, 08:11:30 PM

This taco salad has way too much raw onions.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: TheLance on June 02, 2013, 09:01:14 PM

I'm sittin in the restaurant where my gf works. The table next to me consists of a bunch of obnoxious children and two couples. One of the wives is the authoritive type. And she's driving me absolutely insane. She's loud and it seems like she wants her business heard. And she got mad at one of her kids cause they said they didn't like church. I really wish they would leave.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on June 02, 2013, 09:29:51 PM

I hate schoolwork.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: DriftingCrow on June 02, 2013, 09:32:34 PM

I need to go to bed, but I really don't want to go to work tomorrow. Like, I like work but I don't at the same time. Maybe I'll get lucky and be sent on a field trip. . . the DMV would be a great trip, we do have some plates to drop off. . . now I am just running into a stream of consciousness writing, though directly related to the name of this topic, I doubt anyone wants to read me just writing everything that is literally popping into my head at the moment.

Quote from: Lance on June 02, 2013, 09:01:14 PM
I'm sittin in the restaurant where my gf works. The table next to me consists of a bunch of obnoxious children and two couples. One of the wives is the authoritive type. And she's driving me absolutely insane. She's loud and it seems like she wants her business heard. And she got mad at one of her kids cause they said they didn't like church. I really wish they would leave.

Can you move to another table?

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Naomi on June 02, 2013, 09:38:11 PM

That I should go to bed now because I'm always getting short changed on sleep and I have work tomorrow.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Liminal Stranger on June 03, 2013, 12:05:48 AM

I'm thinking about a most devious plan to shake my infantile fist at the system in a most irate and civil manner tomorrow.
So simple, too- there's a paper we have to initial in and out on during finals week. For some reason, the school deems it necessary to put an F or an M next to the name and class of each student. All I have to do is score the F and write in an M, just because I feel like it...not like they archive the paper, it gets thrown out by the end of Wednesday. But it'd make me feel empowered, screw what they think of it.

...Maybe I actually will do that tomorrow, at the very worst they'll ask me what I'm doing and I won't have a problem explaining. It's not like I live in Transphobia Central or go to a Catholic school, so I doubt they'll kick me out of school or call my mother over a piece of paper.

On a scale of 1 to that Japanese McDonald's commercial, how far off the bend have I gone? ;D

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on June 03, 2013, 12:12:33 AM

Quote from: Liminal Stranger on June 03, 2013, 12:05:48 AM
I'm thinking about a most devious plan to shake my infantile fist at the system in a most irate and civil manner tomorrow.
So simple, too- there's a paper we have to initial in and out on during finals week. For some reason, the school deems it necessary to put an F or an M next to the name and class of each student. All I have to do is score the F and write in an M, just because I feel like it...not like they archive the paper, it gets thrown out by the end of Wednesday. But it'd make me feel empowered, screw what they think of it.

...Maybe I actually will do that tomorrow, at the very worst they'll ask me what I'm doing and I won't have a problem explaining. It's not like I live in Transphobia Central or go to a Catholic school, so I doubt they'll kick me out of school or call my mother over a piece of paper.

On a scale of 1 to that Japanese McDonald's commercial, how far off the bend have I gone? ;D

You're good!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Keaira on June 03, 2013, 06:15:40 AM

Yesterday was busy with my youngest daughters graduation. Had some issues with my in-laws which I am too tired to elaborate on right now. But its ended in my ceasing commiunication with them. Later on I picked Caleb up and took him home and kind of showed him how to get a charcoal grill up and going. My next door neighbor showed us his great grilled chicken recipie. And I cooked some real german bratwurst. Then we went back to the hotel to play some xbox.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Anna++ on June 03, 2013, 06:37:00 AM

Quote from: Darkie on June 02, 2013, 08:11:30 PM
This taco salad has way too much raw onions.

No such thing :)

I have appointments with both my dentist and my gastrointestinal doc today. I suppose I'll have to come out to both of them when they ask for medication changes.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: ZoeM on June 03, 2013, 06:59:36 AM

Quote from: Anna! on June 03, 2013, 06:37:00 AM
No such thing :)

I have appointments with both my dentist and my gastrointestinal doc today. I suppose I'll have to come out to both of them when they ask for medication changes.

Sorta hard to hide it from the medical professionals, isn't it? XD

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Anna++ on June 03, 2013, 07:02:09 AM

Quote from: ZoeM on June 03, 2013, 06:59:36 AM
Sorta hard to hide it from the medical professionals, isn't it? XD

Yes, but I think it's more important for me to tell the G.I. doc.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Simon on June 03, 2013, 07:12:19 AM

I'm thinking I've got to get this insomnia figured out before the Fall. I am sooo tired. :'(

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Keaira on June 03, 2013, 05:09:44 PM

Caleb and my Son, Mikey, are downstairs, playing with a crane machine, lol. We just got done swimming in the hotel pool. Poor Caleb had to stop because his binding injury was trying to come back. He and Mikey get along so well. I think Caleb will make a great Father someday. Though I'm sure he's not in a rush for that. lol. What's weird is I feel really..normal? I guess. Like I dont have to hold anything back. I can just be me and not feel like I'll have to defend myself later on.

Here lately my in-laws have made it clear that they will never ever stop calling me by my old name. So, last night I decided that I would drop all contact with them. I obviously dont have enough respect in their eyes. And I feel like I can at least vent with Caleb because he is not part of that family.

Well, Caleb and Mikey came up. Mikey won an own plush toy and gave it to Caleb. and now they are discussing Sonic the Hedgehog. :)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Anna++ on June 03, 2013, 05:18:38 PM

Quote from: Anna! on June 03, 2013, 06:37:00 AM
I have appointments with both my dentist and my gastrointestinal doc today. I suppose I'll have to come out to both of them when they ask for medication changes.

Here is a quick summary of how my appointments went:

Dentist: These new medications are hormones?
Me: Yes
Dentist: Sounds good, see you in six months

GI Doc: What's... estridol for?
Me: Gender dysphoria
GI Doc: What is that?
Me: <I take a few sentences to explain>
GI Doc: So nothing GI related? No problem!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Liminal Stranger on June 04, 2013, 01:09:47 PM

So yesterday I got upset with all the stupid misgendering going on distracting me from my exams and the sign in/out paper had an angry scribble in the respective column instead of an F or an M, today it has a smiley face instead. Apparently they throw out the paper at the end of the day. But it looked like there was an M underneath anyway with the way the pencil marks were, so double plus.

Also came out to the substitute/proctor who did 95% of the misgendering yesterday, he was very understanding about it. He's a good guy. 2 down, 100 or so to go...

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Edge on June 04, 2013, 08:39:23 PM

I'm nervous because I am (finally) changing my name tomorrow and there are so many people I need to inform after and cards/paperwork I need to change.
I really want a wide brimmed sorcerer's hat. The problem is I know exactly what I want and can't find it. Curse my wish for non-existent clothing.
I am also thinking about currently non-existent clothing I could make.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Renee on June 04, 2013, 08:46:58 PM

After watching my dog do the circle dance(about 8 turns) when I gave him a new knotted bone rawhide thingy, now I'm wondering why dogs do that? Do they have an innate need to entertain us when we reward them or what? Maybe I should google it...

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Devlyn on June 04, 2013, 08:52:50 PM

Quote from: Edge on June 04, 2013, 08:39:23 PM
I'm nervous because I am (finally) changing my name tomorrow and there are so many people I need to inform after and cards/paperwork I need to change.
I really want a wide brimmed sorcerer's hat. The problem is I know exactly what I want and can't find it. Curse my wish for non-existent clothing.
I am also thinking about currently non-existent clothing I could make.

Something like the Sorting Hat?

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Edge on June 04, 2013, 09:23:21 PM

Quote from: Devlyn Marie on June 04, 2013, 08:52:50 PM
Something like the Sorting Hat?

Yes except without the face and a different colour.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Adam (birkin) on June 05, 2013, 03:23:21 AM

I bought a Furby at Walmart, since I never got one as a kid. Keaira and I put the batteries in and it started off as a cute, giggling baby...then minutes later, grew up into a diva. :( I don't know what we did wrong. Well, she managed to put it to sleep and it has stayed that way but I do expect it to wake me at some point.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Keaira on June 05, 2013, 04:23:50 AM

Quote from: Prof HB on June 05, 2013, 03:23:21 AM
I bought a Furby at Walmart, since I never got one as a kid. Keaira and I put the batteries in and it started off as a cute, giggling baby...then minutes later, grew up into a diva. :( I don't know what we did wrong. Well, she managed to put it to sleep and it has stayed that way but I do expect it to wake me at some point.

You didnt do anything wrong. Furby's, like children, develop their own personalities. You should be proud of your Furby. It has the courage to be its own self, despite people trying to push it to be something its not. I'm a parent so trust me, a Furby is nothing compared to the challenge of raising a child.
^_^ it was cute though.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on June 05, 2013, 04:42:42 AM

I want to come out to my other sister. That desire is getting stronger, but it isn't the right time yet, especially since I can't do anything about my transition right now. Also because she's pregnant. I don't want to put any more stress on her. I need to wait until I have a license and job so I can work for a while and raise the money. Also, this is good because when I do tell her and my mother, their argument about my mind being corrupted due to the internet will become weaker since I won't be on it all the time like I am now to keep me sane.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Adam (birkin) on June 05, 2013, 04:59:09 AM

Quote from: Keaira on June 05, 2013, 04:23:50 AM
You didnt do anything wrong. Furby's, like children, develop their own personalities. You should be proud of your Furby. It has the courage to be its own self, despite people trying to push it to be something its not. I'm a parent so trust me, a Furby is nothing compared to the challenge of raising a child.
^_^ it was cute though.

*sigh* You're right. :( I should love le Furby. It does look rather cute sleeping on the night table.

up at 11, so I only has...5 hours? best get to it.

Edit: UGH!! I just saw what you did, you changed my profile AGAIN.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Anna++ on June 05, 2013, 07:15:24 AM

Quote from: Edge on June 04, 2013, 08:39:23 PM
I really want a wide brimmed sorcerer's hat. The problem is I know exactly what I want and can't find it. Curse my wish for non-existent clothing.

What about a Wizzard hat instead?

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Edge on June 05, 2013, 09:43:32 AM

Quote from: Anna! on June 05, 2013, 07:15:24 AM
What about a Wizzard hat instead?

I'd like something a little less flashy, but would like to add that you have excellent taste.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on June 05, 2013, 10:38:26 AM

I wonder if I should set up a consultation in Aug. with Dr. Garramone, even though my actual top surgery will still be some years away. Probably not, but I want to slowly move foward.....especially before his prices rise some more.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on June 05, 2013, 11:10:29 AM

Quote from: Renee on June 04, 2013, 08:46:58 PM
After watching my dog do the circle dance(about 8 turns) when I gave him a new knotted bone rawhide thingy, now I'm wondering why dogs do that? Do they have an innate need to entertain us when we reward them or what? Maybe I should google it...

He was probably thrilled and since he couldn't tell you that, it was the second best way to let you know.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on June 05, 2013, 11:14:00 AM

Quote from: Prof HB on June 05, 2013, 03:23:21 AM
I bought a Furby at Walmart, since I never got one as a kid. Keaira and I put the batteries in and it started off as a cute, giggling baby...then minutes later, grew up into a diva. :( I don't know what we did wrong. Well, she managed to put it to sleep and it has stayed that way but I do expect it to wake me at some point.

Funny, but I have a Furby as well, don't know what got into me but I thought it was so cute that I had to have one! :icon_redface:

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Renee on June 05, 2013, 11:29:12 AM

Got today and tomorrow off, then work Friday and then the weekend off. This four day work week stuff is pretty good and the way I get days off at the end of the pay week and then off at the beginning of the next one makes it good too.

I just wish I felt better, but I probably will by tonight or morning. Just tired from too much stupid crap the last week.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on June 05, 2013, 11:30:53 AM

Quote from: Renee on June 05, 2013, 11:29:12 AM
Got today and tomorrow off, then work Friday and then the weekend off. This four day work week stuff is pretty good and the way I get days off at the end of the pay week and then off at the beginning of the next one makes it good too.

I just wish I felt better, but I probably will by tonight or morning. Just tired from too much stupid crap the last week.

So what happened to the jerk that failed to do his clean-up and left you in a world of sh*t?

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Renee on June 05, 2013, 11:36:06 AM

Quote from: Shantel on June 05, 2013, 11:30:53 AM
So what happened to the jerk that failed to do his clean-up and left you in a world of sh*t?

He's part time, so she hasn't even talked to him yet. He was talking about giving his two weeks the last several days before that, so it will likely cement his decision if he gets written up. Unfortunately, when you have to make sure shifts are covered and you have a very limited pool of people, its tough to enforce much, but hopefully we will get some new applicants going shortly, hope so anyway. A few have expressed interest in applying and just got some applications from the main office yesterday finally.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on June 05, 2013, 12:08:42 PM

Quote from: Renee on June 05, 2013, 11:36:06 AM
He's part time, so she hasn't even talked to him yet. He was talking about giving his two weeks the last several days before that, so it will likely cement his decision if he gets written up. Unfortunately, when you have to make sure shifts are covered and you have a very limited pool of people, its tough to enforce much, but hopefully we will get some new applicants going shortly, hope so anyway. A few have expressed interest in applying and just got some applications from the main office yesterday finally.

Must be kind of agonizing for you and the lady boss as well, hope you can find a real keeper, good luck!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Edge on June 05, 2013, 03:18:43 PM

When I say I don't believe in gender roles, for some reason, this makes people who claim to also not believe in gender roles think that I will understand what they're saying when they reference The Paperbag Princess. I wish no one had explained the reference to me because I feel like they ruined the book.
I liked it when the princess rescues the prince because he was taken by the dragon. I liked it when she said she wouldn't marry him after all because he was a bum. I don't like when she does what she does as some sort of comment on ridiculous crap people keep insisting on paying attention to. If one doesn't believe in gender roles, one should stop pretending they exist.

I'm eagerly anticipating my name change certificate and anxiously anticipating having to tell people I haven't told before.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Naomi on June 05, 2013, 03:30:12 PM

Only 30 more minutes before work's over and I can take off my mask.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on June 05, 2013, 03:46:53 PM

The Gamestop employee forgot to give me my 11 cents....

but she was a cutie so I let it slide.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on June 05, 2013, 04:02:42 PM

Quote from: Malachite on June 05, 2013, 03:46:53 PM
The Gamestop employee forgot to give me my 11 cents....

but she was a cutie so I let it slide.

Huh, you should go back settle for nine and give her your two cents worth! >:-)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on June 05, 2013, 04:07:54 PM

Quote from: Shantel on June 05, 2013, 04:02:42 PM
Huh, you should go back settle for nine and give her your two cents worth! >:-)

I'll lose more money in the end since I will be tempted to keep spending so I can spend time with her lol!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: DriftingCrow on June 05, 2013, 04:45:25 PM

Omg. . . I can't believe it, I got an A- in my tax law course; Iwas so sure I got a C at best. No idea how that happened. But, yay! An LLM in Tax Law is still an option for me! :)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on June 05, 2013, 04:48:38 PM

Quote from: LearnedHand on June 05, 2013, 04:45:25 PM
Omg. . . I can't believe it, I got an A- in my tax law course; Iwas so sure I got a C at best. No idea how that happened. But, yay! An LLM in Tax Law is still an option for me! :)

Congratulations, I always thought that you are a smart one, so there you go huh?

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Simon on June 05, 2013, 05:22:26 PM

Quote from: LearnedHand on June 05, 2013, 04:45:25 PM
Omg. . . I can't believe it, I got an A- in my tax law course; Iwas so sure I got a C at best. No idea how that happened. But, yay! An LLM in Tax Law is still an option for me! :)

Congrats! :)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Keaira on June 05, 2013, 07:28:41 PM

Well done, Congrats! :)

Had fun with Caleb today. we had breakfast then went to the Jackson County visitors center. which was nice. then we went bowling. My son had fun with that and Caleb made fun of me almost the whole time. I want to go swimming but the pool closes at 11pm so I wont get much of it done if we do go. Shame too because I finally don't look so stupid in a bathing suit. I did have a pic posted in another thread, but I figure that there are prettier girls posting there, so I took it down.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on June 05, 2013, 08:54:06 PM

Quote from: Keaira on June 05, 2013, 07:28:41 PM
I finally don't look so stupid in a bathing suit. I did have a pic posted in another thread, but I figure that there are prettier girls posting there, so I took it down.

Don't do that to yourself, there will always be prettier women, don't let it intimidate you!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Keaira on June 05, 2013, 10:52:03 PM

Quote from: Shantel on June 05, 2013, 08:54:06 PM
Don't do that to yourself, there will always be prettier women, don't let it intimidate you!

No it's ok. only some people get to see the pics. ^^

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: DriftingCrow on June 05, 2013, 11:00:46 PM

This is what I am thinking right now, and have been thinking about since our first zoning board hearing on our client's case -- we can also call this "Uncle Henry's Friendly Advice to the Young Ones":

I've never really considered myself to be very smart, I think I am of pretty average intelligence and I spent a large part of my younger years thinking I was really dumb and incapable of doing great things; I have my strong parts and weak parts like everyone (science being one of the weak parts, I had a science teacher tell me I was stupid before in a round-a-bout way, I've also failed math class a few times), yet lately I've been feeling pretty smart when I am around people who aren't my peers, especially at these zb hearings when all the hecklers in the crowd are going nuts and I swear that annoying lady who is always knitting is going to sneak up on us and stab us with her DPNs. . . Without getting into the details of our work and our case, I've come to realize that many people aren't that bright, not because of low IQs or lack of education, but because people aren't willing to expand their knowledge and understanding of different things. These objectors are running on pure fear (and an elitist attitude), but won't allow their fears to be assuaged because they aren't willing to expand their knowledge. I think what makes me smart isn't extra brain power, but because I am always expanding my knowledge. I listen to NPR and the BBC daily, and I always learn new things, and I even listen to stories and reports about things that I think is boring, as a result, I know a bit here and there about a large variety of topics. I also read books and articles (non-fiction) about a wide variety of topics. I am able to carry on conversations about physics even though I've never taken a physics class, I know a lot about the economic state of India, even though I am not an economist and have never been to India, etc. When I talk to people who aren't my peers, or who aren't NPR or BBC enthusiasts like me, I often can't have a nice intelligent conversation about a wide variety of topics. Sometimes I think people get so comfortable in their lives, and don't bother to branch out because they think it's useless knowledge to them, that they get stuck in a mental/intellectual rut which leads to them being ignorant about things that aren't in their immediate radar. Ignorance, and lack of will to correct the ignorance, to me is what makes people stupid. (And, I'll say, some people can be really smart about certain things, but not about others--like my dad, he's really smart about things like welding and oil fields, yet has no will to learn more about different cultures so he's not very smart on that front, and therefore is kind of xenophobic and thinks most Muslims are terrorists, even though he has the mental ability to expand his horizons a bit more)

So, you young ones who were ambitious enough to read my wordy paragraph that I wrote at a time when I am normally fast asleep, don't worry if you feel dumb right now, as long as you are always keeping an open mind, and delving into topics that are outside of your immediate understanding or use or comfort zone, you'll soon be above the average Joe. I always felt like in school, intelligence was always stressed as someone's IQ or whatnot, but that's really not what it is at all. A high IQ does no one any good if they're not willing to use their intelligence and just put on blinders to anything that disagrees with their initial assessment of reality.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on June 06, 2013, 12:00:44 AM

I'm debating if I should shoot for top surgery in two years rather than four. That way, I can hit up Anime Expo in my new chest when I'm 24. Who knows, maybe I could go for top surgery in the next year and a half if I could ever get the stones to come out to my mom.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Jamie D on June 06, 2013, 01:06:29 AM

Quote from: CalmRage on June 05, 2013, 02:25:43 PM
I feel awful but i am doubting everything a lot so i don't know if i can talk to my psychologist about this.

Quote from: CalmRage on June 05, 2013, 04:04:58 PM
I'm scared and i am confused.

Exactly why you should discuss things with your therapist.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Keaira on June 06, 2013, 04:16:19 AM

Quote from: Prof HB on June 05, 2013, 04:59:09 AM
*sigh* You're right. :( I should love le Furby. It does look rather cute sleeping on the night table.

up at 11, so I only has...5 hours? best get to it.

Edit: UGH!! I just saw what you did, you changed my profile AGAIN.

Lol! That made me giggle. That was a bit of payback. :p

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Adam (birkin) on June 06, 2013, 05:02:54 AM

Mhm.

I had the White Castle poop just now.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Keaira on June 06, 2013, 10:26:05 AM

Quote from: Prof HB on June 06, 2013, 05:02:54 AM
Mhm.

I had the White Castle poop just now.

Lmao! I did warn you!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Renee on June 06, 2013, 10:39:23 AM

Sometimes, I follow the dog all over the place, just walk right behind him everywhere he goes, if he runs, I run after him. He starts looking back at me like I'm crazy and what the hell am I doing following him. I'm just trying to show him what's it like ...

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on June 06, 2013, 10:55:35 AM

Quote from: Renee on June 06, 2013, 10:39:23 AM
Sometimes, I follow the dog all over the place, just walk right behind him everywhere he goes, if he runs, I run after him. He starts looking back at me like I'm crazy and what the hell am I doing following him. I'm just trying to show him what's it like ...

Most of the time I just feel like I'm leading a dog's life! ;D

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Renee on June 06, 2013, 11:00:51 AM

Quote from: Shantel on June 06, 2013, 10:55:35 AM
Most of the time I just feel like I'm leading a dog's life! ;D

From where I sit, you're lucky then, cause it seems to be an awfully good life. Free room and board, lots of snacks, someone to cater to your every need, no need to actually get a job, sleep whenever you feel like it...

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on June 06, 2013, 11:15:50 AM

Quote from: Renee on June 06, 2013, 11:00:51 AM
From where I sit, you're lucky then, cause it seems to be an awfully good life. Free room and board, lots of snacks, someone to cater to your every need, no need to actually get a job, sleep whenever you feel like it...

Being retired that's what I do best! My wife who regards me to be a man said, "Men are dogs!" I looked down at my dog Cody and said, "Hear that Cody? We're brothers!"

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Renee on June 06, 2013, 11:40:40 AM

Dammit, I had my reply all set for that thread too. But I will put this here for the person's information, I did get my letters and was not refused by any therapist. I even got my srs letter 7 years ago, just haven't been able to afford to use it. I'm not keen on that thread ending on that note and I think some of these holier than though youngins need to realize that people didn't always have the same choices they do now nor the same level of acceptance.

/end of rant

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on June 06, 2013, 11:53:18 AM

Quote from: Renee on June 06, 2013, 11:40:40 AM
Dammit, I had my reply all set for that thread too. But I will put this here for the person's information, I did get my letters and was not refused by any therapist. I even got my srs letter 7 years ago, just haven't been able to afford to use it. I'm not keen on that thread ending on that note and I think some of these holier than though youngins need to realize that people didn't always have the same choices they do now nor the same level of acceptance.

/end of rant

+1
Good rant Renee, there are several dozen here including myself who concur!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Jamie D on June 06, 2013, 09:38:54 PM

Quote from: Shantel on June 06, 2013, 10:55:35 AM
Most of the time I just feel like I'm leading a dog's life! ;D

How's that? You like to pee on trees?

Quote from: kkut on June 06, 2013, 10:59:12 AM
Life ruff is it? :D

That one knocked the air clean out of me.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Darkie on June 06, 2013, 09:50:01 PM

Quote from: Edge on June 05, 2013, 03:18:43 PM
When I say I don't believe in gender roles, for some reason, this makes people who claim to also not believe in gender roles think that I will understand what they're saying when they reference The Paperbag Princess. I wish no one had explained the reference to me because I feel like they ruined the book.
I liked it when the princess rescues the prince because he was taken by the dragon. I liked it when she said she wouldn't marry him after all because he was a bum. I don't like when she does what she does as some sort of comment on ridiculous crap people keep insisting on paying attention to. If one doesn't believe in gender roles, one should stop pretending they exist.

I'm eagerly anticipating my name change certificate and anxiously anticipating having to tell people I haven't told before.

Could always watch Revolutionary Girl Utena. Girl gets saved by prince. Girl decides she wants to be a prince instead of a princess. I've never watched it myself but my childhood friend really liked it.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Darkie on June 06, 2013, 09:53:58 PM

Quote from: Miss Bungle on June 05, 2013, 11:49:50 PM
I got a copy of PGA Tour 98 for the PS1 AND my other two Portia related items should be arriving on Saturday.

YES!!! ;D

Now I just need to wait and see about that AC double CD comp.

Had my dad golfed as good in real life as he did on that game we would have been so rich.... Same with Tiger Woods on the PS2. I remember that PGA game was what all the guys went downstairs and played every Thanksgiving while the girls sat upstairs and talked. I usually sat downstairs with the boys. Not so much because I enjoyed the sports more than the small talk, but because the banter between all the old guys was HILARIOUS. Nothing like men talking smack at each other while playing golf on a playstation.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Simon on June 06, 2013, 09:54:16 PM

Ate too much pizza. Drank too much beer.

All in all it's a good night.

....until my gf wakes up and realizes I ate all the pizza except two slices. :laugh:

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Jamie D on June 06, 2013, 09:59:33 PM

Quote from: Simon on June 06, 2013, 09:54:16 PM
Ate too much pizza. Drank too much beer.

Not possible.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Darkie on June 06, 2013, 10:07:58 PM

My conversation with the cat while walking backwards down steep skinny stairs while carrying a laundry basket full of clothes that is as wide as the stairs with a plate of nachos on top:

"I swear to Osiris kitty, if you trip me and I fall and die I am going to haunt the crap out of you. Seriously. You are going to need so much kitty counseling it's not even funny."

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: V M on June 06, 2013, 10:37:54 PM

A full cold can of beer makes for a great rolling pin when rolling out pizza dough

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Darkie on June 06, 2013, 11:25:23 PM

Wait, what just happened?

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on June 06, 2013, 11:36:16 PM

Calvinism

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Simon on June 06, 2013, 11:59:10 PM

Quote from: Malachite on June 06, 2013, 11:36:16 PM
Calvinism

Predestination? Ack.

Just finished watching GoT with my gf who is now mad at the outcome. Trying to figure out what to watch next.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Keaira on June 07, 2013, 12:38:41 AM

I went swimming with Caleb and my Son again. I can't beleive I pass well enough in a swimsuit not to be hassled. Caleb helped pick it out. Currently he is sleeping on my shoulder. Tomorrow is his last day here I don't want him to go. This week has gone by too fast. Whats weird is how it feels like we have been together for years. And my dysphoria just melts away when he is around. He makes me laugh a lot. He just woke up, went to the bathroom and came back. Hes wrapped up in his blanket farting, so I pulled the blanket over his head and dutch oven'ed him.

I really dont want him to go. :(

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Jamie D on June 07, 2013, 01:10:31 AM

Apropos!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Adam (birkin) on June 07, 2013, 01:12:25 AM

Quote from: Keaira on June 07, 2013, 12:38:41 AM
I really dont want him to go. :(

I don't want to go either. :( It feels like I just got here, but also like I have been here forever.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on June 07, 2013, 01:36:51 AM

Quote from: Simon on June 06, 2013, 11:59:10 PM
Predestination? Ack.

Interesting debates though

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Simon on June 07, 2013, 07:31:37 PM

Horribly depressing day with no explanation why.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Renee on June 07, 2013, 07:32:53 PM

The storm seems to have gone by now.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Simon on June 07, 2013, 07:46:15 PM

Quote from: Renee on June 07, 2013, 07:32:53 PM
The storm seems to have gone by now.

We still have it here in Lexington. :P

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Keaira on June 07, 2013, 07:54:22 PM

I want to go sit in a hot tub again. But Caleb and I are worn out from shooting today and we need to pack.

I guess my swimsuit can be packed away until next time.
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi688.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fvv246%2FKeairaElisabeth%2FMisc1%2Fkeairaswimsuit1_zpscab27464.jpg&hash=a47745a2dca9a4910e6f33293a6f67cb56d77648)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Renee on June 07, 2013, 07:59:32 PM

oh great, the dog farted again. *gags*

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Keaira on June 07, 2013, 08:01:07 PM

Quote from: Renee on June 07, 2013, 07:59:32 PM
oh great, the dog farted again. *gags*

Sounds like a dog Caleb could love. :P

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Devlyn on June 07, 2013, 08:02:43 PM

Quote from: Renee on June 07, 2013, 07:32:53 PM
The storm seems to have gone by now.

Quote from: Simon on June 07, 2013, 07:46:15 PM
We still have it here in Lexington. :P

Still pouring here in Massachusetts.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Renee on June 07, 2013, 08:07:24 PM

Quote from: Devlyn Marie on June 07, 2013, 08:02:43 PM
Still pouring here in Massachusetts.

I just looked and the center is in Virginia, so you will get it overnight likely. It wasn't bad here, just annoying with the power blinking at work and people let the door get blown out of their hands and it whacks the trashcan and I was hoping it wouldn't break or get jammed. Plus it messed with my hair being so windy and humid, got the frizzes. :icon_eek:

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on June 07, 2013, 10:17:59 PM

male vs man

I realize that no matter what surgeries I get or how much testosterone I take, or what I change my name to, I will never be a male since I was born a female. That doesn't stop me from being a man though.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: The unknown on June 07, 2013, 10:25:36 PM

I honestly don't know what to do at this point..

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Simon on June 07, 2013, 10:28:52 PM

Quote from: Malachite on June 07, 2013, 10:17:59 PM
I realize that no matter what surgeries I get or how much testosterone I take, or what I change my name to, I will never be a male since I was born a female. That doesn't stop me from being a man though.

I think that is a defeatist attitude. I am a man AND I am a male. They go hand in hand. If someone identifies as trans (I know I am trans but it is not my identity) then I could understand where in your mind there is a separation.

I am not less than a cis male and I refuse to label myself as anything less than they are.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on June 07, 2013, 10:31:59 PM

Quote from: Simon on June 07, 2013, 10:28:52 PM
I think that is a defeatist attitude. I am a man AND I am a male. They go hand in hand. If someone identifies as trans (I know I am trans but it is not my identity) then I could understand where in your mind there is a separation.

I am not less than a cis male and I refuse to label myself as anything less than they are.

I understand where you're coming from.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Simon on June 07, 2013, 10:43:58 PM

Quote from: Malachite on June 07, 2013, 10:31:59 PM
I understand where you're coming from.

Don't think I'm getting down on you. I just really want guys to start thinking of themselves as more than the lousy hand that was dealt to them.

------------

I'm thinking it's time to start saving to move. I hate moving but it'll be in between the College and my gf's work so less gas. It'll be closer to the city so less gas getting what we need. Closer to the Endo (that's right...less gas), and in a County where I can go to the clinic. I have no idea how I will get my brain/spine MRI next year if I don't get into the clinic. They're 3 grand for an hour scan, yikes.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: DriftingCrow on June 08, 2013, 08:19:12 AM

I am thinking I wish it wasn't so rainy today, I'd really like to go down by the beaches this weekend. I guess I'll watch some Downton Abbey and knit at home instead.

Quote from: Simon on June 07, 2013, 10:43:58 PM
I'm thinking it's time to start saving to move. I hate moving but it'll be in between the College and my gf's work so less gas. It'll be closer to the city so less gas getting what we need. Closer to the Endo (that's right...less gas), and in a County where I can go to the clinic. I have no idea how I will get my brain/spine MRI next year if I don't get into the clinic. They're 3 grand for an hour scan, yikes.

I hate moving too, well, packing is what I hate. I am dying to move, I hate living here, but I think I should wait until I pass the bar and start making real money. I mine as well wait, so I can get a better apartment (or even house) instead of moving from one craphole to another.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on June 08, 2013, 08:27:52 AM

Quote from: LearnedHand on June 08, 2013, 08:19:12 AM
I am thinking I wish it wasn't so rainy today, I'd really like to go down by the beaches this weekend. I guess I'll watch some Downton Abbey and knit at home instead.

Big Downton Abby fan here too! I get upset when the season series is over.

Quote from: LearnedHand on June 08, 2013, 08:19:12 AM
I hate moving too, well, packing is what I hate. I am dying to move, I hate living here, but I think I should wait until I pass the bar and start making real money. I mine as well wait, so I can get a better apartment (or even house) instead of moving from one craphole to another.

Logical, smart thinking. Stick with your plan! :)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Simon on June 08, 2013, 08:39:24 AM

Quote from: LearnedHand on June 08, 2013, 08:19:12 AM
I hate moving too, well, packing is what I hate. I am dying to move.

We've decided to wait until the two week break in December from College to move. My gf works and is in College so it'll be easier on her that way. We have zero friends out here to help so moving for us is usually a back breaking two days.

---------

I'm thinking I'm worried about my gf. She had to go to the doctor today because her throat was swollen. It's her thyroid and now they want her to set up an appointment to have a biopsy Monday, I'm terrified.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Renee on June 08, 2013, 06:17:11 PM

Even the supervisor seems to be wanting me to manage a store, not sure which one, but still not sure I'm ready for that yet.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on June 08, 2013, 06:55:32 PM

Quote from: Renee on June 08, 2013, 06:17:11 PM
Even the supervisor seems to be wanting me to manage a store, not sure which one, but still not sure I'm ready for that yet.

I know you're a can-do type of chickster, got faith in you girl! :)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Renee on June 08, 2013, 06:58:10 PM

Quote from: Shantel on June 08, 2013, 06:55:32 PM
I know you're a can-do type of chickster, got faith in you girl! :)

I'm just concerned that it could be kind of like sticking a target on my back though, lol.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Keaira on June 08, 2013, 10:59:29 PM

Caleb passed 100% of the time here. Me? No such luck. my landlord for instance referred to me as male, even though I clearly have breasts. I wonder, if I went to Canada, would I pass 100% there?

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on June 09, 2013, 04:20:46 AM

Doing stupid things with guy friends....if I had any.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Keaira on June 09, 2013, 05:39:13 AM

I just remembered what Caleb said the last time we went swimming. when we got back, he said "WTF? you went swimming. in a pool of chlorinated water and you STILL smell nice! How is that possible?"

He likes the way I smell. All I could smell most of the time was his Old Spice Swagger. lol

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Adam (birkin) on June 09, 2013, 05:51:41 AM

Yeah, she smelled amazing all the time. =/ I usually smell of the Old Spice smell, but sometimes I sweat when I sleep so I smell like Old Spice laced with some sweat. And then she can spend like an hour in a pool and smell like perfume instead of chlorine.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on June 09, 2013, 06:29:18 AM

Looking at my old post labeled "Too Early to Start Saving For Top Surgery?" where at the time I only had $299.85 saved up. It's nice to see that I have more than doubled that in over a year but now the prices have went up so where my goal was to save a nice $10 grand up, now it's $20 grand.

I highly doubt I will use all of it. The rest is going towards Anime Expo no doubt. Hey I got to celebrate the new chest somehow.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Keaira on June 09, 2013, 03:15:53 PM

I hate Microsoft Windoze. I did a brand new install of Windoze 7 and it has internet connection issues right after doing a bunch of security updates. If people can build an OS that runs so smoothly like Ubuntu, for free, how is it Microsoft can't even make a half-decent OS that works?

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Adam (birkin) on June 09, 2013, 03:37:41 PM

Ugh, a 4 hour bus ride to get to my appointment...I really don't want to have to do this, I'm still tired and depressed from the long trip back from Indiana. :(

There's that part of me that still tells me not to go, to just forfeit the cost of the bus ticket and remember to plan better next time. But that's dumb. I'll arrive in Edmonton at midnight, which makes me very nervous. Hotels are nearby, so it really isn't a huge deal to just walk to one, but its scary to walk alone at night in an unfamiliar place.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Anna++ on June 09, 2013, 04:25:59 PM

Quote from: Keaira on June 09, 2013, 03:15:53 PM
I hate Microsoft Windoze. I did a brand new install of Windoze 7 and it has internet connection issues right after doing a bunch of security updates. If people can build an OS that runs so smoothly like Ubuntu, for free, how is it Microsoft can't even make a half-decent OS that works?

To be fair, most of the kernel developers these days are paid by some company or another.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Simon on June 09, 2013, 06:17:44 PM

Quote from: Malachite on June 09, 2013, 06:29:18 AM
now the prices have went up so where my goal was to save a nice $10 grand up, now it's $20 grand.

Yeah, that is a lot for top surgery. I'm saving up $8500 which is enough to go to Macphee in Raleigh or enough for travel, hotel, and surgery with Dr. G.

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I'm thinking I wish Obamacare would hurry up. Not for SRS, I seriously doubt it'll cover that (maybe some lab work or meds but nothing else), but for other things I need to get done.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: DriftingCrow on June 09, 2013, 07:11:40 PM

Quote from: Simon on June 08, 2013, 08:39:24 AM
I'm thinking I'm worried about my gf. She had to go to the doctor today because her throat was swollen. It's her thyroid and now they want her to set up an appointment to have a biopsy Monday, I'm terrified.

I hope she's okay Simon. :(

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I am thinking about what else I should eat, I have 600 more calories to eat today but I can't think of anything that I want to eat . And, I can't wait to hang my Navajo sand painting up in my office tomorrow, I have nothing on the walls currently and it's kind of prison like in there now, maybe it'll look more cheerful with the painting on the wall.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Simon on June 09, 2013, 07:32:09 PM

Quote from: LearnedHand on June 09, 2013, 07:11:40 PM
I hope she's okay Simon. :(

Thank you, I appreciate that someone noticed....or cared enough to say something supportive.

Quote from: Liam Erik on June 09, 2013, 07:24:17 PM
Hey, I'm six whole days post-op (okay, five and a half), I can handle sheep again, right?

Hey congrats on your surgery! You tend to lurk in here so I hadn't seen anything about it. Hope you're healing well...and no sheep for you right now, lol.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Imreallyconfused on June 09, 2013, 09:27:17 PM

I need a job

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on June 09, 2013, 10:08:24 PM

Quote from: Mellysia (Melly) on June 09, 2013, 09:27:17 PM
I need a job

same here

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Imreallyconfused on June 09, 2013, 10:19:59 PM

Been looking around for one since left knee surgery, but since I'm getting right knee surgery in maybe 2-3 weeks no one will even hire me to sit at a desk. I even said I'd take minimum wage.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Keaira on June 10, 2013, 01:18:17 AM

Time is drawing closer to the Lobby Days. Hotel arrangements havent even been made yet and I'm worried that I wont be able to go. I was kind of disheartened to see no one from Susans was going. But, a Trans-inclusive ENDA is important. Maybe this time around we wont get screwed over like we were last time.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Renee on June 10, 2013, 03:13:56 AM

Got ready for work kind of early, but that's ok, gives me time to drink my coffee in peace.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Tossu-sama on June 10, 2013, 07:24:48 AM

That ticker in my sig is really useful, I wouldn't have realized I've been on T for six months already. :D
Damn, time does fly.

Also, my backside is a bit ache-y because I had my T shot yesterday done by my friend who's currently studying to be a practical nurse. She did it really well considering her only experience was from the practice at school. :D And she also showed my fiancé how it's done so now she can do my injections because I just can't do it myself.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: JennX on June 10, 2013, 12:08:36 PM

Food poisoning sucks. :-X

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: The unknown on June 10, 2013, 04:27:15 PM

I hate this body. I wish I had More muscle

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: DriftingCrow on June 10, 2013, 06:33:09 PM

I am thinking that I am really glad I did my work-out that I missed this morning since I was really tired and slept in; I was going to just skip it tonight but now I feel extra happy that I did it when I didn't want to.

Quote from: The unknown on June 10, 2013, 04:27:15 PM
I hate this body. I wish I had More muscle

I'd be happy to have a virtual work-out buddy :)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Simon on June 10, 2013, 07:23:35 PM

The Patriots signed Tim Tebow.

....I am NOT impressed. >:(

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: ZoeM on June 10, 2013, 07:36:18 PM

Quote from: Simon on June 10, 2013, 07:23:35 PM
The Patriots signed Tim Tebow.

....I am NOT impressed. >:(

How come?

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: V M on June 10, 2013, 08:45:45 PM

Bill Belichick is no schmuck, possibly he sees something other's have missed 8)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Simon on June 10, 2013, 08:46:30 PM

Quote from: ZoeM on June 10, 2013, 07:36:18 PM
How come?

Not a fan of his religious exhibitionism or playing skills (neither were the Jets :laugh:).

I'm thinking it's time to eat tacos, watch Game of Thrones Season finale and then start a "Die Hard" movie marathon. ;D

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: JennX on June 10, 2013, 08:52:49 PM

Quote from: V M on June 10, 2013, 08:45:45 PM
Bill Belichick is no schmuck, possibly he sees something other's have missed 8)

Either that... Or he wants to po Rex Ryan. BB will put in Teabow 4th quarter when the Pats are up by like 30.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on June 10, 2013, 09:43:28 PM

Sony is coming out swinging at Microsoft

PS4 > Xbox one

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: V M on June 10, 2013, 10:30:36 PM

I thought Jets was the N.Y. spelling of sucks

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: The unknown on June 10, 2013, 11:16:51 PM

Quote from: LearnedHand on June 10, 2013, 06:33:09 PM
I am thinking that I am really glad I did my work-out that I missed this morning since I was really tired and slept in; I was going to just skip it tonight but now I feel extra happy that I did it when I didn't want to.

I'd be happy to have a virtual work-out buddy :)

I for real need a workout buddy!!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Keaira on June 10, 2013, 11:41:34 PM

Quote from: The unknown on June 10, 2013, 11:16:51 PM

I for real need a workout buddy!!

I just need to work out. Lol.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on June 11, 2013, 02:49:02 AM

I wore a jacket to church Sunday when it was very hot and my mom asked why so I tried to hint to her that I'm trans. I asked do you want the honest truth or sugarcoated and she said the truth. I told her that I'm wearing the coat because I hate my body so wearing the coat is a subconcious way of hiding myself. Then I told her it could also be cold on the church.

She said nothing.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Simon on June 11, 2013, 03:20:21 AM

Quote from: Keaira on June 10, 2013, 11:41:34 PM
I just need to work out. Lol.

I think a lot of us are in the same boat, lol.

I have around 11 months to attempt to lose this gummy bear gut before top surgery. It's crazy how most of my weight settles right there.

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Tuesday is T day for me and I did it...got my shot injected before the end of a song, woot. I'm almost certain my phobia of injecting myself is all but gone. It actually hurts less doing it myself in my thigh than having my girl stick it in my butt.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Tossu-sama on June 11, 2013, 05:25:10 AM

Quote from: Malachite on June 10, 2013, 09:43:28 PM
Sony is coming out swinging at Microsoft

PS4 > Xbox one

You don't say.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Keaira on June 11, 2013, 06:16:25 AM

How do you keep a promise you dont want to keep?
I want SRS. I want to not have to worry about tucking, to be able to wear cute or sexy panties and not look down and see male junk down there. Hell, I want to be able to have sex and not feel the loathing I have for those parts.
And yet im supposed to keep my word to my wife. Whom, I'm sure is missing the sex we used to have that I hated.

I just want to be like any other woman. -_-

And I miss Caleb.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on June 11, 2013, 08:50:59 AM

Quote from: Keaira on June 11, 2013, 06:16:25 AM
How do you keep a promise you dont want to keep?
I want SRS. I want to not have to worry about tucking, to be able to wear cute or sexy panties and not look down and see male junk down there. Hell, I want to be able to have sex and not feel the loathing I have for those parts.
And yet im supposed to keep my word to my wife. Whom, I'm sure is missing the sex we used to have that I hated.

I just want to be like any other woman. -_-

And I miss Caleb.

Keaira,
I get you hon, and I'd bet there's not a married soul on these boards that doesn't understand where you are right now, though it could spell "trouble in river city" for the marriage if those thoughts persist. No-one has asked you thus far but I will out of sheer curiosity, how did your S.O. handle the emotional connection that obviously exists between you and Caleb? I'm asking because it's obvious that you are more than just good buddies and I want to be clear that I'm not condemning either of you in any way, I think it's rather beautiful.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: The unknown on June 11, 2013, 09:54:32 AM

Quote from: Simon on June 11, 2013, 03:20:21 AM
I think a lot of us are in the same boat, lol.

I have around 11 months to attempt to lose this gummy bear gut before top surgery. It's crazy how most of my weight settles right there.

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Tuesday is T day for me and I did it...got my shot injected before the end of a song, woot. I'm almost certain my phobia of injecting myself is all but gone. It actually hurts less doing it myself in my thigh than having my girl stick it in my butt.

If u have the determination and self discipline we can get u down to the size u want. I'm great when it comes to working out just never have anyone to tag along

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on June 11, 2013, 01:47:53 PM

Quote from: Tossu-sama on June 11, 2013, 05:25:10 AM
You don't say.

Indeed I do. They came swinging with a freaking baseball bat.

I'm supposed to be meeting a guy at 4 to sell a video game to him for $30. I'm starting to wonder if I'm going to regret it, not because I want to keep the game (even though I still do), but because Gamestop's trade in value for that game right now is $29.20 and I get a 60 percent trade in bonus. I do kind of need a new video game but I do need cash for top surgery.

Hmmm about $35 store credit or $30 cash?

It doesn't really matter since I'm not going to go back on my deal. I will say that if he falls through on this deal then I'm not going to be too butt-hurt about it. I'll just trade it the next day at Gamestop and get my approx. $35 store credit. Something tells me that this guy isn't going to back out though. He seems very interested and I'm meeting him at his work place.

*sigh* the things I do on my journey into manhood. At least one day when I'm looking down at my non-boobs I can say "Thank you Call of Duty: Black Ops 2. You are part of the reason why I was able to get my top surgery." with a thumbs up.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Tristan on June 11, 2013, 02:30:23 PM

I'm thinking about Ron. And how many babies I want ?

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on June 11, 2013, 04:04:42 PM

Well I made the sale so I hope the buyer enjoys it. He asked me if I had any codes for the game and I told him no. I brought the game for $60 so you bet I'm going to use that Nuketown 2025 code.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Liminal Stranger on June 11, 2013, 08:02:50 PM

So much to get done in such a short space of time. Really hoping I don't end up needing to see the doctor about my shoulder, it's been making horrible cringe-worthy crackling noises and having nerve issues for two and a half years now but the noises got unbearable to the point where putting on all my compression layers fills me with dread because I have to hear it and it sounds so terrible. It's died down to tolerable levels as of late, maybe it'll heal if I just leave it alone...but I really want to work out :c

Oh well, bike riding running and stomach vacuums it is for now. And leg lifts, I guess. Hopefully it'll cut it out so I can do dips and all without that annoying tingling in my arm.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on June 12, 2013, 09:48:22 AM

Quote from: Liam Erik on June 11, 2013, 10:20:44 PM
Max, I have lousy shoulders too, and I found them to improve substantially with some weight training to strengthen them. Gently, obviously.

My brother said he would be around to feed my sheep, but he's not >:( so I did it. I'm seven days post-op now and I thought it was a good idea to sort out a few thin ewes first. Well, my ewes are quite agreeable and I moved them without using my arms, so that was all right. Then I tried to scoot a whiny fifty pound baby through, ended up wrestling him, and that was a bad idea. :P not really hurt, just overdid it.

You must be quite sore, take it easy Liam and congrats for disposing of unwanted baggage. (hugs)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on June 12, 2013, 10:04:05 AM

Wow, ever since I came out to my sister as being transgender on Feb. 5th 2012 a day has not gone by where I did not think about it. That's was over a year ago and it still hurts not to be accepted. I tolerate her still referring to me as a female and sister but I'm not going to tolerate her doing that when I start officially transitioning and I say officially because even after top surgery, I'll still be living as female for a time.

Speaking of official, I wonder which is the point where things will be official.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Simon on June 12, 2013, 10:06:47 AM

Quote from: Malachite on June 12, 2013, 10:04:05 AM
Speaking of official, I wonder which is the point where things will be official.

When you decide to make it official.

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I'm thinking this staying up all night and then going to bed around 3 in the afternoon has to end.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on June 12, 2013, 10:27:08 AM

Quote from: Simon on June 12, 2013, 10:06:47 AM
When you decide to make it official.

Then it's probably going to be when I get my name change.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Simon on June 12, 2013, 10:44:16 AM

Quote from: Malachite on June 12, 2013, 10:27:08 AM
Then it's probably going to be when I get my name change.

I can understand that. I had family (especially my sister) who flat out refused to call me Simon until it was legally my name. Why? I have no idea. I figure it was just a way for them to get in a final jab. ::) Eleven years later my sister still won't call me by male pronouns...I'm "hey you" to her.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Renee on June 12, 2013, 08:08:46 PM

The dog is telling me its bedtime. Weird how he's gotten so good with the new schedule we have.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on June 12, 2013, 08:42:43 PM

Quote from: Renee on June 12, 2013, 08:08:46 PM
The dog is telling me its bedtime. Weird how he's gotten so good with the new schedule we have.

They're creatures of habit. My dog tries to heard me toward the bedroom when it gets dark out.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Anna++ on June 12, 2013, 08:55:29 PM

It took me since December 2010 but i finally finished watching the X-Files on Netflix!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Edge on June 12, 2013, 09:16:29 PM

I got a great idea to modify a coat I made when I was fifteen. I just found the coat. Nope, it's not the right shape. At least now I have an idea for something to make.
Also, I got a referral for an endocrinologist. I am nervous since I need to find a psychologist who can quickly agree that I truly am trans and write a letter for me.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on June 13, 2013, 12:29:35 PM

I must make it part of my life journey to visit a maid cafe and spend all of my money in there.

Screw strip clubs. I want to go to a maid cafe.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Simon on June 13, 2013, 12:46:37 PM

It's odd when people comment on how hairy you're getting.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Renee on June 13, 2013, 02:11:18 PM

Its like a billion degrees outside today. The little breeze we have feels like forced air heat. Anybody measure how far we are from the Sun lately? Cause I think we got closer...

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on June 13, 2013, 02:34:22 PM

my favorite youtube gamer will be playing The Last of Us tonight (or tommorrow)

Yay!

Maid Cafe

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Liminal Stranger on June 13, 2013, 03:18:05 PM

I love records.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on June 13, 2013, 03:30:28 PM

Looking back, I never really had much of a childhood because of my trans issues. If anything, the stresses of dealing with that among other things has aged me quicker.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on June 13, 2013, 04:33:50 PM

I want a goatee.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Elsa on June 13, 2013, 04:54:15 PM

Slooooooooow day and I can't get sleep and I have to get up early :(

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: ZoeM on June 14, 2013, 08:08:01 AM

I wonder if a cross-gender 'Fabulous' thread (Guys respond to girls; vice versa) would be a good idea...

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Simon on June 14, 2013, 08:19:11 AM

Quote from: Malachite on June 13, 2013, 04:33:50 PM
I want a goatee.

How about some goaties instead? :D

(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi1117.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fk599%2FSimonSez81%2Fbouncy-1_zps23c55202.gif&hash=41f5880f75f358d6483d1606663e8e01bee205ff)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Liminal Stranger on June 14, 2013, 08:52:04 AM

Haven't taken off the five thousand layers I wear for this long in forever, usually it's only for two seconds when I shower because I own two of everything and put the other on when I wash one. My chest feels oddly bony except for those annoying things in the center. At least they don't show through my shirt.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Liminal Stranger on June 14, 2013, 01:27:03 PM

No, vinyl. You don't get to have a scratch in my favorite part of the song, this is unacceptable. Now I have to find a way to fix this.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on June 14, 2013, 01:42:53 PM

Quote from: Simon on June 14, 2013, 08:19:11 AM
How about some goaties instead? :D

(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi1117.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fk599%2FSimonSez81%2Fbouncy-1_zps23c55202.gif&hash=41f5880f75f358d6483d1606663e8e01bee205ff)

Are they wearing a thor hat? :D

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: androgynoid on June 14, 2013, 06:35:59 PM

I have occasion for a new ticker. ;D

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Liminal Stranger on June 14, 2013, 06:45:50 PM

Quote from: androgynoid on June 14, 2013, 06:35:59 PM
I have occasion for a new ticker. ;D

Congrats!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on June 14, 2013, 07:47:01 PM

Supposed to be meeting someone tommorrow from Craigslist. He's supposed to be buying a PSP game from me. He seemed so eager to buy it that it was kind of creepy. I really need to invest in a gun. I don't detect any hostility though. The game was originally part of a PSP bundle I told him I wasn't interested in splitting up but he's going to pay almost full price for the game so why not? I figured if he really wanted to rob or kill me or something, he would say he's interested in buying the whole thing, and then rob me of the entire lot.....not just one game.

Oh well, I will still stay on my guard especially since I'm going at this alone.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on June 14, 2013, 08:35:35 PM

Quote from: Malachite on June 14, 2013, 07:47:01 PM
Supposed to be meeting someone tommorrow from Craigslist. He's supposed to be buying a PSP game from me. He seemed so eager to buy it that it was kind of creepy. I really need to invest in a gun. I don't detect any hostility though. The game was originally part of a PSP bundle I told him I wasn't interested in splitting up but he's going to pay almost full price for the game so why not? I figured if he really wanted to rob or kill me or something, he would say he's interested in buying the whole thing, and then rob me of the entire lot.....not just one game.

Oh well, I will still stay on my guard especially since I'm going at this alone.

OMG be careful!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on June 14, 2013, 08:50:56 PM

Quote from: Shantel on June 14, 2013, 08:35:35 PM
OMG be careful!

I'll try to be. We used to have some mace but I don't know where it is :(

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on June 14, 2013, 11:10:33 PM

Quote from: Miss Bungle on June 14, 2013, 10:43:44 PM
Can't you just buy a small canister of bug spray or something with some really corrosive chemicals in it?

It may sound a tad sadistic but, hey, self defense is the name of the game.

I was actually talking to my sister about that lol. Bringing raid to a gun fight. :D

He did give me a phone number so I ran that through the web and he had a couple of CL posts up himself so I felt a little more at ease.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: V M on June 15, 2013, 02:22:40 AM

I like cheese, I like mustard

So why is it if you cut the mustard it's a good thing but if you cut the cheese it's a bad thing

What if you cut the cheese while cutting the mustard?

Also, I've seen a cheese knife, but has anyone ever seen a mustard knife?

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Jamie D on June 15, 2013, 02:55:17 AM

(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi.ebayimg.com%2Ft%2FBoston-Warehouse-Vintage-Mustard-Knife-Spreader-Figural-Handle-Stainless-Blade-%2F00%2Fs%2FMTIwMFgxNjAw%2F%24%2528KGrHqN%2C%21oUFB0MWZ7NYBQdLYBIUB%21%7E%7E60_35.JPG&hash=13afd2162b240443d0b74b5c708219733884ddb4)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Simon on June 15, 2013, 08:39:54 AM

Quote from: Malachite on June 14, 2013, 08:50:56 PM
I'll try to be. We used to have some mace but I don't know where it is :(

Just meet them in daylight in the parking lot of a busy store. That's what we do when I sale something on Craigslist. To be honest though I sale a lot more on ebay. It's just a lot easier than meeting up.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on June 15, 2013, 09:37:12 AM

Quote from: Simon on June 15, 2013, 08:39:54 AM
Just meet them in daylight in the parking lot of a busy store. That's what we do when I sale something on Craigslist. To be honest though I sale a lot more on ebay. It's just a lot easier than meeting up.

I just met the guy at the deal went pretty well. He was about 20 minutes late but he gave me an extra $5 to make up for that. I asked him if he wanted to test it before I left and he agreed so he whipped out his PSP. The UMD case to the CD actually broke and I was thinking to myself "oh crap" he's not going to want to buy it but it turns out he said it's still fine because he has a replacement case at home and he agrees that those things are flimsy. He snapped the UMD case back and the game seemed to work. We had a nice little convo about the PS4 and Xbox ) and what not and he even guessed the school I went to based on the zoning area and proceeded to tell me that my school sucks (in a rival type way). He seemed like a chill guy. Even better there was a police nearby if something happened Success! The thing I can't understand is he actually paid retail price for that game I sold him, even though the shell broke lol.

Now I feel stupid for stuffing a hammer in my jeans haha.

Now if he emails me back saying he wants a refund then he will be up the creek without a paddle.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Simon on June 15, 2013, 09:41:56 AM

I wasn't aware that my arm hair would grow on the underside of my arms too, and it's getting thick. I'm only 6 months on T so my DHT levels must be high...probably why my hair is receding.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: The unknown on June 15, 2013, 10:08:40 AM

During amazing strapon sex my woman's eyes fill with tears and she looks at me and says "I wish we could make babies". Ughh (crushed)...wish we could too :/

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on June 15, 2013, 10:24:11 AM

Quote from: The unknown on June 15, 2013, 10:08:40 AM
During amazing strapon sex my woman's eyes fill with tears and she looks at me and says "I wish we could make babies". Ughh (crushed)...wish we could too :/

Ouch, I have never had made love before, but I felt that pain from over here. -hugs-

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: The unknown on June 15, 2013, 03:32:06 PM

Quote from: Malachite on June 15, 2013, 10:24:11 AM

Ouch, I have never had made love before, but I felt that pain from over here. -hugs-

You have no idea, my heart just sank. Ain't even gonna lie I cried on that one.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Anna++ on June 15, 2013, 04:12:44 PM

I have paint in my hair :(. I should go take a shower and see how much washes out...

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: androgynoid on June 15, 2013, 04:32:19 PM

If there's such a thing as a trans-inclusive radical feminist (ally?), I think I'm that.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Renee on June 15, 2013, 04:43:50 PM

Day 3,375 of hrt and I'm still lucky if I remember to take the damn pill. sigh

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Simon on June 15, 2013, 06:06:58 PM

Quote from: Liam Erik on June 15, 2013, 06:02:52 PM
Just reminded me to go take my daily hormones. 368 days.

Daily? Must be gel or cream.

I couldn't do the daily thing. I'm lucky if I remember to take a shot every Tuesday.

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Post by: ZoeM on June 15, 2013, 06:17:33 PM

I have a pill alarm. 6 PM, daily.
If I haven't taken them already - which normally I have, 'cause I LOVE DEM PEELS!

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Post by: Shantel on June 15, 2013, 06:19:50 PM

Quote from: Renee on June 15, 2013, 04:43:50 PM
Day 3,375 of hrt and I'm still lucky if I remember to take the damn pill. sigh

It's called CRS and it's an age related affliction honey! ;D

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Post by: DriftingCrow on June 15, 2013, 09:02:25 PM

I was just about to go to bed when my sister who like doesn't even live here showed up with her druggie friends and started blasting music and having a party. . . my two options: 1) just make coffee and stay up knitting while watching more of season two of Downton Abbey, or 2) flip the breaker off. . . what should I do? hmm. . .

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Post by: V M on June 15, 2013, 11:56:41 PM

Just because

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Post by: Adam (birkin) on June 16, 2013, 04:01:59 AM

Sweet. I made it so that Google Chrome will always open in Incognito mode by default. Now I don't have to worry about certain people borrowing my laptop and invading my privacy. -_- I still have to do a few other things to secure my computers, but that's not a bad start.

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Post by: King Malachite on June 16, 2013, 05:25:28 AM

monzerrella cheesestick snacks are awesome. I wish I didn't have a lye bump on my tounge though. Would have made it much better.

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Post by: DriftingCrow on June 16, 2013, 10:40:34 AM

I hate having to pee

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Post by: Liminal Stranger on June 16, 2013, 10:58:13 AM

Quote from: LearnedHand on June 16, 2013, 10:40:34 AM
I hate having to pee

Me too. I've decided that screw it, as long as I'm passing I may as well use the mens.

Have to give my BC over to my dad for verification about healthcare stuff. Why does it have to have the wrong designation for sex? :(

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Post by: King Malachite on June 16, 2013, 12:58:18 PM

Meh

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Post by: Simon on June 16, 2013, 02:14:27 PM

I'm heartbroken.

Lost another friend today to the same disease I have. She died of a blood clot in her brain due to tumors. My second friend to die this year and I have a third that has terminal kidney and pancreatic cancer.

I am so hurt and I hate to say it but it does always make me think about my own mortality.

I don't mean to bring anyone else down but I have nobody to talk to about things like this.

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Post by: Darkie on June 16, 2013, 02:31:16 PM

Quote from: Simon on June 16, 2013, 02:14:27 PM
I'm heartbroken.

Lost another friend today to the same disease I have. She died of a blood clot in her brain due to tumors. My second friend to die this year and I have a third that has terminal kidney and pancreatic cancer.

I am so hurt and I hate to say it but it does always make me think about my own mortality.

I don't mean to bring anyone else down but I have nobody to talk to about things like this.

I'm on facebook if you need to talk hun. *hugs*

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Post by: Darkie on June 16, 2013, 02:41:37 PM

First day off in a while and the SO is at work. I didn't make any plans whatsoever and decided to have a lazy day. An hour in and I have no idea what to do with myself....

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Post by: Renee on June 16, 2013, 03:41:09 PM

I had 268 customers today, being an hour shorter day since its Sunday, that makes it one customer every 1.567 minutes. That's pretty busy for a Sunday.

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Post by: King Malachite on June 16, 2013, 03:54:36 PM

Quote from: Simon on June 16, 2013, 02:14:27 PM
I'm heartbroken.

Lost another friend today to the same disease I have. She died of a blood clot in her brain due to tumors. My second friend to die this year and I have a third that has terminal kidney and pancreatic cancer.

I am so hurt and I hate to say it but it does always make me think about my own mortality.

I don't mean to bring anyone else down but I have nobody to talk to about things like this.

I'm sorry for your loss *hugs* We are here for you.

I'm thinking how clothes are the hardest things to take pictures of on a webcam.

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Post by: Renee on June 16, 2013, 04:12:22 PM

Had the guy that is in this article http://www.newbernsj.com/news/local/blind-man-hiking-across-north-carolina-1.158554 (http://www.newbernsj.com/news/local/blind-man-hiking-across-north-carolina-1.158554) come through today. He's pretty nice and you got to really admire someone who would do that whether they're blind or not, more so with his situation.

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Post by: Devlyn on June 16, 2013, 05:10:36 PM

Quote from: Simon on June 16, 2013, 02:14:27 PM
I'm heartbroken.

Lost another friend today to the same disease I have. She died of a blood clot in her brain due to tumors. My second friend to die this year and I have a third that has terminal kidney and pancreatic cancer.

I am so hurt and I hate to say it but it does always make me think about my own mortality.

I don't mean to bring anyone else down but I have nobody to talk to about things like this.

Big hug! Sorry, Simon. We're here for stuff like this, you know that. Hugs, Devlyn

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Post by: Shantel on June 16, 2013, 05:14:56 PM

Quote from: Devlyn Marie on June 16, 2013, 05:10:36 PM
Big hug! Sorry, Simon. We're here for stuff like this, you know that. Hugs, Devlyn

Yes Simon we are here for you dear. ((Hugs)) ~Shan~

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Post by: Liminal Stranger on June 16, 2013, 05:23:58 PM

Quote from: Simon on June 16, 2013, 02:14:27 PM
I'm heartbroken.

Lost another friend today to the same disease I have. She died of a blood clot in her brain due to tumors. My second friend to die this year and I have a third that has terminal kidney and pancreatic cancer.

I am so hurt and I hate to say it but it does always make me think about my own mortality.

I don't mean to bring anyone else down but I have nobody to talk to about things like this.

Sorry to hear that, Simon. Like others have said, we're here for you if you need to talk.

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Post by: King Malachite on June 16, 2013, 05:45:10 PM

Quote from: Miss Bungle on June 16, 2013, 05:02:37 PM
I can't stand it when you are typing a long post and then you go to submit it and the friggin site times out.

UGH!!

Omg I hate that too!!!!! That's why I copy my long posts just in case.

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Post by: Simon on June 17, 2013, 09:30:25 AM

Thank you all for the sweet replies. I'll be alright. Always am. Just shocked and saddened yesterday.

-------

Today I am going to just veg out and watch movies. Just finished "Hansel & Gretel: Witch Hunters" (really entertaining, liked it a lot) and now looking for something else.

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Post by: King Malachite on June 17, 2013, 09:57:19 AM

I really love my Susans family and how a lot of people here are so willing to help someone in need.

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Post by: Imreallyconfused on June 17, 2013, 10:12:31 AM

Need to take a chill pill. My heart is racing like a daytona prototype going round circuit of america raceway.

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Post by: Edge on June 17, 2013, 12:45:51 PM

Quote from: CalmRage on June 17, 2013, 11:11:08 AMKill me already. I have no place in this world. I'd be better off dead.

Forgive me for going all condescending for a second. I don't mean it to be, but I've been told I come across as this. I'm just awkward.
If you feel you have no place in this world, then make one. Figure out what and who you want to be and don't let anyone get in your way (including yourself). Never surrender.

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Post by: Shantel on June 17, 2013, 01:23:00 PM

Quote from: CalmRage on June 17, 2013, 11:11:08 AM
Kill me already. I have no place in this world. I'd be better off dead.

We all would be at a loss, so don't harm yourself, whatever it is will surely pass. Feel free to pm me, we can work through it hon!

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Post by: Simon on June 17, 2013, 01:26:53 PM

Quote from: CalmRage on June 17, 2013, 11:11:08 AM
Kill me already. I have no place in this world. I'd be better off dead.

I think most transgender people feel like that on occasion. I know I have. You have to hang in there and keep pressing forward. People say "it gets better"...yeah, it does but only if you put in the effort to make your life better.

Nobody would be better off dead. Aren't you curious to know how your story ends? Give yourself the chance to be happy. It's going to take time but it will be worth it.

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Post by: Edge on June 17, 2013, 04:35:14 PM

The problem with being more emotionally attached to a fictional character rather than real people is that fictional characters aren't real.

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Post by: King Malachite on June 17, 2013, 04:42:20 PM

Quote from: Edge on June 17, 2013, 04:35:14 PM
The problem with being more emotionally attached to a fictional character rather than real people is that fictional characters aren't real.

Agreed, though the cognitive dissonance in me says that Neo Queen Serenity is real and that she's my wife.

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Post by: Renee on June 17, 2013, 04:43:30 PM

You know its summer by the sound of the skeeter truck going by.

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Post by: Edge on June 17, 2013, 05:12:02 PM

Quote from: Malachite on June 17, 2013, 04:42:20 PM
Agreed, though the cognitive dissonance in me says that Neo Queen Serenity is real and that she's my wife.

Henceforth, you shall be known as Tuxedo Mask.
It's the same for me. The Marvel universe is a huge part of my inner world just so he is in it and I am not alone (god, that sounds sad). Three guesses as to who and the first two don't count. :P

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Post by: Shantel on June 17, 2013, 05:13:41 PM

Quote from: Renee on June 17, 2013, 04:43:30 PM
You know its summer by the sound of the skeeter truck going by.

Don't let them get overspray on your pizza! ;D

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Post by: King Malachite on June 17, 2013, 06:17:14 PM

Quote from: Edge on June 17, 2013, 05:12:02 PM
Henceforth, you shall be known as Tuxedo Mask.
It's the same for me. The Marvel universe is a huge part of my inner world just so he is in it and I am not alone (god, that sounds sad). Three guesses as to who and the first two don't count. :P

You mean to tell me I wasn't already him? :o

Doesn't sound sad to me though. Inner worlds are much more cooler anyways.

My guesses (Based off of Marvel vs Capcom since that's all I know)- 1. The Hulk 2. War Machine 3. Gambit

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Post by: Edge on June 17, 2013, 07:02:03 PM

Quote from: Malachite on June 17, 2013, 06:17:14 PM
You mean to tell me I wasn't already him? :o

If you have the costume, I want to see a picture.

Quote from: Malachite on June 17, 2013, 06:17:14 PMMy guesses (Based off of Marvel vs Capcom since that's all I know)- 1. The Hulk 2. War Machine 3. Gambit

I am jealous of the Hulk and his ability to go berserk, War Machine seems alright, and I like Gambit as a character (and his ability to make things go boom). But nope.

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Post by: King Malachite on June 17, 2013, 07:33:00 PM

Quote from: Edge on June 17, 2013, 07:02:03 PM
If you have the costume, I want to see a picture.
I am jealous of the Hulk and his ability to go berserk, War Machine seems alright, and I like Gambit as a character (and his ability to make things go boom). But nope.

After I get top surgery, I'm going to purchase a Tuxedo Mask costume (along with Prince Endymion and King Endymion's outfit) and I'll probably post them here. At the very least, I'll do that with the King Endymion's outfit since most people here know how obsessed I am with it.

It's Spiderman! It has to be....if not then I have to go down the Wikpedia list. :P

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Post by: Edge on June 17, 2013, 08:37:34 PM

Dude! Sorry, I'm not much of a Spiderman fan. It's the Marvel version of Loki.
<--That guy with the horns on his helmet and the spear thing.
Who is King Endymion?

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Post by: King Malachite on June 17, 2013, 08:40:55 PM

Quote from: Edge on June 17, 2013, 08:37:34 PM
Dude! Sorry, I'm not much of a Spiderman fan. It's the Marvel version of Loki.
<--That guy with the horns on his helmet and the spear thing.
Who is King Endymion?

Loki! I should have known! I've seen you mention him before. I don't know why that didn't ring a bell.

King Endymion is just the future incarnation of Tuxedo Mask. He has dark purple hair in the future and wears a lavender tuxedo.

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Post by: Edge on June 17, 2013, 08:46:17 PM

Quote from: Malachite on June 17, 2013, 08:40:55 PMKing Endymion is just the future incarnation of Tuxedo Mask. He has dark purple hair in the future and wears a lavender tuxedo.

*googles* Nice. That is a very fancy suit.
Out of curiosity, why Neo Queen Serenity?

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Post by: Darkie on June 17, 2013, 08:59:31 PM

Quote from: Malachite on June 16, 2013, 05:45:10 PM
Omg I hate that too!!!!! That's why I copy my long posts just in case.

I used to rp a lot and I would have a long post made and then accidentally hit the mousepad with my thumb and delete everything. That's when I started making my posts in wordpad.

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Post by: Darkie on June 17, 2013, 09:02:34 PM

Quote from: Edge on June 17, 2013, 08:46:17 PM
*googles* Nice. That is a very fancy suit.
Out of curiosity, why Neo Queen Serenity?

Neo Queen Serenity is who Sailor Moon eventually becomes.

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Post by: King Malachite on June 17, 2013, 09:06:15 PM

Quote from: Edge on June 17, 2013, 08:46:17 PM
*googles* Nice. That is a very fancy suit.
Out of curiosity, why Neo Queen Serenity?

Because she's beautiful and graceful and becomes a bit more mature than her past self. When I see her, I think about her, I see her as my perfect woman.

Quote from: Darkie on June 17, 2013, 08:59:31 PM
I used to rp a lot and I would have a long post made and then accidentally hit the mousepad with my thumb and delete everything. That's when I started making my posts in wordpad.

Oh gosh I can see how frustrating that can be. At that point I would not even feel like role playing lol.

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Post by: Darkie on June 17, 2013, 09:48:27 PM

Quote from: Malachite on June 17, 2013, 09:06:15 PM
Because she's beautiful and graceful and becomes a bit more mature than her past self. When I see her, I think about her, I see her as my perfect woman.

If we ever get to go to the same con, I'd be willing to cosplay her for you. XD

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Post by: King Malachite on June 17, 2013, 09:56:38 PM

Quote from: Darkie on June 17, 2013, 09:48:27 PM
If we ever get to go to the same con, I'd be willing to cosplay her for you. XD

You....are.....AWESOME!

I'd make it worth your time. I had plans of actually finding someone to cosplay as Neo Queen Serenity and actually pay them.

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Post by: Darkie on June 17, 2013, 11:44:02 PM

Quote from: Malachite on June 17, 2013, 09:56:38 PM
You....are.....AWESOME!

I'd make it worth your time. I had plans of actually finding someone to cosplay as Neo Queen Serenity and actually pay them.

Just note that I am short and personality wise can pull of Sailor Moon pretty well. I idolized her as a child and unfortunately picked up some habits.

And can quote a lot of her lines from Black Dream Hole. Cause I'm a nerd.

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Post by: Adam (birkin) on June 18, 2013, 02:25:58 AM

The after effects of this shot are particularly noticeable.

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Post by: King Malachite on June 18, 2013, 06:49:49 AM

Quote from: Darkie on June 17, 2013, 11:44:02 PM
Just note that I am short and personality wise can pull of Sailor Moon pretty well. I idolized her as a child and unfortunately picked up some habits.

And can quote a lot of her lines from Black Dream Hole. Cause I'm a nerd.

Sounds like a resume....you're HIRED! lol

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Post by: Simon on June 18, 2013, 09:01:06 AM

Watching a documentary about "Christian the Lion" and start crying at the end.

...realize I haven't taken my shot today, lol.

----------

Speaking of animals my mom and girlfriend tell me to follow my dreams and go into Zoology. I'm taking two years of prerequisite courses regardless of what I do....so I have time to think and prepare.

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Post by: King Malachite on June 18, 2013, 09:57:00 AM

Going to Gamestop today to trade in some stuff-Kind of wish I didn't sell my Black Ops 2 game since I could have gotten more in store credit (about 4 or 5 bucks more) but if I did that then I wouldn't have as much in my top surgery fund. Now I'm thinking about trading some PSP cases while I still can. I might keep one to hold my ts money in. I don't know. Trading them in would bring down the price of the psp im selling on a fb list. Meh I need to figure it out now before I go.

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Post by: Edge on June 18, 2013, 10:20:59 AM

My sister once dressed up as Princess Serenity for halloween one year. Except we lived up north and were going trick-or-treating, so she had a winter coat under her dress.

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Post by: Tossu-sama on June 18, 2013, 10:31:15 AM

We got the midsummer coming this week and my fiancé asked what we should do to celebrate it (because it's a big thing in Finland). She suggested we could just eat sausage which is fine by me. My addition was to watch BBC's Walking with Dinosaurs documentaries. ;D

Gonna drop by at the trans policlinic tomorrow and also at the doctor who handles my T-related things atm. I kinda have an itch they'd want me to switch from my current injection brand to another which I don't necessarily want because the price is just ridiculous but it has its pros, too. Agh, don't know.
Plus I might get a call or a letter from the local hospital concerning my top surgery in two months. :D

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Post by: Adam (birkin) on June 18, 2013, 02:37:47 PM

I have a lot of work I need to get done, and I was thinking I'd have the house to myself for a few hours. But I don't. And I can't go work in the park (or really, anywhere outside) because within seconds I have at least 10 mosquitoes on my skin trying to make me into a blood buffet. I can't wait until the city does something about them.

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Post by: Renee on June 18, 2013, 02:54:58 PM

I got the yard mowed and weedeated. Not a single bug bite cause the dragonflies were out in force. Just kind of humid and hot, but with more rain coming, had to do it.

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Post by: King Malachite on June 18, 2013, 03:28:44 PM

Making a useless thread on my blog with nothing but inconsistant typing.

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Post by: Edge on June 18, 2013, 03:34:50 PM

I need a charismatic politician as a minion.
Also, my head feels fuzzy and it makes me feel stupid. Anyone know how to get rid of that?

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Post by: King Malachite on June 18, 2013, 04:09:27 PM

I'm debating if I should have my consult with Dr. Garramone this fall or if I should wait until I have all of the money gathered up first. I'm thinking about getting top surgery earlier than what I had planned. I just don't want to get the consult too early and have have the price quote "expire" if I don't get it within a certain amount of time and have to get another consult. Also, if I wait until I hav the money then I can pay it off all at once.

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Post by: Anna++ on June 18, 2013, 07:00:40 PM

FINALLY! A few minutes of free time! Now I can get caught up on the bajillion threads that have been updated since yesterday morning :)

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Post by: King Malachite on June 18, 2013, 09:18:57 PM

I should invent a prosthetic arm that feels very realistic so I can hold hands with it to curb the lonliness. The real thing would be much better but I a prosthetic one may due for the time. Surprisingly, I can see a few other lonley people buying one.

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Post by: Simon on June 18, 2013, 09:29:45 PM

Today was officially 6 months on T. I've gained a bigger nose, deeper voice, and hairy knees.

I've never been happier with myself. :)

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Post by: Jamie D on June 18, 2013, 09:30:33 PM

Quote from: Malachite on June 18, 2013, 09:18:57 PM
I should invent a prosthetic arm that feels very realistic so I can hold hands with it to curb the loneliness. The real thing would be much better but I a prosthetic one may due for the time. Surprisingly, I can see a few other loneley people buying one.

Pleased to meet you. ;)

(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.blogcdn.com%2Fwww.engadget.com%2Fmedia%2F2007%2F06%2Frobotic-hand.jpg&hash=da8b7c900b359ef9169177fc78fa6bceb8513750)

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Post by: Adam (birkin) on June 18, 2013, 10:00:31 PM

Quote from: Simon on June 18, 2013, 09:29:45 PM
Today was officially 6 months on T. I've gained a bigger nose, deeper voice, and hairy knees.

I've never been happier with myself. :)

Congrats Simon! ;D Hairy knees are surprisingly pleasing lol.

I've developed a crush on Hélène Joy.

(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fstatic.cinemarx.ro%2Fpoze%2Fpersoane-poze%2F2009%2F05%2FHelene_Joy_1242217918_4.jpg&hash=d4873e9f23a1aa8f49fca3f3a46c3338e24c1b98)

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Post by: ZoeM on June 18, 2013, 11:03:04 PM

Quote from: Liam Erik on June 18, 2013, 10:55:16 PM
I was surprised by the behind-the-knee hair. Never knew it was a thing.

I wish it wasn't a thing. Hurts like the devil to laser off. :(

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Post by: Darkie on June 18, 2013, 11:07:48 PM

I want to be whisked away by the Doctor on the Tardus. But only David Tennent Doctor. I like him the best. So adorable...

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Post by: Simon on June 18, 2013, 11:57:29 PM

Quote from: Liam Erik on June 18, 2013, 10:55:16 PM
I was surprised by the behind-the-knee hair. Never knew it was a thing.

Yep, and in my case it's as long as everything else. I feel like eventually I'm going to look like a bipedal centaur. :laugh:

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I'm thinking I can't wait for game 7 of the NBA Finals.

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Post by: King Malachite on June 19, 2013, 12:20:56 AM

Quote from: Jamie D on June 18, 2013, 09:30:33 PM
Pleased to meet you. ;)

(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.blogcdn.com%2Fwww.engadget.com%2Fmedia%2F2007%2F06%2Frobotic-hand.jpg&hash=da8b7c900b359ef9169177fc78fa6bceb8513750)

Heck good enough for me!

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Post by: Anna++ on June 19, 2013, 06:31:26 AM

Quote from: Darkie on June 18, 2013, 11:07:48 PM
I want to be whisked away by the Doctor on the Tardus. But only David Tennent Doctor. I like him the best. So adorable...

Doesn't everybody? (https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,111155.msg1077975.html#msg1077975)

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Post by: King Malachite on June 19, 2013, 07:36:37 AM

I feel like being transgender has aged me. I look to be about in my 30's instead of my early 20's. Oh well, comes with the territory I guess. Hopefully I can look awesome and hardcore while doing so.

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Post by: ZoeM on June 19, 2013, 10:22:22 AM

I need contacts. No pair of glasses exists that won't make me look ugly and male.

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Post by: Simon on June 19, 2013, 11:06:49 AM

I'm looking into different diets I'm thinking of trying. I want something I can live with long term. I lost a lot of weight when I was younger but slowly it has managed to creep back up on me. Being attacked by random pizza slices and klondike bars doesn't help. They just jump right in my mouth. :D

I'm thinking the Paleo Diet looks promising. I have been wanting to cut out processed foods anyway. Only thing is it says no dairy (yikes) and grass fed meats (too expensive)...maybe I'll try a variation of it. Hmm.

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Post by: King Malachite on June 19, 2013, 11:25:51 AM

I found another ant pile so I put two sticks in them.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Simon on June 19, 2013, 11:46:11 AM

Quote from: Malachite on June 19, 2013, 11:25:51 AM
I found another ant pile so I put two sticks in them.

So mean. When I was a kid I would sit outside with my grandma's bag of sugar and spoon little bits around ant hills so I could sit there and watch them eat. They really are amazing little creatures.

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Post by: King Malachite on June 19, 2013, 12:26:47 PM

Quote from: Simon on June 19, 2013, 11:46:11 AM
So mean. When I was a kid I would sit outside with my grandma's bag of sugar and spoon little bits around ant hills so I could sit there and watch them eat. They really are amazing little creatures.

That reminds me of the video I just watched of ants trying to eat a gummy bear. I once put an onion out there for them to eat but I don't think they enjoyed it.

I'm thinking about the new Metal Gear Solid Phantom Pain game. That is going to be something exciting to watch the gameplay of.

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Post by: Renee on June 19, 2013, 04:15:58 PM

Off yesterday, work today, off tomorrow, work Friday, then off for the weekend. That's one weird schedule...

And tomorrow, I may go visit someone who has been after me to visit ever since they moved closer.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Adam (birkin) on June 19, 2013, 05:21:08 PM

Lol, instead of writing my thesis I am writing letters to a few people. Procrastination or truly more important? Or both.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: V M on June 19, 2013, 05:35:41 PM

Must... Stay... Awake... Must... Stay... Awake... Must... Stay... Awake... Must... Stay... Awake... Must... Stay... :icon_sleep:

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Post by: Jamie D on June 19, 2013, 05:44:54 PM

Quote from: ZoeM on June 19, 2013, 10:22:22 AM
I need contacts. No pair of glasses exists that won't make me look ugly and male.

(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fthumbs3.ebaystatic.com%2Fd%2Fl225%2Fm%2Fm7Y2czxD5Tz_VMiaSR9hwrQ.jpg&hash=715f30dcdaecf23b5cf5a455bdbb3d502a0bcae2)

I'm telling you, Retro is in! :P

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on June 19, 2013, 06:37:50 PM

Going to blow off my assignment for a few more hours.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: ZoeM on June 19, 2013, 06:40:59 PM

Quote from: Jamie D on June 19, 2013, 05:44:54 PM
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fthumbs3.ebaystatic.com%2Fd%2Fl225%2Fm%2Fm7Y2czxD5Tz_VMiaSR9hwrQ.jpg&hash=715f30dcdaecf23b5cf5a455bdbb3d502a0bcae2)

I'm telling you, Retro is in! :P

Well...

That won't make me look male, and if I want to be a librarian, it's perfect...

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on June 19, 2013, 06:43:10 PM

Quote from: ZoeM on June 19, 2013, 06:40:59 PM
Well...

That won't make me look male, and if I want to be a librarian, it's perfect...

Or a teacher with an ice cream-shaped hairstyle

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Post by: Shantel on June 19, 2013, 07:14:05 PM

Quote from: Jamie D on June 19, 2013, 05:44:54 PM
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fthumbs3.ebaystatic.com%2Fd%2Fl225%2Fm%2Fm7Y2czxD5Tz_VMiaSR9hwrQ.jpg&hash=715f30dcdaecf23b5cf5a455bdbb3d502a0bcae2)

I'm telling you, Retro is in! :P

Yeah, Zoe could be Clark Kent and borrow Simon's Superman underoos! :icon_peace: I know....out of control again!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Darkie on June 19, 2013, 07:19:10 PM

Quote from: Malachite on June 19, 2013, 06:43:10 PM
Or a teacher with an ice cream-shaped hairstyle

Now I want ice cream. Thanks Malachite. XD

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on June 19, 2013, 07:32:58 PM

Quote from: Darkie on June 19, 2013, 07:19:10 PM
Now I want ice cream. Thanks Malachite. XD

You're welcome ;D

Now I want ice cream too LOL

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on June 19, 2013, 08:07:21 PM

When I hear the song "Fota Viva" (Nicola Conte mix) by Mo- Horizons, I think of myself staying at New Beginnings Retreat sitting near the pool wearing a shark tooth necklace and talking to a camara after top surgery

When I hear the song "Behind The Groove" by Teena Marie I feel like a cismale with a nice buldge in my pants.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Anna++ on June 19, 2013, 09:44:53 PM

I finally have a chance to be in bed before midnight tonight! Good night everybody! :)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Jamie D on June 19, 2013, 10:46:21 PM

Quote from: Malachite on June 19, 2013, 06:37:50 PM
Going to blow off my assignment for a few more hours.

Get your butt in gear, Mister! >:(

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on June 19, 2013, 10:49:56 PM

Quote from: Jamie D on June 19, 2013, 10:46:21 PM
Get your butt in gear, Mister! >:(

I managed to get almost one sentence written.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Andro(id) on June 19, 2013, 11:15:09 PM

i'm thinking about superfine, merino-wool base layers. supposedly non-itchy, doesn't retain odor, wicks away moisture. they're like $100, so i want to sew my own. :D

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on June 20, 2013, 08:43:26 AM

Hopefully not only can I focus on getting a license and a job after the summer, but weight loss too. My sister says she's going to help me whether I want to lose weight or not so that's good....maybe.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: androgynoid on June 20, 2013, 11:10:47 AM

Quote from: Andro(id) on June 19, 2013, 11:15:09 PM
i'm thinking about superfine, merino-wool base layers. supposedly non-itchy, doesn't retain odor, wicks away moisture. they're like $100, so i want to sew my own. :D

I love your username. ;)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Renee on June 20, 2013, 11:47:44 AM

I feel more alienated here than I do in the cis world.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on June 20, 2013, 11:56:57 AM

Hahahahahahahahaha Microsoft started to get scared of Sony's competition so they changed some of their policies but too late....the damage has been done. Most people are still going for a PS4 now.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Edge on June 20, 2013, 12:05:03 PM

Rise of the Guardians is disappointing.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Liminal Stranger on June 20, 2013, 07:39:27 PM

I hate my mother.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on June 20, 2013, 07:49:19 PM

I should start going through more of my shirts to see which ones I don't want anymore.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Darkie on June 20, 2013, 08:10:14 PM

Quote from: Renee on June 20, 2013, 11:47:44 AM
I feel more alienated here than I do in the cis world.

Sometimes I feel the same way.. *hold close*

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Simon on June 20, 2013, 08:24:55 PM

Miami Heat...lets go Lebron, don't disappoint.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Devlyn on June 20, 2013, 08:26:15 PM

Quote from: Liminal Stranger on June 20, 2013, 07:39:27 PM
I hate my mother.

What's up, bud?

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on June 20, 2013, 10:09:02 PM

I wonder if I can sell my clothes at a local second hand clothing store that buys them. Knowing how my clothes are not in style....probably not. I may get $5 if I'm lucky.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Darkie on June 20, 2013, 10:25:38 PM

Quote from: Malachite on June 20, 2013, 10:09:02 PM
I wonder if I can sell my clothes at a local second hand clothing store that buys them. Knowing how my clothes are not in style....probably not. I may get $5 if I'm lucky.

Consignment store! They are great. Course, I work at one so I might be partial.

On a side note, thanks David Tennent for making me cry. 3 times today.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Simon on June 20, 2013, 10:53:15 PM

Who won? The Heat. LeBron shut em' down. ;D

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on June 20, 2013, 11:04:59 PM

Quote from: Darkie on June 20, 2013, 10:25:38 PM
Consignment store! They are great. Course, I work at one so I might be partial.

Consignment stores are nice indeed. :)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Liminal Stranger on June 21, 2013, 12:21:28 AM

Quote from: Devlyn Marie on June 20, 2013, 08:26:15 PM
What's up, bud?

So many fights. The therapist offers no solutions, only ears. I need solutions. Read texts between her and my father, they made me feel sick. Talking about me as if I were an animal of some sort, rabid and needing to be controlled. She purposefully provokes me until I want to scream and spontaneously combust.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Edge on June 21, 2013, 12:49:23 AM

My family talked/talk about me that way too. It's highly unlikely they'll ever stop or apologize or admit that they did anything wrong. The only solution I've found is to completely cut them out and have any contact be strictly on my terms. Or your terms in your case. Unfortunately, timing is also a problem.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Adam (birkin) on June 21, 2013, 01:46:53 AM

I know how much that hurts Max. It's happened to me too. Just try to remember that you're better than all of this, and just hang in there until you can get out on your own. I took a while to heal from a lot of things that were said to/about me but it does get easier.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on June 21, 2013, 06:57:10 AM

Meh I wish the computer lab was open Monday so I wouldn't have to go out of my way to print a sheet of paper.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Devlyn on June 21, 2013, 07:57:53 AM

Quote from: Liminal Stranger on June 21, 2013, 12:21:28 AM
So many fights. The therapist offers no solutions, only ears. I need solutions. Read texts between her and my father, they made me feel sick. Talking about me as if I were an animal of some sort, rabid and needing to be controlled. She purposefully provokes me until I want to scream and spontaneously combust.

I can only offer ears as well, but that is the way of life, we need to find our own path and solutions. I'll give you some advice, though. Don't pour your energy into a permanent satisfactory living arrangement with your family. It is a very temporary situation, and once you're out on your own, all that disappears. You can live your life as you like. And it is YOUR life, never forget that. Hugs, Devlyn

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on June 21, 2013, 08:09:59 AM

I have to do a 12 hour shift of a police ride along....wouldn't be bad if I didn't have to do an incident report and write it up for my class. Meh

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: ZoeM on June 21, 2013, 09:04:59 AM

The son will come out tomorrow

Bet your bottom dollar

That tomorrow will be fun.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Liminal Stranger on June 21, 2013, 09:32:28 AM

Thanks, guys and girls. I need to get out of here sooner than later though, ended up seeing my parents' messages to each other while transferring a bunch of things off my mothers' phone. She was saying that she wanted to send me to boarding school or a monastery or something and they gossip about me like yentes...big mouths, little minds. They keep using the term "it breaks my heart" in those texts, as in oh this is so sad why is she a freak I want to turn back time so she'll just be a girl and shut up already. I'm disgusted and mortified by what I saw, it's really the last straw for me and I'm done caring about them.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Edge on June 21, 2013, 10:17:50 AM

People can still send their kids to monasteries? I thought that was one of those medieval things.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Keaira on June 21, 2013, 11:57:37 AM

I'm worried about Caleb. last night he and his family were evacuated because of the flooding in his area. From the video I saw of the flooding I hope his house isn't affected.
http://www.cbc.ca/news/canada/story/2013/06/21/alberta-flooding-evacuees-calgary.html (http://www.cbc.ca/news/canada/story/2013/06/21/alberta-flooding-evacuees-calgary.html)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Keaira on June 21, 2013, 01:06:04 PM

UPDATE:

Caleb just texted me. his family went to their grandparents home, but they will need to evacuate soon.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on June 21, 2013, 01:16:56 PM

Quote from: Keaira on June 21, 2013, 01:06:04 PM
UPDATE:

Caleb just texted me. his family went to their grandparents home, but they will need to evacuate soon.

Not fun, glad they're safe though!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Simon on June 21, 2013, 01:21:06 PM

Quote from: Keaira on June 21, 2013, 01:06:04 PM
UPDATE:

Caleb just texted me. his family went to their grandparents home, but they will need to evacuate soon.

Dang, hopefully the government is just evacuating everyone as a precautionary measure and they're not directly in the path.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Anna++ on June 21, 2013, 09:32:16 PM

On Sunday I'm having some friends that I'm out to over for games (and to help me work on being Anna around groups of people). I'm going shopping with one of them early in the day so I can learn about hair products and because she wants to help me pick out a dress for the party. Then we're going to go back to my place too do my hair and makeup to surprise my other friends! I'm excited :D

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on June 21, 2013, 09:42:12 PM

I hate Higher One Banking-they are making it extremely difficult as a person with no bank account to cash my college refund check. I hate them with a passion and I am SO glad I will be done with college after this summer. I regret even taking this stupid class for a certificate when my associate's degree with have been enough. *kicks self in the forehead*

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Darkie on June 21, 2013, 10:46:33 PM

Currently wishing, although I know how stupid and dangerous it sounds, that the Doctor would just appear in his tardis and take me so far away. Away from all of this...

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on June 21, 2013, 11:49:59 PM

counting all of this change

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Jamie D on June 22, 2013, 01:09:10 AM

Quote from: ZoeM on June 21, 2013, 09:04:59 AM
The son will come out tomorrow

Bet your bottom dollar

That tomorrow will be fun.

Hmmmm. Religious prognostication? or typo?

Quote from: Miss Bungle on June 21, 2013, 11:18:13 PM
Messing with people's minds is soooo much fun! ;D

Thus spake Zarathustra

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Anna++ on June 22, 2013, 04:48:59 PM

Would normal people notice if I stick a couple of bobby pins in my hair (while presenting as a boy) to keep it out of my face?

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Keaira on June 22, 2013, 04:51:15 PM

It's raining. and storming. I might go back to bed actually.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Tristan on June 22, 2013, 05:57:02 PM

About how tired I am after my 18 hour shift and how to I should be a good girl for my fella tonight

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Renee on June 22, 2013, 06:16:38 PM

Rainy day, but family is down for the weekend, so we went to the Fish Hook and then out to a movie, saw the Internship.

Also found out that my other brother and his family is coming down in a few weeks for the fourth, so now have to make sure house is clean. Hopefully, doggy will be nice. Last time he had a bit of an issue with someone else being overnight in my house.

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Post by: Simon on June 22, 2013, 06:20:19 PM

I wonder if I'm the only guy who has a collection of awesome T shirts saved to wear after top surgery. ???

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Devlyn on June 22, 2013, 06:22:45 PM

Full moon again.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Renee on June 22, 2013, 06:28:23 PM

Quote from: Devlyn Marie on June 22, 2013, 06:22:45 PM
Full moon again.

It's going to be 7% closer to us than normal in the am. I'm wondering if I will have water in the yard from tide.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on June 22, 2013, 06:54:39 PM

Just got done doing a 12 hour ride along with a cop. I wish I could come home to a beautiful wife who would give me a back massage and a philly cheesesteak. Well, at least my mother is making me chicken bits and brought me a Faygo. I'll take that.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Renee on June 22, 2013, 06:59:12 PM

(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.ecorazzi.com%2Fwp-content%2Fuploads%2F2012%2F05%2Fsupermoon-592x357.jpg&hash=bbebad1e34088e51c87952b5bbf998eb91548d21)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Adam (birkin) on June 22, 2013, 07:54:26 PM

Quote from: Malachite on June 22, 2013, 06:54:39 PM
Just got done doing a 12 hour ride along with a cop. I wish I could come home to a beautiful wife who would give me a back massage and a philly cheesesteak. Well, at least my mother is making me chicken bits and brought me a Faygo. I'll take that.

*puts on a dress and brings you a steak* It probably won't taste good...*cracks my knuckles* Ready fer yer back massage big boy? ;) :P lmao

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: DriftingCrow on June 22, 2013, 07:59:41 PM

I had a wonderful day recording wind turbines and then taking my dog for a nice walk in beautiful Barrington, but now I feel like my wonderful day is ruined, :( I came home to mail from the Bursar's office giving me instructions on paying my tuition bill. I applied for financial aid so I shouldn't have this, and so far I haven't gotten my financial aid packet and the e-bill website doesn't have the account for the upcoming year yet. I am really worried now and I am wicked paranoid about financial aid since I had to leave school in the past due to a financial aid mix-up which basically screwed me over for awhile and now I can't even do what I want to do in law since I don't have the undergrad degree I intended on getting. So yeah, that's what I am thinking about now. . .

Quote from: Malachite on June 22, 2013, 06:54:39 PM
Just got done doing a 12 hour ride along with a cop.

Was that for your summer class?

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: ZoeM on June 22, 2013, 09:21:56 PM

Here I stand. I can do none other. So help me God.

(Bombs away - tomorrow I see what happens.)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Ltl89 on June 22, 2013, 09:26:16 PM

Quote from: ZoeM on June 22, 2013, 09:21:56 PM
Here I stand. I can do none other. So help me God.

(Bombs away - tomorrow I see what happens.)

You'll be okay. Just a suggestion that helped me while I was waiting for my mom's response. Take your mind off it and do something enjoyable. I went out to dinner with a friend and then came home and played my guitar. Do something that you can have fun and don't focus on all the worrying tonight. You'll know the response soon enough. No use torturing yourself in the meantime.

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Post by: Devlyn on June 22, 2013, 09:27:01 PM

Quote from: Renee on June 22, 2013, 06:59:12 PM
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.ecorazzi.com%2Fwp-content%2Fuploads%2F2012%2F05%2Fsupermoon-592x357.jpg&hash=bbebad1e34088e51c87952b5bbf998eb91548d21)

Supermoon?

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Jamie D on June 22, 2013, 10:32:19 PM

Quote from: Malachite on June 22, 2013, 06:54:39 PM
Just got done doing a 12 hour ride along with a cop. I wish I could come home to a beautiful wife who would give me a back massage and a philly cheesesteak. Well, at least my mother is making me chicken bits and brought me a Faygo. I'll take that.

WTH is a Faygo?

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Simon on June 22, 2013, 10:59:24 PM

Quote from: ZoeM on June 22, 2013, 09:21:56 PM
Here I stand. I can do none other. So help me God.

(Bombs away - tomorrow I see what happens.)

In my experience even if the response was going to be bad (with dad it was/mom was alright soon after) the relief from releasing the burden was worth it. Best of luck.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Adam (birkin) on June 22, 2013, 11:46:40 PM

God I've been depressed.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Liminal Stranger on June 23, 2013, 12:21:40 AM

Dear Mom,

GEICO Insurance has an Accident Forgiveness policy that allows you to have one accident every few years without your rates going up. You have had two "accidents" with outing me in one freaking day, now either use male pronouns already or don't add in completely unnecessary and annoying ornamentation to conversation. No one wants to hear useless irrelevant information and I don't want to be outed when I pass all the time. Jeez >:(

OTOH, while outing me the other day she had them put Max so I could "live as someone you aren't" for the weekend. That was nice of her but I can't live as this someone unless a certain someone ruins it entirely.
There's a supermoon tonight but it's cloudy outside. Damn.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Imreallyconfused on June 23, 2013, 12:48:10 AM

I think I need to submit myself to a padded room and never leave. I can't believe what I am. I can't believe what makes me happy is that. I'm the worst.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Anna++ on June 23, 2013, 06:54:22 AM

Quote from: Jamie D on June 22, 2013, 10:32:19 PM
WTH is a Faygo?

Quote from: Miss Bungle on June 22, 2013, 10:33:58 PM
Isn't that a soda?

Yes. My guess is that if Malachite knows what Faygo is, then he most likely says "pop" instead of "soda". Faygo has a "Red Pop" flavor that seems to have caused everybody in Michigan to start saying pop instead :)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Liminal Stranger on June 23, 2013, 08:46:38 AM

Breakfast was lovely, then the "assistant innkeeper" had to pipe up and say "How's it goin', ladies?" because my mother called me "she" on the phone when making reservations and that was who she spoke to. Then I wanted to vomit up that delicious meal.

How's it going? Fine, before you said that. My mother sort of hinted at something and she seemed to understand then but I guess she just felt like being obnoxious.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Mollie on June 23, 2013, 09:00:29 AM

I'm thinking, will Scotland seize the first chance in 300 (and possibly the last for a long time) to vote for independence or will it vote to remain part of the UK, or as most of the world call it, England? If the vote is No I will be deeply deeply depressed about it until my death.

(Even a large percentage of the English call the UK, England. Just so offensive and disrespectful to the rest of the UK)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on June 23, 2013, 10:15:00 AM

A had a nice sleep.

and I call it soda or soda pop...never pop. My ex boyfriend and I would argue about that a lot lol.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Darkie on June 23, 2013, 10:22:38 AM

I call it pop. Which has confused people before and they usually don't know what I am talking about until I explain I mean a soda. :)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Devlyn on June 23, 2013, 10:31:27 AM

Try a tonic, like Moxie!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: androgynoid on June 23, 2013, 12:06:06 PM

Trying to slick my hair back this morning, thinking I should just be grateful when it inevitably thins out on T. It's impossible to manage right now; I get it all nice and then it dries and turns into a pouf.

I'm probably going to buzz it soon. Maybe bleach what's left.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on June 23, 2013, 01:21:47 PM

Quote from: androgynoid on June 23, 2013, 12:06:06 PM
Trying to slick my hair back this morning, thinking I should just be grateful when it inevitably thins out on T. It's impossible to manage right now; I get it all nice and then it dries and turns into a pouf.

I'm probably going to buzz it soon. Maybe bleach what's left.

Trust me on this, when it thins out it poofs all the more. I have times where I look like the professor in "Back to the Future" as if I just stuck my finger in a light socket. I'll be happy to trade you!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Mollie on June 23, 2013, 02:51:32 PM

I'm thinking I wish my wee boy (6' 3"...tattoos) was here right now to watch the football with me. It's not the same watching it on your own. Anyway he'll be home from the Netherlands by Christmas. (Anybody else watching Spain v Nigeria? It's good stuff)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: DriftingCrow on June 23, 2013, 03:15:58 PM

I need to make more Somali food

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Adam (birkin) on June 23, 2013, 03:29:42 PM

I'm reading a post by someone who transitioned (FTM), eventually detransitioned. But noted that when she started passing as male, she experienced male privilege.

I realized...it's been 4 months since I began passing nearly 100%, and I legitimately cannot think of a single thing that I've experienced differently being seen as a male as opposed to female. And I consider myself to be someone who is very critical of those small nuances, but they aren't there. =/ The only thing that's different, really, is that men are a bit more abrupt with me than they used to be, not in a rude way, just they are shorter. And women seem to be more responsive to me sometimes. but it's very tiny.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: CalmRage on June 23, 2013, 03:53:21 PM

I used to be snarky, now i'm just angry and hurt. But i always put on a facade in front of classmates. I hide my shyness, temporarily act more extroverted.

Some things are fun though, talking to my classmates about How I Met Your Mother, for example.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Devlyn on June 23, 2013, 05:02:10 PM

Quote from: Renee on June 22, 2013, 06:28:23 PM
It's going to be 7% closer to us than normal in the am. I'm wondering if I will have water in the yard from tide.

Did you get water?

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Renee on June 23, 2013, 05:06:00 PM

Quote from: Devlyn Marie on June 23, 2013, 05:02:10 PM
Did you get water?

Yes, but it fell from the sky. The tides didn't really get affected much at all, we have a bigger effect from the wind.

It was cloudy, so didn't get to see it before we went to bed.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Keaira on June 23, 2013, 08:11:02 PM

I noticed I get very few replies to pictures i post, so I get irked and just take them down. I'm beginning to think its because people think I'm A. not pretty. B. not skinny. C. not posting enough cleavage. D. posting real life candid stuff that is just life stuff.
You know, the whole, if you can't say anything nice, don't say anything at all deal. Anyway, that's my theory. So, I'm going to stop posting pics on here for good. I need to go though and find all the ones I have posted actually and just take them down.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Darkie on June 23, 2013, 08:27:00 PM

Quote from: Keaira on June 23, 2013, 08:11:02 PM
I noticed I get very few replies to pictures i post, so I get irked and just take them down. I'm beginning to think its because people think I'm A. not pretty. B. not skinny. C. not posting enough cleavage. D. posting real life candid stuff that is just life stuff.
You know, the whole, if you can't say anything nice, don't say anything at all deal. Anyway, that's my theory. So, I'm going to stop posting pics on here for good. I need to go though and find all the ones I have posted actually and just take them down.

Keaira, I think you are pretty! You have a very beautiful smile. I know how you feel though. But trust me, you really are a pretty lady.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on June 23, 2013, 08:42:34 PM

Quote from: Keaira on June 23, 2013, 08:11:02 PM
I noticed I get very few replies to pictures i post, so I get irked and just take them down. I'm beginning to think its because people think I'm A. not pretty. B. not skinny. C. not posting enough cleavage. D. posting real life candid stuff that is just life stuff.
You know, the whole, if you can't say anything nice, don't say anything at all deal. Anyway, that's my theory. So, I'm going to stop posting pics on here for good. I need to go though and find all the ones I have posted actually and just take them down.

Keaira,
I have had about six PM's today about this same subject wanting hugs from Auntie Shan, I want you to know that it's not you dear, there's a mega full moon in progress and people act weird at times like this. You are a fine woman, have a sweet face and I'm sure all of the rest of the feminine attributes, so don't worry about the negative crap, it's probably not really about you anyway. People who are unhappy usually try to make others unhappy along with them and dump on their joy. If there was anything objectionable about you I'm sure Caleb would say as much, after all he has the real life experience to know these things.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Ltl89 on June 23, 2013, 08:50:37 PM

Quote from: Keaira on June 23, 2013, 08:11:02 PM
I noticed I get very few replies to pictures i post, so I get irked and just take them down. I'm beginning to think its because people think I'm A. not pretty. B. not skinny. C. not posting enough cleavage. D. posting real life candid stuff that is just life stuff.
You know, the whole, if you can't say anything nice, don't say anything at all deal. Anyway, that's my theory. So, I'm going to stop posting pics on here for good. I need to go though and find all the ones I have posted actually and just take them down.

I agree with Shantel and Darkie on the fact that you are very pretty. I often don't check out the picture threads for jealousy and personal insecurity reasons (seriously), but if I had saw your posts I would have told you this a while ago. I understand how you feel about not wanting to post pictures. It's tough exposing yourself like that. I will say though, if you have the courage to keep it up, it may do some good. When I'm not feeling too jealous of other girls, looking at some of the pictures on the site gives me some major inspiration. Who knows, your pictures may really help some girl who is lurking feel more confident about transitioning.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Devlyn on June 23, 2013, 08:53:34 PM

Keaira, post your pictures because you want to share them with your friends, and don't worry about the level of responses. I see your pictures, you're always happy in them, they make me feel good. Just because you're not hearing that much doesn't mean you're going unnoticed. Hugs, Devlyn

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Anna++ on June 23, 2013, 09:26:20 PM

I think my air conditioner is broken... the fan blades aren't turning and now it's 82 inside! :(

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Adam (birkin) on June 23, 2013, 09:35:31 PM

I've told her all of this and she doesn't listen. ;)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Devlyn on June 23, 2013, 09:36:02 PM

Quote from: Anna! on June 23, 2013, 09:26:20 PM
I think my air conditioner is broken... the fan blades aren't turning and now it's 82 inside! :(

It might just be frozen, has it been going non-stop? It might just need a break.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Devlyn on June 23, 2013, 09:37:51 PM

Quote from: Prof HB on June 23, 2013, 09:35:31 PM
I've told her all of this and she doesn't listen. ;)

If she doesn't start listening, I'm calling Shenanigans! Brooms ready, everyone, we may need them!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Anna++ on June 23, 2013, 09:38:44 PM

Quote from: Devlyn Marie on June 23, 2013, 09:36:02 PM

It might just be frozen, has it been going non-stop? It might just need a break.

It probably has been running non-stop, but I noticed it wasn't doing anything yesterday either. Are they likely to stay frozen for longer than a day?

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Adam (birkin) on June 23, 2013, 09:47:39 PM

Quote from: Devlyn Marie on June 23, 2013, 09:37:51 PM
If she doesn't start listening, I'm calling Shenanigans! Brooms ready, everyone, we may need them!

Yes, let's start an army. ;D

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Devlyn on June 23, 2013, 09:51:58 PM

Quote from: Anna! on June 23, 2013, 09:38:44 PM
It probably has been running non-stop, but I noticed it wasn't doing anything yesterday either. Are they likely to stay frozen for longer than a day?

Usually turning it to "fan only" for awhile clears it up.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Anna++ on June 23, 2013, 09:56:12 PM

Quote from: Devlyn Marie on June 23, 2013, 09:51:58 PM

Usually turning it to "fan only" for awhile clears it up.

Okay, I've moved one switch to the "off" position between "heat" and "cool". I've moved the fan switch to "on". We'll see what it's like after I brush my teeth...

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Elsa on June 23, 2013, 10:27:40 PM

I hate crowded buses!

Maybe the air conditioner needs a bit of cleaning or some servicing. Most air conditioners need to be serviced every year or two these days. Shouldn't take more than a day to fix.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on June 23, 2013, 10:37:04 PM

I really need to count the rest of my change. I'll probably do that in order to blow off my school work.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Simon on June 23, 2013, 10:39:50 PM

Quote from: Anna! on June 23, 2013, 09:56:12 PM
Okay, I've moved one switch to the "off" position between "heat" and "cool". I've moved the fan switch to "on". We'll see what it's like after I brush my teeth...

If it's frozen you can look at the unit inside and the coils will be frosted over. If that is the case it usually takes a day to clear up but if it keeps happening it could quite a few things...leaking freon, the condenser, etc.

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I'm thinking I feel bad for wishing my life away in a sense but I can not wait until next year for top surgery. It's so hot during the day I never want to step out because I have to bind and wear two shirts. I don't whine about much in life but binding is like a medieval torture device. >:(

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on June 23, 2013, 10:45:48 PM

Supposed to be meeting two women tommorrow. One is buying some gently used sneakers while the other one will be buying a backpack. Hope it all goes down well. I could really use that $18 to put into my top surgery fund.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Jam on June 24, 2013, 02:23:22 PM

I want to go on a date with a nice girl and invite her home to snuggle on the sofa and eat chocolate.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on June 24, 2013, 04:55:15 PM

Quote from: CalmRage on June 24, 2013, 02:33:32 PM
I need someone to hold me, to love me, to comfort me. It doesn't matter what gender, a good person is a good person. Is that too much to ask, shy brain?

Auntie Shan sends TLC and a big hug!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on June 24, 2013, 05:29:05 PM

Made $10 today selling a pair of shoes. Woop Woop! Time to go add that into my top surgery fund.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on June 24, 2013, 05:43:55 PM

Quote from: Malachite on June 24, 2013, 05:29:05 PM
Made $10 today selling a pair of shoes. Woop Woop! Time to go add that into my top surgery fund.

Way to go "Man with a false past" and a plan!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on June 24, 2013, 05:46:38 PM

Quote from: Shantel on June 24, 2013, 05:43:55 PM
Way to go "Man with a false past" and a plan!

LOL Well now I'm building a true future. ;)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on June 24, 2013, 05:55:57 PM

Quote from: Malachite on June 24, 2013, 05:46:38 PM
LOL Well now I'm building a true future. ;)

Might be a good new logo!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Darkie on June 24, 2013, 05:57:29 PM

I'm so glad the storms are over. At work we had to go into the basement because of a Tornado warning. I decided to stay after work which ended up being a good idea because there was another tornado warning and we had to go into the basement again. Finally home and relieved.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on June 24, 2013, 06:01:58 PM

Quote from: Shantel on June 24, 2013, 05:55:57 PM
Might be a good new logo!

Might be! Would sound nice with the "false past" statement

"A man with a false past building a true future."

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on June 24, 2013, 06:13:23 PM

Quote from: Malachite on June 24, 2013, 06:01:58 PM
Might be! Would sound nice with the "false past" statement

"A man with a false past building a true future."

Good one, says it like like it is!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Tossu-sama on June 24, 2013, 06:15:22 PM

Hmm... Quite interesting to realize I've been without even a single drop of alcohol for little over a year now.
It's not like it was a conscious decicision, like turning to absolutism or something. I just don't feel like drinking.
Well, better this way. Saves money and no annoying headaches and poopy aftertastes in mouth! :D

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on June 24, 2013, 06:19:21 PM

Quote from: Tossu-sama on June 24, 2013, 06:15:22 PM
Hmm... Quite interesting to realize I've been without even a single drop of alcohol for little over a year now.
It's not like it was a conscious decicision, like turning to absolutism or something. I just don't feel like drinking.
Well, better this way. Saves money and no annoying headaches and poopy aftertastes in mouth! :D

Good plan! We Nordic types are probably smart to go without and enjoy our lives. I was a maintenance level drunk for years but found that it drove my blood pressure through the roof when I went on HRT so it had to go.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Tossu-sama on June 24, 2013, 06:27:17 PM

Quote from: Shantel on June 24, 2013, 06:19:21 PM
Good plan! We Nordic types are probably smart to go without and enjoy our lives. I was a maintenance level drunk for years but found that it drove my blood pressure through the roof when I went on HRT so it had to go.

Not to talk about how big part alcohol has in all the annual celebrations... It really annoys me and most people become so irritating when they're boozed up. >_> This includes my fiancé.

I did spend the summer 2011 pretty drunk but I blame the fact that I was finally able to admit myself that I'm trans and all the emotions were just so overwhelming and maybe even scary that I tried to numb myself with alcohol. It didn't work, it just made things worse.

And also alcoholism might run in my family... My grandfather was an alcoholic and alcohol was indirectly responsible for the little accident he had at his home which lead to his death.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on June 24, 2013, 06:34:16 PM

Quote from: Tossu-sama on June 24, 2013, 06:27:17 PM
Not to talk about how big part alcohol has in all the annual celebrations... It really annoys me and most people become so irritating when they're boozed up. >_> This includes my fiancé.

I did spend the summer 2011 pretty drunk but I blame the fact that I was finally able to admit myself that I'm trans and all the emotions were just so overwhelming and maybe even scary that I tried to numb myself with alcohol. It didn't work, it just made things worse.

And also alcoholism might run in my family... My grandfather was an alcoholic and alcohol was indirectly responsible for the little accident he had at his home which lead to his death.

It's always been a problem in my family as well and I can relate to your own trans journey because I used to self medicate for the same reasons. Glad we're both sober, congrats!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Darkie on June 24, 2013, 06:37:08 PM

Quote from: Tossu-sama on June 24, 2013, 06:27:17 PM
Not to talk about how big part alcohol has in all the annual celebrations... It really annoys me and most people become so irritating when they're boozed up. >_> This includes my fiancé.

I did spend the summer 2011 pretty drunk but I blame the fact that I was finally able to admit myself that I'm trans and all the emotions were just so overwhelming and maybe even scary that I tried to numb myself with alcohol. It didn't work, it just made things worse.

And also alcoholism might run in my family... My grandfather was an alcoholic and alcohol was indirectly responsible for the little accident he had at his home which lead to his death.

Alcoholism runs in my family, but thankfully for me I'm a horrible lightweight. I just drink a jack and coke and I'm good for the night. Only had one drunken experience in my life. Never again. Throwing up chinese food in the street outside my house while sobbing and punching a punching bag machine because I couldn't stop my hand in time thus almost breaking my hand is something I don't want to repeat. EVAR.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Tossu-sama on June 24, 2013, 06:51:30 PM

Quote from: Shantel on June 24, 2013, 06:34:16 PM
It's always been a problem in my family as well and I can relate to your own trans journey because I used to self medicate for the same reasons. Glad we're both sober, congrats!

My grandfather was initially self-medicating himself, too. He had some form of anxiety disorder and when it happened on him the doctors didn't know how to diagnose something like that.

But I'm glad I could stop drinking the way I did. At worst I had to visit the liqour store two days in a row because I ran out of booze... It was almost embarrassing. And being so drunk that I basically passed out three weekends in a row... Ugh, never again.
I rather have fun without alcohol so I can remember the good times I've had with my friends and family. :)

Quote from: Darkie on June 24, 2013, 06:37:08 PM
Alcoholism runs in my family, but thankfully for me I'm a horrible lightweight. I just drink a jack and coke and I'm good for the night. Only had one drunken experience in my life. Never again. Throwing up chinese food in the street outside my house while sobbing and punching a punching bag machine because I couldn't stop my hand in time thus almost breaking my hand is something I don't want to repeat. EVAR.

I'm pretty lightweight, too but since starting T I've piled up some more weight as muscle. But I've always had bad tolerance for alcohol so it didn't really take much for me to get drunk.
I've had one hangover in my life and it was awful. Still, it wasn't enough to stop me. Once I was without alcohol for 10 months or so because I got some sort of traumas from having the panic attack of a century while I was drunk. Ironically, that attack is the only thing I remember from that evening/night... It's seriously not nice to be able to only lie on the floor and scream something about having a panic attack. Good thing my friend carried me to his car to calm down.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Edge on June 24, 2013, 06:55:43 PM

For some reason, I don't get addicted to substances. It might have something to do with not being interested in them in the first place.
My ex is an addict/alcoholic. When we were together and right after we broke up, I said he should stop drinking. They responded with "Then you can't drink either!" I don't mind not drinking since I'm not all that interested in it, but it does suck that there are people in the world who consider him consuming hundreds of dollars of alcohol in one weekend, putting his fist through the door, setting the carpet on fire, putting his hands around my throat, threatening to kill me, and other "fun" things to be the same thing as me having a cooler and watching tv. Ouch.

I wonder how people see me, if they see me for who I am, or if I will ever be seen for who I am.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Simon on June 24, 2013, 08:10:34 PM

Just got home from the hospital a little bit ago. My gf's thyroid is so swollen it's pushed her esophagus over by and inch and is down around her sternum. They did a biopsy and ultrasound today and she goes back the 5th to see what her options are. They've said they're about 99% positive it will require surgery.

With me still fighting for my disability and her going out for surgery we're in a rough spot again. Hopefully we'll stay afloat. Somehow we always manage.

Trying to stay positive about this.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Liminal Stranger on June 24, 2013, 09:46:30 PM

Geez...good luck, Simon. Let us know how everything turns out with her.

My netbook utterly destroyed this flashdrive I had Ubuntu running on, which has now become so pretentious that no level of privilege is enough to format it. At least it was cheap...there was a kernel panic and then it gave me a black screen of death when I tried to boot saying "Error Loading Operating System". I think my verbal reaction to that would have made the most hardened sailor blush.
Story is that the HDD died on me, so I needed to boot from a USB. Luckily 4 gigs (as opposed to the 8 gig pendrive that I can no longer use) is more than enough for the ISO and everything else I have on here, and I didn't even need to use a recovery program to get my files because I can directly access them. Backed it all up just in case, of course, but I'm glad that was a piece of cake.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on June 24, 2013, 09:52:20 PM

I just need to shut down from my family until I'm ready to come out.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Keaira on June 24, 2013, 09:53:45 PM

I think I've lost a little weight. my skirt feels loose and it's a size 14. After switching to jeans I found that I had to adjust the belt one notch tighter. I probably wouldn't be so weight conscious if I didn't have a crap load of muscle mass to drop, if clothing selections didn't start to suck at this size and if I wasn't convinced that my scales lie because I didn't gain 5 pounds back from crossing back into Indiana. If I keep going maybe I will fit my gorgeous Hell Bunny dress again. :D

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Simon on June 24, 2013, 10:07:50 PM

Thanks guys, I'm sure she'll be alright. It's just another trial. Life is full of them.

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I'm thinking about the ocean and what I wouldn't give to drive out to Cape Hatteras and put a log in the water. Great way to clear my head. I haven't surfed in forever but one day I'm going to the beach and I'm never going to leave.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Anna++ on June 24, 2013, 10:14:39 PM

I just hosted three parties in three days. Can I be done playing hostess for a while?

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on June 24, 2013, 10:15:20 PM

Quote from: Anna! on June 24, 2013, 10:14:39 PM
Can I be done playing hostess for a while?

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Anna++ on June 24, 2013, 10:18:40 PM

Quote from: Malachite on June 24, 2013, 10:15:20 PM
No

But I'm exhausted! And each group was messier than the last!

At least my AC is working again. One of my friends poked at the fan blades with a pen and it started right up!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on June 24, 2013, 10:19:46 PM

Quote from: Anna! on June 24, 2013, 10:18:40 PM
But I'm exhausted! And each group was messier than the last!

Okay fineeee. One break

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Anna++ on June 24, 2013, 10:21:44 PM

Quote from: Malachite on June 24, 2013, 10:19:46 PM
Okay fineeee. One break

Yay! *scampers off to bed*

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on June 25, 2013, 12:05:25 AM

Quote from: Anna! on June 24, 2013, 10:21:44 PM
Yay! *scampers off to bed*

Lol sweet dreams!

Omg about a year ago I posted in the what are you thinking thread about how I was interested in following this person who was exploring their gender on Youtube and they were trying to see if they were ftm. They kept deleting their videos and posting them and deleting them again until they just stopped posting and I was very upset with that and went on a rant about here about either post the videos or not. They recently posted two videos up and in one of the videos was apologizing about how they were wishy washy and was saying that some transguys were acting cold to him and he guess it was because of how flightly he was. Now, he has a haircut and says he got his T letter so I'm thinking "okay, he's a bit more serious this time around....he know who he is so I'm going to subscribe to him". Now I look on his page and nothing is there....WTF!

That's it....I'm unsubcribing to him and not going to pay him any attention anymore. I totally understand that some guys want to be identified but in his particular situation....it's rather annoying. Either make videos or don't.

Rant over

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on June 25, 2013, 11:53:30 AM

Quote from: Simon on June 24, 2013, 10:07:50 PM
Thanks guys, I'm sure she'll be alright. It's just another trial. Life is full of them.

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I'm thinking about the ocean and what I wouldn't give to drive out to Cape Hatteras and put a log in the water. Great way to clear my head. I haven't surfed in forever but one day I'm going to the beach and I'm never going to leave.

Attitude is 99% way to go Simon!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on June 25, 2013, 12:00:54 PM

My father asked me how much money I have. I don't feel comfortable telling him exactly how much I have so I just told him $500 when in reality it's a little over 4 grand.

I love how I don't mind telling my Susans family but I don't want to tell my father lol

I made another sale today! I sold a backpack for $8. Time to add that to my top surgery fund!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Jam on June 25, 2013, 12:22:31 PM

Quote from: Malachite on June 25, 2013, 12:00:54 PM
My father asked me how much money I have. I don't feel comfortable telling him exactly how much I have so I just told him $500 when in reality it's a little over 4 grand.

I love how I don't mind telling my Susans family but I don't want to tell my father lol

I made another sale today! I sold a backpack for $8. Time to add that to my top surgery fund!

Does he know what your saving for?

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on June 25, 2013, 12:23:02 PM

Quote from: Malachite on June 25, 2013, 12:00:54 PM
My father asked me how much money I have. I don't feel comfortable telling him exactly how much I have so I just told him $500 when in reality it's a little over 4 grand.

I love how I don't mind telling my Susans family but I don't want to tell my father lol

Probably smart since both of your parents seem to be alcoholics according to your earlier posts. I got my piggy bank raided by a drunk when I was a kid, a years worth of savings went out the door to the liquor store, not fun!

Quote from: Malachite on June 25, 2013, 12:00:54 PM
I made another sale today! I sold a backpack for $8. Time to add that to my top surgery fund!

Way to go Malachite, you are rolling kid!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on June 25, 2013, 12:49:08 PM

Quote from: Jam on June 25, 2013, 12:22:31 PM
Does he know what your saving for?

Heck no! I don't plan to tell him any time soon lol.

Quote from: Shantel on June 25, 2013, 12:23:02 PM
Probably smart since both of your parents seem to be alcoholics according to your earlier posts. I got my piggy bank raided by a drunk when I was a kid, a years worth of savings went out the door to the liquor store, not fun!

Way to go Malachite, you are rolling kid!

That must have been horrible! I would have cried. :( I don't think my father would go that far though, but I do see him using the amount of money I have against me somehow in the future if I were to told him but he asked me because he was trying to make a point of how I have enough money to take small gambles and start buying things from yard sales and estate sales to flip a profit. Thing is though, I have to know what to look for and what the things or worth (which I don't) or I could lose a lot of money. I'm just trying to sell things I already have but my father wants me to "upgrade" my thinking.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Jam on June 25, 2013, 01:08:36 PM

Quote from: Malachite on June 25, 2013, 12:49:08 PM

Heck no! I don't plan to tell him any time soon lol.

That must have been horrible! I would have cried. :( I don't think my father would go that far though, but I do see him using the amount of money I have against me somehow in the future if I were to told him but he asked me because he was trying to make a point of how I have enough money to take small gambles and start buying things from yard sales and estate sales to flip a profit. Thing is though, I have to know what to look for and what the things or worth (which I don't) or I could lose a lot of money. I'm just trying to sell things I already have but my father wants me to "upgrade" my thinking.

Just keep saving like you are malachite, your doing really well by the sounds of it so why change something that isn't broken?

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on June 25, 2013, 02:13:13 PM

Quote from: Jam on June 25, 2013, 01:08:36 PM
Just keep saving like you are malachite, your doing really well by the sounds of it so why change something that isn't broken?

Exactly how I feel and I've just been lucky these past too weeks but typical it's very hard to sell the things I got. Imagine buying things to sell but they never do!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Adam (birkin) on June 25, 2013, 02:33:50 PM

When I wear pants instead of shorts, I feel like I'm really in control of my life. Lol. Is this what it has come to?

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Lajs on June 25, 2013, 03:26:31 PM

I should really check my emails, but I really don't want to. I'm expecting an unpleasant message.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Renee on June 25, 2013, 03:29:43 PM

Quote from: Anna! on June 24, 2013, 10:18:40 PM
But I'm exhausted! And each group was messier than the last!

At least my AC is working again. One of my friends poked at the fan blades with a pen and it started right up!

Not knowing which fan or what type of AC you have, you may have a bad starting capacitor if it has one.

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Post by: Simon on June 25, 2013, 03:56:04 PM

I'm thinking I am more than likely going to change my major to Zoology and Aquarium Sciences (my dream is to work with sharks). Since I'm doing pre requisite courses the two first years I don't have to right away. Just hope I can make a living at it. On the plus side, my gf has agreed that we will move to the ocean in a few years. ;D

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Post by: Renee on June 25, 2013, 04:20:25 PM

What is it with bees? I had stopped off at the other store to pick up their deposit as usual along with ours to take to the bank and this bee got into my car while I was waiting inside for them to get the deposit ready. Right after I left there, the thing went straight for my neck then got into my top and about made me run into oncoming traffic. It was frightening trying to coral it while keeping my car on a road with no pulloffs close by. I finally got him killed though, so I got my revenge.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Jam on June 25, 2013, 04:22:17 PM

Quote from: Simon on June 25, 2013, 03:56:04 PM
I'm thinking I am more than likely going to change my major to Zoology and Aquarium Sciences (my dream is to work with sharks). Since I'm doing pre requisite courses the two first years I don't have to right away. Just hope I can make a living at it. On the plus side, my gf has agreed that we will move to the ocean in a few years. ;D

Woah now THAT sounds like an interesting course.

I'm wondering how other guys get so lucky with finding a partner.

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Post by: V M on June 25, 2013, 04:29:52 PM

Quote from: Renee on June 25, 2013, 04:20:25 PM
What is it with bees? I had stopped off at the other store to pick up their deposit as usual along with ours to take to the bank and this bee got into my car while I was waiting inside for them to get the deposit ready. Right after I left there, the thing went straight for my neck then got into my top and about made me run into oncoming traffic. It was frightening trying to coral it while keeping my car on a road with no pulloffs close by. I finally got him killed though, so I got my revenge.

Bees don't like banks

I had one fly in and sting me on the neck while I was on my way to the bank years ago, that was the day I learned that I'm allergic to bee stings :P

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Simon on June 25, 2013, 05:34:00 PM

Quote from: Jam on June 25, 2013, 04:22:17 PM
I'm wondering how other guys get so lucky with finding a partner.

I don't see how guys can't find partners. I mean I'm no Don Juan but I've never had issues getting girls. Next February will be ten years together for us. Just be confident and approachable. Always worked for me.

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Post by: King Malachite on June 25, 2013, 06:30:04 PM

Quote from: Jam on June 25, 2013, 04:22:17 PM
I'm wondering how other guys get so lucky with finding a partner.

I wonder that too. Whenever I hear about guys having a partner I think to myself "wow, they are so blessed".

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Post by: King Malachite on June 25, 2013, 06:46:12 PM

Quote from: Liam Erik on June 25, 2013, 06:41:16 PMAnd then I remember I'm a recluse, and it all makes sense.

Same here lol

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Post by: Shantel on June 25, 2013, 06:47:33 PM

Quote from: Liam Erik on June 25, 2013, 06:41:16 PM
I wonder that and then I remember I've only actually met three (out) gay men in my life. And then I remember I'm a recluse, and it all makes sense.

Looks like you both will have to take a page out of Simon's book and make the effort to socialize and become a little more outgoing.

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Post by: King Malachite on June 25, 2013, 06:50:35 PM

Quote from: Shantel on June 25, 2013, 06:47:33 PM
Looks like you both will have to take a page out of Simon's book and make the effort to socialize and become a little more outgoing.

True. I do get lonely and want a partner, but I kind of want to focus on top surgery before that. Maybe when I get a job I can be a bit more social, though I do hesitate at that since I feel like I'd be lying to everyone. That's why I find it hard to make friends at this time....or at least a big part of the reason.

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Post by: Tossu-sama on June 25, 2013, 07:40:43 PM

I got a drawing project going on, that is to draw all six of my Skyrim characters. I seriously thought I'd end up procrastinating this for eternity but I have actually done 4/6 linearts already! :D At the same time I have challenged my skills by drawing non-human faces (Khajiit and Argonian for those interested) and they actually look pretty decent. Coloring some of them will be hard and challenging, too but hell, bring it on!

I also joined FurAffinity couple days ago even if I don't consider myself to be in the furry fandom, and I'm really liking the community there. :)
Seems to be pretty common in the smaller art websites.

And now that I think of it, I guess this would fit the happy thread better. XD

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Post by: Simon on June 25, 2013, 07:57:33 PM

Quote from: Malachite on June 25, 2013, 06:50:35 PM
I do hesitate at that since I feel like I'd be lying to everyone. That's why I find it hard to make friends at this time....or at least a big part of the reason.

Lying about what? Not being cis male? Then be out about being trans. I wonder if you will feel more confident about yourself when you start medical transition.

I am the opposite. I'm not lying about a thing. I am male. If anything my body lied to and betrayed me.

Must be hard going through life feeling like you're a liar though. I can't imagine.

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Post by: King Malachite on June 25, 2013, 08:11:47 PM

Quote from: Simon on June 25, 2013, 07:57:33 PM
Lying about what? Not being cis male? Then be out about being trans. I wonder if you will feel more confident about yourself when you start medical transition.

I am the opposite. I'm not lying about a thing. I am male. If anything my body lied to and betrayed me.

Must be hard going through life feeling like you're a liar though. I can't imagine.

I probably would feel more confident after starting transition but right now people see female and they will see that for a while. I'm in no position to transition at the moment so I will be putting on a show. It's just the fact that if I do make friends knowing that I'll have to come out to them later, I feel uneasy about that. It would be one thing for me to not know I was trans and then have that revelation later on after making friends, but the fact that I know makes me feel like I'm leading people on. I wish it would be easy to be out about being trans. Plus, I plan to do my full transition in another city where I can start fresh so that's another thing.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Adam (birkin) on June 25, 2013, 08:51:49 PM

I can tell you first hand that will get easier Malachite. For ages, I felt really insecure about telling people I was male, or correcting strangers because I had such a hard time passing. Even though i know I'm a guy, for so long it felt like I was lying. Even when I was 9 months on T I felt that insecurity and feeling of "deception"...but once I began passing, that went away. Because I get called "sir" and stuff so often now, I feel very much more at ease correcting people, and I've stopped worrying in men's bathrooms and fitting rooms. Because before, everyone thought i was female so I felt I was "fighting" against that dominant perception...but now the dominant perception is I am male, so I know that the people who see me as a girl now are in the minority. I guess before I worried if I corrected them I'd have people who witnessed the event thinking "uh, but I also thought that was a woman." Now I know it'll most likely be, the people who witness it thinking "yeah, I knew that was a guy."

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Post by: androgynoid on June 25, 2013, 09:37:03 PM

Watching Wendy Davis filibuster the Texas Senate with bated breath. 2 and a half more hours! I'm so excited and terrified and ~~way too emotionally invested~~ screw that, this deserves emotional investment!

Edit: One hour, and they appear to be filibustering the filibuster. This is so intense.

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Post by: Keaira on June 26, 2013, 07:03:38 AM

Quote from: androgynoid on June 25, 2013, 09:37:03 PM
Watching Wendy Davis filibuster the Texas Senate with bated breath. 2 and a half more hours! I'm so excited and terrified and ~~way too emotionally invested~~ screw that, this deserves emotional investment!

Edit: One hour, and they appear to be filibustering the filibuster. This is so intense.

http://www.foxnews.com/politics/2013/06/26/texas-lawmaker-filibusters-against-abortion-bill/ (http://www.foxnews.com/politics/2013/06/26/texas-lawmaker-filibusters-against-abortion-bill/)

She gave it an amazing run though.

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Post by: King Malachite on June 26, 2013, 08:20:50 AM

Quote from: Prof HB on June 25, 2013, 08:51:49 PM
I can tell you first hand that will get easier Malachite. For ages, I felt really insecure about telling people I was male, or correcting strangers because I had such a hard time passing. Even though i know I'm a guy, for so long it felt like I was lying. Even when I was 9 months on T I felt that insecurity and feeling of "deception"...but once I began passing, that went away. Because I get called "sir" and stuff so often now, I feel very much more at ease correcting people, and I've stopped worrying in men's bathrooms and fitting rooms. Because before, everyone thought i was female so I felt I was "fighting" against that dominant perception...but now the dominant perception is I am male, so I know that the people who see me as a girl now are in the minority. I guess before I worried if I corrected them I'd have people who witnessed the event thinking "uh, but I also thought that was a woman." Now I know it'll most likely be, the people who witness it thinking "yeah, I knew that was a guy."

Thanks for that Caleb. :) Btw how long were you on the gel before you started noticing significant changes?

I'm thinking about how I'm starting to not mind going to school without a bra on as much.

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Post by: Tossu-sama on June 26, 2013, 10:37:01 AM

I thought I could dedicate my weekend for coloring all the six linearts I've done during past couple days but obviously I'm gonna go babysit some animals at my Mom and stepdad's. And of course their pc doesn't have Gimp.
Oh well, it's nice to see those furrybutts AKA cat and dog again. Been months since the last time.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Jam on June 26, 2013, 11:11:06 AM

A few weeks ago I was given a choice by my gender clinic, in regards to how long I would have to wait for a 2nd opinion for surgery. I could pay £250 and see this person within 2-4 weeks, or I could not in which case I'd have to wait between 6-8 months. Either way they needed to know tomorrow what id like to do. I wanted to pay the £250, despite the fact money is tight for me at the moment and will be for the foreseeable future, but I feel more strongly about this surgery (lower) then I did about top surgery.

Today I had the money, infact I had more then enough and I had to give it all away because my car broke. There's no way I can pay it now =[

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Post by: androgynoid on June 26, 2013, 02:48:23 PM

Quote from: Keaira on June 26, 2013, 07:03:38 AM
http://www.foxnews.com/politics/2013/06/26/texas-lawmaker-filibusters-against-abortion-bill/ (http://www.foxnews.com/politics/2013/06/26/texas-lawmaker-filibusters-against-abortion-bill/)

She gave it an amazing run though.

She did what she set out to do. When they silenced her and other female politicians, the crowd screamed for at least 20 minutes. It was glorious.

I'm just so happy.

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Post by: King Malachite on June 26, 2013, 03:16:40 PM

I like seeing my top surgery fund slowly increase. I hope I won't have to dip into it for other reasons.

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Post by: Renee on June 26, 2013, 03:42:37 PM

Space balls is coming on. Might watch it since its been years since I've seen it. Its just stupid enough to be funny.

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Post by: Shantel on June 26, 2013, 03:47:14 PM

Quote from: Renee on June 26, 2013, 03:42:37 PM
Space balls is coming on. Might watch it since its been years since I've seen it. Its just stupid enough to be funny.

"Space Balls"...Really? LOL Are you sure it's not "Spacey Blonde?" :icon_peace:

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Post by: Renee on June 26, 2013, 03:56:42 PM

Quote from: Shantel on June 26, 2013, 03:47:14 PM
"Space Balls"...Really? LOL Are you sure it's not "Spacey Blonde?" :icon_peace:

Hey, even with all those channels, there seems to not be much on. I'm barely watching it though if it makes you feel better. I'm reading here and a few other places while I am munching on my pizza.

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Post by: Shantel on June 26, 2013, 03:59:59 PM

Quote from: Renee on June 26, 2013, 03:56:42 PM
Hey, even with all those channels, there seems to not be much on. I'm barely watching it though if it makes you feel better. I'm reading here and a few other places while I am munching on my pizza.

hehehe I might have known!

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Post by: Adam (birkin) on June 26, 2013, 04:02:23 PM

Quote from: Malachite on June 26, 2013, 08:20:50 AM
Thanks for that Caleb. :) Btw how long were you on the gel before you started noticing significant changes?

Um, truth be told, I didn't experience significant changes until I started shots, which was 9 months in. If that was just my personal timeline or me not responding to the gel, I will never know...on gel, I noticed hair on my stomach and back of my thighs around 3 or 4 months, my hips shrunk around 5 months, my voice was deeper (but not male) between 6-7 months, and some chest hair came in.

On shots, the significant changes happened very quickly, but again, it could have been that 9 months was when they were going to happen anyway. Pretty much right away my voice dropped into male range, body hair thickened and coursened. I started passing (at all - but I went from entirely female to almost entirely male right away) around 10 or 11 months on T.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Renee on June 26, 2013, 04:04:19 PM

Quote from: Shantel on June 26, 2013, 03:59:59 PM
hehehe I might have known!

Well, after working all day and having to get up at 3:15, I'm not too keen on coming home and actually doing much cooking, so I heated up a chopped up hot dog for Jake and threw a pizza in the oven for myself. Now I'm eating cookies. ;D

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Post by: Shantel on June 26, 2013, 05:25:16 PM

Quote from: Sara of the River Rhine on June 26, 2013, 04:04:46 PM
Why can't i be a girl NOW?!?!

Million dollar question!

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Post by: Liminal Stranger on June 26, 2013, 07:37:42 PM

Apparently under all this hair I have a male hairline. When the heck did that happen?
Also this lady working at an estate sale was counting a stack of money, dropped it, and yelled "Balls!", then saw me and gasped before apologizing profusely. Then this other lady in an antiques shop saw me reading this book called "Mother Goose Tells the Truth About Middle Age" and came up to me saying "Honey, some of those stories might be a little too naughty for you," and put it someplace else. I was reading that >:(

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Post by: Adam (birkin) on June 27, 2013, 05:58:42 AM

I need to start being a lot cheaper. =/ While I have a bit stored away in savings, I have a lot more things I want to save for. I want to go back to Indiana before 2013 is over, I want driver's ed, I want to save for a down payment and a car...lol.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Tossu-sama on June 27, 2013, 09:30:16 AM

The news weather forecast said yesterday that we might break this summer's lightning/thunder record with hundreds of bolts around whole country, accompanied with heavy downpours that might cause slight flooding in city areas.

Well, earlier today some wiser people decided it was a good idea to issue a warning via tv (we have this nifty system that shows a warning on all Finnish channels in case of emergencies etc). It was about strong thunderstorms and of course it included the area I live in.
My fiancé also said there might be gusts of wind as strong as 30m/s (about 67mph), too... That's enough to tear roofs of from flimsy buildings!

I have a feeling our cat's been all ants in the pants because of the incoming storm.

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Post by: Shantel on June 27, 2013, 09:51:08 AM

Quote from: Tossu-sama on June 27, 2013, 09:30:16 AM
The news weather forecast said yesterday that we might break this summer's lightning/thunder record with hundreds of bolts around whole country, accompanied with heavy downpours that might cause slight flooding in city areas.

Well, earlier today some wiser people decided it was a good idea to issue a warning via tv (we have this nifty system that shows a warning on all Finnish channels in case of emergencies etc). It was about strong thunderstorms and of course it included the area I live in.
My fiancé also said there might be gusts of wind as strong as 30m/s (about 67mph), too... That's enough to tear roofs of from flimsy buildings!

I have a feeling our cat's been all ants in the pants because of the incoming storm.

Cats, dogs and other animals are really sensitive to barometric changes and they usually know about impending changes ahead of us. My dog can sense an earthquake before it happens and other than the level of the water changing in the toilet bowl, he's the one to watch.

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Post by: King Malachite on June 27, 2013, 02:21:55 PM

Usually I hated reading in high school (I still hate reading now), but the two books I enjoyed the most were The Scarlet Letter and 1984....definately 1984. I'm glad we had to read 1984 because all of the references people make to it nowadays.

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Post by: King Malachite on June 27, 2013, 02:54:50 PM

Alex Jones and Infowars

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on June 27, 2013, 06:52:22 PM

My mother makes me feel uneasy when she talks about how she don't support gay rights because in of the Bible. She has her interpretation and I respect that, but the part that concerns me is that if she's so quick to be against homosexuality, it makes me wonder how could I ever come out to her as transgender and expect to continue living there? Gosh, maybe I will need a backup moving plan just in case. When I start working, that may be a crucial time for me to start networking and making friends. Push comes to shove, I know I will have 12 grand to help start a new life if need to. Considering that's the bulk on my top surgery fund, I wouldn't be too happy but hey, I guess I just have to do what I need to do and rebuild it if needed.

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Post by: Adam (birkin) on June 27, 2013, 08:32:49 PM

Whenever my grandpa does something that annoys me, my mind goes back to a ton of the stuff he's said about me that was...well, in no way the appropriate manner to refer to your "granddaughter." While it doesn't bother me the way it used to, I hate knowing there's these little wounds that can be reopened even after years have passed.

In giving it some hard thought, I also came to realize that my bad experiences with men in my family are the reasons why I hate when people glorify bad stereotypes about men, or fondly joke about them. I absolutely hate when people expect me to act like an aggressor, or to be more overtly sexual, dirty, loud, etc. While most men may be harmless even when they do fulfill these stereotypes, the fact is, the reason that so many men have been able to hurt me is because "that's what guys do" and everyone just accepts it like it's OK. And it's not. Even men in my family were allowed to make sexual comments about me when I am a blood relative, men have bee able to become physically violent with me, etc, because people say that's how men are and that it's not an issue. Well, it is.

Besides that, I'm a guy and I'm not like that. I never will be. but people seem to see me as less of a man because of it, as if I am somehow a lesser person than those who've left me with mental and emotional scars. I'm sick of it.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Tossu-sama on June 28, 2013, 01:00:43 AM

Quote from: Shantel on June 27, 2013, 09:51:08 AM
Cats, dogs and other animals are really sensitive to barometric changes and they usually know about impending changes ahead of us. My dog can sense an earthquake before it happens and other than the level of the water changing in the toilet bowl, he's the one to watch.

Animals are probably more reliable than weather forecasts. :D Well, that depends on what channel's forecast we're talking about, there really are some differences although they all get their information from the same source... Wut.
It's just pretty weird because our cat hasn't usually reacted to any incoming thunders, he's not even scared of fireworks. On the new year's eve when people were going nuts over fireworks and there was popping and banging everywhere, he just wanted to go out to see what's going on. :'D

Anywho, we didn't really get much of the storm here. I saw few flashes of light but no actual bolts. We did get a heavy downpour, though.

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Post by: MyKa on June 28, 2013, 02:52:15 AM

Almost pride weekend!! Cannot wait. Having trouble sleeping :(

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Post by: ZoeM on June 28, 2013, 09:55:08 AM

Quote from: Sara of the River Rhine on June 28, 2013, 09:40:38 AM
If there'd be a button to magically make me into a girl, i'd press it and yet i'm confused.+

Oh, and i tried to jump out of a high window today.

Are you going to be OK, Sara?

I'm worried for you.

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Post by: ZoeM on June 28, 2013, 10:04:19 AM

Quote from: Sara of the River Rhine on June 28, 2013, 09:56:26 AM
I'm not. I want to die and i don't know where i belong, yet i desperately cling on to being Sara. I informed my shrink about this. I need help.

Sara,
We're all here for you. No matter how bad things get. Don't give up - it really does get better, and you'll thank yourself someday for sticking to life and your dreams.

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Post by: King Malachite on June 28, 2013, 10:30:56 AM

a shirt

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Post by: King Malachite on June 28, 2013, 10:57:24 AM

I need to find more stuff in my room to sell.

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Post by: Mollie on June 28, 2013, 11:18:53 AM

I'm thinking the postman is never going to bring my letter. That's 17 days since the blood test. I want Ostrogen and I want it now! BRING ME MY LETTER!! Grrrrrrrrr.

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Post by: King Malachite on June 28, 2013, 11:49:38 AM

I hope my father doesn't make it a habit of calling me to track every debt collector number. It's not like he plans on calling them back.

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Post by: androgynoid on June 28, 2013, 12:01:14 PM

Ack, Pride is in two days and I have no idea what my plans are or who I'm going with.

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Post by: CalmRage on June 28, 2013, 12:27:00 PM

I am probably not going to post here for a few days. I need some time to clear my mind up. Am coming back though.

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Post by: CalmRage on June 28, 2013, 12:46:13 PM

Just got an email from my shrink, however i am once again questioning the validity of my feelings.

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Post by: King Malachite on June 28, 2013, 01:10:34 PM

I wish my downtown area celebrated Pride week. :/

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Post by: King Malachite on June 28, 2013, 02:16:17 PM

I wish I was in a good position to come out. :/ I hate keeping it in.

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Post by: Adam (birkin) on June 28, 2013, 02:25:39 PM

*hugs Sara* I'm sorry you're feeling so down and confused right now. If it makes you feel any better, I did have similar questions myself before I began hormones. I knew I hated my body and sex characteristics, but I questioned now and again if having a male body would make those feelings go away. It's a long and hard process, not just in practical terms but also coming to accept and understand yourself. The uncertainty and confusion isn't easy, especially when the hatred you feel for your body pushes you to do *something*, but try to keep in mind that as painful as these feelings are, they are just feelings and it's OK to be unsure. Try to take it all in stride and know that one day, no matter which path you take, you will come out of this and figure all this out. :)

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Post by: King Malachite on June 28, 2013, 02:45:18 PM

My heart goes out to all of the transgendered individuals who are too young to legally move out of their unsupportive parent's house.

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Post by: King Malachite on June 28, 2013, 02:52:05 PM

Sleepy

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Post by: Simon on June 28, 2013, 02:52:37 PM

I wish being trans was the worst problem in my life...

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Post by: Simon on June 28, 2013, 03:30:50 PM

Quote from: Sara of the River Rhine on June 28, 2013, 02:53:21 PM
I wish i still had a proper family.

You and me both hun...you and me both.

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Post by: King Malachite on June 28, 2013, 04:18:04 PM

My period is on.

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Post by: CalmRage on June 28, 2013, 04:26:59 PM

I don't want to be in a male body for the rest of my life and i don't want to live as a male for the rest of my life.

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Post by: Renee on June 28, 2013, 04:38:45 PM

most of my immediate family will be around for the 4th, except for my little sister. That means I have to do a little cleaning. I hate cleaning. And I hope my dog doesn't snap at my other brother this time.

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Post by: Shantel on June 28, 2013, 04:46:50 PM

Quote from: Renee on June 28, 2013, 04:38:45 PM
most of my immediate family will be around for the 4th, except for my little sister. That means I have to do a little cleaning. I hate cleaning. And I hope my dog doesn't snap at my other brother this time.

Bout time! Feed the dog so he isn't hungry when your brother is around. Maybe Jake is a man eater! ;D :D

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Post by: King Malachite on June 28, 2013, 05:14:45 PM

Yoohoo

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Post by: Renee on June 28, 2013, 05:36:35 PM

Why do they call him the Lone Ranger if he always has Tonto around?

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Post by: King Malachite on June 28, 2013, 05:55:07 PM

When I dream of myself moving out in case my coming out goes bad, I envision future Cole Macgrath from inFAMOUS 1 taking his wife and kids and running away from the Beast.

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Post by: King Malachite on June 28, 2013, 07:25:44 PM

I wonder what a Mike's Hard Lemonade tastes like.

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Post by: Adam (birkin) on June 28, 2013, 07:26:22 PM

Quote from: Malachite on June 28, 2013, 07:25:44 PM
I wonder what a Mike's Hard Lemonade tastes like.

It's good. Drink it. Lol.

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Post by: King Malachite on June 28, 2013, 07:35:24 PM

Quote from: Prof HB on June 28, 2013, 07:26:22 PM
It's good. Drink it. Lol.

It definately looks good. And it comes in a very cute bottle lol.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Simon on June 28, 2013, 07:37:35 PM

Quote from: Malachite on June 28, 2013, 07:25:44 PM
I wonder what a Mike's Hard Lemonade tastes like.

They're good. Try Shock Top Apple...now those are bangin'.

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I'm thinking about what to watch. Doing my usual escapism into films.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on June 28, 2013, 08:06:14 PM

Quote from: Simon on June 28, 2013, 07:37:35 PM
They're good. Try Shock Top Apple...now those are bangin'.

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I'm thinking about what to watch. Doing my usual escapism into films.

Will keep in mind :)

I'm thinking about cheesesticks.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Tossu-sama on June 29, 2013, 07:19:44 AM

Our cat must be partially immune to catnip... His mommy went nuts over the catnip I brought her that did nothing for our cat. O_o

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on June 29, 2013, 08:43:57 AM

Sleep

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on June 29, 2013, 10:27:01 AM

I can't wait to get top surgery so I can have a better fit of my future cosplay gear. ANIME EXPO!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on June 29, 2013, 10:46:43 AM

Looking into homeless shelters to move into in case my mom kicks me out in the future. If I could find a LBGT shelter then that would be great.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on June 29, 2013, 12:11:44 PM

Thinking if I should start to gather all the clothes I want to sell.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on June 29, 2013, 12:17:28 PM

I really need to make more space in my room.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: ZoeM on June 29, 2013, 12:27:43 PM

In Chicago w/ Anna. :D

I'm also taking the opportunity to spend some time fully in Zoe Mode - which is amazingly liberating. And probably good considering next week's enforced male-mode hiatus.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on June 29, 2013, 12:41:13 PM

Got to find more things in my room to sell. I want that flat chest for Anime Expo. Woop Woop!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: androgynoid on June 29, 2013, 12:46:34 PM

Quote from: Malachite on June 28, 2013, 07:35:24 PM
It definately looks good. And it comes in a very cute bottle lol.

One of my favorite drink bottles is Atomium beer. It's like a little beehive. :D

(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.piperbeverages.com%2Fwp-content%2Fthemes%2Fpiper%2Fprod_images%2Fbeer%2Fatomium.png&hash=aedac030bbcf0100e418b9274596265510f36a5a)

I am not a fan of the way it tastes, however.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Anna++ on June 29, 2013, 12:58:26 PM

Quote from: ZoeM on June 29, 2013, 12:27:43 PM
In Chicago w/ Anna. :D

I'm also taking the opportunity to spend some time fully in Zoe Mode - which is amazingly liberating. And probably good considering next week's enforced male-mode hiatus.

Here's a picture taken from my friend's balcony less than 5 minutes ago! So much fog...

(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi1285.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fa599%2Farschuma%2FDSC_0144_zpsce2adbfe.jpg&hash=ba2b38b6f87f30aecddd1db5624db0d31a8632ac)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on June 29, 2013, 01:02:27 PM

Quote from: androgynoid on June 29, 2013, 12:46:34 PM
One of my favorite drink bottles is Atomium beer. It's like a little beehive. :D

(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.piperbeverages.com%2Fwp-content%2Fthemes%2Fpiper%2Fprod_images%2Fbeer%2Fatomium.png&hash=aedac030bbcf0100e418b9274596265510f36a5a)

I am not a fan of the way it tastes, however.

Reminds me of a jug of syrup!

Quote from: Anna! on June 29, 2013, 12:58:26 PM
Here's a picture taken from my friend's balcony less than 5 minutes ago! So much fog...

(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi1285.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fa599%2Farschuma%2FDSC_0144_zpsce2adbfe.jpg&hash=ba2b38b6f87f30aecddd1db5624db0d31a8632ac)

Cute picture!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: kira21 ♡♡♡ on June 29, 2013, 01:15:33 PM

Quote from: Sara "River" Rhine on June 29, 2013, 12:45:02 PM
I just added yells of "Tot ziens!", "Toujours", "hah-hah-hoo-hoo" and something in german i can't remember to my new recording (processed to sound chipmunky). It sucks, might as well make it worse.

Why Dutch/Flemish? Spreek je nederlands?

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: kira21 ♡♡♡ on June 29, 2013, 01:23:36 PM

Quote from: Anna! on June 29, 2013, 12:58:26 PM
Here's a picture taken from my friend's balcony less than 5 minutes ago! So much fog...

(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi1285.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fa599%2Farschuma%2FDSC_0144_zpsce2adbfe.jpg&hash=ba2b38b6f87f30aecddd1db5624db0d31a8632ac)

say... is that ... Zoe??

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: kira21 ♡♡♡ on June 29, 2013, 01:33:01 PM

Quote from: Calm/RageMusic on June 29, 2013, 01:20:23 PM
Mijn vader komt uit Limburg

Leuk, maar je woont in deutschland nu? Ik heb voor een paar jaren in Nederland gewooont :-)

(translation: Nice, but you live in Germany now. I lived for a couple of years in the Netherlands)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: CalmRage on June 29, 2013, 01:37:45 PM

Quote from: Steph21 ♡♡♡ on June 29, 2013, 01:33:01 PM
Leuk, maar je woont in deutschland nu? Ik heb voor een paar jaren in Nederland gewooont :-)

(translation: Nice, but you live in Germany now. I lived for a couple of years in the Netherlands)

Ik heb gewoont in Nederland van 2006-2011 bij mijn vaader. I know this is kind of clogging up the thread.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Mollie on June 29, 2013, 01:51:19 PM

I'm thinking, Just supposing the universe was going to end in 200 million years and you could travel at the speed of light. (If you travel at the speed of light time stops for you relative to the rest of the universe). Anyway just supposing you decide to travel at the speed of light for 201 million years. As soon as you start ,time stops but before you get to where you're going the universe has ended so you no longer exist the very moment you start your journey. But just supposing you decide to travel at the speed of light for 190 million years. Time stops immediately when you start your journey but when you're finished there is still 10 million years to go before the end of the universe. The thing is, in both journeys time stops the moment you start the journey so does the outcome depend on what you intended doing or what you actually did?

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: CalmRage on June 29, 2013, 01:51:39 PM

Let the music be your master, will you heed the master's call?

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: CalmRage on June 29, 2013, 02:04:12 PM

Anyone know how to make a bottleneck slide for a guitar?

Edit:

Nevermind, a sheet of paper wrapped around my index finger works well enough.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: CalmRage on June 29, 2013, 02:11:25 PM

Quote from: Miss Bungle on June 29, 2013, 02:10:21 PM
I be diggin some noise music, mon!

I tried recording something with a plastic bottle, my voice and my "organ" guitar.

Sounds awful and i made sure my voice is hidden behind a wall of filters and other effects.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Adam (birkin) on June 29, 2013, 02:50:28 PM

Quote from: Anna! on June 29, 2013, 12:58:26 PM
Here's a picture taken from my friend's balcony less than 5 minutes ago! So much fog...

(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi1285.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fa599%2Farschuma%2FDSC_0144_zpsce2adbfe.jpg&hash=ba2b38b6f87f30aecddd1db5624db0d31a8632ac)

Wow, very pretty! ;D

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on June 29, 2013, 03:07:41 PM

really need to get my clothes to get- my sister says i have some decent clothes I could sell

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on June 29, 2013, 03:11:47 PM

Quote from: Anna! on June 29, 2013, 12:58:26 PM
Here's a picture taken from my friend's balcony less than 5 minutes ago! So much fog...

(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi1285.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fa599%2Farschuma%2FDSC_0144_zpsce2adbfe.jpg&hash=ba2b38b6f87f30aecddd1db5624db0d31a8632ac)

Hey who is that sweet looking chickster? :eusa_clap:

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Liminal Stranger on June 29, 2013, 03:44:53 PM

Quote from: Calm/RageMusic on June 29, 2013, 03:41:27 PM
I'm living the wrong life.

I know that feeling...if you need someone to talk to I'm all ears.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on June 29, 2013, 03:56:12 PM

Money

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Liminal Stranger on June 29, 2013, 04:01:51 PM

Haha, nice reference ^^

Mom, what are you on? Since when is it a requirement for people to know what their anatomy is like to be friends? .-.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on June 29, 2013, 04:04:53 PM

Quote from: Calm/RageMusic on June 29, 2013, 03:57:12 PM
ít's a hit.

Hate it when my wallet takes a hit lol

I'm now thinking about my junky room.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Anna++ on June 29, 2013, 04:35:35 PM

Bananagrams is a fun game :)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on June 29, 2013, 05:19:43 PM

I really wish I could get the ball rolling on my transition. It sucks to see other people talk about how theirs when it will be years before I can start mine.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Adam (birkin) on June 29, 2013, 05:51:16 PM

Quote from: Calm/RageMusic on June 29, 2013, 04:21:17 PM
You should've seen my old room back when i lived in the Netherlands. Old Dr.Pepper and Coke bottles everywhere. Here and there an empty bag of crisps and dust everywhere.

Sounds like how my room gets lol. I've started keeping my garbage can by my bed when I snack at night, that's gotten rid of most of the problem.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on June 29, 2013, 06:01:49 PM

Quote from: Prof HB on June 29, 2013, 05:51:16 PM
Sounds like how my room gets lol. I've started keeping my garbage can by my bed when I snack at night, that's gotten rid of most of the problem.

Hah this reminds me of an old TV sitcom "Men Behaving Badly." these two dudes are sitting on the couch watching sports with a garbage can full of ice and cans of beer, a bag of cheetos bigger than a bed pillow between them and they're pitching the empties over the back of the couch.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: kira21 ♡♡♡ on June 29, 2013, 06:59:05 PM

Quote from: Calm/RageMusic on June 29, 2013, 02:04:12 PM
Anyone know how to make a bottleneck slide for a guitar?

Edit:

Nevermind, a sheet of paper wrapped around my index finger works well enough.

Bottle neck slides are difficult to make. I tried a bunch of different methods I was told would work, including heating a ring of metal around the neck with a blowtorch and using sudden change of temperature to shear the glass but the best was to score a line in the glass around the bottle, deepen the score with a file then use a hamer and screw driver to chisel at the score to weaken the glass around the joint then smash the excess glass off with the hammer. Finally file off the sharp edges. It was a pig to do and half of the cracks rendered the slides unusable, but I got some good slides. Really, if you have no money to buy one though, its easier to hacksaw a small length of pipe and use that or get a test tube and use that.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Antonia J on June 29, 2013, 07:32:05 PM

I am grateful for my close friends.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Jamie D on June 29, 2013, 07:51:50 PM

Quote from: Calm/RageMusic on June 29, 2013, 04:27:32 PM
Oh great, PM limit exceeded.

Oh sorry. I forgot to tell you about that. :icon_redface:

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Jamie D on June 29, 2013, 07:53:36 PM

Quote from: Malachite on June 29, 2013, 05:19:43 PM
I really wish I could get the ball rolling on my transition. It sucks to see other people talk about how theirs when it will be years before I can start mine.

It does not have to be. That would be one of the benefits of independence. When you are on your own, nobody is your boss.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on June 29, 2013, 08:05:08 PM

Quote from: Jamie D on June 29, 2013, 07:53:36 PM
It does not have to be. That would be one of the benefits of independence. When you are on your own, nobody is your boss.

I understand but with my situation, I'm not in a position to do anything at the moment about it. I'll gain the independence in time though.

I'm thinking about doing my homework but I'll do that tommorrow.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Anna++ on June 30, 2013, 07:43:18 AM

Quote from: Anna! on June 29, 2013, 12:58:26 PM
Here's a picture taken from my friend's balcony less than 5 minutes ago! So much fog...

(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi1285.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fa599%2Farschuma%2FDSC_0144_zpsce2adbfe.jpg&hash=ba2b38b6f87f30aecddd1db5624db0d31a8632ac)

Here's a picture of me to go with my earlier picture of Zoe:

(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi1285.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fa599%2Farschuma%2FDSC_0164_zps71adeab3.jpg&hash=b8369f2c1a2a2339567af2cf8237e86f51242753)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on June 30, 2013, 08:34:04 AM

Quote from: Anna! on June 30, 2013, 07:43:18 AM
Here's a picture of me to go with my earlier picture of Zoe:

What a couple of happy, cute looking chicksters!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Anna++ on June 30, 2013, 08:38:47 AM

Quote from: Shantel on June 30, 2013, 08:34:04 AM
What a couple of happy, cute looking chicksters!

:D We'll have to get a picture together before we both head home.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: ZoeM on June 30, 2013, 08:39:04 AM

Quote from: Shantel on June 30, 2013, 08:34:04 AM
What a couple of happy, cute looking chicksters!

Anna's looking great so far - she's gon' turn out really cute. :D

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Anna++ on June 30, 2013, 08:43:27 AM

Quote from: ZoeM on June 30, 2013, 08:39:04 AM
Anna's looking great so far - she's gon' turn out really cute. :D

And Zoe is already really cute! Nobody we've passed or talked to has mistaken her for a guy.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on June 30, 2013, 09:01:03 AM

Quote from: ZoeM on June 30, 2013, 08:39:04 AM
Anna's looking great so far - she's gon' turn out really cute. :D

You're not doing too bad yourself Zoe! :)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Edge on June 30, 2013, 10:06:20 AM

Quote from: ZoeM on June 30, 2013, 08:39:04 AM
Anna's looking great so far - she's gon' turn out really cute. :D

Going to? Already is. You both are.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Liminal Stranger on June 30, 2013, 11:41:21 AM

Quote from: Calm/RageMusic on June 30, 2013, 08:44:21 AM
And you run and you run to catch up with the sun but it's sinking
Racing around to come up behind you again
The sun is the same in a relative way but you're older
Shorter of breath and one day closer to death

Did I mention that you're awesome?

Got to meet one of the hosts from my favorite radio station, I've been brought up listening to it. Everyone gendered me as male too, so double plus ;D

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on June 30, 2013, 02:05:53 PM

I have the utmost respect for guys who bust their behinds trying to save for top surgery. Those guys who work very hard at their job and save. Those guys who cut back on the things they don't need and in some cases, the things they do need. Those guys that say "hey, I can't be spending money friviously on this and that. I got to save for top surgery." Those guys who get super excited when they get have a penny to add to their top surgery fund. Those guys who are creative and does whatever it takes to raise the money like using their talents or sellings things etc. Those guys who are hurting on the inside because they couldn't go on a vacation or go have fun for a certain amount of time all for top surgery. I just have such a deep respect for those type of guys and they give me the hope one day that if I work hard enough, I too will be able to have a flat chest someday and that all the saving and working would have been worth it.

Speaking of which I need to start a new thread in my blog about a decision I need to make.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: DriftingCrow on June 30, 2013, 03:36:03 PM

Quote from: Liam Erik on June 30, 2013, 12:00:07 PM
Don't stab yourself with knitting needles in a fresh surgery site. I don't think I ever did that before, but now that the potential for pain is there I've done it three times.

Like purlsb4wine did? : (https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi1337.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fo665%2FLearnedHand1%2Fpurlsb4wine_zps18831a59.jpg&hash=2f9058a7697ca2139ec6459b4bb0ed206a5cf678) (http://s1337.photobucket.com/user/LearnedHand1/media/purlsb4wine_zps18831a59.jpg.html)

Quote from: Malachite on June 30, 2013, 02:05:53 PM
I have the utmost respect for guys who bust their behinds trying to save for top surgery.

Good Malachite, respect yourself because you're that kind of guy. You'll have a flat chest one day. :)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Renee on June 30, 2013, 05:49:39 PM

I'm feeling way more tired than I ought to be. And I really don't feel like fooling with family this coming week. And some stupid crap is bothering me more than it should. Oh and did I say I'm really tired? And not just physically either.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on June 30, 2013, 06:00:35 PM

Quote from: Renee on June 30, 2013, 05:49:39 PM
I'm feeling way more tired than I ought to be. And I really don't feel like fooling with family this coming week. And some stupid crap is bothering me more than it should. Oh and did I say I'm really tired? And not just physically either.

I know how it is Renee, sometimes it's just an ordeal we have to work through. My best to you girlfriend!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on June 30, 2013, 07:13:45 PM

Quote from: LearnedHand on June 30, 2013, 03:36:03 PM

Good Malachite, respect yourself because you're that kind of guy. You'll have a flat chest one day. :)

Thanks, I really hope I can make it there in due time. :)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: ZoeM on June 30, 2013, 09:45:23 PM

I'm back from my Chicago trip!

I'll try to post more tomorrow, but for now -
It was really fun. Anna's a fantastic gal (and looking good!), her friends are wonderful; their friends are wonderful; the city was great; and the drive is rather long. :D

Also, full-time trial run was an absolute success, and an absolute blast. :)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Anna++ on June 30, 2013, 09:57:10 PM

Quote from: ZoeM on June 30, 2013, 09:45:23 PM
I'm back from my Chicago trip!

Hooray!

Quote
I'll try to post more tomorrow, but for now -
It was really fun. Anna's a fantastic gal (and looking good!), her friends are wonderful; their friends are wonderful; the city was great; and the drive is rather long. :D

Also, full-time trial run was an absolute success, and an absolute blast. :)

I'm trying to upload that one photo of both of us together, but you know how leeching off the neighbors internet is...

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: DriftingCrow on June 30, 2013, 10:07:37 PM

I must say, I was so shocked by a death in the middle of Downton Abbey season three that I couldn't help but google it, and surprise, I ruined the finale by discovering that there's more unexpected deaths along the way. Ugh. . . I should've known that this show wasn't going to be all fairies and butterflies in the end.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Anna++ on June 30, 2013, 10:27:21 PM

Okay, here's a picture that has both me and Zoe! Sorry about my boy-mode...

(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi1285.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fa599%2Farschuma%2FDSC_0223_zps259da761.jpg&hash=b1223ba2bf7bcfdf75445063fa333347d977abb7)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: V M on July 01, 2013, 01:37:50 AM

Quote from: Anna! on June 30, 2013, 10:27:21 PM
Okay, here's a picture that has both me and Zoe! Sorry about my boy-mode...

(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi1285.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fa599%2Farschuma%2FDSC_0223_zps259da761.jpg&hash=b1223ba2bf7bcfdf75445063fa333347d977abb7)

LOL... It's a cute pic. and kind of interesting how the plant behind Zoe seems to frame her

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on July 01, 2013, 01:40:41 AM

I got class at 8:30 am and haven't done my assignments yet.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Adam (birkin) on July 01, 2013, 01:41:16 AM

Quote from: Anna! on June 30, 2013, 10:27:21 PM
Okay, here's a picture that has both me and Zoe! Sorry about my boy-mode...

(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi1285.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fa599%2Farschuma%2FDSC_0223_zps259da761.jpg&hash=b1223ba2bf7bcfdf75445063fa333347d977abb7)

If that's your boy mode Anna, I don't think you have anything to worry about. You look really cute!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on July 01, 2013, 01:47:19 AM

Quote from: Prof HB on July 01, 2013, 01:41:16 AM
If that's your boy mode Anna, I don't think you have anything to worry about. You look really cute!

Exactly what I was thinking. I was thinking to myself "what boy mode?" lol

I adore the picture.

I am curious as to what the rest of the "open summer" shirt says.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on July 01, 2013, 07:47:10 AM

Quote from: Calm/RageMusic on July 01, 2013, 05:14:45 AM
Going to a mental hospital. See ya soon!

Edit: I'll be off in half an hour.

Good luck, hope it helps!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on July 01, 2013, 07:50:37 AM

Quote from: Anna! on June 30, 2013, 10:27:21 PM
Okay, here's a picture that has both me and Zoe! Sorry about my boy-mode...

(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi1285.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fa599%2Farschuma%2FDSC_0223_zps259da761.jpg&hash=b1223ba2bf7bcfdf75445063fa333347d977abb7)

I still see a couple of girls there and Anna that hair! :icon_mrgreen: (envy)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Anna++ on July 01, 2013, 09:51:09 AM

I admit that the picture doesn't include my knee length shorts and hairy legs... Feel free to keep seeing me as a girl :)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Edge on July 01, 2013, 10:36:38 AM

I really should get out and do something to celebrate Canada Day, but I really don't want to. I feel tired, pissed off, and just want to stay home.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Anna++ on July 01, 2013, 11:20:00 AM

Next stop: Ann Arbor (and home). Choo! Choo!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on July 01, 2013, 11:23:54 AM

Honey Nut Cheerios

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: ZoeM on July 01, 2013, 11:37:59 AM

Quote from: Anna! on July 01, 2013, 09:51:09 AM
I admit that the picture doesn't include my knee length shorts and hairy legs... Feel free to keep seeing me as a girl :)

Her face is about twice as cute in person as in photos. Also the green-and-blue striped shirt is adorable. :)

I think her camera hates us both with an undying passion (will I never be rid of monkey ears and harsh smile lines?)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on July 01, 2013, 11:50:48 AM

Quote from: ZoeM on July 01, 2013, 11:37:59 AM

(will I never be rid of monkey ears and harsh smile lines?)

If I could trade ears with you I would.

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Post by: Shodan on July 01, 2013, 11:53:17 AM

Quote from: ZoeM on July 01, 2013, 11:37:59 AM
Her face is about twice as cute in person as in photos. Also the green-and-blue striped shirt is adorable. :)

I think her camera hates us both with an undying passion (will I never be rid of monkey ears and harsh smile lines?)

Better than my neanderthal brow, thinning hair, and gorrila-like body (in both shape and furryness.)

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Post by: Stefani2 on July 01, 2013, 12:35:06 PM

I am feeling very at peace and content right now. Yes I have to live primarily in "boy/androgyne mode" for a little while but that's all it will be for, a little while. Setting a date to go full time (firmly settled on Sept. 20th) really put things in perspective for me. I feel like....it's like being in a boring waiting room right now, just passing the time and just waiting for them to call my name. And even though the next couple months will be long and tiresome I can get through it, cuz I am strong and determined and sooo excited to start the rest of my life, and finally live it as the person I truly am <3

Just thought I'd share that.....

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Anna++ on July 01, 2013, 12:48:35 PM

Quote from: ZoeM on July 01, 2013, 11:37:59 AM
Her face is about twice as cute in person as in photos. Also the green-and-blue striped shirt is adorable. :)

If you insist... you're the one that was getting female pronouns everywhere :). I seem to remember you misgendering me once :P

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: ZoeM on July 01, 2013, 01:11:54 PM

Quote from: Anna! on July 01, 2013, 12:48:35 PM
If you insist... you're the one that was getting female pronouns everywhere :). I seem to remember you misgendering me once :P

I am so very very sorry about that... My mind was on autopilot at the time.
But I'm serious. You have a very cute face.

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Post by: Anna++ on July 01, 2013, 01:18:06 PM

Quote from: Calm/RageMusic on July 01, 2013, 11:21:18 AM
And Anna, i hope you're taking "The One After 909"!

It was actually Wolverine 350 out of Chicago :)

Quote from: Calm/RageMusic on July 01, 2013, 01:13:16 PM
I just realized i don't belong here because of an irrational fear of feminine stuff that comes and goes all the time.

Isn't that exactly why you belong here?

Quote from: ZoeM on July 01, 2013, 01:11:54 PM
I am so very very sorry about that... My mind was on autopilot at the time.
But I'm serious. You have a very cute face.

You're lucky I've got a good sense of humor about my transition :). I'm more offended that you didn't take the chance to say "I'm sorry. I'm so sorry..." :P

You are cute, too! I'll figure out how to work my camera so it takes realistic pictures by the next time I see you!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Edge on July 01, 2013, 02:29:27 PM

My apartment has not been completely clean since I moved here. I feel like it will never be clean and, even if I could manage it, it wouldn't last five minutes. Thsi makes me very frustrated.
I feel more angry than usual today.

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Post by: Jam on July 01, 2013, 03:34:59 PM

Loads of things. I have such a busy few months and im really not used to dealing with having to prepare for so much.

I need to decide for certain what I want from my phalloplasty or more precisly what im willing to compromise on.
I need to save up loads for a wedding thats taking place abroad in a country that costs a fortune to get to.
I need to save for the costs of getting to London twice and having someone stay over in a hotel for a week for my phalloplasty.
I need to figure out if I want to go to University after the end of the next college year so I have enough time to decide on a course and apply/look at living situations and expenses etc.
I need to at some point when Im not having to save up for so many other things, send off my Gender Recogntion Certificate and get my high school certificates changed before I go to Uni interviews or new job interviews.

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Post by: Anna++ on July 01, 2013, 04:45:35 PM

My girl-voice feels different when I talk to others compared to when I talk to myself. I think my problem is volume related. Talking to myself is usually quieter, since nobody needs to hear me.

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Post by: zombieinc on July 01, 2013, 05:06:43 PM

Two things:

-How much I dislike the song "Picture" by Kid Rock and Sheryl Crow
-How great I feel since working out full stop today :) but my arms ache. :-\

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Adam (birkin) on July 01, 2013, 05:09:30 PM

Quote from: zombieinc on July 01, 2013, 05:06:43 PM
-How much I dislike the song "Picture" by Kid Rock and Sheryl Crow

I dislike this song too. I don't really know why.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on July 01, 2013, 05:25:17 PM

The next time I see my therapist....whenever that will be

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Post by: King Malachite on July 01, 2013, 06:36:16 PM

Quote from: Miss Bungle on July 01, 2013, 05:34:31 PM
This is one of the best responses in the "caption the avatar" thread ever. :D ;D

I thought you'd like it. It seemed so fitting. ;)

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Post by: Shantel on July 01, 2013, 06:56:05 PM

Quote from: Prof HB on July 01, 2013, 05:09:30 PM
I dislike this song too. I don't really know why.

What Ms Crow does can't be construed as singing, I don't know anything about Kid Rock.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: zombieinc on July 01, 2013, 07:16:04 PM

It's best that you don't about Kid Rock. Really. I wish I didn't know about him, but sadly I do.

As far as Sheryl Crow goes...bleh...she ruined The Voice forever with her presence. She fancies herself some kind of country singer now and I'm like "uhm...no. I will have none of this, you faded looking has been!"

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Tossu-sama on July 01, 2013, 08:57:02 PM

Just got back from Mom and stepdad's couple days ago and I might be going back this evening because they're gonna go visit my stepdad's grandmother, so more animal babysitting for me. Well, not complaining. The cat is a piece of cake (my first cat who just moved with Mom) and the dog is an absolute joy to be around with and pretty obedient, too. :D

Plus my "imma draw all six of my Skyrim characters" project is going along nicely. Four out of six are finished and the fifth one lacks only lights and shadows.
And the last one will be a cakewalk because it's a fricking human and not some anthropomoprhic cat or worse - a lizard. XD

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Adam (birkin) on July 01, 2013, 09:04:00 PM

I worry that this house will end up trashed like our old one. :(

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: DriftingCrow on July 01, 2013, 09:32:28 PM

I am thinking of seeing that new zombie movie on Saturday. I love zombie movies, I hope it doesn't suck. I hate wasting money on crappy movies.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Anna++ on July 01, 2013, 10:14:30 PM

Quote from: Malachite on July 01, 2013, 01:47:19 AM
I am curious as to what the rest of the "open summer" shirt says.

I just realized I never answered. Here is the entire shirt:

(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi1285.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fa599%2Farschuma%2FDSC_0227_zps3bbe75b5.jpg&hash=e0e5d1140b892c67e48d44242f1431b47b3c51bb)

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Post by: ZoeM on July 01, 2013, 10:19:34 PM

Quote from: Anna! on July 01, 2013, 10:14:30 PM
I just realized I never answered. Here is the entire shirt:

(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi1285.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fa599%2Farschuma%2FDSC_0227_zps3bbe75b5.jpg&hash=e0e5d1140b892c67e48d44242f1431b47b3c51bb)

It's not a pink penguin... (Hey, if you need a spy name you could do worse) but it's close. :D

And definitely betrays your inner geek.

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Post by: Jamie D on July 01, 2013, 10:21:07 PM

I'm thinking I like Anna's hot new avatar! :D

Quote from: LearnedHand on July 01, 2013, 09:32:28 PM
I am thinking of seeing that new zombie movie on Saturday. I love zombie movies, I hope it doesn't suck. I hate wasting money on crappy movies.

World War Z? ++++

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on July 01, 2013, 10:23:28 PM

Quote from: Anna! on July 01, 2013, 10:14:30 PM
I just realized I never answered. Here is the entire shirt:

(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi1285.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fa599%2Farschuma%2FDSC_0227_zps3bbe75b5.jpg&hash=e0e5d1140b892c67e48d44242f1431b47b3c51bb)

Awww it's such an adorable shirt!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Anna++ on July 01, 2013, 10:26:20 PM

Quote from: ZoeM on July 01, 2013, 10:19:34 PM
It's not a pink penguin... (Hey, if you need a spy name you could do worse) but it's close. :D

For all we know they could be silhouettes of pink penguins with surf boards!

Quote
And definitely betrays your inner geek.

I prefer the term "advertises" over "betrays". Saying betray makes it sound as if I don't want people to know :P

Quote from: Jamie D on July 01, 2013, 10:21:07 PM
I'm thinking I like Anna's hot new avatar! :D

Why thank you :). I really like the shirt, and I may show off at least the picture to the friends that helped me pick it out.

Quote from: Malachite on July 01, 2013, 10:23:28 PM
Awww it's such an adorable shirt!

:D I wonder what this years LinuxCon shirt will look like...

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Adam (birkin) on July 01, 2013, 10:39:31 PM

The new Dexter episode was awesome. Season 6 was really crappy which made me think it was going to be terrible...nothing beats up til Season 4, but it was still good.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Simon on July 02, 2013, 05:11:25 AM

Going to attempt a Vegetarian diet...possibly going to Vegan. Need a cleaner way of living. Cruelty free too...win/win.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Edge on July 02, 2013, 09:40:06 AM

It's about 11:30 in the morning. Yesterday, I vacuumed in the afternoon. My son is still hiding in his room. I may have underestimated how frightened he is of the vacuum cleaner.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Edge on July 02, 2013, 02:14:43 PM

I am concerned that my son has phonophobia. Specifically, the sound of vacuum cleaners and blenders. I don't know what to do.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Renee on July 02, 2013, 02:33:07 PM

I'm thinking that I'm going to be better off if I just try to find other stuff to do while family is around this fourth. Especially after talking on the phone last night to the brother I really only see once a year anymore. Because if you can't feel good about yourself around family, what's the point in being around them at all.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on July 02, 2013, 02:46:27 PM

It's nice to see a guy on Youtube with my similar body type and skin color show reveal their top surgery results. The went to another surgeon than my preferred one so the results will be different in that sense, but it's still nice to compare.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on July 02, 2013, 05:58:11 PM

fanfiction

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: ZoeM on July 02, 2013, 06:57:33 PM

The thickness of my part now looks like the thickness of my part when I started.

I just need to convince myself I'm not losing hair... D:

New shampoo might help. I haven't seen nearly as many hairs today as normal. :)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Edge on July 02, 2013, 07:22:20 PM

It probably doesn't help that long hair has a tendency to shed.

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Post by: Anna++ on July 02, 2013, 07:32:23 PM

What toys do I want to play with tonight? *packs a bunch of juggling toys into a backpack*

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Adam (birkin) on July 02, 2013, 07:37:25 PM

My mom has mentioned elder abuse a few times lately. I can't help but wonder why it's on her mind whenever old people are mentioned.

If anyone ever hurt my mother, regardless of her age, I would destroy them.

I am also a little amused because I thought of something sort of funny. When I first met Keaira, I only had my Macbook. And she always made fun of it. Saying she hated Macs and blah blah. I'm not exactly pro-Macbook, but I didn't care enough about the differences to really think much of it. Since then, I've built my own PC, and sold the Macbook in exchange for a Samsung tablet. And once the Mac was on its way out, she goes "oooh I kinda like the Mac..." :P TBH I actually do prefer being back on my PC again, and my tablet is awesome, I don't miss the Mac one bit.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on July 02, 2013, 08:17:01 PM

My sister told me that if I ever need to talk to her about my problems, that she would be there for me. Problem is she's unsupportive of me being transgender and denies it. Even with that knowledge, I still wonder if I should talk to her about it since it sucks not really having anyone to physically voice my concerns to other than a friend and she's always busy.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Edge on July 02, 2013, 09:12:00 PM

It bothers me when people stereotype men. Especially when it's to ridiculous lengths. It bothers me when someone says that "men" implying all or outright say "all men" are a certain way that I am not. It also bugs me when someone complains about "masculine" traits that I do have as if it is shameful for people to be that way.
(It also bothers me when people stereotype women. People shouldn't be made to feel ashamed of who they are no matter what their gender.)
Oh well. Someday soon I hope, such people will not be able to touch me.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on July 02, 2013, 09:24:52 PM

Quote from: Miss Bungle on July 02, 2013, 09:14:36 PM
What sort of fanfiction?

None in particular, just thinking about how creative people from around the world go to fanfiction.net and just let loose :)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Jamie D on July 02, 2013, 09:54:22 PM

Quote from: Anna! on June 30, 2013, 10:27:21 PM
Okay, here's a picture that has both me and Zoe! Sorry about my boy-mode...

(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi1285.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fa599%2Farschuma%2FDSC_0223_zps259da761.jpg&hash=b1223ba2bf7bcfdf75445063fa333347d977abb7)

Oh my gosh! I am on "cutitude" overload.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on July 02, 2013, 09:55:06 PM

Quote from: Miss Bungle on July 02, 2013, 09:39:31 PM
Oh. I thought that maybe you were writing one.

I do write occasionally on there, but haven't in months. I really need to get started again on a couple of the Sailor Moon fics I have.

I'm thinking about the inside of cheese danishes. Yum,

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Anna++ on July 02, 2013, 10:00:50 PM

Quote from: Jamie D on July 02, 2013, 09:54:22 PM
Oh my gosh! I am on "cutitude" overload.

I know, right? Zoe has turned out really pretty

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Edge on July 02, 2013, 10:18:05 PM

Quote from: Anna! on July 02, 2013, 10:00:50 PM
I know, right? Zoe has turned out really pretty

I like the red flower halo. Was that on purpose? You're both pretty, btw.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Adam (birkin) on July 02, 2013, 10:21:18 PM

Quote from: Edge on July 02, 2013, 09:12:00 PM
It bothers me when people stereotype men. Especially when it's to ridiculous lengths. It bothers me when someone says that "men" implying all or outright say "all men" are a certain way that I am not. It also bugs me when someone complains about "masculine" traits that I do have as if it is shameful for people to be that way.
(It also bothers me when people stereotype women. People shouldn't be made to feel ashamed of who they are no matter what their gender.)
Oh well. Someday soon I hope, such people will not be able to touch me.

I feel you. I've been seeing way too many people stereotyping based on gender. It's really disheartening. You would think, with how far our society has supposedly ( ::) ) come, these things just wouldn't happen anymore and people would stop thinking in such essentialist ways. I mean honestly, you look around without trying to spot stereotypes and you see there are more differences between different types of men, and different types of women, than there are between men and women as two groups.

Gah. Lol.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Anna++ on July 02, 2013, 10:25:04 PM

Quote from: Edge on July 02, 2013, 10:18:05 PM
I like the red flower halo. Was that on purpose?

Getting our picture by the flower was deliberate, but we din't plan on i framing her as well as it does.

Quote from: Edge on July 02, 2013, 10:18:05 PM
You're both pretty, btw.

FINE I'll take the compliment. Thank you :)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Adam (birkin) on July 02, 2013, 10:26:02 PM

Just curious Anna (maybe you've answered this elsewhere but I'm oblivious today), how tall are you? You look so small lol.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Anna++ on July 02, 2013, 10:28:03 PM

Quote from: Prof HB on July 02, 2013, 10:26:02 PM
Just curious Anna (maybe you've answered this elsewhere but I'm oblivious today), how tall are you? You look so small lol.

I'm 5 foot 5 inches tall. It's been pointed out to me a few times that I'm going from short guy to average girl :D

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Keaira on July 03, 2013, 01:02:51 AM

Same height as me Anna :)

I like how Caleb looks on his PC camera. I see more than just a forehead hair or eyeball. I think he's hot. ^_^

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Edge on July 03, 2013, 01:09:11 AM

It's past 3 am and I am tempted to rewatch The Addams Family...

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Post by: Adam (birkin) on July 03, 2013, 01:33:05 AM

Quote from: Keaira on July 03, 2013, 01:02:51 AM
Same height as me Anna :)

I like how Caleb looks on his PC camera. I see more than just a forehead hair or eyeball. I think he's hot. ^_^

It makes me look so shiny though.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on July 03, 2013, 06:59:25 AM

I am torn between trading in my PSP with the games and accessories to Gamestop while I have a coupon for 50 percent bonus per item traded, or to just keep trying my luck to sell it on Craigslist. I don't have an intention of buying anymore games for it and I want to get rid of it, but the cash for me is much better than the store credit. I do need some more games badly though, however.

Something is telling me not to trade it in though. I recently have went to splitting things up so it could sell quicker after I got $20 for one game. I have to see how that will play out though.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: ZoeM on July 03, 2013, 07:10:21 AM

You know you pass when the TSA incredulously asks if you changed...? And still subjects you to extra screening and/or management.

In other news, I'm headed home to meet the folks face to face. Something tells me their hope of not raising questions will be in vain.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: DriftingCrow on July 03, 2013, 07:13:13 AM

It's so hard going off to work in the morning when I know tomorrow is a holiday.

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Post by: DriftingCrow on July 03, 2013, 07:15:14 AM

Quote from: Malachite on July 03, 2013, 06:59:25 AM
I am torn between trading in my PSP with the games and accessories to Gamestop while I have a coupon for 50 percent bonus per item traded, or to just keep trying my luck to sell it on Craigslist. I don't have an intention of buying anymore games for it and I want to get rid of it, but the cash for me is much better than the store credit. I do need some more games badly though, however.

Something is telling me not to trade it in though. I recently have went to splitting things up so it could sell quicker after I got $20 for one game. I have to see how that will play out though.

Hmm... would you save more money in the long-run with the store credit though? Because you'll probably eventually buy more games at the store.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Tossu-sama on July 03, 2013, 07:36:17 AM

Just started watching the anime Shingeki no Kyojin (Attack on Titan). Pretty damn awesome stuff. :D

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Anna++ on July 03, 2013, 07:40:09 AM

Quote from: ZoeM on July 03, 2013, 07:10:21 AM
You know you pass when the TSA incredulously asks if you changed...? And still subjects you to extra screening and/or management.

In other news, I'm headed home to meet the folks face to face. Something tells me their hope of not raising questions will be in vain.

Good luck! Keep us all updated *hug*

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on July 03, 2013, 07:43:10 AM

Quote from: LearnedHand on July 03, 2013, 07:15:14 AM
Hmm... would you save more money in the long-run with the store credit though? Because you'll probably eventually buy more games at the store.

That's the thing. I honestly don't know because I'm trying to cut back on video games. I usually would buy 1 or 2 games at full price a year plus multiple games on Black Friday. I'm trying to cut it down to where I only purchase games on Black Friday and I usually buy them at Walmart or Best Buy. I have about $170 in store credit and gift cards but I will probably wait to use it when a new game drops in price.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Edge on July 03, 2013, 08:51:23 AM

Quote from: Calm/RageMusic on July 03, 2013, 08:26:21 AM
Why did i write this? I am afraid of feminine things.

Why are you afraid of feminine things?

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Edge on July 03, 2013, 09:21:03 AM

Quote from: Calm/RageMusic on July 03, 2013, 08:52:38 AM
i don't know.

Maybe when you find out why you are afraid, it will help you understand why you wrote that you are Sara.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Imreallyconfused on July 03, 2013, 10:03:21 AM

I think that I may know what it may feel like to lose a lung or two.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on July 03, 2013, 10:43:34 AM

Instead of tourmenting ants, I decided to start feeding them. I made a hole in the ant pile and dropped a magget in there. Last night I made a hole in the same ant pile just to see them crawl up the stick. Later on I killed a big and dropped it in the hole as a token of my apology. I didn't see that bug in there today so they must have ate it.

I really should get a job....or a girlfriend LOL.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Edge on July 03, 2013, 10:53:03 AM

I am torn between watching The Addams Family and cleaning my apartment. While cleaning, I would be listening to German medieval and industrial metal, Creature Feature, and other music. I want to get my apartment clean before I start on my sewing projects. My sewing projects are basically to make clothes that I want to wear, but that currently don't exist.
I may have to accept that, despite my hatred for the subculture, I may actually be a goth. I still hate the subculture.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on July 03, 2013, 11:11:10 AM

Quote from: Calm/RageMusic on July 03, 2013, 11:09:22 AM
You can check out any time you want, but you can never leave.

Hotel California or the Roach Motel?

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on July 03, 2013, 11:11:20 AM

I need to find more things in my room to sell.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Tossu-sama on July 03, 2013, 11:56:51 AM

Thank you T for suppressing my emotions enough that I'm not crying my eyes out because this fricking anime is so much FEELS.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on July 03, 2013, 12:02:05 PM

The maggot I dropped in the ant pile.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on July 03, 2013, 12:49:59 PM

notebooks

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Anna++ on July 03, 2013, 01:50:00 PM

I had a meeting on google hangouts a half hour after my laser appointment today. Fortunately for me, the video quality was low enough that nobody was able to see just how red my face is.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Edge on July 03, 2013, 02:19:10 PM

Quote from: Tossu-sama on July 03, 2013, 11:56:51 AM
Thank you T for suppressing my emotions enough that I'm not crying my eyes out because this fricking anime is so much FEELS.

What anime?

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Adam (birkin) on July 03, 2013, 02:31:25 PM

My personality is the exact opposite of my mother's and I wish it were otherwise. We get along quite well now, but we've always clashed because she seems to have trouble accepting that there are other ways of living besides her own.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Tossu-sama on July 03, 2013, 03:07:18 PM

Quote from: Edge on July 03, 2013, 02:19:10 PM
What anime?

Shigenki no Kyojin AKA Attack on Titan/The Eoten Onslaught/whatever else translations the title has.

Just finished watching the subbed episodes and AAAAAAAAAAAAGH.
I NEED MORE BUT I DON'T KNOW WHEN THE NEXT EPISODE'S COMING UP.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Liminal Stranger on July 03, 2013, 03:18:44 PM

Quote from: Calm/RageMusic on July 03, 2013, 12:48:04 PM
And as we wind on down the road,
our shadows taller than our souls,
there walks a lady we all know,
who shines white light and wants to show,
that everything still turns to gold,
and if you listen very hard,
the tune will come to you at last,
when all is one and one is all,
to be a rock and not to roll.

Is that correct? I think i got some of the words wrong.

And she's buying a stairway
To heaven...

Had to go to the bank today with my mother to take out money from my account, she needed it for the auto mechanic. Even with my ID card showing a long-haired picture of me with a girly name and my mother using female pronouns, they still called me a boy.

She's trying to make me feel guilty and screaming all at once and I'm so sick of her nonsense, I'm not the one being a monster here.

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Post by: Liminal Stranger on July 03, 2013, 03:39:49 PM

Quote from: Calm/RageMusic on July 03, 2013, 03:20:57 PM
Everyone's ignoring me. I don't want to sound like an idiot, but i'm having a serious problem dealing with my trauma here.

So it seems. Is there anything we can do to help you with it, or is posting here enough? Either way, I send you long-distance hugs. Which is saying something because I hate hugs, but I digress...not really sure on what sort of advice to give you. I used to get fleeting moments of "This is wrong, what are you doing?!" all the time, but they've stopped as I've come to realize that this is right. Have you ever thought that you could potentially be Sara *and* birthname?

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Post by: Liminal Stranger on July 03, 2013, 03:57:54 PM

It sounds confusing. Part of the process is figuring out exactly who you are. Give it time and don't freak out expecting one or the other, it's best to just let things happen with your identity.

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Post by: kira21 ♡♡♡ on July 03, 2013, 04:09:01 PM

My sympathies Calm. That's quite a horrid mess to deal with.

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Post by: kira21 ♡♡♡ on July 03, 2013, 04:11:31 PM

I am thinking... I lack any natural charisma. I have whatever the opposite of charisma is. Don't get me wrong, I am not in a bad mood or anything, in fact I am feeling quite upbeat. It does seem to be quite clearly true. Maybe one day I will figure out where it comes from.

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Post by: King Malachite on July 03, 2013, 08:32:20 PM

having the info ready when I come out to my mom

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Post by: V M on July 04, 2013, 12:23:51 AM

When it's this hot out, melting cheese on something just seems rather redundant

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Post by: King Malachite on July 04, 2013, 06:15:43 AM

I'm glad that I found my athelete's Bible from summer camp. It's not a King James Version but it will do for now. I just wish I had taken better care of it.

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Post by: FrancisAnn on July 04, 2013, 09:01:40 AM

I feel good today. I just resumed my HRT yesterday & already feel better about myself. On & off for years, always a girl since childhood. I love being a woman & so enjoy every part of being normal/feminine. I'm passable but not "pretty" however I must accept that with time we all age some. I had a facelift scheduled a month ot so ago & think it's time to reschedule with the plastic surgeon for this procedure for my face. The physician is well experienced & knows I need as feminime a face as possible. I should just relax & let him make as many improvements as possible at one time. Then just relax & heal up this summer.

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Post by: Edge on July 04, 2013, 11:25:07 AM

Quote from: Calm/RageMusic on July 04, 2013, 09:41:24 AM
I feel like i'm about to have another breakdown because of my gender, even though i don't even like feminine things and don't feel THAT feminine (for the most part, when i do i am more relaxed than now). But it never leaves me. It never does. I can check out any time i want, but i can never leave.

Feminine does not equal female and vice versa. Gender identity is not the same as gender roles. There are plenty of females (both cis and trans) who tomboys, butch, etc.
Sometimes, I wonder if I am settling for science since sorcery is not an option. That and knowledge is power.

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Post by: Edge on July 04, 2013, 11:51:01 AM

Quote from: Calm/RageMusic on July 04, 2013, 11:30:01 AM
I'm also having phases where suddenly i no longer like female bodies. It's like my mind is locking me out and steering me away. Right now i don't know what i want or what to do. I don't want much, just peace of mind. If only i was good enough to play in a band. That would distract me.

Ah. Do you switch? Have you visited the Androgyne board yet? There are a few people around who have gone through/are going through a similar thing. For me, I found that writing down my thoughts and feeling about my gender each day helped me sort it out and see more clearly. (See the forest for the trees kind of thing.)

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Post by: Edge on July 04, 2013, 12:03:00 PM

Quote from: Calm/RageMusic on July 04, 2013, 12:01:06 PM
I've been there before, but something always steers me back. Lately, my mind has done a complete 180 degrees turn again. Problem is, it's not just the different gender thing, it's two quite different personalities.

Like DID? Sorry for asking so many questions. I have insatiable curiosity.

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Post by: King Malachite on July 04, 2013, 01:45:58 PM

Quote from: Miss Bungle on July 04, 2013, 12:16:00 PM
The Get Along Gang "Head In The Clouds" (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0c-3WwrbMCY#)

I figured out that when I tried to upload this episode the first time, I accidentally uploaded "Caboose On The Loose" and I didn't realize it until later.

Now it's been fixed, so it's all good.

Awesome signature! :D

I'm thinking that Judas Priest's song "Run to the hills" is bringing a new meaning for me and starting to become a very possible reallity for me as I may have to do that in the future concerning my transition and family rejection. I might just have to "run to the hills and run for my life".

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Post by: King Malachite on July 04, 2013, 01:52:27 PM

Quote from: Miss Bungle on July 04, 2013, 01:47:49 PM
Yeah, it works perfectly with the line underneath the pic as well. Thanks for the idea! ;D

I know right? No problem!

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Post by: Anna++ on July 04, 2013, 02:47:50 PM

I was reading outside on my deck for a while this afternoon. When I looked at my overgrown shrubs I immediately thought: "<male name> should do something about that". I don't think I've ever referred to my old self as a different person before.

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Post by: zombieinc on July 04, 2013, 02:50:14 PM

Judas Priest did a cover of "Run to the Hills"?

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Post by: King Malachite on July 04, 2013, 02:55:17 PM

Quote from: zombieinc on July 04, 2013, 02:50:14 PM
Judas Priest did a cover of "Run to the Hills"?

I have no clue.

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Post by: Edge on July 04, 2013, 02:55:49 PM

I wish I had someone to practice speaking german with.

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Post by: King Malachite on July 04, 2013, 02:56:26 PM

Quote from: Calm/RageMusic on July 04, 2013, 02:52:51 PM
i wish i had a girlfriend. Companionship is really important and might help me get out of my isolatíon, my wall.

I know the feeling.

I wish I wasn't so sleepy today. I guess the rain does that to me.

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Post by: King Malachite on July 04, 2013, 03:03:34 PM

Quote from: Calm/RageMusic on July 04, 2013, 02:58:57 PM
So far, i've spent most of my year locking myself in my room, playing video games, drinking soft drinks and feeling miserable. The others in my class probably don't feel this need as heavily, but i need someone to love, to hug, to cry myself out to, someone to make me truly live again. But i'm too shy and afraid of disappointment and hurt.

totally understand that feeling -hugs-

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Post by: Adam (birkin) on July 04, 2013, 03:06:16 PM

Yeah, Calm and Malachite, that sounds like my life since the teaching contract ran out. -_- Video games, junk food, somewhat lonely and getting a little stir crazy. I have my thesis to work on but it's kind of at a standstill as I am too emotionally involved in the issue I am writing about. That said...maybe I should just free write and hammer out those emotions and see if I can find some wisdom and middle ground in it.

That and I should apply for more jobs. I haven't really been trying as hard as I should because I'm a little worried about being outed at this one too. But that's not a good enough reason, not even close.

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Post by: SaveMeJeebus on July 04, 2013, 03:20:05 PM

QuoteSo far, i've spent most of my year locking myself in my room, playing video games, drinking soft drinks and feeling miserable. The others in my class probably don't feel this need as heavily, but i need someone to love, to hug, to cry myself out to, someone to make me truly live again. But i'm too shy and afraid of disappointment and hurt.

I was about to write something about how miserable i felt. I then noticed Malachite's quote to Calm/RageMusic. I can definitely relate too. It saddens me to hear you both have experiences.

Quote from: Calm/RageMusic on July 04, 2013, 03:07:13 PM
My mother usually just tells me to get out and meet people. It's not that easy, especially with Asperger's. She should know that (and me) better.

My family don't understand my anxiety and depression either, and it really frustrates me when my Nan says something like that.

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Post by: SaveMeJeebus on July 04, 2013, 03:31:18 PM

Quote from: Calm/RageMusic on July 04, 2013, 03:22:41 PM
And when i do try to muster up some self-esteem, i see myself like some caricature, like a monster in my mind. Problem is, many people don't care for the ugly, but the ugly have feelings too. I had my fair share of ridicule and awful looks. I think i need help. The thoughts are coming back. But how are "they" going to help me?

I totally know what you mean. People are so frustrating. Too many people have no sympathy, are shallow, and will go out of there way to be mean. I cannot say how "they" are going to help you. I have only just gotten somewhere with the NHS mental service. Its been really slow, and some people i have talked to there, don't understand, let alone know what to do. A part of me doesn't want to get better though. I would rather end it. There is a part that things the one thing that would help me, is if i had a friend, or better yet a partner.

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Post by: SaveMeJeebus on July 04, 2013, 03:45:28 PM

Quote from: Calm/RageMusic on July 04, 2013, 03:33:37 PM
Sometimes i just feel like ending it all, but no, not going to do that. I think i'm going to look at the picture i have of my niece now. That will cheer me up.

I apologize for making things depressing. That's a good idea, it's nice to know you get comfort in such a way.

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Post by: Adam (birkin) on July 04, 2013, 03:52:55 PM

My mom especially doesn't seem to understand that I'm pretty introverted. She's a total extrovert, she loves to get out and talk to people, she could do it all day and it energizes her. Me, I need a lot of time alone. So even when I am happy and things are going well, she doesn't think I'm doing well enough because I'm not "out and about." I just need to recharge a lot.

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Post by: King Malachite on July 04, 2013, 04:12:59 PM

Quote from: Prof HB on July 04, 2013, 03:06:16 PM
Yeah, Calm and Malachite, that sounds like my life since the teaching contract ran out. -_- Video games, junk food, somewhat lonely and getting a little stir crazy. I have my thesis to work on but it's kind of at a standstill as I am too emotionally involved in the issue I am writing about. That said...maybe I should just free write and hammer out those emotions and see if I can find some wisdom and middle ground in it.

That and I should apply for more jobs. I haven't really been trying as hard as I should because I'm a little worried about being outed at this one too. But that's not a good enough reason, not even close.

How long do you have to work on your thesis?

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Post by: Adam (birkin) on July 04, 2013, 07:16:13 PM

I can take as long as I need, technically my second year ends in August. I may go a month or two over that though...I imagine I will have it all wrapped up, defended and all, by the time 2013 ends.

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Post by: Shantel on July 04, 2013, 07:24:39 PM

Quote from: Prof HB on July 04, 2013, 07:16:13 PM
I can take as long as I need, technically my second year ends in August. I may go a month or two over that though...I imagine I will have it all wrapped up, defended and all, by the time 2013 ends.

I respect you for your hard charging, let's get-er-done approach and your cute relationship with your buddy girl. You'll be more outgoing when you get the latitude to put some of the other BS to rest that you have to deal with now.

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Post by: Jam on July 05, 2013, 10:39:32 AM

It is way too hot to be working, I should be at home relaxing in shorts with a coke and ice.

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Post by: Simon on July 05, 2013, 10:48:22 AM

Got to breathe a huge sigh of relief today...

My gf's biopsy results came back and it is benign.

Now just waiting for her to have surgery to remove her thyroid June 30th. We can deal with that, easy peasy.

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Post by: Devlyn on July 05, 2013, 10:54:45 AM

Quote from: Simon on July 05, 2013, 10:48:22 AM
Got to breathe a huge sigh of relief today...

My gf's biopsy results came back and it is benign.

Now just waiting for her to have surgery to remove her thyroid June 30th. We can deal with that, easy peasy.

Glad to hear that, Simon. Hugs, Devlyn

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Post by: Shantel on July 05, 2013, 10:58:00 AM

Good news Simon! :eusa_clap:

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Post by: Simon on July 05, 2013, 11:51:16 AM

Thanks ladies, appreciate it. :)

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Post by: Adam (birkin) on July 05, 2013, 01:05:54 PM

Quote from: Shantel on July 04, 2013, 07:24:39 PM
I respect you for your hard charging, let's get-er-done approach and your cute relationship with your buddy girl. You'll be more outgoing when you get the latitude to put some of the other BS to rest that you have to deal with now.

Thank you Shantel. :) It'll also give me the ability to move, or at the very least more job selection, as my schedule will be freed up and I won't have anything tying me to my city anymore.

Quote from: Simon on July 05, 2013, 10:48:22 AM
Got to breathe a huge sigh of relief today...

My gf's biopsy results came back and it is benign.

Now just waiting for her to have surgery to remove her thyroid June 30th. We can deal with that, easy peasy.

I'm really glad Simon! I'd have felt awful if you all had to deal with something more serious.

A few horrifying things hit me when I woke up. I'm going to my grandparents farm, but as they don't have running water...we shower in town. Well, said showers are sex segregated. Given I pass almost all the time, I am guessing the women's are just out of the question. Lol. And the men's....well, there are curtains, but should anything go wrong I do NOT want to be caught in there with boobs and a vag.

The other is that, my grandparent's friends found out I was transgender last year, but kept using my old name. I may have to have a discussion with them about that, because no one else uses the old name, and I don't want to be seen as a man in town and then have someone call me one of the most feminine names known to man.

I'd choose not to go but my mom said this may be the last year we have the farm. :( My grandparents think it's too much for them. My grandpa is grouchy af, and my grandma does all the cooking and cleaning, and all that without electricity is getting to be a real burden. My grandpa doesn't want to install electricity either because he doesn't do any of the work, so he doesn't see the importance.

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Post by: King Malachite on July 05, 2013, 01:20:14 PM

Quote from: Prof HB on July 05, 2013, 01:05:54 PM
Thank you Shantel. :) It'll also give me the ability to move, or at the very least more job selection, as my schedule will be freed up and I won't have anything tying me to my city anymore.

Totally agree with Shantel. Charge on!

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Post by: Jam on July 05, 2013, 01:34:06 PM

Quote from: Prof HB on July 05, 2013, 01:05:54 PM

A few horrifying things hit me when I woke up. I'm going to my grandparents farm, but as they don't have running water...we shower in town. Well, said showers are sex segregated. Given I pass almost all the time, I am guessing the women's are just out of the question. Lol. And the men's....well, there are curtains, but should anything go wrong I do NOT want to be caught in there with boobs and a vag.

The other is that, my grandparent's friends found out I was transgender last year, but kept using my old name. I may have to have a discussion with them about that, because no one else uses the old name, and I don't want to be seen as a man in town and then have someone call me one of the most feminine names known to man.

I'd choose not to go but my mom said this may be the last year we have the farm. :( My grandparents think it's too much for them. My grandpa is grouchy af, and my grandma does all the cooking and cleaning, and all that without electricity is getting to be a real burden. My grandpa doesn't want to install electricity either because he doesn't do any of the work, so he doesn't see the importance.

That sounds like the sort of thing is be worrying myself sick over for ages and then get there and it turn out completely fine as I'm sure it will with you.

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Post by: Adam (birkin) on July 05, 2013, 01:41:21 PM

Thanks, you're probably right. :) We're leaving in about an hour and I'm not packed, I should be more concerned about that lol.

My mom knows another town with a golf course that has showers that aren't segregated, and have locks on the doors. So there's one issue resolved.

As for the name issue...well we will see. That's a request I hate making and tbh, I forgot that there was anyone who still calls me that. So I kind of thought that horrible part was over. :P

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Post by: King Malachite on July 05, 2013, 02:32:00 PM

I'm looking into buying a mopad so I can have some type of transportation at all times. Otherwise looking for a job only limited to public transportation can be constrictive.

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Post by: DriftingCrow on July 05, 2013, 02:41:19 PM

Quote from: Simon on July 05, 2013, 10:48:22 AM
Got to breathe a huge sigh of relief today...

My gf's biopsy results came back and it is benign.

Now just waiting for her to have surgery to remove her thyroid June 30th. We can deal with that, easy peasy.

Glad everything is going to be alright ;D

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Post by: Elsa on July 05, 2013, 03:34:27 PM

Do you ever get the feeling you are being ignored by others... have been getting that feeling for a while now.

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Post by: Shantel on July 05, 2013, 03:39:34 PM

Quote from: vibes6 on July 05, 2013, 03:34:27 PM
Do you ever get the feeling you are being ignored by others... have been getting that feeling for a while now.

We all get that feeling at times, don't let it bother you. Many people read our posts and few comment, it is usually not meant as an intentional slight.

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Post by: DriftingCrow on July 05, 2013, 03:42:09 PM

Quote from: vibes6 on July 05, 2013, 03:34:27 PM
Do you ever get the feeling you are being ignored by others... have been getting that feeling for a while now.

Sorry if I missed an important post, but if you don't want to be ignored. . . here I come *tickle tickle* :D

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Post by: King Malachite on July 05, 2013, 03:44:33 PM

Quote from: vibes6 on July 05, 2013, 03:34:27 PM
Do you ever get the feeling you are being ignored by others... have been getting that feeling for a while now.

I agree with Shantel. Oftentimes some people just don't know what to say. I'm one of those people. I even have trouble replying to those who replied to me because I just don't know what to say.

I'm still thinking about getting a moped.

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Post by: King Malachite on July 05, 2013, 08:11:56 PM

My mother said she'd rather help get me a car than for me to pay for a moped myself. Hmmm

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Post by: Keaira on July 05, 2013, 10:31:58 PM

I hope Caleb has a happy and uneventful weekend. I guess I will be playing a lot of star trek online or Halo 4 since I wont have Caleb to chat with. :(

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Post by: Elsa on July 06, 2013, 08:10:12 AM

Thanks everyone, I've been feeling really down lately with this whole job search thing, it's made me really exhausted. Guess it's just one of those days...

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Post by: Edge on July 06, 2013, 08:50:52 AM

Job searching is stressful.

I feel confused.

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Post by: Jam on July 06, 2013, 10:49:08 AM

Quote from: Keaira on July 05, 2013, 10:31:58 PM
I hope Caleb has a happy and uneventful weekend. I guess I will be playing a lot of star trek online or Halo 4 since I wont have Caleb to chat with. :(

There's a Star Trek online?!

Quote from: Malachite on July 05, 2013, 08:11:56 PM
My mother said she'd rather help get me a car than for me to pay for a moped myself. Hmmm

A car would be better if your thinking about it in terms of getting to work, you won't have to find somewhere for your helmet or bring a change of clothes and you won't be fussed about the weather much either. Although the moped would be cheaper to run...I don't know what the weathers like where you live anyways it may always be bright and sunny lol

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Post by: Keaira on July 06, 2013, 12:21:23 PM

Quote from: Jam on July 06, 2013, 10:49:08 AM
There's a Star Trek online?!

Yes. Its a mostly free mmo you play online. Not a bad game either

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Post by: King Malachite on July 06, 2013, 02:26:37 PM

Quote from: Jam on July 06, 2013, 10:49:08 AM

A car would be better if your thinking about it in terms of getting to work, you won't have to find somewhere for your helmet or bring a change of clothes and you won't be fussed about the weather much either. Although the moped would be cheaper to run...I don't know what the weathers like where you live anyways it may always be bright and sunny lol

Typically the weather here has it's fair share of sunshine and rain (though it has been raining a lot lately).

I'm bad at driving though so even if I did get a car and license, I would still seek to take public transportation if I can. Parking a moped would be so much easier. Also trying to keep my top surgery in mind with having a car and the price of keeping it.

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Post by: DriftingCrow on July 06, 2013, 02:27:26 PM

Ugh, I am melting. Maybe I should go to Starbucks where it's air conditioned. . .

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Post by: Shang on July 06, 2013, 02:45:38 PM

I guess I'm back. :3

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Post by: Devlyn on July 06, 2013, 02:58:07 PM

Then you never left!

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Post by: Shang on July 06, 2013, 03:26:47 PM

<3 <3 ^_^
__

I've got a friend probably going to join up here. :3 <3 But that's not really why I'm back. XD I missed people.

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Post by: Keaira on July 06, 2013, 05:11:39 PM

My Mum told me to take down the pictures I had of her on Facebook. Guess she doesn't want to be associated with me. So I unfriended my 2 cousins and my Aunt. you know, just in case they had pictures of her. Never mind the fact that she turned down visiting me a few months ago for a visit from my brother who, as it happens, lives a heck of a lot closer to her than I do.

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Post by: Sol Luca on July 06, 2013, 05:19:17 PM

Guilty! ^.^; I am the friend lol

Thanks for showing me this place Arawn! *snugs*

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Post by: Jam on July 06, 2013, 05:20:30 PM

Quote from: WatchingPigeonsFly on July 06, 2013, 04:42:03 PM
I had the first day where i wasn't feeling depressed this year.

Perhaps it's the first of many!

Quote from: Malachite on July 06, 2013, 02:26:37 PM
Typically the weather here has it's fair share of sunshine and rain (though it has been raining a lot lately).

I'm bad at driving though so even if I did get a car and license, I would still seek to take public transportation if I can. Parking a moped would be so much easier. Also trying to keep my top surgery in mind with having a car and the price of keeping it.

Ah of course your top surgery....well then yes the moped would definitely be cheaper. My car costs me a fortune, it's forever needing new parts and more fuel :-\

Quote from: Keaira on July 06, 2013, 12:21:23 PM
Yes. Its a mostly free mmo you play online. Not a bad game either

I may have to investigate that at the some point :P

Today I'm thinking about how I wish I was just this big heffer of a man so people wouldn't automatically assume I was weak and try to take advantage. I'm sick of people at work trying to pawn off their jobs on me and I'm sick of customers trying to get me to reduce things for them. Mostly in sick of the shocked look people give me when I say no, like they think I've taken away a right if there's by not allowing them to lord it over me all the time.

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Post by: King Malachite on July 06, 2013, 07:28:35 PM

Quote from: Jam on July 06, 2013, 05:20:30 PM
Perhaps it's the first of many!

Ah of course your top surgery....well then yes the moped would definitely be cheaper. My car costs me a fortune, it's forever needing new parts and more fuel :-\

Yeah putting all of those extra costs and maintenance in a car at this time just wouldn't sit well with me. What I may do is still buy a moped even after getting a car. That may irritate my mom but I just really hate driving cars. :/

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Post by: King Malachite on July 06, 2013, 08:26:22 PM

Omg a Metal Gear Solid Legacy collection is coming out. If I were any good at stealth games I would buy this. I have never beaten a Metal Gear Solid game though. I just love to watch it played.

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Post by: Tossu-sama on July 06, 2013, 09:19:01 PM

Slightly disappointed that Shingeki no Kyojin's new episode was just some catch-up about what's happened so far (the episode was numbered 13.5 instead of 14 so that tells a lot) but it was still pretty amazing. Eren in Titan form, hnnnnggggh.

And damn that anime has some kickass epic soundtrack.

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Post by: Tossu-sama on July 07, 2013, 09:36:46 AM

I managed to beat Akinator (http://en.akinator.com/). ;D

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Post by: Shang on July 07, 2013, 09:38:33 AM

Love how sometimes happiness seems close and then isn't. -.-

Ugh, I think I'm going to go for a walk or something.

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Post by: Edge on July 07, 2013, 11:10:07 AM

I'm feeling confused and upset and feel the need to talk to someone, but I'm afraid to because of judgement.

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Post by: Shang on July 07, 2013, 01:02:45 PM

Well...I'm not a good liar. I can't even pretend to be happy for a friend because the person she's now dating is a psycho (and I mean that -- he's very mentally unstable).

Blergh.

Anyway...I want snuggles. @.<

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on July 07, 2013, 01:28:37 PM

I really really hope I get a job at Red Lobsters after the summer.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shang on July 07, 2013, 03:02:30 PM

...I have such a long list of needs I need met if I'm to date a person. o.o It's nuts! Goodness me. xD

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shang on July 07, 2013, 05:43:44 PM

Quote from: WatchingPigeonsFly on July 07, 2013, 04:54:59 PM
Thinking of starting a blog somewhere.

Dreamwidth.org is an awesome blog site. :)
__

Also, I'm going to cut this implanon out. It was supposed to be out months ago, but I don't have money to get it removed. However, I'm going nuts. It's ->-bleeped-<-ing with my hormones.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Tossu-sama on July 07, 2013, 06:50:58 PM

Been planning to sketch out stuff for my revamped fursona's profile but I have gotten absolutely nowhere so far.
Procrastinators unite! ...Tomorrow.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shang on July 07, 2013, 06:56:39 PM

Quote from: Tossu-sama on July 07, 2013, 06:50:58 PM
Been planning to sketch out stuff for my revamped fursona's profile but I have gotten absolutely nowhere so far.
Procrastinators unite! ...Tomorrow.

XD That's what I keep doing! Lol. I need to get my fursona all nicely worked out more though my friend drew a wonderful version. :3

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Edge on July 07, 2013, 09:14:32 PM

Quote from: Arawn Bheur on July 07, 2013, 06:56:39 PM
XD That's what I keep doing! Lol. I need to get my fursona all nicely worked out more though my friend drew a wonderful version. :3

Is that your avatar?
Oh! Have you seen Iron Man 3? More specifically, have you seen the after credits scene?

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Tossu-sama on July 07, 2013, 09:19:32 PM

Quote from: Arawn Bheur on July 07, 2013, 06:56:39 PM
XD That's what I keep doing! Lol. I need to get my fursona all nicely worked out more though my friend drew a wonderful version. :3

It would be so much easier for me if I had even a bit more experience with anthro/furry characters when it comes to drawing.
Basically starting on a clean slate after... *counting* SIX YEARS.
That's a damn long time to draw pretty much only humanoid characters... At least I figured out male ~~muscle~~ anatomy during that time pretty well.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: zombieinc on July 07, 2013, 09:30:03 PM

Why does my dog smell like taco sauce?

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shang on July 07, 2013, 09:38:53 PM

Quote from: Edge on July 07, 2013, 09:14:32 PM
Is that your avatar?
Oh! Have you seen Iron Man 3? More specifically, have you seen the after credits scene?

Yeah. :) It's the picture my friend drew for me. ^^ The whole picture is utterly amazing, though. She captured him really well. :)

I have! I loved it and I was squealing like the fanboy/girl I am. xD Did you know that Stark x Banner is officially shipped by Mark Ruffalo?

Quote from: Tossu-sama on July 07, 2013, 09:19:32 PM
It would be so much easier for me if I had even a bit more experience with anthro/furry characters when it comes to drawing.
Basically starting on a clean slate after... *counting* SIX YEARS.
That's a damn long time to draw pretty much only humanoid characters... At least I figured out male ~~muscle~~ anatomy during that time pretty well.

Same. xD I'm not very good with drawing period so I have to work really hard to come up with something reasonable. @.< But I'm going to keep working on it because I want to be able to show off Jinx better along with various other characters that I have. :3

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on July 08, 2013, 05:40:13 AM

I was bummed out about going to school, but then I realized my mom is off work today. I may stay at school for a couple of hours longer.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: V M on July 08, 2013, 05:49:48 AM

*Hugs*

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Tossu-sama on July 08, 2013, 07:06:49 AM

Quote from: Arawn Bheur on July 07, 2013, 09:38:53 PM
Same. xD I'm not very good with drawing period so I have to work really hard to come up with something reasonable. @.< But I'm going to keep working on it because I want to be able to show off Jinx better along with various other characters that I have. :3

Try having 129 original characters.
I have too much imagination and free time.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Edge on July 08, 2013, 10:40:20 AM

Whenever I hear someone say "It'll be dark soon," I imagine Black Mage replying, "Dark soon? What do you mean "Dark soon?" It never gets dark here. Not until we stay at the inn, anyway."

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Emmaline on July 08, 2013, 11:35:38 AM

I am thinking right now I spend too much time on Susans.

Now I am thinking about why zombieincs dog smells like tacosauce.

Now I am thinking I definately spend too much time on Susans...

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: androgynoid on July 08, 2013, 11:43:43 AM

I'm feeling really lost, mostly with regards to my transition. I could really use someone to talk to. My roommate's on the back porch, but I feel bad bothering him with stuff he doesn't understand. He wants to help and tries so hard, but I know it makes him uncomfortable.

My usual trans* friends are mostly internet-based and I haven't heard much from them or seen them online lately.

And I don't particularly want to post my rambly thoughts on Susan's because it's partially about a thing for which I've gotten a bit of backlash in the past. I could probably deal with the negativity just fine, but it sure wouldn't help my decision-making process any.

Though when I ramble in the androgyne section it usually goes over pretty well.

Idk. It's time to get up and go out and do things in the real world. There are more pressing matters than the minutiae of my trans life.

*melodramatic sigh*

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Jam on July 08, 2013, 01:35:40 PM

Certain sounds instantly make me angry for no apparent reason. People whispering loudly and people kissing. It's bad enough I often have to leave where ever I am just to get away from them before I completely loose it :-\ I think that might make me a little strange...

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Adam (birkin) on July 08, 2013, 03:10:15 PM

I was thinking about texting my ex and seeing if she wanted to chat on Skype, as we've been planning to...but then I was like "no, Taylor Swift is playing on Itunes right now and I don't want to turn her off." Lol. But the song is over and I have now sent the text.

You know, I felt like I took an abnormally long time to get over her. But putting it in perspective, it really didn't. I expected myself to be entirely over it by 3 months post-breakup. And 6 months. But it was a long-term relationship that was going to lead to marriage, so of course it took me about a year to be OK.

As much as I loved her, she took life a little too seriously for me. I don't want someone irresponsible, or unmotivated, but I want someone who can take it easy. Someone like me in that regard I guess.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Edge on July 08, 2013, 04:21:55 PM

I just watched a really ridiculous movie that had very pretty costumes.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shang on July 08, 2013, 05:11:29 PM

Quote from: Tossu-sama on July 08, 2013, 07:06:49 AM
Try having 129 original characters.
I have too much imagination and free time.

I've got more than that. :P XD It comes with being a writer since I was 10.
__

Wow....some furries are ridiculously rude. There goes that idea of finding a bf or gf within the furry communtiy.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Jam on July 08, 2013, 05:21:01 PM

Quote from: WatchingPigeonsFly on July 08, 2013, 01:47:13 PM
Me too.

Oh good, I'm not alone woop lol

Being on T over a year now I've become accustomed to getting the little bump that hurts a bit after an injection. But this time it's killer :-\ the nurses normally inject me in the butt and this nurse did too but REALLY high up, in fact it's directly opposite my hip bone and every bit of clothing is causing me pain and the whole area around its really sensitive. I'm starting to wonder if she did something wrong, putting pressure on my foot also makes it hurt, especially when walking up stairs. I don't think it should be making me limp

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Tossu-sama on July 08, 2013, 05:26:03 PM

Quote from: Arawn Bheur on July 08, 2013, 05:11:29 PM
Wow....some furries are ridiculously rude. There goes that idea of finding a bf or gf within the furry communtiy.

Talking about FAF (Fur Affinity Forums)?
The people over there are way different from the ones at the main site.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shang on July 08, 2013, 05:53:10 PM

Quote from: Tossu-sama on July 08, 2013, 05:26:03 PM
Talking about FAF (Fur Affinity Forums)?
The people over there are way different from the ones at the main site.

What's the main site? The one that features submissions? If so, I only post stuff on there and don't look for pictures. >.>
__

My mom. She's so cranky. It's like she's the greatest thing ever when it comes to doing everything. I'm tired of her. Once I get a job and can afford to leave, I'm moving clear across town or further away so she'll have to drive or, better yet, fly to see me. I'll be so happy once I'm out. She's the main cause of my stress.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Tossu-sama on July 08, 2013, 06:00:06 PM

Quote from: Arawn Bheur on July 08, 2013, 05:53:10 PM
What's the main site? The one that features submissions? If so, I only post stuff on there and don't look for pictures. >.>

Yeah, the one that has art, stories and music (http://www.furaffinity.net).
I don't look for artwork that often there myself, I just mainly post my own artworks. From my own experience, the user base there is more friendly and not so sarcasm-driven as the forums. I just mostly lurk in the forums.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: DriftingCrow on July 08, 2013, 06:41:14 PM

I keep forgetting the signs for the letter "gaggaa" and "ghaggaa". I think I need to make flashcards.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shang on July 08, 2013, 06:51:00 PM

Quote from: Tossu-sama on July 08, 2013, 06:00:06 PM
Yeah, the one that has art, stories and music (http://www.furaffinity.net).
I don't look for artwork that often there myself, I just mainly post my own artworks. From my own experience, the user base there is more friendly and not so sarcasm-driven as the forums. I just mostly lurk in the forums.

That's good. :) I don't interact with anyone and since I don't have a nifty drawing tablet my drawings get little views. xD

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Tossu-sama on July 08, 2013, 07:04:15 PM

Quote from: Arawn Bheur on July 08, 2013, 06:51:00 PM
That's good. :) I don't interact with anyone and since I don't have a nifty drawing tablet my drawings get little views. xD

Pfft! Who needs a tablet anyway?
I do everything from sketching to lineart traditionally and then scan them to color them in Gimp using a mouse. :D
I've been at FA for little over two weeks and have 33 watchers already so clearly not having a tablet is not an issue.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shang on July 08, 2013, 07:06:40 PM

Quote from: Tossu-sama on July 08, 2013, 07:04:15 PM
Pfft! Who needs a tablet anyway?
I do everything from sketching to lineart traditionally and then scan them to color them in Gimp using a mouse. :D
I've been at FA for little over two weeks and have 33 watchers already so clearly not having a tablet is not an issue.

xD I have a touch pad for a mouse and that's not very conducive to coloring. :P It's hard to do anything with this computer. @.<

>.> I've got two followers. Both of whom are friends. XD

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Renee on July 08, 2013, 07:06:48 PM

I'm hoping that Chantal doesn't do much outside of the present forecast for it. I'm not ready for a hurricane yet this year.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Emmaline on July 08, 2013, 07:23:52 PM

Go get a cheap bamboo tablet painty peoples... drawing with a mouse is a one way ticket to RSI. Trust me, its cheaper in the long run!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Adam (birkin) on July 08, 2013, 07:37:35 PM

Lol. That was a fun chat.

Turns out she had a ton of videos from our travels that she never showed me. So now I am watching them. We are pretty funny lol. I've also come to the conclusion that I'm adorable. :P

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shang on July 08, 2013, 07:44:21 PM

Quote from: emmaline on July 08, 2013, 07:23:52 PM
Go get a cheap bamboo tablet painty peoples... drawing with a mouse is a one way ticket to RSI. Trust me, its cheaper in the long run!

Once I have a job I plan on getting one. :3

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Tossu-sama on July 08, 2013, 08:07:02 PM

We actually have a drawing tablet but I'm too lazy to learn to use it. I know it would make things infinitely easier but I'm a stubborn idiot who sticks with his old ways. |D
And I like sketching with a pencil!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Emmaline on July 08, 2013, 08:36:36 PM

Pencil is better. I sketch with biros too. Maybe this needs a thread on its own.

I am thinking I wish I could just bodyswap with an aspiring ftm... much to my distaste I always get told I have the perfect frame for weightlifting, a manly chest and always got great compliments on my... er... tackle. Seems horrible that out there is some poor soul trapped in a lithe feminine body I would want and I have no value for my own.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: DriftingCrow on July 08, 2013, 08:37:18 PM

Doing a bunch of flashcards in black magic marker was a really bad idea, I think I killed a bunch of brain cells breathing in the fumes

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Emmaline on July 08, 2013, 08:38:32 PM

Mmmm.... magic markers.... :icon_nosebleed:

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Anna++ on July 08, 2013, 08:48:26 PM

I'm getting a raise at work, whoo!

My manager wants me to work on being more social and open about my thoughts in the future. <Male name> still has confidence issues that Anna doesn't have, so I expect it'll change once I'm out at work. What to do, what to do... :eusa_think:

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: V M on July 08, 2013, 08:50:36 PM

Strange dreams I have when I doze off in my computer chair

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Tossu-sama on July 08, 2013, 09:22:18 PM

There's gonna be a live action film of Shingeki no Kyojin... Not sure if it's a good thing. :I

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Jam on July 09, 2013, 02:05:36 AM

I'm not a morning person, I can't hold a decent conversation for at least an hour yet and I need peace and quiet. Both are hard to come by when your stepdad slams everything and doesn't shut up.
Ugh.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: V M on July 09, 2013, 02:39:17 AM

Quote from: JulieR on July 09, 2013, 02:04:03 AM
I like strange dreams myself.

Ah yes, I neglected to say how I felt about the dreams :) Most are kinda strange, sometimes they are entertaining, even humorous, other times not so much

Anyway, it just happened to be what I was thinking about at the time :)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Clockpunk on July 09, 2013, 02:47:52 AM

I want a hug. A really big, fat, long lasting, mind blowingly awesome hug.

Or bear hug for short. :)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Tossu-sama on July 09, 2013, 06:06:18 AM

It's pretty funny, me and my fiancé have always said our cat "talks" to us with short purr-like sounds and yesterday we re-found this video (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z3U0udLH974) which kind of proves we were right the whole time. :D
Then again, our cat isn't THAT talkative and he rarely accompanies those sounds with meows. Still pretty cute, trying to "talk" to humans.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on July 09, 2013, 08:08:08 AM

Quote from: Clockpunk on July 09, 2013, 02:47:52 AM
I want a hug. A really big, fat, long lasting, mind blowingly awesome hug.

Or bear hug for short. :)

BIG ((HUG))

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Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Anna++ on July 09, 2013, 08:29:59 AM

I wonder how age recognition algorithms work? I took a picture of my face 10 minutes ago, and scored this:

(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi1285.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fa599%2Farschuma%2FScreenshot-07092013-092633AM_zps24e89628.png&hash=5c2a77c41f1a996c40ef54d2bf9b2748add4dad3)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Heather on July 09, 2013, 08:42:51 AM

Quote from: Anna! on July 09, 2013, 08:29:59 AM
I wonder how age recognition algorithms work? I took a picture of my face 10 minutes ago, and scored this:

(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi1285.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fa599%2Farschuma%2FScreenshot-07092013-092633AM_zps24e89628.png&hash=5c2a77c41f1a996c40ef54d2bf9b2748add4dad3)

I've had that happen too! Yeah but I wouldn't take that site to seriously I've had pics that were took on the same day one will be high 90's in the feminine range then another photo will be in the high 90's in the masculine range. I literally had that site tell me I looked like George Washington??? >:( Just look at my profile pic I don't look a thing like George Washington!!! ???

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Anna++ on July 09, 2013, 08:49:24 AM

Quote from: Heather on July 09, 2013, 08:42:51 AM
I've had that happen too! Yeah but I wouldn't take that site to seriously I've had pics that were took on the same day one will be high 90's in the feminine range then another photo will be in the high 90's in the masculine range. I literally had that site tell me I looked like George Washington??? >:( Just look at my profile pic I don't look a thing like George Washington!!! ???

*tries to picture Heather crossing the Delaware river* Nope, I don't see it.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Heather on July 09, 2013, 08:54:06 AM

Quote from: Anna! on July 09, 2013, 08:49:24 AM
*tries to picture Heather crossing the Delaware river* Nope, I don't see it.

But I have had a couple of pics where it said I looked like Brittany Spears! ;D ;D ;D So it's kinda hard to be too mad at that site! :laugh:

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Anna++ on July 09, 2013, 08:55:56 AM

Quote from: Heather on July 09, 2013, 08:54:06 AM
But I have had a couple of pics where it said I looked like Brittany Spears! ;D ;D ;D So it's kinda hard to be too mad at that site! :laugh:

That one time it gave me 99% feminine was a huge confidence boost!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Keaira on July 09, 2013, 09:28:48 AM

Caleb and I watched some of his movies from way before he started T last night. I felt so weird watching it. I know that that person on the video was him. The mannerisms and the little nuances in the voice was there but yet, it wasnt him. So I guess that's what its like for a cis person to watch someone go through transition. It puts an interesting perspective to it. All I can say is that I'm glad that there aren't any movies of me available pre transition. I'm not sure I could sit though and watch it, because that guy I used to be was very troubled.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shang on July 09, 2013, 09:32:32 AM

I'm thinking I need to find a way to get over this aversion to seeing romance that I have.

I'm also thinking that it's awesome I got a fave last night on my pony picture. xD

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Tossu-sama on July 09, 2013, 10:00:19 AM

Procrastination is trying to overcome me but I'm fighting against it and so far I seem to be victorious. :D
I'm done with the major pictures of my fursona's profile at this rate. Well, at least with the linearts.

On another note, I should get myself looking more public-friendly and drop by at the store.
We're running low on crucial things.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Edge on July 09, 2013, 10:03:42 AM

I just realized what bugs me so much about when people say they treat "everyone the same." Well, there's the obvious problem that it is usually said by people who are dismissing my identity in the same conversation. But when I think about it, I realize that treating everyone the same is dismissive of everyone's identities. Everyone is not the same. Equal, yes, but one can treat people equally while still respecting them for who they are as an individual.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on July 09, 2013, 11:21:48 AM

OMG I wish I could have been at Anime Expo 2013, especially the Yugioh gathering even though I don't know how to play *screams like the ghosts on Little Big Planet*

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: DriftingCrow on July 09, 2013, 01:37:49 PM

crap there's a lot of rain, ah scary storm, scary trucks. i am stuck (along with a bunch of other cars) in the breakdown lane on the highway because the rain is so bad. Ugh, i hate driving in inclement weather, I miss the subway

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: SaveMeJeebus on July 09, 2013, 01:50:14 PM

'Please don't stop talking to me'.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Adam (birkin) on July 09, 2013, 02:27:09 PM

Quote from: Edge on July 09, 2013, 10:03:42 AM
I just realized what bugs me so much about when people say they treat "everyone the same." Well, there's the obvious problem that it is usually said by people who are dismissing my identity in the same conversation. But when I think about it, I realize that treating everyone the same is dismissive of everyone's identities. Everyone is not the same. Equal, yes, but one can treat people equally while still respecting them for who they are as an individual.

Yeah, I find a lot of people use that as an excuse for ignorant comments, or to be dismissive. Lol.

I'm thinking that today I am going to go and buy a few more clothes. I did stock up a bit after I left the bulk of my clothes with Keaira (lucky her) but I'm still finding myself not having enough to make it to laundry day.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Tossu-sama on July 09, 2013, 08:54:25 PM

Music, why so awesome?

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on July 09, 2013, 11:27:45 PM

Thinking about the professions and majors thread I brought back to life and all the replies it gets now. So many intelligent members with degrees here. :) Multiple Masters and Phds. I can't imagine going to school for that long. I can't wait to get out in the summer and be done. Well, I take that back. I will kind of miss going to college in the Fall semester with all of the other college students....burning the midnight oil, getting to ride the bus for free, getting a financial aid check, etc. There are two classes that I need to get my certification in Crime Scene Investigations and if they were offered in the Fall and covered by my fincancial aid then I would certainly take them.....even though without experience that certification would be useless unless applying for a civilian position. It would be nice to have it under my belt still, but oh well. It's about time for me to get a job so I can pay for my top surgery. Speak of which, my bed is messy with a lot of unused school supplies I pulled out to see if I could make a profit from. Heck I don't plan on going back to school so they are useless to me. Until I can get a real job, selling the stuff I have in my room is the only "job" I have to raise the money. My break is almost over lol. I need to try and put a value on these school supplies.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: SaveMeJeebus on July 10, 2013, 05:19:15 AM

I'm going to have to get up to get my drink :D

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Keaira on July 10, 2013, 06:17:22 AM

I wonder if there is such a thing as reincarnation. if so, are we reincarnated with our best friends or soul mates at the same time? are we just placed randomly in different times and places, like students separated in class because they chat too much with each other.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: ZoeM on July 10, 2013, 06:42:05 AM

Six months! Feels like five months feels like four months! Also my freaking breasts are the same size as they were in month four!

On the plus side, my endo indicated I should be able to ramp up my E input a bit. Maybe that'll help.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Anna++ on July 10, 2013, 07:05:54 AM

Quote from: ZoeM on July 10, 2013, 06:42:05 AM
Six months! Feels like five months feels like four months! Also my freaking breasts are the same size as they were in month four!

On the plus side, my endo indicated I should be able to ramp up my E input a bit. Maybe that'll help.

Hopefully. Congratulations!

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on July 10, 2013, 11:05:07 AM

I made $25 selling a bunch of junk toys today. I don't know how, but I did lol. I actually forgot to give the man something so I called him back up and told him and luckily he wasn't too far from the area so he came and got it. My sister told me not to worry about it but I said no that's not right because if that was me, then I would want everything.

Anyways, I'm so tempted to put this money towards buying a video game but I must resist! This money needs to go into my top surgery fund. As much as I want to buy a video game with the money I've been making lately (made enough to cover one video game), I just can't be that wasteful with my money, especially since I don't have a job. Sometimes I think "it's just $20 or it's just $10 and surgery costs thousands of dollars. That little bit of money is still a far cry away from the 7+ dollars you need so you might as well just spend it on a video game" but I have to say to myself "NO, that $5, $10, $15, $20 dollars adds up and if you keep spending it on video games, you will never get there." I know it's a long way off but it will be worth it to say that (insert everything I've sold) helped pay for my flat chest. Sometimes I fear that an emergency will happen and that I will have to dip into that. I pray that will not happen. Hopefully I won't have to. I'll see what happens there, but I want to focus on the good news which is making a sale and getting extra space because of that. I made a sale, YAY! The next thing I'm going to try to sell- school supplies. That's going to be an interesting challenge, but I'm up for it. I need to go add that I made today in my top surgery fund. I know I'm always talking about top surgery so now my logo is "If Malachite isn't talking about top surgery in a post, then he probably didn't write it." lol.

I'm so on the fence about buying Splinter Cell: Blacklist ever since Ubisoft pushed the release date back. They pulled that same mess with Far Cry 3 and Rayman. I brought Far Cry 3 full price and regretted it. Don't get me wrong, it was a good game but I was disappointed. It was definately not as good as they made it out to be and I dare to say that a lot of what they showed beforehand was false advertising, concerning the graphics and Brody's voice acting. I feel like Ubisoft keeps pushing games back to get more preorders. I'm pretty confident in saying that I wouldn't have preordered the game had it not been pushed back. Pushing back one game is acceptable, but two or three games is not. They say that they just wnat to work on it somem ore to churn out the best experience for the players but I doubt it. If Far Cry 3 was any indication, then I will not preorder it. If anything, I may just wait until a price drop. In my experience of searching for game deals, I've noticed that the prices of Ubisoft games tend to go down fairly quickly. Far Cry 3 and Rayman did, along with some AC games. You know what, I may just wait until the price comes down to $20, or even better, I may just watch the entire walkthrough online to circumcise the foreskin of my desire for that game so I won't feel the need to buy it at all. Yes, I just said foreskin. Yeah Yeah I know, I have serious issues.

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Post by: Shang on July 10, 2013, 02:31:45 PM

Does anyone have any idea of jobs that'll pay an okay amount of money to let me live? Seriously...I could be out of a home in a few months and I'm having no luck getting hired. -.-

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Post by: King Malachite on July 10, 2013, 02:46:05 PM

Quote from: Arawn Bheur on July 10, 2013, 02:31:45 PM
Does anyone have any idea of jobs that'll pay an okay amount of money to let me live? Seriously...I could be out of a home in a few months and I'm having no luck getting hired. -.-

You could try law enforcement or working in dispatch or a corrections center. You will live, but just barely.

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Post by: Shang on July 10, 2013, 02:55:45 PM

Quote from: Malachite on July 10, 2013, 02:46:05 PM
You could try law enforcement or working in dispatch or a corrections center. You will live, but just barely.

I can't physically work out on the field or dealing with others like that (partial paralysis keeps my physical abilities limited). I could potentially work dispatch, though.

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Post by: King Malachite on July 10, 2013, 03:55:10 PM

Quote from: Arawn Bheur on July 10, 2013, 02:55:45 PM
I can't physically work out on the field or dealing with others like that (partial paralysis keeps my physical abilities limited). I could potentially work dispatch, though.

Dispatch could work. Not too sure how they do that there but here you have to go to the academy for a few weeks. If there's a crime scene lab near you maybe you could get in for a civilian position packaging up evidence

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Post by: Adam (birkin) on July 10, 2013, 04:12:56 PM

Quote from: Keaira on July 10, 2013, 06:17:22 AM
I wonder if there is such a thing as reincarnation. if so, are we reincarnated with our best friends or soul mates at the same time? are we just placed randomly in different times and places, like students separated in class because they chat too much with each other.

I really like that analogy. I wouldn't be surprised if in your past life you caused a lot of trouble in class. ;)

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Post by: Renee on July 10, 2013, 04:16:34 PM

Well darn, the sheriff's deputy that was driving by just laughed when I told him he should arrest that little dog that tried to chase him.

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Post by: Tossu-sama on July 10, 2013, 04:19:45 PM

I've been drawing so much topless or completely naked men that I didn't remember how bad my fashion sense is. @_@

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Post by: SaveMeJeebus on July 10, 2013, 05:31:28 PM

"1,053 words." & "I don't believe you."

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Post by: Jam on July 10, 2013, 06:27:33 PM

Why am I so bad at building muscle?

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Post by: Emmaline on July 10, 2013, 09:21:14 PM

Getting enough protein and rest days between workouts? Muscle builds in those rest days. ;)

Im wondering the opposite... sigh.

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Post by: King Malachite on July 10, 2013, 09:38:40 PM

Meh, I don't know why I torture myself by looking at two of my ex's facebooks and see them with their partners.

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Post by: V M on July 11, 2013, 12:58:01 AM

Is it wrong to break from your girl and get your angry man on to protect a girl who is being bothered by two jerks in the park?

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Post by: Adam (birkin) on July 11, 2013, 01:19:32 AM

Quote from: V M on July 11, 2013, 12:58:01 AM
Is it wrong to break from your girl and get your angry man on to protect a girl who is being bothered by two jerks in the park?

You did the right thing. I see lots of women who will confront a-holes too. Just get up all in their face lol.

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Post by: V M on July 11, 2013, 02:21:07 AM

All I had was a back pack full of groceries and I almost rode right by it all :-\ This is a college town and students often play about there in the park, but when I hear a girl's voice utter "help me" I cannot ignore it so I dropped my bike and went over to check it out

One of the boys told me to mind my own business and called me foul names like "old 'somethin' somethin'... It was on from there

Well, the boys ended up leaving in quite a hurry and I walked the gal back to her dorm and then went home

Unfortunately, some of my groceries got a bit warm and I'll probably have to replace them :P

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Post by: Emmaline on July 11, 2013, 06:36:02 AM

Your like wonder woman!

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Post by: Tossu-sama on July 11, 2013, 06:42:35 AM

Ugh, my phone operator has cut off my <insert word for that thingie that enables one to use phone> even though I have paid the bill as far as I know.
Annoying as hell and I seriously don't have the mental energy to deal with this, plus I don't think I even can because the contract is in my mom's name, I just use it.

And I gotta go to babysit animals again.
Just when I have a nice art streak going on.
And their movie selection sucks big time.

I don't like real life right now.

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Post by: Liminal Stranger on July 11, 2013, 12:43:39 PM

My everything hurts XD

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Post by: Shantel on July 11, 2013, 01:41:47 PM

Quote from: V M on July 11, 2013, 02:21:07 AM
All I had was a back pack full of groceries and I almost rode right by it all :-\ This is a college town and students often play about there in the park, but when I hear a girl's voice utter "help me" I cannot ignore it so I dropped my bike and went over to check it out

One of the boys told me to mind my own business and called me foul names like "old 'somethin' somethin'... It was on from there

Well, the boys ended up leaving in quite a hurry and I walked the gal back to her dorm and then went home

Unfortunately, some of my groceries got a bit warm and I'll probably have to replace them :P

Good for you Virginia, I'm proud of you for stepping in, I would have done the same. You're my kinda gal! :eusa_clap:

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Post by: Jamie D on July 11, 2013, 02:39:37 PM

Quote from: V M on July 11, 2013, 12:58:01 AM
Is it wrong to break from your girl and get your angry man on to protect a girl who is being bothered by two jerks in the park?

It is always right to help others.

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Post by: Adam (birkin) on July 11, 2013, 02:54:03 PM

Time to go to uni and get some work done. I can't find my iPod charger though and I don't want to go without music. -_- As I hate the buses and all the people talking lmao.

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Post by: Jam on July 11, 2013, 03:48:40 PM

I had my 2nd opinion for surgery today and it went great! He's referring me! I can't even tell you how ecstatically happy and excited I am right now. ;D

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Post by: Adam (birkin) on July 11, 2013, 03:51:15 PM

Quote from: Jam on July 11, 2013, 03:48:40 PM
I had my 2nd opinion for surgery today and it went great! He's referring me! I can't even tell you how ecstatically happy and excited I am right now. ;D

Is that for phallo? ;D Must be as you've had your top.

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Post by: Jam on July 11, 2013, 05:23:50 PM

Quote from: Ketchup Packet on July 11, 2013, 03:51:15 PM
Is that for phallo? ;D Must be as you've had your top.

Yeah, I think I'm one of the few people who has been looking forward to this one more then Top. I'm having the abdominal phalloplasty hopefully.

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Post by: King Malachite on July 11, 2013, 05:32:42 PM

Quote from: Jam on July 11, 2013, 05:23:50 PM
Yeah, I think I'm one of the few people who has been looking forward to this one more then Top.

Count me in that group too! haven't got either yet but I'm definately looking foward to bottom more

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Post by: Renee on July 11, 2013, 06:10:37 PM

Who is John Galt?

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Post by: Jamie D on July 11, 2013, 06:13:14 PM

Quote from: jrd on July 11, 2013, 06:10:37 PM
Who is John Galt?

The legal name of Jamie D??

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Post by: Renee on July 11, 2013, 06:31:50 PM

I finally got around to watching Atlas Shrugged, both parts today since they are on Netflix. It was interesting.

Now on to Jack the Giant Killer....

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Post by: King Malachite on July 11, 2013, 08:03:44 PM

Supposed to be meeting two people tommorrow within 30 minutes. Let's see how that works out.

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Post by: Edge on July 11, 2013, 08:36:24 PM

I'm wondering if there are any badass characters that are gay men (and confirmed to be gay, not just in the mind of slash fans). For some reason, the only movies I've seen where important characters are gay seem to be along the lines of chick flicks.

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Post by: Sarah84 on July 12, 2013, 12:52:14 AM

I made a phone call to a shop having some questions about the products and they identified me as female...and I was not trying to sound different, just normal. I feel sooo good everytime this happens :)!

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Post by: King Malachite on July 12, 2013, 07:31:15 AM

The topic about bathrooms had a nice run. Everytime I see it my reply was "heck yeah" as I posted lol.

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Post by: Tossu-sama on July 12, 2013, 07:46:56 AM

Just saw a live grasshopper up close, like one meter away, for the first time in my life and it sounded like a damn rattlesnake.
I'm disappointed now.

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Post by: Anna++ on July 12, 2013, 11:23:34 AM

I'm listening to a discussion about zombies between two authors. It has me wondering... would a transexual zombie still need external hormones? What about a transexual vampire? (or any other form of undead?)

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Tossu-sama on July 12, 2013, 01:04:06 PM

Quote from: Anna! on July 12, 2013, 11:23:34 AM
I'm listening to a discussion about zombies between two authors. It has me wondering... would a transexual zombie still need external hormones? What about a transexual vampire? (or any other form of undead?)

I think it'd depend on the kind of zombies we're talking about. Like those Walking Dead zombies, I bet they wouldn't even care considering they're just acting on pure instinct which, for some reason, drives them to eat just about everything. :D

Vampires could just infiltrate a pharmacy etc at night. XD

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Post by: King Malachite on July 12, 2013, 03:32:07 PM

I plan on having my top surgery by the time I am 23, my name change by the time I am 25,hormones, by the time I'm 26, and bottom surgery by the time I'm thrity.

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Post by: Shang on July 12, 2013, 03:44:36 PM

Quote from: Edge on July 11, 2013, 08:36:24 PM
I'm wondering if there are any badass characters that are gay men (and confirmed to be gay, not just in the mind of slash fans). For some reason, the only movies I've seen where important characters are gay seem to be along the lines of chick flicks.

I just read a manga with truly badass lead characters, both of whom were male. :)
__

@.< It sucks when your mom sees through you. I work hard at looking happy, but she caught on today when she saw me sitting on my bed. She said I looked "lost" then that I looked "sad and lonely".

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Post by: King Malachite on July 12, 2013, 03:55:24 PM

So many video games I want that is coming out

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Post by: Jam on July 12, 2013, 05:25:41 PM

Quote from: Malachite on July 12, 2013, 03:55:24 PM
So many video games I want that is coming out

Same dude and so little spare money to spend on such things *sigh*

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Post by: Shang on July 12, 2013, 06:11:18 PM

I think I might move to Canada. >.> I've got friends up that way and it seems the more viable route when it comes to my life.

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Post by: DriftingCrow on July 12, 2013, 06:43:11 PM

wow the first Muslim was incredibly good. . . sometimes i hate finishing a good book because now what do i read?

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Post by: King Malachite on July 12, 2013, 07:45:15 PM

Quote from: Jam on July 12, 2013, 05:25:41 PM
Same dude and so little spare money to spend on such things *sigh*

I feel you man. *sighs* my game library seriousness needs to be updated.

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Post by: Tossu-sama on July 12, 2013, 07:51:52 PM

Partial rant/vent coming up.

I was watching Dr. Phil (there's nothing else on!) and there was this girl who hadn't seen her father for almost 20 or something. Awfully similar to my situation and all that jazz.
Funny thing is how indifferent I feel about it. It's like I don't give a rat's ass that I don't have someone to call dad. Sure, mom is married and now for the first time in my life I have an official stepdad but I call him that just because it's easier. IRL I mostly call him by his first name. He's really cool guy and all but I can't even imagine calling him my dad because I'm used to not having one and frankly I have never needed one.
The only men in my life have been my grandfather (obviously from mom's side) and my godfather (used to be my aunt's husband) and I still managed to develope a male gender identity. I guess that's some sort of an achievement.

I did reach out to my biological father when I was 14-15. I met him few times. I got ONE birthday card from him.
He never reached out to me because he's most likely playing happy times with his new family.
So screw him. I don't need a douchebag who disappears like a fart in Sahara and leaves just a note on the table when there's a baby coming.
As far as I'm concerned, he could run into the ocean while wearing cement shoes. The only time I'll be interested in his dealings, is when he's dead and I'm LEGALLY entitled to inherit something from him.

Pfft, mom and I did just fine. I guess that's the reason why we have such an amazing relationship despite all of my trans stuff.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on July 12, 2013, 08:08:51 PM

I really wish my father would call on his work break so I can vent to him about my drunken mother.

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Post by: Keaira on July 12, 2013, 10:27:43 PM

I'm thinking of going back to my roots. Being an Army brat, I've spent a good deal of my life living in the military. I think I will buy a couple of pairs of UK combat pants and a pair of combat boots. I've spent nearly my entire life in a uniform of one kind or another and when I was in the RAF, the uniform was kind of comforting. And Caleb thinks I'd look bad ass. :P

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Post by: King Malachite on July 12, 2013, 10:31:59 PM

Had to make my room somewhat junky again. When my mom sobers up tommorrow, I'm going to beg her not to touch anything in my room anymore. I know it won't work and she won't listen to me but I have to try. Because of her, I'm all panicy. Things are missing in my room and I don't like it. I can't even lay down without thinking about it. I hate this so much.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Adam (birkin) on July 13, 2013, 04:00:22 AM

I'm thinking that right about now I just hate everything.

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Post by: King Malachite on July 13, 2013, 08:55:21 AM

I hate clean rooms.

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Post by: King Malachite on July 13, 2013, 09:06:02 AM

Well if I'm not the one cleaning it then things get missing....I'd rather have a messy room where I know where everything is at than a clean room with important items missing. Plus a clean room to me is kind of boring. I don't like organization.

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Post by: V M on July 13, 2013, 09:44:24 AM

Quote from: Malachite on July 13, 2013, 09:06:02 AM
Well if I'm not the one cleaning it then things get missing....I'd rather have a messy room where I know where everything is at than a clean room with important items missing. Plus a clean room to me is kind of boring. I don't like organization.

My step dad had a thing for throwing my stuff out, it still pisses me off

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I need to play my guitar more often like I use to :-\ I've lost my calluses and now I have a blister and the rest of my fingers just plain hurt

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: King Malachite on July 13, 2013, 10:03:55 AM

Quote from: V M on July 13, 2013, 09:44:24 AM
My step dad had a thing for throwing my stuff out, it still pisses me off

I don't blame you. I was talking to a friend and she said her grandma threw her dipoma out. Heck I'm still pretty upset right now that I tried to put my hand down the side of my bed and found a birthday card I guess I forgot about from my mom and inside was $30. I just stuffed it back down because I was still angry.

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Post by: Shang on July 13, 2013, 10:37:29 AM

Quote from: Sol Luca on July 06, 2013, 05:19:17 PM
Guilty! ^.^; I am the friend lol

Thanks for showing me this place Arawn! *snugs*

-.- I need to read threads better.

*snugs* <3 I'm glad you made it!

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Post by: Liminal Stranger on July 13, 2013, 10:55:36 AM

So nobody called back within the last 48 hours. That means no bone cancer or anything in my hip, I hope.

Can't get the freaking fridge out of the kitchen, this is ridiculous. It's outdated and the screws are ratcheted.

Also having difficulty understanding the sheer stupidity of the things my parents say. My therapist says I have to put down female and my name on forms and just know it's not actually me but that doesn't solve my problem. Sometimes it really seems men are from Mars and women from Venus, I want to collaborate on a solution. Talking it over fixes it very temporarily, like slapping scotch tape on a leak in a boat traveling over rapids.

Seriously, if I had gathered the courage to do this years ago, everything would've been different. Maybe explicitly stating my feelings would have acted as the "proof" they needed and I could have had things get done a long time ago.

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Post by: SaveMeJeebus on July 13, 2013, 12:33:42 PM

How am i going to start a blog off, ~~and how blaah.~~

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Post by: King Malachite on July 13, 2013, 12:47:56 PM

Quote from: Liminal Stranger on July 13, 2013, 10:55:36 AM

Seriously, if I had gathered the courage to do this years ago, everything would've been different. Maybe explicitly stating my feelings would have acted as the "proof" they needed and I could have had things get done a long time ago.

I SO understand where you're coming from. I always metaphorically kick myself in the forehead for not being more aggressive in telling my parents about how I don't right being a girl. I would tell them here and there about my discontent but they brushed it off. Now I have to mostly work from scratch and figure out how the heck and I'm going to come out to them and not only that, tell them I'm getting top surgery. I really wish I had warmed them up to the idea when I was much younger.

I just got back from a couple of yardsales with my dad. Since he knows I've been selling a few things here and there online from my room he wants me to upgrade my thinking by buying things to resale. He brought two sample items for me to sale....a bed sheet set or something and a power painter. I'm going to start with the bed sheet set first even though he told me I have 7 days to sell the power painter. Hmmm

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Post by: Tossu-sama on July 13, 2013, 04:09:28 PM

It's midnight and the new subbed episode of Shingeki no Kyojin should be up at around 4am if I can trust last week's schedule...
Now, to stay awake till then or not? We shall see...

I want to draw but I'm too lazy to get my pencil and other necessary stuff from another room. But I really should draw more of my fursona, I like him more than I anticipated. :o

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Post by: Adam (birkin) on July 13, 2013, 04:26:09 PM

I cooked some sloppy joe sauce. The beef was still a bit frozen when I put it in the pan, but I broke it up and it turned into the small pieces and cooked brown...then let it simmer with the sauce for a while. But when I ate the sloppy joes they were a little cold. So now, the tiny hypochondriac in me is making me feel very nauseated because it's convinced I will die of E Coli -_-

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Post by: ZoeM on July 13, 2013, 04:29:50 PM

Got some new shoes! (Women's size 11 - I can wear something Target carries! :D)

Sat at a bar having fake conversations with people, holding a fake drink, and wearing a fake smile. All for the sake of ad photography

Saw a movie (Pacific Rim - too much action for me but there wasn't really anything else good)

My younger brother (the one who now knows) is being an ass. D:
He kinda always is, but now in particular. Nobody, especially not him, gets to call me "it".

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Post by: spacerace on July 13, 2013, 05:01:39 PM

Quote from: Tossu-sama on July 13, 2013, 04:09:28 PM
It's midnight and the new subbed episode of Shingeki no Kyojin should be up at around 4am if I can trust last week's schedule...
Now, to stay awake till then or not? We shall see...

have you given in and read the manga yet?

I tried to wait since I started with the show, but I had no willpower and caught up in one sitting

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Post by: Jam on July 13, 2013, 05:30:52 PM

Quote from: Malachite on July 12, 2013, 10:31:59 PM
Had to make my room somewhat junky again. When my mom sobers up tommorrow, I'm going to beg her not to touch anything in my room anymore. I know it won't work and she won't listen to me but I have to try. Because of her, I'm all panicy. Things are missing in my room and I don't like it. I can't even lay down without thinking about it. I hate this so much.

I feel this so bad,my stepdad is an idiot and he will go in my room, move things then completely forget where he has put them. Its also become pretty normal for me to come back from staying at a friends house and discover my room has been completely rearranged.....like all my furniture and bed moved :-\ . They also buy new furniture for me but never even tell me they are doing it. I think they just view it as another one of their rooms rather then my room, I get zero imput half the time it really annoys me. Dont wanna say anything and seem ungrateful though....

im thinking that trying to decide what to do with my future is so difficult. I have no idea what I want to do.

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Post by: Tossu-sama on July 13, 2013, 05:32:37 PM

Quote from: spacerace on July 13, 2013, 05:01:39 PM
have you given in and read the manga yet?

I tried to wait since I started with the show, but I had no willpower and caught up in one sitting

Nope and I'm trying hard not to accidentally spoil myself. :D
I do that way too often... It's kinda dangerous to be in Tumblr when it comes to that but so far I'm spoiler free!
...Well, I knew about Eren's titan form beforehand but that was thanks to deviantART surprisingly.

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Post by: King Malachite on July 13, 2013, 05:37:06 PM

Quote from: Jam on July 13, 2013, 05:30:52 PM
I feel this so bad,my stepdad is an idiot and he will go in my room, move things then completely forget where he has put them. Its also become pretty normal for me to come back from staying at a friends house and discover my room has been completely rearranged.....like all my furniture and bed moved :-\ . They also buy new furniture for me but never even tell me they are doing it. I think they just view it as another one of their rooms rather then my room, I get zero imput half the time it really annoys me. Dont wanna say anything and seem ungrateful though....

im thinking that trying to decide what to do with my future is so difficult. I have no idea what I want to do.

Omg that would be so nerve wracking. It's almost like being punished for going out because that's exactly how I felt.......punished!

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Post by: CalmRage on July 13, 2013, 06:05:23 PM

Should i ever be able to sing "Dazed And Confused" again (unlikely) i will sing it like this:

i've been dazed and confused...FOR-SO-LONG-IT'S-NOT-TRUE!
WANTED A WOMAN!, never bargained for you,
lots of people talking, FEW OF THEM KNOW!
SOUL OF A WOMAN WAS CREATED BELOW!

I seem to remember a concert tape where it was sung like that, but it must've been imagination.

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Post by: King Malachite on July 13, 2013, 06:06:41 PM

I'm glad I found a transgender housing network site. I may need it in the future.

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Post by: SaveMeJeebus on July 13, 2013, 06:21:45 PM

Will my Itouch get down to 25% in the next 10 minutes. I wonder if i know that person. Hope that guy has a good birthday.

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Post by: Tossu-sama on July 13, 2013, 06:40:43 PM

Why did they change SnK's opening, whyyy... D:
It's utterly... boring. I shall love the first one forever.
Also I was right about Levi possibly becoming my fave character, he's fricking awesome.
Now I'm just wondering how I'm gonna survive yet another week while waiting for the next episode. @_@ Well, I gotta draw Titan Eren at some point...

You have no idea what kinda pain in the rear end it was to watch that episode... For some reason, this pc doesn't have working Flash on Firefox so I gotta use IE for videos etc. I almost threw the keyboard out the window. >__>

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Post by: Darkie on July 13, 2013, 11:09:11 PM

My face is all greasy. DX EEeewwww. But too lazy to go wash itttt.

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Post by: Jamie D on July 13, 2013, 11:13:39 PM

Quote from: WatchingPigeonsFly on July 13, 2013, 02:43:23 PM
Thoughts, go away, there is no Sara, please, haunt somebody else, but not me.

If you deny the girl inside, she is going to get pissed, and make life miserable for you.

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Post by: Anna++ on July 14, 2013, 09:05:39 AM

Ooh! There is finally an Orthanc LEGO set! *purchases*

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Post by: Edge on July 14, 2013, 09:54:39 AM

Pride is about a month away and whenever I think about it, I get very apprehensive. I don't feel welcome in that community. I still have flashbacks from the guy who attacked the trans group here since he used the same attacks as my dad which led to really bad flashbacks which made him a trigger. And he is sure to be there. He is everywhere in the LGB (I won't add T since I don't feel we're particularly welcome) community here and everyone seems to like him (which is also a trigger). Which is probably why he can get away with attacking the trans group and not even apologize or feel he has done anything wrong (also a trigger). If I had my way, anyone who attacked me or any groups I belong to would have to suffer with the consequences of their actions and not me. (And no, one cannot just "let it go" when one has flashbacks.)

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Post by: King Malachite on July 14, 2013, 10:41:26 AM

I don't get my father. He calls and gives me tips on how to be safe when meeting people online and I'm supposed to meet a guy today so I ask my dad to come along with me since there's power in numbers and he makes every excuse in the book not to...including how "I'm going into law enforcement so I need to be more agressive." I wish he'd stop saying that considering I'm not doing that. I want to be a dishwasher.

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Post by: zombieinc on July 14, 2013, 10:56:56 AM

I've always wanted to write a book and now...I am. At long last! The perfect blend of sci fi, drama and eroticism. 8)

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Post by: Keaira on July 14, 2013, 11:35:49 AM

I got to thinking about this last night. I chatted with Azmaria about it for a little bit, but...

How is it, that, even when I was presenting as male, long before HRT, guys would find my attractive somehow? But damned if I could ever get the girl. I've had more guys say I love you than women, Lol. Worst. Lesbian. Ever. :P
Azmaria said, " Its because youre beautiful and strong."
This doesnt cover why straight men were interested in me before I ever transitioned.
Ah well, its funny how life goes. After all, I didnt expect to be attracted to guys too in the end.
Wow, I'm pretty F***ed up. Lol.

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Post by: King Malachite on July 14, 2013, 12:06:20 PM

Quote from: Malachite on July 13, 2013, 12:47:56 PM

I just got back from a couple of yardsales with my dad. Since he knows I've been selling a few things here and there online from my room he wants me to upgrade my thinking by buying things to resale. He brought two sample items for me to sale....a bed sheet set or something and a power painter. I'm going to start with the bed sheet set first even though he told me I have 7 days to sell the power painter. Hmmm

So I started out with the power painter and made just made $25 selling it today. I pray that the man does not email me saying it doesn't work. I plugged it in and gave it a dry fire and it seems to work. It's really loud. If the man doesn't email me back or complain to the moderator about me, then my father might be on to something. I might have to start hitting up more yardsales and buying things to resale. It could be a neat little way to save for top surgery. If I'm not careful though, I could lose money but my father says I need to take a chance sometimes. Hmmm, I need to sell that bed skirt next.

I'm still hesitant putting that $25 in my top surgery fund in case the man wants a refund. I made it very clear to him that I don't know anything about power painters so I can't guarantee anything 100 percent. He seemed pretty happy and had a smile on his face, but we will see.

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Post by: CalmRage on July 14, 2013, 12:09:26 PM

Rainbow Rising = Best Blackmore album

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Post by: Edge on July 14, 2013, 12:19:22 PM

I'm watching this show called Grimm and there are these little details that are so heartwarming.

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Post by: Adam (birkin) on July 14, 2013, 01:41:21 PM

Quote from: Keaira on July 14, 2013, 11:35:49 AM
I got to thinking about this last night. I chatted with Azmaria about it for a little bit, but...

How is it, that, even when I was presenting as male, long before HRT, guys would find my attractive somehow? But damned if I could ever get the girl. I've had more guys say I love you than women, Lol. Worst. Lesbian. Ever. :P
Azmaria said, " Its because youre beautiful and strong."
This doesnt cover why straight men were interested in me before I ever transitioned.
Ah well, its funny how life goes. After all, I didnt expect to be attracted to guys too in the end.
Wow, I'm pretty F***ed up. Lol.

Lol, well, from what I gathered a lot of the guys who were attracted to you pre-transition were guys who hadn't seen you, right? That sounds horrible lol, but I mean, you presented as female online. And there are more straight men than lesbian women. I think it was probably your personality. Like on the forum where you do graphics design, the posts you showed me, you come off as real no-BS. I think a lot of guys find that a turn on - the good ones respect it, and the questionable ones see it as a "challenge."

As for in real life, there might have been a few reasons why women didn't approach you. Post-transition, again, lesbians are few and far between. Pre-transition, I can see a lot of women finding you cute, but not really knowing how to approach you. Some girls may have found your being more of an effeminate guy to be a bit off-putting, but I don't think that's the case with most women. I think most straight women don't know how to approach guys who keep to themselves. After all, the socialization is that the man will take action (ask the girl out first, go for the first kiss, etc). That's changing but still very much a part of the general population's psyche, I think. So if they thought you were cute, they might have been afraid to say it.

Btw, it sounds like a lot of guys have said "I love you" to you. :P That's it. I'm hitting the gym and hunting these beaches down. -_-

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Post by: CalmRage on July 14, 2013, 02:57:35 PM

Go away, leave me alone, don't bother me, i don't belong here, i just want to live my life,

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Post by: Tossu-sama on July 14, 2013, 04:18:07 PM

I wonder how many can admit to their mom they're drawing smutty stuff with a straight face... Not to mention the weirdest dialogues me and my mom have.
I was watching that Seven Days of Sex (or whatever its original title is) from the tv when she jokingly said "eww" and I just replied to her "you've been made with sex, too!" She just proceeded to ask my stepdad "did you hear what that kid just said???" while laughing. :D

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Post by: spacerace on July 14, 2013, 04:32:57 PM

Perception is not a very good TV show.

I will still watch every episode this season.

Why am I drawn to bad TV?

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Post by: Renee on July 14, 2013, 04:41:59 PM

I feel completely useless.

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Post by: spacerace on July 14, 2013, 04:49:26 PM

Quote from: jrd on July 14, 2013, 04:41:59 PM
I feel completely useless.

You're not useless, no matter what.

You're useful to yourself. Go take a walk, read a book, learn something by reading a random wikipedia page, whatever. Then, even if in a small way - you are helping yourself and being useful.

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Post by: Keaira on July 14, 2013, 05:19:20 PM

Quote from: Ketchup Packet on July 14, 2013, 01:41:21 PM
Lol, well, from what I gathered a lot of the guys who were attracted to you pre-transition were guys who hadn't seen you, right? That sounds horrible lol, but I mean, you presented as female online. And there are more straight men than lesbian women. I think it was probably your personality. Like on the forum where you do graphics design, the posts you showed me, you come off as real no-BS. I think a lot of guys find that a turn on - the good ones respect it, and the questionable ones see it as a "challenge."

As for in real life, there might have been a few reasons why women didn't approach you. Post-transition, again, lesbians are few and far between. Pre-transition, I can see a lot of women finding you cute, but not really knowing how to approach you. Some girls may have found your being more of an effeminate guy to be a bit off-putting, but I don't think that's the case with most women. I think most straight women don't know how to approach guys who keep to themselves. After all, the socialization is that the man will take action (ask the girl out first, go for the first kiss, etc). That's changing but still very much a part of the general population's psyche, I think. So if they thought you were cute, they might have been afraid to say it.

Btw, it sounds like a lot of guys have said "I love you" to you. :P That's it. I'm hitting the gym and hunting these beaches down. -_-

LOL. You dont have to worry about Competition, because there isn't any ^_^

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Post by: DriftingCrow on July 14, 2013, 06:50:15 PM

Quote from: Malachite on July 14, 2013, 12:06:20 PM
So I started out with the power painter and made just made $25 selling it today. I pray that the man does not email me saying it doesn't work. I plugged it in and gave it a dry fire and it seems to work. It's really loud. If the man doesn't email me back or complain to the moderator about me, then my father might be on to something. I might have to start hitting up more yardsales and buying things to resale. It could be a neat little way to save for top surgery. If I'm not careful though, I could lose money but my father says I need to take a chance sometimes. Hmmm, I need to sell that bed skirt next.

One of my coworkers read up a lot about Coach purses so she can tell the difference between real ones and fakes, now she yardsales and looks specifically for coach purses. She can often buy them at the yardsale for around $10-25 and she sells them on ebay for $75+. I think you'll do good, especially if you can find some kind of specialty.

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Post by: CalmRage on July 14, 2013, 07:15:45 PM

Things CalmRage should do more often #1:

Staying up all night quietly watching a concert movie

Things CalmRage should do more often #2:

Forget my anti-depressants

I can think, i can feel, Sara is shimmering through again. Funny, heh.

So tired, but watching that movie was sooooooo worth it.

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Post by: DriftingCrow on July 14, 2013, 07:26:04 PM

It's hot, maybe I should take me pants off.

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Post by: Adam (birkin) on July 14, 2013, 07:47:33 PM

Quote from: Keaira on July 14, 2013, 05:19:20 PM
LOL. You dont have to worry about Competition, because there isn't any ^_^

Nope, there's not, cause they're all dead. ;D *flex*

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Post by: Tossu-sama on July 15, 2013, 06:21:53 AM

Shingeki no Kyojin fandom is fricking hilarious.

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Post by: CalmRage on July 15, 2013, 07:15:29 AM

Well, I was on my way to this gay Gypsy bar mitzvah for the disabled when I suddenly thought "Gosh, the Third Reich's a bit rubbish. I think I'll kill the Fuehrer."

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Post by: CalmRage on July 15, 2013, 09:29:25 AM

I can't believe i spent an entire hour pretending to play bass with my out-of-order guitar and occasionally singing along. Doesn't help that i'm a complete poser.

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Post by: King Malachite on July 15, 2013, 12:08:23 PM

Quote from: JulieR on July 14, 2013, 12:56:28 PM
Malachite, I've done reselling plenty of times in the past. I always tried to be decent, fair and scrupulous. There were a few times when I screwed up, just about every time that happened, the other person was quite forgiving of my error. On the flip side, I could have a perfect transaction on my end and there were always one or two who found something to whine about. It's just the nature of the beast, do your best and roll with the punches when they happen.

I've messed up about two times before such as forgetting to give the buyer something so I try my best to make it right. If I sell something, then I try to describe it as best as possible but if someone does email me saying it doesn't work etc. then I will geniunely try to do my best to correct the situation but if I feel that I may be in the wrong. On the other hand, I will consider if I think they are just having buyers remorse or broke the item and try to say that it was already broken.

Quote from: LearnedHand on July 14, 2013, 06:50:15 PM
One of my coworkers read up a lot about Coach purses so she can tell the difference between real ones and fakes, now she yardsales and looks specifically for coach purses. She can often buy them at the yardsale for around $10-25 and she sells them on ebay for $75+. I think you'll do good, especially if you can find some kind of specialty.

That's not bad at all! I have somewhat of a specialty in some video games, but I really should extend it. It may net me a lot more profit. I do need to hit up more yardsales.

I'm a bit tired and I need to write in my blog about jobs.

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Post by: CalmRage on July 15, 2013, 12:18:07 PM

I think i might be a human/monkey crossbreed, the amount of body hair is just abnormal. Yuck!

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Post by: Edge on July 15, 2013, 12:59:42 PM

Quote from: CalmRage/RiverRhine on July 15, 2013, 07:15:29 AM
Well, I was on my way to this gay Gypsy bar mitzvah for the disabled when I suddenly thought "Gosh, the Third Reich's a bit rubbish. I think I'll kill the Fuehrer."

"Shut up, Hitler!" That was a good episode.

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Post by: CalmRage on July 15, 2013, 02:06:22 PM

Deep Purple should just retire. To say they're past their prime is an understatement.

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Post by: Edge on July 15, 2013, 03:14:23 PM

I just realized that my favourite remix of "Liar" by Emilie Autumn is done by ASP. ASP reminds me of Fester Addams. Heheh cool.
I seem to have slipped into being mildly ashamed of things I like again. In the case of music, because it's "not metal enough." Who the heck cares? And then there's the goth thing.
Although the shame of liking goth things could also be in part because of me being uncomfortable. There's been a few times where I really liked the melody of a song, but the fact that the singer was a goth and the lyrics were a love song made me remember the possessive, creepy, and sexist "love" of the goths I knew. And by creepy I mean pushy. I like creepy as in Addams Family. Pushy makes me want to grab a sharp instrument to defend myself. Mind you, my views aren't really fair since I'm just basing them on the people I've known. Still, it's hard to shake.

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Post by: Sol Luca on July 15, 2013, 03:26:12 PM

I kinda miss my puppy. Haven't seen her in like 3 weeks. :(

Can't wait to get home. I shall snug her with all me might!

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Post by: CalmRage on July 15, 2013, 03:59:19 PM

I just got a crazy idea, i can't wait to write it down.

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Post by: Anna++ on July 15, 2013, 06:24:32 PM

I usually don't drink, but I'm still feeling shaken up from yesterday and I feel I've earned one (but just one)

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Post by: ~RoadToTrista~ on July 15, 2013, 10:04:36 PM

I've lately been feeling more lonely and more desiring of romantic or intimate companionship. It's never really bothered me like this until now

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Post by: King Malachite on July 15, 2013, 10:11:02 PM

What I think I may do is call Gamestop tommorrow and ask them do they still trade PSP cases, or will they accept mine if if I traded a PSP along with it if I did so. If they say yes, then I will heavily consider just trading all of my PSP stuff up there. If not then I will still consider, but before I do so, I'll slash the price of my entire lot one more time to $100 and if I don't get at least $95 for all then off to Gamestop it will go. I may not get money to put towards top surgery with it, but at least I'll have some store credit to put towards some of the upcoming video games and with so many great titles coming out, I will need a lot of store credit. Well maybe if I do buy a game with the store credit, I can sell it for cash later on so it may not be a total loss.

I am a broke gamer lol.

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Post by: Tadpole on July 15, 2013, 10:13:14 PM

Rushing thoughts through my head, but I was probably going to try to write some sort of blog or something. I was going to start by writing it in a notebook and might not go online with it. This tea that I made was overly strong. I feel like I'm not going to be awake much longer. This makes me think of a scene in a video game. I think that people criticize me for not being "international" enough. Maybe I'm just a nationalistic redneck. Probably not. Anyway, it's a bunch of nonsense. Getting away would be great. I'm kind of tired of having a lack of that kind of "companionship" as well. And people acting like it's some quick band-aid solution to go on some online personal site. It's a bunch of annoying nonsense. Stuffed animals are the new "in".

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Post by: Sara Thomas on July 15, 2013, 10:29:25 PM

I am thinking about an email response I received, that read: "what r u saying? so confused"...

... and my mental reply (because there will be no actual one): "Yes... I know."

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Post by: CalmRage on July 16, 2013, 04:17:17 AM

On my way to therapy. I don't need therapy.

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Post by: King Malachite on July 16, 2013, 06:21:49 AM

This guy messaged me from Craigslist and I can't tell if he's a scammer but it seems like it. He asked me do I still have it (PSP) for sale and I told him yes. Then he goes on to say how he "want a nice stuff" for his cousin and asks if I have Paypal to recieve the funds. I told him no and then he's encouraging me to set one up and tells me to get back to him as soon as I do. I emailed me no I prefer to meet in person. Be a man, buddy and meet me face to face if you want to buy it from me. CL isn't designed to do sales online and if you aren't trying to scam people, then you should have no problem meeting me. *puffed out chest*

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Post by: Keaira on July 16, 2013, 06:40:41 AM

Quote from: Ketchup Packet on July 10, 2013, 04:12:56 PM
I really like that analogy. I wouldn't be surprised if in your past life you caused a lot of trouble in class. ;)

Probably trying to get your attention. :P

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Post by: King Malachite on July 16, 2013, 06:49:55 AM

There are a ton of dishes in the sink but I did dishes yesterday so today isn't my day to do them but something tells me that my mother will get angry if I don't do them....especially since we aren't on speaking terms rightn ow. *sigh*

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Post by: CalmRage on July 16, 2013, 07:05:28 AM

He's so drunk (or under mindcontrol by Blackmore? ;D)

Deep Purple - Demons Eye (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HzHCs8oSPCE&list=PLIrUP8W6iDAPTf2UZ6a9PkO86Ii1S6Cgp&index=13#)

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Post by: Adam (birkin) on July 16, 2013, 11:25:00 AM

Ugh to my thesis. This has been a true test of perseverance.

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Post by: King Malachite on July 16, 2013, 12:01:00 PM

I was telling my sister about how it might be a good idea to take the dispatching job because when I move out of state, that will be more experience I would have and it would help me get another dispatching job.

My sister started saying things like "why do you want to move away from family so bad? You act like you hate us."

Even though moving is FAR off, I think about it like this: I'm not moving because I hate my family. I'm moving because for once, I finally love myself (or at least I'm trying to)

If by some grace mother lets me have top surgery under her roof, I may push it to where I get on Androgel for a specific amount of time. That way the changes are slow enough that they aren't too noticable while living as female. My voice is pretty high so I'm looking for a slightly deeper voice to make me feel more confident even while presenting as female, but I'll take it one step at a time. For now, I'm just going to focus on raising the money.

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Post by: CalmRage on July 16, 2013, 12:04:30 PM

What the hell happened exactly at the California Jam 1974? Whose brilliant idea was it to deliberately blow up an amp, which went wrong and set half the stage on fire?

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Post by: King Malachite on July 16, 2013, 12:13:28 PM

Grrrrrrr I wish Gamestop would pick up their phone!

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Post by: Liminal Stranger on July 16, 2013, 12:18:22 PM

Digimon: Digital Monsters!

Sometimes I think I should go work as an IT guy, just to provide tech support beyond "have you tried turning it off and turning it back on again?". Honestly, if I say the set-top box isn't locking onto a signal, what makes you think a diagnostic you're trying to run via that signal is going to go through? The guy sounded so surprised when it didn't give a diagnostic or reset and said my box is frozen...no s**t sherlock, what'd you think I meant by "It's not locking onto the carrier signal"?

Though he didn't say ma'am. Not that he said sir, but he didn't say ma'am ;D

I was talking to a friend of mine last night (also stealth to them) and when I went to speak at one point, my one word response came out around two octaves higher than my normal speaking voice in one of the worst cracks I've had in a while. He was dying of laughter because my vocal cords "exploded", but then he cracked too. Revenge! :P

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Post by: Jamie D on July 16, 2013, 12:46:35 PM

Quote from: CalmRage/RiverRhine on July 16, 2013, 12:04:30 PM
What the hell happened exactly at the California Jam 1974? Whose brilliant idea was it to deliberately blow up an amp, which went wrong and set half the stage on fire?

I remember that! I was in high school at the time!

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Post by: CalmRage on July 16, 2013, 12:49:30 PM

Quote from: Jamie D on July 16, 2013, 12:46:35 PM
I remember that! I was in high school at the time!

got the complete show on DVD.
I watched the bit with the amplifiers over and over. Blackmore smashing a camera just before that incident is also something, especially so on the DVD where you see it from that camera's perspective.

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Post by: Adam (birkin) on July 16, 2013, 01:13:42 PM

I don't feel very well at all. I feel weak, like almost dizzy. Cold sweaty. I'm pretty sure it has to do with the terrible sleep I had. If you can call it sleep. It was more "lay in bed spaced out as f--- as things that make no sense enter my head." I also didn't have breakfast, only the mango smoothie my brother bought me at McDonalds.

I do have a veggie and hummus sandwich (*hippie*) in the office fridge, along with an orange...no protein in that though. Should have known better.

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Post by: CalmRage on July 16, 2013, 01:16:31 PM

I watched a documentary. It depressed me. Awful, what happened.

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Post by: Edge on July 16, 2013, 02:29:17 PM

I need more time. I need my mail too. This is really stressing me out.
I'm wondering if I'm ever going to be able to complete my sewing projects and if they'll look as good as I want them to or if they'll be crap.
The usual complaint of I wonder if I'll ever be seen as who I am.
One of my friends said he was lonely, so I said "Hi" and he acted all awkward. Ohhhh he didn't actually mean lonely. WHY can't people say what they mean? It would make socializing so much easier. I wonder if I'm the only one who finds the term "lonely" as a euphemism for horny creepy. Then again, I think everything to do with that stuff creepy.

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Post by: Adam (birkin) on July 16, 2013, 02:42:53 PM

LOL, whenever I hear someone say "I'm lonely" too, it always makes me think it has something to do with sex.

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Post by: CalmRage on July 16, 2013, 03:02:04 PM

I am probably going to get a new guitar. Thank god, that old Ibanez can no longer stay in tune. It's a mess and it is falling apart..

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Post by: CalmRage on July 16, 2013, 03:10:51 PM

->-bleeped-<-, i need to clean mý room RIGHT NOW. Tomorrow i'll have some visitors.

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Post by: Edge on July 16, 2013, 03:17:46 PM

Quote from: Ketchup Packet on July 16, 2013, 02:42:53 PM
LOL, whenever I hear someone say "I'm lonely" too, it always makes me think it has something to do with sex.

When I say it, I really just mean I feel loneliness.

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Post by: King Malachite on July 16, 2013, 03:21:38 PM

I'm always the bad guy in this house. Many times, it feels like none of my family is on my side. It's pretty bad when I have to say "(censored) you" to myself in relation to my pastor sister. I wonder what's going to be my breaking point between my mother and I. It's a tough pill to swallow knowing that I want to stay here to raise money for top surgery faster, as well as recover in this house. That's a VERY tough pill to swallow, but I have to swallow it. The term "fake it till you make it" is becoming even more important to me. If I have to fake saying "you were right I was wrong, forgive me" then I guess I'll have to. I kind of wish I had more friends so I could just crash at their place more often like some people do. I envy my brother for at least having an apartment to go to when my mother starts acting up. He's autistic though and the goverment is paying for his apartment. Plus, he's a cis male so he will never have to go through the torment I go through with transitioning stuff.

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Post by: CalmRage on July 16, 2013, 04:03:06 PM

Just like a circle, baby. It's all like going in circles.

WILDMAN FISHER -- THE CIRCLE (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-GTwhdypLFU#)

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Post by: CalmRage on July 16, 2013, 05:06:51 PM

I'll never go see Deep Purple again, unless they ditch Gillan.

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Post by: Jamie D on July 16, 2013, 05:25:57 PM

Quote from: Ketchup Packet on July 16, 2013, 02:42:53 PM
LOL, whenever I hear someone say "I'm lonely" too, it always makes me think it has something to do with sex.

It certainly can have something to do with sex. But more likely, companionship. Almost all of needs to be with other people. It is in our genes. We are a social species.

And furthermore, we in this community have special needs. We need to know and interact with others who understand us. I have said before, I can stand in a crowded room and feel incredibly lonely.

I have only met one real tranwoman in real life (that I knew about - maybe I have met dozens and did not recognize them as trans - which is a good thing, I guess). I may have met one transman too, about a couple of years ago at a local GLBT counseling center, just before they shut down. Truthfully, the presentation was androgynous, but the manly voice cause me dissonance.

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Post by: CalmRage on July 16, 2013, 05:41:16 PM

I think i've finally realized the full manipulative power of commercials that use classical music. Now, when i hear certain pieces (played as part of a solo for example) i get a craving for coffee (which i hate). I am so ashamed for letting them brainwash me.

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Post by: King Malachite on July 16, 2013, 05:51:41 PM

At least I will have my Susan's family whenever the you know what hits the fan when I come out to rest of my biological family.

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Post by: CalmRage on July 16, 2013, 05:55:49 PM

Quote from: Malachite on July 16, 2013, 05:51:41 PM
At least I will have my Susan's family whenever the you know what hits the fan when I come out to rest of my biological family.

That's the spirit!

Now, have a virtual jelly-baby!

(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2F25.media.tumblr.com%2Ftumblr_lv8wl4urXo1qb34nxo1_500.jpg&hash=009de54a13d3c49cff89045504b840f42ea27f4c)

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Post by: CalmRage on July 16, 2013, 06:13:28 PM

Steam summer sale and i'm out of money "bites nails".

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Post by: zombieinc on July 17, 2013, 02:28:45 PM

Thinking that in half an hour, I'm going to see a good friend that I haven't seen in awhile.

I think that she gets me in a way that no one else does, at least not now.

And I'm also thinking that I probably shouldn't read too much into anything she says. She's very blunt and upfront with her opinions.

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Post by: Jam on July 17, 2013, 05:49:12 PM

Why do people pray for hot weather so much in the UK?? I don't understand it, everything I'm trying to do I'm just boiling hot and too lethargic. I can't sleep because its so warm and I can't open the window because I get a million bugs flying in. No one has air con, no one has a pool, lots of people don't even have air con in their cars so why? Why moan about not having this all the time?.

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Post by: Renee on July 17, 2013, 05:50:59 PM

I have a/c in my house and my car and I still hate hot weather. I wanna smack people who actually say they love it.

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Post by: Shantel on July 17, 2013, 05:52:56 PM

Quote from: Jam on July 17, 2013, 05:49:12 PM
Why do people pray for hot weather so much in the UK?? I don't understand it, everything I'm trying to do I'm just boiling hot and too lethargic. I can't sleep because its so warm and I can't open the window because I get a million bugs flying in. No one has air con, no one has a pool, lots of people don't even have air con in their cars so why? Why moan about not having this all the time?.

I don't get it either. Low to mid seventies is quite pleasant but Northern European types don't do well in real hot weather. If it were so then we'd have darker skin pigmentation and not all have to sweat skin cancer so much.

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Post by: Renee on July 17, 2013, 05:53:53 PM

I'm watching honey boo boo right now. Why? I have no idea other than to see how stupid it is. I hope they save a copy of every episode and show it to that girl when she's about 15 years old. Hopefully it will prevent her from doing the same to her child in the future.

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Post by: Shantel on July 17, 2013, 05:54:52 PM

Quote from: jrd on July 17, 2013, 05:50:59 PM
I have a/c in my house and my car and I still hate hot weather. I wanna smack people who actually say they love it.

Use hair spray and a zippo lighter if they want it hot! >:-)

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Post by: Shantel on July 17, 2013, 05:56:41 PM

Quote from: jrd on July 17, 2013, 05:53:53 PM
I'm watching honey boo boo right now. Why? I have no idea other than to see how stupid it is. I hope they save a copy of every episode and show it to that girl when she's about 15 years old. Hopefully it will prevent her from doing the same to her child in the future.

Jake will probably barf on your couch as payback for ignoring him and watching something so insipid.

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Post by: Renee on July 17, 2013, 05:59:17 PM

Quote from: Shantel on July 17, 2013, 05:56:41 PM
Jake will probably barf on your couch as payback for ignoring him and watching something so insipid.

I just got through barking a song to him and throwing his rawhide down the hallway repeatedly. Not to mention the ride to the store and the long way back so he could get some air time on his doggy face.

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Post by: Shantel on July 17, 2013, 06:01:07 PM

Quote from: jrd on July 17, 2013, 05:59:17 PM
I just got through barking a song to him and throwing his rawhide down the hallway repeatedly. Not to mention the ride to the store and the long way back so he could get some air time on his doggy face.

They do love to hang out the window! My dog has scratched up my paint job with his big nails.

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Post by: Devlyn on July 17, 2013, 06:10:30 PM

Going to cook. Don't act up, I'll be back in half an hour!

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Post by: Renee on July 17, 2013, 06:15:05 PM

Quote from: Shantel on July 17, 2013, 06:01:07 PM
They do love to hang out the window! My dog has scratched up my paint job with his big nails.

I have to hold Jake's tail so he doesn't try to jump out when we slow down or stop. Plus he's accidently rolled his head up in the window before...

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Post by: Renee on July 17, 2013, 06:15:52 PM

Quote from: Devlyn Marie on July 17, 2013, 06:10:30 PM
Going to cook. Don't act up, I'll be back in half an hour!

Wee, Devilyn is gone, we can have fun now!!

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Post by: Shantel on July 17, 2013, 06:18:48 PM

Quote from: jrd on July 17, 2013, 06:15:52 PM
Wee, Devilyn is gone, we can have fun now!!

The sky's the limit, where's her car keys?

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Post by: Renee on July 17, 2013, 06:23:53 PM

She probably hid them.

And come to think of it, I need to eat too.

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Post by: King Malachite on July 17, 2013, 06:43:14 PM

I want a Deep Deep Dish Pizza from Little Caesars. They are sooo good!

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Post by: Antonia J on July 17, 2013, 07:23:08 PM

Wig, or keep growing hair out?

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Post by: Antonia J on July 17, 2013, 07:33:40 PM

Quote from: JulieR on July 17, 2013, 07:24:54 PM
Grow hair. Wigs are a pain and unless you spend a lot of money for human hair, don't look very good IMHO.

Thanks! That is actually helpful - I am only 10 months in and like what I see so far. It is just so sloooooooooooow :)

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Post by: Renee on July 17, 2013, 07:39:52 PM

Its kind of funny to me when a neighbor has to call me to get their wireless router password.

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Post by: Edge on July 17, 2013, 08:58:00 PM

Sometimes, I want to burst in hammy, maniacal laughter.

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Post by: King Malachite on July 17, 2013, 09:40:58 PM

video games

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Post by: Simon on July 17, 2013, 10:26:20 PM

Trying to figure out a good film to watch. Hmm, "The Chronicles of Riddick" maybe....help me refresh before the new Riddick film comes out.

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Post by: King Malachite on July 17, 2013, 10:57:34 PM

I wish my top surgery fund was the number of my post count. That would be VERY awesome!

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Post by: zombieinc on July 18, 2013, 12:25:47 AM

Thinking about the letter I wrote...7.5 pages of my crappy handwriting. And I'm not even sure I'll send it. Eh. I needed to get some of that stuff out, so even I don't send it and it ends up in my nightstand drawer next to my stack of journals and sketchbooks, I know that I wrote it. At last. Saying goodbye to the way it never was...

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Post by: Simon on July 18, 2013, 04:16:39 AM

Lost a friend today because I'm stubborn and opinionated, apparently.

I refused to let them belittle me for my beliefs. They said I don't know how to take a joke. Taking a dig at someone for their personal beliefs isn't joking.

I all but give up on making lasting friendships. I'll just keep acquaintances, screw it.

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Post by: Edge on July 18, 2013, 08:04:38 AM

I end up in similar situations, Simon. I refuse to let people treat me as inferior and they have a problem with that.

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Post by: CalmRage on July 18, 2013, 08:32:30 AM

Thinking about cutting my hair to distance myself from the delusions i have suffered.

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Post by: CalmRage on July 18, 2013, 09:02:41 AM

Lemme take a minute & tell you my plan
Lemme take a minute & tell who I am
If it doesn't show
Think you better know
I'm another person

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Post by: CalmRage on July 18, 2013, 09:04:16 AM

If I no longer post here, it doesn't mean i'm dead. Actually it means i've stopped deluding myself.

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Post by: King Malachite on July 18, 2013, 11:11:14 AM

Duke Nukem is a strong manly man. I wouldn't mind being him.

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Post by: DriftingCrow on July 18, 2013, 11:18:26 AM

I think I am going to buy myself an early birthday present (tickets for Singin' in the Rain) through groupon

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Post by: King Malachite on July 18, 2013, 11:37:44 AM

In this economy, gamers are being more careful in the video games they purchase.....especially at full price. They are doing their research now. I am one of those gamers lol. Mentally I picture all the developers dropped into an arena with swords and fighting for who gets my initial $60 bucks.

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Post by: Heather on July 18, 2013, 11:49:31 AM

Quote from: Malachite on July 18, 2013, 11:11:14 AM
Duke Nukem is a strong manly man.

Who happens to be completely sexist with an IQ of like 30! ;)

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Post by: CalmRage on July 18, 2013, 12:12:30 PM

Quote from: CalmRage/RiverRhine on July 18, 2013, 08:32:30 AM
Thinking about cutting my hair to distance myself from the delusions i have suffered.

Done! Even uglier now but who cares?

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Post by: Jamie D on July 18, 2013, 12:24:18 PM

Quote from: CalmRage/RiverRhine on July 18, 2013, 12:12:30 PM
Done! Even uglier now but who cares?

At least it was just hair. Hair grows back. Skin leaves scars.

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Post by: Jamie D on July 18, 2013, 12:25:39 PM

Quote from: Antonia J on July 17, 2013, 07:33:40 PM
Thanks! That is actually helpful - I am only 10 months in and like what I see so far. It is just so sloooooooooooow :)

Try a biotin supplement @ 5,000 mcg per day

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Post by: CalmRage on July 18, 2013, 12:31:59 PM

Quote from: Jamie D on July 18, 2013, 12:24:18 PM
At least it was just hair. Hair grows back. Skin leaves scars.

Somehow i don't look more masculine now. I actually look even more like a butch lesbian now!?! Weird stupid body, what the hell is going on here, i don't know.
Next on my list:

Grow a beard,
cut off all my hair (don't ask me why)
manning up in general

Since the "Sara" business is too confusing and going nowhere thought-wise.

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Post by: Heather on July 18, 2013, 12:39:19 PM

Quote from: CalmRage/RiverRhine on July 18, 2013, 12:31:59 PM
Somehow i don't look more masculine now. I actually look even more like a butch lesbian now!?! Weird stupid body, what the hell is going on here, i don't know.
Next on my list:

Grow a beard,
cut off all my hair (don't ask me why)
manning up in general

Since the "Sara" business is too confusing and going nowhere thought-wise.

Well I hope it works out for you. :)

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Post by: CalmRage on July 18, 2013, 12:42:30 PM

Amazing album, "Pearl". Amazing, amazing and i haven't even finished listening to it. After that, a prog rock masterpiece, Yessongs.

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Post by: Edge on July 18, 2013, 12:45:10 PM

Quote from: Miss Bungle on July 18, 2013, 12:13:31 PM
I don't blame you for ditching them. If you have to tip toe around someone, especially when they are being a jerk they aren't worth your time. So many people confuse being "jokey" with being a moronic dick.

It comes down to people thinking they can be jerks and get away with it at all times. You should always stand up for yourself no matter what the cost may be. I've always said I would rather spend my life completely alone rather than have idiots around me that treat me like crap just to have a mirage of a social component.

I agree with you. I would rather be alone than pander to those kinds of people.

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Post by: CalmRage on July 18, 2013, 12:49:22 PM

Quote from: JulieR on July 18, 2013, 12:48:04 PM
On "Pearl", play "Half Moon" at max volume with max bass.

That voice. Ohhhhh, i could listen to it for ages and never stop. I bought the "Pearl Sessions" two cd version earlier this day. Great way to start with Joplin for me.

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Post by: King Malachite on July 18, 2013, 01:15:25 PM

Quote from: Heather on July 18, 2013, 11:49:31 AM
Who happens to be completely sexist with an IQ of like 30! ;)

With awesome sunglasses!

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Post by: Adam (birkin) on July 18, 2013, 01:28:50 PM

Quote from: Simon on July 18, 2013, 04:16:39 AM
Lost a friend today because I'm stubborn and opinionated, apparently.

I refused to let them belittle me for my beliefs. They said I don't know how to take a joke. Taking a dig at someone for their personal beliefs isn't joking.

I all but give up on making lasting friendships. I'll just keep acquaintances, screw it.

Lasting friendships are really hard to make. I find a minority of people truly hang on to their closest friends, which kind of worries me, but I'm working on accepting that people come and go. And sometimes you have to stand your ground and end up reaching an impasse.

Quote from: Liam Erik on July 18, 2013, 11:24:13 AM
I ran again and improved my time again and felt ill afterwards again, which I don't mind. Felt like I should shower but didn't because I put my T on twelve hours ago. Technically I could wash it off after what, six hours? but I don't want to in case there's yet a smidgen I'd be missing out on. I love my T. I like knowing it's there.

Non sequitur: I have ripe tomatoes now and green chili peppers. They are delicious.

I was like that with gel too lol. In that sense switching to shots was a relief because I got to shower whenever I wanted without thinking I was losing my T.

Quote from: Malachite on July 18, 2013, 11:37:44 AM
In this economy, gamers are being more careful in the video games they purchase.....especially at full price. They are doing their research now. I am one of those gamers lol. Mentally I picture all the developers dropped into an arena with swords and fighting for who gets my initial $60 bucks.

I know. When I was a kid I had tons of games (granted, we got many of them at garage sales so they were cheaper, but still), but now...trying to get me to buy a game is like trying to get blood from a stone. I've bought 5 games in the last 12 months or so - Resident Evil 6, Tomb Raider, Halo 4, Resident Evil: Revelations, and Pokemon Black 2 lmao.

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Post by: wanderingamoeba on July 18, 2013, 01:32:34 PM

I am thinking I have six-and-a-half days left at this job, and they can't pass quickly enough. Ready for bigger and better (and, it appears, more open and accepting) things!

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Post by: King Malachite on July 18, 2013, 01:48:39 PM

Quote from: Ketchup Packet on July 18, 2013, 01:28:50 PM
I know. When I was a kid I had tons of games (granted, we got many of them at garage sales so they were cheaper, but still), but now...trying to get me to buy a game is like trying to get blood from a stone. I've bought 5 games in the last 12 months or so - Resident Evil 6, Tomb Raider, Halo 4, Resident Evil: Revelations, and Pokemon Black 2 lmao.

That's how my gaming is nowadays. With the exception of buying one (maybe two) games at full price, I usually just wait to rack up on Black Friday. So I play about 5-7 games per year. It doesn't help when Gamestop conveniently has an awesome trade-in deal with a lot of those big titles, making me choose between getting a lot of the money I paid back in store credit or keeping the game that I haven't fully explored yet, even though I may have beaten it. Decisions decisions.

I was so interested in Tomb Raider that I just watched the entire walkthrough like a movie. Now that I know what happens, my desire for the game has lessened so I don't have the urge to go purchase it. Great storyline though! I will probably do the same with two other games I have in mind. Talk about saving money!

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Post by: Renee on July 18, 2013, 01:59:35 PM

I watched all the episodes of hit and miss today and I actually liked the show. Didn't think they did us any sort of disservice with it.

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Post by: CalmRage on July 18, 2013, 02:00:20 PM

Yessongs = greatest live album EVER!

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Post by: King Malachite on July 18, 2013, 02:02:03 PM

I didn't want to throw my gum away in the trash can so I made a hole in a big ant pile with a stick and dropped my piece of chewed gum in it.

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Post by: CalmRage on July 18, 2013, 02:14:33 PM

I've Seen All Good People Turn Their Heads These Days So Satisfying On My Way,
that mountains came out of the sky and just stood there, like an old centaur, singing his songs, playing music from big pink, he then asked me for a mercedes benz, since his friends all drive porsches and he must make amends. He had a funny, smoky, girly voice and seemed mentally "close to the edge". I then said "Yours Is No Disgrace, And You And I, yes you and Me and Bobby McGee are going for some fish (Schindleria Praematurus) later on." He then introduced himself as "Siberian Khatru" and told me that i was standing at the gates of delirium and that soon the light will join us for a roundabout in the heart of the sunrise.

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Post by: CalmRage on July 18, 2013, 03:17:32 PM

Please don't send me school, please don't. I will probably try to jump again.

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Post by: DriftingCrow on July 18, 2013, 03:27:37 PM

Quote from: Liam Erik on July 18, 2013, 11:24:13 AM

Non sequitur: I have ripe tomatoes now and green chili peppers. They are delicious.

I just picked one of my ripe tomatos too, my peppers need to be taken out of the starter planters.

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Post by: King Malachite on July 18, 2013, 03:31:49 PM

video games

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Post by: Edge on July 18, 2013, 04:46:25 PM

My first endo appointment is tomorrow and I'm both really nervous and excited at the same time. Mostly nervous.

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Post by: Shantel on July 18, 2013, 04:58:08 PM

Quote from: Edge on July 18, 2013, 04:46:25 PM
My first endo appointment is tomorrow and I'm both really nervous and excited at the same time. Mostly nervous.

Piece of cake, you can do it!

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Post by: spacerace on July 18, 2013, 05:01:54 PM

Quote from: Edge on July 18, 2013, 04:46:25 PM
My first endo appointment is tomorrow and I'm both really nervous and excited at the same time. Mostly nervous.

good luck! I had my first appointment last week and I was really nervous. They took my blood pressure at the beginning of the appointment and the end because it was high the first time - it had dropped significantly once the appointment was over, probably because of how anxious I was about it all

you can do it!

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Post by: Edge on July 18, 2013, 05:48:36 PM

Thanks Shantel, JulieR, and spacerace. :)

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Post by: zombieinc on July 18, 2013, 06:14:45 PM

I want to break free!

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Post by: Adam (birkin) on July 18, 2013, 06:44:07 PM

Quote from: Malachite on July 18, 2013, 01:48:39 PM
I was so interested in Tomb Raider that I just watched the entire walkthrough like a movie. Now that I know what happens, my desire for the game has lessened so I don't have the urge to go purchase it. Great storyline though! I will probably do the same with two other games I have in mind. Talk about saving money!

Yeah, it is great! It's an amazing game. I never finished though, I got distracted by life so it's just been sitting there lol.

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Post by: King Malachite on July 18, 2013, 09:47:10 PM

Quote from: Ketchup Packet on July 18, 2013, 06:44:07 PM
Yeah, it is great! It's an amazing game. I never finished though, I got distracted by life so it's just been sitting there lol.

You gotta treat Miss Lara better than that man! :o

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Post by: Adam (birkin) on July 18, 2013, 09:57:52 PM

Quote from: Malachite on July 18, 2013, 09:47:10 PM
You gotta treat Miss Lara better than that man! :o

I know lol. I've been neglecting the poor woman.

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Post by: King Malachite on July 18, 2013, 10:30:22 PM

Quote from: Ketchup Packet on July 18, 2013, 09:57:52 PM
I know lol. I've been neglecting the poor woman.

Can't neglect an attractive young lady like that, lest she comes at you with her bow and arrow. >:-)

I'm thinking about getting a job after the summer is over. I may fill out an application to be a dispatcher but I would need to have my license first. Plus I'm kind of concerned that my no credit/no job experience aside from an internship would hinder me getting hired. I have my degree and getting some extra certification so that could help considering the minimum requirement is a high school diploma/GED. I'm also single with no kids or no one depdendant on me so I have A LOT of time on my hands. If it doesn't work out then there's always the dishwashing job. At least I could ride the bus to that job to save on money.

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Post by: K Style Addiction on July 19, 2013, 01:06:34 AM

It sucks to be me

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Post by: DriftingCrow on July 19, 2013, 05:36:43 AM

Quote from: Malachite on July 18, 2013, 10:30:22 PM
I'm thinking about getting a job after the summer is over. I may fill out an application to be a dispatcher but I would need to have my license first. Plus I'm kind of concerned that my no credit/no job experience aside from an internship would hinder me getting hired. I have my degree and getting some extra certification so that could help considering the minimum requirement is a high school diploma/GED. I'm also single with no kids or no one depdendant on me so I have A LOT of time on my hands. If it doesn't work out then there's always the dishwashing job. At least I could ride the bus to that job to save on money.

If you can't get hired as a dispatcher, you shouldn't become a dishwasher sicne you do have a degree. You should apply at Securitas (which I know they have in your state) or another security company. They're really easy to get hired at, the job is easy (I know people who would bring a small TV and their Xbox to work, I would listen to the radio all night or do my homework), and there's (albeit small) room for advancement if you stick around enough. A bit of time there might help you get better job later on more than washing dishes. This time of year there's less positions available, but apply now, if you don't get hired, try again around Oct/Nov when they're getting ready to hire extra guards during the Holiday season.

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Post by: CalmRage on July 19, 2013, 06:00:57 AM

I think i might have catched the flu from my hairdresser and my entire upper vocal range is gone too. Let's hope it's just a cold. Great way to start the holidays and i wasn't in school either, too dangerous.

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Post by: CalmRage on July 19, 2013, 06:39:58 AM

Stop, hey, what's that sound? Everybody look, what's going down?

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Post by: King Malachite on July 19, 2013, 06:53:42 AM

Quote from: LearnedHand on July 19, 2013, 05:36:43 AM
If you can't get hired as a dispatcher, you shouldn't become a dishwasher sicne you do have a degree. You should apply at Securitas (which I know they have in your state) or another security company. They're really easy to get hired at, the job is easy (I know people who would bring a small TV and their Xbox to work, I would listen to the radio all night or do my homework), and there's (albeit small) room for advancement if you stick around enough. A bit of time there might help you get better job later on more than washing dishes. This time of year there's less positions available, but apply now, if you don't get hired, try again around Oct/Nov when they're getting ready to hire extra guards during the Holiday season.

Going into security was my first choice. I tried to search it but the closest Securitas I found was in GA. Even if that doesn't work, we do have a Universial Protection Service down here I believe, and a American Security Service.

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Post by: CalmRage on July 19, 2013, 07:50:51 AM

Something that happened in the supermarket really made me wonder. Unbelievable, almost like some supernatural employee works there, what a coincidence.....

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Post by: CalmRage on July 19, 2013, 08:21:34 AM

When i try to scream like Ian Gillan, it sounds like a cat hissing.

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Post by: wanderingamoeba on July 19, 2013, 09:26:59 AM

It's so hot and humid that it feels like my brain is melting out my ears. Someday, I will have a home with air conditioning. Someday.

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Post by: Adam (birkin) on July 19, 2013, 03:20:20 PM

It was easy the first day to feed pills to my dog. I would slip it into some cheese and she'd be happy. But now, she's either sick of cheese or getting wise lol. I got the first two in fairly easily, but I had to hide the bigger pill in a lot of beef to trick her into swallowing it.

She's getting worse though. It's only the first day of treatment so of course the pills won't work quite yet, but I do hope she turns around in the next few days.

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Post by: CalmRage on July 19, 2013, 03:28:20 PM

WHERE ARE YOU, DEEP PURPLE "LIVE IN MONTREUX 1969"? I don't think i'll make it through this soundboard of a three hour uninspired Led Zeppelin concert.

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Post by: King Malachite on July 19, 2013, 03:37:32 PM

If I can clear all of the Hatsune Miku Project Diva stage demos, then I may be interested in purchasing it when it drops in price. It's at the VERY bottom of my list though and just barely.

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Post by: Renee on July 19, 2013, 09:54:14 PM

I'm glad the dork quit today even though I ended up having to be at work for about 18 hours due to having to work both shifts. now I guess I'll be getting some overtime switching back and forth between first and second shifts until we get someone new and trained.

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Post by: DriftingCrow on July 19, 2013, 09:58:42 PM

I wish my little finger had a longer fingernail so I could get that itch inside my ear.

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Post by: King Malachite on July 20, 2013, 12:01:34 AM

One of the biggest reasons why I want to move up north (aside from the north generally being more tolerating of LBGT) is because of public transportation. I hate driving with a passion. It's sooooo stressful and I dread the strong possibilty that I will have to start driving when I work. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it! After I'm healed from top surgery (and have taken a trip to anime expo) I will look more heavily into moving up north where there is better public transportation.

I'll probably write more about it in my blog later as I just suddenly grew too lazy to type the rest of my thoughts out on it.

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Post by: zombieinc on July 20, 2013, 12:13:50 AM

I just listened to an entire album to hear one song....which I don't even remember hearing.

And I just re-wrote a letter that I've written like 33 times in the past two days.

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Post by: Renee on July 20, 2013, 07:09:16 AM

Gonna have neighbors to the south of me again, someone rented the place. At least they aren't total strangers though and they don't mind little dogs.

And speaking of little dogs, mine just farted next to me. *gags*

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Post by: DriftingCrow on July 20, 2013, 07:25:59 AM

It's too hot to exercise and drinking all this water is making me have to pee way too often. I should exercise today because I am going to get clam cakes and chowder later. . .

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Post by: King Malachite on July 20, 2013, 07:37:19 AM

I'm becoming more like Alex Jones in my paranoia each day. That's going to send me to an early grave.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Shantel on July 20, 2013, 07:43:49 AM

Quote from: Ketchup Packet on July 19, 2013, 03:20:20 PM
It was easy the first day to feed pills to my dog. I would slip it into some cheese and she'd be happy. But now, she's either sick of cheese or getting wise lol. I got the first two in fairly easily, but I had to hide the bigger pill in a lot of beef to trick her into swallowing it.

She's getting worse though. It's only the first day of treatment so of course the pills won't work quite yet, but I do hope she turns around in the next few days.

They always get wise to anything we do differently and think there's some kind of conspiracy going on. Hope she turns the corner for you Caleb.

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Post by: DriftingCrow on July 20, 2013, 07:49:04 AM

Quote from: Ketchup Packet on July 19, 2013, 03:20:20 PM
It was easy the first day to feed pills to my dog. I would slip it into some cheese and she'd be happy. But now, she's either sick of cheese or getting wise lol. I got the first two in fairly easily, but I had to hide the bigger pill in a lot of beef to trick her into swallowing it.

She's getting worse though. It's only the first day of treatment so of course the pills won't work quite yet, but I do hope she turns around in the next few days.

You might want to try those pill pockets they sell at places like Petco

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Post by: Shantel on July 20, 2013, 07:55:10 AM

Quote from: jrd on July 20, 2013, 07:09:16 AM

And speaking of little dogs, mine just farted next to me. *gags*

Uh-yeah, feeding him pizza crust will surely cause that to happen. :D

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Post by: Renee on July 20, 2013, 08:42:58 AM

Quote from: Shantel on July 20, 2013, 07:55:10 AM
Uh-yeah, feeding him pizza crust will surely cause that to happen. :D

The dog food with vegetables in it does it to him. yesterday, I was gone for 18 hours with one little break to let him out to go, so he didn't eat anything the last day and a half but doggy food. I tried some dog food one time with even more vegetables in it and it made him way worse on farting.

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Post by: CalmRage on July 20, 2013, 09:13:32 AM

I cannot be Sara because i do not hate "CENSORED" off.

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Post by: DriftingCrow on July 20, 2013, 09:39:26 AM

Oh my gosh, I really don't know how people get through law school without rich parents. I am really going to have to take a loan just to pay for bar exam admission fees: RI bar I need $800 for application fee + $600 for them to look into my moral character, for MA I need $815 for the application fee, plus I'll need to pay to get my criminal background checks done and ugh. . .

I am going to have to follow Malachite's lead and start saving loose change.

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Post by: Shantel on July 20, 2013, 09:45:40 AM

Quote from: LearnedHand on July 20, 2013, 09:39:26 AM
Oh my gosh, I really don't know how people get through law school without rich parents. I am really going to have to take a loan just to pay for bar exam admission fees: RI bar I need $800 for application fee + $600 for them to look into my moral character, for MA I need $815 for the application fee, plus I'll need to pay to get my criminal background checks done and ugh. . .

I am going to have to follow Malachite's lead and start saving loose change.

That's incredible, no wonder that guy on "Suits" hasn't taken his bar exam! You'd think that after all of the schooling that it would get easier by this point!

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Post by: Liminal Stranger on July 20, 2013, 09:59:38 AM

Yay, birthday party. Hopefully that means everyone will be focused on the guy who's party it is and I won't be chased down by girls as per usual. I can still run pretty well just in case despite my wonky hip :P

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Post by: Shantel on July 20, 2013, 10:36:02 AM

Quote from: jrd on July 20, 2013, 08:42:58 AM
The dog food with vegetables in it does it to him. yesterday, I was gone for 18 hours with one little break to let him out to go, so he didn't eat anything the last day and a half but doggy food. I tried some dog food one time with even more vegetables in it and it made him way worse on farting.

You're telling me that Jake is like his mistress and doesn't get along with veggies. Could he be your son then? :D :icon_peace:

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Post by: CalmRage on July 20, 2013, 11:11:39 AM

Busted flat in Baton Rouge, waiting for the train...

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Post by: DriftingCrow on July 20, 2013, 11:13:59 AM

Quote from: Liminal Stranger on July 20, 2013, 09:59:38 AM
Yay, birthday party. Hopefully that means everyone will be focused on the guy who's party it is and I won't be chased down by girls as per usual. I can still run pretty well just in case despite my wonky hip :P

Happy Birthday :icon_birthday:

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Post by: Jamie D on July 20, 2013, 11:42:54 AM

Quote from: LearnedHand on July 19, 2013, 09:58:42 PM
I wish my little finger had a longer fingernail so I could get that itch inside my ear.

Yes! And the feeling that comes from a vigorous scratching of the itch ... and "eargasm"

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Post by: King Malachite on July 20, 2013, 11:50:15 AM

Quote from: LearnedHand on July 20, 2013, 09:39:26 AM
Oh my gosh, I really don't know how people get through law school without rich parents. I am really going to have to take a loan just to pay for bar exam admission fees: RI bar I need $800 for application fee + $600 for them to look into my moral character, for MA I need $815 for the application fee, plus I'll need to pay to get my criminal background checks done and ugh. . .

I am going to have to follow Malachite's lead and start saving loose change.

My top 3 "gold mines" ;)

1. Around vending machines

2. Under couches

3. Around the yard

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Post by: Adam (birkin) on July 20, 2013, 05:58:52 PM

For a brief moment I forgot I was trans. It was nice while it lasted.

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Post by: King Malachite on July 20, 2013, 07:31:27 PM

I miscalculated my top surgery fund by a dollar over. I don't like making mistakes with that money and it freaked me out but for the sake of my sanity screw it. I'll just be a dollar over. Heck eventually, all of my money will be going to the same surgeon, top surgery money or regular money.

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Post by: Liminal Stranger on July 20, 2013, 10:54:15 PM

Quote from: LearnedHand on July 20, 2013, 11:13:59 AM
Happy Birthday :icon_birthday:

Haha, it's was my friend's birthday, not mine. It was great though, I ended up knowing all the people there and they're really cool friends of mine. We laughed hysterically at Cabin in the Woods and had water gun fights and such, we're going to hang out next week to watch more movies and hope we don't wreck anybody's house or get the neighbors to complain about our loud and crazy antics >:-)

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Post by: ~RoadToTrista~ on July 21, 2013, 02:08:50 AM

Ugh hair is annoying, I sometimes miss baldness.

Maybe after it grows another foot or after it's straightened it'll be less so?

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Post by: CalmRage on July 21, 2013, 09:54:41 AM

Take of the fruit, but guard the seed...........

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Post by: zombieinc on July 21, 2013, 11:04:30 AM

QuoteMy top 3 "gold mines" ;)

1. Around vending machines

2. Under couches

3. Around the yard

I'd like to add public laundry facilities (my local laundromat was my top gold mine) to the list.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: CalmRage on July 21, 2013, 03:44:45 PM

Why do people dislike "In Through The Out Door"?

It's Led Zeppelin's best in my opinion. No other track comes close to Carouselambra in my opinion.
The whole second album side is unparalleled in their catalogue (Carouselambra, All My Love, I'm Gonna Crawl).
Really emotional stuff, and even more so when you know the story behind the last two and what happened.

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Post by: LordKAT on July 21, 2013, 03:45:50 PM

My back hurts......again.

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Post by: Adam (birkin) on July 21, 2013, 03:53:32 PM

My dog has poop that looks exactly like Nutella and it is smeared all over her butt again. And the linoleum. And the carpet.

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Post by: CalmRage on July 21, 2013, 04:09:06 PM

I love little children. I hope to have children of my own one day. I'll teach them so many things. I'd do anything for my children. Anything, you name it, anything for their well-being. Don't know why i'm in that kind of mood again.

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Post by: Devlyn on July 21, 2013, 08:27:38 PM

Every time I look at Malachite's avatar it goes "cha-ching!"

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: Edge on July 21, 2013, 10:00:34 PM

I need to find a way to stop wanting friends/support, but I can't figure out how and google is not helping.

Title: Re: What are you thinking right now? 4.0
Post by: LordKAT on July 21, 2013, 10:10:41 PM

What is wrong with wanting friends/support? It is a human thing.

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Post by: Edge on July 21, 2013, 10:16:13 PM

Because wanting them and not having them causes me pain.