Community Conversation => Transitioning => Hormone replacement therapy => Topic started by: Stefani2 on June 29, 2013, 02:24:14 AM Return to Full Version
Title: 2 month HRT update (loong)
Post by: Stefani2 on June 29, 2013, 02:24:14 AM
Post by: Stefani2 on June 29, 2013, 02:24:14 AM
Okay so I have decided to post little monthly updates on here cuz I want to help others who are just starting out. I am 4 days short of two months but whatever I am excited and I don't think much will change in 4days. If it does I will update ;)
Weeeell, let's start with the physical stuff:
Breast growth. I have noticed some definite breast growth. Right now they are teeny tiny little buds and I wear a 32 AA bra (haha sooo small, I know) but it is getting more and more noticable and I am popping out of my shirts a LOT (people point it out). There is a lump behind them which is starting to get a bit painful when pressure is applied (finally, lolz!).
Skin softening. I have finally started to notice this a teensy bit as well. Just a little on my upper left arm (which I am told is the most common starting place for some reason) and then in different places but just like patchy.
I am going to mention this briefly cuz I don't like talking about it and it makes me dysphoric, but if it helps others: shrinkage to an extremely extremely small size has ocurred, aheem, blood flow (deeerp) is rarer than before (which was rare) and now even painful at times, and fluid productions have (according to recent experiments) halted to an almost complete stop (still some last I checked but it was very watery). No real change in libido, but I aaaalways had a more feminine libido (I like guys but turning me on takes work and I never was turned on when I didn't WANT to be).
Body hair loss, I didn't have much at all to start with but just this last week I have noticed what I DID have seems to be coming in even finer and lighter than it was before to the point of being translucent and not even noticable.
No fat redistribution I don't think. I know I have to wait on that though...
My face seems to be changing a LOT and my mother keeps pointing it out. She'll just look at me and say "Wow you're face is getting full, it looks nice" XD my cheeks especially.
As for the emotional effects, I am getting happier and happier by the day! I am still somewhat inbetween but I am sooo excited to be on this path and I just, I feel SOO much like myself for the first time which is such a nice comforting feeling. Still some moods swings but it's getting better. Also, my appetite is dying down a bit and I am not nearly as tired as I was when I started.
Another thing happening in my life not HRT related is that now everyone in my life essentially knows. I came out to my parents and little brother (more on that in a sec) and it turns out my gramma DID discover my meds before I left her house, and she told the entire family besides my mother (she doesn't tell her ANYTHING). She is just trying to convince herself I have an intersex condition and that's what's causing it cuz she heard about other people having it, and said it didn't surprise her cuz she noticed how feminine I was my entire life. But yeah, she has been not bad. And I confronted one of my sisters about it and she sent me a text saying she loved and supported me and that all that mattered was that I was happy with myself <3
As for my mother....we had a BAD bad day where we argued and she said hateful things. But we have had a couple talks and she is making her peace with it. In fact, these last couple days she has been an angel, sooo sweet. I think explaining to her how this has always been with me and how desperate I was to do this sunk in. She told me last night that I "looked nice" but it was going to take time to adjust, which I totally respect. She still uses male pronouns and my male name, but she actually told me it was getting awkward for her to do that so I think that should change pretty soon (not forcing it cuz we are getting along again for now) O.O
My dad hasn't said a single word about it to me. He just treats me the same as ever, which is mostly cuz he is a simple dude XD he will adjust I know for sure! My brother told me I was "quite pretty" and had "beautiful eyes" but is very stubborn about pronouns XD
Anyway, I sort of veered of HRT a bit, but that's what happened in the last month. Lots of stuff. I can't wait to see where the next months take me!! <3
If anyone has any questions feel free to ask!
Weeeell, let's start with the physical stuff:
Breast growth. I have noticed some definite breast growth. Right now they are teeny tiny little buds and I wear a 32 AA bra (haha sooo small, I know) but it is getting more and more noticable and I am popping out of my shirts a LOT (people point it out). There is a lump behind them which is starting to get a bit painful when pressure is applied (finally, lolz!).
Skin softening. I have finally started to notice this a teensy bit as well. Just a little on my upper left arm (which I am told is the most common starting place for some reason) and then in different places but just like patchy.
I am going to mention this briefly cuz I don't like talking about it and it makes me dysphoric, but if it helps others: shrinkage to an extremely extremely small size has ocurred, aheem, blood flow (deeerp) is rarer than before (which was rare) and now even painful at times, and fluid productions have (according to recent experiments) halted to an almost complete stop (still some last I checked but it was very watery). No real change in libido, but I aaaalways had a more feminine libido (I like guys but turning me on takes work and I never was turned on when I didn't WANT to be).
Body hair loss, I didn't have much at all to start with but just this last week I have noticed what I DID have seems to be coming in even finer and lighter than it was before to the point of being translucent and not even noticable.
No fat redistribution I don't think. I know I have to wait on that though...
My face seems to be changing a LOT and my mother keeps pointing it out. She'll just look at me and say "Wow you're face is getting full, it looks nice" XD my cheeks especially.
As for the emotional effects, I am getting happier and happier by the day! I am still somewhat inbetween but I am sooo excited to be on this path and I just, I feel SOO much like myself for the first time which is such a nice comforting feeling. Still some moods swings but it's getting better. Also, my appetite is dying down a bit and I am not nearly as tired as I was when I started.
Another thing happening in my life not HRT related is that now everyone in my life essentially knows. I came out to my parents and little brother (more on that in a sec) and it turns out my gramma DID discover my meds before I left her house, and she told the entire family besides my mother (she doesn't tell her ANYTHING). She is just trying to convince herself I have an intersex condition and that's what's causing it cuz she heard about other people having it, and said it didn't surprise her cuz she noticed how feminine I was my entire life. But yeah, she has been not bad. And I confronted one of my sisters about it and she sent me a text saying she loved and supported me and that all that mattered was that I was happy with myself <3
As for my mother....we had a BAD bad day where we argued and she said hateful things. But we have had a couple talks and she is making her peace with it. In fact, these last couple days she has been an angel, sooo sweet. I think explaining to her how this has always been with me and how desperate I was to do this sunk in. She told me last night that I "looked nice" but it was going to take time to adjust, which I totally respect. She still uses male pronouns and my male name, but she actually told me it was getting awkward for her to do that so I think that should change pretty soon (not forcing it cuz we are getting along again for now) O.O
My dad hasn't said a single word about it to me. He just treats me the same as ever, which is mostly cuz he is a simple dude XD he will adjust I know for sure! My brother told me I was "quite pretty" and had "beautiful eyes" but is very stubborn about pronouns XD
Anyway, I sort of veered of HRT a bit, but that's what happened in the last month. Lots of stuff. I can't wait to see where the next months take me!! <3
If anyone has any questions feel free to ask!
Title: Re: 2 month HRT update (loong)
Post by: Nicole on June 29, 2013, 03:00:16 AM
Post by: Nicole on June 29, 2013, 03:00:16 AM
not sre when your profile pic was taken, but you look great in it.
As for family, they'll come around and those who don't are not worth the effort.
Only way is up from here, enjoy the ride!
As for family, they'll come around and those who don't are not worth the effort.
Only way is up from here, enjoy the ride!
Title: Re: 2 month HRT update (loong)
Post by: Stefani2 on June 29, 2013, 09:01:47 AM
Post by: Stefani2 on June 29, 2013, 09:01:47 AM
@Nicole,
Thanks!! And that picture was taken just last night :D
Thanks!! And that picture was taken just last night :D
Title: Re: 2 month HRT update (loong)
Post by: Naomi on June 29, 2013, 09:08:45 AM
Post by: Naomi on June 29, 2013, 09:08:45 AM
<3 thanks for the info. I can't wait to be there myself, probably have another month before I can even get my letter.
Title: Re: 2 month HRT update (loong)
Post by: Bookworm on June 29, 2013, 09:25:46 AM
Post by: Bookworm on June 29, 2013, 09:25:46 AM
That is great news hun. Really great news :)
Title: Re: 2 month HRT update (loong)
Post by: AbbyJamz on June 29, 2013, 10:02:12 AM
Post by: AbbyJamz on June 29, 2013, 10:02:12 AM
This is so wonderful to read! I'm glad things are really falling into place for you! It sounds so incredibly close to my current status! In fact, I had a long talk with my mom last night about how this has always been with me. She woke me up this morning, giving me a couple of bras she had bought. She said I needed them! Lol!
Title: Re: 2 month HRT update (loong)
Post by: Ltl89 on June 29, 2013, 10:12:31 AM
Post by: Ltl89 on June 29, 2013, 10:12:31 AM
Thank you for sharing. I'm in the two week blues spot where I'm wondering when it will ever start working. So reading this made me feel better.
Also, I'm glad things are improving with your mother. It sounds like things are getting on track.
Also, I'm glad things are improving with your mother. It sounds like things are getting on track.
Title: Re: 2 month HRT update (loong)
Post by: kyh on June 29, 2013, 03:12:46 PM
Post by: kyh on June 29, 2013, 03:12:46 PM
Quote from: Stefani2 on June 29, 2013, 10:27:09 AM
@Naomi,
You will get there! I am still really early on yet too and can't wait till 6 months in or so. Then I think things will reaally start getting interesting ;)
Hope you get your prescription reaaal soon <3
@Bookworm,
Thanks :)
@Abby,
Aww, that was sweet of her. Yeah my mother has much improved. We had one day where we fought all day really bad (it was a bad bad day for me) and then that night I took her aside and I explained to her how she hurt my feelings and how much what I was doing meant to me, and she really seemed to open her eyes. I am not going to get tooo excited, but I am glad she seems to be adjusting to the idea <3
@learningtolive,
The first two weeks were horrrible for me, so don't worry it does get better. And I am still early in yet XD I started noticing changes about 2 weeks to 1 month so you are almost to the point where you will be able to see your progress a bit <3
Yes, so am I! And it does. It feels like....there's still so much that needs to change and still so much work to be done, but the groundwork is laid and now all I need to do is wait and apply myself. I am sooo excited for everything in store <3
Stefani. I love youuuuu <3 You are so positive.... Ugh stop making me so happy! I'm gonna get smile lines now because of you >:-)
Title: Re: 2 month HRT update (loong)
Post by: Bookworm on June 29, 2013, 04:10:49 PM
Post by: Bookworm on June 29, 2013, 04:10:49 PM
Quote from: kyh on June 29, 2013, 03:12:46 PM
Stefani. I love youuuuu <3 You are so positive.... Ugh stop making me so happy! I'm gonna get smile lines now because of you >:-)
what she said ^.^
Title: Re: 2 month HRT update (loong)
Post by: spx_1112 on August 19, 2013, 06:13:58 AM
Post by: spx_1112 on August 19, 2013, 06:13:58 AM
Thanks for sharing. How are you doing and feeling?
Title: Re: 2 month HRT update (loong)
Post by: Jamie D on August 20, 2013, 04:23:47 AM
Post by: Jamie D on August 20, 2013, 04:23:47 AM
Stephie has gone stealth and left the site, but her friends still miss her :(
Title: Re: 2 month HRT update (loong)
Post by: Azusa John on August 20, 2013, 04:44:21 AM
Post by: Azusa John on August 20, 2013, 04:44:21 AM
May I ask, what are your prescriptions and dosage levels?
Title: Re: 2 month HRT update (loong)
Post by: Jamie D on August 20, 2013, 04:55:08 AM
Post by: Jamie D on August 20, 2013, 04:55:08 AM
Sorry Azusa, posting that information is prohibited by Rule #8 of the Terms of Service
Read them HERE (https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,2.0.html)
Read them HERE (https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,2.0.html)
Title: Re: 2 month HRT update (loong)
Post by: Bookworm on August 21, 2013, 04:55:55 PM
Post by: Bookworm on August 21, 2013, 04:55:55 PM
I wish her the best of luck