Susan's Place Transgender Resources

let me start by saying I joined this sight a few days ago and have learned so many new things about myself.  I have made a few post here already but haven't really talked about me  I have know for the past 30 something years that something was different about me.  I experimented several times in childhood and my youth.  I got caught once by my dad. Since those early years, and 2 marriages later, these feelings have gotten harder to hide and I posted that I finally told a good friend, and the questioning began all in a supportive way.  If I had it to do over again I would have started this transition many years ago.  I have been dressing in private for several years now and venturing out occasionally for a quick trip to town.  I know the transitioning and coming out is going to be the most difficult part.  I have two children in which I have custody of, girl 9 and boy 13. I'm not really sure how to tell them but  little girl is picking up on some of the things I am doing now, so I think she will figure it out before I tell her. Also, I have a pretty good job working as a foreman for a small family owned construction company.  Not sure how they would act as there are only 400 of us so I know just about all of the them.  Another issues is that I live in a very small town of less than 2000 people and the gossip travels quickly.  So I'm sure that once one person finds out, I give it a day then the whole town knows. What makes it hard is that I grew up here!!  Life in small towns can be so stressing sometimes and at other times they can be so relaxing.  At least the big city is only 1 1/2 hours away.   I was given a name of a therapist in Houston today so I will be making that first appointment very soon to get things on the proper path, and I am excited for the changes that are about to occur.  I will be hoping and praying that everything I talked about earlier falls into place with few problems encountered but I know that there will be some major obstacles to cross but with perseverance I can overcome. 

_{Live for today...never be anxious for tomorrow because tomorrow is promised to no one!!}

Tough question Erin.  There is a flip side to the "small town" coin.  If they all have known you from the time you were growing up, they just might embrace the change.  It would be good to have allies though.