Community Conversation => Transgender talk => Topic started by: Katelyn on August 10, 2013, 02:03:39 AM Return to Full Version
Title: Why should I doubt that I should transition after this...
Post by: Katelyn on August 10, 2013, 02:03:39 AM
Post by: Katelyn on August 10, 2013, 02:03:39 AM
I was driving home from a short trip today, alone in my car, and I started talking to myself in my female voice (I developed several years ago) and as I felt more confidence in myself and in being a woman, I definitely felt female, and I felt very natural, I felt like this is me, and I felt great and my spirit felt more alive, and I felt like I really want to be like this. When I came back to my mom's place, I felt like the "male persona" was coming back, and had to come back. This is not the first time that this has happened, it has happened many times over the years, and the only thing I do is get away from my "male persona" and perhaps use my female voice or wear feminine feeling clothing or just mentally get away from my male persona and I feel naturally and definitely female. In these times I feel like my male persona is like a costume, and an assumed persona, that once I get away from it the real me comes out. I've done mental exercises from time to time since 6 years ago that I felt routinely proved that feminine mannerisms was natural to me.
Other things that possibly back me being transgender is that I'm more feminine sexually (in that I much prefer to have a vagina than my current genitals and I'm really mostly turned on to someone else sexually through emotion) as well of course that I've felt many vividly feminine woman feelings when I dressed as a woman as well as going out as a woman, and I've had this dream for a very long time being able to be a super feminine woman with all the super feminine clothing and hair and nails and feminine decorations, basically with everything around me being very feminine.
Other things that possibly back me being transgender is that I'm more feminine sexually (in that I much prefer to have a vagina than my current genitals and I'm really mostly turned on to someone else sexually through emotion) as well of course that I've felt many vividly feminine woman feelings when I dressed as a woman as well as going out as a woman, and I've had this dream for a very long time being able to be a super feminine woman with all the super feminine clothing and hair and nails and feminine decorations, basically with everything around me being very feminine.
Title: Re: Why should I doubt that I should transition after this...
Post by: Danielle Emmalee on August 10, 2013, 05:24:49 AM
Post by: Danielle Emmalee on August 10, 2013, 05:24:49 AM
Quote from: Katelyn on August 10, 2013, 02:03:39 AM
a super feminine woman with all the super feminine clothing and hair and nails and feminine decorations, basically with everything around me being very feminine.
A Barbie girl in a Barbie world. It's fantastic!
Sorry, your sentence there just gave me this mental image. Hope it wasn't offensive.
I think everyone has that "male persona" that comes around when we don't feel confident in our femininity. I don't think its anything to worry about.
Title: Re: Why should I doubt that I should transition after this...
Post by: Rachel on August 10, 2013, 06:53:48 AM
Post by: Rachel on August 10, 2013, 06:53:48 AM
From what I read you are in transition already.