Susan's Place Transgender Resources

Hi. My name is Nic. I'm kind of shy so I'm going to try (and succeed!) to not talk in short sentances. Here goes:

I'm a genderfluid transboy. Born female. When I was a kid, I was 100% genderblind to the point where I was in a boy's changing room at a very small age and burst out crying because I couldn't concieve of how a person could possibly have something hanging between their legs, I thought all people were the same sex, same gender. It wasn't until 5th grade when the "girls" were given "the talk" that I realized that there were Two Genders. I say that capitalized because that's always been a huge thing in my head. It was really hard for me to figure out that there were more than the binary genders, and more than the binary sexes too. But I was in 5th grade and suddenly I became a girl. I stopped wearing pink (etc) because I thought that would make me stop being a girl. It didn't of course. Middle school was hell, naturally (well, because it was middle school, but the dysphoria started too). In 9th grade, I had a psychotic breakdown which included the delusion that I was a boy. At least, that's what they told my parents when I was in the hospital. It was in a therapy group in the hospital that I came out as something other than a girl. I told them I had no gender. I told them I wasn't agender. I was just nothing. From there, I went through anti-gender, agender, pangender, and genderfluid, which landed me here, still utterly dysphoric but something else entirely.

New chapter: I'm a boy. I wear skirts on occasion, makeup on occasion, bind 100% of the time, go by gender neutral pronouns (they, them, their) at school, but I'm a boy. I plan on having chest surgery as soon as I can and want to see a speech pathologist to see if I can change my speech patterns (etc) a little. I don't want testosterone, don't want bottom surgery.

Okay, that's my story (see, aren't you proud? I used longer sentences!). Now some questions:

I want to have a picture (avatar?) but the only thing I see on my "forum profile" editing thing is a single option that says "no avatar" and there's no way to unclick that. Any help?

Also, I see people have these little bits of words under their user names such as "FTM transsexual" How do I get one of those?

Thanks guys. I hope I can be accepted into the community. :)

Hi Nic, welcome to Susan's Place! Take a read through the rules, you'll find the answers you're looking for, and hopefully won't need any more of your posts edited. Hugs, Devlyn

Hey there, Nic -

Here are some links to help you navigate and use the site:

Please be sure to review:

• Site Terms of Service and rules to live by  (https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,2.0.html)
  
• Standard Terms and Definitions (https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,54369.0.html)
  
• Post Ranks (including when you can upload an avatar) (https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,114.0.html.)
  
• Age and the Forum (https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,62197.msg405545.html#msg405545)
  
• Reputation rules (https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,18960.0.html)
  
• Photo, avatars, and signature images policy (https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,59974.msg383866.html#msg383866)
  

Welcome!

Okay, I found those after a little while. Wow that was a really bad way for me to introduce myself into a community, not being able to find the rules. I'm so sorry.

Don't worry about it.  We post them, in one form or another for everybody new.

Goes with the territory.  Let me know of you needs any assistance.

Welcome Welcome!! Hope you enjoy your time here!  ;D

Hi Nic, :icon_wave:

Welcome to our little family. Over 7365. That would be one heck of a family reunion.

Feel free to post your successes/failures, Hopes/dreams.  Ask questions and seek answers. Give and receive advice.

But remember we are family here, your family now. And it is always nice to have another brother. (https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fsmileys.on-my-web.com%2Frepository%2FAnimals%2Fferret-3.gif&hash=f49e2f86761323f2abd9c33941920389dbb3b10f)

(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fsmileys.on-my-web.com%2Frepository%2FAnimals%2Fferret-5.gif&hash=cfc7a68438be4575d8493dfbe65d1b3586f10b81)
Janet  )O(

Thanks so much everyone. It's always hard to join a new community, and I've been reading around and everyone seems so supportive here.