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Title: Regrets I wish didn't happened
Post by: Necromancer on October 21, 2013, 08:24:09 PM
Post by: Necromancer on October 21, 2013, 08:24:09 PM
I do not regret what I did, but I regret that I know my family knows about it. Two years ago, I live with an older man (I was 19/20), my boyfriend at that time, they didn't know where I was at, and my family call the police while I was at work. They found out who I was with, they found out my clothes was in his bedroom. I was accuse of being gay, that still bothers me since I personally won't own up to it . I don't like my sexuality/gender. I was ashamed, embarrass, and it bothers me.
I bluff my way through that, but a part of me tells me they secretly know what the situation was about. We don't talk about it, but it's been eating me up inside every now and then... I don't talk about that time of my life. I still pretend I'm straight, but I explain it as if I was living with an odd couple that I never spoke too, and I leave it at that.
I don't know how to accept it, and I wish it never happened.
I bluff my way through that, but a part of me tells me they secretly know what the situation was about. We don't talk about it, but it's been eating me up inside every now and then... I don't talk about that time of my life. I still pretend I'm straight, but I explain it as if I was living with an odd couple that I never spoke too, and I leave it at that.
I don't know how to accept it, and I wish it never happened.
Title: Re: Regrets I wish didn't happened
Post by: gennee on October 26, 2013, 05:23:14 PM
Post by: gennee on October 26, 2013, 05:23:14 PM
Where do you go from here? What happened cannot be changed. Coming to terms with who you are and accepting it will be the beginning of discovery to your authentic self. Change isn't easy but there are times when it is needed.