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Title: Sorry massive depression hitting me
Post by: Cindy on October 26, 2013, 07:20:15 AM
 Sorry the black dog is on my door step.

Very sudden and out of the blue.

Waves hitting

I could use a hug our a million

Sorry


ARRRRRGGGGHHHHH
Title: Re: Sorry massive depression hitting me
Post by: justpat on October 26, 2013, 07:24:49 AM
   Cindy,
  Heres a great big HUG from me to you and thanks for all you do.  Pat
Title: Re: Sorry massive depression hitting me
Post by: big kim on October 26, 2013, 07:29:25 AM
Big hug sis
Title: Re: Sorry massive depression hitting me
Post by: FTMDiaries on October 26, 2013, 07:32:02 AM
Enormous hug from me too. Oh, and some of these: :icon_bunch:
Title: Re: Sorry massive depression hitting me
Post by: suzifrommd on October 26, 2013, 07:39:57 AM
Sending good thoughts your way. Hang in there, girl.
Title: Re: Sorry massive depression hitting me
Post by: ZoeM on October 26, 2013, 07:56:03 AM
*hug* You've been here for all of us so many times, Big Sis.

Time to return the favor.

Anything you need - just ask.
Title: Re: Sorry massive depression hitting me
Post by: HelenW on October 26, 2013, 08:22:39 AM
I am all too familiar with that black dog, Cindy.  Good news is that he never stays.

Affectionate hugs & understanding smiles,
Helen
Title: Re: Sorry massive depression hitting me
Post by: Cindy on October 26, 2013, 08:37:01 AM
im trying to walk the dog, im crippled
Title: Re: Sorry massive depression hitting me
Post by: Cindy on October 26, 2013, 08:38:34 AM
sorry I'm ok
Title: Re: Sorry massive depression hitting me
Post by: Megumi on October 26, 2013, 08:40:11 AM
Big hugs Cindy. If I could I'd swim across the big pond and give you the worlds best hug. You help so many people out here.
Title: Re: Sorry massive depression hitting me
Post by: Danielle Emmalee on October 26, 2013, 08:59:11 AM
Hey at least its not that mop at your window again.

;D
Title: Re: Sorry massive depression hitting me
Post by: Heather on October 26, 2013, 09:15:03 AM
Hugs Cindy I'm sorry your having a bad day.  :icon_hug:
Title: Re: Sorry massive depression hitting me
Post by: Devlyn on October 26, 2013, 09:57:01 AM
Big hug! Let us walk the dog for you, hon. Hugs, Devlyn
Title: Re: Sorry massive depression hitting me
Post by: Tessa James on October 26, 2013, 10:02:40 AM
Oh Cindy!

Thanks for being so damn real.  Yes even our super heroes, like you, have down days.  Must be Kyrptonite around somewhere?  Only wish I could be there to give you a real time hug and walk proudly at your side.

Till then please put out those fires and know we love and care about you.

Title: Re: Sorry massive depression hitting me
Post by: LordKAT on October 26, 2013, 10:25:15 AM
Cindy,

I'm sending a cousin to take care of that black dog. Here is a pic so that you recognize him. He is visiting from India.


(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Ffarm3.staticflickr.com%2F2242%2F2085614126_cbe40a2869.jpg&hash=25c11ff6ae78c24b7b68b203a41c93a1f42d6a98)


Sorry the photo is so faded, it was taken a few years back. Say hello to him for me.  BTW, He works cheap. A few hugs and maybe a steak and he will be Guard KAT and friend. 

Love ya Lady
Title: Re: Sorry massive depression hitting me
Post by: Cindi Lane on October 26, 2013, 10:42:43 AM
HUGS to you
  Let me share some strength with you as you have been such an inspiration to me.

  -Cindi
Title: Re: Sorry massive depression hitting me
Post by: Beth Andrea on October 26, 2013, 11:18:17 AM
*HUGS*

Title: Re: Sorry massive depression hitting me
Post by: Lesley_Roberta on October 26, 2013, 11:19:08 AM
Wish I could send you some of my cookies to cheer you up.

Here's my best effort though.

(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2F4.bp.blogspot.com%2F_to-VAezHXYw%2FSyprhM9__EI%2FAAAAAAAABCw%2Ft-1et9WwNVo%2Fs1600%2FDSC01427.JPG&hash=3b1851263d7f762f932d995fc89bf7ff90f97999)

Hoping you feel better soon Cindy.



Title: Re: Sorry massive depression hitting me
Post by: JLT1 on October 26, 2013, 12:10:50 PM
Cindy,

Anything I can do to help, I will.

Hugs,
Jen
Title: Re: Sorry massive depression hitting me
Post by: TaoRaven on October 26, 2013, 12:54:42 PM
Hitting me too, Cindy. Must be something in the air....or in my case, the threat of impending homelessness.

{{{HUGS}}}
Title: Re: Sorry massive depression hitting me
Post by: bethany on October 26, 2013, 01:16:09 PM
Sending you lots of big hugs sis, you're always there for me. Now I am here for you. 
Hope you are doing better.
Title: Re: Sorry massive depression hitting me
Post by: Sephirah on October 26, 2013, 01:17:28 PM
*gives you a big, snuggly hug*

When it gets dark, remember the light in your soul. Remember the lights you've made shine brighter just by being who you are. Remember you're amazing, and... well there aren't too many people I can say I have pure, unbridled admiration for, but you come among the top of the list.

Above all, remember how loved you are. By many. Don't ever apologise for needing to reach out. Even those who spend their lives giving sometimes need to receive.

Everyone is here for you. And always will be.
Title: Re: Sorry massive depression hitting me
Post by: Claire (formerly Magdalena) on October 26, 2013, 01:21:17 PM
Cindy,

I've been a part of this family for less than a week, and I can already tell you one of the amazing ones. It's all over your posts. You're inspirational. Just wanted to be another hug giver. ::hugs::

If there's anything I can do, please tell me.

-maggie
Title: Re: Sorry massive depression hitting me
Post by: Jessica Merriman on October 26, 2013, 01:26:37 PM
SHOO BLACK DOGGIE!! BIG HUG- BIG HUG- BIG HUG- BIG HUG!!!!!!! LordKAT take care of the doggie, but good. Terminate with EXTREME prejudice!! Sara, you powerful lioness give LordKAT a hand will ya?

Cindy you are so strong! By not letting me leave here you have a powerful ally and sister now! Love you baby!

Jessica
Title: Re: Sorry massive depression hitting me
Post by: Joe. on October 26, 2013, 01:55:27 PM
Big hugs Cindy. Don't be afraid to PM me if you need to talk. I'm always here.
Title: Re: Sorry massive depression hitting me
Post by: Eva Marie on October 26, 2013, 02:21:41 PM
Anyone know a dog catcher? The black dog needs to be dispensed with ASAP.

Cindy - you've been such a friend to so many on this site - please be kind to yourself today and know that we all love you here and care about you!

TaoRaven - I'm sorry about your impending situation - is there any way that we help?

~Eva
Title: Re: Sorry massive depression hitting me
Post by: TaoRaven on October 26, 2013, 02:34:57 PM
Aw, Eva, Thanks :) I actually just got called for an interview for a new job, minutes after posting that!! I think this place is good luck ;) If I manage to land this job,...problems solved!!!

And as for Cindy...this site wouldn't be the same without you. You affect so many lives in such a positive way...the very LEAST we can do is offer you all the hugs and support you can handle!!
Title: Re: Sorry massive depression hitting me
Post by: Ms Grace on October 26, 2013, 02:41:35 PM
Lotsa hugs, Cindy!!!!

Hope that black dog gets back in its kennel and stays there!
Title: Re: Sorry massive depression hitting me
Post by: Cindy on October 26, 2013, 06:17:24 PM
You are all so gorgeous. Thank you.

I have had the dog put down >:-)

I was fine, talking, as usual, to my dear friend VM then decided I needed physical company so I went to the hotel and had dinner. Then I sat listening to the band and I was watching people enjoy themselves.

It all just hit. Why was I born like this? Why couldn't I be like the other girls with their friends?

I crawled home and thought I'd watch a movie. It ended up being a sad one - good choice stupid! ::)

So it started to cascade and then the dog started barking.

It was soon drowned out by waves of love.

Thank you my very dear friends.

Thank You
Title: Re: Sorry massive depression hitting me
Post by: Claire (formerly Magdalena) on October 26, 2013, 06:18:36 PM
So glad you're feeling better. ::more hugs::
Title: Re: Sorry massive depression hitting me
Post by: Doctorwho? on October 26, 2013, 06:24:50 PM
Glad we got a chance to chat last night, and catch up, and that you are better now.

Sadly news from this end not so good. Alison is in Hospital - her BP has dropped uncontrollably, and the longterm prognosis is now pretty uncertain. All made worse because despite having discussed the need for it a few months back with me, no one has bothered to actually do the DNR paperwork yet... <sigh> Big storm running here now so couldn't even get down there if I wanted to. Oh well - tomorrow is another day... off to bed now.
Title: Re: Sorry massive depression hitting me
Post by: Jenny07 on October 26, 2013, 06:27:29 PM
We're always here if you want to chat.

Glad you feel a bit better.
I lost my Cat of 21 years earlier in the year, he did have a good life and was ruined.
Still it was hard for a while.

(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fts3.mm.bing.net%2Fth%3Fid%3DH.4596032809927622%26amp%3Bpid%3D15.1&hash=a7226c7f22b84d62908f744bfb157e74839fc690)
Title: Re: Sorry massive depression hitting me
Post by: Sephirah on October 26, 2013, 06:44:37 PM
Quote from: Cindy on October 26, 2013, 06:17:24 PM
It all just hit. Why was I born like this? Why couldn't I be like the other girls with their friends?

To bring warmth to others, sometimes we must ourselves undergo trial by fire... and to light a path forward, often we must first understand the nature of the darkness.

To bring out one's true nature, perhaps we have to be in a situation where we are presented with the opportunity to do so.

You're not like the other girls because you're Cindy. Beautiful woman. Beautiful spirit. Whose experiences in life have made her stronger, kinder, altruistic, wise, and willing to offer a hand to those walking roads she herself has travelled.

Were you like the other girls, you wouldn't be you. And that, in my opinion, would be a great loss. You are your girl. And that's something precious.

*hugs* :)
Title: Re: Sorry massive depression hitting me
Post by: Rachel on October 26, 2013, 06:54:03 PM
Hugs Cindy.

You are always there for so many; helping others is an understatement.

You are feeling what we all feel, why and why wasn't I like the rest.

Having a good cry every once and a while is part of being a girl; from that you are like the rest.

I know your pain and I wish I had magic pixy dust to make it all better. (https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2F3.bp.blogspot.com%2F_FdVN9si5o2o%2FTCPGHVLUbxI%2FAAAAAAAAARk%2F45ZCsxgwQkQ%2Fs1600%2Fpixie-dust.jpg&hash=f23293764604f118534b991a83aeb72bbcde6f30)
Title: Re: Sorry massive depression hitting me
Post by: V M on October 27, 2013, 04:21:59 AM
Hope you are feeling better Sis

Hugs
Title: Re: Sorry massive depression hitting me
Post by: Lauren5 on October 27, 2013, 04:43:24 AM
It's hit me pretty hard too, lately.
I'f I'm still hanging in here, you shouldn't have a problem at all.
Title: Re: Sorry massive depression hitting me
Post by: Ginger Maxim on October 27, 2013, 05:35:31 AM
Hugs from Canada....
Title: Re: Sorry massive depression hitting me
Post by: Gina Taylor on October 27, 2013, 06:26:44 AM
Here's a great Big Hug from me Cindy.  :icon_hug:
Title: Re: Sorry massive depression hitting me
Post by: Ms. OBrien CVT on October 27, 2013, 10:38:01 AM
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