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Title: Identity Death
Post by: KabitTarah on November 17, 2013, 09:10:00 PM
Post by: KabitTarah on November 17, 2013, 09:10:00 PM
I just realized something today...
I've always had the fear of identity death... lobotomy, electro shock, reprogramming, becoming an automaton or a new person with no association to the old person.
Yet all my life I've been trying my damnedest to destroy my identity... and it worked to suppress it for a long time. I haven't changed, I've just become more me. Everything that was in me before is here now... but with extra emotion and compassion, a freedom of motion, a freedom of expression, and a freedom of spirit. For the first time in my life I feel free to be who I'm supposed to be.
This has nothing to do with the gender part of the equation... that's there and I feel that transition is necessary for me... but this is about releasing the chains that bound my soul.
I've always had the fear of identity death... lobotomy, electro shock, reprogramming, becoming an automaton or a new person with no association to the old person.
Yet all my life I've been trying my damnedest to destroy my identity... and it worked to suppress it for a long time. I haven't changed, I've just become more me. Everything that was in me before is here now... but with extra emotion and compassion, a freedom of motion, a freedom of expression, and a freedom of spirit. For the first time in my life I feel free to be who I'm supposed to be.
This has nothing to do with the gender part of the equation... that's there and I feel that transition is necessary for me... but this is about releasing the chains that bound my soul.