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I still can't get over the changes that I've been going through lately. It's like something new every day. Today it was softer skin. Literally over-night my skin got like, twice as soft as it was. And it's one of those things that I had read about but didn't think I'd notice. Or I thought it'd be so gradual that it'd be nearly imperceptible. But I keep running my hands all over myself in awe. I used to have a patch of dry skin around my nose. Gone. Replaced by smooth soft skin. My ears are softer. My nose, arms, legs, hands, feet, nipples, I think my lips too. Waaay softer. Even my hair! And all this in the past day or two (aside from the nipples).

Then there are other things. Like randomly having the urge to go snack on some olives. Or the random crying-spell I had the other day. My sex-drive flipped around. Being more social. Wanting to be around my family more. And I get why women multitask. If they didn't, they'd never get anything done! Because you have to deal with thinking, feeling, and being social a lot more. Heck, I get a lot of things about women now. And with all these changes I really do feel like a different person. It's not a bad thing, just takes some getting used to. Still caught me off guard though. They don't seem to cover a lot of stuff in the manual!

What's something that's surprised you so far? Something that you wish you had known beforehand, not necessarily because it's bad, but just so you could have braced for it. Or is everything going just how you thought it would?

I got a surprise when I glanced in the mirror the other day...who's that? oh, it's me!

I think I need to read the manual now I'm on E.

Lots of things I did expect to happen but it's the ones that I didn't that are interesting.
I'm afraid. I'm afraid, my mind is going. I can feel it. I can feel it. My mind is going. There is no question about it. :D

Nothing like a psychopathic computer.

Yup, it's amazing, isn't it?  I can vouch for all the changes you read about through the first three months, except the emotional ones.  I'm still emotionally steady as it gets, no crying or anything, but that's probably just how I am supposed to be.

Congrats!! :)

-hugs!-

Honestly Sharon, I have always been a complete rock when it came to emotion... no highs, no lows... but surprisingly, right before I started HRT, I let myself be happy for the first time... and low and behold, I'm an emotional wreck now... I'm all over the place.  20+ years of being the "calm and collected" one... now I'm the hysterical, mascara running for days one...  And that wasn't because of the HRT... although I think its helping hahaha

My cuticles look better now! HRT, who knew that's all they needed? xD I'm also sleeping better, like a deeper sleep, which is weird since I expected my sleep to be interrupted.

Also, had a new 'girly moment' today. My ex would always get freaked out in the shower and I'd just roll my eyes. And I've heard a lot of other women get like that. Never happened to me until today when I was showering and home alone, and the whole time I kept thinking someone was going to break in and steal stuff and then come in and assault me. o_o I never used to think about stuff like that! So many weird things like that popping up now.

The first thing that caught me by surprise was growing pains in the breasts. On the first day I wondered why they would be hurting suddenly. The second day I was worried something was wrong. The third day I started fearing the apocalypse. And on the fourth day I googled 'puberty' and found that it was normal.

Actually something that really took me by surprise...I no longer feel like a creep when I talk to a pretty woman while I'm in guy mode. I don't know why I used to feel that way, because I wasn't being a creep, but it was just that I figured she thought I was hitting on her when really all I wanted to do was chat. Don't know why HRT would change that but it's noticeable.

The skin change is truly amazing, especially at first when the difference is so noticeable. I remember a small patch of softness near the top of my wrist on my arm is where it started. Then suddenly the skin all over my body was soft. Like you said, almost overnight.

Over time it gets even better :) The real kicker is when fat redistributes closer to the more delicate skin which makes it also feel supple. It's incredible how much of a difference that really makes!

You'll have another moment some months from now where you grab your butt or thigh and the skin (that was once taught) will softly ripple. This happens even if you don't gain any weight ;)

A nice thing I have noticed is that my legs have gotten dramatically thinner over the last month due to the amount of cycling and E. This with laser which has worked wonders my legs are starting to look much more feminine and there is absolutely no chance of me getting short stumpy legs. Skin has gotten softer as well as per Jennygirl.

I am so looking forward to see how they will be after a few more months. ;D

I took a small gift to my mother in law, she is 92, in a nursing home. I sat and talked for a few hours, made tea and chatted.

She said 'You know you have changed' I expected my boobs my face my clothes. She said 'Peter never talked to me, he would have given the gift and found a reason to leave'

You have made me happy by staying and talking to an old lady. You are Cindy. Thank you.

For some reason the windscreen was very misty and unclear as I drove home.

Aww Cindy :)

That's about as special as it gets!

Quote from: Cindy on December 02, 2013, 04:44:50 AM
I took a small gift to my mother in law, she is 92, in a nursing home. I sat and talked for a few hours, made tea and chatted.

She said 'You know you have changed' I expected my boobs my face my clothes. She said 'Peter never talked to me, he would have given the gift and found a reason to leave'

You have made me happy by staying and talking to an old lady. You are Cindy. Thank you.

For some reason the windscreen was very misty and unclear as I drove home.

That's such a sweet story! :)

Quote from: Cindy on December 02, 2013, 04:44:50 AM
You have made me happy by staying and talking to an old lady. You are Cindy. Thank you.

For some reason the windscreen was very misty and unclear as I drove home.

My monitor is that way too right now Cindy; can't see a thing dang it.

It must be wonderful to hear pure acceptance from someone close to you.

Quote from: Ms Grace on December 02, 2013, 04:09:37 AM
Actually something that really took me by surprise...I no longer feel like a creep when I talk to a pretty woman while I'm in guy mode. I don't know why I used to feel that way, because I wasn't being a creep, but it was just that I figured she thought I was hitting on her when really all I wanted to do was chat. Don't know why HRT would change that but it's noticeable.

I totally understand this. I think it's because at some point (at least for me) there was a perspective switch and everything is now from the female POV.

I wasn't expecting shark week.. >_< 

I told my ex I was about to have my period. That I'm feeling moody, tired, and my tits ached. And I'm just sitting here cradling them. She said that sounded accurate. -_-

Quote from: Cindy on December 02, 2013, 04:44:50 AM
I took a small gift to my mother in law, she is 92, in a nursing home. I sat and talked for a few hours, made tea and chatted.

She said 'You know you have changed' I expected my boobs my face my clothes. She said 'Peter never talked to me, he would have given the gift and found a reason to leave'

You have made me happy by staying and talking to an old lady. You are Cindy. Thank you.

For some reason the windscreen was very misty and unclear as I drove home.

Cindy, thank you for sharing this. I'm sure every member is proud of you.

Quote from: Ms Grace on December 02, 2013, 04:09:37 AM
Actually something that really took me by surprise...I no longer feel like a creep when I talk to a pretty woman while I'm in guy mode. I don't know why I used to feel that way, because I wasn't being a creep, but it was just that I figured she thought I was hitting on her when really all I wanted to do was chat. Don't know why HRT would change that but it's noticeable.

I haven't thought much about it before, but I sort of recognize that feeling. For me I think it has a lot to do with confidence. Now I have a voice and a name that work sort of as a women's club membership card, something I didn't have 6 months ago.

For me it would have to be the hair/oils.  I've always had band scalp issues being dry and having to use special shampoo everyday, for some reason that just kinda went away on E.