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Title: Loneliness and sucidal thoughts return
Post by: Joe. on December 21, 2013, 02:20:54 PM
I knew my happiness was too good to be true. I lost it earlier and punched a wall. I have nobody. Everybody else has somebody and I don't have anyone. I have no friends and my family have their families and partners, I don't fit into that. I wish I had a pet, so that I could have something to love that loves me back, but I'm not allowed. I have nobody and I'm going to die lonely. We come in this world alone and we leave the same way.
Title: Re: Loneliness and sucidal thoughts return
Post by: Natkat on December 21, 2013, 02:39:45 PM
sound familiar
feel free PM if you want to talk.




Title: Re: Loneliness and sucidal thoughts return
Post by: LordKAT on December 21, 2013, 02:46:21 PM
Sounds like Christmas is setting in. I have been alone for years now. You are not alone in feeling this way. Finding happy things when it feels like everyone else is happy but not you can be difficult. Happiness comes from within more. Once you can let others be themselves and you just be yourself, you can be alone and not be so lonely. It takes practice and you need to lose envy. Silly envy always gets in the way.

Concentrate on what you have that is good. You have us, they don't. I'm sure there is more.
Title: Re: Loneliness and sucidal thoughts return
Post by: Lauren5 on December 21, 2013, 02:53:33 PM
Sounds like me last Christmas, and to am extent this Christmas. I'm running around doing stuff for mom to clean the house, because dad gets *very* angry when he comes home and it isn't perfect.
Mom isn't understanding why mysleep schedule is messed up and why I just can't get going after I wake up. Dysphoria is dehabilitating. Try your best to not let it destroy you from within. Take some me time. Go to the bookstore and read a gpod book with a coffee. Go to the gym if possible and work off some of thag stress anger. We can both get through this, if I think I can, anyone can.
Title: Re: Loneliness and sucidal thoughts return
Post by: Devlyn on December 21, 2013, 03:02:20 PM
We know this can be the worst time of year with all the pressure and uncomfortable situations we can sometimes feel forced into. You're not feeling anything uncommon, so while it isn't fun, we do know what it's like. And you will find someone, trust me. Hugs, Devlyn
Title: Re: Loneliness and sucidal thoughts return
Post by: Cindy on December 21, 2013, 03:09:18 PM
Hugs Joe,

As your other friends have said this is the Christmas come down. You do have friends, we may be scattered around the world but guess what? We love you whole heartedly and know how you feel and are here for you.

Keep talking to us you have friends here on all the time 24/7 so no need to be lonely. I am sure we will all take pms if you want a private word with any of your friends.

Love and Hugs

Cindy
Title: Re: Loneliness and sucidal thoughts return
Post by: Joe. on December 21, 2013, 05:03:56 PM
Thanks everybody. Maybe it is just winter blues settling in. I don't know why though because I love Christmas,  it is my favourite time of the year. However it is also the time of year when people love each other and spend times with good friends, which is something that I don't have. I have my family, but they don't understand. I'm looking to treat myself to something to cheer me up because I have a big cheque coming, but I'm not sure what to spend the money on.
Title: Re: Loneliness and sucidal thoughts return
Post by: LordKAT on December 21, 2013, 05:47:26 PM
Why spend it when you can save it?
Title: Re: Loneliness and sucidal thoughts return
Post by: Joe. on December 21, 2013, 05:53:12 PM
Because I'm fed up of saving and never doing anything for myself. Last time I saved the money got taken and for once I want to say 'stuff it, here's £200, go treat yourself'
Title: Re: Loneliness and sucidal thoughts return
Post by: Cindy on December 21, 2013, 06:06:56 PM
That sounds a great idea! But something nice for yourself.

If you are stuck I like diamonds and lordKAT needs worming tablets

<runs away>
Title: Re: Loneliness and sucidal thoughts return
Post by: LordKAT on December 21, 2013, 06:12:01 PM
Quote from: Joe. on December 21, 2013, 05:53:12 PM
Because I'm fed up of saving and never doing anything for myself. Last time I saved the money got taken and for once I want to say 'stuff it, here's £200, go treat yourself'

Fair enough, then it is probably time to treat yourself.


Cindy, Stop telling my secrets. Shhhh.
Title: Re: Loneliness and sucidal thoughts return
Post by: Joe. on December 21, 2013, 06:14:00 PM
That made me smile Cindy, thanks.

LordKAT, I just realised my reply to you sounded blunt and ungrateful,  I didn't mean for it to come across like that. I'm sorry. I appreciate the suggestion 
Title: Re: Loneliness and sucidal thoughts return
Post by: Devlyn on December 21, 2013, 06:33:32 PM
Quote from: Cindy on December 21, 2013, 06:06:56 PM
That sounds a great idea! But something nice for yourself.

If you are stuck I like diamonds and lordKAT needs worming tablets

<runs away>

<waving bye-bye> 

OK, you can give her diamonds to me now!
Title: Re: Loneliness and sucidal thoughts return
Post by: Joe. on December 21, 2013, 06:48:21 PM
Come on ladies, no fighting!  :P If  I had enough money to buy diamonds for anybody, you both would be at the top of my list  :D
Title: Re: Loneliness and sucidal thoughts return
Post by: Rachel on December 21, 2013, 07:47:41 PM
Hugs Joe,

You will find someone, it is just a matter of time, exposure  and chemistry.
Title: Re: Loneliness and sucidal thoughts return
Post by: LordKAT on December 21, 2013, 09:37:10 PM
Funny, exposure is usually seen as a bad thing as in illegal to expose certain body parts or frostbite/hypothermia.
Title: Re: Loneliness and sucidal thoughts return
Post by: stavraki on December 21, 2013, 09:57:40 PM
Quote from: Joe. on December 21, 2013, 02:20:54 PM
I knew my happiness was too good to be true. I lost it earlier and punched a wall. I have nobody. Everybody else has somebody and I don't have anyone. I have no friends and my family have their families and partners, I don't fit into that. I wish I had a pet, so that I could have something to love that loves me back, but I'm not allowed. I have nobody and I'm going to die lonely. We come in this world alone and we leave the same way.

for your loneliness, the love of the common man.  Happy Solstice to you and thank you for bearing ur pain to us.
Title: Re: Loneliness and sucidal thoughts return
Post by: Beth Andrea on December 21, 2013, 10:09:09 PM
*hugs*

fwiw, I have no memories of Turkey Day 2012 nor Christmas 2012. I expected this year to be no different...but about two weeks before Thanksgiving I put yet another ad out the Desperately Lonely site, and I actually found someone who learned all about me and my issues, and *still* wants to be with me!

If I can find someone, ANYONE can find their partner. It just takes time and patience.

Remember, good times fade and bad times return...but in its turn, bad times will fade also, and good times return. Hold onto the memories of the good times and the good people you meet, they will help in the rough times.
Title: Re: Loneliness and sucidal thoughts return
Post by: Cindy on December 21, 2013, 11:22:40 PM
Cindy lurks behind a house in Boston to mug that evil woman who pinched her diamonds
Title: Re: Loneliness and sucidal thoughts return
Post by: Natkat on December 22, 2013, 04:50:49 AM
Quote from: Joe. on December 21, 2013, 05:03:56 PM
Thanks everybody. Maybe it is just winter blues settling in. I don't know why though because I love Christmas,  it is my favourite time of the year. However it is also the time of year when people love each other and spend times with good friends, which is something that I don't have. I have my family, but they don't understand. I'm looking to treat myself to something to cheer me up because I have a big cheque coming, but I'm not sure what to spend the money on.

Sound pretty likely,
Somethimes peoples happyness can make you pretty sad,
I probably sound as a douchbag while saying that but knowing it from myself.



Title: Re: Loneliness and sucidal thoughts return
Post by: Jayne on December 22, 2013, 11:00:11 AM
Quote from: Joe. on December 21, 2013, 06:48:21 PM
Come on ladies, no fighting!  :P If  I had enough money to buy diamonds for anybody, you both would be at the top of my list  :D

Hello. . . . .I like diamonds, do I make it onto the list?

On a more serious note, if you need to chat then feel free to send me a PM or call me.
Title: Re: Loneliness and sucidal thoughts return
Post by: Devlyn on December 22, 2013, 11:40:40 AM
Quote from: Cindy on December 21, 2013, 11:22:40 PM
Cindy lurks behind a house in Boston to mug that evil woman who pinched her diamonds

<releasing the hounds to check the premises for muggers, as is customary in Boston>
Title: Re: Loneliness and sucidal thoughts return
Post by: Joe. on December 22, 2013, 11:44:17 AM
Quote from: Jayne on December 22, 2013, 11:00:11 AM
Hello. . . . .I like diamonds, do I make it onto the list?

On a more serious note, if you need to chat then feel free to send me a PM or call me.

Of course you do Jayne. Thank you, I appreciate it.