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Last week, my mom wanted to have a talk with me and she had a sheet of paper in front of her. It's the one that I posted before. After going over it, I decided then that there was only one solution, to move out. So I grabbed the classified section of the newspaper and went through it and I found some rooms for rent and I called them. I found one that sounded good. I moved in last Friday, and he's got no problem with me transitioning. His other renter had a daughter from a previous marriage who is a FTM transsexual, so she understands the situation that I'm going through with my parents.

wow, im sorry you had to move out, but glad that you found somewhere that is supportive and understanding of you. congrats on moving forward with you.

its unfortunate that you had to move away from your mom but its great that you can move on. i hope things go well for you in the coming years.

Quote from: Sheala on January 06, 2014, 09:26:28 AM
wow, im sorry you had to move out, but glad that you found somewhere that is supportive and understanding of you. congrats on moving forward with you.

Thanks Sheala. It's really nice to have a supportive woman with me instead of someone who is tearing me down.  

I hope it all goes well for you,good luck and best wishes

Quote from: Emo on January 06, 2014, 09:31:02 AM
Its unfortunate that you had to move away from your mom but it's great that you can move on. I hope things go well for you in the coming years.

Y'know Emo, it was bound to happen. There was just too much conflict between us, and I'm sure that things will go better for us. Like the old saying goes, out of sight , out of mind.

Quote from: big kim on January 06, 2014, 09:37:18 AM
I hope it all goes well for you,good luck and best wishes

Thanks Kim. As long as I'm not crossing paths with her, everything should go well. I've already found a church that I can go to, and things are looking up for this girl! :)

Most important thing in life - find that thing that makes you happy and then do it. My family disowned me and I lost millions of dollars (literally) but at least I like what I see in the mirror - on a good day. Stay strong and true.

I think things are majorly looking up for you.

And I know it seems unlikely now, but don't be surprised if you find that your Mom ends up missing you and approaches you sometime in the future to mend fences.

I don't it unfortunate all that you moved out. The freedom of having your own place is exhilarating and now you can be yourself and have a supportive landlord. I think this is a good thing. Your mom will be fine on her own and as stated above, I get the feeling she will miss having you around after a bit. You can now control how meetings with her go simply by going home when things start to go bad. It will help you be stronger.

Congratulations on your freedom and new found support.

Sounds like it is for the best, Gina. Your mother didn't seem to be giving any ground on the issue. Hopefully once you have transitioned she will change her point of view and welcome you as her daughter. I know a lot of people, especially the younger ones, have no choice but to stay with their parents while they attempt transition - but if there is friction it is often easier on both parties that they part domestically.

Gina, congratulations.

I hope 2014 is a wonderful year for you.

Your landlord sounds very supportive; I am happy for you.

Its good for a fresh start for you. Hopefully she will come back to you.

Congrats, Gina! 

I sincerely hope she comes around after having more alone time than she bargained for.

Quote from: amber1964 on January 06, 2014, 09:54:08 AM
Most important thing in life - find that thing that makes you happy and then do it. My family disowned me and I lost millions of dollars (literally) but at least I like what I see in the mirror - on a good day. Stay strong and true.

I'm really sorry to hear that your family disowned you Amber. My mom told my therapist that when they sell their business they're moving away with or without me, and I really think it will be without me, and she told me that my relatives don't want me in Canada either. So I've been almost disowned myself. But my therapist was quite pleased that I had moved out and had gotten all my ducks in a row and was moving forward with going full time. :)

Quote from: suzifrommd on January 06, 2014, 09:58:27 AM
I think things are majorly looking up for you.

And I know it seems unlikely now, but don't be surprised if you find that your Mom ends up missing you and approaches you sometime in the future to mend fences.

Nice thought there Suzi,  but my mom told me that she's happy that I've moved out and the last thing she wants is to see me move back. But she may express some sentiments of loss, but knowing what I'm doing, not sure . . .  

Quote from: Constance on January 06, 2014, 10:33:57 AM
Congratulations on your freedom and new found support.

Thanks Constance. You're looking great in your avatar and your hair looks really nice! :eusa_clap:  

Quote from: Ms Grace on January 06, 2014, 12:14:18 PM
Sounds like it is for the best, Gina. Your mother didn't seem to be giving any ground on the issue. Hopefully once you have transitioned she will change her point of view and welcome you as her daughter. I know a lot of people, especially the younger ones, have no choice but to stay with their parents while they attempt transition - but if there is friction it is often easier on both parties that they part domestically.

Thanks Grace for your kind and thoughtful words. My mom told me today that she's to old to accept this change in me. But really, if I had transitioned 20 years ago, would it have been any different? My therapist said something a bit absurd. He told me that he doesn't really see a woman sitting in front of him, even though I was in male mode. My mom went into her little spiel about when I was taken from her and presented to her I was introduced as her 'boy'. I could have then told her that sure the doctor told you what 'sex' I was, but he was unable to tell you what 'gender' I was. But I didn't want to get into that with her. So I'll talk with my therapist about that during our next session. It should be interesting.

Quote from: Cynthia Michelle on January 06, 2014, 04:42:52 PM
Gina, congratulations.

I hope 2014 is a wonderful year for you.

Your landlord sounds very supportive; I am happy for you.

Thanks Cynthia. I figure everything should work out for the best this year.

Quote from: izzy on January 06, 2014, 05:02:49 PM
Its good for a fresh start for you. Hopefully she will come back to you.

It's possible. But it will be a different relationship though.

congratulations Gina. I think this will be for the best. Now you can be who you want and need to be

all the best Saskia

Quote from: Saskia on January 08, 2014, 11:05:51 AM
congratulations Gina. I think this will be for the best. Now you can be who you want and need to be

all the best Saskia

Thanks Saskia. You're absolutely right. Now I'm able to be who I am. And I've been really looking forward to it! And it's really nice to have such a supportive roommate as well. :) She's letting me borrow anything of hers, as long as it fits.  :laugh:

Yesterday I decided to go to another church and it worked out so well. I was greeted by a very nice woman who took me for a tour of the church and she showed me where all of the ladies rooms where.  :) Then when we returned to the sanctuary, she suggested that I sit on one side, and by 9:30, they separated the sanctuary with a divider and I was joined by 18 other ladies for a Bible study class. I was introduced as a new member and there I was as a woman of the woman's Bible study.  :) I was also invited to attend another meeting next week. I was very elated.  :) So I will not be returning to my other church because I have found a church that accepts me for who I am.  :)

Quote from: Gina Taylor on January 13, 2014, 10:06:35 AM
Yesterday I decided to go to another church and it worked out so well. I was greeted by a very nice woman who took me for a tour of the church and she showed me where all of the ladies rooms where.  :) Then when we returned to the sanctuary, she suggested that I sit on one side, and by 9:30, they separated the sanctuary with a divider and I was joined by 18 other ladies for a Bible study class. I was introduced as a new member and there I was as a woman of the woman's Bible study.  :) I was also invited to attend another meeting next week. I was very elated.  :) So I will not be returning to my other church because I have found a church that accepts me for who I am.  :)

wow that is so awesome! Good for you:)

Gina, I have tears in my eyes I am so happy for you. You definitely deserve acceptance, you have worked so hard and been trough so much. Hugs.

I bet it is wonderful having an independent life. I'm glad things are turning out well.

Quote from: Cynthia Michelle on January 13, 2014, 05:46:05 PM
Gina, I have tears in my eyes I am so happy for you. You definitely deserve acceptance, you have worked so hard and been trough so much. Hugs.

Thanks Cynthia. It really meant so much to me to finally be accepted as a woman. It's been tough, but now it's finally paying off. :) Just sitting there amonst the ladies in the Bible study made me feel so much a part of them  :)

Quote from: LordKAT on January 14, 2014, 01:45:48 AM
I bet it is wonderful having an independent life. I'm glad things are turning out well.

It's been really so wonderful y'know LordKAT to finally be independent and finally be able to be myself. Thanks for the encouragement. :)

Quote from: Gina Taylor on January 14, 2014, 09:34:08 AM

It's been really so wonderful y'know LordKAT to finally be independent and finally be able to be myself. Thanks for the encouragement. :)

Any time, dear lady, any time.

Sorry for the late post Gina,

I changed countries UK to Australia, it was tough for a while but then....

I'm me and could be me.

Congrats Hon

I wish you well, we face our futures with joy. Let others worry about their pasts

Love

Cindy

Quote from: Cindy on January 15, 2014, 06:05:19 AM
Sorry for the late post Gina,

I changed countries UK to Australia, it was tough for a while but then....

I'm me and could be me.

Congrats Hon

I wish you well, we face our futures with joy. Let others worry about their pasts

Love

Cindy

No problem Cindy. Hope the move went well. My move went with so much joy and I'm not looking back!  :) Everything for me is moving forward!  :)

Yesterday I saw my therapist and he saw such a difference in me.  :) Just being two weeks away from my mother without being agitated by her has made such a difference in my life and now that I'm not going to the same church is a big improvement as well! :)

Quote from: Gina Taylor on January 13, 2014, 10:06:35 AM
Yesterday I decided to go to another church and it worked out so well. I was greeted by a very nice woman who took me for a tour of the church and she showed me where all of the ladies rooms where.  :) Then when we returned to the sanctuary, she suggested that I sit on one side, and by 9:30, they separated the sanctuary with a divider and I was joined by 18 other ladies for a Bible study class. I was introduced as a new member and there I was as a woman of the woman's Bible study.  :) I was also invited to attend another meeting next week. I was very elated.  :) So I will not be returning to my other church because I have found a church that accepts me for who I am.  :)

That is *so* cool!!! I'm happy for you Gina :)

Congratulations on finding your own place, Gina. I'm sure that you are
freer to be yourself now.

:)

Quote from: Gina Taylor on January 13, 2014, 10:06:35 AM
Yesterday I decided to go to another church and it worked out so well. I was greeted by a very nice woman who took me for a tour of the church and she showed me where all of the ladies rooms where.  :) Then when we returned to the sanctuary, she suggested that I sit on one side, and by 9:30, they separated the sanctuary with a divider and I was joined by 18 other ladies for a Bible study class. I was introduced as a new member and there I was as a woman of the woman's Bible study.  :) I was also invited to attend another meeting next week. I was very elated.  :) So I will not be returning to my other church because I have found a church that accepts me for who I am.  :)

That's wonderful, Gina!

Quote from: Eva Marie on January 15, 2014, 05:39:43 PM
That is *so* cool!!! I'm happy for you Gina :)

Thanks Eva.  :) After a lot of hard work and perseverance, it's finally paying off and I'm now being able to be the person that I've wanted to be!  :) In four days I'll be seeing a psychiatrist and he thinks he's gonna play with my mind.  :icon_lalala:  

Quote from: gennee on January 15, 2014, 06:40:31 PM
Congratulations on finding your own place, Gina. I'm sure that you are
freer to be yourself now.

:)

Oh, honey, you better believe it!!! I've been out three times this week and it feels so exhilarating to finally be me!  :icon_dance:

Quote from: gennee on January 15, 2014, 06:44:12 PM

That's wonderful, Gina!

I called my mom two nights ago about a yard sale that our church is having because my niece has a lot of stuffed animals that I thought she wanted to get rid of. So I told her that 'my' church was having a yard sale and I asked about the aforementioned stuffed animals. She wanted to know if I had changed churches and if I was going dressed to this church. I told her yes, and she was upset, but my other church was freaking out because they all knew me and they wouldn't accept me going there as a woman. At least this church all they know is me as Gina. My mom thinks what I'm doing is blasphemy, and if someone does find out that I'm not a 'woman' it would be considered betrayal.

Quote from: Gina Taylor on January 16, 2014, 09:34:50 AM
My mom thinks what I'm doing is blasphemy, and if someone does find out that I'm not a 'woman' it would be considered betrayal.

There isn't anything in the bible that says that transgender women shouldn't transition, so she's getting this from somewhere else.

Gina, I'm so glad the new church is working out. Their gain is your old church's loss.

Quote from: suzifrommd on January 16, 2014, 09:42:20 AM
There isn't anything in the bible that says that transgender women shouldn't transition, so she's getting this from somewhere else.

Gina, I'm so glad the new church is working out. Their gain is your old church's loss.

Very well said Suzi! :) And I couldn't agree with you more! :) They may miss me at my old church and if they ask about me, my mom can tell them the real reason or she can make up some story for my absence. ;D Only God will know the truth. :)

Sadly, letting go is sometimes the only way we can move forwards. Sounds like you are really coming into your own, Gina.

Quote from: Ms Grace on January 16, 2014, 01:16:39 PM
Sadly, letting go is sometimes the only way we can move forwards. Sounds like you are really coming into your own, Gina.

Y'know Grace, it's amazing that in such a short time on my own I've matured  and  gained so much that I'm really so grateful for this opportunity this time.  :) I've really noticed a big difference in myself from before when I was a member of this group and that's one thing I'm gonna stress on when I see my new psychiatrist on Monday. :) Thanks for your on going support!

I saw my new psychiatrist yesterday, and my mom was with me. He asked a lot of questions, and it was funny because he was over talking my mom a lot. He had absolutely no interest at times with what she was saying, which made me feel really good.  :)

Then today I saw my new therapist, and we talked about a lot things and he's gonna be helping me in a very positive way. At the end of the session, he asked what name I'd like to go by and I asked if he would mind if I came dressed as a woman, and he told me that it's my sessions, not his.

I agree sister this site has also helped me understand me or how to go about that and that is not something with us being who we are. I am so proud of you and how much you have done for you
take care sister
Jerri

Quote from: Jerri on January 21, 2014, 10:21:33 AM
I agree sister this site has also helped me understand me or how to go about that and that is not something with us being who we are. I am so proud of you and how much you have done for you
take care sister
Jerri

You're absolutely right Jerri. I have learned so much from this site and have received so much support that I cannot begin to count how much I have. That was one thing I brought up to my therapist, and he agreed with me and he told me that because my family is so much against me transitioning that they will never see the validity of this support group.

Glad to see you doing so well.

Quote from: big kim on January 22, 2014, 03:05:40 PM
Glad to see you're doing so well.

Thanks Big Kim. Things are going exceptionally well. However I saw a psychiatrist last week, and for some reason he feels that I'm bipolar and schizophrenic and he's put me on medicine. Not sure what the medicine will do, but I know that it won't change who and what I am.

That's a fairly major diagnosis (seemingly out of he blue?) and those medicines can have quite an impact on the body...maybe get a second opinion from another psych too? How have you been reacting to the medication?

Quote from: Gina Taylor on January 23, 2014, 09:34:21 AM
I saw a psychiatrist last week, and for some reason he feels that I'm bipolar and schizophrenic and he's put me on medicine. Not sure what the medicine will do, but I know that it won't change who and what I am.

Gina, Do some research on those diagnoses.  I would definitely concur with Ms Grace's suggestion to get a second opinion.

The meds will change your observable personality.  Hopefully for the better, but only if the diagnoses are accurate.

Here is an example of the difference:
http://psychcentral.com/lib/the-differences-between-bipolar-disorder-schizophrenia-and-multiple-personality-disorder/000633?all=1

I did have a psych try to tell me that I needed some meds for "multiple personality disorder".  Since I don't seem to have the listed symptoms, I suspect he was referring to me being trans.  He also prescribed an anti-depressant that gave me a bad case of serotonin syndrome.  I didn't go back to him - mostly because he had started writing the prescription before I had given him my list of current medication.

Psych meds are very powerful. 

Quote from: Gina Taylor on January 23, 2014, 09:34:21 AM
Thanks Big Kim. Things are going exceptionally well. However I saw a psychiatrist last week, and for some reason he feels that I'm bipolar and schizophrenic and he's put me on medicine. Not sure what the medicine will do, but I know that it won't change who and what I am.

You have a right to know what this diagnosis is based on. You also have a right to know how you he thinks this medicine will help you. He's your psychiatrist, not God. He doesn't command you.

Gina,

I've just read this. No way, go to another psychiatrist. How many visits have you had, have you had psychotherapy? Prescribing drugs at a one off consult is bordering on malpractice unless you are obviously psychotic and suffering acute symptoms.

Does this person know anything about gender disorders?

I'm very concerned.

Quote from: Ms Grace on January 23, 2014, 10:56:19 AM
That's a fairly major diagnosis (seemingly out of he blue?) and those medicines can have quite an impact on the body...maybe get a second opinion from another psych too? How have you been reacting to the medication?

Thanks for your concern Grace. Just started it last night. It's only one pill though.

Quote from: Gina Taylor on January 23, 2014, 11:26:17 AM
Thanks for your concern Grace. Just started it last night. It's only one pill though.

What drug is it?

Quote from: TessaMarie on January 23, 2014, 11:19:23 AM
Gina, Do some research on those diagnoses.  I would definitely concur with Ms Grace's suggestion to get a second opinion.

The meds will change your observable personality.  Hopefully for the better, but only if the diagnoses are accurate.

Here is an example of the difference:
http://psychcentral.com/lib/the-differences-between-bipolar-disorder-schizophrenia-and-multiple-personality-disorder/000633?all=1

I did have a psych try to tell me that I needed some meds for "multiple personality disorder".  Since I don't seem to have the listed symptoms, I suspect he was referring to me being trans.  He also prescribed an anti-depressant that gave me a bad case of serotonin syndrome.  I didn't go back to him - mostly because he had started writing the prescription before I had given him my list of current medication.

Psych meds are very powerful.

When I saw my therapist last time, my mom had brought it up, so it gave me a little time to do some research and when I saw my therapist gain, we discussed it and he told me that in the ten months that he's seen me, he's always seen my mood very level. So  I'm not sure where this psychiatrist gets his idea that I'm bipolar or schizophrenic? I'll check out the website. THX.

Quote from: Cindy on January 23, 2014, 11:28:16 AM
What drug is it?

The drug is Risperidone  

This is a powerful antipsychotic, what evidence is there that you are psychotic?

How many consults did you have? Did you present in a nonfunctional state? Are you suffering delusional anxiety?

Please, please get another opinion.

Quote from: Cindy on January 23, 2014, 11:40:20 AM
This is a powerful antipsychotic, what evidence is there that you are psychotic?

How many consults did you have? Did you present in a nonfunctional state? Are you suffering delusional anxiety?

Please, please get another opinion.

THIS.

Gina Hugs,

I an not a doctor but another opinion for the meds may be warrented.   

Something tells me this doctor is giving you something you dont need.

Quote from: TessaMarie on January 23, 2014, 11:19:23 AM
Gina, Do some research on those diagnoses.  I would definitely concur with Ms Grace's suggestion to get a second opinion.

The meds will change your observable personality.  Hopefully for the better, but only if the diagnoses are accurate.

Here is an example of the difference:
http://psychcentral.com/lib/the-differences-between-bipolar-disorder-schizophrenia-and-multiple-personality-disorder/000633?all=1

I did have a psych try to tell me that I needed some meds for "multiple personality disorder".  Since I don't seem to have the listed symptoms, I suspect he was referring to me being trans.  He also prescribed an anti-depressant that gave me a bad case of serotonin syndrome.  I didn't go back to him - mostly because he had started writing the prescription before I had given him my list of current medication.

Psych meds are very powerful.

I was talking with my mom yesterday and it upset her when I flat out told her that I'm a woman. She told me today that she doesn't understand how I can make such a statement when she sees me as a 'man.' Unfortunately she doesn't understand the way that I feel. But she tells me that hopefully the medication should clear p the confusion in my head. If that's the case, then I'm not gonna be taking it.

Quote from: Cindy on January 23, 2014, 11:40:20 AM
This is a powerful antipsychotic, what evidence is there that you are psychotic?

How many consults did you have? Did you present in a nonfunctional state? Are you suffering delusional anxiety?

Please, please get another opinion.

Thanks Cindy for the information. Not sure where he came to that conclusion that I'm psychotic.  ???

I've only seen him once, and I have another session with him next month. Hopefully by myself. My mom told me that she didn't like him, because he asked me about my childhood, which was before my accident, and she felt that she would have been able to answer that better than me. It wasn't till after my accident that I started to show any feminine traits. He told her that I do have GID, and that it's my obsession. But as said, I've never shown any delusional anxiety.

Quote from: Gina Taylor on January 24, 2014, 09:58:10 AM

Thanks Cindy for the information. Not sure where he came to that conclusion that I'm psychotic.  ???

I've only seen him once, and I have another session with him next month. Hopefully by myself. My mom told me that she didn't like him, because he asked me about my childhood, which was before my accident, and she felt that she would have been able to answer that better than me. It wasn't till after my accident that I started to show any feminine traits. He told her that I do have GID, and that it's my obsession. But as said, I've never shown any delusional anxiety.

Gina, I'm really reluctant to judge this guy, since I haven't met you or him.

But this smells to high heaven. He's treating GID as if it is a psychiatric disorder. We know conclusively that it isn't.

Please, please, please, find another psychiatrist. I have MAJOR doubts about whether this one isn't giving you treatment that may make you FAR WORSE than you started.

Quote from: JordanBlue on January 23, 2014, 11:46:23 AM
I'm confused about WHY you are even bringing your Mother to these sessions???? ??? ???Wow, something just doesn't sound right.  Are you a transsexual or psychotic?
You need to go to a GENDER THERAPIST!

Thanks for your concern JordanBlue. My mom feels that when seeing a new doctor, she must go there and fill them in with stuff that she feels that I can't. Next session, I'm insisting that I go alone. At least when I saw my new therapist {which was recommended by the psychiatrist} I saw him by myself. I'm definitely a transsexual person more than a psychotic person. The new therapist that  :)

Quote from: suzifrommd on January 23, 2014, 11:19:51 AM
You have a right to know what this diagnosis is based on. You also have a right to know how you he thinks this medicine will help you. He's your psychiatrist, not God. He doesn't command you.

Believe me Suzi, I'm gonna have my pages of notes when I see him next month!

Quote from: suzifrommd on January 24, 2014, 10:02:34 AM
Gina, I'm really reluctant to judge this guy, since I haven't met you or him.

But this smells to high heaven. He's treating GID as if it is a psychiatric disorder. We know conclusively that it isn't.

Please, please, please, find another psychiatrist. I have MAJOR doubts about whether this one isn't giving you treatment that may make you FAR WORSE than you started.

Thanks Suzi for bringing this to my attention. This is one thing I'll definitely be bringing up to him when I see him next month.

Quote from: Cynthia Michelle on January 23, 2014, 06:19:39 PM
Gina Hugs,

I an not a doctor but another opinion for the meds may be warrented.

I'll definitely be checking this one out. But as said, I'm not taking any more of them. Especially after what my mom said. ;D

Quote from: izzy on January 23, 2014, 06:22:38 PM
Something tells me this doctor is giving you something you dont need.

That's what I'm thinking! ;D

I'am sorry things between you and your mom and to come down to separation.

I hope everything continues to go well with your new home and your landlord sounds like a blessing! :)

Oh and that Doc seems dangerous! Don't trust them hun!

Moderation.

OK let us be supportive and not critical.

Gina is between a rock and a hard place so let us reflect on that please.

Thank You

Cindy

And this is not directed at any individual.

The important thing is that Gina is well and safe. :)

From what I've read, I am depressed at times for certain reasons, but if Schizophrenia is usually first diagnosed in their late teens or early to late 20's, why am I being diagnosed now at 45 years of age? I told the psychiatrist that I had lost track of time for a moment but that was back in 2004. It's not happened since. I've taken psychotherapy with my therapist for ten months, and my therapist feels that my mood has been even and he also feels that I don't hear voices or see imaginary people, so I'm not delusional.

Yes, obviously I don't know you in person but from the way you write here there seems to be nothing to indicate a schizophrenic or bipolar condition. Gina, I can tell you love and respect your mother very much, but you're a grown woman and there's no need for her to be a part of your psych sessions unless it's for some kind of joint counselling; and in which case she should be talking about her feelings not telling the psych about "what's wrong with you". I hate to say it, hate to be judgemental, but she sounds like she is being very manipulative and controlling. The psych seems like the worst kind of shrink quack, diagnosing on the say so of another person (and probably his own prejudices) instead of the facts as they present themselves. It seems clear that acceptance and approval from your mother means a lot to you but this is your life, not hers - you're an adult now and have your own life to live. No doubt your mother loves you very much, but she sounds afraid and her deeply religious perspective appears to be interpreting your "behaviour" in a very prejudiced light. I'm not suggesting cutting your ties, certainly continue to work towards reconciliation but it should be on your terms, not hers. Be well! :)

good luck Gina and take care of yourself i know how it is to be alone but happy you must live your life as your inner feelings guide you

First off, I'd like to thank everyone for their concern for me.

Now Mariee, I agree that it's a shame that it came down to a separation  between myself and my mother, but it's actually worked  out for the better because now I'm able to be my true self more than I was before, which is helping to take away some of my depression.  And yes it is really cool that my landlord is really cool with the way I am.

Thank you Ms. Grace for being so insightful. My mom wasn't really telling the psych how I felt, but was just filling him in in areas that I wasn't able to remember. She has a better memory than I do. That's really the only reason that she goes. But yes she is very manipulating and controlling. But at least the psych had wanted to talk to me and he made that clear to my mom. I have sought her acceptance and approval, but since she has granted me neither, I have more or less just moved on and  continued with my life as it is, because like you said, this is my life not hers, and I'm an adult now and have my own life to live.

Sorry Jordan, but this girl is no longer controlled by others. I made the decision to move out and to start living my life the way that I saw fit.

Over the weekend, I stopped by a pharmacy, and the pharmacist gave me some information on Risperidone, and one thing that I had found out about it is that Risperidone is not for use in psychotic conditions related to dementia, and that it may cause heart failure, sudden death, or pneumonia in older adults with dementia related conditions.

C'mon Jordan, I don't think if I was controlled as much as you put it that I would be able to find a place to live and move out within three days. In a way my mom was actually happy to see me go, because even she knew that with me staying at her house wasn't gonna last much longer and it was time for me to leave. I may have shown being controlled by her in other ways before, but I've grown stronger.  :icon_workout:

My landlord had a woman over the other night and I heard her talking about the same medication that her father was taking, and I heard her mention that it promotes breast growth. My therapist told me that it should organize my thoughts, so I've started to take it, and I haven't felt any side effects . . .  as of yet. But I do appreciate your concern for me though.