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Sooo yesterday there was a power cut right ,on the night...and me and my brother went to light some candles...so my brother actually started prettending that he is a ghost /zombie ,,,you know he took that maniac look on his face haha...
anyways the thing is that when he did that I got reaaally scared like I felt frozen on the inside kinda , I told him to stop and he did or im pretty sure I would end up crying if he hadnt...the thing is that we would do that a lot when we were kids , and im pretty sure it never scared me...

Is it just me or do hormones play a part on that?

Wiiiiiiiiierd things happening .....wieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeerd but nice :)

I don't know , but since stating HRT I can get pretty emotional. I had some very emotional dreams too.

A complex answer to your question, basicly in my own opinion, before we truly accept our selves and decide to journey down this path we kinda suppress a lot of feelings, emotions etc, mainly because we aren't being honest with ourselves. we lock away all this extra stuff that we should be able to have because we are ultimately try to be something we are not. so by going down this yellow brick road of sorts we open up, become more honest with ourselves and allow our true selves to be free and with out limits. you take that and add the hormones and well, I think the hormones just allow us to experience things differently and that they don't necessarily cause the direct reaction. ultimately it just comes out to this is who we are. great huh?

Quote from: stephaniec on January 08, 2014, 05:37:42 PM
I don't know , but since stating HRT I can get pretty emotional. I had some very emotional dreams too.

yeah I totally feel that

Quote from: calico on January 08, 2014, 08:17:59 PM
A complex answer to your question, basicly in my own opinion, before we truly accept our selves and decide to journey down this path we kinda suppress a lot of feelings, emotions etc, mainly because we aren't being honest with ourselves. we lock away all this extra stuff that we should be able to have because we are ultimately try to be something we are not. so by going down this yellow brick road of sorts we open up, become more honest with ourselves and allow our true selves to be free and with out limits. you take that and add the hormones and well, I think the hormones just allow us to experience things differently and that they don't necessarily cause the direct reaction. ultimately it just comes out to this is who we are. great huh?

wow great reply...I never thought about it this way but you are totally right...ty

I haven't noticed much of an emotional change yet but I'm only 10 days in. I've always been a very emotional person though. More so than the average individual. ;)

10 days is really early and who knows maybe if you were emotional before then you were just right from the beggining...I dunno its still early

No one really knows what happens when you put female hormones into a male body. They seem to work and they definetly change your brain chemistry but in unpredictable ways.

Want weird? Every so often my sense of smell changes and becomes acutely overly and annoyingly sensitive. Things smell like chemicals and I notice body odors to the point where it makes me nauseous. It comes on suddenly, last for a few hours or a day and then disappears. Irritating.

It also effects my sense of taste in the same way.

And even though I appreciate being a lot more emotive and open and really like the person I am now I could do without the spontaneous tearful outbursts.

I never experienced big changes in my emotions. What I have noticed is it's difficult to bottle them up now, they will come out and without any prior announcement.

I was at my son's sporting event the other day and I began fighting back tears all of a sudden, came out of the blue. He's raised the idea a few times recently that he's considering quitting. It's a sport he does enjoy and he has friends outside of his school there which I like. Plus, I like the coaches, they're additional mentors that I think is important. So I guess the thoughts all of a sudden of him no longer being in this setting was very sad and emotional. I look around and see all the other mom's not watching their kids but rather texting and reading email on their stupid phones (I JUST HATE THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Watch your dang kids you beaches), probably texting their boyfriends and not their husbands, that's what I'm thinking anyway.  :D

So tears begin welling up and I'm panicking because I still live in guy mode most of the time. Then I thought, who gives a ship, so I cried... shoot me.  >:(

How do you cope with that? Living in boy mode but on hormones. It made me mental, I lasted about 4 months and got suicidal. Get used to the tears, it gets better though after two or three years.

Quote from: amber1964 on January 09, 2014, 09:24:31 AM
How do you cope with that? Living in boy mode but on hormones. It made me mental, I lasted about 4 months and got suicidal. Get used to the tears, it gets better though after two or three years.

It's making me mental.  :D

I've been on HRT close to three years, I've decided this week stop HRT to re-evaluate everything (I'm tapering off). I've gotten use to the emotional 'releases', actually they're something I hope to keep, i.e., when things get stressful, don't keep it in but let it out. May not be able to cry soon, maybe I'll just go outside and yell at the sky or something.  :)

I haven't seen my sense of fear changed, but I have seen a huge increase of my emotions.  I've always been emotional, but I'm noticing hrt is making me ultra sensitive.  Even though I'm much less stressed and sad than I once was (pre-hrt), I find that I can't really handle stress well when it hits me.  Sometimes I no longer know how to keep my composure without tearing up and looking like a sensitive emo girl.    It's funny because my sister would always comment on how I act and think like a girl, especially when it came to emotions.  Nowadays, she keeps telling me that I'm being very hormonal and that I've gotten much more touchy.  While that annoyed me at the time, she really does have a point. To be honest, it gets embarrassing because I'm not used to feeling everything they way I do and don't know how to handle it.  I've changed more than I originally care to admit, but I suppose I'll learn how to adapt to everything.  However, in terms of fear, I've seen nothing really change there, but that's mainly because I don't really encounter things that are considered scary.

Funny thing, my fears have subsided since HRT, in fact I am more fearless than ever.

Quote from: Jill F on January 09, 2014, 04:35:03 PM
Funny thing, my fears have subsided since HRT, in fact I am more fearless than ever.

So I guess it depends on the person after all...

Quote from: calico on January 08, 2014, 08:17:59 PM
A complex answer to your question, basicly in my own opinion, before we truly accept our selves and decide to journey down this path we kinda suppress a lot of feelings, emotions etc, mainly because we aren't being honest with ourselves. we lock away all this extra stuff that we should be able to have because we are ultimately try to be something we are not. so by going down this yellow brick road of sorts we open up, become more honest with ourselves and allow our true selves to be free and with out limits. you take that and add the hormones and well, I think the hormones just allow us to experience things differently and that they don't necessarily cause the direct reaction. ultimately it just comes out to this is who we are. great huh?

This really struck a chord with me. When I started on HRT I was also being seen by a therapist for PTSD issues related to a war related meltdown, I went from an emotionally frozen person to an emotionally tearful mess overnight. I was dealing with two issues simultaneously, it was absolutely frightening for everyone who knew me.

Quote from: Shantel on January 09, 2014, 07:22:34 PM
This really struck a chord with me. When I started on HRT I was also being seen by a therapist for PTSD issues related to a war related meltdown, I went from an emotionally frozen person to an emotionally tearful mess overnight. I was dealing with two issues simultaneously, it was absolutely frightening for everyone who knew me.

I understand the PTSD  all too well.

I understand PTSD as well unfortunately, not from war but well, from past situations, and for quite a while like 5 years straight I was on anti-depressants.  :-\  I thankfully have worked through that time in my life as well as needing the pills. Even though on one attempt to get of the pill I tried to commit suicide and lost a lot off friends :( 

if ya want ya can send me a text or email Shantel, you know I am always ears  :-\