Susan's Place Transgender Resources

Lets get to know each other.
Lets let someone in.
Tell a truth about yourself,
And let the bonding begin.

Ill start:
Im shy when i first meet someone.
But im outgoing when i get to know you better.

I live for folklore. Some of my favourite beings are trolls, goblins, and all sorts of other more monstrous faeries (or whatever word one wants to use).

Jeesh EMO, this is a tough one. UH.................

I have a hard time making friends. Every time I was in social situations for some reason being a Paramedic I would be appointed baby sitter or designated driver while every one else had fun. Now I resent people who get to cut loose and have fun. When I do make friends though, they are life long and I would crawl over broken glass in a salt factory in hell on the 4th of July to help them. Totally loyal to a fault. ;)

Quote from: Jessica Merriman on January 11, 2014, 10:55:59 PM
Jeesh EMO, this is a tough one. UH.................

I have a hard time making friends. Every time I was in social situations for some reason being a Paramedic I would be appointed baby sitter or designated driver while every one else had fun. Now I resent people who get to cut loose and have fun. When I do make friends though, they are life long and I would crawl over broken glass in a salt factory in hell on the 4th of July to help them. Totally loyal to a fault. ;)

If i had a license, id drive you everywhere. I dont drink.
But an odd tidbit. My bio dad fed me beer as an infant among other things.
I dont know him to this day.

I have beaten a Grandmaster in chess.

It was a non-timed simultaneous exhibition, 40 boards as I recall, but it was cool just the same.

Quote from: Emo on January 11, 2014, 11:05:05 PM
I dont know him to this day.

Scary, I don't know either one of mine also!  :o
I was a test tube baby. I had a womb with a view!  ;D

Quote from: Jessica Merriman on January 11, 2014, 11:09:30 PM
Scary, I don't know either one of mine also!  :o
I was a test tube baby. I had a womb with a view!  ;D

I was a three month preemie. The docs told my mom that I would be lucky to live past 18. But I am now in my mid-30s and I am still here.  :)

I don't drink either.
I like being melodramatic. It's fun.

Quote from: Edge on January 11, 2014, 11:12:04 PM
I don't drink either.
I like being melodramatic. It's fun.

Sarcasm?

Quote from: Jessica Merriman on January 11, 2014, 11:09:30 PM
Scary, I don't know either one of mine also!  :o
I was a test tube baby. I had a womb with a view!  ;D

It is a little known fact that the very first test-tube baby was born all covered in mold, and fungus, and bacteria.

Just goes to show you, "spare the rod, spoil the child."

Quote from: Emo on January 11, 2014, 11:17:06 PM
Sarcasm?

Nope. I draw the line at having a twirly mustache though.

I had my first surgery at age 11 months and was nearly killed in a car wreck on the way home from the hospital, dad hit a cow on the highway at 70mph.

Quote from: Edge on January 11, 2014, 11:21:21 PM
Nope. I draw the line at having a twirly mustache though.

Melodramatic means overeccentric tho... That doesnt sound like a nondrinker. Lol

Quote from: Emo on January 11, 2014, 11:24:41 PM
Melodramatic means overeccentric tho... That doesnt sound like a nondrinker. Lol

Not a drinker. I'm just naturally like this.

Quote from: Nikko on January 11, 2014, 11:23:25 PM
I had my first surgery at age 11 months and was nearly killed in a car wreck on the way home from the hospital, dad hit a cow on the highway at 70mph.

Wow. I am glad you're alive. What happened to the cow?

Jamie, you're supposed to post something about yourself, silly.

Jessica, if you don't mind me asking, what's a test tube baby?

I am also glad you lived past 18, Laura.

Quote from: Nikko on January 11, 2014, 11:23:25 PM
I had my first surgery at age 11 months and was nearly killed in a car wreck on the way home from the hospital, dad hit a cow on the highway at 70mph.

2 questions...
1. Why was your dad driving over the limit with a baby in the car?
B. what was a cow doing on the highway?
Green. Im glad youre alive to tell us this.

Quote from: Edge on January 11, 2014, 11:27:58 PM
Not a drinker. I'm just naturally like this.

You dont seem over eccentric to me tho...

Quote from: Emo on January 11, 2014, 11:28:21 PM
2 questions...
1. Why was your dad driving over the limit with a baby in the car?
B. what was a cow doing on the highway?
Green. Im glad youre alive to tell us this.

LOL, Emo you crack me up all the time!

It was 1964, it was the limit at the time. But, my dad use to buy a six pack before every long drive and drink the whole way. It was the sixties, not uncommon then. Cows were always on the highway back then in rural America. Not so much now.

QuoteWow. I am glad you're alive. What happened to the cow?

It went to cow heaven.  :icon_sadblinky:

Quote from: Edge on January 11, 2014, 11:27:58 PM
I am also glad you lived past 18, Laura.

As am I. Especially in the last year or so since I corrected that one friggin annoying medical issue with the panic attacks and all that. NOW, if only I could have Portia Porcupine in a living, breathing form that talks.

Hmmmm....... :D

Quote from: Edge on January 11, 2014, 11:27:58 PM
Not a drinker. I'm just naturally like this.
Wow. I am glad you're alive. What happened to the cow?

Jamie, you're supposed to post something about yourself, silly.

Jessica, if you don't mind me asking, what's a test tube baby?

I am also glad you lived past 18, Laura.

I did - the chess post above

The test tube baby (in vitro fertalization) post was a joke in reply to JM.
A test tube baby is made from sperm and an egg mixed outside of the womb, and later implanted in the woman as a zygote.  There is no coitus involved.

Quote from: Nikko on January 11, 2014, 11:35:37 PM
LOL, Emo you crack me up all the time!

It was 1964, it was the limit at the time. But, my dad use to buy a six pack before every long drive and drink the whole way. It was the sixties, not uncommon then. Cows were always on the highway back then in rural America. Not so much now.

5 things...
Drinking before driving is bad
The limit has dropped significantly
Cows must be near extinct then
I cant think of a 5th thing.

Quote from: Emo on January 11, 2014, 11:30:01 PM
You dont seem over eccentric to me tho...

Wait. Whatever can be expressed through text will.

Quote from: Nikko on January 11, 2014, 11:35:37 PM
It went to cow heaven.

RIP cow

Quote from: Laura Squirrel on January 11, 2014, 11:36:37 PM
NOW, if only I could have Portia Porcupine in a living, breathing form that talks.

Hmmmm....... :D

... Genetic experimentation? We'll have to hide her from the ethics boards.

Quote from: Jamie D on January 11, 2014, 11:37:01 PM
I did - the chess post above

Oops. Sorry I missed that. That's really cool, Jamie.

I wish I could wear whatever I want every day without being judged or told it's not Halloween by goths, the hypocrites.

I'll bite, slightly, I had regression therapy to recall two lost years. I then found out why they had been professionally repressed.

Quote from: Edge on January 11, 2014, 11:43:01 PM
Genetic experimentation? We'll have to hide her from the ethics boards.

Hmmmmm *rubs her hands together* Hmmmmmm.

Quote from: Edge on January 11, 2014, 11:27:58 PM
Not a drinker. I'm just naturally like this.
Jessica, if you don't mind me asking, what's a test tube baby?

That was a joke. Test tube is clear, room with a view?
Really I was adopted. I have no idea who my parents were and everything about my adoption is sealed in the Governments red tape in Washington. All I know is my real last name. It is the one I use now and what it will be legally changed to when I change my name later, Merriman. The name Jessica came from a patient who died while I was working on her after a car crash. I found out later she did a lot of charity work and I thought her name should not die, but go on. My way of remembering her. :) Hope she doesn't mind.

Quote from: Laura Squirrel on January 11, 2014, 11:45:51 PM
Hmmmmm *rubs her hands together* Hmmmmmm.

I will let you know when I have access to a lab and funding. It will take several years though.

Quote from: Jessica Merriman on January 11, 2014, 11:47:14 PMThe name Jessica came from a patient who died while I was working on her after a car crash. I found out later she did a lot of charity work and I thought her name should not die, but go on. My way of remembering her. :) Hope she doesn't mind.

That's cool.

Quote from: Cindy on January 11, 2014, 11:44:48 PM
I'll bite, slightly, I had regression therapy to recall two lost years. I then found out why they had been professionally repressed.

Sometimes it is better not to know  :-\

The truth is I wanted to write something but turns out I'm not very interesting:/

Quote from: TiffanyT on January 11, 2014, 11:54:23 PM
The truth is I wanted to write something but turns out I'm not very interesting:/

Hey. HEY!
Come and play.
Im sure youre a blast.
So tell us something from your past.

Quote from: Jamie D on January 11, 2014, 11:52:57 PM
Sometimes it is better not to know  :-\

We both know that, but it has helped. I now know why my demons stalk me.

That has helped.

That and I bought BF earplugs!

Great big bear hug for Cindy.

Kia Ora,

I once made a living as a male impersonator..................

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uxHKEdaXhzo

Metta Zenda :)

Quote from: Anatta on January 12, 2014, 01:22:07 AM
Kia Ora,

I once made a living as a male impersonator..................

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uxHKEdaXhzo

Metta Zenda :)

New Zealand aways had employment issues :laugh:

Quote from: TiffanyT on January 11, 2014, 11:54:23 PM
The truth is I wanted to write something but turns out I'm not very interesting:/

Balderdash!  I know better.  You gave me some wonderful wine tasting recommendations.  That is a talent.

Quote from: Edge on January 12, 2014, 12:04:35 AM
Great big bear hug for Cindy.

I'm fine honey but thank you.

I'm not that person and she was very brave and very strong and left me a strength I draw on.

I'm cheeky and swear too much

I was in a 9.2 earthquake when I was 1 year old, only got a minor head injury.

I was one of the responding Medics to the Edmond Post Office shooting in Oklahoma where the term "Going Postal" was coined. :'(

I have fur, paws and whiskers.

I fear rejection...

Quote from: Emo on January 12, 2014, 09:16:21 AM
I fear rejection...

By who? You are so cute, smart and loveable! Not to mention, cute, smart and loveable! *giggles* :laugh:

I agree with Jessica.
I fear rejection, being invisible, and never being understood. Or I did. I think my current group of friends see me.

Quote from: Edge on January 12, 2014, 11:22:40 AM
I agree with Jessica.
I fear rejection, being invisible, and never being understood. Or I did. I think my current group of friends see me.

We see you baby and I for one am glad to have you in the family! You rock! ;D

I think I'm not fit for anyone's visual consumption. I feel like I'm not fit to be seen. And I have always felt this way no matter how attractive I was at the time. But now it's probably true.  :laugh: I know a lot of people think they're unattractive. But it's not that I think I'm unattractive per se. It's just that no matter what I do, I am never ready to be seen and should probably just become a hermit because I'm not fit to be around people.

Quote from: FA on January 12, 2014, 11:55:35 AM
I think I'm not fit for anyone's visual consumption. I feel like I'm not fit to be seen. And I have always felt this way no matter how attractive I was at the time. But now it's probably true.  :laugh: I know a lot of people think they're unattractive. But it's not that I think I'm unattractive per se. It's just that no matter what I do, I am never ready to be seen and should probably just become a hermit because I'm not fit to be around people.

DISCALIMER: This is not an attack.*giggle*

OK FA, I cowgirled up and posted mine, where's yours? I found acceptance looking like I do, so I am sure you will too beside, we are family. If anyone had a reason to be scared trust me, it was me. Now that I made my debut here I am feeling pretty fine and a little sassy almost!*giggle* :laugh: The "Show Yourselves" topic has bonded us in a way I have never experienced so far. It has been fun meeting the others. :)

I'm calling you out big guy! :P So I will see you on the "Show Yourselves" topic, right?

Quote from: FA on January 12, 2014, 11:55:35 AM
I think I'm not fit for anyone's visual consumption. I feel like I'm not fit to be seen. And I have always felt this way no matter how attractive I was at the time. But now it's probably true.  :laugh: I know a lot of people think they're unattractive. But it's not that I think I'm unattractive per se. It's just that no matter what I do, I am never ready to be seen and should probably just become a hermit because I'm not fit to be around people.

I'm sure that is your social anxiety behind that.   You look good :).

Quote from: Jessica Merriman on January 12, 2014, 11:10:25 AM
By who? You are so cute, smart and loveable! Not to mention, cute, smart and loveable! *giggles* :laugh:

by everyone.
As a kid i was rejected on my first day of kindergarten...

I chugged an entire fifth of Jack Daniels when I was 19. It almost killed me. I was sick for days.  :embarrassed:
(https://encrypted-tbn0.gstatic.com/images?q=tbn:ANd9GcS6US7pd5glI4RaJgsl1U6vpSAwlS9CPbjZWkh3IR45M9YRDNUX)

Quote from: JordanBlue on January 12, 2014, 12:35:51 PM
I chugged an entire fifth of Jack Daniels when I was 19. It almost killed me. I was sick for days.  :embarrassed:
(https://encrypted-tbn0.gstatic.com/images?q=tbn:ANd9GcS6US7pd5glI4RaJgsl1U6vpSAwlS9CPbjZWkh3IR45M9YRDNUX)

Hugs*
Glad youre alive.

Quote from: Emo on January 12, 2014, 12:32:46 PM
As a kid i was rejected on my first day of kindergarten...

Everyone is ding dong! ;D*giggle*

Quote from: JordanBlue on January 12, 2014, 12:35:51 PM
I chugged an entire fifth of Jack Daniels when I was 19. It almost killed me. I was sick for days.  :embarrassed:
(https://encrypted-tbn0.gstatic.com/images?q=tbn:ANd9GcS6US7pd5glI4RaJgsl1U6vpSAwlS9CPbjZWkh3IR45M9YRDNUX)

When I was 19, I chugged on a half gallon of Dark Eyes vodka (after already draining a half pint by myself). I remember when I threw up later that night, it sounded like a waterfall. I had the WORST headache the next day. I never drank such an absurd amount of booze ever again.

Quote from: Emo on January 12, 2014, 12:32:46 PM
by everyone.
As a kid i was rejected on my first day of kindergarten...

I got rejected by everyone too. Except not anymore (I hope)!
When I was twelve I was asked if I was a faerie.

Quote from: Edge on January 12, 2014, 12:48:39 PM
I got rejected by everyone too. Except not anymore (I hope)!
When I was twelve I was asked if I was a faerie.

I dont reject you!
I accept yoooouuuuu!!!

Quote from: Emo on January 12, 2014, 12:51:10 PM
I dont reject you!
I accept yoooouuuuu!!!

GREAT BIG BEAR HUG! I like bear hugs.

Quote from: Emo on January 12, 2014, 12:51:10 PM
I dont reject you!
I accept yoooouuuuu!!!

Same here baby!  :-* BEAR HUGS!  :icon_hug: :icon_hug: :icon_hug: :icon_hug: :icon_hug: :icon_hug: :icon_hug: :icon_hug: :icon_hug: :icon_hug:

Quote from: Edge on January 12, 2014, 12:52:10 PM
GREAT BIG BEAR HUG! I like bear hugs.

*HUGS*

The other day, I made some homemade split pea soup (sooo good).. however I don't think it agreed with my tummy. I was feeling sleepy afterwards and lied down on the couch with my pooch to take a nap. When I woke up a bit later, my gf asked me what I had fed my dog, cus she had been 'ripping them like crazy' (my dogs on a strictly dog food only diet cus she turns all table scraps into farts). I had to fess up that it was not my dog, but me that had been sleep farting.

Quote from: muffinpants on January 12, 2014, 01:13:42 PM
The other day, I made some homemade split pea soup (sooo good).. however I don't think it agreed with my tummy. I was feeling sleepy afterwards and lied down on the couch with my pooch to take a nap. When I woke up a bit later, my gf asked me what I had fed my dog, cus she had been 'ripping them like crazy' (my dogs on a strictly dog food only diet cus she turns all table scraps into farts). I had to fess up that it was not my dog, but me that had been sleep farting.

XD
I should make a TMI thread. Lol

Quote from: FA on January 12, 2014, 11:55:35 AM
I think I'm not fit for anyone's visual consumption. I feel like I'm not fit to be seen. And I have always felt this way no matter how attractive I was at the time. But now it's probably true.  :laugh: I know a lot of people think they're unattractive. But it's not that I think I'm unattractive per se. It's just that no matter what I do, I am never ready to be seen and should probably just become a hermit because I'm not fit to be around people.

Poop, poop, and more poop!  You are a studmuffin.

Quote from: Jessica Merriman on January 11, 2014, 11:47:14 PM

Quote from: Edge on January 11, 2014, 11:27:58 PM
Not a drinker. I'm just naturally like this.
Jessica, if you don't mind me asking, what's a test tube baby?

That was a joke. Test tube is clear, room with a view?
Really I was adopted. I have no idea who my parents were and everything about my adoption is sealed in the Governments red tape in Washington. All I know is my real last name. It is the one I use now and what it will be legally changed to when I change my name later, Merriman. The name Jessica came from a patient who died while I was working on her after a car crash. I found out later she did a lot of charity work and I thought her name should not die, but go on. My way of remembering her. :) Hope she doesn't mind.

awww! that is just so sweet!

Quote from: LordKAT on January 12, 2014, 05:02:00 AM
I have fur, paws and whiskers.

Hey this is the truth thread!  :laugh:

I had a crush on Ms. Morrison in first grade, she was our next door neighbor and my P.E. teacher at school. When she had us lie on the gym floor to do sit ups, I would find a place near her and then slide over and look up her skirt. What a perv!  ;)

Quote from: Anatta on January 12, 2014, 01:22:07 AM
Kia Ora,

I once made a living as a male impersonator..................

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uxHKEdaXhzo

Metta Zenda :)

Awesome performance Anatta! I had no idea you were that ancient!  :o

Sometimes I lie to myself to keep the peace.

Quote from: Gwynne on January 12, 2014, 03:56:56 PM
Sometimes I lie to myself to keep the peace.

Interesting. I've heard of lying to others to keep the peace (and even done it myself), but not lying yourself to keep the peace.

Quote from: FA on January 12, 2014, 04:02:00 PM
Interesting. I've heard of lying to others to keep the peace (and even done it myself), but not lying yourself to keep the peace.

The latter can make the former more palatable.

I love playing dumb. :p

Quote from: Gwynne on January 12, 2014, 03:56:56 PM
Sometimes I lie to myself to keep the peace.

Doesn't that just sum up some of the things I've done in the past! That's pretty deep, Gwynne.

Ok, a truth about me...I have really appalling communication skills that I've learned to hide behind a gruff, slightly unapproachable manner, but that has begun to change for the better since I finally came out.

I run from my problems instead of facing them head on...

Quote from: Gwynne on January 12, 2014, 04:05:11 PM

Quote from: FA on January 12, 2014, 04:02:00 PM
Interesting. I've heard of lying to others to keep the peace (and even done it myself), but not lying yourself to keep the peace.

The latter can make the former more palatable.

I agree with Joan. That is pretty deep. I guess we have to do what we have to do. Choose our battles.

<----- spunky and peppy on the outside...
Dark and hollow on the inside...

Quote from: FA on January 12, 2014, 03:20:21 PM
Hey this is the truth thread!  :laugh:

Tis truth, furry belly, whiskers also called beard and my paw covers are size 10.

As to rejected in kindergarten, I failed due to not socializing with the other girls.

I hold grudges forever. I still think of customers I dealt with 4 years ago who were rude, and I want to throttle them. I'm aware that this will probably take me to an early grave, but I've always been this way.

Heh. Me too.

I dont hold grudges.

Quote from: Emo on January 13, 2014, 06:02:39 PM
I dont hold grudges.

Neither do I. I give people an endless series of mulligans.

Quote from: Gwynne on January 13, 2014, 06:38:27 PM
Neither do I. I give people an endless series of mulligans.

Lol. I always forget what im angry about and when im reminded, i just dont care. :p

Life is too short to hold grudges!

I always tell people life is too short to hold grudges, and then hold lots of them myself :p

Quote from: Joan on January 13, 2014, 07:02:11 PM
I always tell people life is too short to hold grudges, and then hold lots of them myself :p

You know, I'm never forgiving you for saying that!  >:-)

Ich hab ein herz aus eis.

One of my goals is to live forever.

Quote from: Edge on January 13, 2014, 07:06:20 PM
Ich hab ein herz aus eis.

Nein, Sie leben nur in einem kalten Klima. :P

I cant take a compliment.
I either say nothing or flat out deny it.

Quote from: Gwynne on January 13, 2014, 07:04:39 PM
You know, I'm never forgiving you for saying that!  >:-)

Hey! Me neither! ;D

Quote from: Edge on January 13, 2014, 07:06:20 PM

One of my goals is to live forever.

I suppose if you can nail that one then you can have as many other goals as you like :D

Quote from: Emo on January 13, 2014, 07:10:22 PM
I cant take a compliment.
I either say nothing or flat out deny it.

You're a good person.

Quote from: Gwynne on January 13, 2014, 07:08:07 PM
Nein, Sie leben nur in einem kalten Klima. :P

That too, but why are you referring to me as "they?" Or are you referring to someone else as well.

Quote from: Edge on January 13, 2014, 07:14:39 PM
That too, but why are you referring to me as "they?" Or are you referring to someone else as well.

Isn't the capital letter Sie a polite form of du? German classes were a long time ago though...

Quote from: Gwynne on January 13, 2014, 07:11:28 PM
You're a good person.

No im not! Im a horrible horrible person! D':

Quote from: Joan on January 13, 2014, 07:16:22 PM
Isn't the capital letter Sie a polite form of du? German classes were a long time ago though...

that makes me feel better

I thought it was analogous to the tu/vous politeness convention.

Quote from: Emo on January 13, 2014, 07:16:45 PM
No im not! Im a horrible horrible person! D':

Wow. You really can't take a compliment. :P

Quote from: Gwynne on January 13, 2014, 07:20:08 PM
Wow. You really can't take a compliment. :P

I told you. : p

Quote from: Emo on January 13, 2014, 07:21:12 PM
I told you. : p

Fine then: reverse psychology.

You're a jerk.  >:-)

Quote from: Gwynne on January 13, 2014, 07:24:42 PM
Fine then: reverse psychology.

You're a jerk.  >:-)

Yeah, you totally suck.

Quote from: Joan on January 13, 2014, 07:16:22 PM
Isn't the capital letter Sie a polite form of du? German classes were a long time ago though...

Ah sorry. I'm not very far and I'm teaching myself. :P

Quote from: Emo on January 13, 2014, 07:16:45 PM
No im not! Im a horrible horrible person! D':

>:-) I challenge you to impress me with your evilness.

Quote from: Gwynne on January 13, 2014, 07:24:42 PM
Fine then: reverse psychology.

You're a jerk.  >:-)

Quote from: Laura Squirrel on January 13, 2014, 07:28:29 PM
Yeah, you totally suck.

...

:'(

Quote from: Emo on January 13, 2014, 07:34:46 PM
...

:'(

aww... now I feel guilty

*hug*

Quote from: Emo on January 13, 2014, 07:34:46 PM
...

:'(

I'm sorry. I was only kidding. :icon_bunch:

I wasn't. I still dare you to impress me with your so-called horribleness.
"I have a Ph.D. in horribleness."
"Is that the new catch phrase?"

Quote from: Edge on January 13, 2014, 07:42:09 PM
I wasn't. I still dare you to impress me with your so-called horribleness.

Umm... You smell...

Quote from: Emo on January 13, 2014, 07:43:52 PM
Umm... You smell...

Although you weren't referring to me, the truth is that I do in fact smell at the moment. Very long walk with a lot of snow trudging.

Quote from: Cindy on January 12, 2014, 01:24:15 AM
New Zealand aways had employment issues :laugh:

Kia Ora Cindy,

In NZ one tends to take whatever work's going  ;) ;D

Metta Zenda :)

OMG, did Gwynne and Laura just get played, or what?

Quote from: Emo on January 13, 2014, 07:43:52 PM
Umm... You smell...

That was laughable. Definitely not ELE material.

Quote from: FA on January 12, 2014, 03:42:29 PM
Awesome performance Anatta! I had no idea you were that ancient!  :o

Kia Ora FA,

Not really that old......just recycled a few times  ;) ;D

Metta Zenda :)

Quote from: Edge on January 13, 2014, 07:52:18 PM
That was laughable. Definitely not ELE material.

You smell bad?

Hmm. Yes, to be horrible, you're going to have to be much more horrible than that. Like Bad Horse or these guys.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QxJrjV4PNXA (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QxJrjV4PNXA)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0fyKVFZaIjE (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0fyKVFZaIjE)

Quote from: Jamie D on January 13, 2014, 07:46:51 PM
OMG, did Gwynne and Laura just get played, or what?

We hang our heads in shame, Laura, Portia, and I. :-\

Quote from: Edge on January 13, 2014, 07:57:37 PM
Hmm. Yes, to be horrible, you're going to have to be much more horrible than that. Like Bad Horse or this guy.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QxJrjV4PNXA (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QxJrjV4PNXA)

I slapped a manatee once...

Quote from: Emo on January 13, 2014, 07:59:31 PM
I slapped a manatee once...

Is that a euphemism?  :-\

Quote from: Gwynne on January 13, 2014, 07:58:11 PM
We hang our heads in shame, Laura, Portia, and I. :-\

Kathy stands back and laughs at the three of us. :D

Quote from: Gwynne on January 13, 2014, 08:00:51 PM
Is that a euphemism?  :-\

No why?

Ive come to realize my need to be female is enough to make me become healthy. Ive been drinking tea, eating fruits and just wanting to eat healthier over all in order to obtain bodily femininity.
Nothing else has given me the drive to do this.

Quote from: Emo on January 16, 2014, 11:21:39 AM
Ive come to realize my need to be female is enough to make me become healthy. Ive been drinking tea, eating fruits and just wanting to eat healthier over all in order to obtain bodily femininity.
Nothing else has given me the drive to do this.

Fruit gets all up in your grill with its fruitiness. Cold kicking it with hardcore gangsta fruititude.

Quote from: Laura Squirrel on January 16, 2014, 01:19:45 PM
Fruit gets all up in your grill with its fruitiness. Cold kicking it with hardcore gangsta fruititude.

Right after i posted this, i got mcdonalds...

Quote from: Emo on January 16, 2014, 01:22:31 PM
Right after i posted this, i got mcdonalds...

Ewwww. Not a fan of McD.

But my nutritional value for today's lunch was no better. I had nachos. :D BUT I did balance it out by having some raisins, a banana and some unsalted nuts afterwards.

I had some mint tea.

The truth is I had a very bizarre moment two hours ago. I was in a Dollar General store behind an older cis woman with very short white hair. We started a conversation in line and when we got to the register she got sir'd and I got maam'd. OMG it was hilarious! The poor guy at the register was totally FUBARed trying to apologize. She took it well though and we all ended up having a great laugh. Guess I am doing something right! *giggle* ;D Who says Full Time can't be fun. :)

Quote from: Jessica Merriman on January 16, 2014, 01:48:00 PM
The truth is I had a very bizarre moment two hours ago. I was in a Dollar General store behind an older cis woman with very short white hair. We started a conversation in line and when we got to the register she got sir'd and I got maam'd. OMG it was hilarious! The poor guy at the register was totally FUBARed trying to apologize. She took it well though and we all ended up having a great laugh. Guess I am doing something right! *giggle* ;D Who says Full Time can't be fun. :)

Thats so awesome.

I need to decide.

About what, I'm not sure.

Congrats jessica! That story made me laugh.

About me:

I'm super friendly and easygoing.
I love people but I am also very manipulative.
I find irony the epitome of humor.

AND

I love you guys because you are 100x more unique and interesting than the people in my everyday life. :>

Quote from: Jessica Merriman on January 16, 2014, 01:48:00 PM
The truth is I had a very bizarre moment two hours ago. I was in a Dollar General store behind an older cis woman with very short white hair. We started a conversation in line and when we got to the register she got sir'd and I got maam'd. OMG it was hilarious! The poor guy at the register was totally FUBARed trying to apologize. She took it well though and we all ended up having a great laugh. Guess I am doing something right! *giggle* ;D Who says Full Time can't be fun. :)

Wow, that's excellent lol.

Quote from: Jamie de la Rosa on January 26, 2014, 04:13:38 AM
I need to decide.

About what, I'm not sure.

Start by deciding what it is that you need to decide.

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When I was 16 I was hit by a car and "died."
Both of my legs were so destroyed and broken that the Dr.s considered amputation.  (they were really wrong, I am SO glad my bulldog of a sister was there to fend them off.)

After a day in and out of life I came back.  Things have been really strange ever since.

I feel nobody really cares for me, i'm shy if a certain person intimidates me but i'm okay if i feel safe with you. I over-think things, i'm self concious and have manic (with a capitol M) Depression.

Quote from: Donna Troy on February 08, 2014, 11:53:25 PM
I feel nobody really cares for me, i'm shy if a certain person intimidates me but i'm okay if i feel safe with you. I over-think things, i'm self concious and have manic (with a capitol M) Depression.

I care about you and i never met you. That should be worth something.

I really enjoyed Chinese food as far back as age 5 that I can remember.

I don't have secrets and don't really care who knows what about me. I care about what they'll do with the information, but also have an impulse problem when it comes to being social. I also don't consider anything personal and have to keep reminding myself that other people do.
I spent high school in and out of psych wards and on anti-psychotics and anti-depressants. I think spending so much a crucial part of my brain's development in places where people are open about serious stuff twisted the way I socialize because that became my normal while everyone else was learning normal normal social behaviour. It is currently still very difficult to try to act normal around people and I don't like it. Then again, I was a weird kid too, but that was because I liked fantasy and Shakespeare and stuff.
I have little to no patience for small talk and only engage it in out of politeness or because I don't know what to say.
I'm currently have feelings for an emotionally unstable, straight guy who would probably be very uncomfortable if he found out. This has brought back some of the issues I've struggled with before.
I not so secretly like it. Partially because, destructive and hurtful as it is, it does disguise itself as joy, but also for the same reason I don't like it: it is making me more unstable than usual and wreaking havoc with my mind. I wonder what it says about me that I love chaos even when it is causing me pain. I wonder if I naturally gravitate towards loving chaos or if it's kind of like stockholm syndrome. Or something. I'm probably not making sense.
I am almost completely incapable of caring about people and, quite obviously, I don't react well to caring about people. It doesn't change my behaviour since I like brains, puzzles, and people (they're interesting) and, quite honestly, it's best for other people if I don't care about them since, as mentioned above, caring about people tends to freak me and make me more unstable than usual.
I vary between thinking people would be put out if they find out I don't (can't) care about them and thinking they wouldn't want someone like me to care about them.
I wish I could be myself and hang trying to follow normal, social rules.

I like cheese.

I was reading memorizing and working out how to make cocktails before I was twelve.

I just read this whole thread

I was held back in first grade. They talked about a lot of issues, dyslexia being a big one. Really it's more dysgraphia which is troubles with writing. I also had problems with small motor skills so basic things like zippers, tying shoes, buttons, holding a pencil were super hard. I also had social issues. I adapted. I caught up

One of the best experiences in my life was seeing a wolf in the wild. No one else was with me.

I am very stubborn.

I do not hold grudges.

@ Jill F- What type of cheese?

@ christopher- Where did you see the wolf and what where you doing at the time?

I was born with sub aortic valve stenosis and have had two open heart surgeries, one at age 4 and the other at 10.

I have been on death watch in hospital twice. Doctors told my relatives both times I was not expected to live through the night. ???

Still here so I think they got it slightly wrong. I don't quit.
It was a very horrible and scary experience both times.

Even though I've lived in Australia all my life I don't have a typical "Aussie accent", I've had some people ask if I was from England...even a couple of English tourists I once chatted with. It's not a posh Brit accent or anything, just doesn't sound Australian.

Quote from: Ms Grace on April 26, 2014, 05:03:52 AM
Even though I've lived in Australia all my life I don't have a typical "Aussie accent", I've had some people ask if I was from England...even a couple of English tourists I once chatted with. It's not a posh Brit accent or anything, just doesn't sound Australian.

All in Sydney? I have noticed we do have a slight accent inflection on words depending on what state we come from. We also have different slang

True, I lived for about ten years in Perth as a kid...some it must've rubbed off on me!

I once spent a year living in three different states. (well two and our the Australia Capital Territory)

I flunked kindergarten when it was still just kindergarten. Go figure, my social skills weren't up to par.

Quote from: immortal gypsy on April 25, 2014, 10:07:01 PM

@ christopher- Where did you see the wolf and what where you doing at the time?

I was at Yellowstone. I was leaving but told myself I was going to take my time and drive the long way out. I saw a bunch of cars and a ranger parked alongside the road. Typical mayhem there but a bit more people and cameras so I stopped. There were 4 wolves running across a meadow. They got to the woods and everyone loaded up and started driving up to the next meadow. I got in my car too but I didn't really want to be in the crowds. As I was driving out there was a creek cut in the hillside. It was pretty and you could see a long ways up and animals, especially canines, tend to stop by the water so I stopped, got out and found a place to wait and watch.

I didn't see any wolves coming and then fairly near me a wolf poked his (or her) head up from over a log. I assume the others were also nearby but I never saw the others. The wolf hid again when it saw me. And then it would poke it's head out again. I was thinking of leaving anyway becuase I didn't want to stress the wolf and then a bison came by walking up the nearby road. traffic started backing up like crazy and the bison was waaaaaaaay too close to me so I got in the car and headed out.

I was maybe 100 feet away

Quote from: christopher on April 25, 2014, 09:44:57 PM
I just read this whole thread

I was held back in first grade. They talked about a lot of issues, dyslexia being a big one. Really it's more dysgraphia which is troubles with writing. I also had problems with small motor skills so basic things like zippers, tying shoes, buttons, holding a pencil were super hard. I also had social issues. I adapted. I caught up

One of the best experiences in my life was seeing a wolf in the wild. No one else was with me.

I am very stubborn.

I do not hold grudges.

Sounds a lot like my son. He has an Aspergers diagnosis, for better or for worse.

Felt different my whole life, unable to process it until recently. Tons of regrets like not trying in school. Not finishing college. Not finishing anything really. Completely unmotivated. If I were kicked out of my house, id probably just walk until I wasted away. I start so much but never finish. Hate my life even though I shouldn't complain. Used to deal pot for almost 5 years. Being high is about the only time I was able to stay happy. All good things must end. I have a dopamine deficiency. It's hard for me to get happy and stay happy. Underlying it all is just hopelessness and depression and the remnants of the happy individual I once was. Keep trucking for the hope that it'll get better. It always gets better right? Nope. It really doesn't. We just find better ways of dealing with it. Sorry for the depressing post. Maybe I should just keep to myself from now on.

I am one of the 41%.
Speaking of dopamine deficiency, that explains why I got seriously depressed on anti-psychotics. It got better for me, but that may be because I got off the anti-psychotics and anti-depressants, left my parents' house, learned some useful skills, and figured out what I value and who I really am.

I used to be a gold medal table-tennis athlete in my teen  ;D

I almost drowned in the bathtub when I was little. My baby walker tipped over when I rolled into the bathroom as the tub was filling up. Luckily my Mum saved me when I fell in. But, dont remember the incident but I have had a phobia of deep water ever since.

I am also very scared of butterflies.

We moved around a lot when I was growing up (before I was 10 the longest I stayed in any one area was about 12 months). We usually took the slow road to our destinations so I picked up some interesting stories growing up.  But moving around so much did make it harder to make friends even if you would move back into the same general area.  When I would tell some of these stories growing up people who didn't known my family would think I'm telling pork pies (lies), even I would struggle to believe half of them if I hadn't been there. Ask me if I would do it all again yes in a heartbeat

Quote from: Maia Lynne (Gwynne) on April 27, 2014, 03:14:36 PM
Sounds a lot like my son. He has an Aspergers diagnosis, for better or for worse.

A psych said I had that. That was when I was an adult. I don't even think that diagnosis existed when I was a kid.

Another truth... hmmm... I have never had noticeable hair under my arm pits. It just never grew there. That may change now that I started T.

I am an Army Brat. my Dad was in the army and we moved every 3 years. And, much to my dismay, I still move every few years. like a gypsy. Which just happens to be in my blood actually.

Quote from: Rainbow Brite on May 04, 2014, 04:08:15 AM
I am an Army Brat. my Dad was in the army and we moved every 3 years. And, much to my dismay, I still move every few years. like a gypsy. Which just happens to be in my blood actually.

Nothing wrong with being a bit of a gypsy. If we where all the same the world would start to get boring quite quickly. I find it dose have some advantages now and then.  If you don't mind me asking what causes you the dismay?

Quote from: immortal gypsy on May 04, 2014, 04:18:20 AM
Nothing wrong with being a bit of a gypsy. If we where all the same the world would start to get boring quite quickly. I find it dose have some advantages now and then.  If you don't mind me asking what causes you the dismay?

The fact that I don't move voluntarily.

 :( I'm sorry that would spoil it

The truth:
I am frightened.  I have been all my life.  Being transgendered and the lies deceit and pain I have scares the crap out if me.

the truth:

I am honest, about my self, to a fault. you ask i will tell it all.  But i am scared beyond belief of regection. and im living though that with my parents......

I spent many hours last night reading about the life of Robert Downey Jr. I'd always loved the Tony Stark character, but had no idea about Downey's own past (since I was too young when it was all going on). He's got quite the comeback story. And he's so articulate when he speaks about the problems he had and how he eventually overcame them. I've got to say, I have a lot of respect for him, and I think I have a new role model.

i have some beliefs : pink is a no-no color for me because I was born on Wed.(morning) , i dont cut my hair/nails on Wed., whenever I have surgery : I tend to do on Mon. or Fri. , and the list goes on lol  ;D

My grandad is. 1oo years old and I missed his birthday due to my dysphoria. I'm not out to him.

I never had a large groop of freind but the few I have, have always been close.
I play table top battle game calkled warhammer 4o,ooo. And don't do much socialising. I'm full time, but pre hrt. I can't shave within three days of eathother because I always cut myself, part of the reason for hardly getting out. But it is realy hard at time when I realise the severaty of the impact it has on my everyday life. Hate not being able to cross the road to the local store it realy is just over the road.

I'm very sarcasting and generaly quite funny.
I'm also a push over two. Eg, I can't say no to people. If a freind asked to borrow. Ten note and I only had a five, I'd borrow five to lend them ten.

I don't like upseting people, and I feel at time I'm actually and empath of somthing. If I see someone is upset, I feel sad even if I don't know them. I feel happiest when people are happy.

I do drink and had my first bar visit a Week after my seventeenth. I also started smoking at the same time.

At the moment I spent far too much time in my room. Its not big anougth for my, prison cells are bigger.

I think woman look better then men, but I'm sexually atracted to men.
I love shoes and weast money on shoes that just arnt practical.

I'm have no documented proff of any interlect.

I'm also romantic, eg little things mean so much to me :)

I should probably just think likes and intrest make it easeyer right. I'm posting this since I saw sombody say their trying to get to know me soooo.

Hobbies,
Gardening, cooking, Gaming.

Intrests, sci-fi and fantasy.

My life goal, is to work towards an education in socioiagy, psycology, poloticks. And get into activisme. I want to be openly trans, and help work towards a better tomorow.

Ok I'm done, this might turn into a reather boring auto biography

I use technology to its limited capabilities friends like to joke I'm stuck in the previous century. I generally know how it works I just don't need those options in my life.

I have no tattoos or piercings and have no intentions on getting any.

Quote from: Malachite on May 11, 2014, 03:01:54 AM
I have no tattoos or piercings and have no intentions on getting any.

Me, too. It would interfere with my awesome fur.

Quote from: LordKAT on May 11, 2014, 09:11:35 AM
Me, too. It would interfere with my awesome fur.

Plus, they don't go well with lavender in my opinion.

All I really want is a cute guy who will choke me and treat me like a slut...

Quote from: immortal gypsy on May 07, 2014, 06:54:58 AM
I use technology to its limited capabilities friends like to joke I'm stuck in the previous century. I generally know how it works I just don't need those options in my life.

meee tooo!

Hate it.  My friends tell me I'm like a 90 year old man.  My room mate yells at me and tells me I need to update things instead of just clicking "run this time"  Whatever.  When it stops working I'll update it.  Until then I'll leave things as they are. 

Quote from: GnomeKid on May 13, 2014, 11:51:20 PM
meee tooo!

Hate it.  My friends tell me I'm like a 90 year old man.  My room mate yells at me and tells me I need to update things instead of just clicking "run this time"  Whatever.  When it stops working I'll update it.  Until then I'll leave things as they are.

*gasp* Outdated tech users, I'm not alone! Tonight I charge my Zune with pride.

Weird/embarrassing secret hmm? I own a stuffed kangaroo collection.

I'm trying to keep my chin up. but inside I just want to give up.

I'm going to sound like a loser which i am;

"I Am A Real Nowhere Girl, Sitting In Her Nowhere Land, Making All Her Nowhere Plans For Nobody".

I'm really sick of people pretending most of my personality doesn't exist.

@GnomeKid & Handy

Do not fret my friends when a giant EMP goes off destroying all technology we will be part of the few who survive because we do not need all the fancy toys of the modern age. :icon_idea:
1)check on lab for status report on army of flying penguins, puffin dingos and flying wombats. (Never cross a wombat at night they look all cute and cuddely but can be very vicious)
2)Finish the building of my oubliette's. (If you help me take over the world I wont dispose of you but I will put you away so you can't do the same to me)
3)Fill them with treats to show what a benevolent tyrant I am. (If you like wine there will be goon, heavy metal you get rap, vegatarian mixed grill)
4)Reserch into building and launching a giant EMP bomb >:-)
Hey a girl has to have her hobbies, all I wish for my birthday is you to do is bow down and worship me. So who is with me.

This is something I have given serious thought about and have had discussions with friends. If I had the means the world would be in my grasp.  When I call friends the theme song to pinky and the brain comes up

I hate just about every thing about me. Im stuck in life, not just my transition in the inbetween world. being able to be both and none ant the same time, but also with work and family. I cant seam to get my feet under me to realy stand and streach to take those much needed steps forward.

I have a girlfriend and I like her, but sometimes wish I was alone because even if she is supportive, she makes me nervous the days I feel most dysphoric  :-\

I've wanted to delete my account here since the day I made it, but I didn't because I'm afraid I might gloss over how hard it was to transition. And no matter what healthy reasons people have for disappearing, it makes me sad when people do so. So I wander off for long periods sometimes, but I don't remove or anonymize my profile.

I have a kid in high school, and now I want to delete my account because I don't want to face teenage rejection all over again if they google me. I'm sickened by the thought that I might get jeered at when I go pick her up. It happened when she was younger, but it didn't bother me because it was just children. Somehow viciousness from teenagers still gets to me. I know it's selfish to care more about my own feelings in this than my child's, but she never seems to notice even blatant nastiness if it's just verbal.

I want to be honest and useful more than I want to be respected and accepted.

I have found that i have depression triggers from my childhood. My dad used to be really bad at verbal abuse. Hes calmed last i saw him but the words he spoke against me still hurt.

So far i havent seen my family in 4 - 5 months. My mom finally messaged me again today to tell me they moved. Im hoping theyre happy where they go.

I want to help the trans community by educating people on how we really feel and what we really go through.
I dont know how im going to do it or when ill stop being too lazy, but im hoping i can help a lot.

I am now about 4 months hrt. Im beginning to love my body in ways i didnt expect, and hate my body in ways i didnt expect. But everyone tells me im happier.

I want to go to this Japanese place in our mall just to be served by this beautiful lady.  She's probably in her mid 30's or early 40's and I think she has a child.  She kind of reminds me of Sailor Mars.  I want to buy something just to be served by her.  It would make me feel special to be served by this lady.