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Title: I feel like a lost puppy...short intro + hi
Post by: Samuel on January 26, 2014, 12:23:15 PM
Post by: Samuel on January 26, 2014, 12:23:15 PM
I have had a very confusing life, and am trying to finally make sense of it all. I was born cis-female. I spent most of my childhood as either a tomboy or bookish loner. In high school, I was determined not to be squashed in a box, and for a year or two actually dressed and passed as male. I experimented with guys and girls, never really sure about either one. 3 months before the end of my senior year, I ended up pregnant and unsurprisingly alone.
From there, I fell into femininist lesbian circles, and ended up in a 13 year ltr with a partner who transitioned ftm after 10 years of the relationship. We had two kids together, and I left the relationship, with the kids, after it turned terrifyingly abusive.
I am now on my own, and trying to sort out my own heart, and be who I really am. I have squashed myself for so long, I am not really sure who that is. I have been taking steps that make me happy, and am noticing that giving away all the dresses and feminine clothes, and girls shoes, and so on is making me happier and happier. I bought a compression shirt, and it wasn't the right fit and I was so crushed. But it made me feel like I am finally on the right path.
So I am here, looking for community and help and thoughts and advice from other people who have walked the road before me.
:icon_wave:
*being a nerdy rule-follower, I did read over the forum rules.
From there, I fell into femininist lesbian circles, and ended up in a 13 year ltr with a partner who transitioned ftm after 10 years of the relationship. We had two kids together, and I left the relationship, with the kids, after it turned terrifyingly abusive.
I am now on my own, and trying to sort out my own heart, and be who I really am. I have squashed myself for so long, I am not really sure who that is. I have been taking steps that make me happy, and am noticing that giving away all the dresses and feminine clothes, and girls shoes, and so on is making me happier and happier. I bought a compression shirt, and it wasn't the right fit and I was so crushed. But it made me feel like I am finally on the right path.
So I am here, looking for community and help and thoughts and advice from other people who have walked the road before me.
:icon_wave:
*being a nerdy rule-follower, I did read over the forum rules.
Title: Re: I feel like a lost puppy...short intro + hi
Post by: Jamie D on January 26, 2014, 01:16:15 PM
Post by: Jamie D on January 26, 2014, 01:16:15 PM
Thanks for going over the rules, Samuel. And I am glad you are here.
I am sorry about your difficult situation. You have had a tough road.
Hopefully, interacting with people here will help you get your feelings sorted out.
Welcome :)
I am sorry about your difficult situation. You have had a tough road.
Hopefully, interacting with people here will help you get your feelings sorted out.
Welcome :)
Title: Re: I feel like a lost puppy...short intro + hi
Post by: gennee on January 26, 2014, 02:03:12 PM
Post by: gennee on January 26, 2014, 02:03:12 PM
Welcome to Susan's, Samuel. I believe you're on the right path and closer to self-discovery than you realize. I pray this site will help you in your journey.
:)
:)
Title: Re: I feel like a lost puppy...short intro + hi
Post by: Samuel on January 26, 2014, 02:10:10 PM
Post by: Samuel on January 26, 2014, 02:10:10 PM
Quote from: gennee on January 26, 2014, 02:03:12 PM
Welcome to Susan's, Samuel. I believe you're on the right path and closer to self-discovery than you realize. I pray this site will help you in your journey.
:)
I sure hope you are right, and thank you both very much. It's hard jumping into a new place. Gennee, if that's you in the av, you have a lovely smile!
Title: Re: I feel like a lost puppy...short intro + hi
Post by: Jessica Merriman on January 26, 2014, 02:12:46 PM
Post by: Jessica Merriman on January 26, 2014, 02:12:46 PM
A big warm welcome to the family! I hope you enjoy your time with us and make many new friends. The moderators are great here and make sure we have a nice, safe place to learn and share. So glad to have you with us. :)
Title: Re: I feel like a lost puppy...short intro + hi
Post by: LordKAT on January 26, 2014, 03:07:54 PM
Post by: LordKAT on January 26, 2014, 03:07:54 PM
Hello Samuel, Welcome to Susan's. Lots here to read and many people to talk to.
Title: Re: I feel like a lost puppy...short intro + hi
Post by: Catherine Sarah on January 28, 2014, 09:56:56 PM
Post by: Catherine Sarah on January 28, 2014, 09:56:56 PM
Hi Samuel,
A big Aussie welcome to Susan's family. It's good of you to drop in and say "Hi". Hope you like it here, and you stay for a while.
There is a mountain of information, resources and friendship waiting for you here, you just need to jump in start talking and ask any question you like. You're quite safe here and we are very accepting.
Sorry to hear you had such a rough start to your journey. So please to know you are getting it back on track now. Pity I purged so early in my transition, we could have had a great wardrobe swap ;D.
Don't worry about finding the puppy, I'll send Cindy out looking for it in the bus while the rest of us get working on any of your questions. I hope we can be of help and friendship.
Looking forward to hearing more of your story in time to come, but in the meantime, be safe, well and happy.
Lotsa huggs
Catherine
A big Aussie welcome to Susan's family. It's good of you to drop in and say "Hi". Hope you like it here, and you stay for a while.
There is a mountain of information, resources and friendship waiting for you here, you just need to jump in start talking and ask any question you like. You're quite safe here and we are very accepting.
Sorry to hear you had such a rough start to your journey. So please to know you are getting it back on track now. Pity I purged so early in my transition, we could have had a great wardrobe swap ;D.
Don't worry about finding the puppy, I'll send Cindy out looking for it in the bus while the rest of us get working on any of your questions. I hope we can be of help and friendship.
Looking forward to hearing more of your story in time to come, but in the meantime, be safe, well and happy.
Lotsa huggs
Catherine