Community Conversation => Transgender talk => Topic started by: BeefxCake on January 26, 2014, 03:27:26 PM Return to Full Version
Title: updates/comingout etc
Post by: BeefxCake on January 26, 2014, 03:27:26 PM
Post by: BeefxCake on January 26, 2014, 03:27:26 PM
I like to post updates on what's happening around me, big news, small news etc. hope no one minds.
this week was a big week.
I came out to my boss. really, this was big. I've been crossdressing to work for a long while now ( I'm a highschool TA that teaches Cello and Bass to orchestra students.) I used to attend the school i'm working at. some of the kids know im trans because they're friends of mine from when iw as in high school, but i was always terrified to tell my teacher/boss. he's a very conservative repulican mormon man. he's striaght as an arrow and very religious. so you can see why iw as afraid of what he might think. well, I'm going to be starting t soon, less than a month and i realized, he's gonna figure this out eventually. my voice is gonna drop and im not going to look like a girl forever. so i figured, ok, let's tell him.
well we all know there isn't a method that exists that isn't awkward to come out to people. so i just sat down in front of facebook and told him. took him a while to respond but it suprised me how understanding and sympathetic he was. for one i can keep my job which is cool. but he bascially said im sorry you have to go through this, i can't even imagine what this must be like, just know i will probably always think of you as the young woman i got to teach.
i mean, he could have said something worse, this wasn't bad to me at all. yeah it sucks he won't see me as a man but hey it's not like the last 19 years of my life didn't happen, some people are gonna feel that way.
so woo get to keep my job. (im in arizona, technically i can get fired for stuff like this. )
also starting T in a month. which is GREAT
I thought i could put it off till may, i didn't know why guys were so eager to get ont eh stuff now im one of em. i can't wait till may there's no way. i get my T letter next therapy visit and then im on my way!
naming has been tough.
tried going by grey in class. it looks nice on paper but hearing it out loud from my professor it makes me cringe slightly, it's just not a natural sounding name to me. so i think I'll try Allen out. it's closer to my birthname, i think it'll be easier to gel with. mom and family approves of it, which is good. i think i realize if its not my birth name its going to take time to get used to, no matter what it is so...
went to a party yesterday where no one gave a rats butt i was trans. the couple guys there were all like oh we're the only guys in the room/ont he the trampoline/ at the party and then i was like hey, screw you, basically and then they just slunk me into their loop. there was a young girl there questioning herself outloud when we were all messing around saying things like i wonder sometimes if im a boy trapped in a girls body and im just like hey, it's not the worst that can happen to ya, you wouldn't be alone in that regard. i think , at least for me, before i came out you feel alone, like no one could possibly understand so maybe i helped in letting her know it wasn't wierd to think that, i don't know... i suck at advice.
anyway, hopefully by the end of the month, ill be well on my way to being out to everyone on facebook, i feel i have so much support and whoever doesn't want to be in that loop can gtfo.
this week was a big week.
I came out to my boss. really, this was big. I've been crossdressing to work for a long while now ( I'm a highschool TA that teaches Cello and Bass to orchestra students.) I used to attend the school i'm working at. some of the kids know im trans because they're friends of mine from when iw as in high school, but i was always terrified to tell my teacher/boss. he's a very conservative repulican mormon man. he's striaght as an arrow and very religious. so you can see why iw as afraid of what he might think. well, I'm going to be starting t soon, less than a month and i realized, he's gonna figure this out eventually. my voice is gonna drop and im not going to look like a girl forever. so i figured, ok, let's tell him.
well we all know there isn't a method that exists that isn't awkward to come out to people. so i just sat down in front of facebook and told him. took him a while to respond but it suprised me how understanding and sympathetic he was. for one i can keep my job which is cool. but he bascially said im sorry you have to go through this, i can't even imagine what this must be like, just know i will probably always think of you as the young woman i got to teach.
i mean, he could have said something worse, this wasn't bad to me at all. yeah it sucks he won't see me as a man but hey it's not like the last 19 years of my life didn't happen, some people are gonna feel that way.
so woo get to keep my job. (im in arizona, technically i can get fired for stuff like this. )
also starting T in a month. which is GREAT
I thought i could put it off till may, i didn't know why guys were so eager to get ont eh stuff now im one of em. i can't wait till may there's no way. i get my T letter next therapy visit and then im on my way!
naming has been tough.
tried going by grey in class. it looks nice on paper but hearing it out loud from my professor it makes me cringe slightly, it's just not a natural sounding name to me. so i think I'll try Allen out. it's closer to my birthname, i think it'll be easier to gel with. mom and family approves of it, which is good. i think i realize if its not my birth name its going to take time to get used to, no matter what it is so...
went to a party yesterday where no one gave a rats butt i was trans. the couple guys there were all like oh we're the only guys in the room/ont he the trampoline/ at the party and then i was like hey, screw you, basically and then they just slunk me into their loop. there was a young girl there questioning herself outloud when we were all messing around saying things like i wonder sometimes if im a boy trapped in a girls body and im just like hey, it's not the worst that can happen to ya, you wouldn't be alone in that regard. i think , at least for me, before i came out you feel alone, like no one could possibly understand so maybe i helped in letting her know it wasn't wierd to think that, i don't know... i suck at advice.
anyway, hopefully by the end of the month, ill be well on my way to being out to everyone on facebook, i feel i have so much support and whoever doesn't want to be in that loop can gtfo.