Susan's Place Transgender Resources

I am a first time poster in need of some advice and maybe some comfort. About 5 years ago (I was about 19), I started hormone therapy under medical supervision with a therapist. I was doing well for just under 3 years until I had to stop due to several reasons. Due to college, several jobs, parents divorcing, finances, etc it has been next to impossible for me to start therapy and hormones in the past 2 years. I have recently been feeling strong feelings of both doubt and disphoria. I do want to fully transition (I have been in "boy mode" for 2 years) and I hate being male with my very being. However, I cannot do anything medically for at least another 6-8 months at the soonest with a year being the most likely outcome. This is giving me anxiety and part of me wonders if waiting it out longer would even be worth it. The other half of my brain says I should start reacquiring a female wardrobe, give my hair a female style again, etc to get some feel good things happening in the meantime. I feel like I am going crazy, my head is spinning, and I think I'm rambling again so I will stop typing. Thank you for your feedback.

I think you should start looking around for a good Therapist to talk to about this. I'm sure a good one could help you understand yourself better.
Where are you located, are there any Trans support groups in the area? I would start by reconnecting with the community