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Title: Kinda' Weirded Out by Emotional Changes
Post by: Tori on February 03, 2014, 06:53:50 PM
Post by: Tori on February 03, 2014, 06:53:50 PM
Just when I thought I had the hang of the whole HRT thing, it has really thrown me for a loop. The last few days I have felt a disconnection from my self, and it is rather hard to explain.
I guess the jist of it is I am finding my new, feminine emotions, and it is humbling, thrilling and frightening all at the same time. I am vulnerable in ways I have never felt, and this may become the new norm. A few days ago I was just hit right between the eyes with the realization I am bi.
I am not complaining, much... except that it is all happening so fast I feel as if the rug has been pulled out from under me. My very self image is changing, and it is intense. I do not think I fully grasped this aspect of transition when I started.
I guess the jist of it is I am finding my new, feminine emotions, and it is humbling, thrilling and frightening all at the same time. I am vulnerable in ways I have never felt, and this may become the new norm. A few days ago I was just hit right between the eyes with the realization I am bi.
I am not complaining, much... except that it is all happening so fast I feel as if the rug has been pulled out from under me. My very self image is changing, and it is intense. I do not think I fully grasped this aspect of transition when I started.
Title: Re: Kinda' Weirded Out by Emotional Changes
Post by: stephaniec on February 03, 2014, 07:02:53 PM
Post by: stephaniec on February 03, 2014, 07:02:53 PM
It could be worse, you could of woke up and realized you were an Aardvark
Title: Re: Kinda' Weirded Out by Emotional Changes
Post by: Tori on February 03, 2014, 07:46:18 PM
Post by: Tori on February 03, 2014, 07:46:18 PM
I can always count on you to find a silver lining.
:)
:)
Title: Re: Kinda' Weirded Out by Emotional Changes
Post by: Tori on February 04, 2014, 02:12:54 PM
Post by: Tori on February 04, 2014, 02:12:54 PM
Things are better today.
I think I just took that emotional ride, from being low on E before a shot to very high E after. Female emotions will take some getting used to. I am not in Kansas anymore.
I think I just took that emotional ride, from being low on E before a shot to very high E after. Female emotions will take some getting used to. I am not in Kansas anymore.
Title: Re: Kinda' Weirded Out by Emotional Changes
Post by: EllieM on February 04, 2014, 04:14:48 PM
Post by: EllieM on February 04, 2014, 04:14:48 PM
Welcome to Camelot, Princess :)
Gotta tell ya, I had a few of those weepy girl days, expect I probably haven't seen that last of those either. But there you go. All in all, isn't it magic? Makes ME smile ;D
Title: Re: Kinda' Weirded Out by Emotional Changes
Post by: Tori on February 04, 2014, 05:00:48 PM
Post by: Tori on February 04, 2014, 05:00:48 PM
I dunno is if is magic. I know it works.
I have just been so giddy and positive lately, I kinda' freaked when I had a rough day.
Looking back, big stuff happened, some good and some bad.
1. Realized I was bi! That was just like a lightning bolt to the brain. I did not transition. A switch was flipped. Wild!
2. A former mentor of me and my friends decided to OD on heroin in the most public of ways.
3. I discovered I am allergic to estridiol valerate.
4. I went in for a hormone shot, I was running on empty, now I am running on full.
5. ...
6. Profit
I have just been so giddy and positive lately, I kinda' freaked when I had a rough day.
Looking back, big stuff happened, some good and some bad.
1. Realized I was bi! That was just like a lightning bolt to the brain. I did not transition. A switch was flipped. Wild!
2. A former mentor of me and my friends decided to OD on heroin in the most public of ways.
3. I discovered I am allergic to estridiol valerate.
4. I went in for a hormone shot, I was running on empty, now I am running on full.
5. ...
6. Profit