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Title: impossible reality
Post by: innainka on February 10, 2014, 06:38:36 PM
Post by: innainka on February 10, 2014, 06:38:36 PM
Even though we all are in the fight for justice, and tolerance for those bestowed with Nature's trans gift :) some do venture to the edge of sanity to bring this illusive reality of genuine representation and embodiment of woman's body and mind into every day reality.
From my own perspective, the impossible dream had turned into tangible life of a woman who once was Transgendered.
I do recognize that such understanding may not be as universal as I would expect, and for some, being transgender brings certain comfort and uniqueness, however in my eyes as well as every day experience, I could not settle for the middle ground but had to pursue entirety of being, entirety of embodiment of who I already was.
As I had imagined in childhood, laying down in my bed, ready to fall into a dream, I would see a girl, playing, being, engaging in life. She wasn't anything trans, yet she was a girl never the less.
A lot of life had passed until the moment I hoped would never come, and at that age my dream felt more like an impossible nightmare rather then beginning of a new, genuine life.
Yes, the force of truth was so strong that it won over the insecurities and perceived comfort of denial.
As I had set out to do the impossible, I also set out to end the string of lies, deceit, and pretends.
I had no idea what shall come of me, but somehow I never given to the gray reality, yet remained dreaming that impossible dream, that I shall finally allow her to guide my heart, and submit my ego and strive into her hands.
Well, impossible had come true and reality had surpassed wildest expectations.
Starting new life at 44 and now 3 years later living entirely and fulfilled.
Never give in to pain, power through toward your dream, regardless of how impossible it sounds, you and only you hold the power of the universe, and with truth and love at your side everything is possible!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
From my own perspective, the impossible dream had turned into tangible life of a woman who once was Transgendered.
I do recognize that such understanding may not be as universal as I would expect, and for some, being transgender brings certain comfort and uniqueness, however in my eyes as well as every day experience, I could not settle for the middle ground but had to pursue entirety of being, entirety of embodiment of who I already was.
As I had imagined in childhood, laying down in my bed, ready to fall into a dream, I would see a girl, playing, being, engaging in life. She wasn't anything trans, yet she was a girl never the less.
A lot of life had passed until the moment I hoped would never come, and at that age my dream felt more like an impossible nightmare rather then beginning of a new, genuine life.
Yes, the force of truth was so strong that it won over the insecurities and perceived comfort of denial.
As I had set out to do the impossible, I also set out to end the string of lies, deceit, and pretends.
I had no idea what shall come of me, but somehow I never given to the gray reality, yet remained dreaming that impossible dream, that I shall finally allow her to guide my heart, and submit my ego and strive into her hands.
Well, impossible had come true and reality had surpassed wildest expectations.
Starting new life at 44 and now 3 years later living entirely and fulfilled.
Never give in to pain, power through toward your dream, regardless of how impossible it sounds, you and only you hold the power of the universe, and with truth and love at your side everything is possible!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Title: Re: impossible reality
Post by: mrs izzy on February 10, 2014, 06:55:42 PM
Post by: mrs izzy on February 10, 2014, 06:55:42 PM
Innainka,
Great post.
Glad you took the time to share.
Isabell
Great post.
Glad you took the time to share.
Isabell
Title: Re: impossible reality
Post by: stephaniec on February 10, 2014, 06:56:39 PM
Post by: stephaniec on February 10, 2014, 06:56:39 PM
yes I'm hoping full time this summer and each day I feel more ready to jump in and join humanity
Title: Re: impossible reality
Post by: Danielle Sherry on February 12, 2014, 03:53:37 AM
Post by: Danielle Sherry on February 12, 2014, 03:53:37 AM
"Dream is destiny" from the opening minutes of Waking Life.
This world, and the universe it floats in, is made of non-localized quantum waves (as opposed to the solid matter we were always told it was) which responds and changes to bring about our desires (that which we feel most strongly about, greatest in strength being the emotion of love). For a full explanation see my posted works (Robot Dreams).
Kudos to you...
This world, and the universe it floats in, is made of non-localized quantum waves (as opposed to the solid matter we were always told it was) which responds and changes to bring about our desires (that which we feel most strongly about, greatest in strength being the emotion of love). For a full explanation see my posted works (Robot Dreams).
Kudos to you...
Title: Re: impossible reality
Post by: Catherine Sarah on February 12, 2014, 09:19:53 AM
Post by: Catherine Sarah on February 12, 2014, 09:19:53 AM
Welcome to the Fold, Innainka,
I'm soooooo glad you've found it. It's a reality that defies description. It's just a presence of knowing. I often refer it to the unimaginable reality. I never once thought it to be impossible, I just found it hard to imagine it. And I know why.
Of those that have gone before me and found what you speak of, I just had to borrow the belief they had in me to aspire to the same, until I took possession of it myself and made it a reality.
Thank you for sharing such a wonder.
Love
Catherine
I'm soooooo glad you've found it. It's a reality that defies description. It's just a presence of knowing. I often refer it to the unimaginable reality. I never once thought it to be impossible, I just found it hard to imagine it. And I know why.
Of those that have gone before me and found what you speak of, I just had to borrow the belief they had in me to aspire to the same, until I took possession of it myself and made it a reality.
Thank you for sharing such a wonder.
Love
Catherine