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Title: I'm back, after 2+ years!
Post by: findingreason on April 24, 2014, 09:35:00 PM
Post by: findingreason on April 24, 2014, 09:35:00 PM
I'm back, after 2+ years since my last post on this forum. ;D
I took a bit of a look around, and see a lot of new faces, and some familiar ones too. :)
I'm not exactly sure where to start, since this is a little bit of a reintroduction. But my life has changed in soooo many ways since the last time I frequented here. I'm living in a completely different region of the United States now for almost a year and a half, and have been doing reasonably well here so far. I'm also essentially engaged to an amazing person and will be getting married in a few years. :)
I have thought for the last year or two that I had it together on gender, and found resolve in living as male too. I've been doing well overall, despite many challenges I've been faced in living and working. Depression and anxiety can be issues, but I'm back in counseling again to handle them out. The thing that brings me back here is I have found myself having increasing periods where I am drawn towards gender-deviant activities again, and realized it hasn't fully gone away yet. I didn't really want to deal with it for a long time; thought I had closed the whole chapter on my life there with that and wanted NOTHING to do with it. But now I'm willing to explore, a bit more calmly with myself now than I was prior 2-6 years ago. I do not want to explore in an act of emotional desperation, or try to transition immediately. I just want to take my time now. I don't know what answers may come, but I think that I can give myself that room to explore for them, gently and with more love for myself as a human being. My SO is supportive of me and loves me regardless of what I end up doing, which I am eternally grateful for. In fact, she wants to help me out in exploration too. :)
So, I guess that's about all for now. :) More to come!
I took a bit of a look around, and see a lot of new faces, and some familiar ones too. :)
I'm not exactly sure where to start, since this is a little bit of a reintroduction. But my life has changed in soooo many ways since the last time I frequented here. I'm living in a completely different region of the United States now for almost a year and a half, and have been doing reasonably well here so far. I'm also essentially engaged to an amazing person and will be getting married in a few years. :)
I have thought for the last year or two that I had it together on gender, and found resolve in living as male too. I've been doing well overall, despite many challenges I've been faced in living and working. Depression and anxiety can be issues, but I'm back in counseling again to handle them out. The thing that brings me back here is I have found myself having increasing periods where I am drawn towards gender-deviant activities again, and realized it hasn't fully gone away yet. I didn't really want to deal with it for a long time; thought I had closed the whole chapter on my life there with that and wanted NOTHING to do with it. But now I'm willing to explore, a bit more calmly with myself now than I was prior 2-6 years ago. I do not want to explore in an act of emotional desperation, or try to transition immediately. I just want to take my time now. I don't know what answers may come, but I think that I can give myself that room to explore for them, gently and with more love for myself as a human being. My SO is supportive of me and loves me regardless of what I end up doing, which I am eternally grateful for. In fact, she wants to help me out in exploration too. :)
So, I guess that's about all for now. :) More to come!
Title: Re: I'm back, after 2+ years!
Post by: Jessica Merriman on April 24, 2014, 09:38:47 PM
Post by: Jessica Merriman on April 24, 2014, 09:38:47 PM
Well welcome back! I am glad you are approaching this issue with fresh eyes. I am glad to hear you are doing well! :)
Title: Re: I'm back, after 2+ years!
Post by: JulieBlair on April 24, 2014, 09:53:01 PM
Post by: JulieBlair on April 24, 2014, 09:53:01 PM
Hi, I'm one of those new faces. I look forward to getting to know you. Welcome back to the land of the hopeful lost.
Hugs,
Julie
Hugs,
Julie
Title: Re: I'm back, after 2+ years!
Post by: Hikari on April 24, 2014, 09:56:58 PM
Post by: Hikari on April 24, 2014, 09:56:58 PM
Welcome back, you might not remember me, but I do remember you at least a bit. I wish you luck in discovering what you seek.
Title: Re: I'm back, after 2+ years!
Post by: Miss_Bungle1991 on April 24, 2014, 10:00:41 PM
Post by: Miss_Bungle1991 on April 24, 2014, 10:00:41 PM
Hi! Long time, no see!
Title: Re: I'm back, after 2+ years!
Post by: alabamagirl on April 24, 2014, 10:13:19 PM
Post by: alabamagirl on April 24, 2014, 10:13:19 PM
Welcome back! It's good to meet you. :)
Title: Re: I'm back, after 2+ years!
Post by: JLT1 on April 24, 2014, 10:16:15 PM
Post by: JLT1 on April 24, 2014, 10:16:15 PM
Hi,
I read some of your old posts. I like you! Welcome back.
Hugs,
Jen
I read some of your old posts. I like you! Welcome back.
Hugs,
Jen
Title: Re: I'm back, after 2+ years!
Post by: Sephirah on April 24, 2014, 10:19:10 PM
Post by: Sephirah on April 24, 2014, 10:19:10 PM
*huge smile*
Welcome back, sweetie!
I was just wondering how you were and stuff a couple of weeks ago.
*megahugs*
Welcome back, sweetie!
I was just wondering how you were and stuff a couple of weeks ago.
*megahugs*
Title: Re: I'm back, after 2+ years!
Post by: Jennygirl on April 24, 2014, 10:33:01 PM
Post by: Jennygirl on April 24, 2014, 10:33:01 PM
Welcome back! Looking forward to getting to know you :)
Title: Re: I'm back, after 2+ years!
Post by: Cindy on April 24, 2014, 10:34:09 PM
Post by: Cindy on April 24, 2014, 10:34:09 PM
Hi!!!!
I was also thinking of you the other day.
Glad to see you back
I was also thinking of you the other day.
Glad to see you back
Title: Re: I'm back, after 2+ years!
Post by: LordKAT on April 25, 2014, 07:19:16 AM
Post by: LordKAT on April 25, 2014, 07:19:16 AM
I wondered what happened to you. Welcome back.
Title: Re: I'm back, after 2+ years!
Post by: Dianne on April 25, 2014, 05:28:48 PM
Post by: Dianne on April 25, 2014, 05:28:48 PM
I remember you. Welcome back!
Title: Re: I'm back, after 2+ years!
Post by: findingreason on April 26, 2014, 02:01:20 PM
Post by: findingreason on April 26, 2014, 02:01:20 PM
Thank you everyone :) I look forward to talking with everyone and sharing stories and support!