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Title: Hello and intro
Post by: jaywuff on May 18, 2014, 12:43:35 PM
Post by: jaywuff on May 18, 2014, 12:43:35 PM
hey all, Ive been lurking for a little bit and finally decided to sign up and join in.
Im Jay. I started seriously questioning whether i needed to transition or not about two years ago, and went through a mini mental breakdown. Im 23, a full time student, and i hold two part time jobs. Anyway... through my university's counseling center, I was able to find some help in coping with my new found transition options and was given some pointers on where to find resources in my area.
while i feel very ready to take the next steps in transitioning with testosterone, im kind of at an impasse. i am a hair away from graduating from uni, and am also a hair away from possibly starting my career (one that is heavily male dominated and also one that i was told i couldnt or shouldnt do because im a girl). i dont know what to do and all the anxiety that ive been able to pacify is flaring up yet again.
i also feel very alone in that i am chinese, and i havent met very many chinese or asian trans friends. there is a disconnect between my parents and i that i cant bridge, partly because i dont even know how to explain myself to them. im so paralyzed with fear. i came out to my mother (parents are divorced) as a lesbian when i was maybe 16 years old, and she had asked me if i was sure. and sure, i was sure. if i was a girl and i liked girls, what else was there to question? but then she asked me if i wanted to be a boy. and i lied and said no. mainly because i had finally found acceptance in the lesbian community and my brain didnt know how to deal with transgender topics. i didnt even know that transitioning was an option.
well that quickly turned into a wall of text. thank you for reading.
the community here seems to be amazing, and i hope ill be able to contribute to its greatness.
Im Jay. I started seriously questioning whether i needed to transition or not about two years ago, and went through a mini mental breakdown. Im 23, a full time student, and i hold two part time jobs. Anyway... through my university's counseling center, I was able to find some help in coping with my new found transition options and was given some pointers on where to find resources in my area.
while i feel very ready to take the next steps in transitioning with testosterone, im kind of at an impasse. i am a hair away from graduating from uni, and am also a hair away from possibly starting my career (one that is heavily male dominated and also one that i was told i couldnt or shouldnt do because im a girl). i dont know what to do and all the anxiety that ive been able to pacify is flaring up yet again.
i also feel very alone in that i am chinese, and i havent met very many chinese or asian trans friends. there is a disconnect between my parents and i that i cant bridge, partly because i dont even know how to explain myself to them. im so paralyzed with fear. i came out to my mother (parents are divorced) as a lesbian when i was maybe 16 years old, and she had asked me if i was sure. and sure, i was sure. if i was a girl and i liked girls, what else was there to question? but then she asked me if i wanted to be a boy. and i lied and said no. mainly because i had finally found acceptance in the lesbian community and my brain didnt know how to deal with transgender topics. i didnt even know that transitioning was an option.
well that quickly turned into a wall of text. thank you for reading.
the community here seems to be amazing, and i hope ill be able to contribute to its greatness.
Title: Re: Hello and intro
Post by: Jessica Merriman on May 18, 2014, 01:08:07 PM
Post by: Jessica Merriman on May 18, 2014, 01:08:07 PM
A big warm welcome to the family Jay! You have us for support now, so use us as often as you need to. Here is a BIG HUG :icon_hug: to officially welcome you and make you feel right at home! :)
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Title: Re: Hello and intro
Post by: LordKAT on May 18, 2014, 02:30:05 PM
Post by: LordKAT on May 18, 2014, 02:30:05 PM
Welcome to Susan's. I think you will do fine here.