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Title: reflections
Post by: Umiko on June 25, 2014, 05:04:14 PM
Post by: Umiko on June 25, 2014, 05:04:14 PM
dont think i've seen a thread like this so imma start one up. as i approach the final days until i can make a fresh start and restart my life, i seat back i and i start to reflect on what i have done, thought or felt. i felt down, i felt lonely, i felt cold and i felt like crying. i've been so low and to this day i have a hellstorm of emotions to deal with. but because of the advice, the hard truth and the pushing, i'm starting to realize that i can do it but i have to want it. like my signature, i must abandon my fears, turn and face foward to advance. i must never stop to give an inch. if i stop moving and retreat i will age and if i become afraid, i will die. i wil forge ahead my own path and choose happiness over despair.
what are the types of reflections you've had or are still having
what are the types of reflections you've had or are still having
Title: Re: reflections
Post by: AnneB on June 26, 2014, 07:55:35 PM
Post by: AnneB on June 26, 2014, 07:55:35 PM
Am I missing something here? Vampires, don't cast reflections (or sparkle), do they? ;)
All said in jest, to maybe make you smile, a bit. Being down, not knowing which way you are headed, or worse, know, or think you are headed in the wrong direction (<-- definitely me). You said, you are counting the day to begin again. Knowing your destination, is the first step.
(trigger warning)
Mine. I have no idea. You might have read, I have decided to revert, to keep my 30yr marriage and relationship with my family. I don't -have- a destination, the one that would seem likely now, is one I began running from. But like the dream (nightmare) I had this morning, I was driving, the wrong way, on an interstate. With no way to get on the other side, facing and dodging oncoming cars. every time I came to a turn-around in the median, there was a cop, and where there wasn't, the crossover, put me back on the wrong side. No destination. My journey, will ultimately break me down, kill me, emotionally, spiritually, not physically, I don't think.. but who knows.
The hard truth. Who is in me? How can I keep her locked in again? Buried, what took 55yrs to dig out, finally uncover. Reflections? Like a vampire, I will have none. I will shun all mirrors. I will not cast a shadow, My heart, and my mind will burn, like the Vulcan PahnFar, only it will not be to mate. It will be to fade, that is my reflection.
Why would I do this to myself? I don't honestly know. But my mate has been with me, for more time, than I have been without her. Would there come a time, I would just, stop hiding? Probably, but I hope, when that day comes, I die the very next day.
All said in jest, to maybe make you smile, a bit. Being down, not knowing which way you are headed, or worse, know, or think you are headed in the wrong direction (<-- definitely me). You said, you are counting the day to begin again. Knowing your destination, is the first step.
(trigger warning)
Mine. I have no idea. You might have read, I have decided to revert, to keep my 30yr marriage and relationship with my family. I don't -have- a destination, the one that would seem likely now, is one I began running from. But like the dream (nightmare) I had this morning, I was driving, the wrong way, on an interstate. With no way to get on the other side, facing and dodging oncoming cars. every time I came to a turn-around in the median, there was a cop, and where there wasn't, the crossover, put me back on the wrong side. No destination. My journey, will ultimately break me down, kill me, emotionally, spiritually, not physically, I don't think.. but who knows.
The hard truth. Who is in me? How can I keep her locked in again? Buried, what took 55yrs to dig out, finally uncover. Reflections? Like a vampire, I will have none. I will shun all mirrors. I will not cast a shadow, My heart, and my mind will burn, like the Vulcan PahnFar, only it will not be to mate. It will be to fade, that is my reflection.
Why would I do this to myself? I don't honestly know. But my mate has been with me, for more time, than I have been without her. Would there come a time, I would just, stop hiding? Probably, but I hope, when that day comes, I die the very next day.
Title: Re: reflections
Post by: Umiko on June 26, 2014, 08:04:57 PM
Post by: Umiko on June 26, 2014, 08:04:57 PM
Quote from: Paula Christine on June 26, 2014, 07:55:35 PMunfortunately as the queen of vampires, i take on all my childrens burdens thus what is reflected is the pain of a million dead souls.
Am I missing something here? Vampires, don't cast reflections (or sparkle), do they? ;)