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Today, I go in for spinal surgery again, I am depressed and scared, I had spinal surgery in December, 6 months ago, I'm going in because 2 more disc's burst, I obeyed the rules that I was given, I stayed within my restrictions, but this happened,
So wish me luck, I really didn't want to be bed bound for 3 weeks again so soon, ...... I think I'm going to cry before I go in, I have an hour before I have to leave....  :icon_cry: :(

Good luck - I really hope it all works out for you. Speedy recovery! :)

:'( sorry to hear that, hope everything goes well for you!

Calico

Hope it goes well and you have a full and speedy recovery

Aisla

Yes really speedy recovery calico. Having watched spinal surgery and worked with back pain patients I can understand your concerns. Big hugs (well delicate ones)

I wish you more than luck. Hopefully this surgery will last a lot longer.

 :(

Wishing you well, and hope the surgery is successful! :icon_bunch:

*gentle hugs*

You'll be in my thoughts. Hope things go well and that this will be the last surgery you'll have to have for a long time.

My very best wishes for success and a quick recovery dear! (((Hugs)))

I recall some time back when she admitted using opiates and was afraid of being addicted. At the time she hadn't gone into a lot of detail as to the reason and some of us became rather preachy to her, I regret that I wasn't aware of the extent of her health problem at the time and now it all makes sense. This comes from Calico, some of you may wish to send her a little TLC as her quality of life is waning due to an aggressive degenerating spinal disease. She's only 34 years old and it seems that life for her has been very unfair and stressful.

"I've been admited but don't know how long, I'm on the 4th floor room (4422 edit) of Hillcrest Medical Center 1120 South Utica Avenue Tulsa, Ok 74104  if anyone wants to send flowers. Please ask for my name at admissions, Calico is my online name only.

With Love
Calico"

While I have a moment of consciousness I wanted to thank everyone who has been praying and wishing me warm thoughts including those who don't post it.  This is a second  surgery since December, I truly can not express what I want to say as there are no words that I can think of for the love and support all of you have given there is no measure of gratitude I can express.
I've said it before but I'll say it again, thank you, and I love each and everyone, and though my health seems to be in a bad spot I will not give up to it this disease will not take me down........... It's just not my style.

Calico

Great news. I hope that you feel better and better

Aisla

Hugs Honey, get well soon

Quote from: calico on July 19, 2014, 06:11:01 PM
I am making a quick updat, something very bad happend . At 2 or 230 I crashed. Full on all sense crashed I.e stopped breathing. I am talking you so you can tell others who care. Pickachoo I don't know if it's spelled right Cindy Susan Alaina etc I'm on 6th floor icu room 6420 same hospital.

Got this from Calico this afternoon, she's not doing well as I'm sure anyone can tell, keep her in your thoughts and prayers, she's a sweet gal who's drawn the short straws of life so far.

Shantel

Many thanks for this - our thoughts and prayers are with Calico.

Aisla

Hope she does better soon! Lots of love and prayers to her!:)

Get well soon, Calico.

Thank you for keeping us updated, Shan. She's in my thoughts and prayers.

Calico I'm there with you in spirit, because I can't be there in person. Please know you have all my best wishes and hopes for a successful surgery and quick recovery. Here's some cyber hugs and flowers to hopefully show you how much you matter to me and many others. I'm sorry they're not the real thing. :icon_hug: :icon_bunch: :icon_bunch: :icon_bunch: :icon_bunch: :icon_hug:

All my hopes.

Allie :icon_flower:

Hopefully she recovers; and is in the best possible place for that.
Fingers crossed and energy sending.

I tried to skype her last night.

Oh dear Sis get well soon

Cal:

My thoughts and prayers are with you.  I pray that you will have a good recovery and be with us soon.

Please take care and know that we are all with you in spirit.

-Sandy

I don't think I've ever looked in this part of the forum, but I learned about you from a PM from somebody. I'm in the hospital as well but not in near as serious of condition as you are. My best vibes are coming your way. Please get through this. I'll keep you in my thoughts, sweetheart.

Hang in there Calico. I am trying my best to be there early this week. I will call before and not cause you any issue's though. Praying for the best! 

Calico, my thoughts are with you.

Take care and get well

Hey Calico,

We haven't spoken in a while and I've missed that.  I got bogged down in my own transition and in my own little world. But I did make some progress. I had FFS with Dr Z on May 1.  I have changed my name and am now legally and  I have been full time me for over month. (I posted before and after pictures here on Susan's.) But we should have talked.

You are the strongest woman I have ever known and you are one of very few I look up to. You have been through so much.  Don't let this get you down. You hang in there.  I shall be praying.

I'll call around noon tomorrow.

Until then.. HUGS!!!

Jen

Hi,

We don't know each other yet but I wanted to send some healing thoughts your way. People here clearly care about you. Keep updating us when you comfortably can.

Hey hun I hope your feeling a little better today. If you feel up to it, chime in and let us know how your doing. And please know that I and many others here are there with you in spirit. Get well hun. :icon_bunch: :icon_bunch:

Hugs :icon_hug:
Allie :icon_flower:

I'm really sorry to hear all that :(
I hope things certainly get better for you. I know we're strangers to each other, but if you ever wanna talk about anything, I welcome you to send me a message:)
*hug* get well soon

Hey Calico ... I just learned about you from very caring people.

I am thinking about you. Please check in when you can. Let's get through this all together. Alright babe?

Evelyn

Hey, everyone. I've just been chatting a bit with Calico via text, and so I wanted to let everyone know she's okay. Just feeling a bit weak right now. Keep sending love and prayers her way, alright?

Thank you everyone,  for the warm wishes, prayers and thoughts.  And all the notes of encouragement,  I wish I could have been a bit better to be able to see them sooner and to reply,.  I am taken back a little,  and am crying a little as I read posts and messages that I haven't opened since I have been gone every es love here has truly touched me,  and is giving me strength to be able to continue to fight,  while I am now home I am still not 100% and I don't know how long it will take. The surgery was suppose to be a simple 2 level discectomy,  the Dr ended up having to go in further because of the damage and because of my breathing after the surgery he decided to admit me,  it was suppose to be a day to just make sure, unfortunately because of my multiple medical conditions and other factors some additional issues surfaces and quickly became a fight for my life, as I crashed on Saturday. I was saved and placed into icu and once the danger was clear and I was stabilized they moved me back.  I was released finally yesterday,  and while I have been released I am still recovering.  I am not going to lie,  I wish I could be doing better, but it seems me and my body don't totally agree, and while I am struggling I am not giving up. 
Thank you everyone, you have my love and gratitude, the motivation everyone has gave has given me strength to keep fighting and not give up.  With tears,  thank you all so much.

Best wishes for a swift recovery  :icon_bunch:

Very Gentle Hugs

I am really glad that everyone has rallied and responded because I had initially felt that your original post was lost to most having been posted in general discussion and the title "Today" was not terribly eye catching, glad others picked up on it because when one of us is hurting so much we all want to know and be responsive and supportive as possible. Here's hoping for continued recovery Sweetie!

Yay! Hope you continue to get stronger every day!!!;D

Sweetie you know how I feel about you. So I'll just wish you a speedy complication free recovery and give you my very best wishes. :icon_bunch: :icon_bunch:

Hugs :icon_hug:
Allie :icon_flower:

Great to know you are still with us calico. Relax now and recover well

I am sorry things have been so hard and am sending healing thoughts your way. Please keep us posted.

Everyone's responses truly humble me,  again thanks so much are in order,  as for an update.....  I slept all day, tried to walk just a lil,  lol its going to take a minute on walking, I want to say I'm better today,  but I have pretty much been resting.  It's all I time thing now I do believe, so one day at a time for now ::)

Hi Calico,
I've only just hit on this thread and wish to add my very, very best wished to those of others. You really have been dealt a difficult hand and I am deeply admirative of your courage in the face of so much adversity.
You mention how much you appreciate the responses you receive from many here but believe me, your own extraordinary attitude is also an inspiration to all of us who know a little about your story.
Take care sister, you'll come through!
Donna

Hey Calico
What is important when resting is laughter. So im glad 15" helped. And i was truly happy to see your reply. Hopefully the worst is over now.
Hugs from Dusit

Hugs Honey,

Glad you are finally home

Love

Cindy

Quote from: calico on July 25, 2014, 02:44:04 AM
Everyone's responses truly humble me,  again thanks so much are in order,  as for an update.....  I slept all day, tried to walk just a lil,  lol its going to take a minute on walking, I want to say I'm better today,  but I have pretty much been resting.  It's all I time thing now I do believe, so one day at a time for now ::)

Hey Calico, yeah, I like to live for the day, and then I'll see tomorrow. Like each day is a "day-tight compartment."

I learned this from reading Dale Carnegie's "How to Stop Worrying and Start Living"

Excerpt:

One of Dale Carnegie's principles for overcoming worry is to live in "day-tight compartments."  This term was first coined by Sir William Osler when he encountered this life-changing quote from Thomas Carlisle, "It is not our goal to see what lies dimly in the distance but to do what clearly lies at hand."

Dale Carnegie also said, "If you want to avoid worry, do what Sir William Osler did: Live in "day-tight compartments." Don't stew about the futures. Just live each day until bedtime."

So taking it easy, one-day-at-a-time is perfectly fine Calico.

Quote from: Evelyn K on July 25, 2014, 03:19:39 AM
Hey Calico, yeah, I like to live for the day, and then I'll see tomorrow. Like each day is a "day-tight compartment."

I learned this from reading Dale Carnegie's "How to Stop Worrying and Start Living"

Excerpt:

One of Dale Carnegie's principles for overcoming worry is to live in "day-tight compartments."  This term was first coined by Sir William Osler when he encountered this life-changing quote from Thomas Carlisle, "It is not our goal to see what lies dimly in the distance but to do what clearly lies at hand."

Dale Carnegie also said, "If you want to avoid worry, do what Sir William Osler did: Live in "day-tight compartments." Don't stew about the futures. Just live each day until bedtime."

So taking it easy, one-day-at-a-time is perfectly fine Calico.

Great advice for all of us really!

Quote from: Donna E on July 25, 2014, 02:58:58 AM
Hi Calico,
I've only just hit on this thread and wish to add my very, very best wished to those of others. You really have been dealt a difficult hand and I am deeply admirative of your courage in the face of so much adversity.
You mention how much you appreciate the responses you receive from many here but believe me, your own extraordinary attitude is also an inspiration to all of us who know a little about your story.
Take care sister, you'll come through!
Donna

I'm not sure how to answer this to be honest,  I guess I'm glad that I can help or be even a slight example even in some small way. 

Quote from: Evelyn K on July 25, 2014, 03:19:39 AM
Hey Calico, yeah, I like to live for the day, and then I'll see tomorrow. Like each day is a "day-tight compartment."

I learned this from reading Dale Carnegie's "How to Stop Worrying and Start Living"

Excerpt:

One of Dale Carnegie's principles for overcoming worry is to live in "day-tight compartments."  This term was first coined by Sir William Osler when he encountered this life-changing quote from Thomas Carlisle, "It is not our goal to see what lies dimly in the distance but to do what clearly lies at hand."

Dale Carnegie also said, "If you want to avoid worry, do what Sir William Osler did: Live in "day-tight compartments." Don't stew about the futures. Just live each day until bedtime."

So taking it easy, one-day-at-a-time is perfectly fine Calico.

Well put Evelyn,  I was once told something similar "always be mindful of the present, as the future has yet to happen, the past is to late to change, keep your eyes on the now as its what you can change at this moment"   I don't remember where I read or heard that but I agree with Shantel, definite good advice for most anyone.

Thanks again everyone  :icon_hug: :icon_hug: :icon_hug:

I'm glad to hear you're feeling better. Here's hoping for a quicker recovery.

I'm so happy to hear your home sweetie. As others have said, take it one day at a time and you'll be okay. I was very worried about you there for a while so, take care and get better. :icon_bunch:

Allie :icon_flower:

Living one day at a time makes life manageable.

The downside for me, every day is ground hog day... =)

Quote from: luna nyan on July 26, 2014, 07:13:23 AM
Living one day at a time makes life manageable.

The downside for me, every day is ground hog day... =)

Seems that way at times.... :icon_hug:

Quote from: luna nyan on July 26, 2014, 07:13:23 AM

The downside for me, every day is ground hog day... =)

Do you ever see the groundhog? :icon_lol:

Allie :icon_flower: