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Title: Nervous!
Post by: Ayden on July 19, 2014, 08:49:37 PM
Post by: Ayden on July 19, 2014, 08:49:37 PM
I leave in less than 24 hours for Florida. I'm really, really excited but at the same time I feel like I have a dozen butterflies rattling around inside my stomach. I have been having a really hard sleeping the last few days as well. I know it's totally normal to be nervous before surgery, but oh man... I was not expecting my brain to come up with some of the crazy "what ifs" that it has. I didnt know my brain was that much of a drama queen!
My friend who is meeting me down there asked me how I was doing. I think my response was appropriate:
☆*:.｡. o(≧▽≦)o .｡.:*☆
!?(･_･;?
☆*:.｡. o(≧▽≦)o .｡.:*☆
!?(･_･;?
。・゜・(ノД`)・゜・。
!?(･_･;?
And now I have to squeeze at least several million things into today. But, every time it gets overwhelming, I just remind myself that it's the last day here that I will ever wear this stupid binder. When I come back, I can throw away my sports bras and binders.
My friend who is meeting me down there asked me how I was doing. I think my response was appropriate:
☆*:.｡. o(≧▽≦)o .｡.:*☆
!?(･_･;?
☆*:.｡. o(≧▽≦)o .｡.:*☆
!?(･_･;?
。・゜・(ノД`)・゜・。
!?(･_･;?
And now I have to squeeze at least several million things into today. But, every time it gets overwhelming, I just remind myself that it's the last day here that I will ever wear this stupid binder. When I come back, I can throw away my sports bras and binders.
Title: Re: Nervous!
Post by: aleon515 on July 19, 2014, 10:42:24 PM
Post by: aleon515 on July 19, 2014, 10:42:24 PM
Exciting, scary nerve wracking!!! So psyched for you to become another clone buddy. :)
Your response looks like how I felt too. I had a hard time sleeping the day I left, the day before my pre-op, the day of surgery (also the day I got my bandages removed). Haha, well let me tell you you easily make up for lost sleep. I am totally NOT a drama queen, I am the least drama queen person you've ever met, and I was exactly the same.
Have a safe trip. Talk to us when you get there.
--Jay
Your response looks like how I felt too. I had a hard time sleeping the day I left, the day before my pre-op, the day of surgery (also the day I got my bandages removed). Haha, well let me tell you you easily make up for lost sleep. I am totally NOT a drama queen, I am the least drama queen person you've ever met, and I was exactly the same.
Have a safe trip. Talk to us when you get there.
--Jay
Title: Re: Nervous!
Post by: devention on July 20, 2014, 05:00:09 AM
Post by: devention on July 20, 2014, 05:00:09 AM
Good luck! I'm sure it'll go really well! And be a real relief when you get the bandages off, from what I've heard.
Congrats!
Congrats!
Title: Re: Nervous!
Post by: mm on July 20, 2014, 05:31:11 AM
Post by: mm on July 20, 2014, 05:31:11 AM
Ayden, congrats on getting to this point, you will sure appreciate having them gone. Let us know how everyone goes when they are gone for good. If your old sport bras and binders are in good shape you could find a good place to donate them as there are many guys who would appreciates getting them.
Title: Nervous!
Post by: Ayden on July 20, 2014, 09:08:14 AM
Post by: Ayden on July 20, 2014, 09:08:14 AM
Thanks guys. I've been trying to get to sleep for about two hours. I finally said fudge it and I'm taking a few minutes to just sit in the quiet. I keep thinking of the worst possible things that could happen. I can't wait for the anxiety to pass in the haze of international travel tomorrow.
mm: I have a few binders that are in decent shape and a few sports bras. I'm not sure how much it would cost sending them out of Japan, but I will post a notice in the gear section once I return home. Thanks for pointing that out, since two of the binders are in excellent shape, and one has never been worn.
Jay: I may be a clone but I'll be lucky to get scars as neat and thin as yours! Maybe you, Brett and me should start a Clone Club.
mm: I have a few binders that are in decent shape and a few sports bras. I'm not sure how much it would cost sending them out of Japan, but I will post a notice in the gear section once I return home. Thanks for pointing that out, since two of the binders are in excellent shape, and one has never been worn.
Jay: I may be a clone but I'll be lucky to get scars as neat and thin as yours! Maybe you, Brett and me should start a Clone Club.
Title: Re: Nervous!
Post by: Bombadil on July 20, 2014, 09:21:41 AM
Post by: Bombadil on July 20, 2014, 09:21:41 AM
Ayden, I am sending positive vibes to you for your surgery and recovery. I hope that will be me next spring and I know I'll be full of what ifs.
Title: Re: Nervous!
Post by: aleon515 on July 20, 2014, 07:43:19 PM
Post by: aleon515 on July 20, 2014, 07:43:19 PM
Quote from: Ayden on July 20, 2014, 09:08:14 AM
Thanks guys. I've been trying to get to sleep for about two hours. I finally said fudge it and I'm taking a few minutes to just sit in the quiet. I keep thinking of the worst possible things that could happen. I can't wait for the anxiety to pass in the haze of international travel tomorrow.
mm: I have a few binders that are in decent shape and a few sports bras. I'm not sure how much it would cost sending them out of Japan, but I will post a notice in the gear section once I return home. Thanks for pointing that out, since two of the binders are in excellent shape, and one has never been worn.
Jay: I may be a clone but I'll be lucky to get scars as neat and thin as yours! Maybe you, Brett and me should start a Clone Club.
Well I didn't sleep very much. You are not going to feel tired from lack of sleep after surgery so I'd just go with the flow. This is a tense and exciting time!
Yeah well Brett has better pecs than I do , so it all sort of works out in the grand clone scheme of things. :)
--Jay
Title: Re: Nervous!
Post by: Bimmer Guy on July 20, 2014, 11:24:41 PM
Post by: Bimmer Guy on July 20, 2014, 11:24:41 PM
Hey, guy, you're gonna do fantastic!!!
No worries!!! :)
No worries!!! :)
Title: Re: Nervous!
Post by: padawanloser on July 21, 2014, 12:42:30 AM
Post by: padawanloser on July 21, 2014, 12:42:30 AM
Oh wow, good luck!! Just keep your eye on the prize and think of how awesome it'll be to finally be flat chested! :D