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Title: H..Hi..*Shy wave*
Post by: Sushifruit on July 31, 2014, 11:51:18 AM
Post by: Sushifruit on July 31, 2014, 11:51:18 AM
Hello all
I'm Zack, a Pansexual with Masculine lean FtM. This is honestly a very recent discovery for me, though looking back there are a LOT of clues to the contrary.
I suppose I should start at the beginning and move forward.
When I was young I was scared to death of getting breasts, I actually attempted to remove them at one point. I was always boyish and hated wearing anything too girly (Though summer dresses were fun.) I kinda just coasted along like that for a long time, avoiding mirrors that showed anything below my neck and trying to keep away from mom's makeup and all the girly things she wanted to put me in. As I got older I got to puberty...and that was hell for me. I remember breaking down into sobbing tears every time the "time of month" was mentioned. When it finally happened...well lets just say I didn't come out of my room for a while. Every time it came and went I desperately prayed for it to go away or calm itself...so maybe I could get some peace. Well, I managed to get some reproductive issues from mom that silenced it for months at a time. In middle school I was constantly teased for being lesbian and manly, but it wasn't that I didn't like men, I just didn't approach them as I "Should". So fast forward to High School which was a complete blur, I remember little to none of it....and what I do remember sucked. Then in college I met my now boyfriend who at the time was still female. Now after 6 years (With him making progress on his for about a year) we are on this journey together. It's rough.
I know it'll get better though, now that I understand too.
Anyway, I suppose I came here for the support and understanding that I don't get at home...besides from Tyson.
Thank you very much for reading and feel free to ask any questions of me you like, I'm a pretty open book.
I'm Zack, a Pansexual with Masculine lean FtM. This is honestly a very recent discovery for me, though looking back there are a LOT of clues to the contrary.
I suppose I should start at the beginning and move forward.
When I was young I was scared to death of getting breasts, I actually attempted to remove them at one point. I was always boyish and hated wearing anything too girly (Though summer dresses were fun.) I kinda just coasted along like that for a long time, avoiding mirrors that showed anything below my neck and trying to keep away from mom's makeup and all the girly things she wanted to put me in. As I got older I got to puberty...and that was hell for me. I remember breaking down into sobbing tears every time the "time of month" was mentioned. When it finally happened...well lets just say I didn't come out of my room for a while. Every time it came and went I desperately prayed for it to go away or calm itself...so maybe I could get some peace. Well, I managed to get some reproductive issues from mom that silenced it for months at a time. In middle school I was constantly teased for being lesbian and manly, but it wasn't that I didn't like men, I just didn't approach them as I "Should". So fast forward to High School which was a complete blur, I remember little to none of it....and what I do remember sucked. Then in college I met my now boyfriend who at the time was still female. Now after 6 years (With him making progress on his for about a year) we are on this journey together. It's rough.
I know it'll get better though, now that I understand too.
Anyway, I suppose I came here for the support and understanding that I don't get at home...besides from Tyson.
Thank you very much for reading and feel free to ask any questions of me you like, I'm a pretty open book.
Title: Re: H..Hi..*Shy wave*
Post by: Jessica Merriman on July 31, 2014, 11:56:59 AM
Post by: Jessica Merriman on July 31, 2014, 11:56:59 AM
A big warm welcome to the family! :) We are happy to have you with us and hope you get a lot out of your time here with us. Relax, pull up a chair and dig right in! :)
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Title: Re: H..Hi..*Shy wave*
Post by: EllieM on July 31, 2014, 01:39:03 PM
Post by: EllieM on July 31, 2014, 01:39:03 PM
Hi Zack :) don't be shy!
oh yeah... and don't forget to tell Jessica that the Red River flows north into Lake Winnipeg :icon_hahano:
My best to Ty
Title: Re: H..Hi..*Shy wave*
Post by: traci_k on July 31, 2014, 02:01:53 PM
Post by: traci_k on July 31, 2014, 02:01:53 PM
Welcome to the family Zack - Glad you've found us. Hiope we can give you some of the support you need.
Title: Re: H..Hi..*Shy wave*
Post by: Jessica Merriman on July 31, 2014, 04:09:08 PM
Post by: Jessica Merriman on July 31, 2014, 04:09:08 PM
Quote from: EllieM on July 31, 2014, 01:39:03 PMCanadians! ::)
don't forget to tell Jessica that the Red River flows north into Lake Winnipeg
Title: Re: H..Hi..*Shy wave*
Post by: gennee on July 31, 2014, 04:55:21 PM
Post by: gennee on July 31, 2014, 04:55:21 PM
Hi Zack and welcome to Susan's. Feel free to share whatever is on your heart.
:)
:)